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This material is Copyright, 1997, by Uther Pendragon. All rights reserved. I specifically grant the right of downloading and keeping ONE electronic copy for your personal reading so long as this notice is included. Reposting requires previous permission. If you have any comments or requests, please E-mail them to me at anon584c@nyx.net. If you save erotic stories, and you prefer that other household members not be exposed to them, I recommend that you use a file zipped with the PKZip option -spassword. (Where the password that you choose would, presumably, not be "password.") This still leaves the titles of the files and the fact that they are encrypted open to anybody. All persons here depicted, except public figures depicted as public figures in the background, are figments of my imagination and any resemblance to persons living or dead is strictly coincidental. FORGET ALL THAT by Uther Pendragon anon584c@nyx.net Part Twelve, Conclusion: "Coming," I replied. I moved to the rocker and adjusted my bra. Bob handed me The Kitten and sat down. She began to feed, but I paid more attention to the conversation than I normally do while nursing. That was lucky, as my sister-in-law addressed her next sentence to me. "You know, Jeanette, you shouldn't put yourself down. You're not a housewife locked in the kitchen. You're a translator of scholarly works." I decided that there was no way that The Kitten was going to get French during this meal. "Y'know, Kaytoo," Bob said, "you *think* you're a feminist. You're really an imperialist. "You know, dear," Katherine said, "wrapping an insight in an insult is hiding your light under a bushel." "He means, Kathleen," I said, resisting the temptation to start my sentence with "You know," "that you're projecting. You don't want to be a housewife; you want to be a psychoanalyst. I don't have dreams of a career in translation; I'm building a family. If that means translating and I'm able to translate, fine. I really enjoy it. If that means changing an enormous pile of messy diapers, so be it. Though I *don't* really enjoy that. "You aren't in any position to talk, you know. Your present job pays less than my first job paid for forty hours a week; and you are on call thirty-six hours out of forty-eight. You're building something, but so am I. For that matter, I had four jobs over ten years, not counting a few second jobs. I left two of them to follow my husband into another state and one to have a baby. I have references from all four, and glowing references from the last job where I was secretary to the president of a small company. Ask your father if Brewster would hire me." "Not Bob's wife, of course," he said. "And you may be overqualified for any available position. But personnel would drool over that sort of record." "I'm not," I told her, "just-a-housewife. I wasn't just-a- secretary, either. But I was a very good secretary, and I think I'm a good wife and mother. I'm an adequate housekeeper." "You're the finest wife a man could ask for," Bob said. That wasn't what he'd said the night before. "I think that you're a wonderful mother. You're a very good housekeeper, but too compulsive." If Bob found that people could write their names in the dust on a table, he would start an autograph collection. "Remember the three men on the same job," he said to his sister. "One said that he was laying brick, one said that he was earning a living, one said that he was building a cathedral." "You Brennans don't know any more about families than a fish knows about water," I said. "Bob says that he never gets any support from his father; and he believes that he believes that. But when push comes to shove, he says 'my parents will back me.' And his parents, both parents, will back him. And back you. And will back me because I married him." I broke down in tears then. Bob looked over, decided that coming over would be a mistake, went back to eating. I think that The Kitten's next message, when she paused and looked up at me, was "Don't be sad, Maman." "Quelquefois on doit," I told her. Her next look wasn't any happier; well, I didn't like the news either. "C'est-une partie de la vie." That didn't persuade her. "Et la vie est tres bonne." I glanced over at the table. Katherine was speaking to me. "My children might be ignorant of family, dear, but Russ and I built our own cathedral." Bob was looking down at his plate. Odd. His father was glaring at him. God, my husband loved me! He would walk through fire for his father's approval; but he sat there under his father's disapproval instead of coming over to me. And he did it because that was slightly better for me. How *dare* that bastard put his son through that, I thought. I would have liked to tell him what I thought of him. Why not? He had done that to me two days ago. Then the reason why not came to me. It wouldn't build that family I was claiming as my goal a minute ago. I needed a better approach. I thought; indeed, I schemed. "She built a cathedral, Jeanette," Bob's father said blithely. "I mostly carried hod." And swung a wrecking ball. I had thought of my lever, and he *was* addressing me. "Well, sir," I started. "I don't know much about management. And I know less about medicine. So this free advice may be overpriced. But *I* would think that a man who has had a bypass operation would ... learn to delegate." Bob sputtered. A particle or two of food escaped, and I was glad that The Kitten couldn't see. "Now, Bob tells me what a great manager you are. It may be simple hero worship, it may be true of the office. What I see here at this table is a Dilbert cartoon." He winced. "The man who knew me better than you ever will fourteen years ago, a man who has bent his considerable intelligence to finding out what makes me happy for those fourteen years, checked on me. He decided that I *didn't* need his presence. Then you put him through agony because he followed his knowledge rather than your guess. "I appreciated your glare when you used it to protect my modesty from the boy in church. I *don't* appreciate your glare when you use it to punish my husband because he cares more for my feelings than for your ephemeral opinions. I especially resent it because I know how important those opinions are to him." And *that* was now the longest speech he had heard from me since the wedding. "I'm sorry, Jeanette. I just worry about his making the mistakes that I made." "And you worry about his not having your virtues, especially your prime virtue of loyalty. (I don't think that is the essence of manhood, though Bob has tons of loyalty, especially to me. I just think that it is the essence of Russell Brennan.) But don't you see the catch twenty-two? You worry about his being like you, and you worry about his being unlike you. That doesn't leave him a whole lot of options." I needed to look to The Kitten again, who hadn't appreciated the anger in my voice. Bob leaped into the breach. "I'm not making your mistakes, sir. I'm busy making my own." That brought the tension down a little. "As long as we have a little creativity, dear," Katherine said, "we can pretend that we're making progress. You know, when Kathleen came along, I had a whole list of the mistakes that I had made with you. I wasn't going to repeat them. The problem was that Kathleen wasn't Bob." "Problem!" Kathleen was playing incensed. She was probably actually incensed, as well. "The mistakes that I made with Bob, dear, weren't at the level of dropping him on his head, whatever you claimed later. They were things that could be right for *a* child, but were dead wrong for *that* child. They might have been okay for you. On the other hand, some of the things that worked best for Bob didn't work at all for you." The subtle Brennan had spoken. If the others picked it up, well and good; if not, I could use it later. "You know, dear, it is really unfair to sit there nursing a child." What did she expect me to do? "It's like holding a hostage. Nobody's going to zap Jeanette when it might disturb The Kitten." "I didn't choose when he would glare at Bob." Nor did I care about fighting fair. I was protecting my family. "I'm sorry, Jeanette," Bob's father said. "Will you forgive me?" "Why Mr. Brennan," I said in my *very* sweetest voice. Bob looked up. He knew that voice. "You already know the answer to that. Since you ask me in that way, of course the answer is ... no!" "What?" Aside from the way he handled his son, the man was no fool. He was Bob's father, after all. "You weren't glaring at me. It wouldn't have hurt if you had. You were glaring at Bob. I can forgive the *past*, but I can't make peace with you while you are at war with my husband. Ask his forgiveness first." "Of course I forgive you," said Bob. "Not even your omnipotent God can forgive the unrepentant, Bob." "Son, her theology may be shaky, but her take on people is correct. I most humbly beg your pardon." "You have it," said Bob. He sincerely meant it. "And you have mine," I said, not particularly sincerely. For thirty seconds, I thought that we would witness the millionth hug in the Brennan household and the first between two men. They went back to their plates, but they had *looked* like a hug was possible. Bob, in particular, looked extremely huggable. "It ain't The Firm," said his father. "It's damn-well La Compania." That wasn't good French if it were intended for French. "Anyway, dears," said Katherine, "does this idea of collection of tapes look viable?" "I don't see why not," said Bob. "It's just as I was saying about Father's tapes. Only your list goes deeper. It is important social history. Try to guess at a date for those stories. For your own memories, of course, you don't have to guess. "On the other hand, I might become a real historian, after all, if I can keep sucking off my family. The rise and fall of the Hamiltonian system in Ward Tech would be a nice piece of institutional history. It couldn't be told today; it wouldn't be acceptable if it were based only on your memoirs, sir. It could, however, be pasted together over time, and told in twenty years." Have I mentioned that Bob thinks in the long term? "Not your century is it?" his father asked. "Not my century, but I sat at a dinner table for five or ten years hearing nightly lectures on the strengths and weaknesses of the twentieth century American corporate system. I think I could navigate those waters without too many blunders. Indeed, with your guidance and a few letters of introduction, I might be able to write the story without quoting you at all. I would dedicate the book to Grand-pere Gorge Profonde." "That's deep throat," I put in. "Sounds wonderful," said his father, "Meet me in the garage Monday." "Give me a slice of white, please," Bob said. "and a bit more dressing too." He passed his plate down. "Wonders will never cease," said Kathleen. She sounded more shocked at that request from her brother than at anything else which had been said at the table that day. I was sorry to disappoint her, but I knew what was coming. Bob cut the turkey up into small pieces, mixed a little gravy in with the stuffing, and brought the plate over to me. "Nod when," he said. Then he held out a small piece of turkey on the fork. I nodded. "Your daddy loves you, Kitten," he said. "Your mommy loves you.... And your daddy loves your mommy...." I ate, the table conversation finally resumed, The Kitten got her food and her message. Much later, Katherine got her granddaughter while the rest of us got our dessert. The Kitten played with the beads. When Bob's father had finished his pie, Katherine said, "Want her, Russ? I warn you she needs a change." "Better a wet Kitten than a lonely chair. Before I go, though, I want to say something to Jeanette. I don't withdraw one word of what I said about your *actions* of taping Bob. I did over-react, though, when I talked about *who* you are. You still have my deepest admiration." "That's terribly kind, sir," I said as he hauled The Kitten off towards the changing table. "And, in return, I really want to express my respect for the way that you handle the tax accounting at Brewster." "Really, dear," Katherine said after he walked away. "Neither of us is a fool you know. Where do you think Bob got his genes? I don't say sarcastic things about your husband." "Between your husband and your son, you have to maintain some degree of neutrality. Between my husband and my father-in- law I don't." "I think," Katherine said, "that you have delivered more than Russ is capable of hearing right now, dear. Why don't you let that sink in this trip. See what happens through this next year. He has heard you, but he'll turn defensive if you say more. I say this as a person who loves them both very much." "I only have two more messages, anyway," I told her. Well, two that I'd thought of yet. But ignoring Katherine's advice about her husband would be idiotic. "I'll give them to you and you can deliver them in a few months." "I certainly can, dear. Perhaps I will." "Bob's father has to be an expert on budgeting," I said. "He does it for a whole damn company. When the two of us were on a tight budget, he never asked to see what we were spending money on. He trusts Bob's judgment on everything that he trusts *his* judgment on." "I'll think about that dear," Katherine promised. "You think about who needs to hear that message. And the other?" "Would it really be so wonderful," I asked her, "if Bob was precisely the husband that his father wants him to be, and I was precisely the wife that Bob's father wants him to have. Would that be so wonderful if we then got divorced because we weren't meeting the deepest needs of *each other*?" "Thank you, dear. Now I believe that I should have a little quality time with *my* daughter while we do the dishes. Will you excuse us, dear." "Mom!" Kathleen said. "I spent the day in the kitchen." "You haven't done the dishes this whole visit, dear. Get all your work out of the way in one swell foop. Besides they are my grandmother's dishes and I can trust them neither to the dishwasher nor to Bob." "I notice," Bob said to me when they had taken out the first load, "that you didn't try to defend me from *that* accusation." "You're an excellent husband, mon mari. You are a bull in the china dishwater. Let's go upstairs." "Now you're talking!" "Keep your libido under control," I told him. "I just had a heavy meal, and your mother's right. We have to talk." Upstairs, I dropped down on the stripped bed, my head on the foot end. Bob put the pillows in new cases and passed me one. He lay down on the floor with the other pillow, lying in the opposite direction from me so that our right hands could meet easily. "I just wish that I could defend you from your family as well as you defend me from my father," he said. "My family did its worst damage before I even met you," I pointed out. "You can't defend me from that, you can only heal me. You've done a marvelous job of that." "Thank you." "Thank *you*. I love you." "I love you, too," he said. "Even if you have just had a heavy meal." "Your mother was right, as always." "About what? I've known her to be wrong." "Your father doesn't distrust your judgment in family matters." "He gives a damn good imitation." "He sees what everybody else sees. That you are so much alike." "I think of us as opposites." "That's right," I told him. "What did Whitman say about 'I contain contradictions'?" "*You* are asking *me* about poetry? Anyway, that doesn't matter. What your father sees is someone who looks spookily like Russell Brennan. He thinks Russell Brennan fouled up royally in the family department, now your mother thinks differently...." "My mother," Bob said, "says differently." "But what she says, or what she thinks, or what the reality is.... Is there any reality in such situations?" I was getting lost. "That is the 'absolute truth' question," he said. "The people who say that there is no absolute truth have a point, even if their certainty is a logical contradiction and their tactics border on the fascistic." "Can we leave faculty wars 'til next week." "You asked." "Anyway," I went on, "no one else's opinions on that subject matter to what your father sees. He sees someone who looks spookily like Russell Brennan, and whom he loves. He sees Russell Brennan as a horrible failure in the family department. *Thus*, he sees the person he loves in imminent danger of being a horrible failure in the family department. The particular thing that you do doesn't matter in the least. You might try plastic surgery on your chin." Bob laughed at that. The Brennan chin was a family trait. It looked good, and almost identical, on the two of them. Kathleen could have done without it, although she was pretty even with it. "No way," he said. "The Kitten has it already." He is, unfortunately, right. "Anyway. Bob Brennan looks like a disastrous husband and father to him because Bob Brennan looks like Russell Brennan to him. Now I get the impression that he was a fine father when he was there." "Anybody could be a fine father as often as he was there," he said, a bit unfairly. Bob's father had a remarkably intense job; he *could* have come home expecting his wife to neglect the children briefly so she could soothe his aches and needs. But Bob's impression of that past is just another impression. I wanted to deal with the present and future. "And you are trying to be as fine a father on a three- hundred-sixty-five day basis." "Not yet." "Goofus!" I said, and he is a goofus. "Three-sixty-five a year, every year. You are a fine husband and a fine father. Just remember that your father doesn't worry about your fouling up in the family department because of anything you do, and he won't be persuaded that you are a good husband and father by anything you could do. He looks at you and sees his younger self. It's his younger self that he sees failing." "I love you." "And I love you too. Will you think about it?" "Loving you?" he asked. "I think about it all the time. I used to lie for hours in this room and think about nothing else. Of course, in those days, *I* got to lie on the bed." I decided to let him have his diversion. Bob can't *not* think about an idea once it's raised. "I could always go downstairs and lie on the couch," I said, knowing that he would never take me up on it. "I fail to see the advantage," he said. "In the first place, it's much narrower and we'd be even more crowded. In the second place, we'd have an audience." "Can't you think of love apart from lust?" I asked him. "Easily. I just can't think of Jeanette apart from lust." I suspect that he can't breathe, let alone think, apart from lust. He took my hand and kissed each finger. I took it back after a while and said, "Can you find the volume with the article about Gide?" He groaned theatrically, but handed it to me. After a bit, he got out the print-out and went through it some more. Working side-by-side is awfully companionable. Too bad we never could get in the hang before we were married. I actually got the next volume for myself. I wasn't going to get to Verne before returning to Michigan. The book was closed beside me on the bed when Bob woke me. He said, "Dad's calling. Here? down in the rocker? or should I bring the rocker up?" "None of the above. Do we have a clean bib?" The Kitten, once deposited in the highchair, settled down for the game. She even opened her mouth one time without my making the face. She still tried to grab the spoon, but I have the reaction-time in our family. I remembered to stop when she was half full. We played a little "This little piggy." When she was done, I washed her off. She was half an hour from her cranky time, but nobody was around to notice that. I snuck up the stairs, and we lay down on the quilt together. When Bob came back, he took the rocker. "We only want Mommy, eh," he said. "Bob could we have another name?" "Other than Brennan? other than The Kitten? other than?" "Mommy and Daddy," I explained, "are what I still call my parents most of the time." "How about 'Dad,' did you ever use that?" he asked. "Or I could be 'Pops.' Unless we move back to Boston. We could just use 'Maman' all the time, but it is going to sound a lot like 'mommy' to a lot of people." "Let me think about it. You are a sweet, accommodating, husband." "Darling, if it's important to you, and not to me.... Actually, I want to be 'Dad.' I just felt we should wait. Terminal consonants are going to take a while." He wandered over to the bed, and made it with the newly- washed sheets. He lay down on top with the print-out. After The Kitten fell asleep, I joined him. I decided to read the Verne article and actually stayed awake straight through it. Just before dinner, we tried out the baby monitor. Bob stayed upstairs. When I was in the dining room I could hear his voice saying, "This is Deforest's prime evil," quite clearly. His father shouted for him to come down. The Kitten didn't wake until the table was being cleared. Rested, dry, and fed, The Kitten went to Katherine and from her to Kathleen. Bob carried the rocker back upstairs. The Kitten really doesn't get *cranky* at night, she just is very possessive of Maman. Which is fine; Maman, although she tries not to show it, feels very possessive of The Kitten. Indeed, I was tempted to call our friends and cancel the party on Sunday. I reconsidered. We would be back in Michigan in a week. I would have The Kitten to myself for most of the time, (and her best times) most days. I lay with The Kitten on my belly and my head in Bob's lap. The conversation above me solved the problems of the world. Bob explained why strict censorship of any pictorial or voice media, combined with absolute freedom of the printed word, would reverse the decline in literacy. "Are we boring you, dear?" Katherine asked. I shook my head. I wasn't paying enough attention to be bored. My daughter was barely stirring on my lap, and Junior was barely stirring under my head. We went upstairs early. The Kitten was tired of Maman, too. She played on the quilt, if throwing all ones toys away and crying because there is nothing to play with can be called playing. Soon, I was nursing her in the rocker. I talked to her disjointedly. Bob lay on the bed going further into the printout until The Kitten was quite done. "You know," I said, "with the door locked, there is no rule that you have to change all her diapers." "I think this business of giving you a break is a good thing. Besides, I would rather have you lie there and think lewd thoughts." There is a grain of truth in that. Bob changes his share of diapers, but much more than half the ones just before we lay The Kitten down to sleep and begin our own bed-time ritual. That was a fair trade. He changed The Kitten; I thought of all the ways that we had made love this trip. I remembered straddling him in the rocker, and of his hand playing with me in that same rocker while he tasted my milk. I remembered my moving above him on the bed, and of his moving behind me on two separate occasions. I remembered all the times that he had tongued or kissed me to a climax. Those sort of merged together, as I remembered one climb to glory after another. (I can never remember the actual climaxes more than moments after they happen.) I remembered lying between the end of the bed and his lap. I remembered him moving above me and within me and against me. I thought that this was the sweetest time of all. "Thinking any lewd thoughts?" he asked, after The Kitten was safely ensconced in her crib. "Nothing lewd," I answered, "only licit, unexceptionable, practices with my lawful wedded husband." "You make it sound so bland," he said while just touching one nipple, "but look so enticing." My nipples were standing up, and a nursing mother's nipples stand rather tall. "Kiss me first," I said, meaning my mouth before my nipples. He pecked my mouth, pecked a nipple, and came back for a real kiss. His tongue was exciting of itself, but more exciting as a promise. His hands passed over me as our tongues played tag. My thighs spread as he stroked them. "Oh, how I do love you," he said as he took the invitation. Then he pressed his mouth more firmly to mine. My hips rose to press against his clasping hand. He parted the lips and touched me within. "Oh, how I love you!" he said as he felt my slickness. "Both together tonight," I asked, "Please!" He could easily have pushed me over into my climax, but I wanted him along with me. He kissed me with love and petted me with lust. I thought that he had forgotten my request when I stiffened under his hand. He had remembered; he just enjoyed my readiness. Leaving the most sensitive area, he urged my legs farther apart as he climbed between them. Then the strokes up and down my valley were not from his fingers. Soon, he placed himself. His entrance was slow, and steady, and filled me, and then pressed me down. "Oh!" he said. "I love you!" I think half his weight was supported on that pivot for a minute. Then his strokes followed one regular beat. The sliding, the filling, the pressing excited me until the individual sensations were lost in the blissful warmth. I was just aware of his hand sliding between us. Then the warmth burned to fire, and the fire consumed me. "Oh! Love *you*," I heard through my own moans as a writhed beneath him and flared around him. Then his motions sped, sped again, and ended in a driving thrust. "Oh love," he said, in time to each spurt. "Oh love, oh love. *Oh* love!" He lay on me, in me, coming out of me, for minutes afterward. Then he moved over and we cleaned ourselves off. We turned onto our sides and nestled into a spoon. He hugged me as our breaths eased towards sleep "Love," he said. And so it was. The End. FORGET ALL THAT Uther Pendragon anon584c@nyx.net 1997/12/24 1999/12/30 2000/09/10 2002/12/29 This is the last segment of the last story (so far) in a series of stories about the Brennans. The beginning of this story can be found at: http://www.asstr-mirror.org/files/Authors/Uther_Pendragon/www/brennan/fat_a.htm Parts 1 - 3. The first story in the series is: http://www.asstr-mirror.org/files/Authors/Uther_Pendragon/www/brennan/forever.htm "Forever" The directory to the entire series is: http://www.asstr-mirror.org/files/Authors/Uther_Pendragon/www/brennan.htm Brennan Stories Directory The directory to all my stories can be found at: http://www.asstr-mirror.org/files/Authors/Uther_Pendragon/www/index.htm -- Pursuant to the Berne Convention, this work is copyright with all rights reserved by its author unless explicitly indicated. +---------------------------------------------------------------------------+ | alt.sex.stories.moderated ----- send stories to: <ckought69@hotmail.com> | | FAQ: <http://assm.asstr-mirror.org/faq.html> Moderator: <story-ckought69@hotmail.com> | +---------------------------------------------------------------------------+ |Discuss this story and others in alt.sex.stories.d, look for subject {ASSD}| |Archive at <http://assm.asstr-mirror.org> Hosted by <http://www.asstr-mirror.org> | +---------------------------------------------------------------------------+