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Subject: {ASSM} Spirit Renewed 1/2 (mf, MF, Cons, Rom)
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Spirit Renewed By Heathen57  (mf, MF, cons, Rom,  1/2)

Spirit Renewed

I fell back into the chair in the dressing room.  This was the
40th -or was it the 45th concert that we had played in as many
days.  I had four hours before I had to be at the airport.  After
being in an enormously successful Rock band for a few years,
branching out on my own had been good for my career.  The
downside was being in a different city every night or two,
sometimes you can't even remember who you really are.

I could hear the activity as the stage was pulled down and packed
onto the trucks that would take it to the next town.  This crew
seemed to be packing out in record time.  Even with all the audio
equipment they would probably be done in less than an hour.

Ever since my latest album had gone platinum, we had been on this
tour.  Now the time had come; we all needed a break.  My manager
and I went a few rounds about it, but I insisted that my crew
should get at least a few weeks to spend with their families.  I
was planning to relax in Tahiti, where hopefully I would be able
to remember the reason I was doing this again.  I was very close
to total meltdown, both physically and mentally.

The sounds from the stage died out as the last of the meat racks
and road boxes were sent up the ramps and the doors to the
trailers were shut.  I went out the door of the dressing room and
toward the loading dock.  I remembered when as a struggling band
we had to hump all of our own equipment, and I always made it a
point to meet the local crew and thank them for the job they had
done.  I shook hands with all of them, signed a few of the
posters that were left, and gave them all a shirt that had the
band's logo and the word's "Local Crew" on the front.  I even
horsed around a bit telling jokes.

Soon enough it became quiet and I wandered out onto the darkened
stage.  The house lights were dimmed and only the work lights
were illuminating the stage.  I stood on the spot downstage
center where just a short while ago I was bathed in twin spots,
singing and playing for the packed audience.  In the silence of
the room you could feel the presence of those fans as they
cheered and sang along.  This was a time of comfort for me -- a
time to look back to when things were simpler and when my first
band was just starting.

The first band was one that never should have been.  We were
juniors and seniors in high school and had absolutely no idea
about management and all the ins and outs. We just wanted to make
music and we got good.

We called ourselves Purple Passion, a silly name that befitted a
bunch of amateurs playing covers of the current hits.  Ace
McCleary was the drummer, Hugh Foster on bass, Jimmy Clayton on
second guitar and me, Jason Daniels, on lead.  We were practicing
for an audition in a few weeks at a small teen club.

I was heading out of school thinking that something was missing
in our band. As I passed the band room on my way out, I heard
what we needed.  Someone was practicing after school.  The song,
"its Too Late", was being played on the piano. Whoever it was had
such a sense for the song that one would think Carole King was
playing. Her voice was more Carly Simon, but it was true to the
song.  This girl played with passion!  I went in and introduced
myself to her.

"I know who you are.  I have heard you play."

"How did you do that?  Our band has never played anywhere."

"I live across the street from where you practice."

Now I was putting two and two together.  I had seen her sitting
out on her porch when I would leave Ace's house.  I had waved at
her every time I left practice and she would shyly wave back. 
"You're Donna aren't you?"

When she nodded at me I continued, "Donna, this may come out
strange, but I have been trying to figure out what was missing in
our band.  And I heard it before I came in. Would you want to
come over and practice with us this afternoon?  I can borrow a
keyboard.  I really think you would be just what we need."  I was
running out of breath by this time.

She gave me a shy smile and said, "I guess.  I have my own board.
 Are you sure the other guys won't mind?"

"Not after they hear you play and sing they won't."

I gave her a ride home and waited while she went in and got her
boards.  She came out with a stand and two cases.  I grabbed the
stand and walked to the entrance to the basement.

The guys greeted me and Ace recognized his neighbor.  "Hi Donna,
I didn't know that you wanted to hear us, I would have invited
you here before."

I piped up then, "Actually guys I would like to give Donna a
chance to jam with us.  I think you might be amazed."

We hooked her twin Rolands into the junky sound board that we had
borrowed and told Donna to warm up a bit while we got ready.  I
heard the sounds of the same song that she had been playing
earlier came through the speakers.  I was getting her inputs
leveled out but I noticed that all other movement had ceased. 
Looking up, I saw the rest of the guys staring at Donna.  She
felt the eyes on her and stopped, looking like she had done
something wrong.  Hugh looked over at me and stated, "Damn, she
is GOOD."

I grinned, "Wait until you hear her voice."

I went over to Donna and had a few quiet words in her ear.  She
just nodded and said, "I'll try."

I went over and picked up my Gibson.  "Try and keep up boys," I
grinned and hit the opening riffs of Fleetwood Mac's, "Rhiannon."
 I wasn't a Lindsey Buckingham, but I loved the song and knew it
by heart.  On the 8th bar, Ace came in on the drums, with Hugh
and Jimmy right behind.  By the time we were half way through I
think we all knew we had something.  It was magic.  Before the
end of the afternoon we had a new keyboardist and female
vocalist.

We won the audition and got a permanent gig playing every
Saturday night. When I started writing some original material
with Donna, the band started getting noticed.  We put out a
couple of discs that we sold at the gigs.  Somewhere along the
line, Donna and I fell in love.

Our first dates were just getting acquainted.  I knew something
was there, but I was scared to admit my feelings.  I finally
uttered the words to her at a movie one night.  I had my arm
around her and just whispered, "Donna, I love you."  Her reaction
was to snuggle closer and say, "I love you too."

 From then on we were almost inseparable.  Making out with Donna
was fantastic.  We would rapidly advance to removing each other's
clothing and then bring each other off with out hands and mouths.
 Her body was incredible.  Her breasts were not huge but stood
out proudly.  She always thought her hips were too big but I
didn't agree.  To me she was the perfect woman, and I could never
wish for something better.

We stayed together through the rest of the school year, growing
ever closer. We went for long walks in the park.  One of us would
call the other every night just to say,  "I love you." Things
that to some would be silly but were very important to a young
couple in love with each other. We played the senior prom that
year, dressed in our rented best. After the prom, Donna and I
gave our virginities to each other.

We had played our last song for the evening and were packing up
when Donna whispered in my ear that she had told her parents that
she was staying with her best friend after the prom.  She also
told me that she had reserved a room for us.  I think we were
done loading the equipment in record time.  The rest of the guys
took off for parties and we headed for the room.

As soon as we were in the room, Donna turned and kissed me
passionately.  He r soft tongue grazed my lips and I opened them
willingly.  My hands roamed over the soft silk of her dress
searching for the zipper in the back.  I slowly lowered it as she
started working on the buttons of my shirt.  Our clothing was
soon on the floor and I lifted her up and carried her to the bed.

As she lay there in nothing but her light green panties and
stockings, I marveled at this sexy woman who wanted me.  I could
see a tinge of fear in her eyes that was fighting with the
overwhelming lust.  I moved up next to her and began kissing her
again covering her breasts with my hands.  When I finally moved
back to look down at her, she slid the panties off and pulled me
on top of her.  "No more foreplay tonight.  I want you to make
love to me."  I moved over her and she grabbed my cock, sliding
it around between her lips to get it wet.  When she had me at her
entrance, she pushed up causing me to slide in until the head was
just inside her.

"Be gentle." She whispered.  I was as gentle as I could be,
enjoying the wonder tightness of her tunnel as well as the heat
inside.  It felt better than anything I could have imagined in my
wildest fantasies.   I continued to rock back and forth and was
soon buried to the hilt.  She was surprised that it didn't hurt,
but was fascinated by the feeling of fullness she had.  She
started rocking her hips and I got the idea.  We started to move
together and it wasn't long until I could not hold back any
longer.

She couldn't either.  As soon as I thrust into her one final time
she started jerking and moaning in her own orgasm.  The clenching
of her walls caused me to cum like I had never done before.  We
finally collapsed, exhausted and very satisfied.

We made love twice more before I had to take her to her friend's
house just as the sun was coming up.  As I drove off, I was
positive that I would never find another girl that I loved as
much as I did Donna.

But all good things had to come to an end.  Hugh moved away. 
Jimmy found a girl and abruptly quit the band.  With two of the
founding members gone, we just let the band fall apart.

After a year in college, I decided to go to California and try my
hand in the music business.  The final goodbyes were tearful with
promises to call and write. Donna was going to come out to
California when I finally got established.

After doing every odd job I was capable of to have a roof over my
head, I finally won an audition at a small recording company as a
studio musician.  I was finally on my way.

What I seemed to be losing was Donna.  Her letters when I first
moved were long and full of her inner thoughts and dreams.  Then
they started getting further apart and a little more distant.  By
the time three of my letters went unanswered, I knew I had lost
her.  My heart was broken and it was then that I went into a
writing frenzy.

My big break came when I was at the studio early and playing one
of my compositions. One of the biggest stars of the day heard it
and asked to use it on his next album.  Other pieces followed and
I eventually started pitching my songs and myself.  A small label
picked me up and the CD was a surprise hit on the charts.  Bigger
contracts and more hits followed.

==========<<<   >>>===========

I was brought out of my thoughts by the lights being shut down. 
I moved to the stage entrance and out to the limo.  There were a
few fans still waiting, so I signed autographs on the way to the
open door.

There was a delay with the Lear Jet that had been chartered.  I
was too tired to worry about the reason and just sat back in the
lounge to wait it out.  As exhausted as I was, I couldn't get to
sleep.  I finally gave up and with nothing better to do I opened
up my laptop and started going through fan mail.

I have a system for the fan mail I get.  Letters or e-mails are
screened by a secretary.  The bulk consists of, "I love you, can
I have a picture" and are handled by the secretary.  Any that are
legit questions or something that she thinks I should see are
forwarded to a special e-mail account.

I was going through answering the normal questions I guess any
entertainer gets, when one made me stop and look again.  It read:

Dear Jason,

My name is Kelly Brooks.  I have listened to your music ever
since you first put out "Time was Against Me."  I even frequent
the chat room and the forums on your site.

I have a question for you.  My mother said she remembered you
when you first started out.  I know you grew up near St. Joseph,
Missouri and so did my mom.  It might be possible and it would be
the neatest thing in the world to think my mom knows someone as
famous as you.

Sincerely, Kelly (Jasfan4ever)

I went past her letter and answered a few more before
disconnecting, but her letter kept coming back to me.  I ordered
something to eat and before long the plane was ready.  We took
off to Chicago where I would be playing the next night.

The flight was as smooth as could be expected and I did catch
some sleep. We arrived just after sunrise and I was whisked away
to the hotel, where I slept until early afternoon. After having a
few cups of coffee and room service, I met with Edgar, my
manager, and took care of some details. I also assured him one
more time that I was not going to extend the tour another 50
dates.

Finally alone for the rest of the evening, I opened my laptop.  I
logged in on my fan site and was surprised to find out that
Jasfan4ever was on in the chat.  I then did something I almost
never did; I logged into the chat as jd1andonly.  I got the
normal hellos and a private message from the moderator asking me
to verify who he thought I was. I did so and asked him to keep it
under his hat for the moment.  I also asked him to PM Jasfan4ever
and ask if she would meet me in the private area.  I wanted to
speak with her.

I opened the admin room and in just a moment her name appeared
below mine.

Jasfan4ever:  The mod asked me to come here.  Did I do something
wrong?

Jd1andonly:  Nothing wrong.  Did you write an e-mail to Jason
Daniels yesterday?

Jasfan4ever:  Yeah I did.  How did you know?

Jd1andonly :  Because I read it.  I wanted to make sure I had the
right person.

Jasfan4ever:   Are you really him???

Jd1andonly:  Yes.  But don't tell the rest of the room.  I wanted
to ask a few things before I answered your questions.

Jasfan4ever:  <nervous>  Go ahead.  I can't believe I am talking
to you. :-D

Jd1andonly:  Is your mom's name Donna?

Jasfan4ever:  Yes it is.  You mean you really knew her?  OMG that
is so incredible.

Jd1andonly:  I remember her very well.  Did she ever say anything
about me?

Jasfan4ever:  Just that you were famous around here before you
moved to the west coast.

Jd1andonly:  I see.  Are you still in the same town where we used
to live?

Jasfan4ever:  Yeah, mom and I live in Grandpa and Grandma's old
house.  Why?

Jd1andonly:  Just curious.  Brings back some memories for me.

Jd1andonly:  I will let you get back to the regular chat.  Just
keep this under your hat please.

Jasfan4ever:  Can I at least tell Mom I talked to you?

Jd1andonly:  Of course.  Ask her if she still remembers "Purple
Passion" lol

Jasfan4ever:  I will but what does that mean?

Jd1andonly:  She will tell you.  Talk to you later.

Jasfan4ever:  Thanks for talking with me, I still can't believe
it!!

Jd1andonly:  Bye

Jasfan4ever:  Bye.

I knew I might have opened a can of worms with that conversation.
 Would Donna even want those memories brought up?  I figured that
she was no longer married, if she ever was.  The pressures on the
road and the shock of hearing about Donna had me spinning. Maybe
if I could close that chapter of my life it would quit haunting
me. After all, in a career that involved many regrets, that was
the one that haunted me the most.

The two concerts we did in Chicago were not up to my regular
standard.  The fans did not seem to notice and I did try and put
on a good show.  My mind was wandering, but the band covered for
me.  As soon as the concert was over and the autographs were
signed, I hopped the plane to get to Kansas City.  I had made the
decision to at least try and contact Donna and try to get some
kind of closure for that place in my heart.

We arrived at Kansas City International at 2:30 in the morning.
As soon as I got to the room, I left a message for a wake up call
at 9:00 and tried to get to sleep. Sleep finally took over and I
dreamed of the old days.

I was actually up before the call.  It was almost funny.  Here I
was, playing and singing to thousands almost every night, yet I
was nervous over the thought of seeing someone from my past.
Those thousands were strangers, I could not even remember their
faces.  Donna had been an important person to me.  If I would let
myself admit it, she was still important to me.

The limo ride allowed me to fret once again if I was doing the
right thing. I might be making the biggest mistake of my life,
but I really had to know.  As we drew near to the town, I knew I
had done all the worrying I could do and it wouldn't matter
anyway.

The house was just as I remembered it -- showing its age a bit
now, and the gray trim was fading.  But the flowerbeds were
starting to show the promise of the blooms that resided in my
memories.  I went up to the porch and knocked on the door, then
my whole body froze.

The woman in front of me was definitely Donna.  The years had
been good for her.  She had gained a few pounds that had rounded
out her figure, but her face was still the same. Her light brown
hair was tied up into a bun and she was wearing a simple
sundress.  She still turned my head.

For her part, she was equally as shocked.  "Jase!?  Is it really
you?"

"Donna!  I was hoping to find you here.  I had to come and see
you."

The hug I received took care of any doubts I had  about her
reaction. "Come in!  I can't believe you came back here after all
these years.  I know you're a big star now, so why did you want
to come back?"

"A bunch of small things that came together all at once.  The
last was ane-mail from a girl named Kelly that said her mother
knew me.  I talked to her and found out that her mother was named
Donna.  I hoped that it was you, but even if it wasn't, I
realized I needed to come and see you."

I followed her into the dining room, where I sat down while she
went and got us something to drink.  We talked of how things had
gone in our lives.  She had been married for a very short time,
but they both had decided that it would be better if they didn't
stay together.  After that she had worked in the local bank until
last year, when her parents had passed away.  Her father had a
heart attack shortly after her mother had died from cancer. 
Since then she had stayed home and only worked part time at the
local library.

She asked about my personal life, and I told her that I really
had not found anyone.  The national rags had put me with several
models, actresses and the like, but I had never found a woman who
would be able to handle the schedule I had to keep.  And I put
the groupies rumor to rest immediately.  I loved my fans, but not
in that way. I started to ask about her daughter when the front
door burst open.

"Mom?  Did you know that there is a huge stretch limo out
front.?" She rounded the corner to the dining area.  She saw me
sitting at the table and promptly collapsed onto the floor,
landing on her butt.  "You're. but. you really. OH NO!"

When her legs gave out I had jumped up.  Going over to her, I
offered her my hand as she stared at me like I was a ghost.  Her
mother came in to make sure she was all right, trying to hold
back a giggle in the process.

"When you get off the floor Kel, you should say hello to my very
dear friend Jason Daniels."

"Oh I know who he is, everybody in the world knows who he is.  I
just can't believe that he is here."  She finally got her wits
about her.  "I am so happy to meet you in person."

I let go of her hand and she looked at it like it had suddenly
turned to gold.  We finally got her to calm down enough to relax
a bit and she started asking questions. She wanted to know
everything there was to know about the rock star known as Jason
Daniels.

Donna tried to get her to quit talking so much, but I told her I
really didn't mind.  I dispelled the rumors, and corrected the
tall tales she had heard.  She finally left to change out of her
school clothes and we were again alone.

"Donna, she is a beautiful young lady.  She takes after you in so
many ways."

"Thanks.  She has been the love of my life ever since she was
born."

"Do you think she has any plans for tomorrow night?"

"I doubt it.  Her best friend will probably be staying over like
she does every Friday. Why?"

"I thought she might want to come to the concert.  This is the
last stop before taking a well-deserved break.  It will be taped
for HBO and I thought she would like to see it.  Of course she
can bring her friend if she wants.  But only if you will come as
well."

Kelly came back down stairs more composed than before.  But she
lost it quickly when I asked if her and her friend were available
to come to the concert.

"We have been trying to get tickets for months.  It was sold out
within three hours.  Of course I would love to go.  Can I call
Chrissie and tell her?"

As soon as Donna said yes, she jumped up and ran to the phone. 
We could hear the conversation from the living room as she told
her friend that she had tickets.  She came back in, "Chrissie
would love to go, but she wants to know how I managed to get
tickets. What can I say to her?"

I grinned over at Donna, "Just tell her that it helps to have a
mother with connections in the music business."

"Yeah, that would be so rad.  I won't tell her anything until the
concert." Then she bounced off to finish the conversation.

I stayed just long enough to make sure they knew where to come
and how to get in past security.  They were to be escorted
backstage until just before the show when they would be taken to
the front row.

I left there feeling better than I had for a long while.  Donna
and I had found that we were still friends after all this time,
and Kelly was a wonder.  For the first time in months, I was
looking forward to the show.

The trio arrived in the late afternoon the next day.  As soon as
their ID's were checked they were brought back to the waiting
area.  Both girls were speechless when they came in.  They were
introduced to the band and we gave them some tee-shirts and some
other stuff that was there.  Each of the guys in the band signed
a promo poster for them, writing a personal message instead of
just the name.  Oscar, our bass player wrote "For Chrissie: One
of the prettiest and sexiest girls I have seen on the entire
tour.  Love ya, Oscar." Chrissie was embarrassed, but was beaming
the entire time.

As the opening band started warming up, the ladies were escorted
to front row center. When we came out on stage I spotted them
standing and screaming in the front row, Donna was doing as much
yelling as everyone else.

We all played better than we had for a long time.  I guess that
the excitement that I was projecting rubbed off on them and we
were energized.  During the performance of my most famous ballad,
I moved to the front of the stage and sang it directly to the
three of them.  Donna's eyes were misty and the girls were almost
swooning.   If the truth was known, I was a little misty myself.
After the song I introduced Donna and the girls.

"Tonight I have a special guest here.  This woman was
instrumental in starting me on the path to where I am today. 
Stand up and wave Donna.  Folks, she is a great friend and one
hell of a keyboard player."

Donna stood and waved to the crowd behind her.  The cheering and
noise was tremendous.  Since I knew that this was the last
concert and that they could edit it out of the special, I again
appealed to the crowd.

"You guys want to see what we sounded like together way back in
the beginning?"  More cheering and clapping.  "Donna, come up
here for the encore."

Amid the yelling and cheering, Donna made her way up to the
stage.  She whispered in my ear, "Jase, I should kick your ass
for this." Her voice did not sound like she meant it and her
smile confirmed it.  I gave the guys the song and the key and we
launched the opening bars to one of the first songs Donna and I
ever wrote together.

Within this city Trapped in the walls of steel I was searching
for someone One who could make me feel.

Naked I was feeling Standing in the rain Hurting from times
before And needing so much more And finding nothing but pain.

And then you arrived And I felt the healing begin You told me
that you loved me  From the rain you took me in.

It had been a minor hit on my first album and I had made sure
Donna had gotten credit for co-writing it.  While we were still
together, we had sung it many times. She had not forgotten the
lines and her voice, even though a little lower than before, was
perfect.  We nailed it, and for a moment I felt the joy I had
when we started out.  I could see she felt something as well. 
That was the close of the show, and as Donna exited with the band
congratulating her, the girls were brought back to the dressing
room.  As we got through the door, Matt Wilson spoke up.

"Damn that was great, Donna.  The crowd loved it.  You have a
hell of a set of pipes on you.  Why didn't you follow this lug
and show him how to sing?"

"After he left, I had other responsibilities to deal with.  I
wanted to, but it just didn't work out."

While the band continued to talk, I dropped into a chair.  Some
rapid calculations confirmed what the 'responsibility' was. 
Kelly was just over 16, and I had been gone just under 17 years.
Kelly had her mother's maiden name. The realization washed over
me and I started to shake.  Donna seen me sitting there, and must
have guessed that I had figured it out.

The band headed out.  Most were anxious to start their break. 
The girls came in congratulating Donna for having the guts to get
up on stage.  Kelly looked at her mother in a new light,
realizing that her regular ol' mom could have been a major star.
I asked the girls if they wanted to see the behind the scenes,
and then asked my stage manager to take them up so they could
watch the load out.

Finally, it was just Donna and I in the room.  She looked at me
with shame and fear in her eyes.  I started with the biggest
question that was nagging at me.  "Is Kelly my child?"

Donna looked down and nodded.  I exploded.  "Why didn't you tell
me?  Didn't you think that I had a right to know?  I just thought
that you didn't want me around because you found someone else. 
When you didn't write me back, I was so depressed that I didn't
care any more.  And now I find out that you had my child and I
have missed out on all the things she did growing up.  I can
never get the time back.  Did you think that I was so into myself
that I didn't care?"

Donna was crying openly now.  Her body shook with heavy sobs. 
When I saw this my anger drained.  The hurt was still there, but
it took a backseat to the pain I was causing her.  I kneeled on
the floor in front of her.  Using my hand, I lifted her face so
she was looking at me.  "Please Donna.  Just help me to
understand."

"I wanted to tell you.  I kept it a secret from my parents as
long as I could.  But they figured it out and forbade me to even
write to you.  By then you were on your way and I couldn't bring
myself to possibly damage your career.  Out of all of us, you
were the one that could really make the big time.  Then I met
Arthur.  He was much older and my parents approved of him.  We
got married out of convenience, though I thought I could learn to
love him for real.  That was why we divorced.  He refused to
share, and I was still in love with you.

Kelly has no idea.  She knows that her father was my high school
sweetheart, but she also knew that my parents would not allow any
discussion about it.  By the time she was seven she quit asking.
Without my parents knowing, I did list you as the father so she
would be able to find out some day.  I'm sorry if I hurt you, but
I was young and scared and my parents were so demanding.  I hope
you can forgive me."

END PART ONE

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