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A Cocksucker's Story



I am in my 50's now and happily married. This story begins in the early 70's. 
What I am writing is a true account of events as they happened to me as a 
young man. I was 19 and I had never had any homosexual contact or any 
desires or fantasies about it. I had a girlfriend I made love with regularly 
and it was great.



I was living by myself in an old cheap apartment in a bad neighborhood.. It 
was all I could afford at the time. Like many hot summer nights, I stupidly 
would take a walk around the neighborhood before going to bed. On one 
particular night, as I walked by an apartment building I saw an older man in 
his 60's sitting in front of a building. As I walked by him, he said hello 
and started chatting. Out of the blue, he invited me in for a drink. I told 
him no thanks, that I was just taking a walk. I continued walking for 
another block and decided it was time to go back. As I returned, I noticed 
that the man was still there. He once again asked me to come in and for some 
reason I said ok.



Once inside, he got me a beer and I sat on the sofa. He sat down next to me. 
We talked for awhile and I noticed his porn magazines on the table before 
us. They were of men with men! I had never seen anything like that and I 
started to look through them. He asked me if I liked looking at them and I 
said that they looked interesting. I now noticed that his penis was exposed 
and hard and he was stroking it. Without asking, he took my hand and placed 
it on his erection. I quickly pulled away and started to feel panicky. Now 
his hand was all over my crotch and my own cock got hard. In some kind of 
daze he gently led me from the living room into his dark bedroom and put me 
on his bed.



I was in a state of shock and felt like I was not even in control of myself. 
In the darkness I suddenly felt his cock brushing up against my lips as he 
told me to open my mouth - which I did. Suddenly his hard penis was in my 
mouth and he said "suck it". I did suck it. It was going in and out of my 
mouth as his hands undid my pants. Soon I was stripped naked and lying on 
his bed. He left the room for no more than 5 seconds and was now on top of 
me on the bed. I was rolled onto my stomach and within seconds I suddenly 
felt his cock pushing its way into my ass. I was shaking now as the pressure 
became stronger and was stinging my ass. All of a sudden - I knew that I had 
been penetrated. Tears welled up in my eyes as I felt his cock going deeper 
in me and starting to pump into me. This went on for awhile and I noticed 
that the pain had stopped. He fucked me harder with every stroke, and then I 
knew that he was going to shoot his semen into me. With some hard strokes 
and pumping he released spurt after spurt into my rectum and pulled out. I 
quickly dressed and within 5 minutes I had left without saying a word.



Once I was home I immediately sat on the toilet and expelled what had been 
shot into my rectum. I looked in the toilet and saw gobs of his white semen. 
I suddenly had a feeling of disgust and shame. I had just sucked a man's 
penis and allowed him to stretch my anus and be filled with cum! I must be a 
queer- I thought! I would never returned there again I promised myself.



I tried to blank this experience out but found that after a few days I was 
masturbating to the thought of what I had done. As these thoughts became 
more frequent, so did my urges. Then one night I decided that what I needed 
to do is have a man suck my penis! That would simply mean that I could be 
sucked by someone and he would be the queer! I had heard about gloryholes 
and adult bookstores and decided to try it. At the bookstore I went directly 
to the booths and as luck would have it - there it was..a hole in the wall! 
I pulled my pants down and began stroking my cock as I fed quarters into the 
machine. Soon I noticed a finger in the whole and then a mouth whispering to 
me "let me suck your cock". I stood and placed my cock into the hole and put 
my arms up against the wall. Suddenly my cock was engulfed by that mouth and 
my cock was being sucked furiously. It didn't take long before I shot my 
load. IT HAD FELT SO GOOD. I went home feeling totally satisfied knowing 
that I had filled some man's mouth with my cum. It had been so easy too. I 
knew I would be going back for more of that soon. I did go back several 
times in the following weeks. Each time getting a blowjob and leaving 
satisfied.



Then on one of my visits, things happened a little differently. I had gone 
into a booth and was stroking, waiting for a mouth to appear at the hole 
when suddenly a very long, thick black cock came through the hole! I felt 
panic again and was starting for the door of the booth when in came a man 
and told me to suck that black cock. He pushed me to my knees and began 
pushing my head toward that massive cock. I quietly said "no...I can't" and 
the man holding me said "yes you can and you will". I opened my mouth and 
took that cock in and sucked it. Before long it was twitching and I knew 
that soon the semen would shoot out. The man held my head in place and 
suddenly I felt hot spurts filling my mouth as I swallowed and swallowed 
again. "Good boy!" the man said as he released me and left the booth. I was 
angry for allowing myself to be used again and I was feeling nausea. I had 
just swallowed a man's sperm! I felt so dirty and disgusted. Once I was home 
I vomited and then fell into a deep sleep.



The strange thing is - I began to fantasize more now about sucking a penis 
and swallowing cum. I had intense orgasms beating off to these thoughts and 
realizing that maybe just maybe I was enjoying becoming a cocksucker. I 
decided that I would suck one more time just to see what it was like again. 
So with that in mind, I went back to the booths and willingly sucked another 
cock and I swallowed the cum. It was not so bad, I thought... actually, I 
kind of enjoy it. I was suddenly resigning myself to fact that maybe I AM a 
homo.



I am skipping ahead now because I did become a true cocksucker. I would now 
rarely put my own cock through the holes to be sucked. I now preferred being 
on my knees sucking cock after cock. Many nights I would return home after 
having sucked 5 or 6 times and have a belly full of cum. And then return the 
next night and do it all over again. I had made friends with the clerk and 
he allowed me to occupy a particular booth. Soon I was pretty popular and 
was sucking many guys off several times a week. I made an arrangement with 
my friend and would spend Saturday afternoons in my booth sucking cocks many 
times going home late at night having sucked and swallowed cum from 20 or 
more guys. I wanted to try getting fucked again, and before I knew it my ass 
was getting filled by cocks regularly. Sometimes I would have my pants off 
and just back up to the hole where cock after cock would fill my ass, 
sometimes not even moving from the hole one would finish in my ass only to 
be filled immediately by another.



I quit feeling bad about myself and being such a whore and decided to just 
enjoy it. Soon I discovered the joy of servicing everyone in the back rows 
of adult movie theaters. It was not uncommon for me to suck everyone off and 
get fucked repeatedly in the back row. I progressed to doing large groups, 
being photographed and putting on shows for anyone that wanted to. I began 
sucking cocks in cars, bathrooms, parks - anywhere.



Today, I have slowed down to almost no activity. Once in awhile I meet 
someone that wants me to suck cock and I do gladly. I have one person with 
an enormous cock that fucks me regularly. I like my life like this. Did I 
ever come out? No..I don't want to. After thousands of blowjobs and assfucks 
I'm still bi and love pussy but have a secret appetite for cocks and 
swallowing cum.



Someone told me many years ago - "there is no such thing as sucking cock one 
time". How true. So if you are thinking about it, just remember that even if 
you feel disgusted by having sucked that one cock..the day will come that 
you will want to do it again.



- a cocksucker








    

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