CONVERSATION WITH ANNA

BY KATIE DALE

[ part 1 ]

Note: This is a real, ongoing conversation I'm having with someone on MSN. I'm 'Stephie'. Anna has no clue I'm fabricating. I debated whether to edit out some of the 'boring' parts but on advice of some friends I decided to leave it intact, so that it reflects 'reality' better. Hope you like it. This is part 1 - so far we've chatted 4 times.

Thursday, Dec. 15 2005

(17:33:19) anna: hi
(17:33:24) stephie: hi
(17:33:38) stephie: who're you?
(17:34:00) anna: I saw you on an msn group
(17:34:19) stephie: which one?
(17:34:28) anna: *** ***** ********
(17:34:33) stephie: cool, just joined that one
(17:34:40) stephie: are you a girl and do you wrestle?
(17:34:40) anna: me too
(17:34:46) anna: yeah
(17:35:28) stephie: nice
(17:35:31) stephie: how old are you?
(17:35:38) anna: 15
(17:36:09) stephie: do you wrestle in school, on a team? or just for fun?
(17:36:32) anna: just for fun
(17:36:44) stephie: who do you wrestle?
(17:37:07) anna: anybody I can get my hands on!
(17:37:36) stephie: hehe
(17:37:38) stephie: brothers?
(17:37:48) anna: yeah
(17:37:50) anna: and sister
(17:38:00) stephie: nice
(17:38:19) anna: what about you?
(17:39:04) stephie: nah, i'm too much of a wimp. i just fantasize about it :)
(17:39:45) stephie: i have older brothers but the couple of times they got on me for getting on their nerves i was pinned instantly, so i don't really bother with them
(17:40:04) anna: ok
(17:40:07) anna: how old are you?
(17:40:15) stephie: 14
(17:40:51) anna: ok
(17:41:14) anna: cool
(17:41:33) stephie: how old's your brother and sister?
(17:42:00) anna: brother is 17, sister 19
(17:42:10) stephie: are you able to pin them?
(17:42:27) anna: yeah
(17:42:43) stephie: you must be real strong then
(17:42:51) anna: lol
(17:42:57) anna: I'm ok I spose
(17:43:20) stephie: :)
(17:43:24) stephie: got any pics of it?
(17:43:56) anna: nah, sorry :(
(17:44:07) stephie: ok
(17:44:32) anna: do you?
(17:44:36) stephie: no
(17:44:54) stephie: i thought maybe it was you who posted those pics in the msn group
(17:45:30) anna: nah
(17:46:02) anna: well, do you have a pic of yourself?
(17:46:34) stephie: not here with me... i'm at a library now
(17:46:38) stephie: do you have one of you?
(17:46:44) anna: yeah
(17:47:11) stephie: can i see?
(17:48:14) anna has closed the conversation window.
(17:48:29) anna is offering to send file *************.JPG
(17:49:54) stephie: cute :)
(17:50:09) stephie: yeah you look real strong. i'm skinny and wimpy, no muscles, and no boobs yet :(
(17:50:28) anna: don't worry, I'm sure they'll come :)
(17:50:32) anna: 14 is still young
(17:50:34) stephie: :)
(17:50:49) stephie: is your brother afraid of you?
(17:51:09) anna: a bit, yeah
(17:51:25) stephie: hehe that's so cool
(17:51:54) anna: lol
(17:52:10) anna: have you ever tried working on it?
(17:52:27) stephie: not really
(17:52:44) stephie: not much i can do about it
(17:53:12) anna: spose
(17:53:16) anna: isnt all about strength tho
(17:53:33) stephie: what do you mean?
(17:54:25) anna: well, cunning and agility help
(17:54:30) anna: when wrestling
(17:55:30) anna has closed the conversation window.
(17:56:25) anna: lol
(17:56:25) anna: sorry
(17:57:26) anna has closed the conversation window.
(17:57:46) stephie: ?
(17:57:57) stephie: what're you sorry about?
(17:58:23) anna: I dunno
(17:58:36) anna: just felt like I was nattering on
(17:59:05) stephie: no, sorry, i love chatting, i'm just busy with homework too
(17:59:20) stephie: and this guy keeps nagging me that he wants the computer i'm using. like, get a life fellow.
(17:59:32) stephie: i should pin him to the floor, right here in the middle of the library lol
(17:59:52) anna: lol
(17:59:58) anna: yeah, go girl!
(18:00:26) stephie: he's kinda hot though
(18:00:42) anna: lol
(18:01:08) stephie: and i don't think it would be good to try to pin him wearing the short skirt i'm wearing... everything would be revealed lol
(18:01:31) anna: lol
(18:01:33) anna: short skirt?
(18:01:39) stephie: yeah
(18:01:42) anna: sounds good, it'll distract him
(18:02:01) stephie: hehe maybe, but i don't want to give the audience a show of my panties
(18:02:32) anna: lol
(18:02:34) anna: fair enough
(18:02:47) stephie: :)
(18:03:24) anna: so you don't have a bf?
(18:03:37) stephie: nah, all the boys in my grade are really stupid
(18:03:45) anna: haha
(18:03:55) stephie: all into showing off, sports, and who knows what other garbage
(18:04:06) anna: ok
(18:04:29) stephie: there's this one cute boy a year older than me at school who i kinda like, but i don't think he notices me, he's all popular with the girls in his class. too bad.
(18:04:54) anna: ah well
(18:05:50) anna: I'm sure it'll be ok
(18:06:08) stephie: i guess
(18:06:22) anna: not into girls then?
(18:06:49) stephie: heh i just saw that movie on the weekend, "but i'm a cheerleader". no, i'm not into girls
(18:06:59) stephie: are you?
(18:07:16) anna: nah
(18:07:24) anna: well
(18:07:44) anna: I've done the odd thing with some, but just for fun really, I'm not actually into them
(18:08:34) stephie: what did you do? ;)
(18:09:21) anna: errrrrm, nothing I should be talking to a 14 year old about :$
(18:10:01) stephie: hey, i know it all
(18:10:34) stephie: my brothers are older than me and they taught me all about it when i was really young. really upset my parents when they found out that I knew, but I'm okay with it.
(18:10:49) anna: ok
(18:11:02) anna: well, I've given and received oral sex from a girl
(18:11:18) stephie: really? even though you don't like girls?
(18:11:27) stephie: and you still enjoyed it?
(18:11:43) anna: well yeah, it was quite nice
(18:11:49) stephie: hmmm ok
(18:11:54) anna: lol
(18:11:56) stephie: :)
(18:11:58) anna: sorry
(18:12:04) stephie: i've never done anything like that yet.
(18:12:07) anna: I shouldn't be saying all this
(18:12:09) stephie: it's ok, no need to be sorry
(18:12:27) anna: sure?
(18:12:47) stephie: one of my brothers is always telling me to suck his cock when nobody's around. i don't think he's serious, but it really drives me nuts, i hate it when he says that to me.
(18:13:09) anna: yeah
(18:13:13) anna: you wouldn't would you?
(18:13:20) stephie: i've thought about agreeing, and then biting him really hard :) what do you think?
(18:13:27) anna: lol
(18:13:45) anna: amusing idea, but would be a bit cruel
(18:13:47) stephie: grosses me out though thinking of putting his thingy in my mouth even if i'm gonna give him lots of pain
(18:13:53) stephie: serves him right
(18:14:15) anna: lol
(18:14:34) stephie: he's a real pervert, has all kinds of weird pictures on his computer
(18:14:48) anna: hmm
(18:14:56) stephie: and the worst thing is that my mother thinks he's such an angel, he manages to hide it all from her
(18:15:23) anna: shame, best for you to ignore it I spose... or pin him!
(18:15:58) stephie: i try to stay away from him as much as possible, i'm kind of afraid of him, with those comments he keeps saying and something he did to me once
(18:16:22) anna: I'm sorry
(18:16:32) stephie: it's ok
(18:16:46) anna: I won't pry
(18:17:08) stephie: it's no big deal really, not that he raped me or anything... well, i don't know what he was planning on doing
(18:17:39) stephie: it was about four or five months ago i think... he came home from school hiding a package behind his back. i saw it and asked what it was and he just said "nothing" and took it to his room
(18:18:05) stephie: i was stupid enough to want to know what was inside, so ten minutes later i walked into his room without even knocking
(18:18:24) stephie: the package was open on his bed with a bunch of stuff spread out all over the bed
(18:18:56) stephie: i don't even know what half the stuff was, but i saw... well... a couple pairs of handcuffs and i think some whips or something
(18:19:01) stephie: maybe he's really gay?
(18:19:18) anna has closed the conversation window.
(18:19:29) stephie: you go somewhere?
(18:19:37) anna: no
(18:19:41) anna: what was it?
(18:19:58) stephie: the package was open on his bed with a bunch of stuff spread out all over the bed
(18:20:16) stephie: i don't even know what half the stuff was, but i saw... well... a couple pairs of handcuffs and i think some whips or something
(18:20:25) stephie: maybe he's really gay?
(18:20:55) stephie: anyway he was mad at me for coming into his room without even knocking, and i guess he was worried i might tell mom about the stuff he got or something
(18:21:21) stephie: and he grabbed me with an arm around my neck from behind and put handcuffs on me behind my back
(18:21:31) stephie: i freaked out and screamed at the top of my lungs
(18:21:51) anna: that's natural
(18:22:04) stephie: what, me freaking out? or him having those things?
(18:22:26) anna: you freaking out
(18:23:00) stephie: ok well anyway he got nervous when i screamed because mom was home at the time. he quickly unlocked the handcuffs and shoved me out of the room, threatening to hurt me real bad if mom ever found out about that stuff
(18:23:26) stephie: i ran to my room, mom asked me why i screamed and i just said i stepped on something, then i ran to my room and cried on my bed for hours
(18:23:37) stephie: now i hardly ever even say hi to him
(18:23:46) anna: that's scary
(18:24:28) stephie: i'm just glad mom was home at the time...
(18:24:37) anna: yeah
(18:25:14) stephie: now i do my best never to be home alone with my brothers. well, the second one isn't bad, really, we get along ok, but we're not really close either. but i'm still nervous around both of them.
(18:25:40) stephie: i never told anybody about that story
(18:26:15) stephie: so, i wish i was big and strong and could beat the shit out of him one day... but i doubt i'll ever be able to
(18:26:16) anna: wow
(18:26:29) anna: I'm sure you will eventually
(18:26:36) anna: you have lots of time
(18:26:43) stephie: i dunno
(18:28:01) stephie: i know he used to have nasty pictures of women on his computer, i think they might have been tied up or stuff like that... mom found those once and yelled at him, telling him he can't treat women like objects and stuff, and told him that if he didn't erase them immediately she'd take his computer away forever
(18:28:25) anna: well that's ok
(18:28:49) stephie: my dad defended him, saying that it's normal for boys his age and they're just pictures and stuff
(18:29:33) anna: hmm, normal for pics of girls, but not tied up and stuff like that..
(18:30:02) stephie: i was listening on the other side of their bedroom door when they were fighting about it... mom was really mad at dad for defending him, yelling at him for being a pervert himself and that his son's copying him
(18:30:54) stephie: and about a month ago something really sad happened.
(18:30:59) stephie: my dad left us :((
(18:31:16) anna: oh
(18:31:16) anna: I'm sorry
(18:31:54) stephie: mom said that he fell in love with a 25 year old blond girl and that we're better off without him. i miss him so much but i'm also really mad at him for what he did and i don't think i'd go visit him if i could.
(18:32:31) stephie: but now, because he's not here anymore, i'm alone with my brothers a lot more, which is scary
(18:32:39) anna: yeah
(18:32:47) anna: breakups are always really unfair on the children
(18:33:22) stephie: they fell in love in high school... they were in the same class. they went to the same college and got married when they were both 24.
(18:33:30) stephie: i cry just thinking about it
(18:33:50) anna: that's a shame
(18:34:25) stephie: they're 45 now... what's he doing cheating on mom with a 25-year-old? that's sick!
(18:34:49) anna: yes, but he's a man, men are just like that
(18:34:50) stephie: but maybe we should talk about happier stuff...
(18:35:01) anna: yeah, I'm sorry
(18:35:02) stephie: if men are just like that then why do women like them?
(18:35:34) anna: well, not all men are like that, just most of them
(18:35:48) stephie: do you have any ideas of something i could do to my brother so that he'd never hurt me, or to make him afraid of me, or at least that i wouldn't need to be afraid of him?
(18:36:09) anna: erm
(18:36:16) anna: nothing I can think of really
(18:36:23) anna: have a crowbar with you all the time?
(18:36:51) stephie: it's horrible... every time mom wants to go out to the store i beg her to come with her or go to a friends house or something
(18:36:59) stephie: she must think i'm so weird
(18:37:45) anna: yeah, sorry, I wish I could think of something but I can't
(18:37:55) stephie: i wish i knew Veronica Mars :)
(18:37:59) stephie: she could help me
(18:38:02) anna: haha
(18:38:07) anna: yes
(18:38:16) stephie: i love that show
(18:38:36) anna: lol
(18:39:06) stephie: you watch it too?
(18:39:13) anna: sometimes
(18:40:02) stephie: hard to believe how she uses all that equipment and stuff. and they have tv's in every classroom at her school... not really believable i think
(18:40:20) anna: no
(18:40:23) anna: lol
(18:40:34) anna: oh well
(18:40:42) stephie: yeah it's still entertaining
(18:40:59) anna: yeah
(18:42:03) stephie: do you have a boyfriend?
(18:42:23) stephie: (did i ask you that already?)
(18:42:52) anna: I don't think you asked
(18:42:56) anna: but no, I don't
(18:43:28) stephie: but you've had sex
(18:43:29) stephie: ?
(18:43:53) anna: yes
(18:44:02) stephie: is it as good as they make it look on tv?
(18:44:23) anna: lol, well it's good, but pretty unrealistic on tv usually
(18:45:26) stephie: how old were you the first time?
(18:45:48) anna: errrm
(18:45:56) anna: 13 actually :$
(18:46:01) stephie: :( younger than me
(18:46:18) stephie: i'll probably be the oldest one in my class still a virgin :(
(18:46:29) anna: thats ok, there's no shame in being a virgin
(18:46:59) stephie: there was a party last year i went to where i think some of the kids did it
(18:47:34) stephie: of course, mom tells me i have to wait till i'm married... at this rate i might lol
(18:48:08) anna: lol
(18:48:18) anna: well, wait until the right time
(18:48:29) anna: it'll make you special, you won't have just given it away
(18:48:38) stephie: on tv they make it look fun...
(18:48:55) stephie: but i don't get why any girl would suck a guy's cock... that just sounds gross
(18:49:00) anna: lol
(18:49:13) anna: nah, it's ok
(18:50:01) stephie: no way
(18:50:02) anna: but sex is fun, a lot of fun, but there's nothing wrong with leaving it
(18:50:32) stephie: they pee out of it! i wouldn't put that in my mouth!
(18:50:53) anna: lol
(18:51:04) stephie: yeah the girls in my class laugh at me too :(
(18:51:20) anna: I'm not laughing at you
(18:51:38) anna: there's nothing wrong with it
(18:52:11) stephie: do you enjoy sucking boys's you-knows? or do you just do it for them to do them a favor?
(18:53:30) anna: well, kind of did it for them at first, but it is quite fun once you get used to doing it, it is vital for controlling a guy
(18:53:42) stephie: heh :)
(18:53:53) stephie: it doesn't taste awful?
(18:53:59) anna: nah
(18:54:41) stephie: even their sperm?
(18:55:13) stephie: i guess it's like beer... mom says it's an "aquired taste"
(18:55:22) anna: lol
(18:55:28) anna: yeah
(18:55:30) anna: it's ok
(18:55:55) stephie: and boys like the way we taste? or do they just make us suck them?
(18:56:29) anna: well, some guys don't like sucking girls
(18:56:40) anna: well, licking
(18:57:20) stephie: i think i'd rather just keep lips on lips, and private parts on private parts
(18:57:36) stephie: oh, there are lips down there too i guess lol
(18:57:37) anna: sure?
(18:57:43) anna: lol
(18:57:49) anna: being licked out is a very nice feeling
(18:58:15) stephie: *sigh* i guess i DO still need to grow up more
(18:58:25) anna: lol
(18:58:25) anna: that's ok
(18:58:29) anna: 14 is still young, technically
(18:58:38) stephie: older than you were though
(18:58:43) anna: well yes
(18:58:53) anna: but I just did it early
(18:58:59) anna: don't try and compete, take your own time over it
(18:59:09) stephie: maybe if i just did it to my brother he'd be nicer to me and i wouldn't have to be afraid of him anymore
(18:59:17) anna: no
(18:59:28) anna: doing it with your brother is disgusting
(18:59:42) stephie: the whole thing sounds disgusting to me right now, brother or not lol
(18:59:42) anna: don't give in to him
(18:59:50) anna: lol
(18:59:55) anna: well don't do it then
(18:59:58) anna: if it sounds disgusting
(19:00:06) anna: wait til you're 16 and see then maybe
(19:00:17) stephie: but i don't want to have to hide from him all the time :(
(19:00:43) anna: well try and be strong, don't hide, but if he tries anything, tell him to leave you alone
(19:01:12) stephie: yeah a lot of good that'll do if nobody's home and he puts handcuffs on me :(
(19:02:08) anna: you can try and stop him, guys have a sensitive area...
(19:02:46) stephie: he's bigger, stronger, and faster
(19:02:53) stephie: hey do you know what a dreidel is?
(19:03:45) anna has closed the conversation window.
(19:04:04) anna: I'm sorry sweetheart, I really have to go now
(19:04:08) stephie: ok
(19:04:12) stephie: sorry for wasting your time
(19:04:18) anna: you haven't
(19:04:25) stephie: think of me next time you're beating up your brother :)
(19:04:29) anna: it's been nice talking to you
(19:04:30) anna: lol, I will
(19:04:33) stephie: :)
(19:04:34) stephie: bye
(19:04:37) anna: bye
(19:04:40) anna: :)
(19:04:40) anna has closed the conversation window.
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(19:27:18) anna logged in.
(19:27:45) anna: hi again
(19:27:53) stephie: oh you're back :) cool
(19:27:58) anna: yeah
(19:27:58) anna: :)
(19:28:32) anna: you ok?
(19:28:42) stephie: yeah
(19:29:05) stephie: this computer's making funny noises though, i hope it's not gonna die on me... oh well, not mine lol
(19:29:25) anna: lol
(19:29:29) anna: you have one at home?
(19:30:12) stephie: yeah my dad bought me a laptop a couple months ago
(19:30:37) anna: cool
(19:30:50) stephie: yeah i like it
(19:30:57) anna: yeah
(19:31:06) stephie: so what're you up to today?
(19:31:31) anna: lol
(19:31:31) anna: not much
(19:32:07) stephie: you can probably guess why i'm spending so much time at the library... mom said she'd be home late
(19:32:19) anna: ah, I see
(19:32:51) anna: so you fantasize about wrestling people in general or just your brothers?
(19:33:41) stephie: i dunno... it's mostly about getting back at that one brother i'm afraid of at the moment. but i used to imagine doing it just for fun
(19:33:47) stephie: with nobody in particular
(19:34:02) anna: ok
(19:34:41) anna: that's cool
(19:35:41) anna has closed the conversation window.
(19:35:52) stephie: so tell me something interesting
(19:36:22) anna: errrrrrrrm
(19:36:22) anna: like?
(19:36:35) stephie: i dunno... something fun
(19:37:36) anna has closed the conversation window.
(19:37:40) anna: lol
(19:37:54) anna: to do with?
(19:38:01) stephie: i dunno
(19:38:20) stephie: tell me what you'd do to my brother if you ever met him lol
(19:39:05) anna: I'd fight him
(19:39:24) stephie: yeah tell me how you'd teach him a lesson for me lol
(19:39:57) stephie: lorena bobbit style? lol
(19:40:05) anna: lorena bobbit?
(19:40:21) stephie: nevermind lol
(19:40:34) anna: lol
(19:40:43) anna: I'd wrap my legs around his waist and squeeze him
(19:41:43) anna has closed the conversation window.
(19:41:48) stephie: i'd like to watch that
(19:42:41) anna: squeeze him til he begged for mercy and promised not to go near you again
(19:42:58) stephie: i bet the sicko would enjoy that
(19:43:13) anna: would he?
(19:43:41) stephie: probably.... you look hot and he probably likes it rough
(19:44:41) anna has closed the conversation window.
(19:44:55) anna: that's no goos
(19:44:59) anna: good
(19:45:24) stephie: :(
(19:45:48) stephie: think you could get him naked, duct-taped to a flagpole?
(19:45:56) anna: lol
(19:45:56) anna: probably
(19:46:56) anna has closed the conversation window.
(19:47:13) stephie: damn, mom just called my cellphone... she wants me to go home :(
(19:47:28) anna: shame
(19:47:52) stephie: yeah but she's not gonna be home for another couple of hours or so
(19:48:14) stephie: but my 'dear' brother told her on the phone that i'm not home yet, and she's mad
(19:48:30) anna: well
(19:48:34) anna: I'm sure it'll be ok
(19:48:52) stephie: i hope so
(19:49:05) stephie: *sigh*
(19:49:35) anna: good luck
(19:49:43) stephie: thanks :'(
(19:50:07) anna: :)
(19:51:07) anna has closed the conversation window.
(19:52:20) anna: if he gives you a hard time, knee him in the groin
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(20:57:55) anna logged in.
(20:58:17) anna: hi
(20:58:28) stephie: hi anna
(20:58:38) anna: are you at home?
(20:59:04) stephie: yeah :(
(20:59:11) anna: everything ok?
(21:00:09) stephie: well, it could be worse
(21:00:35) stephie: i got home and Dave -- he's the creepy one -- comes up to me...
(21:00:47) stephie: says mom's real mad because i stayed out without permission
(21:01:16) stephie: i just ignore him, walk past him
(21:01:31) stephie: and i notice him 'checking me out'... looking at me up and down
(21:01:55) stephie: then he makes a comment about how i shouldn't be wearing such short skirts, gives the guys wrong ideas...
(21:02:08) stephie: i ran to my room and slammed the door and changed into a pair of long jeans! :(
(21:02:23) anna: that sucks
(21:02:49) stephie: yeah but i don't have a lock on my door... i hope he doesn't come in... mom's still not back
(21:03:13) anna: he probably won't
(21:03:18) anna: if he hasn't yet
(21:03:24) stephie: hope not
(21:03:50) anna: do you have a pic of you there?
(21:04:08) stephie: i have one somewhere on my harddrive but i gotta find it
(21:04:35) anna: ok
(21:05:13) stephie: oh a car's pulling up. i hope it's mom... hold on, i'm gonna listen at my door...
(21:05:50) anna: :)
(21:05:54) anna: ok
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(21:10:00) stephie: wasn't her :'( and stupid me... i thought it was and came running down the stairs, only to see Dave closing the door with another mystery package in his hand. at least i'm not stupid enough to try to find out what it is this time.
(21:10:24) stephie: i ran right back upstairs. he called after me but i just shouted 'leave me alone' and now i'm back in my room with the door closed. :(
(21:10:32) anna: yes
(21:10:34) stephie: i hate living like this. i gotta find a way to stand up to him.
(21:10:59) anna: you will
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(21:12:52) stephie: shit, he's knocking on my door
(21:13:11) anna: tell him to go away
(21:13:32) stephie: he wants to talk
(21:13:41) anna: about?
(21:14:33) stephie: he left now
(21:14:45) stephie: i told him i don't want to talk and he should just leave me alone
(21:14:52) anna: and he did
(21:15:06) stephie: he left... for now... thank god he didn't open my door, i would have freaked
(21:15:18) anna: see, he did do what you told him to
(21:15:24) stephie: right
(21:15:33) stephie: but i wonder what he wanted to talk about now :/
(21:15:48) anna: probably to defend himself about that package
(21:15:55) stephie: maybe
(21:16:12) stephie: why can't he be normal and just take drugs like everyone else? lol... why the whip and handcuffs?
(21:16:24) anna: lol
(21:16:28) anna: I dunno
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(21:17:58) anna: just try and ignore it
(21:18:27) stephie: yeah i guess
(21:18:58) anna: :)
(21:20:19) stephie: shit he knocked again and said he wants to go to blockbusters to rent a movie and wants me to come along for the ride so mom doesn't get pissed at him for leaving me alone
(21:20:46) anna: tell him to wait for your mum
(21:22:23) stephie: i told him to go by himself and promised him i wouldn't tell and i'd make an excuse for him if she called... she's not going to be back for a while. but he said i should come too so we can pick out something to watch together. i told him i'm not in the mood for a movie. i dunno if he's gonna go by himself or not. he left my door again.
(21:22:42) anna: ok
(21:23:05) stephie: oh shit, i'm just gonna go talk to him and get it over with... wish me luck
(21:23:21) stephie: i can't be a hostage in my own home anymore, this is rediculous
(21:23:27) anna: ok
(21:23:40) stephie: but i'm NOT driving anywhere with him, and not going in his room anymore.
(21:23:41) anna: but if he starts trouble, remember, a boys weak spot is groin area
(21:23:47) stephie: right, thanks
(21:23:50) anna: ok
(21:23:55) anna: good luck
(21:24:04) stephie: and i'll put a sweater on instead my short sleeves make him horny
(21:24:09) stephie: i mean incase
(21:24:27) stephie: jeez, sometimes i really wish i was gay
(21:24:29) anna: ok
(21:24:40) anna: lol
(21:24:50) stephie: well why do we have to put up with this?
(21:25:02) anna: I dunno
(21:25:04) anna: one of life's annoyances
(21:26:10) stephie: oh the door just slammed... maybe he really did go to get a movie by himself
(21:26:23) anna: maybe
(21:26:31) stephie: hold on a sec
(21:26:42) anna: ok
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(21:28:48) stephie: ok he really did go.
(21:28:57) anna: ok
(21:29:14) stephie: i guess i have a few minutes to myself... blockbusters is just around the corner
(21:29:20) stephie: if that's where he really went
(21:29:46) stephie: he had the name of a movie on his computer screen... i'm gonna look it up to see what he's getting...
(21:30:02) anna: ok
(21:30:05) anna: what is it?
(21:30:29) stephie: this. have you seen it? http://imdb.com/title/tt0439238/
(21:31:10) anna: no
(21:31:33) stephie: probably all blood, guts and gore, like everything he watches
(21:31:43) stephie: i think i'll pass on it thank-you :)
(21:31:57) anna: lol
(21:32:20) stephie: the sad thing is that like five years ago or so we were really close, good friends... i was his cute baby sister and he spoiled me
(21:32:26) stephie: wish things didn't have to change
(21:32:38) stephie: all because of those stupid friends he got in high school
(21:32:49) anna: yeah
(21:32:51) anna: that's a shame
(21:33:52) anna: :(
(21:34:04) stephie: how's your relationship with your siblings?
(21:34:10) anna: fine
(21:34:24) stephie: that's good
(21:34:30) anna: yeah
(21:35:08) stephie: do you think there's any chance i could ever get friendly again and trust him, when i know he's into that perverted stuff?
(21:35:31) anna: I don't know
(21:36:05) stephie: btw the package is sitting on his bed, unopened. i hope he doesn't notice i was in his room... i didn't touch anything, and closed the door again when i left
(21:36:21) anna: lol
(21:36:22) anna: he won't
(21:36:55) stephie: i was wondering if he opened it, figured it would be safe to see it if he wasn't at home at the time... oh yeah, i started telling you something before...
(21:37:10) stephie: he got this horrible t-shirt from a friend of his...
(21:37:53) anna: of?
(21:38:01) stephie: see, there's this jewish girl in his class who he likes, although he says he hates her... and she definitely hates him, can't blame her. so, in order to get on her nerves, his friend got him this t-shirt
(21:38:33) stephie: it has a picture of a 'dreidle', which i learned is a four-sided spinning top that little jewish kids play with on hanuka, or whatever their Christmas is called.
(21:39:17) stephie: (my best friend at school, Julia, is also Jewish. her family is so nice, i go to them a lot. she only eats vegetarian when she visits my house. but we get along so well.)
(21:39:43) stephie: anyway, his t-shirt has a picture of this dreidel with a caption that says
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(21:40:03) anna: odd
(21:40:21) stephie: this is the caption under the dreidel: "spin my dreidel. and by dreidel i mean cock. and by spin i mean suck."
(21:40:36) stephie: he wore it to a party of one of his friends
(21:40:56) stephie: walked up to the girl especially to point it out to her
(21:41:12) stephie: from what i heard through the grapevine, the girl started crying and left the party early
(21:41:17) stephie: isn't that sick?
(21:41:24) anna: yes
(21:42:06) stephie: and he's been wearing the shirt around the house a lot, even though mom keeps telling him to take it off. but he doesn't listen to her.
(21:43:06) stephie: so then last week i saw it in the dirty close pile. i don't know why mom was washing it for him! but i took it and got rid of it. he's been looking for it since, but hasn't found it. of course, he won't. i just hope he never finds out that i took it.
(21:43:37) anna: well he can't if you say nothing
(21:43:54) stephie: right. i hid it in my schoolbag and put it in a dumpster at school
(21:44:14) stephie: he thinks he can get a girl to like him with a shirt like that? are all boys so dumb?
(21:44:31) anna: no, only about 90% are that dumb
(21:44:36) stephie: great
(21:44:50) stephie: you're convincing me more and more that i need to cross the line lol
(21:44:57) anna: lol
(21:45:05) anna: nah, there are plenty of good guys around
(21:45:15) stephie: the weirdest thing is that he gets good grades in school usually, so he's not dumb about some stuff.
(21:45:37) anna: just no common sense
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(21:47:52) stephie: what's the nicest thing a boy ever actually did for you?
(21:48:10) anna: errrrrrrrm
(21:48:29) anna: said that I'm pretty?
(21:48:46) stephie: that's the best they can do isn't it
(21:49:05) anna: lol
(21:49:10) anna: spose
(21:49:33) stephie: what's your favorite movie?
(21:50:21) anna: erm, I dunno
(21:50:24) anna: Princess Bride?
(21:50:51) stephie: i loved that movie!
(21:50:59) anna: lol
(21:51:13) stephie: i have it on divx
(21:51:24) anna: cool
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(21:52:55) anna: sorry to keep asking, but do you have a pic?
(21:53:32) stephie: oh sorry... i've been searching for it... that's why we have the lag in our conversation... but i haven't found it yet... i'll keep looking
(21:53:42) anna: ok
(21:53:42) anna: thanks
(21:53:52) anna: :)
(21:53:58) stephie: i'm not such a looker, though, i dunno if you really need to see me :(
(21:54:11) anna: I bet you are
(21:54:24) stephie: car's driving up
(21:54:32) stephie: probably my brother again
(21:54:47) anna: ok
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(21:56:25) stephie: he wants me to go watch the movie with him. i'm gonna go see what he wanted to talk about.
(21:56:33) stephie: ttyl
(21:56:46) anna: ok
(21:56:55) anna: good luck
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(00:22:24) anna: hi
(00:22:36) stephie: hi
(00:22:43) anna: how are you?
(00:22:53) stephie: ok actually, surprise surprise
(00:23:04) anna: cool
(00:23:15) stephie: i've had the weirdest evening
(00:23:21) stephie: i still can't believe it
(00:23:32) anna: what?
(00:23:56) stephie: well, when he got home from the video store i decided to go talk to him
(00:24:34) stephie: it was really because of your encouragement... if i hadn't met you i probably would've continued being afraid and staying away from him
(00:24:59) stephie: so i go downstairs
(00:25:10) stephie: i'm really scared but try to smile and i say "Hi"
(00:25:26) stephie: he says hi, wanna watch the movie with me?
(00:25:39) anna: good start
(00:25:53) stephie: I say no, you wanted to talk about something before
(00:26:19) stephie: he says he wanted to ask me if i would come with him to the video store
(00:26:26) stephie: i said oh, that's all
(00:26:54) stephie: he says no, i also was wondering if you want to see what's in the package i got
(00:27:07) stephie: i got scared and felt like i couldn't move
(00:27:21) anna: what happened then?
(00:27:39) stephie: he noticed and said oh come on, you don't have to be afraid of me
(00:28:02) stephie: then he says that the package is upstairs in his room but lets go sit on the sofa and talk first
(00:28:21) stephie: and he puts his arm on my shoulders and takes me to the sofa
(00:28:39) stephie: i was nervous but went with him to the sofa
(00:29:11) stephie: then he gets a little teary eyed and starts giving me this heart to heart
(00:29:42) stephie: about how bad he feels that we're so far apart, and we used to be so close, and especially now that dad's gone it's like i'm the only one he has but we never even talk anymore
(00:30:13) stephie: and what can he do to make it better
(00:30:37) stephie: i'm boring you, right?
(00:31:15) anna: no
(00:31:21) anna: I am reading it
(00:31:24) stephie: ok
(00:31:29) anna: keep going :)
(00:31:42) stephie: so i told him honestly that i didn't know what he could do to make it better
(00:31:59) stephie: that he really freaked me out and scared me and i don't trust him anymore, i'm scared of him
(00:32:28) stephie: and he's like, because of the handcuffs, right?
(00:32:34) stephie: and i'm like, yeah
(00:33:06) stephie: so then he said he was really sorry about doing that to me,
(00:33:12) stephie: and he felt bad right away
(00:33:34) stephie: and he did it because i surprised him walking in without knocking and he was scared because he didn't want mom to find that stuff
(00:33:52) anna: again, that's good
(00:34:11) stephie: and he promised that he'd never ever do anything like that again to me, and would never ever hurt me
(00:34:22) stephie: and he'd protect me from other people or help me when i had trouble
(00:34:28) stephie: and he just wants us to be friends again
(00:34:45) stephie: but that's not all
(00:35:24) stephie: he said that i'm the only one in the family who knows about his special toys
(00:35:37) stephie: only a couple of friends from school know about them
(00:36:04) stephie: and even though i found out about them by accident, he's glad that only i know about it
(00:36:04) anna: ok
(00:36:32) stephie: because he trusts me and loves me and it makes our relationship special or something like that
(00:37:29) stephie: and he wanted to show me the new package he got today, and to show me all his old stuff, so that i'd know exactly what was there, and that could be our special secret
(00:37:52) stephie: and he promised to never ever put any of it on me unless i really wanted him to
(00:38:05) stephie: never even to joke about it or threaten me with it
(00:38:14) anna: fair enough
(00:38:17) stephie: it was weird because he had tears in his eyes when he said it
(00:38:38) stephie: i was really shocked by all this
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(00:39:01) stephie: i wanted to know why he was in to all that stuff, but didn't want to say i think he's a sick pervert to his face
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(00:39:27) stephie: so i just asked him why he likes that sort of stuff
(00:39:52) anna: and he said?
(00:40:15) stephie: he told me this is another secret he wants only me to know and nobody else, and that he trusts me so he'll tell me
(00:40:27) stephie: and i promised him of course i'd never tell
(00:41:11) stephie: he told me that a long time ago his friends showed him some pictures of pretty girls tied up or with handcuffs on... only they looked happy, not like they're suffering
(00:41:19) anna: ok
(00:41:26) stephie: and then he really got into collecting pictures like that
(00:41:46) stephie: then he asked me if i knew about the birds and the bees and if i knew what it meant for a boy to be horny
(00:41:48) stephie: :)
(00:41:56) anna: ok
(00:42:14) stephie: i was thinking of telling him i have no clue and making him explain it all just for fun,
(00:42:18) stephie: but i told him yeah i know
(00:42:30) stephie: so he told me that thinking of that kind of stuff gets him horny
(00:42:46) stephie: but he never thinks of hurting anyone. just playing games, having fun
(00:43:12) stephie: in his mind, the imaginary girl he's doing it to enjoys it just as much as he does
(00:43:27) stephie: i thought that was very very weird
(00:43:54) stephie: but, assuming he wasn't lying, i felt better that at least he doesn't want to hurt anyone or rape anyone
(00:44:08) anna: lol
(00:44:12) anna: I'm sure he wasn't
(00:44:22) stephie: i don't think he was lying either
(00:44:35) stephie: i still think he's really weird
(00:44:55) stephie: but anyway, then he asks me if i could come with him to his room so he could show me his collection
(00:45:43) stephie: so i made him promise that he wouldn't touch me with any of it, wouldn't make me touch anything, and that i'd be able to leave whenever i wanted, and he promised
(00:46:09) stephie: and he got all excited and hugged me and kissed me on the cheek
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(00:46:20) anna: and?
(00:46:28) stephie: and you'll never believe it
(00:47:06) stephie: i'm embarrassed to tell you... he told me to climb onto his back, and he gave me a piggy-back ride upstairs to his room!
(00:47:14) anna: hahaha
(00:47:25) anna: well, you're 14 I spose...
(00:47:33) stephie: you can't imagine how good i was feeling tho, that i didn't have to be afraid of him anymore
(00:47:45) stephie: yeah he's 17 and he's real strong, and i'm short and skinny
(00:48:02) anna: yes, that is nice
(00:48:22) stephie: anyway, inside his room the package was sitting on his bed
(00:48:30) stephie: like i saw it before
(00:49:25) stephie: he showed me where there was a hiding place in his bed, under the mattress... it was quite big... with the mattress in place you couldn't tell it was there but if he pulls the mattress a way there's this big space there that i could probably fit inside even
(00:49:53) stephie: and he starts pulling out all sorts of stuff and putting it on the floor
(00:50:09) stephie: it was so weird
(00:50:20) stephie: but it was also interesting
(00:50:47) stephie: and then i started picking things up and looking at them, and asking him what they did or were used for
(00:51:07) stephie: he had all kinds of different metal handcuffs... those were the easy ones to know what they did
(00:51:20) stephie: different sizes, different size chains between them, all kinds
(00:51:25) stephie: and some plain chains, some plain locks
(00:51:54) stephie: but some other weird things that he told me were 'gags' to keep the person wearing them from being able to talk. i knew what a gag was but wouldn't have known that thats' what those things were
(00:52:10) anna: lol
(00:52:18) stephie: i know, it's crazy
(00:52:28) stephie: i was starting to have fun
(00:53:16) stephie: i asked him what the whip was for if he didn't like to hurt people, he said it was just for pretend... he could make loud, scary cracking sounds on the floor to scare his prisoner, but he wouldn't really use it on a person
(00:53:37) stephie: he never tried to put any of it on me, just like he promised
(00:53:51) stephie: but he did show me how some of it worked on himself
(00:54:03) anna: haha
(00:54:04) anna: ok
(00:54:52) stephie: he even handed me a key and then put handcuffs on himself, behind his back, and told me i should get even with him for what he did to me last time
(00:55:15) stephie: i kind of thought about trying some of the other stuff on the floor, but i didn't. i just tickled him a bit and then unlocked him
(00:55:37) stephie: then we opened his new package together
(00:55:55) stephie: it had more stuff for locking people up, more cuffs and stuff, except these ones were mostly made of leather
(00:56:17) stephie: he said they'd be more comfortable on the prisoner's wrists but would work just as well to make sure they couldn't escape
(00:57:01) stephie: he has straps and paddles for giving spankings and stuff too... and bars that you can lock to a girl's ankles to keep her from being able to bring her legs together
(00:57:17) anna: I've seen those things
(00:57:24) stephie: if he wanted to, he really could torture someone really good
(00:57:31) stephie: thank god he doesn't intend on doing it to me
(00:57:35) stephie: at least i hope he doesnt
(00:57:36) stephie: :)
(00:57:41) stephie: i don't think he does
(00:57:46) stephie: really? where'd you see them?
(00:58:03) anna: on a website
(00:58:21) stephie: maybe that's where he ordered them from then lol
(00:58:55) anna: lol
(00:59:18) stephie: after that he showed me some of the pictures he collected that show people with those things actually on them
(00:59:52) anna: fun
(01:00:03) stephie: he even told me the password to his computer! it was so weird!
(01:00:10) anna: lol
(01:00:16) stephie: so that i could come in and look at his pictures even if he wasn't home
(01:00:24) anna: haha
(01:00:36) anna: he must have been being honest then
(01:00:53) stephie: he was all smiling and stuff, acting real happy
(01:01:04) stephie: it was nice seeing him like that even though all the stuff was so weird
(01:01:21) anna: that's good
(01:01:52) stephie: and he was kinda right... in the pictures he had, the girls who had all those things on them actually did look like they were enjoying it. they didn't look scared at all.
(01:02:11) stephie: even the ones who had scared faces on, you could somehow tell it was just an act and they weren't really scared.
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(01:02:45) anna: :)
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(01:04:01) stephie: so i was feeling a TON better than i had in the past few months
(01:04:18) stephie: i still am feeling a lot better
(01:04:26) stephie: and really, it's because of you :) thanks
(01:04:34) anna: :$
(01:05:23) stephie: when we heard our mom enter the house, together we quickly put all the stuff away in the hiding place in his bed, and he slid the mattress back in place... and he opened the new york times in his internet explorer
(01:05:53) stephie: mom came into his room just as we finished cleaning up... we were sitting on his bed laughing hysterically... it was really funny
(01:06:10) stephie: mom didn't get what was going on but she said she was glad to see we were getting along again
(01:06:16) anna: haha
(01:06:17) anna: cool
(01:06:26) stephie: then she told me i should go to bed
(01:06:41) anna: and you haven't?
(01:06:54) stephie: well, i'm in bed... but i have a laptop and we have wireless lo
(01:06:55) stephie: l
(01:07:01) anna: lol
(01:07:05) anna: ok
(01:07:15) anna: you found a pic yet?
(01:07:27) stephie: :( no, sorry
(01:07:32) stephie: i'll work on it though, promise
(01:07:37) anna: ok
(01:07:39) anna: it's ok
(01:07:55) stephie: i gotta finish chatting and go to sleep... i'm just feeling really hyper about everything that happened today
(01:08:14) anna: haha yeah
(01:08:15) anna: ok
(01:08:17) anna: :)
(01:08:17) stephie: anyway after my mom left my brother's room we hugged each other
(01:08:25) stephie: a long, tight hug
(01:08:27) stephie: it was nice
(01:08:50) anna: :)
(01:09:05) stephie: then he told me that mom was right, we should both go to sleep 'cause it's late
(01:09:13) anna: lol
(01:09:17) anna: well you probably should then
(01:09:23) stephie: hold on lemme finish lol
(01:09:41) anna: lol
(01:09:41) anna: sorry
(01:09:44) stephie: almost done
(01:09:52) stephie: so he asked me if he could carry me to my room!
(01:10:01) stephie: i said, "you want to?"
(01:10:09) stephie: it's hard to describe... we were both giggling so much
(01:10:54) stephie: so he picked me up... this time not on his back, in front... you know, with an arm around my back and another under the back of my knees
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(01:11:04) anna: and you said yes?
(01:11:05) stephie: i can't remember the last time i'd been picked up like that
(01:11:09) anna: lol
(01:11:15) stephie: it was really funny
(01:11:38) stephie: he was good at it too... was careful not to bump me on the door as we left his room
(01:11:50) anna: lol
(01:12:05) stephie: and he plopped me down on my bed
(01:12:22) stephie: then he sat down next to me and neither of us could stop giggling
(01:12:41) anna: haha
(01:12:52) stephie: then i asked him something i probably shouldn't have
(01:12:58) anna: what?
(01:13:10) stephie: i asked him if he got horny from carrying me like that
(01:13:21) anna: ah
(01:13:34) stephie: and then i apologized right after, and told him not to answer, to forget i asked
(01:13:41) anna: yes
(01:13:43) anna: good idea
(01:13:49) stephie: but he was really nice about it
(01:14:03) stephie: he asked me if i wanted to know the truth
(01:14:07) stephie: i said sure
(01:15:05) stephie: he said that he feels so close to me and loves me, and that i'm really really cute, so he really enjoys doing stuff like that with me
(01:15:31) stephie: it excites him but he doesn't think it makes him horny, just fun-excited
(01:15:41) anna: ok
(01:16:28) stephie: and he said that his cock did get a little stiff while he was fooling around with me like that but that he still doesn't think that meant he was horny because he had no desire at all to have sex with me, he was just having fun
(01:16:53) stephie: he said cocks can get stiff from other reasons too, not just from wanting to have sex
(01:17:18) stephie: he said that was the true answer and asked me if that bothered me
(01:17:32) anna: true
(01:17:42) stephie: so i told him it's ok, it was fun for me too and that i was glad that we were close again
(01:18:18) stephie: then mom came into my room and told Dave to go to his own room
(01:18:25) anna: and?
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(01:18:51) stephie: Dave leaned over and kissed my forehead before leaving, as he pulled away i pulled him back and kissed him on the cheek and hugged him around the neck, and then he left and went to bed.
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(01:20:14) stephie: i was feeling really happy, so i put on my cutest nightgown... it's really short, i hardly ever wear it, went to brush my teeth, then went back to my room, closed the door, turned on my reading lamp and got into bed and opened my laptop
(01:21:04) stephie: i was feeling hyper and didn't think i could fall asleep right away. so i tried googling for handcuffs to see if i could find some more pictures for Dave to surprise him tomorrow. and then you messaged me. :)
(01:21:28) stephie: now i'm yawning, feeling really tired, and i think i'll be able to fall asleep and dream happy dreams
(01:21:34) stephie: what a weird day!
(01:21:39) anna: lol
(01:21:40) anna: but good
(01:21:58) stephie: yeah seriously
(01:23:05) stephie: for months, now, i take a long time coming home from school... often i go to the library first even though i don't need to... anything to delay going home. and now i can't wait for school to end tomorrow so i can run home and look for Dave. it's so weird, so different.
(01:23:14) stephie: but i prefer it this way, of course :)
(01:23:24) anna: hehe
(01:23:25) anna: cool
(01:23:25) anna: :)
(01:23:56) stephie: i don't even think he's a sicko anymore. i think it's kind of cool.
(01:24:13) anna: cool
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(01:25:34) anna: well done
(01:25:38) stephie: so, any more advice you can give me before i go to sleep?
(01:25:47) anna: lol, don't think so
(01:25:53) stephie: you're really good
(01:25:57) anna: I've interfered enough for one day
(01:25:58) anna: :)
(01:25:59) stephie: :)
(01:26:00) anna: thanks
(01:26:10) stephie: i bet he'd let me wrestle with him and let me win if i wanted, lol
(01:26:16) anna: lol
(01:26:18) anna: you never know
(01:26:38) stephie: we'll see what happens tomorrow
(01:26:50) anna: yeah
(01:27:03) stephie: my other brother didn't come home today. stayed at a friend's house. good thing, he might have gotten in the way.
(01:27:12) anna: ok
(01:27:33) stephie: oh, and my brother never got to watch his movie lol
(01:27:39) anna: lol
(01:27:44) stephie: but he said that what we did was more fun
(01:28:11) stephie: i told him i'd watch it with him some time on the weekend because he said it had some bondage scenes in it
(01:28:21) anna: haha ok
(01:28:31) stephie: now i know that that's what the game's called lol
(01:28:48) stephie: i never heard of that before today lol... i'm too innocent
(01:28:58) anna: lol
(01:29:08) stephie: but maybe not anymore... i bet the other kids in my class never saw any of the stuff i saw today
(01:29:14) anna: lol
(01:29:18) anna: probably not
(01:30:07) anna: anyway
(01:30:20) stephie: yeah, bedtime. it's late
(01:30:25) anna: yep
(01:30:26) anna: goodnight
(01:30:31) stephie: yeah goodnight
(01:30:37) stephie: sweet dreams
(01:30:42) anna: you too
(01:30:42) anna: :)
(01:30:46) stephie: :)
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