Subject: FAQ - Kelly (Frequently Asked Questions) (nosex) By: Kelly Posted: August 3, 2010 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- !!!WARNING!!!! This file is a work of fiction containing sexually explicit material which may include depictions of underage, nonconsensual and unprotected sex as well as incest and adultery. It is not intended to implicate any person or action by them or me, nor advocate such practices. If you can't separate fantasy from reality, get professional help - FAST! The material is distributed as "For Adults Only" and possession by a minor is strictly forbidden. If you are not legally empowered to be in possession of this material, do not read it and delete it immediately. This work is copyrighted to the author ©2010. It may be posted to non-commercial "free" sites, or in the "free" area of commercial sites so long as no changes are made AND the author information is retained. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Summary: I have chatted and exchanged e-mails with hundreds of people and as you might imagine, I get asked many of the same questions over and over again. Not only does this become tedious, but some of my answers are hard to properly express in short Instant Messaging answers. Thus I decided to write up the complete answers to my most frequently asked questions (FAQ). This document is updated periodically as patterns emerge or I find that I’ve inadequately explained something. If you have any questions to suggest for me to add, please send them in an e- mail to me at pghpa_girl@yahoo.com. Table of Contents: Section 1 - About My Diary Section 2 - Sex In General Section 3 - Incest & Family Sex Section 4 - Underage Sex Section 5 - Home, School, & Church Section 6 - Personal Data ========================== SECTION 1 - ABOUT MY DIARY ========================== -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Why do you write and publish your diary? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- That is an excellent question so all you psychology majors and amateur analysts Will want to pay close attention. Like many young girls, I started keeping a diary after my mom gave me one for my twelfth birthday. At the start I filled it with all sorts silly things that most girls write about. It was only natural that as I got older I started including notes about my sex life. About half-way through my freshman year of college, I started chatting on-line with strangers who kept asking me the same questions about my sexual experiences and views. It was a pain typing the same stuff over and over, plus I always felt I was leaving out too many details and people were getting the wrong idea about me. So I started writing short stories about some of my experiences which I sent to people instead of re-writing them. Over time as I fleshed them out and included more details. Then I started chatting with a couple of men who wanted me to do things with them I’d never done before such as help them to cheat on their wives, have sex with their teenage kids, and so forth. Although I couldn't even imagine myself actually ever doing such things, we had some erotic chats about it and before I realized it, I found myself fantasizing about them as well. I wrote out several of those fantasies for them to read. I’d never written any adult fantasy stories before and I found myself getting horny as hell when I wrote them! Sometimes I even had to take a break and masturbate about the fantasy I was describing. If nothing else, it was a sure-fire way to beat writer’s block. It takes me a long time to write anything so I try to stick to events that have some significance to me - a "first time", something that affected me deeply emotionally, or to be honest, something I want to brag about. I enjoy the feedback I get when I publish them and it makes me feel a bit turned on knowing men and women are out there masturbating as they read about what I’ve done. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you have a MySpace or FaceBook page? Do you use Twitter? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Yes, I actually DO have my own MySpace and FaceBook pages, and yes, I DO use Twitter – although not nearly as much as my cousin Tammy. The key is you’ll never find them with me as this "Kelly". I also chat a lot but as the “real” me, not this "Kelly". My real personal pages are closed to everyone but my friends - the ones who know my real name. Remember, I DO have a real life where almost nobody knows about my dairy and I guard that side of my life with passion. After all, I can delete all of this today with no impact on my future but I can’t quit being who I really am. So if it’s a choice between maintaining the privacy of my “real” life” versus “Kelly”, you can guess which one wins every time! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Your early entries sound so mature and graphic and they flow too well to have been written by a fourteen year-old. Did you really write them? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Not when I was fourteen! Remember, I didn't even START writing this stuff until I was in college. While my diary stories are based on my actual dairy, it certainly doesn’t have all the details so I rely a lot on my memory. Frankly, I don't even know HOW to write as a young teenage girl again and I’m sure if I tried it would sound horribly fake. Periodically I go back and edit old stories to fix spelling and grammar errors as well as to add missing details. While I appreciate the people who compliment my writing style, keep in mind that I was also an excellent student (graduating from high school with a 4.0 and college with a 3.85) and now have a degree in Elementary Education so hopefully I CAN write better than most girls my age! I have gotten similar comments about the “interviews” I’ve posted with different members of my family. Someone once accused me of faking them because they somehow analyzed the writing styles and concluded the same person wrote them all. Well DUH! Of course the results would come out that way because the same person DID write them all - ME! You don’t think I just handed out a list of questions and asked them to write out the answers, do you? The “interviews” were actually a collection of things I’ve discussed and used the interview format to make it easier to write. Like me being in my early teenage years, I can’t write exactly the way my Aunt Linda talks so I just don’t worry about trying to fake it. Finally, I’ve always readily admitted that NONE of my stories are 100% accurate. The older the occasion, the harder it gets to remember everything. Now before you say anything, let’s see you try to write about something that happened eight years ago and be 100% accurate. Even when I DO know the details, I often change little things to make it harder for people to figure out who I really am (and yes, I HAVE had people try to track me down!) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What is the meaning of the numbers you use in your file names? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- These let me sort my diary on my computer by date. A computer nerd I chatted with early on suggested I use a naming system where 20060705 is July 5, 2006 which allows them to be easily sorted in chronological order. It works... -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is there a sequence to your stories that they should be read in? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Nothing required, per se, although I highly recommend people read the ABOUT ME section first, especially the Frequently Asked Questions (FAQ) (yes, what you are reading now) as it answers most of the questions people ask me. After the ABOUT ME section, I would read the DIARY section in chronological order. I wrote my earlier stories to stand alone as I was submitting them randomly to various story sites and there was no link between them. After I started posted them on my own web site, I got complaints that the introductions were redundant so now I when I periodically edit them to fix typos and grammar I try to shorten the intros and assume people have read the earlier ones. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Are the people in your STORIES section real? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This may seem to be a cop-out of an answer, but why even ask such a silly question when no matter how I answer it, you’ve already made up your mind? The true answer is I have no idea although I have my suspicions. Without risking my own privacy, there is no way I can tell for sure as I’m not ever going to meet them, phone them, etc. so it’s just their e-mails and chats for me to go by. I will say I DO know for sure that some of them are who they say they are (don't ask, I’m not telling) but that still doesn’t mean what they tell me is true. When possible I post their e-mail address with the story so why not just e-mail them and ask them yourself? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Why not post articles written by other members of your family or at least written from their point of view? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Unfortunately, at least for people like you, they don’t want to write them. I am considered the “weird” one in the family when it comes to all this so while they all tolerate my little obsession, none of them share it so don’t look for anything written by them for my web site. Writing anything from someone else’s perspective would make it a fantasy, even if it dealt with my Aunt, mom, etc. After all, how do I know what they’re really thinking or how they feel? My own fantasies are hard enough to write! ========================== SECTION 2 - SEX IN GENERAL ========================== -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- When did you first have sex? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I was fourteen my first time. It was during the summer before my freshman year of high school with Steve, the sixteen year-old brother of one of my girlfriends. It wasn't his first time which I think helped to make it a wonderful experience for me. Check out diary entry “19990802 Losing My Virginity” for all the details. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- How many men have you had sex with? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I have had one-one sex with dozens of different guys (see my sexual history although I quit updating it a few years ago). If you want to be really anal about it (no pun intended), a LOT more actual cocks have been inside my pussy than what is listed on my history page. Why the difference in numbers? Well, I've been to a number of parties where multiple guys fucked me plus a couple of bachelor parties where I was the "entertainment". It's hard to me to say I’ve had sex with a guy I never saw before and never even knew his name. Thus I use the lower number when asked how many guys I've been with. Now you know why I need a diary to keep track of things! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Are you bi? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Technically yes in that I enjoy having sex with men and women. That said, I prefer men as a dildo can never replace a real cock, giving boys a distinct and unfair advantage over girls. On the other hand, while boys are the best when it comes to meeting my physical needs, girls are far more satisfying emotionally. What I guess I’m trying to say is that with guys, it’s all about satisfying my PHYSICAL needs whereas with girls it’s more about dealing with my EMOTIONAL needs. If you look at my partners, most of the girls tend to be friends and family which just further emphasizes the emotional side of lesbian sex, at least so far as I am concerned. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You call yourself a slut. What's the difference between a slut and a whore? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- When a guy goes out with a whore he knows what he’s paid for and he expects to get it, no questions asked. With a slut, he may have hopes but not necessarily expectations as he can’t be positive how far she’ll really go. A whore can never tease like a slut because a guy knows with a whore he’s eventually going to get what he paid for whereas with a slut there’s always that question of will she or won’t she? Bottom line: Whores SELL their bodies to satisfy MEN, sluts USE their bodies to satisfy THEMSELVES. Thus I use the term “slut” as a compliment whereas many people use it as a slur so don’t get confused. When I want to put down a girl, I may call her a slut or a bitch but never a slut. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you have a boyfriend? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Actually I am. It may come as a surprise but it is Steve, my old boyfriend from my high school freshman days who was also the one to take my virginity. His mother got transferred in the middle of the school year and we sort of lost touch except when he got married a while back. Well, he is divorced now and back in the area and we have hooked up once again. So far... so good! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Does you boyfriend know about your private family life? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I just recently told him so it is still a little new for him. At the same time though, he told me about some things going on within his family as well so it wasn’t as much a shock to him as it might have been for some guys. I’d gotten a glimpse of that before they moved but this was the first time he confirmed anything. I’m not really sure what, if anything, will come out of it all. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What type of man are you looking for? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- There are a few things I look for in any guy – honesty above all else, open minded, polite, self-confident but not egotistical, self-supporting but he doesn't have to be rich, although I wouldn't complain. All ages of men have some redeeming properties. Younger ones of course have the staying power while older guys tend to be more considerate of my needs. In general I would lean to an older man given the choice, at least so far as dating goes. I would want to marry a guy about the same age as me, maybe a few years older at most. When it comes to just having fun and getting myself off, not to mention a great ego booster when you need one, I LOVE dating married men, especially older ones who haven't had another girl since they were married. Few things turn me more than knowing that I can turn a guy on so much that he is willing for the first time to break the most sacred vow he has ever taken just to be with me. Don't get the wrong idea, I have absolutely NO desire to break up or harm a marriage. I just want to have sex with him, not marry him. As I said earlier, it's a bit of an ego boost knowing that he is risking everything, betraying his wife and family, doing something he may regret for the rest of his life, just for those few minutes of pleasure he gets from fucking me. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you like it when men shave their crotch? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Before I answer that, let me say I love almost ALL men's crotches, so it comes down to a matter of preferences. I like bushy crotches the best - the more hair the better. I love to reach down inside of a guy's pants and run my fingers through his thick coarse pubic hair; then smell my fingers later to enjoy his musky scent. When I suck a man's cock I take pleasure in the feeling his pubic hair as it brushes against my face, especially when I take him all the way in my mouth and my face is buried in his crotch. Now as for the rest of him – shave it off guys! I don't like being seen on the beach with a gorilla. As for beards and mustaches – UGH! And what's with this two-day growth crap anyway? I mean, who the hell decided THAT was sexy? It just scratches so far as I am concerned, especially my thighs when he eats me out! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What are you wearing? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It's absolutely mind-boggling how many times I've been asked this! Mornings are easy as usually I shower, wrap a towel around me, and sit down for a few minutes to catch up on e-mail. Otherwise at home I prefer wearing something loose on top and nothing on the bottom. I've always loved being bottomless, even when I was little. There’s something about feeling the cool air against my bare bottom that makes it one of my favorite things (as the song should have said). I hate feeling restricted down there which is why I rarely wear panties under a dress, even to church (or should I say, especially to church!) My favorite things to wear around the house are my dad's dress shirts or sweatshirts (depending on the season). When I lived at home I would steal a fresh one from his closet and although he liked to pretend that he got mad about it, I know he liked it from the way he looked at me running around in them, especially when I sit on his lap and his hard cock pressed up against my bare ass. Sorry, despite all the male fantasies I RARELY run around the house nude. The only times I’m typically nude is when I’m in bed, taking a shower, in the hot tub or having sex. Otherwise I prefer wearing at least a little protection if for no other reason than personal hygiene. Even if it’s just a short t-shirt it makes me feel better somehow than being totally naked. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you wear a bra and panties? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Actually most people just ask if I wear panties but I’ll answer for both anyway. Until my late teen years my bust was certainly nothing to brag about. Bras are uncomfortable enough and when you don't need the support why torture yourself? In any case, since I was under no pressure to wear one from my mother (my dad certainly never wanted me to) I just never really got started with the habit. I keep a couple around for those occasions that require one, such as at church when I want to wear something especially light or tight. Now that my boobs have finally grown to be something I’m more happy with, as a rule I still rarely wear a bra for casual dress. Of course at work I have to – no bouncing boobs at a Christian school! There IS one other time I wear one and that's on special dates. It's amazing how guys get turned on taking off a girl's bra! It's as if they are getting access to something forbidden or taboo, like cracking open a vault. Oh well, if they like it I don't mind accommodating them. Panties are a similar issue. I wear them with extra short skirts as I don't get arrested for indecent exposure (except on special occasions when I want to show off). I’ve also found that guys seem to like a little mystery more than simple exposure. For whatever reason, getting a peek at my panties up my skirt seems to be more erotic than a glimpse of my bare pussy. Guys especially seem to love it then when they get to remove them, even more than bras. There are a few times when I wear panties, one being during my period, especially if I'm having a heavy flow. That's just a matter of basic hygiene and cleanliness. I also wear panties to work with my bras. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you like wearing pantyhose? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- OK, find me one girl who says she does (and is being honest). Still, I do wear them for the same reason all women wear pantyhose - it makes your legs look great. There are also those cold winter days when they help keep you a bit warmer as well. Unless it’s summer and I have a good tan going, I wear pantyhose to formal events. For those interested in such things, I wear a size A, preferably fully nude although sheer black can be entertaining! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What do you like to talk about when out with a guy for the first time? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I find the easiest and most rewarding thing is to simply let him to all the talking. Most guys love to talk about themselves once you get them going and its amazing how many times a guy has told me how much he enjoyed talking with me when I hardly squeezed a word in edgewise for the entire evening! You can also find out a lot about a person by listening to what they have to say about themselves once you get past the initial introductions. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you consider a blowjob to be "sex"? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Thanks to President William Jefferson Clinton, the definition of "sex" with relations to blowjobs has never been more debated. Is giving a blowjob committing adultery if one of the partners is married? While I’m sure most wives wouldn’t be happy about their husbands getting one from someone else, legally it’s not adultery. By definition, sex is the penetration of a penis into a vagina, something that doesn’t happen during a blowjob. No sex means no adultery. Now as for the moral issues involved, that is a whole different story... When I’m sucking a cock I certainly enjoy doing it but when I compare it to being fucked it’s an entirely different experience – emotionally and physically. Sucking a guy's cock is just a way for me to give him pleasure, no different than giving him a massage, except that I’m using my mouth instead of my hand. That said, letting a guy insert his dick into my pussy is an totally different. When I’m coupled with a man it creates a physical union between us. Whether it’s making love between me and my future husband, being intimate with my father, or just having fun with some stranger, it's SEX. Before anyone asks, yes, I would give a blowjob to a guy after I’m married assuming I had my husband’s permission. Doing it behind his back would be morally wrong, regardless of how you define it. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you practice safe sex? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My mother put me on the pill as soon as I started having sex so far as birth control goes, that’s what I’ve always depended on. When the time came a couple of years later for me to have sex with my dad for the first time, I was glad that I was on it since feeling him cum inside of me was all part of the experience. It feels so much more intimate to know he is releasing himself in me. I hate condoms and only want a guy to wear one when necessary to protect against disease. When I was in high school I didn’t make most guys use a condom as I figured the risks were small since I was on the pill. Don't preach to me about STDs, I’m very selective of my partners and I make a conscious decision in each case. At the same time I don't take stupid chances. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Does cock size matter? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Duh! Of course it does! The ONLY people who claim otherwise are the ones that have them. Sure, sometimes I’ll tell a guy it doesn't matter but that’s like a guy telling a girl, “anything more than a handful is a waste” when it comes to her boobs. When a guy worries about his cock size it tells me that he doesn’t have a clue how to please a girl if he thinks all it takes is a fat cock. Of course a larger dick generally feels better when it’s all the way in me simply because I can feel it filling me more. But to really please me, all a guys needs to do is get the head in me far enough to rub against the multitude of nerve endings that are just inside of me. In other words, think of it like eating. The taste and enjoyment comes from the taste buds in your mouth but the overall long-term satisfaction comes from the fullness of your stomach. Of course, if you eat too much your stomach hurts! That’s how it is with my pussy. It’s the entrance to my pussy where all the action takes place so far as stimulation goes. The reason it feels good when a guy strokes me is that his cock acts like a violin bow playing over the “strings” just inside of me. When his cock pushes further in me, then its more the sensation that he is filling me up, giving me a feeling of general satisfaction I also enjoy. Any cock size can accomplish the first part. Maybe if I wasn't so tight a larger dick would be better but if anything, TOO big a cock can hurt as it stretches me out to force its way inside of me. When it comes to filling my pussy, the bigger the better to a point after which, like an overfilled stomach, too much of a good thing can be bad as well. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you like anal sex? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- NO! I don't mind being licked and touched but otherwise my ass is strictly one- way to anyone except me. I’ve experimented with my finger in the shower and hot tub and have actually come to enjoy it now and then when I masturbate. Giving anal sex turns me totally off so don't even ask. I DO like my butt to be played with and touched, just stay away from my asshole. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Have you had sex with a black guy - or any other interracial sex? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I don't even like this question because it infers that I might choose who to have sex with based on their race. I have had sex with only a few black men but that’s almost entirely due to lack of opportunity, not by choice. I really don't care what color, age, or religion a guy is when its comes to sex – they all feel the same when they're in me. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you like sex with animals? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Many years ago I experimented and let my little Yorkie lick my pussy. Even though she DID make me cum, it was the only time I let her do it. Once I spent the night with my friend Samantha and found out she was not only a lesbian but regularly had sex with her golden retriever. Well, I was horny and one thing led to another so now I can say that I've sucked a dog and been fucked by one. That does NOT mean I want to have sex with animals, only that I experimented once. To be perfectly honest, I’m still weirded out about the whole thing when I think about it. After all, it WAS a dog and somehow it just seems wrong. So it’s been there, done that and never again – or so I thought. Then there was a party I went to with Beth where for the new girl’s initiation, they tried to get her to let a dog fuck her. She’d never done anything like that and I felt sorry for her. Since I’d already done it once, I volunteered to take her place (she owed me big time after that!), figuring once or twice, what was the difference? NOW I can say for sure, been there, done that, never again! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you have sex during your period? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Sex during my period is more about hygiene than anything else. Face it, it can be a mess and most guys are turned off by it as well. I’ve never met anyone who wanted to have oral sex during my period and I doubt I would go for it anyway – it would be a little gross for me. I don’t mind it so long as we do it somewhere where it doesn't create a problem - obviously not on a couch or piece of furniture! Typically that means in bed with an old towel or blanket under me that can be thrown away afterwards. I find that missionary works best so you could say I’m a little less adventuresome during that time. There is one exception - some days I cramp and just don't feel well so naturally I’m not into sex at those times. As for whether it "heightens" anything.... sex is 80-90% mental for me so I guess if it feels any different it’s more because of the fact that I KNOW that I’m on my period more than from BEING on my period - if you understand what I’m trying to say. If nothing else I don't have to worry about whether I’m lubricated enough! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What is your favorite position? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- That depends a lot on the situation and who I’m with. As a general statement I like to start out on top, cowgirl style, riding a guy. It gives me control over the depth of his penetration into me as well as the speed. Towards the end, I am a sucker for the good old missionary style, especially when he is planning to cum inside of me. It's the most intimate of positions for me and I have to admit I enjoy the feeling of submission to him as he literally mates me. In between, well that's as much up to him as anything. I like doggie, spooning, and just about anything that doesn't hurt me or involve anal penetration. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What was your most memorable experience? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Well, if you’re referring to my entire life, that's an easy question to answer. That would have to be the day when I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. I was ten years old at summer youth camp when my counselor led me in prayer and I dedicated my life to Jesus. I believe that experience is also part of the reason why I feel so strongly about wanting to work with youth. My counselor's actions and behavior influenced me tremendously and she will always be someone I respect and admire. My hope is to have that same impact on another girl's life someday. That said, I doubt when most people read that question that that was the answer they were looking for! I admit it was a bit of a trick question but at the same time, before I answer the "real" question about my sex life I wanted to make a statement about something that means a lot to me. Had I worded it to be about my religious experiences I doubt most people would’ve bothered to read it. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you masturbate? If so, how often? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Yes. I was raised to view masturbation as a perfectly normal and healthy outlet for my sometimes overwhelming sexual energy. My parents did it frequently (especially my dad) and while they never did it deliberately in front of me, they didn’t go out of their way to hide it from me either. Doors were rarely shut in our house so whatever was going on in a bedroom or bathroom was no secret. I can remember many times growing up when I would see them and sometimes I even watched, especially when I was younger and more curious about what they were doing. As I entered puberty my parents encouraged me to masturbate regularly and simply enjoy it. I really don't understand it sometimes - almost everyone does it yet for some reason virtually nobody will admit to doing it without being embarrassed. It seems to me it would be a lot better to eliminate the taboos and let people openly enjoy it than having to sneak around feeling guilty about a perfectly normal human need that almost EVERYONE does. As for how often - well that depends on a lot of things. If I’m getting the real thing regularly then naturally not as much so maybe just once a day or so. Even then it depends on how satisfying it was as I’ve gone to bed after a full evening of sex and still felt the need to masturbate before I went to sleep. When there's nobody around to help, then maybe several times a day if I’m really horny. Mornings are probably my favorite time as when I wake up I’m almost always horny and a good rub before a shower is a great way to start the day. Read my article “My Thoughts About Masturbation” for more details. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What do you fantasize about when you masturbate? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- That really depends on a lot of factors – the time of day, where I am, but primarily it’s influenced by what I’ve recently done. Usually I dream about someone who recently fucked me. Sometimes I may dream about someone I saw like at a church youth meeting or service that turned me on. When I chat with people I often get horny and think about what might happen if I were to meet with some of the sexier people I chat with. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What is your favorite fantasy? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- First, let me make it clear that I do NOT consider fantasies as being the things I dream of in anticipation of actually doing them – that's dreaming, not fantasy. A fantasy is just that and NOT something I would ever actually do. Some people have a problem separating reality from fantasy which is why we have so many perverts and child abusers running around. So remember, my fantasies are just that, fantasy. I understand my responsibilities as an adult and a woman and would never do anything to harm or abuse anyone. OK, enough of that. Actually I have two fantasies which are quite a bit different. I had a friend go to Amsterdam a few summers ago and she told me about going into a theater where she watched a couple fucking on stage not three feet away from the front row. Since then I’ve fantasized about me being that girl on stage. Imagine being watched by a hundred or so people, all of them wishing they were fucking me instead of the guy who was actually doing me. My second fantasy is quite a bit different and while it may offend some people, keep in mind my attitude about fantasies – anything is OK so long as you can separate fantasy from reality. That said, I like to imagine baby-sitting a thirteen year old boy and his twelve year-old sister where I introduce them both to their first sexual encounter. First I would do each of them separately. Then I would bring them together and teach the girl to suck her brother’s dick after which I would help the boy to fuck his sister. There’s a story about this in the FANTASY section of my web site if you're interested in the details! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Why do you like to have sex with married men? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Marriage is a special relationship where love and respect by both partners is vital. Personally, I do NOT condone cheating. I’ve had many men write me and ask my opinion on how to cheat on their wives and in every case I’ve responded by encouraging them NOT to do so. Most men rationalize their behavior by saying their wife isn’t interested in sex; to which I say "it takes two". Although in a perfect world men would not cheat on their wives, should a man choose to break the oath he took with his wife and God by having sex with me behind his wife’s back, then that’s HIS decision and HIS responsibility. I feel NO responsibility whatsoever for the consequences he may face as the only way his wife would know is if he told her. I have no desire to hurt anyone or to cause marital problems. The fact he’s cheating shows the marital problems are already there so if anything maybe getting it out of his system by having sex with me will actually HELP their marriage in the end. I’ve found that having sex with a married man is incredibly erotic more so than “pleasurable”. What I mean is that while normally I would claim that sex is typically 80% emotional and 10% physical, when doing it with a cheating husband it’s 95% emotional and 5% or less about the physical side of sex. The reason for the heavy emphasis on the “emotional” aspects of sex is that when a husband is fucking me and I feel his cock inside of me, I know that his clueless wife is sitting at home totally unaware that her precious husband is out fucking a girl probably half her age. It makes me feel really good inside to know that her "loving" husband lusts for me so much that he is willing to violate his most sacred vows to her. He is literally willing to sacrifice his marriage and family just for the opportunity to have sex with ME for a few hours. How can anyone blame me for feeling incredibly sexy and desirable in this situation? It’s not just during the sex that it turns me on either. After he leaves I will Usually masturbate as I imagine him returning home and facing his wife with his dick still covered with my pussy cum as he kisses her goodnight and gets into bed beside her. Can she smell my perfume and sex on him? When he says he loves her does he think about what he did with me? The next time they make love, is it my pussy he remembers when he cums? When his wife turns up her nose at the thought of oral sex, does he wish I was there to suck his cock once again? Does he feel guilty? Will he ever be able to forget what he did with me or will I be a part of his life for the rest of his days? Does he masturbate thinking about how good it felt to fuck me? You see, it goes way beyond just the few minutes or hours we spend together. One of my most memorable experiences was having sex with a husband while he was on the phone with his wife. Just as I felt him start to shoot his sperm inside my pussy I listened to him telling his poor wife her that he loved her more than anything and couldn't wait to be back home with her again. He kept repeating it over and over to her, even as he was cumming inside of me. As you might imagine, it wasn’t his cock ejaculating in me that made me cum so hard. No, it was how I imagined his wife smiling at home, thinking her loyal husband really loved her when what he was really loving was the feel of my tight pussy clamping down on his adulterous erect cock as he pumped me with the cum that SHOULD have in her pussy instead!! At first I realize that this may all seem a bit contradictory and maybe even a little hypocritical. Hopefully if you think it more then you'll understand it's not really all that bad of me. After all, I honestly encourage every husband to remain faithful to his wife. In a perfect world, there would be no married men running around behind their wife’s back wanting to fuck me. We all know that's not the case so if a husband chooses to cheat on his wife, then I certainly won’t turn him down. The way I figure it, odds are the wife is mostly to blame anyway. One thing for sure though; I would NEVER want his wife to know about it, even if she probably deserves it. Read my article, “FAQ - Married Guys” for more details. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you like three-somes? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Outside of my family I’ve only had sex with multiple partners a few times and two of those were with the same people (my college roomie Brenda and her older brother). Of course that ignores the parties I’ve been to where I’ve had sex with quite a few guys but those were just for sexual pleasure. I prefer having all the attention so I really have no desire to be alone with more than one guy but I fantasize a LOT about being with another couple, especially one where they have been married for a long time and had never cheated until me. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You often mention porn in passing as if it's part of your world. Is it something you watch often or exposed to a lot? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Personally, porn doesn’t do much for me. I find watching a paid actor fucking a porn star whore just for money to be about as sensual and erotic as watching dogs do it (don’t EVEN go there!). That’s not to say I don’t like nudes and sex videos, but only when they involve me or someone I know. Think of it like watching typical home movies. You don’t mind watching your own but it’s torture to watch someone else’s! My dad has a HUGE porn video collection and he watches it frequently on our large screen TV in the family room so yes, I was exposed to it often from an early age. My mom and I didn’t complain so long as there is nothing else on TV that I would rather watch. Besides, I’ll readily admit to learning a few new tricks from it, especially from the “classic” porn stars. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Why do you describe making love as "fucking"? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Some people get turned off by the word "fuck" but I use it to denote having sex with someone other than a lover. For example, I love my dad but he is my father, NOT my "lover". Thus he "fucks" me instead of "making love" to me. On the other hand, my mother and I DID make love because during the few times we were together that way, I considered her as a true lover instead of just my mother. The only man I will ever make love to will be my husband. I apologize to anyone might be offended but then if you are, why are you reading this? Read my article on “Fucking vs. Making Love” for more details. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What is “off-limits” for you when it comes to sex? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Let me differentiate between fantasy sex and reality to answer this... In fantasy, not much is out of bounds for me. I can also deal with people telling me about anything, even if it’s not something I enjoy. One thing IS off the table under any circumstances – no scat or extreme BSDM. I find them both totally disgusting. Other than that, so long as it’s purely fantasy, I can’t think of anything else that would offend me, although not necessarily turning me on Real life is a different story. Anal sex is not something I enjoy and while I’ve allowed it to happen, it wasn't like I asked for it and it was more something I was forced to put up under the circumstances. Rape is a horrible offense against a woman and I would never participate or encourage it. Underage sex is something I have come to talk a lot about but that’s more due to the people I have met on-line. As for real life, consider that I’ve never had sex with a boy under 16 and the only girl under 18 has been a cousin of mine. It’s not that I consider it necessarily always bad, but sex with preteens is not something I would do in real life. I would never have sex on a web cam – too many privacy issues. I have no desire to have sex again with any animal – twice was one time too many. ================== SECTION 3 - INCEST ================== -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you really have sex with your family? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Yes I really truly do. Before you make any assumptions or judgments about me or my family please read "My Thoughts About Incest ". I think you will find that my thoughts and opinions are not exactly what you might expect and it may even help you gain a different perspective. First, I STRONGLY oppose child abuse and I believe that whenever possible, everyone in the family should participate willingly. In addition, there is more involved here than just sex; there is the issue of the entire attitude toward sexuality and love that must be present. Therefore I do NOT believe incest can work in most situations but when the right circumstances are present it can develop into a wonderful and loving relationship. I am fortunate enough to be in that type of relationship but I am not so naïve as to believe that what I have would work with many other families. I would advise anyone to NOT get involved with incest unless they were absolutely sure it would work as the consequences if it doesn't can be terrible. It is far better to err on the safe side than ruin people's lives - including your own. Incest should be the RESULT of the love in a relationship, not the driver. As an example, before incest I loved my parents and I knew they loved me unconditionally as well. If I’d had sex with them, I like to think that our feelings for one another would not be one iota different than it is today. The key is that I do not NEED to have sex with them for them to know I love them nor for me to know they love me. The point I want to conclude with is that I have sex with my parents simply as a means to express my love in a way that all of us can enjoy and share with one another. Honestly, why should I NOT let my dad fuck me? Why deprive me of the incredible sensation of my dad cumming inside of me? What could be more wonderful than laying in my bed with my father's cock throbbing inside me, my pussy filled with the sperm he has just given me, and his arms around me holding me tightly against him in the most intimate manner way a father and his daughter can be together? The same goes for when I was with my mother. Our naked bodies pressed tightly together, our pussies rubbing against each other's, perhaps with a double dildo joining them, was simply the most wonderful way a mother and daughter could be together. Enough said!!!! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You claim to be a Christian so how can you have sex with your parents? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Why do people automatically assume that having sex in an incestual relationship is a sin? It is more an inhibition put upon us by overbearing religious institutions than anything to do with God. Incest is NOT adultery, so that’s not an issue. God created us as sexual beings and made sex to be more than an act of reproduction. Why would we NOT want to use all the gifts we have been given when it comes times to express our feelings for those in our family? Actually the question is misleading as it implies that as a Christian I shouldn't be involved in incest. I see it as exactly the opposite. From Exodus 20….. Commandment #5: Honor thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long. Commandment #7: Thou shalt not commit adultery. Seems pretty straightforward to me but for those who need more of an explanation, God clearly states that you shall NOT commit adultery and that you SHALL honor your father and mother. Some people, me included, interpret “honor” to include submission to their authority and needs. I was raised that these make the rules for marriage after sex pretty black and white. Once you are married you can ONLY have sex with your husband and immediate family. For me, I would be honoring my parents by giving myself to them. After all, what greater sign of respect and honor can a daughter give to her parents than to offer her own body to them totally and without any restraint? In addition, how can I say that I truly honor and respect them if I deny myself to their immediate family as well? In summary, to both not commit adultery AND honor your parents after marriage, to me that means not having sex outside my immediate family with first cousins, nieces and nephews being the absolute limit. My parents have subscribed to this practice their entire marriage and I am convinced that it has been a major contributor to the indisputable success of their marriage. OK, my father slipped with my best friend Beth but she is practically family and I am sure God has forgiven him for his indiscretion. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Did your parents swing? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- No, they never did to the best of my knowledge. I find it intriguing to consider the underlying stereotyping that is taking place when people use to ask me this question. The assumption seemed to be that just because they enjoyed incest that they must have been immoral or otherwise sexual predators. At the very least the expectation always seems to have been that they must have wanted to have sex with people outside the family. Well, nothing could have been further from the truth! They would never have had sex with anyone outside their immediate family as that would have been an act of infidelity in their eyes. There has only been a couple of exceptions to this rule which involved my dad with my best friend Beth and also with my mom’s best friend Tammy. These were truly exceptions and my mother agreed to it beforehand. Most people who are not involved in a healthy incestual relationship have a hard time understanding the distinction between sex in the family and sex outside of it. Read my article, “My Thoughts About Incest” for more details. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Did you prefer having sex with your mother or father the most? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Tough questions because there is no easy answer. After having sex with my parents for several years, I can honestly say that I love them both even more than ever. Sex, though, was completely different with them making at a case of trying to compare apples and oranges. Sexually speaking, when I lived at home I spent the most time with my dad, probably 95% or more in fact. While my mom enjoyed watching at times because she knew what it meant to my dad and me to be together this way, only rarely did she actually get involved. That’s important to me because people need to understand that in a healthy incestual relationship it’s not about lust but instead it’s an act of family love and respect. People who expected us to have 3-somes every night were influenced by pornography and various web sites that cater to male fantasies and as such, they don't understand the true emotions involved in “real” incest. My father has always been wonderful to me and has provided me with everything I have ever asked for. (Yes, I admit to being spoiled.) I owe him so much for all that I have that I could never hope to repay him. He loves me unconditionally and while I know he doesn't expect anything from me in return at least I can give him the most precious gift I have – my sexuality. I don’t claim to be the most secure girl in the world and as such, I crave my father's love and the security it gives me. No matter what the time or place, I have NEVER turned down my dad when he has wanted to fuck me, regardless of how I was feeling or needed to do. That means hardly a day goes by we don't have sex in one form or another but what's so wrong with that? When it comes to sex with my dad, I think it’s vitally important for people to understand that we love each other as a father and daughter should. There has NEVER been anything kinky between us, not even pretending that we are "lovers" or anything even remotely like that. He is my dad and I am his daughter - period. I wish people would realize that I don't fuck my dad just to have sex. Of course I enjoy it. so there is an element of personal pleasure, but I can get laid anytime I want so I don’t need my dad to meet my sexual needs. My dad has NEVER forced me to do anything and in no way has he ever abused me. After all, I was the one to initiate our first time. I know that if I ever told him to stop he would not even question me, yet he would love me just the same. Simply put, I offer myself to my dad for his pleasure and sexual needs out of my love and respect for him. The sexual relationship I had with my mom was totally different from the one I have with my dad which is why we rarely had sex as a family. My dad fucks me because he loves me as his daughter. Our sex is more physical in that mutual pleasure is our goal. With my mom there was a much deeper emotional fulfillment – for both of us. You may have noticed that while I have a lot of stories about me and my dad, there are only a few of me and my mom. Having sex with my mom was an incredibly personal and intimate relationship; one I believe that was something unique that could only happen between a mother and her daughter. Although I expect that my future relationship with my husband will be similar, it will be different if for no other reason than he is a man. When my mom and I had sex we become lovers in every sense of the word. It was incredibly passionate to the point where it became almost overwhelming. I loved the feel of her warm naked body pressed against mine. Licking her pussy, the same pussy where I was conceived and born was so erotic for me. When she ran her tongue on my wet musky pussy hole I would think about how it was the same place her husband and my father loves to fuck me and it turned me on so much! These and more experiences filled my soul and completed me as a woman in a way I don't see even my future husband being able to do. So who did I like better – it's a no-decision. Both of my parents were wonderful and I enjoyed being with them both, each in their own way. Read my article “Comparing Sex with My Mom and Dad” for more details. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Have you told anyone outside your family about your incestual relationships? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Until recently, the only people who really know are my family, my BFF Beth, and my mom’s friend Tammy. The only other time I’ve ever discussed incest outside of my family is on-line with people who do not know who I am – also a good reason for not meeting them. A while ago I revealed my relationship with my dad to my boyfriend at the time but that was only because he was doing it with his sister (and his parent’s have no idea). That didn't turn out so well as we broke up soon afterwards when he wanted things to get too kinky (another bad thing about porn is that it makes guys believe real life is like porn movies). When I started dating my current boyfriend Steve, I was reluctant to tell him anything because even though we dated when I was fourteen and he was my “first”, I didn't start with incest until after he had moved away so he knew nothing about it. Recently I did tell him and we are dealing with it – that’s all I care to say for now. Over time the discipline to avoid discussing it outside my family has become well ingrained in me. You may have noticed that in my stories I don’t usually refer to my family when I talk about sexual experiences that occur outside of my family. For instance, in the story where when I talk about my first time with my college freshman year roomie Brenda, I describe her as my "first" lesbian experience. This is not 100% accurate as I was having sex with my mother and Aunt Linda for years prior to Brenda. Since Brenda was the first girl outside of my family that I had sex with I like to consider her my "first". -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- When would you tell a guy about your family relationships? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Until my breakup with my almost-fiancé Duane last year, I would’ve answered this by saying I would we got to the stage in our relationship where the man proposes to me. My idea was that before I would say yes, I would explain to him what he was getting involved in and what my expectations were. If he was agreeable and still wanted to marry me, then we would move on. Of course, I was expecting that by the time we got to that point that I would know him well enough to be able to predict with confidence what his reaction would be so the level of risk should be very low. Like many well-made plans, reality tends to bring about changes. When I was faced with the possibility that my boyfriend might propose to me, I still don't know how he felt about incest. It caused me an incredible amount of angst but I ended up changing my position. This wasn't an easy decision to make but I discussed it with my parents and had their full backing. While I never came out and said I was having sex with my dad, I gave him enough information about others in my family that I got so get a look ahead to how he might react. In short, it was a bad scene and a mistake, one I won’t repeat. I DID tell one boyfriend about me and my dad since he was doing his sister and even let me watch once from the closet in their parents’ bedroom. This led to him joining in with my father and me. Sounds like it should have been hot and it was at the time but the aftermath was messy. Until recently I always assumed that I would continue to have sex with my dad after marriage and that my husband would have to accept it. After all, it’s not like he doesn't get anything back for it since my aunt and cousin are eager of r me to get married. However, knowing now WHY my dad REALLY wanted to fuck me when I was younger and understanding his sexual addictions and pedophilic tendencies, I’m not so sure that is a sure thing anymore. If the right guy proposed to me now, I would say yes and never mention incest. If it worked out over time then that would be OK, if not that would be OK too. I guess you could say I have come to a stage in life where I would say my own marriage and husband would be more important than incest with my father. I still love my dad, but not to where I would sacrifice my marriage like my Aunt Linda did with hers. My current boyfriend Steve knows everything now so most of this will be moot if we marry – not a totally crazy idea actually. I'll just have to see how things work out now. It doesn’t hurt that he also has a few similar experiences as well with his mother. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Will you have sex with anyone besides your husband after you're married? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My parents and church leaders taught me to respect the sacrament of marriage as a union blessed by God in accordance with the Bible. My parents were married for over twenty years and for the most part lived by their vows faithfully. Of course, that is based on the understanding that the responsibilities of marriage are encompassed by everyone in the family, not just the husband and wife. Based on that definition after I am married I COULD have sex with my family and husband but for anyone else my answer will be a definite "NO". Understand that I define "sex" as the physical mating of a male and female (insertion of a penis into my vagina to be technical) so that leaves a lot open! Now before anyone writes me to complain, once again you have to remember that I do not consider incest to be "cheating". After all, I am the product of my parents' marriage and thus will always be a part of it. As I see it, it would be OK for my dad to have sex with me in the eyes of God because my dad is staying faithful to the mother who conceived me. The same rationale applies to my mom's sister and daughter in that they are part of her family and thus he can have sex with them. I know this sounds complicated but I believe it is part of God's plan for some families. I have no doubt that I will continue having sex with my family (including my aunt and cousin) in some shape or form. I am hoping that whoever I marry will understand and agree with my family relationships as well as be willing to take part but if not, I can deal with that too. Aunt Linda has told me numerous times she can't wait for me to get married and share him with me. Of course Kristi will fuck anything on two legs so she’s no problem! One last thing, I don't consider oral sex to be “sex”. Thus if I wanted to suck someone’s cock after I was married, I wouldn’t see that as cheating on my husband. I DO think I should get his permission to suck another man’s cock. Seems only right, doesn’t it? One thing to add, based on what I now know about my parent’s marriage and the impact that such a rigid stand on adultery had for them, I have relaxed my own “rules”. The Ten Commandments are short and cannot address all situations. Sometimes we get caught up on what things do NOT say and forget about what they DO say. Just as killing a convicted criminal is not murder, so too with adultery. I now believe that the intent is not to CHEAT on your spouse rather than not to have sex with someone other than your spouse. Thus so long as both are in agreement, then swinging to even 1-1 sex outside of marriage is OK. This is a rather radical departure from what I have believed in most of my life so I am still working it out a bit but this is the general direction I see myself going. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Were your parents involved in incest with their families? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My father's family comes from a traditional mid-west farming family. Sex was not even discussed let alone openly practiced and incest would’ve been considered a sinful perversion in accordance with the laws of their strict Protestant upbringing. Even so, all this didn't stop my father and his brothers from being typical horny teenage boys. According to my dad, all three of them had their share of "conquests" during their high school years and he considers it a miracle to this day that none of them got a girl pregnant. As for my dad specifically, he first had sex when he was fifteen with some girl from school. He started having sex with the girl who would someday be my mom when she was a fourteen year-old freshman. Almost a year later he started having sex with her younger sister who was thirteen and in eighth grade at the time. Unknown to my dad at the time, they each had their virginity taken from them by their father. He did my mom first when she was fourteen and just starting high school and then her sister the next day even though she was only in seventh grade as it would have been hard to do one without the other finding out. It wasn't until my dad proposed that my mom revealed that it was her father who had been her first and that she and her sister had been fucking their father regularly ever since, including the entire time that they had been dating my dad. Needless to say he was a bit surprised! My mom accepted his marriage proposal but only on the condition that he allow her to maintain her intimate relationship with her father and sister. Well, as open-minded as my dad considered himself to be, he was naturally a bit shocked at the news since incest was not something he was raised to even think about other than maybe during a few porn movie fantasies. He once told me that what helped him to accept it was that she told him that even though he married her, he could continue fucking her sister since she was part of her family. They got married and things worked for over twenty-five years before they divorced. It wasn't until months later that I learned the real reason for their divorce and how sex with his sister-in-law wasn't a “gift” from my mom so much as a demand he had placed on her if she wanted to marry him. I also didn't know until then that her relationship with her father wasn't exactly consensual either. The fact their marriage lasted 25 years just goes to show how much my mom loved my dad. Aunt Linda’s marriage didn't work out so well. Her husband grew possessive and soon after my cousin was born he demanded that she stop fucking her brother-in- law and have sex only with him like a "normal" wife. They finally ended up divorcing over the issue although the reason for the divorce was kept confidential. It was hard for me to accept that my father and aunt loved sex with each other so much they were willing to sacrifice both their marriages, but that just goes to show you how string a bind sex can create. My grandfather died unexpectedly from a heart attack a few years back so the only guy my mom had after that was my dad until she rekindled her relationship with my uncle thanks to my horny cousin Rick. Other than her generation my mom did not know of any other incestual relationships. Even though she had sex with her dad, she and he didn’t have the same day-to-day relationship I enjoy with my father where we talked about everything and anything so if grandpa knew of anything, he never told her. Mom told me that she let her dad fuck her primarily because he was her father and she wanted to please him but wished she had the same emotional bond with him that I had with my dad. As I only recently learned, it was even more than what she had told me in that her father forced her to have sex with her at an early age and essentially turned her into his submissive. My grandmother knew all along that her husband was abusing her daughters. My Aunt Linda was only twelve when he started with her! Small wonder she never participated in any way. My mom and I discussed her relationship with Grandma and I can tell she regretted that she never was as close to her the way I am to her – in a non- sexual way. My grandmother and I have never really discussed sex much. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Would you ever consider bearing your father's child? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Oh my god NO – a thousand times NO! Just the thought of having a child with my dad is repulsive. If there’s one thing I try to make clear to people, no matter what I do or don't do with my dad, I am ALWAYS his daughter. I NEVER even role-play as his lover, concubine, or whatever else you want to call it. I have sex with my father to please him and satisfy his needs because I love him and it’s my duty as his daughter to do whatever it takes to honor him, NOT to bear his children. Sorry, in my opinion anyone who does that is sick and needs help. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You're an only child. Do you wish you had a brother or sister? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- There are pros and cons to being an only child. Of course I’d love to have a brother or sister but I also realize I’m only thinking about the good side of the equation. Many of my friends who DO have a brother or sister might have a different response. In any case, my first choice would be an older brother. Older because he would be more mature while I am still younger and a brother because as I said earlier, I prefer guys. Second choice would be a younger sister. Younger because I wouldn't want hand-me-downs plus I would want to be the one in charge. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you have any regrets concerning anything you have done sexually? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Honestly I can't think of anything I HAVE done that I regret. There are things I wouldn't do again but I don’t necessarily having done them once. An example would be getting fucked by a dog. I don’t regret trying it but now that I have experienced it, I would never do it again. What bothers me the most are the things that I have NOT done. If there is one thing I will always feel bad about is that I did not give my father my virginity. When I first had sex I had no idea my father had any interest in me sexually so there was nothing I could have done differently then. Even so, it still bothers me that I gave it to someone else when now I know just how badly he wanted to be the one. I respect so much him for allowing me to make the decision, unlike my mother when her father made it for her. Just one more point I want to make. Even now that I understand the real reasons my father wanted me as a teenager, I still do not regret for a moment what we did. If anything, I feel even more proud that I was able to give him what he needed such that he didn’t give in to his addictions and go out to do something everyone would come to regret later. I am glad that I was there for him whenever he needed me and as his daughter, I always will be, no matter what his inner demons may be. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Should parents allow their children to see them making love? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I don’t think that it’s necessary or even advisable. What would be the point? When two people make love that is an intimate moment between the two of them, not a spectator sport for anyone’s amusement, let alone their children. I never saw my parent’s making love when I was growing up and when I finally did I was sixteen. Even then it was something that happened inadvertently without them knowing about it at the time (at least that's what I thought at the time). The fact I didn't SEE them having sex didn't mean I didn’t know they were doing it (the walls in our old house are pretty thin), but I didn’t have to see them doing it to know they loved one another passionately. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Should parents allow their children to see them masturbating? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Masturbation is a totally different issue than sex. Even so, I don’t believe parents should masturbate with the INTENT of having their kids watch them as that would be perverted. At the same time, I don’t believe they should refrain from masturbating just because the kids are around. Hopefully you understand the difference between the two situations. Masturbation is a natural human reaction that just about everyone does so why run off and hide when the need arises? Still, a little discretion and modesty never hurt so I don't think the person doing it needs to make a show out of it or draw undue attention to themselves if for no other reason than just to be polite and exercise good manners. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What should parents teach their kids about sex? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- As a general rule, when it comes to learning anything about their bodies and sexual natures, I believe the best source is always the parent – not school and not church. While I think sex education serves a purpose in public school as most parents abstain from their responsibilities, it is also a necessary evil when you look at it that way. Children should learn about thing BEFORE they happen whenever possible but at the same time, there is no need to teach a six-year old boy about masturbation when he doesn’t have a clue what you’re talking about and can’t relate to the feelings you are trying to describe to him. Later, when he starts to show signs of being interested in what’s “down there”, a father should instruct him about the “birds and the bees”, including masturbation. The same applies to girls. No girl should be made to suffer the indignity of having her first period in school without knowing what to do but yet that very thing happens much too often. When she approaches puberty her mother should teach her about sex, including masturbation. It also wouldn't hurt to explain sex and how to make her first time an enjoyable and memorable experience, not like what happens to too many naïve girls today. Also, safe sex for both sexes should be a MUST when it comes to discussing sex, including how to use a condom and birth control pills. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Did you really mean to say that parents should encourage their kids to masturbate? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Why not? What’s the big deal anyway? In my opinion, one of the biggest failures of our society is that we teach out kids that masturbation is wrong and somehow perverted yet at the same time, 99% of adults do it regularly! It would be like everyone telling kids they can’t smoke but yet every parent sneaks a smoke at night after the kids go to bed. Masturbation is NOT sex yet society has linked the two together, thereby implying that if kids masturbate then they will be driven to have sex. Hey parents, news flash! Your kids are going to fuck whether or not they masturbate and by the way, they DO masturbate whether you know it or not. I don't care how innocent you think your daughter is, if she’s fifteen she’s been doing it for a while now and the same goes for your son. When I say encourage masturbation, I don't mean make it a spectator sport. As I said about parents masturbating with their kids around, your kid shouldn't have to sneak off into the bathroom to masturbate when they’re horny. Why do we make them leave the room, as if they have to sneak off to do something naughty? At the same time, they must be taught discretion. For instance, masturbating during dinner is just rude and not exactly hygienic so kids should learn there ARE limits. Then again, if it’s during a long car ride and it helps them to cope with their boredom, why say anything if they choose to do it? So I guess I don't exactly mean to ENCOURAGE your kids to masturbate so much as I mean to provide a home environment where they are ALLOWED to pleasure themselves without having to feel embarrassed or fearful. They say you can lead a horse to water but you can’t make him drink. Well, provide your kids a safe environment and then it’s up them. If they don't want to masturbate in front of you, respect that as well and don't push them to do it. They may change their minds someday but maybe not. In either case why should it make any difference to you as their parent? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Who should take a girl’s virginity? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- From a purely sentimental view, I think the father should just because he IS her father and as such has earned the honor. If for some reason he can’t or doesn't want to, then it’s her call. It could be her brother, uncle or cousin or even a boyfriend around her age if she wants it early. If she chooses to wait until she’s sixteen then it could be any adult she wants. I favor the “family option” only because the odds of it being an enjoyable experience improve dramatically. So much for sentiment. In reality, I think a girl should lose her virginity to the first guy she feels she is ready to fuck and get it over with. Odds are that he will be a boy from school or church, NOT someone from her family. In the long run, that is the safest choice. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Who should take a boy’s virginity? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Again, from a purely sentimental view, a think the mother should just because she IS his mother and like a father with his daughter, a mother has earned the honor. If for some reason she can’t or won’t, then it’s his call, same as for a daughter. Again, forgetting sentiment it should be a girl around his age from outside the family. I’m not so sure it’s as important from an emotional perspective for a boy as to who he does it the first time with as it is for a girl. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- How do you feel about incestual pregnancies? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I’m totally against it and not just because of the DNA issue, which are being debated these days but I don't really care as that’s not the real reason behind my answer. There may be times when this can be rationalized so I don’t want people writing me to say why they thought it was a good thing for their family. Maybe it was but I just can’t see any way that it would be OK for the vast majority. There are just too many issues that would have to be resolved and then dealt with over and over again throughout the child’s life. So much for not WANTING to have an incestual pregnancy. Still, accidents happen. I don't personally believe in abortion but I Do believe it’s a mother’s choice so it’s up to the girl what she does. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Would you allow your kids to have sex with their friends in your house? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Assuming they were all old enough, why not? Just so long as it was THEIR idea and not due to any influence from me or their father. I would NOT join in but I would feel better if I was nearby to supervise and even discipline if necessary. For me, I’d much rather know my daughter was getting laid up in her bedroom where she can be safe and comfortable than in the back seat of a car or who knows where else. While I wouldn’t want her boyfriend to feel TOO intimidated, I don't think it hurts for the boy to know her parents are around to take of things if he doesn't behave himself and act like a gentlemen. If they wanted to masturbate around us I wouldn't say anything but I honestly doubt anything like that would ever happen. I’d just want my kids to know it was OK if they DID, even if they never did it. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Would you masturbate or even just be nude around your son or daughter’s friends? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- No. I don’t do it now so what would be the point then? Besides, I doubt it would take long for the rumors to start flying and who knows where that might lead to – nothing good I’m sure. ======================== SECTION 4 - UNDERAGE SEX ======================== -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- How old should my daughter be before we have sex? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I get asked this one a LOT! Refer to my article “My Thoughts About Underage Sex” for all the details. Here are three principles that guide my thoughts and actions regarding underage sex: 1. The needs of a child ALWAYS come first. When it comes to sex or anything even remotely related to it, if there is ANY doubt, don't do it. It is ALWAYS better to err on the side of caution. 2. As a general rule, I do not condone or promote sex between adults and minors. Any exceptions to this rule are strictly limited to VERY special circumstances. Even then, carefully consideration is required beforehand as to the potential psychological, physical, moral, ethical and legal ramifications. 3. I believe that there should be no limits when it come to fantasies so long as the line between fantasy and reality is never crossed. Talking or writing about something is not the same as doing it. However, people who have a hard time separating fantasy from reality should be careful what they write, read or look at and seek professional help should the line start to blur. Child (under 8) YES: instruction about nudity and modesty NO: ANY sexual contact ANY involvement in sexual activities (observing sex, etc.) ANY discussions about sex Child (8-9) YES: boy receiving hand or oral stimulation girl giving hand and oral stimulation to a male general discussions about sex but no involvement NO: sexual contact with a girl girl giving hand and oral stimulation to a female sex (boy or girl) detailed discussions about sex Preteen (10-12) YES: individual masturbation girl giving hand and oral stimulation to another girl detailed discussions about sex NO: sexual contact with a girl by a male sex (boy or girl) Underage (13-17) YES: individual, mutual and group masturbation sex between boys and girls in this age group incestual sex (boy or girl) with an adult sex with girls over 16 by an adult NO: non-incestual sex with a girl under 16 by an adult non-incestual sex with a boy by an adult -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Would you have sex with an underage boy or girl? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- No, absolutely not! That doesn’t mean I haven’t in the past but even then, they were at the older end of the range, sixteen or older, where the age differential was at most a few years. Personally, I don’t think most people would have said a lot about a 19 or 20 year-old girl letting a sixteen or seventeen year-old boy fuck her. Now that I’m 25, though, I can’t picture any circumstance where I would have sex with anyone under 18 outside of my family. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You oppose sex with young children, yet you publish stories from people who claim to be involved in it. Isn’t this a contradiction at best, perhaps even hypocritical? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- First, I have no way of verifying whether or not anything someone sends me is true so I assume anything sent to me is fictional by default. I suppose I could insist on a phone call or something more personal but that would compromise my own security and it’s not worth it. In any case, I publish such stories as fantasies and they should be taken as such. I don’t believe in putting boundaries on a person’s dreams, just their actions If someone wants to contact the writer themselves and take it further, that’s up to them. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You claim that you don’t chat with underage kids yet you have published chats between you and several young girls. What’s the story? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- First, as I’ve stated, I consider anything not in my ABOUT ME or DIARY section to be 100% fantasy. Second, would I really chat with a girl (or boy) I believed to be under eighteen? Of course not!! Remember, I’ve taught girls that age and trust me, NONE of them ever wrote anything even remotely close using the vocabulary, syntax and structure that the so-called "underage girls" I have chatted with use. There’s simply no way I believe that they were who they say they were. So if I don't believe these “girls” are real, why chat with them? Well, I know that some people may not find this type of exchange to be interesting or fun in the least, but I’ve found that sometimes just playing out your fantasies can be a good release after a stressful day. However, if I learn that the person I am chatting with is really underage, I stop immediately and don't publish the chat. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- When you chat and e-mail, you ask a lot of questions about underage sex and even seem at times to push the person into doing it. Why is that ? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- One of the main reasons I had a web site was to interact with people. I found it interesting to see what people will say and do when I “suggest” or prompt them. In many cases, it was amazing how their “experiences” seem to follow along with the questions and comments I make. (Yes, that was meant to be satirical.) Note that in almost every case it is not ME that is having sex, it is the other person. Very seldom will I pretend to do it myself and then only to prod the person along. Am I playing head games? Certainly and I freely admit it. It’s not like I don't make my true feelings and positions known on my site. If people don't want to read about me or choose to think they can “convert” me, that’s their choice and they shouldn’t complain later when they find out that I’ve been playing with them. ================================== SECTION 5 - HOME, SCHOOL, & CHURCH ================================== -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What are the three top priorities in your life? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 1. God 2. Family 3. Friends For those who have accused me of being addicted to sex, notice it didn't even make my Top Three list! My web site focuses on the aspect of my life that most people are interested in, NOT the most important one. Face it, would you read my website if it was all about Christianity instead? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- When were you saved? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I was ten years old at Church Camp. The last night my after the evening service I went to my counselor and asked her to help to me to pray to be saved. She kneeled beside me and I gave my life to Jesus and have never looked back since. While I may submit myself in a physical way to a man, he will NEVER have my soul as it's permanently in Christ's hands. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you have any hobbies? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I enjoy crafts and I have an unusual hobby, at least for a girl I guess. My dad has always been into radio-controlled airplanes and he got me interested when I was started high school. I’m not the best pilot in the world (ask my dad how many planes he has had to climb a tree to salvage the parts!), but as the only girl in the club, I do get a lot of attention and everyone is very helpful! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What is you favorite place/activity to unwind and relax? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Nothing beats slipping nude into the blazing hot water of a hot tub late at night with the lights out, the stars shining, and a full moon on the horizon. Mmmm, the hot water, pulsing of the jets, and beautiful view can be mesmerizing! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What is your favorite place to visit on vacation? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Unfortunately, with my parent's professional schedules we never traveled to many places. Now that I’m on my own I hope someday soon to rectify that. For now, I would say Cedar Point in Ohio Is probably my favorite place. Kennywood in Pittsburgh is fun too, especially on community day when I know most of the people there. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What is your favorite type of restaurant and meal? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chinese with a Mongolian Buffet. I love mixing up my own dish and seeing it cooked in front of me spiced just the way I want it. Pizza and wings is great for party food. Godiva ice cream is to die for when I feel the urge to splurge! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Why did you choose to go to college out of state? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Actually I was accepted at three schools in three different states. One wanted everyone to get married – too overbearing even though they offered maid service and a free laptop. Another was farther away than I wanted to be plus they were a bit on the strict side - dancing was just allowed there a few years ago! The one I chose had an excellent teaching curriculum and was only a few hours from Pittsburgh. It was a good compromise and I got an excellent education -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You attended a strict Christian college yet have an active sex life. How did you reconcile what some people would call conflicting lifestyles? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I have a VERY strong Christian faith and I have always been active in my church. I have taught Bible studies and help to lead a junior-high youth group. I encourage abstinence and if that doesn't work, safe sex. Above all I believe the Bible teaches responsibility which means sex should never result in unwanted babies, broken marriages, etc. OK, we could have a long debate on Leviticus. Anyone quoting it to me had better be ready to explain to me why they choose just the passages that apply to their argument and not the entire book. Keep in mind that Leviticus was a set of rules for the Jewish nation that had no constitution or civil laws. They lived their lives governed by religious laws instead. We can debate how the New Testament and Old Testament relate but frankly I leave that for my professors. If you don't agree with me already then there is no point in even discussing it. These are the principles that guide my behaviors. I am not trying to judge or condemn anyone for cheating on their wives - indeed some of my favorite guys to chat with are doing exactly that! I recognize that many marriages do not work and that spouses seek other outlets but that is another discussion entirely. Some of my hottest fantasies and experiences have involved married men. I love the feeling I get knowing that I am sexy and desirable enough that a man wants me so bad that he will forsake his vows to his wife and risk his career and marriage just to have me for a few hours. In the end, sex should be a fulfilling experience; one which glorifies the body and soul given to you by God. I love sex and so long as I am single I intend to experiment and pursue as many opportunities as I can. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Why did you want to be a teacher? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I always did well in school so from the scholastic side of it I enjoy being in a school environment and being in a classroom. I love working with kids and knowing I am having a positive influence in their lives. It hurts to know that I will never be a teacher again but hopefully I can find other ways to work with kids, such as church. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You work a lot with youth and as a teacher you had considerable influence over young children. Do you feel you were a positive role model for them? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Absolutely. I would never tell other people's kids about my sex life. That would be inappropriate and disrespectful at best, illegal and corrupting at worst. When I talk to young girls privately, I always encourage abstinence first but if they're already involved then I try to make sure they're at least protecting themselves. I have always strived to be professional and respect the desires of their parents. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You're to be marooned on a deserted island and can choose just 5 things/people to have with you for the rest of days. Food and water are plentiful and there's even a hut to live in. What/who would you want to have with you? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My Bible, my parents, my husband (assuming I have one someday) and a lifetime supply of birth control pills! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What political side do you affiliate with - left or right? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- That depends on the topic/issue. Some quick takes on the issues: Political: I think BOTH major political parties suck! Abortion: Personally I am against it but overall I agree with Clinton – safe but seldom. Iraq: Get the hell out ASAP. Afghanistan: (See Iraq) Bush: History will judge him as our worst President – EVER. Obama: I voted for him in 2008 but not sure about 2012. Health Care: can anything be worse than what we have today? Do something! Stem cells: Why not use embryos that are going to be destroyed anyway? NCLB: Get the federal government out. Education is a state/local issue. Incest: I know, not a national issue, but I would be against legalization. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Now that you're teaching at a Christian school, have you changed your lifestyle? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Not really. After all, it’s not like I tell everyone there what I do at home or anything like that. I dress very conservatively, as required, and would never even consider doing anything risqué while at work. I’m 24 now and I think in some ways I’ve matured and grown more responsible and would have changed regardless of where I work. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Have are any of the kids at school attracted your attention? Would you ever consider doing anything sexual with them? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Of course there are a lot of cute kids and I am sure a number of them will grow up soon into hot girls and hunks. Let me make this perfectly clear. I would NEVER consider doing ANYTHING unprofessional with ANY student. OK, to be completely I have had a few fantasies at home while alone in bed. That said, in real life NOTHING would ever happen. ========================= SECTION 6 - Personal Data ========================= Well, you can stop asking now - here it all is! age/birthday 25 (born March 1, 1985) height 5'6" weight are you kidding? measurements 34C-22-34 hair color natural brunette (blonde now) piercings none (tried a belly button ring for a short while) tattoos nothing permanent ethnic German/Italian education BA, Elementary Education occupation Home Party Model / Entertainment (Hope to back to teaching 4-6 grade) religion Protestant (raised Presbyterian) home city Mount Lebanon, PA marital status dating but not exclusive living at Sharing a house with my cousin Kristi hobbies shopping, movies, camping, water skiing, reading, sunbathing, being with friends activities church youth group helper, 12-15 age group favorite color sky blue favorite authors God (author of the Bible) Stephen King (OK, so I have a morbid side to me) favorite TV shows Lost (I miss it so!) Desperate Housewives How I Met Your Mother Modern Family Biggest Loser Amazing Race Survivor Big Brother American Idol (I know, forgive me!) favorite movies Inception Shutter Island Titanic (seeing anything in my choices?) Atonement Princess Diaries Lord of the Rings Shrek (the original) Same Time Next Year (oldie w/ Alan Alda, get the DVD) favorite books The Bible Tale of Two Cities The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo (all 3 books) favorite poem Invictus, by William Earnest Henley Road Not Taken, by Robert Frost Paradox ,by Clarence R. Wylie, Jr. Oh the Places You'll Go!, by Dr. Seuss favorite singers Josh Groban Point of Grace favorite actress Anne Hathaway (Princess Diaries, The Devil Wears Prada, Get Smart) favorite actor Toby McGuire (Spiderman) Matthew McNaughney Richard Gere musical tastes Christian Rock (e.g. Point of Grace) places I want to visit Hong Kong Amsterdam favorite outfit short-short cutoffs and a tight sheer cami traits I like in guys honesty, open-minded, intellectual, articulate, sexy, self-confident but humble traits I hate in guys greed, lazy, boastful, conceited, disrespectful age I gave my fist BJ 14 (he was 16) age I first had sex 14 (he was 16, same guy I gave first BJ to) age first sex w/ my Dad 16 do I masturbate? yes, 1 or 2 times a day on average favorite positions #1 cowgirl (me riding him, facing him) #2 missionary off-limits anal sex (exit only), anything painful or humiliating, bondage, non-consensual sex swallow or spit? swallow (MUCH better than all over your face) shaved? totally although sometimes in winter I experiment birth control pill since I was 14 number of guys fucked >60 one-to-one >200 including parties and groups number of blowjobs sorry, lost count ages ago number of girls >40 (counting my family - mom, aunt & cousin) oldest male partner 56 - I was 23 oldest female partner 41 - Tammy, mom's best friend, I was 22 youngest male partner 16 - several boys that age (I was under 18 myself) youngest female partner 18 - roomie Brenda (did cousin Tammy when she was 13) people I admire my parents Hillary Clinton Condoleezza Rice (ex Secretary of State) Carolyn Kepcher (The Apprentice, before she was fired) Paris Hilton (I want to be a rich, beautiful slut!) 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