When it got late they began to get ready for bed. Grabbing her pajamas and toothpaste out of her pack, she was preparing to go take care of the usual before bedtime cleanings.
As Kagome knelt down, Sesshomaru could see the robe gape open slightly and part of a bare, long leg show. Of course that made him curious as to what she was or maybe wasn’t wearing under it. Before she could leave the room he caught her and wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling her back against him. Nuzzling her head, he gave a soft growl then asked, “What are you wearing under that robe?”
Blushing beet red, she shivered but managed to stammer out a soft, “Nothing.”
Growling softly, something immediately sprang to live and began to stiffen. Kissing her on top of the head, he said, “Come to bed like that.”
Blush deepening, she began to shake a bit but nodded and managed to stammer out a soft, “OK.”
Giving her a soft kiss, he then let her loose to take of what she needed. Once she was out of the room he put more wood on the fire. Then he stripped out of his own clothes and slid under the furs.
While she was brushing her teeth, she willed herself to calm down. The thought of sleeping naked next to him both scared and excited her. Yes, she wanted him as much as he wanted her. He actually sexually excited her more than any other man ever had in her life. She could feel her whole face and neck flush hot as she thought about how many times she had masturbated thinking about him.
Doing a more thorough job on her teeth than normal and brushing out her hair, she made sure she was as calm as she would get, although the butterflies in her stomach wouldn’t stop fluttering.
Gathering her stuff, she nervously made her way back into the other room. Noticing he was already in bed, the fluttering in her stomach intensified but she managed to put everything back in her bag without shaking too much. Walking over to the pallet she pulled her slippers off. Then, taking a deep breath and beginning to shake harder, she slid the robe off and slid under the furs, face flaming.
Wrapping his arms around her, he pulled her to his chest. Feeling her shake, he kissed her softly and stroked her back, starting that soft rumble in his chest that always seemed to sooth and calm her. He didn’t say anything, knowing it really wouldn’t do much good, so he just held her until he could feel her stop shaking.
When she seemed to have calmed a bit, he kissed her tenderly then said quietly, “I won’t hurt you, Kagome.”
Nodding, she replied “I know, I’m just nervous and a bit scared is all.” Her voice was a bit uneven and shaking slightly but she didn’t try to pull away from him.
“I understand.” He soothed. “I won’t do anything you don’t want. If you say stop, I will.”
Draping an arm over his side, she relaxed in his arms a bit then said quietly “Thank you.”
Kissing her again, he nuzzled her softly. Hoping to get her to relax a bit more he tried to find out what was making her the most nervous. If he knew what it was he could dispel her fears or at least calm them a bit. “What is frightening you the most, little one? Tell me and maybe I can put it to rest.”
Burying her face in his chest so she didn’t have to look at him, she muttered, “I’ve never done anything like this before.”
Stroking her back, he nuzzled her gently. He knew she was a virgin, her scent told him that, but he wasn’t sure how much she had done or how far she had gone with anyone before, so he wasn’t sure what she meant. “Haven’t done what, Kagome? What do you mean?”
Letting out a ragged breath, she blushed a bit then said, quietly, “Any of it. Before you no man had even really kissed me other than a peck on the cheek.” Shutting her eyes, she waited for his response, not sure what it would be. All she hoped was that he wouldn’t laugh at her.
Feeling her start to shake again, he held her tighter and kissed her on the temple. He could sense her anxiety about her admission and was pretty sure she was afraid of his reaction. Although he had a brief thought as to how much of a fool both Inuyasha and Kouga were for not even kissing the girl and, in his half-brother’s case, preferring something made of graveyard soil over what he was holding, the reaction of both himself and his beast was the same: pride and happiness. He would be her first and the only one she would ever know. His and his alone.
Trying to sooth her, he said with a voice both soft and even, “There is nothing wrong with that Kagome. In fact I’m pleased and honored that I’m your first for so much.”
Letting out the breath that she didn’t realize she was holding, she relaxed a bit.
OK, he now had a jumping-off point to work with. Now he just needed to know a few other things. “How much do you know about sex?” His assumption was that as intelligent and schooled as she was, she knew quite a bit but wanted to make sure.
Glad not to be looking at him and that he couldn't see her face, she turned beet red again then stammered out a soft, “A lot” before giving him the briefest of rundowns about sex-ed, what she had learned from books and talks with her friends.
A bit of relief washed over him. At least she knew the ‘basics’ and probably quite a bit more considering how advanced her society was. That also probably explained part of her fear. Unlike the under-educated she was probably well aware it could be painful the first time. “Are you afraid it’s going to hurt the first time?”
When he felt her nod vigorously he moved his hand to the back of her neck and began to massage it softly, trying to relax her. “I will be honest with you Kagome, the first time will most likely hurt. But how much will depend on a lot of things. It will never be my intent to hurt you, only to give you pleasure, so I will do everything I can to make sure it hurts as little as possible, alright?”
Nodding, she said, “Thanks,” softly.
For several minutes he just held her close and let her relax, so she could calm down more. Like everyone who knew her, he was well aware how modest and easily embarrassed she was. The next topic he was going to breach would most certainly do that so he wanted her as calm as he could get her before he went there.