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Subject: {ASSM} A Letter to Vanessa by Katie McN (ff, Rom) RP
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A Letter to Vanessa
By Katie McN
katiemcn@excite.com
NOTICE - This story is written for adults. If learning
about the first time experience of two lesbians might
offend you, please stop reading now.
You should also keep in mind that this is a work of
fiction and certainly has nothing to do with my life or
the life of anyone I know.
This story is (c) copyrighted by Katie McN, 1999, but
feel free to post it unchanged anywhere on the Internet
in places where people can understand love.
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Vanessa is gone now, but I still think about her from
time to time. It's been a few years since I wrote her
this letter. It really hurt when we broke up. But, you
know it was best for both of us.
Writing this letter was one of the hardest things I ever
had to do. Thought you might like to look at it.
Love you,
Mary Kay
___
My Darling Vanessa,
I love you so very much.
I can't imagine us ever being apart for longer than a few
days. Trying to imagine a time before you is like trying
to hold on to the smoke from an August prairie fire.
You always want to know every little thing about me. It
makes me feel so special. So loved. I want you to know
everything, too.
I want you to know every secret and share every part of
my hidden life.
It's not that I ever want to hold back anything. I just
need to make sure I can express my secret thoughts and
images in ways you really understand.
I've tried to tell you about my first time, but I can't
seem to conjure up words that express the pictures
printed forever in the inner most recesses of my
memories.
You're gone today and I will miss you until you get back.
While your gone, I'll try to write the words I can't say
when you look at me with the most beautiful eyes that any
woman ever gets to see.
If I succeed in painting my feelings on these pages, I'll
give you this letter when you get home. If I don't, well,
I'll try again some other day.
I was standing on the back porch of our ranch. I told you
about it once. It's a large old ramblin' place near Big
Spring. The place where my daddy tried to raise the Santa
Gertrudes cattle. Good thing he did a better job raising
oil wells. That's for sure.
A great big old place. Spent the best years of my
childhood there.
On that special day, I watched a tumble weed roll slowly
across the flat land behind the big house. Not much to
stop it for another 10 miles or so. It didn't seem to
mind much. Just kept moving along.
Ellen was there with me. You remember her. She and I were
best friends since the second grade. Been through a lot
together. Hating boys. Loving boys. Not really sure what
to make of any of it. We both got into horses instead of
worrying about things too much.
My dad was flying his plane over to Austin that evening.
The folks were heading out to a party the Governor was
putting on after he won reelection. Quite a time.
Mr. and Mrs. Guthrie, Ellen's folks, were flying out with
them. Just us kids left here to have a good time.
Used to be a big problem staying alone with Ellen's three
brothers. They are all older than us. For the longest
time, they hated having girls around. Can't say that I
blame 'em really. Daddy's little girl types can be a pain
in the ass I'm sure.
Two things changed all that. First, we kind of figured
out how to act like guys. Pretty easy really. Just had to
be loud, wear cowboy boots and act stupid. Fit right in,
both of us.
Another thing that kind of helped was how I was beginning
to look.
Not too hard figuring what a girl looks like when she's
wearing nice fitting jeans and a tailored shirt. Southern
girls just automatically know how to bend over without
breaking their knees. Certainly know how to point that
cute little thing where it will do the most good. Boys
were starting to appreciate it. Ellen just thought her
brothers were so funny.
Never had a problem with a one of 'em though. They
wouldn't want to have to put up with Ellen getting all
pissed off at them. Ha ha.
The maid lived in a little house out back. She left that
night as soon as she wshed up the dinner dishes. That's
our signal to start having a good time.
The boys always seemed to have two or three brand new
porno videos for when the folks were gone. Sure enough,
we headed for the TV room to see the sights.
Randy, Ellen's oldest brother, had his own car by then.
He'd slipped off earlier in the day and got a case of
long necks. The other boys had their own ideas about what
kind of beer to get. But, since Randy was buying, we
always ended up with Lone Star no matter what they said.
Didn't care much myself. Neither did Ellen.
Ellen and I would have one beer each and make 'em last
all night. Didn't really like drinking beer that much.
Just part of the guy thing and fitting in.
There are certain rituals when you watch a porn film with
the guys. First off, you got to know how to act.
Just waited for the right spot to holler out, "Whooeee!
Look at the tits on that one." Yep, that was me.
Ellen would jump in and say something like, "Boys, don't
you wish you were hung like that guy." Course, they'd all
say they were and ask us if we wanted to see. Kind of
curious, but too smart to say yes.
Anyhow, seen everyone of 'em naked when we'd go skinny
dipping out at Seaford Pond. Didn't point out that they
weren't even close to that guy on the screen. Not right
for a girl to look you know.
When you live on a ranch, you get to see fucking all the
time. Animals don't give a shit who watches. Just want to
get it on whenever they get the urge. Got the
fundamentals down at about age five if I remember right.
Thing that made the porno films interesting was the other
stuff that happened on the screen.
Never saw a bull get a blow job for instance. Don't
recall seeing three horses getting it on with each other.
Never noticed two cows doing each other. Lots of valuable
information for our young eyes.
We'd pretend to know everything that was going on of
course. Wouldn't do to let the boys think they knew more
than us. Part of hanging out with the guys.
Ellen and I couldn't wait to get off by ourselves to talk
about everything we saw in those films. Interesting sex
education class I'd say.
Boys sure are silly. Funny to wait and see who got a
boner first and how he tried to hide it. All three of 'em
usually got hard at one point or another.
Ellen and I'd been staying over at each other's homes for
long as I can remember. Wouldn't seem right if this
didn't happen three or four times a month.
We had our own ways of doing things, too. First off, we'd
hit the shower just before we got ready for bed.
Mostly we spent our time outdoors and the West Texas dust
just grinds away at a person.
I'd usually be first. Didn't waste anytime and came right
back to the bedroom. Her turn next. Ellen would be in and
out in a flash. Both of us all shiny and new.
We'd been wearing big old tee shirts to bed since we
started to get boobs. Trying to hide the changes in our
bodies I guess.
After a while, looking like big girls stopped bothering
us. Kept wearing them big old shirts out of habit I
guess.
We really didn't look alike now that I think about it.
Sure we always tried to dress the same way. But looks,
no, we were quite different.
Ellen is not a blond like me. She has auburn hair with
enough natural curl in it that it gets hard to manage on
bad weather days.
My hair is almost straight. It's thick enough so that it
will hold most anyway I fix it. Never has been much of a
problem to me. Used to make Ellen so mad when she'd have
to work real hard to look good and I'd just run a brush
through my hair and be ready to go.
By then, I was just 5' 7" and 115 or so pounds. Ellen
weighed about the same, but she was always a couple
inches shorter than me.
Her extra weight seemed to go to all those just right
places. Ellen's boobs were a little bigger than mine
then. Her butt looked rounder than my slender cowgirl
ass. Although, must say that I was getting some notice, too.
I thought she was beautiful and told her so more than once.
She said the same things to me. Just loved my best friend.
At the time, we didn't realized just how beautiful the
two of us were. Somehow when you live with yourself, you
get real used to how you look and how you feel. Doesn't
seem that special really.
Later on you start to understand you're a little
different than some other folks.
No matter how much we'd been together during the day, we
still had secret things to talk about when we were alone.
That night was stuff like Randy getting a big old hard
on. Laughing about me asking him a lot of questions while
he tried to hide that thing. Pretending I wasn't seeing
anything. Ha Ha.
One of the videos caught both our attentions.
A little bit of foreplay, kissing and hugging. Oh sure
everyone ended up fucking their brains out in the end,
but there was a little loving and tenderness for a few
minutes at least. We both agreed it was kind of nice.
Another thing we found out. Pretty much the girls did
whatever the guys wanted in those films. But, when there
were two girls together (or three or four depending),
they seemed a little more into each other and into
sharing. Not so much pressure I guess.
By this time we were in Ellen's bed. We always slept in
the same bed when we stayed over. Always had.
Just her table lamp on that night. Best way to keep her
brothers from pounding on the door about another film
they found or whatever. Those boys could raise hell all
night. We didn't care as long as they left us alone.
Never been able to figure out how it all happened.
We somehow started looking right at each other. We looked
for what seemed like a real long time. Then I just pushed
my face forward and up and kissed her. A tiny little
kiss, but we both knew it was real.
Now we had been kissing each other since we were little
girls. Didn't mean anything, just our way.
This time, I was weak. Don't know why. Something just
went all through my body and I couldn't move. I was
afraid, too. What would Ellen think of that little kiss?
We looked at each other for the longest time and said
nothing. She'd been my friend for so long she could tell
that I was embarrassed by what I'd done.
Being my friend, she saved me with a kiss of her own. A
nice little kiss, but just that much longer than mine.
I could hear the sigh come from her mouth. A tiny little
sound that said, "I don't know what that was, but I do
know I like it." Knew what she was thinking because I
felt the same way, too.
Time went by forever.
My timid arm kind of moved forward toward her. The moment
it touched her shoulder she grabbed on to me and gave me
the biggest kiss I ever had. Whooee girl! Just wasn't
ready for that.
We held each other and I could feel the heat coming from
our bodies. Our boobs were pressed together with just a
little cloth separating us.
Somehow her hand ended up on the back of my neck. I made
a sound that told her she didn't need to stop.
Kind of tailed my hand down her back. Moving toward the
bottom of her tee shirt. Let my hand wander down below
her shirt till it rested gently on her panties. My what a
nice butt you got there girl.
Trying to make up my mind about what to do next.
Guess she was doing the same. Her little tongue just
pushed right into my mouth. Well, I kind of opened up my
mouth and let her get on in, once I realized what she was
up to.
Didn't know she could kiss that good. Didn't know I would
like it that much. Didn't know. Wow.
Let my hand wander up her back staying under her tee
shirt this trip. Damn did she feel good. Like rubbing
your hand on silk. Umm.
My idea was just to explore under her shirt a little bit.
Soon as my hand got near her shoulder blades, her hands
went right up into the air. Ohh. She wanted me to take
her shirt off. Didn't waste a second doing it either.
Soon as I had her shirt off, she got right after me.
Pulling my shirt over my head lickity split. Kind of
fresh for fourteen year olds girls don't you think?
Funny thing. I'd seen her tits lots of times before, but
they sure looked different that night. Kind of a daring
mystery.
We fell back on the bed. Our arms were wrapped around
each other real tight. Our mouths were pressing together
real hard. Nothing but fire and passion.
I felt her hand going down my back. Wondered what it was
going to feel like having another girl touch my ass.
Didn't have to wait long to find out. She was very gentle
at first. Tentative even. Just like me I guess. Kind of
wondering if I would mind her checking me out.
When she realized that I liked what she was doing, felt
her hand slip right inside my little panties. What an
interesting feeling. Yum.
Lifted up my hips so she could pull may panties down. She
had to get under the covers to finish getting them off.
Ohh a little kiss on my tummy! How very nice.
I pushed her panties down real slow. Saw this in the
video. Looked real cool and sensual. Could tell she sure
liked it.
Got under the covers to pull off her panties. Let my tits
rub on her legs and tummy as I came back up to find her.
Hot stuff, huh?
Got very brave then. I kissed her nipple. Well not too
brave. Just a quick kiss really. We both giggled. But, we
both knew that it wouldn't be too long before we got real
serious about all this.
That next kiss lasted more than a life time. I felt her
climbing up on my leg. I felt her thrusting herself at
me. She was rocking me back and forth. I kind of pulled
my leg up a little and made it real easy for her to do
what she wanted.
We always got a tiny bit high from our one long neck a
piece. At that minute, felt like I drank the whole case.
Hardly knew where I was. Only knew that I wanted her
more, more, more. Yes, yes, yes. Ohh fuck.
Until that very minute, the only tits I ever touched were
my own. Hers felt so good. The sound she made when I
slowly squeezed and rubbed them was so nice to hear.
Kind of loss track of what I was doing when she started
playing with my boobies.
Knew I could get myself going when I played with my own
titties. Didn't have a clue how much better it would be
with someone else touching them.
She knew just what to do. Don't know if it was the video
or just stuff she did to herself. It didn't matter. Could
not believe it. Only one other woman every had that sane
impact when she touches me like that. And, you know who
that is Vanessa.
Sometimes when I'm with you my beautiful woman, I get
this feeling in my chest and tummy that I just can't
explain. Certainly not in words, no. Feels so good, but
no words. Just electricity, just emotions, just things
too hard to say in words. I had the same feeling for the
first time that night.
We were laying on our sides. Looking at each other.
Kissing. Touching. Not believing we were there. Loving it
all. Studying, remembering, feeling the mystical
experiences of the West Texas summer night.
Her hand started down my rib cage moving toward my hip.
By now we both could relax with the luxury of knowing we
had time to do whatever we wanted. We knew we would, too.
Her hand moved across my naked hip. My body wanted to
pull her inside me. Her long fingers slide over my ass
and stopped inside the crack between those two cheeks you
seem to like so much.
She squeezed nice and easy. One finger moved toward my
asshole hole.
What was that sound? Was that me? Oh my! Damn. Umm.
I fond her hand and guided it down my stomach toward my
pussy. Pushed her hand into my bush. She grabbed on to me
between my legs and started moving her whole hand back
and forth.
Felt her finger on my clit first. Then she slide right
inside my. I was so wet by then, it was easy to
accommodate her.
She started moving her hand back and forth with a
constant pressure that said that she knew just what I
wanted to feel. She was so right.
Her finger moved in and out of the flame that was between
my legs. I opened myself up for her. Seemed like I was as
wide as my thighs. Seemed like I could somehow swallow
her whole.
She had three fingers inside me. Not the way I did it,
but oh my god.
There didn't seem to be an end to it. I floated off to
some place far away from reality. I could feel tears well
up in my eyes. Happiness was so wonderfully strange.
Her mouth covered mine. Her insistent tongue entered my
mouth searching, probing, exciting. Her other hand
touched my tits. Rub, squeeze, stroke. Please stop -
don't stop! Oh. Oh. Ohhh.
I had orgasms before.
There was a time that I thought I invented the orgasm.
But, never anything like this. My body exploded from high
to high.
I couldn't see. An orange explosion hid me from
everything, but the passion that filled my body.
Waves of sex and warmth. Over, over, over.
Ellen, Ellen. Let me touch you now. Let me make you feel
this good. Let me.
She soon found out what it felt like to have part of me
inside her. My finger moved relentlessly inside her pussy
at a pace that merged with the movements of her body.
I kissed her breasts, her nipples, her pretty lips. My
finger moved over her face, cheeks, neck. Yes, oh yes.
Touch, touch, feel, feel. More.
It just seemed to start way down inside of her somewhere.
Exploded to the top with sounds of pure lust and ecstasy.
I was just a few inches away from her face and got to watch
it all.
She opened her eyes at the peak of her pleasure. I was
getting ready to get off again. She could see me moving
toward a climax and it just intensified those strangely
wonderful feelings she was having.
We were like two mirrors making love. Magnifying our
feelings and emotions. Having feelings that had no names
or descriptions. Not for mortals at least.
We stayed awake for the whole night. Sometimes just
holding each other tightly in an embrace that could only
be understood by two people who loved each other in a way
that few could understand.
Other times, we were hotter than that old porno video. We
were pretty brave. Nothing we didn't try. Nothing we
didn't love. Don't think there was one part of her
beautiful body that I didn't touch, kiss, feel. She
didn't miss any part of me either.
My tongue in her pussy. Her lips on my nipples. Fingers
touching, caressing, teasing. Lips kissing, sucking,
nibbling. Her tongue in my pussy. My finger on her
asshole.
Did I miss anything? Where are we? What's next?
Must have come five or six times that night. Well, no,
can't really tell you how many times. Don't know how
often Ellen got off either. We weren't counting. Didn't
have time really.
We fell asleep when the sun started to peek up at the
eastern sky. Holding each other. Loving each other so
much. Knowing we'd never forget any of this. Not one bit.
There were other times over the days and months and
years. Funny thing though. No one ever told us we could
be together. We were still seeing boys. Doing all the
stuff our parents expected of us. Never just seemed like
something we could do.
You met my folks. Guess you can understand how this might
happen. Seems real funny now in a sad kind of way.
Ellen and I never really got together like us my darling
Vannie. But she and I shared something special. Something
I've never be able to forget.
She's living over in Lubbock now with Charles Frederick.
They make a lovely couple, don't they? Never was a
question that I'd be her maid of honor. We both cried at
her wedding for more reasons than most people know.
For a long time, I'd thought that special day from long
ago changed me. Now I realize that I only found out what
I was all along.
Ellen didn't change either really. We were just a little
bit different. We still love each other like two sisters
who are very best friends. Always will I guess.
I owe you so much. You let me know that it was all right
to be my own person. You made me feel love in a way that
let me be just what I am. I wasn't raised to wear my
feelings on my arm. You dragged each little emotion out
of me. Showed them to me like they were jewels and told
me that you loved each and every one.
Just love being your baby and being loved by the most
wonderful woman I could ever know.
I love you,
Mary Kay
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By Katie McN
katiemcn@excite.com
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