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From: "Frank Downey" <fabfour.fan@verizon.net>
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Subject: {ASSM} Transcending the Role (Part One), by Frank Downey (mf teen rom slow)
Date: Thu, 14 Mar 2002 16:10:09 -0500
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Here's a new one.

If you like my writing, you'll like this one. If you don't like my writing,
you won't like this one. If you like my writing but are waiting for me to
break out of my sweet mostly-teen romance rut, you won't like this one <G>.

In other words, more of my usual.

Not sure how many parts this is going to be, but this is *not* another Dance
of a Lifetime <G> Five to eight, I think.

As always, if you are under eighteen or if reading erotica is illegal where
you are, begone.

Copyright 2002 Frank Downey. Personal use is fine, any other is not. All
rights reserved. Under no circumstances is this work to be distributed to
any web sites without my permission, especially pay sites.

Do not repost.


TRANSCENDING THE ROLE (Part one)
by Frank Downey
fabfour.fan@verizon.net


"Lamawakka high school ain't seen nothing like this, eh?"

It was the first day of school, and junior Tomasz Kuzsincsalyi plopped down
at the lunch table next to his best friend Josh Wallingford. "Ah, it's a
madhouse," Josh replied. "You'd think the king of the world enrolled, or
something."

"Well, I think it's kinda cool," Kylie Kim said as she sat down. Kylie was
Tomasz's girlfriend and one of Josh's best friends. "Hey, who would have
ever thought a famous actress would move to Lamawakka and enroll in school
here?"

"True, but it's still ridiculous," Josh countered. "I mean, look at them.
The clique, I mean. Jacqueline Dumars and the rest of her acolytes are
practically falling over themselves."

"This much is indubitably true," Tomasz agreed. "But, then again, when doesn
't Jackie make an ass out of herself?" He took a bite of his cheeseburger.
"Anyhow, I was wondering how Miss Fowler managed to end up in East Bumfuck,
New York."

"Well, she did that film here this summer," Josh said.

"I know that. But to move here?"

"This is the way I heard the story," Kylie informed them. "Her parents were
worried that living in Hollywood was bad for her. Basically, she was taking
acting way too seriously, was getting caught up in the whole business, and
was turning into an acting drone. Her parents wanted her to be a real
teenager for a while. When they came here to film the movie this summer, her
parents fell in love with the town, and bought a house. Her dad's a lawyer,
and found work at a firm in Albany without much of a problem, so here they
are."

"Why anyone would choose to live in this frozen wasteland is beyond me,"
Tomasz said. Lamawakka was in upstate New York, about thirty miles north of
Albany.

"It's a nice place to live, and you know it," Kylie countered.

" You, my dear, have an older brother to shovel all the damn snow."

"Whine, whine, whine. This from a guy who plays football."

Josh smiled at his friends' banter. "Are you two married already? Cheez."

"I wonder if Meredith Fowler has ever shoveled snow," Tomasz snickered.

"She's live in Southern California all her life," Kylie informed him, "I'd
bet she's never even seen snow."

"Well she will," Josh giggled. "Soon enough, and lots of it!"

THREE WEEKS LATER


Josh climbed the steps to the bleachers at Lamawakka High's football
stadium. He often went there after school, to think-and to write. Josh wrote
short stories and poetry, and found the football stadium a productive place
for it. He could find an isolated spot up in the bleachers, but it wasn't
complete quiet, as the football team was practicing on the field below. Josh
didn't like to work in complete quiet. And, if he was stumped for an idea
and needed to put his notebook down for a while, he could yell insults at
Tomasz while he practiced.

Josh was going to be seventeen in a few days, on September 30th. He was six
feet tall, with sandy brown hair and brown eyes. He was in good shape, but
nothing fantastic. He was considered good looking by the girls in school,
but didn't set off any stampedes He wasn't an athlete. He got excellent
grades, but didn't flaunt it, so he wasn't really known as a brain. He wasn'
t in the popular crowd, nor the artsy crowd, nor the jock crowd, nor the
hard-core nerd crowd. He was just a normal high school guy. The one thing
that set him apart was his love for writing. He often submitted pieces for
the school's literary journal, and was a regular reporter and columnist for
the school newspaper. He hoped to go to college for journalism, and combine
that with fiction and poetry writing.

He sat in the stands for a while, scribbling away, occasionally glancing up
at the football team working out. He shared a quick wave with Kylie, who
came to watch Tomasz practice. Every time he thought of them, Josh felt
proud of himself, as he had introduced them. He had met Tomasz early
freshman year, and had known Kylie, his next-door neighbor, since early
childhood. They had been dating for a year now. Most people thought that
their relationship was strange-a six foot four Hungarian football player
dating a five-foot nothing Korean artist. However, Josh had recognized that
they had a lot in common-a basic sensitivity and a wacky sense of humor to
start-and had hooked them up. So far, so good.

He had been there for about a half hour, working on a poem, and then he
heard it-someone sobbing. It was definitely female, and definitely close by.
He looked under the stands, and saw a girl sitting there, holding her head
in her hands, and crying. Josh, worried, climbed down the stands and walked
around to the back. As he found the girl under the stands and approached
her, she heard his footsteps and looked up.

Damn, he thought to himself. It's the actress. Meredith Fowler.

Josh had to admit, she was gorgeous. Dark blonde hair, almost perfect
features, and deep blue eyes. Even though the eyes were reddened and her
cheeks were blotchy from her crying, she was still stunning. Seeing that it
was her, he would have run the other direction-but she had seen him, and
Josh did try to be polite.

"Are you OK?" he asked.

"Well..." Meredith sniffled. "Um.yeah...I'm fine." She attempted to smile.
It was feeble.

"You've been crying," Josh stated.

"Uh, well..." Meredith didn't know what to say to that. She just looked up
at him, still weepy. Josh made a decision, and sat down next to her.

"Jeez, I didn't think Lamawakka was that bad. And you haven't even
experience an upstate New York blizzard yet!" Meredith smiled a bit, which
was the desired outcome. "Joshua Wallingford. Josh for short." He held out
his hand.

She took it. "Meredith Fowler."

"I do believe I knew that," Josh grinned.

"Yup. Everybody knows who the resident freak show is," Meredith grumped.

"Freak show? I hadn't noticed. However, I think everyone around here does
know your name."

"Yeah. Where did you come from, anyway?"

Josh pointed upwards. "I was sitting in the stands. I heard you crying. Far
be it for me to let a damsel in distress weep alone, so..."

That made Meredith smile a bit. "What were you doing in the stands?"

"Thinking. It's a good place for it. Also for writing." He held up his
notebook. "I like it up there, nobody bothers me. Plus my best friend is on
the football team, so, if all else fails, I can rag on him for his
technique."

She smiled again, but then sobered up. "So, you heard the big Hollywood
actress weeping, and decided to get in on the dirt?"

Something was really bothering this girl, Josh realized, and it wasn't him,
although he was handy so she was baiting him. He refused to take the bait.
"Actually, I just heard the crying. When I looked down, all I could see was
the top of your head. I didn't realize it was you until I got down here and
you looked up at me."

"I'm sorry," Meredith said, instantly contrite. "It's been a very rough
 day."

"Obviously."

"It's ironic, if you think about it. My parents wanted to live here so I
could be a normal teenager for a while. Ha. Normal teenagers are not treated
as circus acts by their classmates, are they?"

"Not usually, no."

"Right. So, I come here, to the middle of nowhere-no offense intended-and I'
m fawned over like I'm some sort of curiosity. Either that, or people are
intimidated by me, expecting me to be a snob or something. God. I think
normal teenagerhood is completely beyond me, at this point."

"May I tell you something?"

"Sure."

"Part of that is the company you've been keeping," Josh pointed out. "Not
all of us are fawning. I'm not fawning, am I?" Meredith giggled at that.
Josh went on, "But every time I see you, you're with the Status Is
Everything Clique-Jackie Dumars and them. Of course they're fawning over
you. You hang around with them, their status goes up, at least in their
minds."

"I see what you mean."

"Plus, if you are hanging with them, the rest of the student body is going
to be intimidated and assume you're a snob. Because they all are. To be
honest, I thought you were a snob and hanging around with them because you
fit in with their we're-so-damn-cool mindset. I wouldn't have thought
differently if I didn't see you down here crying about it."

"Yeah," Meredith sighed. "You got to understand, they sucked me in-not that
I'm blaming them because I let them get away with it. But they were fawning
all over me from day one. Look, I don't make friends easily. I'm sort of
wary. There's too many people who want to know me for what I do rather than
who I am."

"Yeah, but that group fits right into that category."

"I know, but they approached me, while I was having a hard time approaching
anyone. I know nobody in town, you know? And I was sitting in the cafeteria
first day of school, and here they all came. And I suppose sometimes I'm too
nice for my own good, because I kept letting them come around instead of
telling them to get lost."

"And now you can't approach anyone else, because they think you're part of
that group, and, thus, a snob and a bitch besides."

"Right. And I'm miserable, alone, and completely lost." She started weeping
again.

Josh reached out a hand to her, and she took it, grabbing on like it was a
lifeline. He let her weep a bit, and then asked her a question, "Meredith,
honestly, do you think you're something special because you're a Big Hollywo
od Teen Star?"

She stopped weeping and giggled at his hyperbole. "No. What I am, is an
actress. I think I'm good at it, I'll admit. But all that makes me is a good
actress-nothing more."

"Do you want to be a normal high school junior?"

"Yeah. The reason my parents moved me here is because acting was taking over
my whole life. While I don't completely agree with taking such a drastic
step as moving clear across the country, I do see their point, and taking a
step back from acting is probably a good thing. And, yeah, I see the kids in
school acting like normal high school students, and I wish I could do that."

"You can, you know," Josh told her. "First of all, it's only been three
weeks and the fuss will die down. Second of all, you just need to make
friends. Normal, non-fawning, non-intimidated friends. You seem like a nice
person. Let people see that and not Meredith Fowler The Actress, and it will
all come together. You just need to get away from The Pissy Clique and make
some normal friends."

Meredith smiled at him. A little corner of his brain registered that her
smile could light up all of Lamawakka. "You know what? I think I just did."

"Did what?"

"Made a normal friend." She grinned at him, and then stood up. "I have to
go. My parents will put out an APB soon. You're in my English class, aren't
you?"

"Yeah."

"Good, I'll see you then." She took a step away, and then turned back to
him. "Oh, Josh? Thanks. A lot. It helped."

"You're welcome." She threw that dazzling smile on him again, and then was
gone.

Josh shook his head, scooped up his notebook, and made his own way out from
under the stands.


THE NEXT DAY


Josh plopped down at his regular table in the cafeteria. As usual, he beat
his friends there, as his last class before lunch was right across the hall.
He was getting settled when he saw someone approaching. It was Meredith,
with her lunch tray.

"Hi! Mind if I sit with you?"

"Not at all, if you don't mind hanging with my friends."

"Love to. You can save me from Jackie and the Hyenas."

"Ah, so you're just using me to save you from the brat pack, eh?"

"Of course," Meredith giggled. "Plus, judging by yesterday, you're much
better company."

"Sit. Oh, and be warned. My best friend, Tomasz-he won't fawn, but he is a
serious film buff, and may pepper you with questions."

"I can deal with that. Toe-MAHS, his name is?"

"Yeah, and that's not an affectation. He's Hungarian. His last name is
KOO-zhin-ch-eye, and don't ask how it's spelled."

Meredith giggled. "I'll take that under advisement."

"Here they come." Tomasz and Kylie sat down across from Josh and Meredith,
looked up, and then looked at each other in amazement. "Guys, this is
Meredith. Meredith, this is Tomasz Kuzsincsalyi and Kylie Kim."

"Hi!" Meredith said. "I hope you don't mind me invading your table."

"Not at all," Kylie said, wide-eyed.

"Better us than the brat pack," Tomasz joked. "Hi. It's nice to meet you. I
loved Princess of the Potomac."

"Thanks!" That had been a film Meredith had done a year ago. "That was a fun
one to do."

"So, you did one here this year?" Tomasz asked.

"Yeah. It's coming out right before Christmas. It's called Garrett's Gift,
and it's about a high school hockey coach that gets sick. I play his
daughter."

"A tearjerker?" Tomasz asked.

"To a point," Meredith confirmed. "Not too bad. It's understated. Definitely
not a comedy, though."

"Change of pace after Princess of the Potomac?"

"Exactly."

"Tim Hicks is the hockey coach?"

"Yeah. Second movie I've done with him. I had a small part in the World War
Two flick. He's an amazing actor. Great guy, too."

"He comes off as a great guy," Josh interjected, "but you never know how
much of that is just acting."

"Oh, with some of them, it definitely is," Meredith laughed. "Believe me,
Hollywood is full of assholes. However, with Timmy, it's genuine. And not
only is he the salt of the earth, I learned more about acting from him than
from anyone else I've ever worked with. He is that good."

"That's cool," Tomasz said, and then frowned. "I probably should shut up
now. Josh told us that you were kind of upset about being treated as the
resident diva."

Meredith giggled. "Ah, you're not treating me like a diva. You're asking me
questions about my job, I don't mind that. It's all the fawning that was
getting to me."

"Oh, Miss Fowler, may I apply the mustard on your hot dog for you?" Josh
breathed in a ridiculous falsetto. "Refill your coke? Wash your hands?
Please, acknowledge my existence, and my life will be complete!"  Meredith
was laughing so hard she almost choked on her soda.

"Damn, Josh, that's good," Kylie laughed. "Very Jackie-esque. Keep it up and
you might qualify for membership in The Snots."

"Speaking of the Snots," Tomasz said, "They keep glancing over here in
consternation. They're obviously upset and dumbfounded that you chose to eat
lunch with us instead of Their Highnesses."

"Good!" proclaimed Meredith.


TWO WEEKS LATER

Meredith had eaten lunch with Josh and his friends every day for two weeks.
She had met some of their other friends when they had eaten at the same
table. It was the best decision she had made. Josh was a good kid, his
friends equally so, and they treated her like a normal person. The weight
she had felt for the first three weeks of school was starting to lift.

When she arrived at the table the next day, the other three were already
there.

"Yeah, it's going to be tough. They're historically the best team in the
conference," Tomasz was saying.

"Hi, guys," Meredith said as she plopped her tray down on the table. "What
are we talking about."

"Football," Josh told her.

"We have a big game Friday night. We're undefeated, they're undefeated, and
they usually beat us to a bloody pulp," Tomasz informed her.

"Cool. So The Mad Hungarian is planning on righting this terrible wrong,
yes?" Meredith teased.

"You betcha! Are you going to be there?"

"Um, I hadn't planned on it...."

Josh acted on an impulse. "Come on, go. With me. It'll be fun."

Meredith dropped her fork and stared at Josh. "Did you just ask me out on a
date?"

Oh, shit, thought Josh. What was I thinking? "Um..well.."

"Yes," Meredith interrupted. "I'd love to," she said happily.

"Really?" Josh stammered.

"Yes, really," Meredith said, treating Josh to another one of those
light-up-Lamawakka smiles. "You just took me by surprise, that's all. I'd
love to go to the game with you." She turned back to all three of them. "You
have to understand, I don't get asked out on dates. I have 'appearances'
with 'escorts' arranged by publicists."

"What a drag," Tomasz opined.

"That it is," Meredith agreed.

"Wait a minute, though," Kylie said, "Last year you were supposedly going
out with Adam Chase."

"Kylie, Kylie, Kylie," Meredith said, smiling. "Don't you know never to
believe what you read in the Enquirer?" Kylie grinned sheepishly at her.
"No, Adam Chase and I had a few of those publicist-driven escort things, and
the tabloids ran with it. Publicity is publicity, after all. Adam Chase, by
the way, is a complete dick. If that asshole ever tried to ask me out on a
real date, I'd kick him in the nuts. It's bad enough that he put his arm
around me so the Enquirer could snap their little picture-I think I got
ptomaine poisoning from just touching that slimy reptile."

"Ouch. I think I'm glad you said yes," Josh joked.

"I know I'm glad I said yes!"


THE NEXT AFTERNOON


Meredith arrived home after school.

"Hi, Mom!"

"Hi, honey. Good day?"

"Yup."

"Hey, listen-I know you didn't want us to do anything for your birthday this
year, but I did get a cake and ice cream. I figured we'd have it after
supper tomorrow."

"Aw, Mom," Meredith smiled. "OK, that would be fine..oh, wait a minute, that
might not be fine. When were you planning on doing this?"

"After supper, whenever. Why, what's the problem?"

"I have a date," Meredith grinned.

"You do?"

"Uh-huh. I actually got asked out on a real date by a real guy. Do you
believe it?"

"Of course. I told you. I take it this guy isn't bedazzled by your resume,
or you wouldn't be going out with him."

"Not bedazzled in the least. We've been friends for a couple of weeks."

"Oh, is this one of the guys you eat lunch with, Josh or Tomasz?"

"Josh. Tomasz has a girlfriend-Kylie, the girl that eats with us. Plus, Josh
is taking me to the football game, and Tomasz is playing in the football
game, so I wouldn't be going with him."

Marie Fowler giggled at that. "Is a football game a date?"

"Sure. We're going to do something afterwards, too. Hey, I asked him if it
was a date, and he said yes, so..."

"I suppose I remember going on dates to football games in high school."

"Right."

"So, what time does it start?"

"7:30. Josh was going to pick me up at seven."

"Have him make it 6:30, and he can help us eat cake."

"Sounds like a plan."



THE NEXT NIGHT



Josh arrived at Meredith's house at 6:30 the next evening. He met her mother
and her father Bill.

"Take your coat off and come in the dining room with me. I asked you early
for a reason," Meredith told him.

"OK, I'll bite, what?" Josh said, taking off his coat.

"You need to help me eat some cake. It's my birthday."

"Really? You should have told me. Happy birthday!"

"Thanks. We decided not to make this year a big deal, but Mom can't let a
birthday pass without cake."

"Hey, that's the only time I give in to temptation and eat it," Marie joked.
Bill walked in with the cake, alight with candles, and led them into a
chorus of Happy Birthday To You.

As Marie cut the cake, Josh turned to Meredith and asked, "Are you not into
birthdays?"

"Oh, not after last year," she grinned, as Bill and Marie chuckled. "We went
overboard."

"And that means all of us," Bill said, "we were co-conspirators. Hey, it was
her sixteenth."

"My sixteenth, and we were in Hollywood, right?" Meredith went on. "It was
an Event. You want to talk about overkill? Nope, that was enough birthday
party to last me at least until my twenty-first."

Josh looked at her thoughtfully. "What?" she said.

"Do you miss it?"

"Miss what?"

"All that glitz and glamour. Big Hollywood parties. That life."

"No, not really. Look, I had 200 people at my birthday party last year, and
probably 150 of them I wouldn't give them the time of day in any normal
situation. I do not miss social obligations, not in the least-and fulfilling
those social obligations can take any pleasure out of the glitz and glamour
part. I have a few friends I miss, and I miss acting, but that's it."

"She's trying to get us to agree to let her do a film this summer," Marie
told him. "We're holding off judgement for the time being."

"Well, honestly, I'm only going to push the issue if Tim gets that film of
his on track."

"I can see why, but that is a role that will change your whole career," Bill
said.

"I know. Hey, it might be my last role, at least for a while." She turned to
Josh. "I've decided I want to go to college so, after this summer, the whole
acting thing will probably be, at least, put on hold."

"What's this role?" Josh asked.

"I'd be playing a college student. Tim Hicks is not acting in this one-he's
actually going to direct it. It would be my first really adult role. Part of
the appeal is the part-it's really meaty. The student gets caught up in a
May/September relationship with an undercover cop who is trying to delve
into a drug ring at my character's school. And the best thing is who has
signed on to play the cop. Roger DiNardo."

"Oh, wow," Josh enthused. "You ever work with him?"

"No. And I really want to."

"We've told her we'll consider it, but not make a decision until after we've
seen the script and after Tim has set up a shooting schedule," Marie told
him.

"Which is fair, I must admit. This is going to be shot in L.A., so we need
to know when."

They finished their cake and said goodbye to Meredith's parents, and got in
Josh's car to drive to the football stadium. Josh kept throwing glances
Meredith's way.

"What?" she asked, bemused.

"I dunno. I was noticing this in your house. You look, I dunno, different."

"Yeah. I did my makeup differently."

"Yeah?"

"Yeah. I'm not wearing any." She giggled. "Well, not much. Just a very
subtle lipstick and a bit of eye shadow. Which to me is very different."

"Hmmm. I never noticed you caking it on."

"Ah, but you must remember, I learned the fine art of makeup from the best
makeup artists Hollywood has to offer. The trick is to wear a ton without it
looking like you're wearing a ton." She sighed. "I always do my makeup every
morning, then scrub it off right when I get home. Today, I scrubbed it off,
and then said 'Oh, shit, I'm going out tonight'. I decided not to do the
whole production all over again." Her voice got a little softer. "Plus, I
figured if you wanted to date the real Meredith Fowler, you might as well
see what she looks like."

They were pulling into the parking lot. Josh didn't say anything, but, after
he found a space, he threw on the overhead light. He looked at Meredith. "I
think I like the real Meredith Fowler."

"Thanks."

He looked a little closer. "You've got freckles!"

"Yeah. That's the first thing they teach you to cover up."

Josh turned to open his door and get out of the car. As he did, he said,
under his breath, "Ought to be a damn crime to cover up freckles like that."
Meredith caught it. She was delighted. He came around to open her door. As
she got out, she looked at him and said, "I knew I liked you."

Josh grinned at her. "Ready to go, freckle-face?" She giggled as she took
his hand, and they headed for the stadium.

"I am not used to this weather!" Meredith exclaimed.

"Wait until January," Josh teased. "The joke around here is that Lamawakka
is a term in some Indian language meaning 'Make it stop snowing, already!!'"

"Oh, great," she said with a giggle. They got their tickets and entered the
stadium. "Where to sit?" she asked him.

"Kylie should be here, with a couple of her friends you haven't met yet.
They are in a class during our lunchtime so they take Senior lunch. They're
good friends of ours, though, especially Kylie, and they usually show up to
the games."

"Sounds good."

They found Kylie and her friends. "Hey!" Josh greeted them. "Girls, this is
Meredith Fowler. Meredith, this is Chrissy Altman and Eileen Moran."

"Nice to meet you," Chrissy said. "Kylie's told us all about you. She says
you're a real person."

"I'll even take that as a compliment," Meredith laughed.

"Hey, you must got something going if you got Studley over there to ask you
out." Eileen said. "And we know him well enough to know it's not the whole
actress thing, so you must be special. I guess I lose the Josh-is-gay bet."

"Eileen." Josh grumbled. Meredith just looked at him.

"Hey, you look different," Kylie quickly interjected.

"Yeah, I toned down the makeup."

"She's got freckles," Josh grinned.

"So she does," Kylie agreed. She leaned into Meredith, and whispered, "I
think he's got a thing for your freckles."

"Yeah. I should have let them out earlier!" she whispered back.

After the game-which Lamawakka won in an upset-Josh and Meredith slipped
away from their friends and headed downtown to the local coffee shop. They
grabbed their coffee and pastry and went to a table over in the corner.

"OK, I have to ask you," Meredith said, "What was that all about?"

"What?"

"What Eileen said, about being surprised you asked me out, and about
thinking that you're gay."

"Oh, that. Well, uh, I don't date. This was actually my first one. Kylie's
been throwing girls at me for years, including those two, and I never have
asked."

"Just not interested? Picky?"

"Well, that, too. Um..this is difficult, OK?"

"Forget it, Josh, if it's that hard. I was just curious. It's fine."

"Well, you probably should know." He looked down. "Girls.ah.intimidate me. I
've stared at telephones for hours and never got the gumption up to make the
call. Heck, Eileen blatantly hinted that she'd like me to take her out, and
I froze every time."

Meredith just stared at him. "So how in hell..I mean, me? I'm not trying to
be egotistical here, Josh, but, let's face it-I intimidate people just by
breathing. I didn't realize this was your first date. I didn't know that you
would have been scared to ask anyone out. And you asked me out?"

Josh grinned sheepishly. "I just blurted it, kinda. I said it before I even
knew what I was saying. And then said to myself, oh shit, what did I just
do?"

"GOOD!" Meredith enthused.

Josh started laughing. "Of course, I've spent most of the last three days
scared out of my mind."

Meredith caught his eye. "No need for that, you know."


THE NEXT MONDAY


They had spent close to an hour that Friday night at the coffee shop,
chatting about everything and anything. They swapped phone numbers that
night, and spent a huge chunk of Saturday night on the phone, continuing the
conversation.

Now, it was Monday, and Meredith was looking for Josh. It was after school,
and she found him where she expected, up on the bleachers at the football
stadium. It was a fairly nice afternoon, for an October day in New York, so
she figured he'd be there.

"Hi!" she said as she climbed up to him.

"Hi yourself. What are you doing here."

"Looking for you. I figured you'd be here." She looked down at the notebook
in his hand. "Writing?"

"Yeah. This is my poetry notebook."

"Would you rather I left you alone?"

"No. Not at all."

She looked down at the notebook. "Can I see?"

"Ah. The Big Question. That's a tough one, you know. I don't show this stuff
to almost anyone."

"I figured. You can say no, I won't be offended."

"No, you can look. Just go easy on my fragile ego," Josh laughed.

"Riiigggghht." She took the notebook and began reading. "This is good," she
said after a while. She flipped the page and read another. "Oh, this is
really good," she enthused. A few more. Josh tried to watch Tomasz on the
field instead of watching her read his innermost thoughts, but wasn't all
that successful.

"Dammit, Josh, you are good," she said, softly, after a while. She kept
reading. There was all kinds of different stuff in there--rhyming verse,
sonnets, free-form, even a few haikus. Plus a couple of bawdy limericks that
had her howling.

Towards the end, she came upon this one, one of his free-forms.

A LEAGUE OF HER OWN

I'm in little league, right?
Check the uniform, check the other kids, I'm in little league, right.
So what is Roger Clemens doing on the mound?
Damn, he's flinging fastballs and curveballs
And changeups and I can't hit this shit I'm in LITTLE LEAGUE and
He is Roger Clemens and he's throwing
A Hundred Miles An Hour I can't hit this shit
I'm in LITTLE LEAGUE!

But it's not Roger Clemens
It's her.
And she's flinging fastballs and curveballs and the sun is catching
On her freckles and I'm going blind and I CAN'T
Hit this.

Everybody is laughing, and she has no idea
Of how fast she is
Or how sharp her curve is
Or how her changeup would make me cry
If I weren't so busy watching the light off her hair
And how her smile lights up the park
And ties me in knots
Just like her fastball
And I can't
Get
My
Bat
Off
My shoulder.

So I'm standing there
Like an idiot
Unable to tell the ball from the reflection in her eyes
Out of my league
Waiting for strike three


Midway through, Josh glanced over, and saw the title. He reached for the
notebook. "Um, you weren't supposed to read that one."

"Too late," she said, engrossed, and pulled the notebook out of his reach.
She finished reading, and handed him the notebook without saying a word. She
sat and stared out at the field for a good five minutes.

He tried not to stare at her. He was mostly successful.

Suddenly, she said, "I have to go."

"OK."

"Um, Josh?"

"Yeah?"

With that, she turned toward him, grabbed him around the neck, and launched
herself at him, landing in an earth-stopping kiss. Josh, after a moment of
complete shock, quickly caught up and responded to the kiss. Meredith let
out a little groan, and drove her lips deeper into his. Slowly, she broke
the kiss and backed away from him, beaming like a beacon. Josh looked at her
in amazement. She just smiled brighter, and blushed, making the freckles
even more prominent.

"See you later," she said in a near-whisper, and bounded down the stairs.
Josh watched her go, shocked out of his mind. When she got to the bottom of
the bleachers, she looked back up at him and smiled. She turned away and he
heard her giggle as she skipped off out of the stadium.

"Oh my God," he said to himself, grinning broadly.


THAT NIGHT


He called her.

"Hi," she said softly.

"Hi. So, um, what was that all about?"

"What?" she said innocently.

"You know what."

She giggled. "Impulse."

"Aah."

"Right." She stopped giggling. "Well, somewhat. I also read that poem, the
one you didn't want me to read." She sighed. "I spent ten minutes sitting
there trying to find a way to tell you that you were wrong. I couldn't find
any words, not any that would be convincing. So I tried something else."

"So you were trying to get me to realize that my thinking about you was
wrong?"

"Yeah."

"By making me incoherent?"

She broke up laughing. "Well, not necessarily, but---well, did it work?"

"I don't know." He took a breath. "Meredith, what it is, is this. I like
you. I mean, I really like you. And that scares me to death."

"I like you just as much. And I'm not exactly calm about it either." Her
voice dropped. "Look, Josh, that was my first, OK? And I felt it in my
knees."

"Um, yeah, I know the feeling. I don't know how you could stand up, because
I couldn't."

"Maximum effort. I almost fell out of the stands," she laughed. "Look, Josh,
I'm not out of your league. I'm not. Unless we're talking about acting. I
think it's probably safe to assume that I'm a hell of a lot better actor
than you are."

Josh laughed, "Since I can't act, I'll concede that one."

"Right. But that's it, OK? And, you know, you're a lot better writer than I
am. I couldn't write what you wrote if my life depended on it. Do you want
to write for a living?"

"Yeah. Only partially stories and poems, though-I want to go to college for
journalism."

"Cool. Now, you need college for that."

"Right."

"No newspaper is going to hire you to be a reporter when you're seventeen."

"Right."

"Acting is different. Look, I happen to be good at something that you can do
young. There are no college degree requirements to be an actress. They hire
teenagers to be actresses. It doesn't make me special. It doesn't make me
out of anybody's league. It just makes me good at something that you can get
away with doing when you're younger. Do you get it now?"

"Yeah, I do, when you put it that way."

"Good." She took a deep breath. "I need you to understand this. Because,
Josh, I'm crazy about you."

"Yeah. I'm crazy about you, too."


THE NEXT SATURDAY NIGHT


There was a teen dance club in Schenectady. It was a juice bar, no alcohol
served, and catered to the high school crowd. The place was always hopping,
and the music was good. Josh and Meredith went with Tomasz and Kylie. They
had been dancing for some time, when they decided to get off the dance floor
for a while. Grabbing their drinks, they found a table in the quieter room.

"Wow, Josh, you can dance!" Meredith enthused. "I'm impressed. Where did you
learn to dance so well?"

"Blame Twinkletoes over there," he said with a grin, pointing at Kylie.

Kylie laughed. "I took dance lessons for a long time. Josh and I have been
friends since we were two, so we used to end up at school dances together
before I started dating Tomasz. So, I taught him how to dance."

"Thank you, I appreciate it," Meredith said with a laugh.

"You're welcome. Now I'm trying to get it to rub off on The Big Football
Galoot, here."

"Ah, shaddap," Tomasz grumbled good-naturedly. "It would be easier if I
weren't sixteen inches taller than you."

"True," Kylie agreed. "I'm doing a wonderful job of teaching his bellybutton
how to dance."

They went back on the dance floor for a while, and then Josh and Meredith
came off it again.

"Wow. I am pooped," Meredith sighed. "And I'm hungry."

"Me, too," Josh agreed. "Want to go for a walk? There's some places to eat
down the block a bit."

"Love to!" They went and told Kylie and Tomasz what they were doing, grabbed
their coats, and headed out. They walked down the street holding hands.

"What are you in the mood for?" Josh asked.

"A burger!"

"Good. There's a place right up here, has great burgers."

"You come here a lot?"

"Every so often. Tomasz and Kylie love coming here, and they drag me with
them, usually with the set-up of the week. This is much more fun, though."

"Aw, you're so sweet."

"Here's the place." They went in and the host showed them a seat. They
checked the menu and both decided to get burgers. After giving their orders,
they sat there at the table, chatting.

Suddenly, a girl of about their age came to the side of the table.

"Excuse me, are you Meredith Fowler?"

"Yes, I am," Meredith said with a smile.

"WOW! This is so cool! I love your movies!"

"Thanks."

"Can I have your autograph?"

"Sure!" The girl produced a pen and paper, and Meredith signed it. She ran
off, delighted. Meredith just smiled, and turned back to Josh, "Now, where
were we?"

They started chatting again, but didn't get too far, because they were
interrupted again. And again, and another time.

After the last time, Meredith looked at Josh, who was looking uneasy. "This
is bugging you, isn't it?"

"Well, no, not really," Josh said, and then sighed. "Maybe a little."

"I'm so used to it, I don't think anything of it. But I can see where you
might get irritated at constantly being interrupted."

"No, it's not that." Josh took a breath. "It's just that-well-everyone in
Lamawakka is used to you by now, so I don't see this at home. And I had
almost become convinced, before tonight, that the only difference between us
is that you can act."

"Oh."

"But it isn't, not really."

"Yes, Josh, it is. Everything stems from that. Look, do you think I wanted
to act so I could get recognized by strangers when I'm out on a date? It's
part of the package, but that's not what it's all about."

"Yeah, but it happens."

"Yup. It does."

"How can anyone stay normal with all that...I don't know...adulation?"

"If I told you it were easy, I'd be lying. But I can, now, and it's because
I've decided to focus on what's important. This is nothing, you know. It
really doesn't matter, for bad or good, that I get recognized and asked for
autographs. I can let it give me a swelled head, or I can get annoyed and
let it ruin my day. I choose to do neither. I sign the autographs, because I
like to think that I'm basically a good person. But all it means, if it
means anything, is that I have a recognizable face and that somebody likes
my work."

"It's not an ego-boost?"

"Sure it is. But it's an ego-boost about my acting. I'm not going to lie to
you. I have an ego about that. It's not out of control, but I think I'm
good. People asking me for autographs-all it does is say that other people
agree with me about my being good."

"You are good, you know."

"Thanks," she said with a giggle. "Want my autograph?"

"You're evil, you know that?"

"Yup!" she laughed. Then, seriously, "Josh, I can't tell you that this is
never going to happen. It's going to happen. If we're going to have any kind
of relationship, you need to have to handle it."

"I think I can. I understand how you feel about it better now." He stopped
and looked at her. "So, any kind of relationship, huh?"

"Whoops. Me and my big mouth."

"Meredith, will you go out with me?"

She beamed at him. "Yes!"

"Good. I really am crazy about you, freckle-face."

"Even though I get badgered for autographs?"

"Even though."

"Good. I'm just as crazy about you." She looked at him thoughtfully. "I've
never had a boyfriend before, you know. You need to believe that."

"I do. And you know this is new for me, too."

"I know."

" All of it." Their burgers arrived just then, and they thanked the server.
They both dug in. "Yum," Josh continued.

"You're right. These are great."

"Best burgers around. Anyway, like I was saying, all of this is new to me.
Not just having a girlfriend, but the whole she's-a-star thing. I can't
promise I won't occasionally screw up."

"Just as long as you try to work it out."

"Hey, I didn't run screaming away from the parade of autograph seekers, did
I?"

"No, you didn't." Meredith thought for a minute. "You know what you need?
Full immersion, in my "other" life. You need to see the whole ball of wax,
at least briefly. It might help, it might not, but I think we need to get it
out of the way. Plus, I want you there."

"What are you talking about."

She put her burger down and grabbed his hand. "Come to my premiere with me.
They always have a big premiere for new movies. It's the first weekend in
December, in Los Angeles. We'll go out for a long weekend. You'll go to my
premiere, get your picture taken by the paparazzi, meet Tim Hicks. It'll be
fun."

"Fun? It sounds terrifying!"

"Nah, it's fun. You can get some of the glitz and glamour. And I think you'
ll find out it's no big deal."

"Oh, Meredith, I don't know."

"Please," she said. "Listen, I have to have an escort. Going to one of these
things without an escort is just not done. I've never gone with someone I
wanted to be with. My publicist is already making noises about me going with
Christian Houle, who was in the movie with me, but, while I like Christian,
I'd rather go with you, and I know Christian would rather take his
girlfriend."

"Well, what happens at these things?"

"Well, we'll probably have to go out early, like on Wednesday. I have a
couple days of publicity, interviews, that sort of thing. I know it will be
boring for you, but you'll get to meet some people, and if you really get
bored I'll get my Dad to take you to Disneyland."

Josh laughed. "No way, I'll be bored. If I'm going to Disneyland, it will be
with you."

"You really are too sweet. Anyhow, the premiere is Saturday night. I don't
know which theater. You'll get to dress up and hobnob with the stars.
Afterwards, there's a party."

"It really does sound terrifying. Look, remember, I'm a small town hick high
school kid."

"So am I."

"Surrre you are."

"Oh well, I should have known I wouldn't get away with that one." They both
laughed. "OK, this is the best reason I can come up with-I really want you
to go."

"OK, then I'll go. Assuming my parents give permission."

"Great!"


TO BE CONTINUED........

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