Wings as Eagles
A Drama by Jay Lance
Chapter 5
Finally, my new assignment!
I had finally gotten a job when I reached Fort Knox. They assigned me to the airport. There I worked on T-71 airplanes, which the instructors used for training. A week after I was there I was given a jeep to drive back and forth to the airport and to give anyone a ride that needed transportation, but everyone had his or her own vehicles. The Company assigned the jeep to our group and I was the only one that needed it. It wasn’t bad working there and I loved working on airplanes. I would have preferred to work on helicopters but planes were fun.
I was beginning to enjoy my time in the service now, but I was still thinking of what I had done to dad. After a few weeks and making a couple of friends, things began to get better for me. I use the jeep to go sight seeing some days during lunch. Only three of us actually worked on the planes. Sometimes the pilots would take me flying with them, when I could get an okay. I learned a lot about flying in a short time. I thought Someday I would get my pilots license.
It didn’t take me long to find where the women hung out. The men in my barracks began inviting me out to the clubs whenever they went out. I wasn’t eighteen, but no one ever asked for my ID. The first night I went out with them, we drove about thirty miles to a club called the Straight Jacket. The place was packed and loud. The four of us had gotten a table near two girls sitting by themselves. After fifteen minutes, we mentioned to each other they weren’t dancing with anyone. We were all debating to go and ask them to dance but I wasn’t waiting for anyone. I walked over to one of them and asked her to dance. She accepted and we danced a couple of songs. I never liked fast dancing but I wasn’t waiting for a slow one because sometimes they were too few.
Her hair was short and dark brown. She was very nice looking but wouldn’t talk much. I felt she was just the quiet type. After we began dancing, I put my hands on her shoulder and pulled her close so she could hear me.
“I’m Jay,” I said.
“Joanna,” she replied. We continue dancing. We stayed on the dance floor through a couple of fast songs. The next song was a slow song that I was waiting for. I loved slow dancing because it allowed me to be close to the girl and we could talk to each other.
“I saw you at your table laughing with your friend and I think you have a beautiful smile,” I complemented her.
“Thank you,” she replied.
“This is my first time here. I like it, but it’s loud,” I said, continuing to break the ice.
“It’s always this loud,” she replied insinuating she had been here before. After the dance, we went back to the table and I pulled the chair up for her. I leaned over to the other girl with my hand extended to introduce myself.
“I’m Jay.” I said, as we shook hands.
“I’m Lynn.”
“If you two are not with anyone, would you like to sit with us?” I asked.
“You can sit with us if you want to,” she responded.
I sat down with them and tried to talk but it was loud. I pulled my chair close to Joanna and made conversation by questioning her. She said that she was a secretary for some company but I soon forgot the name. She and Lynn had an apartment together.
David asked Lynn to dance and they were on the floor. Joanna and I danced most of the songs and all of the slow ones. After a few slow dances at the right moment, I leaned over to kiss her and she allowed me to. I tried to be funny and keep some conversation going. She was very nice looking and I couldn’t help but tell her.
“You are very beautiful,” I complemented her again. Women liked to hear that, no matter how they looked. I tried to act sure of myself, even if I wasn’t. I was nervous about making advances only because I didn’t like being turned down. I had never been turned down but fear of the first time was always present in my mind. However, I felt most women went out for the same reason as men.
This is the way I saw it. After getting to know a girl, I would ask if I could call them. This would determine if they were interested. If they said I could call, then I knew it was close to a sure thing. I just needed to perform a couple of tests.
“Can I call you this week and maybe meet you here next Friday night?” I asked.
“Yes, if you want to!” She answered. I pulled her close to me. The lights were dim and the strobe lights were flashing. We were slow dancing and I put my arms around her waist as hers were over my shoulders. I kissed around her face and neck to check her reaction.
I slid my hand around her body to arouse and test her. With her arms around my neck, I put one hand on her neck gently rubbing and pulling her to my mouth to give her a short kiss. I then gently move my hand down toward her breast but not touching it. Then I put them on her hips and slid up and down slowly along her side. I was getting closer to her breast from all directions each time, finally stopping my hand underneath touching the bottom and leaving it in that spot for a few seconds. She didn’t move or say anything. I slowly moved my palm onto her breast, slightly squeezing for a moment, and moved it back to her waist. She didn’t try to stop me. I knew now she was a sure thing.
Now it was a matter of whether it would be tonight or later. I was now feeling sure of myself and I had to prove something to myself and to the other men. After that dance, we sat down at the table and I pulled my chair close to hers. This would allow me to put my arm around her. The place was loud, but that was good so when I spoke to her, I would have to put my mouth close to her ear. Then, what ever I spoke was in private.
After being a little witty, making her laugh and making her comfortable with me, I said. “I want to be with you tonight when we leave here?” She looked at me unsure what to say. I leaned over and kissed her for ten seconds or more. “Don’t break my heart,” I said, with a helpless look on my face.
“Okay, I won’t break your heart,” she replied. I smiled and kissed her again.
A few minutes later, I was in the rest room telling James. “I don’t need a ride back, I’m going home with Joanna,” I said, to him because it was his car we came in.
“Damn Jay! You lucky shit!” he stated. I tried to act cool, but I knew I was a lucky shit.
At one o’clock, I left the nightclub getting in the car with Joanna and Lynn. The other guys were staying until the club closed. I didn’t know why Lynn wasn’t with any of the other men. I didn’t know if they even tried. During the drive to their apartment, I tried to be extra nice and talk to Lynn because I knew it made a difference with her being comfortable with the situation, but she being friendly didn’t seem to mind. They lived twenty minutes from the club and forty minutes from the fort.
After entering the apartment, Lynn said good night and went directly to her room. I followed Joanna to hers and we stood beside the bed kissing a few minutes. I began undressing her as she repaid the favor. After we had gotten in the bed, we continued kissing and fondling one another to arouse each other’s sexual desires. I had made my mind up before reaching her apartment that I would do anything with the exception of going down on her, but would welcome any oral sex that she might be willing to perform.
I rolled on top of her kissing all about her face and neck feeling one of her breast at the same time. She reached down placing her hand around my erection that was at full size by this time. I moved my body down enough to place my mouth on her nipple and sucked it with vigor and moving to each slurping with my tongue. Rolling off, I pulled her on top to where she was straddling my body. She leaned forward sucking and kissing my neck as she rubbed her cunt on my belly covering my shaft at the same time. Forcing her vertical while she remained on top, I placed both hands on her breast feeling, but mostly to view them. The ceiling light was on giving out more than enough to see by which left her figure in an almost silhouette view causing me to lean my head a little to the left using her to block the direct light glowing in my eyes. I reached down taking my erection in hand directing it to her channel, sliding it up and down the full length until she placed her hand on mine, helping guide until it was in her. She then sat with all of her weight.
“Oh shit! Damn!” She said raising herself up. I knew she had pushed too hard at first feeling the pressure on my head. I had reached the full depth of her well. She leaned forward, her elbows resting to my sides and began a slow rhythm of movement with her cunt up and down, then began pushing even harder until she was moaning aloud. Putting my hands on her hips, I pushed and pulled with her until I felt myself coming, making sounds indicating likewise.
“Come on, fuck me, fuck me hard! Fuck me!” She said knowing I was shooting in her.
“Ooh yes! Ooh shit!” I moaned as I unloaded in her maintaining the rhythm until my fluid was exhausted and my spasm had subsided. Underneath her, my body was limber but I remained hard as she took advantage, maintaining her rhythm until I became limp. After her own exhaustive activity, she fell limp on top of me. We lay in that position falling asleep not knowing what time of the night we pulled apart and lay next to one another.
I think we went to sleep about four thirty and slept almost until noon. I took a shower and after she had taken one, we had sex once again before she drove me back to the barracks. She gave me her telephone number and said she would meet me next Friday at the same club.
The other men made a big thing of it when I went in the barracks. Of course, I tried to act cool without being a fool about it. They asked me how many times we did it. I lied and bragged we did it five times. David said he tried with Lynn but she wouldn’t do anything.
“I don’t know why, they’re nothing but whores!” I said, laughing.
“Oh come on, they’re not whores.” David replied.
“The fuck they ain’t! How many nice girls would let you fuck them on the first night?” I asked.
“That still doesn’t make them whores,” he said.
“The fuck it doesn’t! All the women around here are whores!” I continued laughing.
“Your full of shit!” he stated. The other men were laughing at us.
“No I’m not! I’m going to fuck Lynn too! I said.
“You aren’t shit, you couldn’t do it if you wanted to!” He said yelling at me.
“I was just kidding with you, but I’m going to fuck her now!” I stated.
“Your still full of shit! He said being upset with me.
“Give me until next Friday,” I said, as I was having fun and trying to piss him off.
The other men were laughing so hard at us. “I should have fucked her last night when Joanna fell asleep. I knew she wanted me to,” I said, and laughed.
“You are so full of it,” he responded still being angry.
I looked at James. “James! Give me your keys and I will go to her apartment and fuck her tonight?” he was laughing so hard he was rolling on my bunk. David turned away angry and walked toward his bunk.
“You got him pissed off.” James said.
“He shouldn’t fuck with me,” I replied laughing. I was just having fun with him.
James and I continued joking about it.
A few minutes later David walked by and I stopped him.
“Are you through fucking with me?” I asked.
“Fuck you! I don’t give a shit,” he responded.
“Hey! I was just fucking with you. I’ll tell you what I’m going to do. When I talk to Joanna this week I’m going to see if she can get Lynn to go out with you, okay.”
“No shit! I wanted her bad last night!” He stated.
“If I do this, you will owe me,” I said, with a serious look.
“Anything you want, man,” he replied. I was joking about him owing me but I didn’t tell him.
That evening after mess hall, I went to the Rec. Room to use the telephone. I called and Joanna answered.
“Hi! This is Jay.”
“Hi! I didn’t expect you to call so soon,” she responded.
“I just wanted to talk to you. It’s been six hours and I miss you.”
“Sure you do,” she laughed.
“I do! But I found a reason to call you.”
“What’s that?” She asked.
“You remember David, the guy Lynn danced with last night.”
“Yeah, why? She asked”
“He wants to go out with her, can you fix it?”
“Lynn told me she liked dancing with him but he acted weird sometimes,” she replied.
“He’s a nice guy. That is the way he is, the quiet, shy type. So, will you try?” I asked.
“I’ll talk to her.”
“Thanks! I’ll make it up to you next time I see you.”
“I’ll hold you to that,” she replied.
“That’s enough about them. Let’s talk about you,” I said.
“No! Let’s talk about you,” she replied.
“You would die of boredom if we did that,” I joked.
“You’re anything but boring.”
“I don’t like the way you said that!” I responded.
“I mean that in a good way.”
“Yeah, meaning I don’t ever shut my mouth?” I asked.
“No, not that way at all. You’re friendly, outgoing and cute,” she stated.
“Thank you! You are beautiful and right now, I would love to see your smile. You have a beautiful smile!” I said, trying to butter her up. “A couple of guys are waiting to use the phone. Can I call you tomorrow?” I asked, lying about others waiting.
“Yes, I get home about six thirty,” she answered.
“Then I’ll call you tomorrow.” We said bye.
I went back to the barracks and told David what I had done. He was excited but I told him not to count his eggs yet.
“I told her I would call after six-thirty tomorrow night but I’m going to wait until Tuesday,” I said.
“Why.”
“There's nothing like watching a girl squirm while waiting for a phone call, it makes them more anxious.”
“Don’t do that, she might say the hell with you and screw my chances up with Lynn,” he begged.
“Trust me man, go along with me and you’ll be fucking her Wednesday or Thursday night if she agrees to go out with you. All we need is transportation.”
“James will let me use his car,” he replied.
I’m not going to ask her yet to come pick me up. She likes me but I don’t think she’s stuck on me,” I stated.
“It looks to me like she’s stuck on you.”
“When she offers to come pick me up to fuck her, then she’s stuck on me,” I explained.
“Why are you like that man?”
“That’s the way life is, the fucking whores,” I snapped at him.
The next day after work, we were playing pool in the Rec Room and David kept pushing me to call them but I told him “No trust me,” I thought Lynn would go out with him by what Joanna told me. If she would let him come to the apartment, I knew he could fuck her unless he was an idiot. I would be in Joanna’ s room and it would be up to him. I had not said anything to him about what Lynn told Joanna. I didn’t want to screw his mind up.
The next evening after mess, David went with me to call her. Lynn answered.
“Hi! Is this Lynn?” I asked.
“Yes.”
“This is Jay, can I speak to Joanna?”
“You should have called her last night,” she said with concern.
“I couldn’t help it, I had to go on a test flight, until late. I had to fix some problems on one of the airplanes,” I explained.
“Okay, let me get her.”
“Hi.” Joanna answered.
“I’m sorry about last night. I had some problems with one of the trainers and we took it on a test flight to get some kinks out. It was late when we got back. I’m really sorry,” I explained.
“I guess it couldn’t be helped,” she said reluctantly.
“Please don’t be mad?” I said, as I looked at David. He was throwing his head back in disbelief by what I was telling her.
“I’m not mad. It’s just that I was expecting you to call last night.”
“What have you been doing?” I asked.
“Laundry and cleaning up.”
“Sounds like I should be there helping,” I said, trying to be funny.
“I need help. I can’t get anything done,” she replied.
Her attitude changed a little for the better. David was still standing next to me listening. He was shaking his head. He couldn’t believe what I was telling her.
“Did you get a chance to speak to Lynn about David?” I asked as I looked at David.
“She said she would go out with him.”
“That’s great, He’s been asking about her,” I said, shaking my head yes, at David. “If I can get James to let me borrow his car we could take both of you to dinner tomorrow night or Thursday,” I said, suggesting.
“I would like to. I’ll ask Lynn,” she responded.
“Let me make sure James will let us use his car, before you say anything. He can be an ass about his car sometimes,” I explained.
“If it’s all right with Lynn, why don’t we just pick you and David up tomorrow after work so we don’t have to drive all the way home and come back?”
“That’s would be great! It will save us a lot of time!
“Let me ask Lynn,” she said as I held on. I could tell she was covering the phone while she spoke to Lynn.
“We’ll be there about a quarter until six,” she said after asking Lynn.
“That’s great! Write this down, First Cav., Building C., when you get to gate 3, ask the MP and he will tell you how to get here,” I explained. “We’ll see you at a quarter until six then?” I asked.
“Yes, see you then, Bye.” We hung up.
“You better grease your prick, she’s hooked,” I said, smiling at him.
“You still ain’t shit,” he said smiling and rubbing his hands together.
“We didn’t talk about going to the apartment afterwards but we will. When we get there, you’re on your own. I’m going to the fucking bedroom,” I said.
“Don’t worry about me, just get us there,” he replied.
The next evening they were on time picking us up. We went to a restaurant and ate dinner. After eating, we sat and talked while drinking a beer.
“I’m not ready to call it quits yet. Why don’t we go to your place?” I asked bluntly, wanting to know if Lynn would let David go to her apartment.
“That sounds good to me.” Joanna replied. I looked at Lynn trying to put her on the spot.
“Sure, that sounds good to me,” she said as if she had already decided.
Lynn drove us to their apartment as Joanna and I made out in the back seat. David was up front trying to make conversation with Lynn. At least he wasn’t being shy. We reached their place and Joanna and I immediately told them we were going to her room. David was on his own from here on. After Joanna and I had sex, I wondered how David was doing.
“I think I’ll go check on them,” I said, joking but she took me serious.
“You remind me of a Neanderthal,” she stated and laughed. I wanted to say, “You remind me of a whore!” However, I needed a ride back. She was joking but it pissed me off. Okay bitch, I’m going to fuck you one more time and you can kiss my ass. I thought. A few minutes later after feeling her, we fucked again. Afterwards I told her David and I need to get back because Company Formation came early. I dressed and went into the den looking for David. They were in Lynn’s room. I knocked on the door.
“Hey buddy, we need to get back on post.”
“We’ll be out in a few minutes!” Lynn yelled.
I went to the bathroom, as Joanna got dressed. David was in the den when I came out.
“What’s the rush?” he asked.
“It’s going to be hard to get up in the morning if we don’t get to bed. You can’t get it all tonight anyway,” I said, joking.
We waited a few minutes and the girls were dressed and ready to take us back. I didn’t talk much on the way back. Only if I was asked something. No one asked me why I was so quiet, which was fine with me. I didn’t feel like talking and laid my head back almost falling asleep. We arrived at the barracks near eleven o’clock. Getting out of the car, David kissed Lynn as I walked directly to the Barracks. I was almost undressed headed for the shower and David came up to me.
“I think you upset her not telling her good-bye,” he said wanting to know the reason.
“Fuck her, that bitch called me a Neanderthal. It may be the truth but she’s not going to get a chance to say it again.”
“What do you mean?” he asked being surprised.
“I mean Fuck Her! I’m not going to go out with her anymore.”
“Come on man. Don’t be like that!”
“I got all I want, you can fuck them both from now on.”
“What are you going to tell her?”
“I’m not going to tell her shit! I don’t want to talk to her again,” I said, knowing I was being an ass but I could have a little fun with it.
During the rest of that week and the next, he tried coaxing me to talk to her, telling me she said she was sorry, it was just a joke.
“Tell her it was funny and I laughed,” I said, being arrogant.
He continued seeing Lynn and would mention sometimes that Joanna still wanted to see me. I would smile and he would say I was the biggest horses ass he had ever known. I felt better knowing she still wanted to see me. It made it more fun.
A little recreation!
Our Company Commander asked if someone would volunteer to help him with the Boy Scouts that he was involved. I wasn’t doing anything special so I volunteered. For the next couple of months I had a great time going out every second or third weekend on field trips with the kids. I would check out a one-ton or a two and a half ton truck to haul the boys to different places. We would camp out, visit different caves, go hiking and return on Sundays. I loved doing it and the CO would overlook me using the jeep on weeknights for my personnel use. However, I couldn’t take it off post for any reason. The Boy Scout thing lasted all summer until a couple of weeks before school started. During the next couple of months, I didn’t do anything except work. I didn’t have a girlfriend and didn’t look for one.
I wanted to talk to dad!
I had talked to mom on the phone and she said dad was very sick and in the hospital. I hitched a ride home Friday to visit him. I had gotten home late and everyone was asleep. The next morning I had gotten up early. Mom had gotten up and told me she was going to see dad about eleven. I wore my uniform because I wanted dad to see me with it on when I visited him today. Mom and I got to the hospital around noon; we had left the kids at the house because they wouldn’t let them in to see dad anyway.
We entered the room and dad was sitting up but he was leaning forward with his head down as though he were in pain. A few minutes after talking and I realized he was.
He looked up with a painful smile and said. “Hi son, how are you doing?”
“I’m doing good dad. How are you?”
“Pretty good,” he replied.
I could tell he was hurting and probably didn’t feel like talking so I just sat in the chair for a while. Mom sat on the edge of the bed holding his hand. I could tell when the pain was worse; he would squeeze mom’s hand very hard not knowing what he was doing. My eyes were beginning to water as I watched him.
I got up saying I would be back in a minute. I would go out and smoke a couple of cigarettes. Then I would return and sit in the chair. If I thought he wasn’t in pain, I would try to make conversation. Sometimes we would say a few things to each other. At one point, I began to tell him I’m sorry for shaming him in the past but it wouldn’t come out. I tried several times but for some reason, I couldn’t say the words and didn’t know why. We stayed for a few hours and got home about five thirty. I came home a couple more times to see him and tried to ask him to forgive me but it seemed never the right moment.
Bad news of my Father!
Time had passed as I worked on the flight line. The line chief said I needed to go to the Red Cross Office. My heart sank and I knew it had something to do with dad. As I drove, it was in my mind that he was just seriously ill. When I entered the office, the Red Cross Official told me to sit down, he had something to tell me. I looked at him and asked.
“Is my Father dead?”
“I’m sorry son, he is. We have arranged transportation for you to get home, go get your gear together and come back here,” he explained.
I left the office trying not to cry until I got outside but I broke down on the way out. I went to the jeep, sat in it, and continued crying. I couldn’t stop myself. I was ashamed. I had shamed Dad and never told him I was sorry. Entering the Army was the one thing I felt made him proud and I let him down by going AWOL. I began saying aloud to myself. “I’m sorry Dad, I love you, I’m sorry Dad. Now I could never prove to him that I wasn’t a coward.
Two hours later, I was on the bus going home. The men had taken a collection and given me one hundred and fifty dollars. The bus ride to Basic Training wasn’t anything to what I was feeling now. I hated myself. When I get back, I’m going to put in for duty in Vietnam. I didn’t care if I died. I deserved it for letting Dad down. I didn’t care anymore. What ever happens just happens. I pulled my coat over my head so no one would know I was crying.
I arrived home and took a cab to the house. I met with family for a while and went to the funeral home to see Dad. I didn’t mind the families seeing me cry. I didn’t care. They couldn’t see what was in my heart. As I looked at Dad in the coffin, I told him that I was sorry for what I had done and I was going to try to make up for it. I felt that everyone was looking at me and thinking I had let him down. All the family was there even Bart my oldest brother who had come in from Vietnam.
There was a large funeral. I felt as though the family didn’t want me to be a pallbearer. I wasn’t going to at first because I didn’t feel worthy of carrying my Father’s casket. However, I did it for Love and Honor of him. I knew that if I didn’t it would be dishonoring him. Three of my brothers were also bearers along with two other friends. After a few days, I returned to Fort Knox and thanked all the men for the money.
I went into the Company Commanders office and told him I wanted to volunteer for Vietnam. He said that was my right if I wanted too and he would process the paper work. However, he said it could be weeks or months before I heard anything. I didn’t care, I just wanted to go and maybe I would be killed and wipe the dishonor away. I thought if I could get over there, I could find a way to die honorably. I wouldn’t commit suicide but I would take chances that would put me in situations that could cause it to happen. I would think about it everyday.
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