Message-ID: <62444asstr$1355685002@assm.asstr-mirror.org> X-Original-To: ckought69@hotmail.com Delivered-To: ckought69@hotmail.com In-Reply-To: <CAJ1UnpF=866cpDgsL4yqS5dKXsgKoixu=LK6hpPKtEDpoSEcpQ@mail.gmail.com> References: <CAJ1UnpF=866cpDgsL4yqS5dKXsgKoixu=LK6hpPKtEDpoSEcpQ@mail.gmail.com> X-Original-Message-ID: <CAJ1UnpFZiN-==Hov2KfW_HzLDOhKDQTa4WUQUQMqKmvB7=dGLQ@mail.gmail.com> From: "*******" <4321craigslist@gmail.com> X-ASSTR-Original-Date: Sat, 24 Nov 2012 15:06:09 -0800 Subject: {ASSM} {ASS} Yearning to Feel Special (2nd segment of Awakening From Innocence) {LT} (MF rom 1st nosex virg sensual) X-Original-Subject: Fwd: {ASS} Yearning to Feel Special (2nd segment of Awakening From Innocence) {LT} (MF rom 1st nosex virg sensual) Lines: 633 Date: Sun, 16 Dec 2012 14:10:02 -0500 Path: assm.asstr-mirror.org!not-for-mail Approved: <assm@asstr-mirror.org> Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories.moderated,alt.sex.stories Followup-To: alt.sex.stories.d X-Archived-At: <URL:http://assm.asstr-mirror.org/Year2012/62444> X-Moderator-Contact: ASSTR ASSM moderation <story-ckought69@hotmail.com> X-Story-Submission: <ckought69@hotmail.com> X-Moderator-ID: dennyw, newsman From: ******* <4321craigslist@gmail.com> Date: Sat, 24 Nov 2012 14:59:55 -0800 Subject: {ASS} Yearning to Feel Special (2nd segment of Awakening From Innocence) {LT} (MF inc rom 1st nosex virg sensual) To: ckought69@hotmail.com I received one email with positive feedback for the first segment of this series, so I wrote a second segment. If you want a third segment, I'll need to receive at least two new people sending me emails with positive feedback and requests to read more. disposition-notification-to: <4321craigslist@gmail.com> <1st attachment, "Yearning to Feel Special (Rev.A2).doc" begin> Author: LTTitle: Yearning to Feel Special (2nd segment of <a href="http://www.asstr-mirror.org/files/Collections/Alt.Sex.Stories.Mode rated/Year2012/62414">Awakening From Innocence</a>)Summary: Though lacking breasts, Angie wants to feel like a real woman. With the help of her best friend Lynn (LT), she discovers herself.Keywords: MF rom 1st nosex virg sensual Yearning to Feel Special "Mmmmmm. What I'd give for this moment to last forever. Lynn, you'll never know how much I appreciate the way you braid my hair. Talk about pampering!!" "Hey, Angie, what do you think a best friend is for?" I responded. "I think this is just an added bonus. I'm lousy at braiding my own hair, and my mom is anything but gentle." "I hate to admit it, Angie, but I'm actually being selfish, as I love running my fingers through your long silky hair." "Now, if I could only find a guy to pamper me like this." "Angie, you're only 18. Have some patience. I know what you have to offer, and some guy is going to be a very lucky fellow" "Well, you're 18, also, and you have John." "That may be true, but I went through more than my share of selfish losers before meeting him. Guys like you; it's just a matter of time." "Yeah, Lynn, guys like me. I'm just one of the guys. That's the problem: I'm too much like one of the guys. For all they care, I'm just a guy with long hair. The most intimate they care to get with me is to show off how much larger their boobs are than mine, and I hate the fact that it is true." "Angie, I know you have that rare genetic disorder that prevents you from developing breasts or growing pubic hair, but you are still all female. The right guy won't see you as defective." "But I am defective. Why didn't my mom just abort me when she found out she was carrying a girl? She knew that her chance of passing this disorder to me was high. She knew how it pained her all her life to be defective like me. Does she expect me to just marry the first guy that will tolerate me, just like she did? I wish I was never born." "Well, I've seen your nipples, and they are probably the prettiest nipples I've ever seen." "That's right, Lynn, order sunny side up and get served an egg yolk." "Don't be so hard on yourself, Angie. I've never grown larger than an A-cup, and John seems to enjoy them. He says that large-breasted girls aren't anywhere near as enjoyable as being with someone who clearly shares her enjoyment with him and shows appreciation for his attention and affection. As I've heard, it's not what you have but how you use what you have that will make you special." "But you have something. They may not be big, but there is something to hold onto. I believe that the few guys who actually took me on a date only did so as I was an oddity, and they were curious to see how flat I actually am. I am so tired of the surfboard comments. I don't want a guy who feels sorry for me or has a freak fetish, yet who can see beyond my lack of breasts?" "Angie, what if I was to fix you up with someone who would appreciate you for the amazing person you are? Would you be willing to date him and take the time to see if the two of you could be compatible?" "No!! I won't get my hopes up and invest, again. It hurts too much, when I discover that this one is just like all the rest. My life has been filled with too many disappointments already. I don't even bother to fantasize about guys any more. Lynn, maybe I'll just live my life as a lesbian." "There's nothing wrong with being a lesbian, but I know how much you yearn to feel special in the arms of a guy, so you'd just end up resenting your female partners for not being men. It seems like you're setting yourself up for failure. If you never date, you'll definitely not find someone who sees you as special." "Lynn, you have to understand. I can't allow myself to care, before I'm sure that the guy can truly make love to me without seeing me as a freak. Maybe it would be putting the cart before the horse, but I can't continue to head off down paths that lead nowhere. The problem is that though I can probably find guys who are willing to lay the freak, I have no idea how to find the right guy for me?" "Hmmm. Maybe there is a way. Angie, how do you choose which new restaurant to go to?" "That's simple; I read the reviews." "But, how would you know that the reviewer's taste is similar to yours?" "You've got a point there, Lynn. Am I stuck with a roll of the dice?" "What if you knew the reviewer and that person had a deep understanding of your tastes, would that make a difference?" "Sure it would, but where would I place the ad to find this reviewer?" "Well, let's start with a list of those people who know you best." "That won't take long. There is only one person who knows and understands my deepest thoughts and feelings... you. But I don't see John comfortable with you bedding a bunch of guys to choose the right one for me." "Who says I'd need to sleep with them? You always say that I'm the most observant person you've ever met, the one who sees things that no one else can see. I've been developing my observation skills since I was very young. What if I choose someone for you, and he is willing to accept your requirement of sex first, relationship following? Would you go along with this scenario?" "Lynn, I'm not sure. I've never bucked the norm before, and I'm petrified that he'll laugh at me or reject me. That would be the ultimate in humiliation. Also, I doubt that I can freely share with someone, if I don't feel safe. I'd hate to put myself in a vulnerable situation and end up being taken advantage of or hurt." "What if I am present during your encounter? You know that I won't allow anyone to hurt you." "Would you, Lynn? Would you truly do all this for me?" "Angie, it would be an honor if you'd let me help you find the happiness you deserve." "Lynn, you're the best friend ever. Though this scares me to death, I also find it exciting. With all your amazing empathy, caring sensitivity and observation skills, do you believe that I have what it takes to follow through and make this work? Do you feel I have enough to offer someone, that my lack of breasts won't get in the way?" "You know me, Angie. Do you feel I have it in me to put you in danger or set you up for failure?" "No, Lynn, I know that you would never allow something to happen that you didn't feel would be right for me. You're the first person I've ever truly and completely trusted, and I always feel safe in your hands. Let's do it. Just one thing, though; I don't want to know anything about the guy in advance, because I don't want my mind to make assumptions that would lead me to build unrealistic expectations leading to disappointment. Just do your research, and then let me know when the one you have chosen has accepted this challenge." I held my arms out, and Angie eagerly accepted my embrace. We hugged for a long time, just swaying to and fro. Eventually, I felt moisture dripping down my neck. I quickly realized that it was from Angie's tears. I sat her down next to me on my bed, blotted her tears with my favorite stuffed Teddy Bear, and then we were back in each other's arms with tears flowing from her eyes and mine. "I love you, Angie" "Not as much as I love you," she blubbered back. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Two weeks later, on our college campus "Hi Angie. How's your class?" "It's fascinating, and I'm really enjoying it. It started off good and seems to just get better, almost like our friendship. I love learning both the medicine part and the people skills part, and I look forward to becoming a paramedic." "I'm glad you are enjoying it. I want you to enjoy all your life's choices. Talking about choices, I think it's time for an update on the challenge you gave me. I have been observing everyone I know or encounter, and I made my final choice." "What was his reaction? Was he scared away by my proposition? Was I totally weird to him?" "Angie, you know that I wouldn't even consider anyone who I believe would react negatively or inappropriately. I told him all about how I see you: your beauty, your intelligence, your quirks, your sensitivity and your humanity. You are exactly the type of woman that he has always dreamed of, and he looks forward to both giving you what you seek and then getting to know you as well as I know you, if not better. He did tell me that he wants to make sure that I inform you that he is just a normal guy, so don't build him up in your mind to be bigger than life, and don't fear that you'll disappoint him." "Does he know what I look like? Did you show him a picture of me?" "Yes, he knows what you look like, and he loves my favorite picture of you, the one where you're wearing that impish grin. He said that if he hired a police artist to draw his ideal woman, the picture would look just like you." "This doesn't sound real. I'm still scared and excited and loaded with mixed feelings; yet trust you with my heart and soul. Let's not delay this too long, so I don't get cold feet." "Angie, with this being Thanksgiving week, I think that Friday night would probably be ideal. You'll have some time to unwind from school and some time to savor the experience before you return to school. Does that work for you?" "I have no plans for this weekend, other than Thanksgiving meal with my family, so Friday sounds perfect." "Angie, my parents are both going to spend this weekend with their best friends. I told them I had plans and begged off, so my place would be the ideal location. Let's meet Friday morning, as I want to take you shopping before I prepare you for your evening encounter." "You are exceeding my expectations. I don't want to put you out." "I'm probably as excited as you and looking forward to our special day together." Angie grabbed my hands, looked into my eyes and said, "Lynn, you are the best friend anyone could ever want. What have I done to deserve someone so special?" "Angie, healthy people are not like magnets. With healthy people, likes attract likes. It is the fact that you are so special to me that keeps me coming back. Let your mind go blank and come to me on Friday as an empty slate, one to be filled with nothing but beauty and love." Angie threw her arms around me and hugged me tenderly, whispering, "Thank you, thank you, thank you," in my ear. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Friday morning at my home At 10am sharp, the doorbell rang. If nothing else, Angie has always been known for her punctuality. In she came, bouncing with anticipation and excitement, with a grin frozen on her face from ear to ear. She grabbed me, and I flashed back to a picture of us in junior high school, filled with boundless energy. "Angie, before we start, let me know if there are any limitations you want to make on this evening. If there is anything you don't want, let me know, now." "I'm sure that you've taken care to protect me from diseases and pregnancy, so I'm open to anything that feels right." "OK Angie, I know that you've always downplayed your femininity, as you felt you didn't have any femininity to play up, but today is all about being a woman, so just go with the flow as I help prepare you for your special evening. Since I'm also not endowed, over the past few years I've researched and discovered stores that specialize in drawing attention to our greatest assets, enhancing our true femininity and beauty. I want to take you to a store that specializes in personalizing the ideal outfit for each individual. The staff is comprised of very observant trained artists. Your body is the canvas upon which they will layer their art. Since nudity is your ultimate objective, nudity will be the starting point for their creation. They have an eye for not only what shows on the surface, but also what is revealed as the layers are removed. I will not leave your side all day, so let me know if anything is uncomfortable or you'd like to see any change or have me help you with anything." "Lynn, I'm sure that there will be plenty of discomfort, as it will all be unfamiliar, yet I'd rather get the discomfort out of the way today, so it is gone by tonight. I trust you and am open to whatever experiences lie ahead." "OK, let's go." I took her hand and led her to my car. Though she was filled with nervous giggles on the drive to the shop, I could tell that she was truly ready for and desirous of this next step in her life. When we got to the shop, we met the three attendants that were assigned to work with Angie. Introductions were made, and we met Sue, Frances and Wendy. Sue began by taking pictures of Angie. The goal was to complement her light peach skin tone, sun-streaked sandy brown hair, hazel eyes and the blush of her lips and cheeks. I explained to the attendants that her partner prefers simplicities and subtleties, so that was what they agreed the look would be. The pictures were blown up, and color cards were made up, to help in matching her natural subtle tones to the complementary tones of any added material. Angie had never seen her eyes blown up before, and was amazed to see all the variations of color. Sue informed her that hazel eyes are ideal to work with, as the colors change like a chameleon, allowing for transitions in color, more like the constantly changing art of nature than a static snapshot. Different items were matched to the color cards and then brought into our private room, which was surrounded by walls of mirrors. Frances said that Wendy would undress Angie, while the others watched. That way, their artistic eyes could observe her natural reaction to being exposed, and determine combinations that would help her revelation to be more multi-dimensional. Though obviously embarrassed by the exposure, Angie cooperated and eventually stood before us wearing nothing but her birthday suit. Frances asked Angie to move in certain ways, bending, twisting, and turning, so they could see how her body as a whole fit together. She commented that though Angie lacked the fatty deposits that made up breasts, her muscles were very toned, and her long, lean lines were very attractive. She had subtle, yet obvious, shape to her body. Her hips flowed, rather than being bony or boxy or out of proportion. The definition of the muscles on her shoulders, arms, chest, back, stomach and legs added sleekness to her femininity. Her body looked delicate, yet not fragile. Her long silky hair framed her face very nicely and reached just to the point of teasingly adding to the allure of her well-shaped nipples. More pictures were taken, so they could incorporate the tones of her nipples and streaked labia. At this point, Wendy examined Angie closely and recorded all areas that needed slight touchups (such as removing stray hairs and sanding off calluses). A large recliner was wheeled in, covered with warm towels. Angie was invited to make herself comfortable on the recliner. I walked over to her and held her hand, as Wendy set to work fine-tuning the foundation of their art. I could tell that Angie was becoming comfortable with her nudity in our presence. Her breathing seemed more relaxed, and even her body appeared more at ease. Angie smiled at me, whispered "Thank you," on occasion and even gave my hand a gentle kiss. After Wendy ran out of challenges to perfect, Angie returned to a standing position as the three attendants prepared to dress her. Frances stated that they were limiting themselves to opaque, nude and pastel colors, for the most part, with bolder highlights as subtle surprises. They started with a pair of panties that rose high on her hips. The panties seemed to mold to her body, highlighting her womanly mound and lips. They appeared to be almost sheer. The color was very close to her skin tone at the top, though added streaks of brown and gold highlights subtly drew one's attention toward her obvious femininity. Next, a bra was brought out. "What is that for?" questioned Angie. She never had a need for a bra, so never wore one. Frances explained that while some women wear bras for support, others wear them to draw attention with subtle hints of what was to come. There would always be that curiosity to discover what was hidden behind door number one. Clothing enhances sensuality and sexuality more than total nudity. The hint of nudity is always more arousing than actual nudity. The material of the bra was similar to the material of the panties. There was no attempt to pad it, pretending that there was more than actually existed. These clothes were designed to enhance, not to fool anyone. Angie looked at herself in the mirror and commented, "Even I'm starting to believe that there could be a woman in here. I'm seeing things I've never seen." She strolled and turned and appeared to flow with more confidence. The dressing continued with stockings and garter, a light flowing skirt of earth tones and a simple button down silk blouse that seemed to enhance her muscle tone. Frances recommended that Angie keep the blouse unbuttoned to just above her bra clasp. There was no need for a belt, as everything was the perfect size for her body. Not wanting to detract from the subtleties of the package, jewelry was kept at a minimum. Angie was given little opal studs for her ears and a small opal pendant on a light gold chain for her neck. The changing opals were reminiscent of her ever-changing hazel eyes. To finish off the package, soft suede shoes with short heels were placed on her delicate feet. With the attendants finished, Angie silently walked around, looking in all the mirrors, seeing herself from different perspectives. Finally, she stopped and said, "Who is this woman? I'm curious; I'm eager to get to know her." She then slowly walked up to me, held my arms and then enveloped me in what can only be described as a loving embrace. After packaging everything up and returning to her street clothes, we walked out of the shop. We remained silent for a while, then Angie turned to me and said, "That was the most amazing experience of my life. I felt I was discovering myself for the very first time. If my day ends with that, I would be overjoyed. Knowing what lies ahead, I find myself speechless." "Well, then, let's go get something to eat," I said. "I don't know if I can get any food down," responded Angie. "Well, you'd better eat now, as I doubt that it will get any easier later, and I don't want to spend the evening being entertained by your singing belly." "OK," Angie laughed, "after everything you are doing for me, I can't put you through that kind of torture. Since I'm tone deaf, I can only guess what the results would be." Our late lunch/early dinner was filled with laughter and playfulness, and Angie was able to get her food down, though I admit that she did make quite a mess with her food. I guess it is hard to eat, be playful and be neat at the same time. After finishing our food, I asked, "Ready to go home, now?" Angie took one deep breath and held it. After slowly releasing the breath, she said, "It's now or never... Bye bye kid; hello woman." With a look of confidence, she took my hand and led me back to the car. After we got home, I sent Angie off to the shower, while I transformed my room into a den of pleasure, placing candles, pillows, glasses with a pitcher of water, washcloths and towels with an insulated bucket of warm water, setting the ceiling fan for gentle airflow and checking the mood music. I had previously put clean sheets and blankets on the bed. I just finished giving everything a once over when Angie returned, wearing her new panties, bra and stockings, along with an ear-to-ear grin. I said, "Hey Sexy, give the room a good once over, while I grab a quick shower." After finishing my shower, I sat Angie down at my vanity to do her makeup and hair. "Remember," I said, "he likes subtleties, and so I'm going to limit the makeup to just a little highlighting to draw attention to your assets. You don't have any liabilities to downplay, so I've got an easy job. Of course, I'm not sure that you even need anything to enhance your assets, as you are already glowing with beauty. Don't ask me to braid your hair. Remember you are a beautiful woman, not a scrawny tomboy. I'll brush it out so it is full and flowing. I don't know how he'll be able to keep his face out of these silky locks, breathing in that nice clean aroma, or be able to keep his lips off of those luscious lips of yours." Angie just blushed again. She looked adorable when she blushed. I then helped her to put on the rest of her clothes and accessories. "OK, Angie, it's that time. Are you ready?" I asked. She just slowly nodded her head up and down. "Let's give this room one last look over, to make sure you are comfortable with everything, and nothing is missing." We double checked everything and then went downstairs to the living room. No sooner did we get downstairs, the front door opened. "Tom?" said Angie, quizzically. Grabbing me, she dragged me into the next room and whispered, "What is your brother doing here? I thought we were going to be alone tonight." "I thought you let go of your lesbian fantasy. Didn't you say you wanted a guy to be present?" "Yes, I do, but I still don't understand why Tom is here." "Angie, you've always said that you were impressed by my openness, my observation skills, my sensitivity, my caring, and my confidence." "Well, yes, but what does that have to do with Tom?" "Who do you think taught me all those things that impress you?" "Tom?" "Who else?" "You don't mean that Tom is interested in me?" "Why not? He first noticed you years ago, but knew that you weren't ready back then, so kept a respectful distance." "He likes how I look?" "Yes, very much so, but there are many other things that he has told me impresses him about you." "Like what?" "Your playfulness, your energy, your willingness to get your hands dirty, your sensitive, caring ways, your curiosity, your intelligence, your respectfulness, and the fact that you understand how it feels to be made fun of, so don't make fun of others. That is just a small sampling of the observations he has shared with me over the years." "But, me? Tom really likes me?" "Yes, Angie. Now, do you want to leave him standing out there all alone all night?" Firmly taking me by the hand, Angie returned us to my waiting big brother. "Tom, I'm so sorry," Angie said. "You must think me very immature and insensitive for how I'm acting." "No, Angie," said Tom. "I wasn't interested in the deception, in the beginning, but LT explained that you felt it was better if you didn't know in advance, so you wouldn't create a scenario in your head before you had a chance to live it. That made sense to me, so I went along with it. Though I've never started a relationship the way you are seeking, I will respect your wishes. I must admit, though, that I've fantasized about sharing intimacy with you long before I learned about this plan of yours. I used to view you as exceedingly cute, but seeing you this evening, I have to admit that you are a gorgeous woman. Now, in following your instructions, before we spend more time getting to know each other better, may I have the honor of loving you the way you deserve to be loved?" Tom held out his arm to Angie. She placed her hand on his arm, and he led her up the stairs. I followed behind. When we got to the second floor, I approached Angie and softly said, "I will respect your wishes. If you've changed your mind and would like privacy with Tom, I will leave the two of you alone." "No," exclaimed Angie. "This is just as much about us as it is about what I will be experiencing with Tom. Lynn, I love you. You will always be my best friend. No one could ever remove you from that special place in my heart." Putting her arms around me, she drew me close and our lips locked in a very loving kiss. "Thank you, Lynn... for everything. Stay with us. He was yours long before my time with him began, and I won't let anyone push you out of the picture." Turning to Tom, Angie said, "I'm ready now, my handsome man." Lifting her in his arms, he carried her over the threshold. After Tom laid Angie gently on the bed, he sat down next to her and sensually stroked her hair. I sat down in a stuffed chair next to the bed and watched as Angie's chest rose and fell. Their eyes were locked on each other. He caressed her face and touched her lips with his finger. I saw her tongue come out and gently touch his finger, sensing an electrical charge jumping between them. She reached over and put her hand on his leg. Sliding up his leg she reached the reassurance she needed to discover. Firm and throbbing, his manhood told her that this was truly real. He wanted her. She was no longer flawed. She was a complete woman preparing to share complete love with a desiring and desirable man. Lying down next to her, Tom began to kiss Angie passionately. Their hands roamed over each other like blind people eager to learn all they could about the other. Angie felt the buttons on her blouse being slowly undone. She felt the cool breeze as her blouse was laid open. "Mmmmm, pretty," Tom breathed, as he ran his fingers over the smooth material, feeling the little mound in the center grow in his hands. "Is this for me?" he asked as he nibbled and kissed her ear. "Yes, my love," replied Angie. "It's all for you... now and forever." After undoing the front clasp of her bra, and uncovering its hidden treasures, Tom lovingly gazed at Angie's beauty. He began to slowly place tender kisses around her chest. She was having difficulty breathing, as her muscles involuntarily contracted. Eventually, his mouth found and engulfed a nipple. As he suckled, he felt her grow into his mouth. "Tom," she cried out, as she held his head tight against her breast. Yes, her breast. For the first time in her life, she realized that she did have breasts, and they felt magnificent. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ It was close to dawn before the two lovers finally began to doze off. Before dozing off, Angie looked over at me. I was still enthralled by the love I saw being shared, shared by the two people I loved most in this world. She smiled, pulled down the covers and patted the space at her side, inviting me to lie down. As I went to lie down, she shook her head and whispered, "No clothes allowed in this bed." I removed my clothing and snuggled up next to her. Tom and I each laid with an arm over her, as she reposed, enveloped in her cocoon of love. When we awoke, I looked over at Angie and asked, "Well, Miss No Longer A Virgin, how do you feel?" "A little sore, but otherwise... wonderful. If this is what feeling special is all about, I'm in it for the long run." I got up, leaving the lovebirds with a little privacy and headed to the kitchen to make breakfast. <1st attachment end> ----- ASSM Moderation System Notice------ Notice: This post has been modified from its original format. 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