Perverts 'R' Us
The Final Battle 2: Inuyasha's New War - Ch07
By Danyealle ( fan-fiction, Inuyasha, nosex )
Chapter 7: Inuyasha's War
One battle for him had finally ended after more years than he cared to remember but for Inuyasha another war had just begun. A war within himself.
Because of his personality and mindset he could handle any physical battle out there as well as the physical consequences of it. No matter the cost to himself in injuries. The battles with Sesshomaru were something he could and did deal with. But now, he realized, the mental battle he was in with himself was something he didn't know how to deal with. It was as thought he was once again battling his brother but on a different field.
Somehow or other the youkai lord had managed to ensnare part of him and hold onto it during those two days he had spent in his company. Now, no matter what he did, he couldn't forget what his brother had done to him and how it felt. It was as if his mind and body both craved it like a drug, demanding more of it when he was in close contact with the Western Lord. It even reminded him on a regular basis that Sesshomaru had said that if he had wanted more all he had to do was ask for it. As of yet he hadn't, even though he wanted to, but he wasn't sure if he had the self control to keep denying what he so badly wanted.
Even though he had mated with Kagome because he wanted to and also because he loved her he had also thought that it would banish the want he felt for his brother since they had parted ways that morning.
For a while it had worked. The novelty of finally having the woman he had wanted for so long in his bed and doing with her all he had fantasized about for so many years had pushed aside the thoughts of Sesshomaru and what they had done. But, slowly and silently, those things had crept back into his mind like a quiet fog rolling in.
The more he explored the submissive side of himself, it had come as a pleasant shock to him just how dominate his quiet and shy mate was, with Kagome the more the thoughts of what his brother had done and what he wanted him to do came back to him. No matter how hard he tried to banish them the more he realized he couldn't. His body and mind craved what his brother had done and could do to him.
After Sesshomaru had joined up with them his mind took up a more traitorous bent. It seemed to delight in reminding him that for hanyou and youkai mating didn't always mean monogamy. Nor was it uncommon for them to have more than one mate. Of course it would then proffer up the question of what it would be like to have both Kagome and Sesshomaru dominate him. All of this got so bad at times that he wanted to slap his hands over his ears and scream for it to stop. It felt as though, at times, that both his body and mind were betraying him and that he was going insane.
If that part of the equation wasn't hard enough to deal with there was another part that was equally hard to deal with: he was afraid that his mate and pack would figure out he and Sesshomaru had been lovers. No, he knew the stoic lord would never let it slip nor would he ever say anything, hell he wouldn't ever say anything about it, even if tortured, but he was afraid they would figure it out. Realistically he knew he was being paranoid and that it wasn't rational but it was still a fear. What would they think if they did find out? How would it change their perspective of him? What would it do to the pack and his role in it? He didn't know the answers to those questions nor did he want to find out.
If his worries about the pack and his mate weren't enough there was something else that kept popping into his head: what the hell was Sesshomaru up to and what did he want?
Although he was no great expert on the Western Lord and his ways he also wasn't blind when it came to him either. Sesshomaru usually had a purpose or reason for everything he did. It wasn't like him to do something strictly for the pleasure of it. There had to be more to those two days than just sex. Let's face it; Sesshomaru could get all the sex he wanted, when he wanted so why do it with someone he professed to despise and who was of a species he equally loathed. But he was clueless as to what the youkai was plotting.
Ever since that tryst he had tried to think of a reason for it or a purpose behind it but nothing made sense. There really wasn't anything he or his pack had that Sesshomaru could want or that he couldn't attain elsewhere.