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Solitary
Confinement
By Grim Williams
Gw@NO
SPAM.grimwilliams.co.uk
"If you
scream," he said, moving towards her. "I'll kill you. No reminders; no
second chances. If you scream, you die. That's the way it is."
"Yes,
master."
"You
understand me? You grasp what I'm saying?"
"Yes,
master. I mustn't scream."
Everything was
painful. Sandy's whole body was hurting, her arms as well as her legs. She
couldn't move, couldn't relax, for the ropes were tightening, breaking her in
two.
She didn't know
who he was, a demon perhaps, or even a ghost. Or maybe he was just an illusion,
the product of an overactive mind.
All she knew
was that her body was in pain.
He'd come as
he'd always come, at night, just as her eyelids were drooping and her
consciousness merging with sleep. How he
entered her room, Sandy had no idea. Down a clandestine
passage perhaps, or through a secret door. Maybe he lived in a neighbouring
house and had clambered through the vacant loft spaces, descending covertly
into her terrace at night.
All she knew
was that he stalked her incessantly and wouldn't leave her alone. She couldn't
escape him although she'd tried to often, drifting from place to place as a
vagrant, from town to town, hiding in the recesses of university campuses or dossing in dusty attic rooms. She was constantly on the
move, running away, changing her appearance, growing her hair, cutting it,
changing its colour. None of it worked.
Over the years
she'd assumed all the aliases of a spy: Greta Hanson, Elizabeth Bonner, Alida
Schroeder, Judy Keane. All these identities had been
invented and then subsequently destroyed. Nowadays she called herself plain,
simple Sandy Smith. It was a name she'd plucked from a telephone directory:
down-to-earth, uncomplicated.
Even so,
despite all these precautions, he'd found her. He'd entered her room in the
dead the night. He'd pulled back the covers and then he'd raped her.
That's the way
life was now. That's the way it is when a woman is possessed by a master. He
had tracked her down and now he would wreak his revenge. He would do it
repeatedly, night after night, forcing himself upon her body and taking control
of her mind. It was always the same. However many times he found her, it was
always that same. There was the horror, the panic, waking up, seeing him, knowing what he wanted. It never got better. There he would
be, waiting, towering above her, looking down, clasping that thin deadly knife
and aiming for her throat.
Sandy lifted
her arms, stretching them lazily towards her rusted head board of her bed in
the way that he wanted, opening herself to his
inspection. It was an act of submission, that of a woman who knows that she's
vulnerable and what it's like to be the possession of a man.
This was the
way it was now.
He wouldn't
hurry. He wouldn't panic. He might torture her a little, cut her ass or stub
his cigarettes upon her gorgeous white flesh. It might take him an hour,
perhaps two. The precise agenda would depend upon his temper, whether he was
tired, or horny, or just plain mad.
He might fool
about first, mock the state of her breasts. Sandy had grown used to such games,
the psychological skirmishes that preceded each battle. They were his forte,
all intended to unbalance her mind
Only when she
was broken and bleeding would he do it. He'd take her. He'd fuck her. He'd ram
this thick cock into one of her holes. Eventually it would come: the pain, the
attack.
It always did. Eventually.
"I'm going
to screw you tonight," he might say, lifting the covers, peeling them from
her body and tossing them to the floor.
She'd be
shaking, stupidly wearing her frayed knickers, for that's how he liked her.
He'd glance at
her breasts and then lower to her hips, his eyes wandering across the baggy
wisp he'd told her to wear. Neither would speak for it wouldn't be necessary.
They'd know. He'd come to rape her, to torment her. He was her karma. He'd come
to rip off her panties and then fuck her, for hour after hour until morning -
his hairy he-thing tearing her to pieces. He'd do it repeatedly, day after day
without letup, without end.
The pattern
would continue forever, no light at the end of the tunnel, as futile and pointless
as life itself. Hers was a treadmill, a struggle for an exit that didn't exist,
running from his crazed asylum only to be returned back to it as surely as
night follows day.
The strange
thing was, he never seemed to mind that she'd run. He punished her for it, of
course, but only in the conventional ways. He'd never demanded his full pound
of flesh. "You think I should be angry that you try to escape?" he'd
once asked over a shared glass of red champagne, as he'd dripped the boiling
liquid over her blistering skin. "Well, I'm not so small minded. For after
the fun of the chase comes the ecstasy of conquest, tasting your disgust,
knowing you'd prefer the filthiest tramp to a night in with me."
It was all part
of the game, the psychological battles he fought with her mind, being able to
humiliate her by bringing her back. He'd force her to stand in front of the
inmates and then strip her naked so he could touch her wetter parts. That was
his victory: forcing her to recoil from
his hand as it gripped her secret places, and making her cum as he raped her.
"So you're
not pleased to see me, my dear?" he'd hiss with his sly smirk, fondling
her tits with the tip of his knife. He'd sniff her aroma, slowly tracing a line
across each of her breasts. "You smell delicious, my dear," he'd
sigh, savouring her perfume. It was like she were champagne and he wanted her
bouquet.
Sandy didn't
move. He was teasing her tonight, playing his games, preparing her for the
assault. But he'd brought his knife. He had it: that long, sharp, deadly shaft
of cold steel. He didn't always bring it, but he had tonight. He was touching
her, using it to prise apart her legs. "Don't be frightened," he
whispered dishonestly. "I never mind that you scream. After all, you've
had your freedom and now you must pay my price."
Sandy couldn't
breathe. She followed the blade along every inch of its way. What was he
planning to do? She was afraid, unnerved. Her hands had become fists, each of
her long nails sinking deeply into her palms. "Please don't…" she
whimpered, knowing he loved to make to beg. She forced her legs apart, hoping
this might be enough to please him, trading dignity for the possibility of
reprieve. "Please master… I'll do anything. Anything.
But please… don't hurt me…not… not down there…"
"But that
would spoil the fun, my love," he replied, touching the wetness between
her legs and lifting his finger to his nose. "You know I enjoy your pain,
watching you suffer, seeing the way your beautiful flesh twitches. For then I
yearn to bury my knife in your pussy and my cock up your ass, to stretch your
oily cunt and make you cum. Don't
you want that, my beauty, me inside you, so thick and beastly, filling your
womanly holes?"
What could she
say? What could she do? How could she say that no, she wanted none of such
things? Sandy fought back her tears. It was part of the contest, these sly
reminders of who he was and what would happen if she continued with his game.
But that's what
she would have to do. Nothing else was an option. She arched her back and
rubbed her thigh seductively against his robe, teasing him, playing the part of
the whore. "Screw me!" her motions cried. "Fuck me, master! I
need your cock hitting my pussy. Please, master! Make your woman howl and retch
from her fucking, but please, oh please, please, spare me the knife!"
It was the only
alternative she had now, her only way of staying alive. She was a whore,
without dignity, silently pleading that he torture her
more, if only to spare her the knife.
And he would
torture her more. He would humiliate and rape her. He would beat her breasts
and bruise her ass. He would do all of these things.
Eventually.
He smiled.
"You want me to hurt you?" he teased, playing with the knife.
Sandy knew what
she must do. Her heart was weeping but it would be the end of her if she
refused to play his game. "Yes master!" she implored. "I beg
you! Punish me!"
This was it
then. The master was back. She couldn't say that she'd missed him, not in the
least. Nothing had changed. His long black hair still hung like a hooded shroud
across his face, cloaking him in shadow, hiding him in mystery.
His heavy robe
still fell from his shoulders, sweeping to the floor in a single long curve,
and underneath… underneath… There it was, his manhood. It was still there.
"You
accept me as your master?"
Sandy fought to
keep her hands above her head, stretched in the way he liked, stretched towards
the corners of the bed. She daren't move, daren't protest, for he had the knife
between her legs, tickling her asshole.
She grunted in
unladylike fashion. "Yes, sir."
What else could
she say?
"You
accept the punishments I choose to inflict, whatever they are?"
She was
trapped. She'd seen him with his knife, had watched him use it to skin a woman while
she was still alive. He was mad, totally insane. She'd seen him cut ladies to
ribbons just for the sheer pleasure of doing it. The man was a psychopath and
he was in charge of the asylum. "Yes, sir. I do.
I accept you as master."
"Even
if I torture you?
Even then?"
"Yes, sir,
even then…"
He liked that.
It was music to his ears, and so, to verify her acceptance, he etched his name
upon her chest, drawing thin rubies that glistened upon her skin. It hurt, but
she had no option but to endure it. After all, she'd agreed to serve him.
"Well
done, Sandy," he said, once he'd signed his name, speaking with
undisguised admiration. "You're improving and I'm impressed. But then,
you've been playing this game a long time now. You fought hard, ran well."
"Thank
you, master."
He bent across
her and licked the blood from her wounds, tasting the foaming champagne with
which it was now mixed. "I have you," he said transferring the blood
from his tongue to her mouth, poking it between her parched lips. "I have
full ownership and I intend to make the most of it."
She could smell
his aggression, his need for sex. His arms were forcing her down, pinning her
to the mattress. "I have this weird fantasy," he told her. "I
keep thinking of you in bed. You're with this woman. Can you believe that, my
love, when I've told you so often what would happen if you ever did that?"
What was he
saying? Did he know? Had he seen? He set the rules and expected her to keep
them. The strictest of these was that she should never sleep with any of the
inmates, with a woman. "But you want to, my love," he insisted
calmly. "You have the desire. You can't deny it."
God.
He did know. He must do. "Master?"
Sandy was
scared, for this sin merited the worst punishment of all.
"Be truthful
Sandy. You cannot lie, not to me. Admit the truth. Nothing's changed. It never
could. Admit it Sandy. You're as fond of women as ever you were."
"But
master!"
His face
darkened. He wasn't prepared to be argued with, not about this. "Admit it,
bitch!" he thundered, sliding his knife across her torso and into her
side. "That's what I'm after. Admit that you've been having a
liaison!"
"No,
master!"
It was the one
thing to which she could never admit.
"One
last chance, Sandy.
Need I remind you of the merchant of Venice?"
"No
master. Please! It's not true!"
He was staring
at Sandy's breasts the way a carnivore eyes its next meal. "I'll have my
pound of flesh," he warned, deliberately brushing Sandy's bosoms with his
hand, the hardness of his claws sending shivers down her spine.
Sandy turned
away, tears blistering her eyes. He was inside her, probing her mind. She could
feel him searching for the truth.
This was his
way of playing the game, of tormenting her soul.
"Who have
you been sleeping with, Sandy?" he persisted, unrelentingly playing with
her breasts, squeezing them, not giving her a moment's relief. He was taunting
her, making her think about what would happen if he discovered she was lying.
"Give me a name, an identity. Watch out, Sandy, for if your mind slips,
even for a moment I'll get you both. You'll sacrifice a full pound of flesh and
your mistress will pay me double."
Sandy daren't
catch his eyes, daren't betray herself. He was inside her head, planting his
thoughts. She knew what he was doing because she was now wearing a silk
nightdress and she hadn't before. Suddenly she was standing against a wooden
post with her legs bound from ankles to knees and her arms from elbows to
wrists. Her arms were above her head, just as he liked them. "Oh
yes," he said, untying the strings of her nightdress, lifting them from
her shoulders. "I want your nipples, to own them. I'll keep them as
treasures, my little mementoes. Remember the Merchant of Venice? You'll be my
Portia. Our play will have the ending Shakespeare was too timid to write."
Sandy felt
faint. Portia? There was nothing she feared more than
a knife. This one was ten inches, double edged, with a razor edged blade. He
knew how the knife would frighten her.
He let go of
the nightdress and it slithered down her body, all the way to her feet.
"Who is
she, Sandy?"
He was
wandering through her memories now, searching for clues. Fifteen
women in a room, all undressing and putting on baggy knickers. They were
being lined up, most of them crying, called to attention like soldiers, naked
apart from their knickers.
"I can
smell her, Sandy. She's on you, her tongue, her aroma.
The perfume is wild roses. I'm getting closer. I can almost see her now. Just
tell me her name…"
Sandy
hesitated, unsure, but then her eyes opened in pain and she wailed aloud,
heartbroken, realizing that he'd got to her. He could see the little bottle of
perfume and a face in the mirror. He'd caught her out, for a woman's name had
sprung unbidden to her mind, and he'd read it.
Oh God. He'd
looked into her head and read her mind.
She cursed
herself, howling piteously because the secret was out. He knew. He'd discovered
what she'd buried so well.
"Please,
master," she begged, lifting herself suicidally
into his knife, stretching out, praying it would kill her, panting in pain as
the steel penetrated her skin. "If you want fresh meat: take mine! Hurt
me, sir! Cut my breasts. I understand! I
broke the rules and I deserve to be punished. But for mercy's sake, not her!
Please, master! I'll bring you a model, a movie star, a centrefold: whatever
you fancy. But please don't make me… betray… my friend!"
"But you
both betrayed me, Sandy. Both of you broke the commandment. So now I must take
from you a full pound of your best flesh."
It… was
rancid! Sandy daren't think, daren't
breathe. The knife had cut into her body like it might through butter. She was
bleeding, the blood oozing from her breast, dripping down her side and seeping
into her bed sheet. But so what? She no longer cared.
What concerned
her was Gillian.
He was the
surgeon, she the patient. He was cutting her body the way he'd so often cut
open her mind. He was lifting the lower half of her breast, rotating it,
separating it from her rib cage. Maybe he'd put it back later, if she pleased
him and screamed in all the right places. Maybe he'd stick it back crooked, or
upside down, or not at all. Maybe he'd slice it and fry it with eggs.
Nothing was
certain.
She'd been so
foolish, had made such an elementary mistake, a crass blunder. She'd betrayed
her lover.
"You're
teasing me," he griped, twisting his knife into the base of her breast,
doing it to hurt her, not wanting to remove it just yet. "You ran away and
now that I've found you, you don't want to play the game."
He yanked at
her tit, pulling at the fat and the underlying muscle. She screamed, fighting
desperately to hold her legs where they were, knowing that if she moved them
her position would become infinitely worse. The rules were to be obeyed. No one
could dodge them. She must keep her position. She must always, always live by
the rules.
"Please
master!" she screamed, convulsing with pain, her breast meat flapping
involuntarily upon her bleeding chest. "Please sir. I'll find someone
better, someone younger! Please master! Not Gillian!"
"Aha!"
he nodded, playing now with her breast meat, getting ready to weigh it on his
scales. "Gillian, eh? I did wonder!"
Oh bugger! The
misery of Sandy's tortured tit had just got worse. The dam had burst and now
everything was flooding. How could she have told him? How could she have let
down her guard again?
"That is
what I so love about you, Sandy," he said, kissing her blood flow, tasting
it, savouring the salt. He knelt astride her and withdrew the knife from her
wounded breast, replacing it with his tongue. He could still smell the
intoxicating aroma of champagne. "You know how to tease, my beauty. You
tell me of Gillian so that I'll punish her with the knife. You pretend
submission but you yearn for me to do it."
Sandy was
crying from pain and exhaustion. Her emotions were beyond control. She was
losing it, failing to cope, weakening, and he was in prime position to take
advantage, loving her terror. It was turning him on. She could see by the size
of his lump.
Her fear was
his aphrodisiac.
He kissed her,
his mouth demanding her lips and his tongue caressing the moisture swirling
about her face.
He was going to
rape her soon, she knew it. Despite her torn bleeding breast he was going to
force himself into her.
And she would
let him because he was the master and this was her punishment.
She'd broken
the rules and now she must pay. Gillian would pay too: double he'd said.
"Oh
my God!"
Sandy watched
the master pull his bulbous cock from under his robe and point it at the gaping
virginity now exposed upon her chest. It was a patchwork of torn gristle and
crimson paint daubed upon her natural canvas. Some day an enterprising young
artist might win a prize for such an attention-grabbing exhibit, but not now,
not yet.
First, the
model must be fucked. She must be punished, and then, later, the artist would
decide what to do with his tit meat.
Sandy Smith
awoke with a jolt.
She was sweating,
shaking. Every last inch of her glistened with perspiration.
What had
happened?
She was alone
in bed. Breathless.
Her sheet was
tied about her thighs and her pillow was distraught upon the floor.
Had she drifted
off? God. She must have done.
Sandy sat up
and reached for her clock, wiping perspiration into her bloodshot eyes. Shit.
How she hated the night! Where had it gone, the clock?
Oh here! Thank
God. Two fifty eight. Nearly three o'clock.
She sighed, and
then gingerly climbed out of bed, unwrapping the sheet
from around her sweaty thighs and allowing it to slip along her curvaceous
white legs. The window was barred, and so was the door.
It had been a
dream then? Nothing but a dream?
She laughed at
that. Then abruptly she cried, finally settling into something part way between
the two. All her tethered emotions were on show, raw and naked, mimicking the
crazy cocktail of the madhouse. Oh Christ! It hadn't been real! Shit! It had
been a dream.
She repeated
the words over and over, thinking perhaps that unless she held on to them they
might evaporate and be gone. It had been a dream, only a dream. The intruder
wasn't real, neither was the knife. He hadn't cut a hole in her breast or
forced his way into her bedroom. Neither had he raped her. He hadn't threatened
to kill Gillian. None of it had happened. It hadn't been true!
Sandy Smith
inhaled deeply, recovering her cool. Okay, so it was done, over. What next?
What now? The logical part of her mind told her to get back into bed, to get
some sleep for a day's work beckoned in the morning. She must get up and drive
to the hospital, there to cope with leering patients and doctors more
interested in helping her out of her uniform than in doing her job.
Shit.
Why is it men have
such a fetish about nurses in uniform?
If Gillian were
here, she'd help make it all right. Gillian knew what it was to work in that
jungle. Gillian would wrap her in her matronly bosom and whisper sweet nothings
in her ear. They'd lie in each other's embrace and hug each another to sleep.
Gillian had the
knack of helping Sandy keep her perspective. For each night once the intruder
had gone and Sandy was screaming and shaking, Gillian would calm and comfort
her. Gillian was a true nurse. She'd sense Sandy's need for reassurance and
knew how to provide it.
But tonight
Gillian was away. Gillian was walking the wards. It was her turn to be summoned
to the dispensary by a panel of junior doctors for the infamous uniform
inspection. She'd be good, though. In addition to her slinky apron, Gillian was
wearing Agent Provocateur underwear.
"Oh
shit!"
Sandy wandered
downstairs, uncertain, confused, with her hair sticking to her skin, and her
breasts stained with stale perspiration.
In her mind she
could see Gillian prancing around the dispensary, her front undone, peeling
away her clothes… For any nurse that
resisted the uniform inspection would find herself on some trumped up
disciplinary charge and out of a job.
Sandy shuffled
towards the kitchen. It was cooler down here and she was thankful to be away
from the bedroom. It was easier to think and the air soothed her skin.
She was
topless, of course, wearing nothing but that old pair of blue panties. These
were loose, baggy, and constantly falling down, often to her hips, sometimes
all the way to the floor. Sandy wouldn't dream of changing them. She couldn't
cover herself or pull on a robe for that would be breaking the master's
commandment, and she would never so that.
Not that he
existed, of course.
Now that Sandy
was awake that much was obvious. She remembered what the doctors had told her.
The master was a figment of her stupid imagination, a fantasy, a weird,
perverted sexual reverie, no more, no less.
"So why
should I keep having these fantasies about a man?" Sandy had whined one
morning, gripping Gillian's bare arm until she'd bruised it. She'd been
confused and overwhelmed, shaking with terror. "Does he turn me on? Does
he excite me? Of course not. I hate him! So why do I
keep having these dreams?"
They'd been in
Sandy's bed, naked, their bodies entwined, their baggy panties discarded upon
the floor. Gillian's fingers had been calm but insistent, burrowing themselves
into Sandy's hole. She hadn't said much. Instead,
she'd allowed her fingers to do the talking. Soon the women had been making
love, Gillian taking the lead, lifting Sandy from the depths of despair and
leading her to the oblivion of ecstasy. Finally, once they were done, she'd
laid Sandy's soul into the blissful joy of undisturbed sleep.
Sandy's
fantasies no longer ruffled or worried her. Why should they? For some time
she'd been having plenty of her own. If it gave Sandy perverse enjoyment to
believe that she was under her master's thumb, then it would give Gillian a
proportionately greater pleasure to provide her with consolation. The greater
the master's torture, the more intense was Gillian's balsam.
And so, rather
than dismissing the idea of an intruder as the work of a sick, overactive mind,
Gillian also accepted him as real.
"What does
he want you to do tonight?" she'd ask, well accustomed to his many strange
rituals.
Sandy would
whimper and blush bright red. She still found it difficult to talk of the
master to Gillian: confusing. "He said that when he comes tonight my breasts
should be bathed in the blood of a freshly slaughtered chicken."
Gillian clicked
her tongue and shook her head. "My poor dear!
A chicken? Wherever will we get a chicken?"
"Oh
Gillian, I can't… I mean… I couldn't kill a chicken. So I wondered… I was thinking…
would you…? I mean… the master brought it and said it must be freshly done…
what I'm trying to say… would you kill it for me?"
Gillian hadn't
enjoyed the experience either, but she'd done it, just to ingratiate herself
upon Sandy, as part of her scheme to get between her and her master. Gillian
had done it. Gillian had killed the chicken, draining its blood into a bowl and
then bathing Sandy's breasts so that they glistened
bright red.
Where was the
harm? After all, the chicken was destined for the table. It was to be eaten.
What did it matter if it died a ritual death?
"Thank
you, Gillian," Sandy had sobbed once Gillian had done it, falling to her
knees and kissing Gillian's bloodied hand. Her breasts had already begun to dry
and the stain to deepen. "I need you! I need you so much! What would I do
in this madhouse without you here to comfort me?"
It was a good
question. 'Not very well', was the honest, truthful answer.
For instance,
there was the dress code. Gillian knew it backwards, better than Sandy, for it
controlled their lives the way a diet controls a diabetic. "During the
hours of daylight you may dress as you please," the master had apparently
decreed. "Come the hours of darkness you're mine. You'll wear these
panties, nothing less, nothing more. This is your uniform now. That's the first
rule. Do you understand?"
"Yes
master. I understand."
Sandy had never
really worked out why he wanted her to wear them, not fully. Maybe it was his
fetish, the kind of reasoning that makes men go for women in stockings, or in
leather…
Or
nurses in uniform.
Or maybe it was
his way of asserting his dominance. He was master now, the authority figure, in
charge of the asylum. She was his patient. Her will was no longer her own. If
she wanted to live, then she must also learn to obey.
She poured
herself some water, holding tightly to her panties as they drifted to her hips.
She did it instinctively now, for after so many years she remembered no other
way.
If only Gillian
were home. Gillian had the knack of finding the right thing to say, of helping
Sandy to relax.
"Would you
like to dance?" Gillian had called above the steady beat of the music. It
had been the first time they'd met. Sandy could remember it well. She'd nodded,
a little uncertainly, a little nervously. Yes, she'd wanted to dance, to be
held, to feel a woman's love. She'd wanted to feel what it was to be alive.
It had been
before… while they were both nurses. Sandy had been looking to rediscover her
life. Gillian had simply been looking to get laid.
Gillian had
looked wonderful in a semi transparent blouse, no bra. Sandy had gawked at the
full moons hiding behind Gillian's bulges and had become dizzy from them, for
they'd reawakened both memory and desire.
Others had been
around, nurses too, knocking against them, pushing them together, squeezing
past, but Sandy hadn't noticed. "Relax," Gillian had whispered.
"You're so tense, my love. Calm down and allow yourself to breathe. Allow
your mind to wander where it wants. Don't lock it up. Unwind. Let yourself
drift."
They'd
smooched, Gillian caressing Sandy's hair, stroking it softly with the back to
her knuckles, helping her to relax. Soon they'd been cuddling, and then
kissing, their bodies melting one against the other…
Sandy had lost
track of time. Perhaps she had let her mind freewheel, or maybe it was an over
exuberance of wine. Whichever, somehow she'd found herself in Gillian's room,
lying on Gillian's bed, a flute of champagne perched in her hand.
It was two
fifty eight, almost three o'clock. There had been a clock hanging upon the
wall. Gillian had been sipping a drink and smelling of freshly applied body
mist. It was the aroma of wild roses. Her blouse had been torn and her hair
dishevelled.
"We're
alike," she'd fussed, bending down and unbuckling Sandy's shoes. She'd
swayed ominously from side to side as on a ship with a storm raging beneath
her. "We're fed up with men, with their dirt and their perverted ways. It
takes a woman to understand a woman, don't you think so? We know that, you and
I. We know what we are and where we intend eventually to be."
She'd dropped
Sandy's clogs to the floor and had teetered sideways, sliding her hands beneath
Sandy's skirt.
There'd been
greed on her face and hunger in her eyes. She'd been steamed up; heavy with
need. Hastily, she'd unbuttoned Sandy's skirt, kissing her the whole time upon
the thighs, her knees, those long luscious calves.
When she'd
spoken her words had been slurred. "Who needs their dim wits and ugly
hoses?" she'd asked. "My parents want me to make babies, but why
should I when I can have an enchantress like you?"
She'd
unfastened Sandy's top, kissing and caressing her skin. "I want you,
Sandy!" she'd moaned, sliding the straps of Sandy's bra from her
shoulders, pulling them clumsily down Sandy's arms. Her eyes had fallen
automatically to Sandy's breasts, opening greedily with anticipation. "Oh
God, Sandy, I'm so wet, so impossibly, implausibly wet!"
She'd lowered
the cups and Sandy, frightened, self conscious, had allowed her to do it,
knowing that behind them lay her dark secret. She'd been frozen and uncertain,
wondering what Gillian would think, what she would say, knowing that she was
about to break the master's great commandment.
But Gillian
hadn't cared. "It's okay," she'd whispered, sensing Sandy's confusion
and doubt. "Relax. Unwind. It's not a sin. Let yourself drift!"
Sandy had
frequently allowed men to look – there were the many friends of the master, for
instance - but never a woman, not since her breast had been so brutally
butchered. Men could be aroused by such things. Men found beauty in desecrated
breasts, in the destruction of a woman's body, sensing how much the loss hurt
and degraded her. But where was the attraction to a woman?
Gillian had
been shocked, of course, when she'd seen, but not disgusted. She'd reached for
Sandy's injured fruit, laying a tentative finger to that blackened hollow where
a woman's nipple should have been.
It had been an
act of compassion, of empathy, not of judgement.
"Does it
hurt?" Gillian had asked, her eyes lighting up with childlike awe. Her
little finger had traced the edges of the mighty crater, following each jagged
ridge wherever it took her.
Sandy had
grimaced, hiding her torture. "Yes," she'd nodded shortly. "It
hurts, but I don't want you to stop. Please don't stop."
Greater than
the pain had been the need to be understood, and Gillian did understand. Here
was a woman who knew what it was to be lost and alone.
Gillian's
finger had ventured hesitantly inside the damaged morass. "You're very
beautiful," she'd said, curbing her natural inquisitiveness and instead
kissing what remained of Sandy's soft tit.
Then, feeding
an impulse she'd quickly, decisively slipped out of her clothes - her top, her
skirt and her panties. She'd dropped them to the floor in a rumpled heap.
"I'm sorry, Sandy, but I can't stop myself. I've got to… I'm so hot. I've
got to fuck you."
She'd clambered
amorously between Sandy's legs and had finished stripping her, calming her with
soft perfume and the promise of her gently swaying tits.
Then, lying
there upon Gillian's bed, they'd done it. Sandy had been fucked, not brutally
as the master would have done it, but lovingly, gently.
That had been
the first time, the beginning. But now the master was back, demanding Gillian's
flesh too.
Sandy awoke
from her fretful contemplation, and stared nervously across the sink towards
the window, and then through it at the young woman looking in. It was her own
reflection she saw looking back at her from the glass.
"Oh my
God," she spluttered. She could see the other woman's breasts clearly now.
They were angular rather than curved, womanly, with a small black dot stamped
across the top of one and an ugly burnt crater blurring the summit of the
other.
The sight
filled her with repugnance. She hated the way she looked.
But her eyes
automatically became those of her master, that man she knew now so intimately.
They wandered down the lines of that woman's young neck, bloating with lust.
She reached
down and grabbed her scarred orbs, squeezing them hard, leaning back and
catching her breath, knowing it was the hands of a man handling her – her
intruder - and a red spark lit up in her core.
She swayed
silently, lost in emotion, sweet but sour, one breast consumed by pleasure,
whilst the other, even now, was riddled with pain.
"A woman
has empathy," Gillian had once reassured her, interrupting Sandy's
thoughts. She'd been planting kisses upon Sandy's breast, licking around the
blackened hole. "Every time I see you, I imagine that the master is
punishing me, not you. I'm lying naked and helpless, screaming and calling for
help. Then I see a furnace, the coals white hot, the heat intense. The master
is stoking it, raking the coals, blowing with his bellows, and then he pulls
this terrible steel claw from the flames. It's evil and glowing and I know what
he wants to do, that he's about to use it on my flesh. He'll poke out my nipple
and plunge it in my breast. Sandy, I have no idea why, it's madness I know, but
I dream this dream night after night, and each time it's stronger and more
intense. You've no idea how aroused it makes me: so exposed, frightened, waiting for him to do his worst. Is that madness, do you
think?"
Sandy had
shaken her head. She couldn't believe that Gillian had such feelings
"You're teasing," she'd declared. "You're saying it to make me
feel better."
But Gillian had
been adamant. "He's doing it to me because I love you, because he's
jealous. It's his only way of breaking our love…"
Almost at once
a broom fell and woke Sandy from her reverie. The noise came from outside. Who
was it? Was someone in the yard, watching? A man?
Him?
A cat meowed in
answer to the question and ran scampering over a wall.
Once again, all
was quiet.
Sandy didn't
move. Slowly her fingers moved from her breasts to the sweaty waistband of her
panties. They'd fallen and were now limply strung to her hips, half concealing,
half revealing a narrow swathe of neatly trimmed hair.
There her
fingers paused, trembling, waiting.
A moth flapped
against the window, attracted by the light, hoping to get in.
Was he back?
Was he here?
Her fingers
were shaking. Sandy couldn't keep still. It was like she was being held by a
power she couldn't defy. She was the puppet; it was the master. His nails were
long and they slid effortlessly beneath the sagging elastic, across her lightly
haired mound searching for a hole.
He was out
there in the darkness, invisible but watching her. Sandy knew it and wanted to
hide, to run, to become invisible herself, but she couldn't move, couldn't
hide.
He was
controlling her thoughts, her actions. She could see him now, his silhouette outlined
against the gently billowing trees. His face was hollow, hidden in shadow. His
expression was avaricious with lust. He
wanted to screw her, but far more than that, he wanted to humiliate her.
Sandy was
desperate to flee but she couldn't, neither could she scream. Her feet wouldn't
obey, neither would her lungs.
Only her
fingers kept moving, in and out, faster and faster, beyond her control, her
painted nails repeatedly striking the tiny hood that covered her clit. He was
making her do it, forcing her to fuck herself. He was telling her fingers what
to do and how they should move, forcing her to humiliate herself to satisfy his
whim. He was out there, staring at her tits and her ugly black scar.
And
thinking of Gillian.
Sandy could
have wept. Shit. The master had been reading her thoughts again. He'd seen.
He'd planted that final idea.
He knew about
Gillian's secret fantasy, of being tied up in front of a furnace, her naked
body glistening with sweat, staring with morbid fascination at the hot pincers
approaching her breasts.
What should she
do? She couldn't hide her thoughts, not without running. She needed to protect
Gillian but how could she now? It was as much a sin for her to close her mind
as it was for her to close her legs.
Her fingers
moved faster, becoming increasingly frantic.
There had been
the time he'd made her strip in the middle of a crowded mall. Sandy had been
shopping when she'd spotted him leaning against a date palm.
"I'm going
to make you dance," he'd said, placing a soundblaster
in the middle of the mall. People had walked around it, looking inquisitively
over their shoulders. "I'm going to make you dance like the girls in the
clubs, or like the young Jewess for her minder."
"Sir?"
He'd turned on
the soundblaster and had shown her his power. There
had been shouts of derision and hoots of encouragement. There had been nothing
she could do. He was forcing her to disrobe.
Gillian had
been incandescent. "What are you doing?" she'd shrieked, trying
vainly to hold Sandy back, to stop her from embarrassing them both.
People had
gathered, men and women alike, mouths aghast, all jostling for space.
He was in her
mind, grinning, leading her on. "There's a young Jewess of Polish descent,
seventeen years of age," he'd said. "It's been a week now since she's
eaten. She's emaciated and starving to death."
He'd skipped
around her, not stopping.
"She's
wearing the striped pyjamas of the camps and has been told to undress.
Everything, they say. If she pleases the SS they'll give her some food, as much
as she can eat. If not her sister is destined for the chimney. It's her choice.
Undress nicely, they say. Sit on your chair and spread your legs. Show us your
hole, right inside. Obey your SS masters!"
Sandy had been
mortified, imploring her hands to stop, to wait. She'd been crying, upset,
degraded at having to undress for the young SS officers. She'd been a virgin.
No one had seen her naked before, not like this.
Her father had
been brought in, her brother too, just so they could ridicule her more.
Gillian had
tried to stop her, to cover her, but with zero success. The master had been
smart, keeping Sandy at a distance, continually skipping away, her movements
evading those of her lover.
The people in
the mall had become vocal as people inevitably will. "Make her suck her
father's dick, and her brother's too. Make her swallow it, every last
drop!"
The master had
proved that he could. He could convince her of anything, even that she was a
terrified Jewess in Auschwitz.
"What are
you wearing?" he'd whispered into her ear. "Tell me, you Jewish
slut!"
"My
uniform," she'd sobbed, casting a horrified glance in the direction of her
terrified young brother. "And the yellow star of the
Jew."
"And
underneath?
What are
you wearing underneath, slut?"
"Nothing,"
she'd declared, hanging her head in shame. "I have nothing but this
uniform."
"Show
us," he'd ordered. "Show us all. Strip. Take off your uniform. Do it
nicely, slowly. You may sing while you undress, an
uplifting song in honour of the fatherland. Then, when you're finished, you'll
go to your relatives and suck each of their cocks. Do you understand,
slut? "
"Oh my
God… I've never… I mean…
never…"
What she'd been
trying to say was that she'd never sucked a man's cock and had no idea what to
do. But the master hadn't cared. He would enjoy seeing her work out the
mechanics. "If you refuse then your sister will do it instead, and after that your mother,
and then when they're finished we'll escort them to the crematorium. Is that
what you want?"
The master had
been dressed in his black SS uniform, standing above her and looking at her
sternly. Sandy's head had fallen to her breast, her spirit crushed and
bleeding. "No, sir! I'll do what you want! Leave
my mother! My sister! Please! Not that!"
Once Sandy had
sung a patriotic anthem, the master had made her kneel in the mall offering herself to whoever came by. Finally, the police had come and
she'd been arrested and led away in handcuffs, an officer's jacket covering her
nakedness. Gillian at her side offering excuses.
The master had
done it. He could make her do whatever he willed. Sandy knew that now.
He smiled,
aware of what she'd concluded, deliberately directing her finger, speeding it
up, slowing it down, taunting her, playing his games.
He was proving
his mastery. She'd run and he was punishing her, and enjoying it too. Sandy's
knees sank under the pressure building inside her pussy. Her thighs turned to
jelly, unable.to bear their own weight.
Oh God.
She couldn't
take much more of this. What was he doing to her? "Please!" she
begged. "Let me…let me finish!"
He made her beg
some more. He forced her to tell him what she wanted.
"Please
sir, allow me to cum. I need… Oh master. I need to cum!"
He made her cry
then by getting her to squeeze her tits, especially the bruised one. He liked
that. He liked to watch her in pain. And then, once she was in tears and
weeping and hurting, it came, her climax, her orgasm, wave
after wave of it.
She couldn't
stop, not once it started, and indeed, she didn't want to. Suddenly, she was
weeping with delight.
"Oh thank
you master," she moaned, writhing in front of him without care or dignity.
"Oh thank you so very much."
She was like a
porn star in front of the camera, only her emotions weren't faked, they were
one hundred percent genuine. And through it all he watched her, not moving, not
reacting, just as he'd watched her cum so often before.
When it was
over and he'd finally released his mental hold of her, she fell back, clutching
her tits and weeping from the pain. "Thank you," she panted,
comforting her tortured breasts. "Oh master. Thank you."
Then, as she
became more aware of herself, she blushed, conscious of being naked in front of
a clothed man. He made her feel worse, too, aggravating her embarrassment by
whispering from outside, teasing her, reminding her of what a slut she was to
cum in front of an uncurtained window.
She couldn't
bear it. Not any more! Not night after night of such torture. She had to
escape.
She spun on her
heels and ran upstairs, weeping uncontrollably, chased both by the reflection
in the glass and the malicious spirit beyond.
She couldn't bear to face him and so she didn't.
She hid in the shower and tried to forget what she'd done, but very careful not
to remove the tatty blue panties now laden with juice. For it was still night,
and the rules were there to be obeyed.
Neither of them
spoke. They didn't have to. They both knew. This was her fate. He was her karma
and tonight he was going to rape her. He would cut her beautiful flesh.
And she would
let him do it because he was her master, the man she'd promised to obey.
Somehow he was
in her room again, sitting on the floor with his back to the locked door. He
was fingering a Victorian corset and talking of old times. Sandy recognized the
garment at once, even by the soft glow of the street lamp outside. It was hers,
a Valentine's gift from long ago.
Obviously, he'd
been rummaging through her drawers, picking through her lingerie. "Do you
remember this?" he asked, casually slipping a hand inside the gusset,
touching where Sandy's naked lips had once kissed. "It was William's.
Remember? He gave it you that last time you ran. Do you recall? He said it made
you look like a slut, with your boobs stuck out and your waist tucked in.
That's why he loved it."
The intruder
wistfully lifted the garment to his nose and smelt its bouquet, recalling the
strange scent of imported champagne sweetened with honey. Tonight, however, the
aroma was less intimate. It was soap combined with conditioner. The heady days
of dressing dangerously ended that terrible day William set sail for the
Crimea.
Those days
could never return and neither would William. He'd been buried in a parade of
scarlet uniforms and steel muskets, with only the pomp of bugles and the mud of
ignominy to mourn him. Not one of the scarlet ladies he'd so admired had been
upon that bleak hillside to bid him farewell.
Sandy
remembered the corset with fondness. It was all she had left of an insatiable
lover.
The intruder
lifted it up, himself recalling the clandestine entertainments hosted by
William and his friends, the cut upon Sandy's thigh, the plunging cleavage as
she'd bowed to her patrons, the faint down of womanly hair peeping from between
her legs. These were all such distant memories now.
Their minds
clicked forward a gear.
"Gillian
would look good in this," he asserted, climbing to his feet and clearing
the past from his throat. "After all, you refuse to wear it any
more."
Gillian?
Mention of that
name dismissed William to his grave and buried him with weeds. Sandy's heart
missed a beat. The master had been spying again, intruding upon her private
thoughts.
"Master.
That's not fair!"
He walked
across to the window and pulled back the curtain. "Life's not fair,"
he said, looking idly through the bars. "They end up the same, you know:
that nice Lord Latherstock, William, the Count of Azheny, Franz. Everyone is equal come the end. Gillian is
no different. The grave will claim her too. Some might last a little longer,
but come the final accounting, the maggot is the victor."
Sandy strained
her neck, wanting to see his face, but inevitably she couldn't. All that she
could determine was the back of his cloak. "Master?"
"Isn't it
obvious?" he continued in the same sombre tones. "Your beautiful
companion is but a kid in the coils of a constrictor, candy in the rain. She
appears young and vivacious, but her days are being counted down, one by one,
whereas yours, my beauty… are like a river…"
He turned,
clasping her corset, his fingers inside and caressing, working steadily to the
centre of the cups. For an instant Sandy could make out his features, his face:
unaltered, unchanged, just as it had been in the days when she'd nursed him.
"We're alike, you and I," he said, stepping away from the radiance of
the street lamp, back into the comfort of the shadows. But his fingers kept
moving, continually searching for the spot where her nipple had once touched.
"We're
bound together, rotating upon the same axis, apart and yet together. You hate
me and yet, without me, you're doomed to wander through life alone."
"That's
not true!"
"Isn't
it?"
He stepped out
of the shadow, approaching her bed. "You think you have Gillian? Well,
maybe you do. But for how long? She'll die, just as
all the others died, and then you'll be alone again."
Sandy opened
her mouth but there were no words for her heart was empty.
"Which is
better?" he mocked. "Would you rather live in a
cage with me or outside with the rabid dogs? This is the sane world,
Sandy, not the one out there. Out there you're a freak, a numbskull. In here
everyone accepts you as you are."
He bent down and
pulled at her top, tugging at it urgently, lifting it across the swell of her
breasts. "I used to envy William whenever he tied you," he whispered.
"I would watch from my cell whenever he fastened you to his posts, unable
to get to you or interfere. I would see his friends jerking off and would think
what a waste it all was. You were never meant for those boys."
He pulled the
top over her head, dropping it to the floor. Underneath she was wearing a black
bra. She'd put it on especially for him. It was the one she'd been wearing the
night she'd met Gillian. "You're right, master," she mumbled,
lowering her troubled eyes. "I've been bad, very bad. So punish me. Don't spare me. You're right. I
could never face a future alone."
He turned to
her panties. They were sodden, saturated with piss. He was going to cut her.
She knew it.
Sandy opened
her mouth and then abruptly shut it again. She wanted to argue, to fight him
but something was restraining her. She knew what it was. He and she were
kindred spirits rotating upon a single axis. She couldn't escape him.
He unfastened
her bra and pulled it from her breasts. "I didn't mind about William. Even
watching you with Franz was entertaining."
"Thank
you, master."
His finger
reached forward, hovering above the blackened crater of her ruined breast.
"It was a stroke of genius, I have to admit. I would never have thought to look for you in
Auschwitz."
"I'm
pleased you found my performance entertaining."
"I
did."
"Thank
you, sir. I knew you'd be around somewhere, watching and enjoying my
pain."
"But this
time, with Gillian, you went too far. You went with a woman."
"Yes,
sir.
I'm s-sorry,
sir."
He hauled her
wet panties down her legs and drew them from her feet.
She could have
fought him, could have fled. But instead she lay and let him do as he'd
determined, careful to keep her hands above her head.
In the final
analysis, the greater torture was to face his censure.
She didn't
question him; she didn't protest. She wasn't a nurse anymore. She was plain, simple
Sandy Smith. He was the master, and so it was good and proper that he deposit
his thoughts in her head.
"I see
that my knife frightens you, my love," he contended, dangling her wet
panties gingerly between two fingers, drawing them deliberately across her
face.
"Yes,
master," she gasped, twisting her head from the strong acrid smell.
"I keep thinking you might ruin my looks, the way you did to Samantha and
Susan. That's why I'm scared."
"I could
make you so hideous no one would dream of looking at you. Maybe I yet
will."
He looped coils
of rope around her wrists and then about her ankles, round and around, tying
the knots, methodically fastening her to the corners of her bed. She didn't
fight.
"It would
stop you going with women."
"Oh
God, sir.
There must
be another way! Please! Not that!"
She was
becoming panicky now.
"Please
sir. I beg you!"
He leaned back,
stretching the ropes. "Spread your legs," he commanded. She moaned
but obediently did so, feeling
th
touch of his fingers on her ankles, binding them, pulling them even further
apart.
She knew she
was exposed to him. Cold air was tickling her spread pussy. "Maybe I'll
cut you down here," he said, playing with his knife, touching her weeping
folds. "I don't know. What do you think? Do you think that I should?"
She could
barely endure it.
"Whatever
you think, master," she grimaced, for there was nothing else she could
say.
She was
terrified now, so thankful he was tying her tightly. For when the knife sliced
her flesh and her screams split the room, how else would she keep her limbs
from flailing? How else would she keep her mask of innocence in place?
For when a
woman is cut and in agony, then she is truly naked. Her final skin is unmasked.
No thought remains inviolate, no secret her own. Everything is raw and exposed.
Even the most intimate lover will not know her as the man who has tormented her
body with his cold steel.
Oh shit. This
was it. He was going to do it now.
He was working
fast, his long black hair swinging like a hooded shroud as he hurried about his
occupation. His robes fell from his shoulders, sweeping to the floor in a
single long curve.
And underneath
he was naked, his muscles hard, his stomach flat.
His
cock like iron.
He was going to
make her scream and her pain would make him cum.
He tested her
bonds, his face inert, gripping her wrists. Then he tested the ropes around her
ankles, tickling her feet to see how far she could kick.
Sandy recalled
a long distant day, a long time ago: another lifetime, another age.
He'd been
cuffed to an iron bed, his nostrils flared and his eyes hot and steaming. Sandy
– although her name had been different back then - had been at his side. She'd
been wearing a white linen dress, that of a nurse, with nothing underneath.
It had been
noon and the sun had been out, shining through the little window of the tiny
cell, burning through her dress and revealing the silhouette of her figure in
perfect profile.
The crease of
her ass had bulged and jerked to the rhythm of her administrations. The curve
of her breast had risen with the intensity of her struggle.
The master had
been desperate, wrestling and kicking, his feet lashing at whosoever came
close. "Let me go, you bastards, I'll get you. I'll see you in hell for
this!"
"You're
the one with the free ticket to hell," someone had mocked.
Sandy had had a
pair of electrodes. She'd fastened them securely to the master's temples in the
way she'd been taught. "It's for your own good," she'd said, not even
thinking about the words, too intent on doing her job.
Sandy closed
her eyes, torn to pieces and hating herself. This was horrible. She could feel
him inside her, enjoying her confusion, smiling at her despair. The tables were
turned. Now it was his turn to play doctor; her role to lay naked upon the bed,
helpless and vulnerable.
"And once
I'm done with you, my dear, Gillian will be next." He fastened the
electrodes to her head, one to each temple. "What would you rather I do with
her when I have her tied to your bed? Would you rather I strangle her? Or
should I use the guillotine?"
She couldn't
think. Nothing was real. She was dreaming again. Everything was confused. Was it on? Was her body jerking to the
electrical shocks?
She shook her
head hoping to clear her tangled thoughts. Was this real, this horror she was
experiencing? Or were her thoughts planted and not to be trusted?
"Sir.
Don't kill Gillian! I'm the disobedient
one! Where would be the justice in that?"
He nodded
begrudgingly. "That's true."
"So,
please.
I'm the one
who should be punished! Please, sir!"
"But I am punishing you, Sandy. You're the one
making love to my knife."
Sandy opened
her eyes and stared at his shadowy face, blinking back tears. Oh God how she
despised him! He was a fiend, a monster. Her sobs were heavier now, God. And
what did he have in mind for poor Gillian?
He opened the
top drawer of her bedside cabinet and pulled out a purse. It was pink, with a
zip, designed for the discreet containment of contraceptives.
"I want
you to prove that I mean more to you than Gillian does."
Sandy blushed
at the sight of the purse, knowing what was inside. "Sir?
What are you asking me to do?"
He slid the zip
open, tilting his head to the side. "Relax, Sandy. Close your eyes and
I'll show you."
He opened the
purse and pulled out one of the contraceptives.
God.
She felt
herself lubricating. Was he going to rape her now? Was this the end? She wanted
to ask but knew that she daren't.
"Close
your eyes!"
He tore open
the packet and extracted its contents, rolling the sheath over the blade of his
knife. "For your protection," he said.
Sandy quivered,
thankful that she'd allowed herself to be tied. He'd ordered her to close her
eyes but how could she? This would hurt. The condom wouldn't help much with
that, not much at all.
"Do you
love her?" he asked. "Gillian, I mean."
Sandy groaned,
suffocating a strangled cry. "Yes, master."
He wiped the
knife across her chest, dragging it across each of her sweaty breasts in turn.
"Then you'll fuck her pussy with my knife. Do you understand? If you love
her then you'll do it."
Her thoughts
were as naked as her body. He could see them, sense them. They were raw and
exposed. That was the effect of the shocks. He could feel her despair, her
hatred, her inner turmoil. She cried, fighting the ropes that held her to her
bed. "Please master! I love you: I do. But don't make me hurt her.
Please!"
She lay
trembling, slightly off centre upon her bed. He was stroking her foot,
stretching it, pulling her toes. "You'll dress her in your corset and then
bring her so I can watch. You'll tie her to this bed, just as I've tied you. Do
you understand?"
How Sandy
wished she could close her legs. Poor, poor Gillian! How she would hate to be
manhandled!
"Sir, what
if I won't do it?"
He tickled
Sandy's tummy with the knife, rolling it across her pubic thatch. "Then
it's simple. I'll make you. Remember what it's like in solitary confinement? The skull? We'll eat her, ounce by ounce, pound by pound,
limb by limb, morsel by morsel. We'll do it slowly, day after day, week after
week. Gillian will see herself being consumed. Is that
really what you want??"
"N-no,
sir."
He was parting
her lips, easing them each in turn with his condom covered weapon. Sandy's skin
had gone numb. She felt a knot in her stomach.
Oh shit. Never
mind Gillian. This was her now. He was going to stick the knife up her pussy.
She could feel it sliding inside. She fought desperately to prevent her muscles
from gripping and holding on to it, knowing that if they did, the steel would
cut her to pieces.
"Many
years ago," he pursued, relentlessly pushing the knife into her hole.
"I knew this Chinese woman. She was slim with a boyish body and plum like
breasts. She had the kind of act that was popular back then, a variant on the
old sword swallowing act, only this one was different. She came on stage naked
and she had these two swords. I watched, incredulous and unbelieving, as she
picked the first one up and swallowed it to the hilt. It engorged and puffed
her throat as it moved along her gullet. I could see its shape bloating her
windpipe. She was like a snake slowly digesting its prey. But then: more. She
reached for the second sword, a dagger and opened her legs, inserting it into
her tiny hole. This wasn't trickery, neither was it illusion. That dagger
wasn't covered with a condom like this knife of mine. It was bare naked steel.
Inch after inch it went up, until again, only the hilt protruded. She had perfect
control – she was a master - resisting the urge to choke or to gag, holding
both blades inside. Then, slowly, methodically, she reached for the handle of
the dagger and began to push it in and out. The bitch was bringing herself off.
She was masturbating! I hadn't thought it possible, but now I knew. I've seen
it. A woman can be fucked by a knife. So now, with your help, Gillian will
learn how to make love to a knife. Do you understand?"
Sandy wept, not
knowing what to tell him, pleading for him to find someone else, for it not to
be Gillian. She begged him to bestow his Damocles elsewhere. "Please, master!" she implored.
"I won't betray you. Not again. Please. Not her! Not like that! You'll
destroy her! Not her pussy!"
But Sandy knew
even as she begged him that her pleas would be ignored. He'd warned her long
ago that she must never again go with a woman.
Those were the
rules of his shitty asylum.
Sandy Smith was
not in a police cell. She was in a cave. The woman sitting on the chair by the
door was not a nurse, she was a fellow captive. Her name was Gillian. She was
wearing a pair of baggy knickers, nothing else.
Sandy sat
motionless with her hands and ankles cuffed as the master would like. The
ambulance had gone now, returned to a world where time didn't stand still and
where people had lovers and went about their daily business.
The time was
two fifty eight.
"What
happened?" Gillian asked. "Who did it? Was it you? Did you kill her,
Sandy?"
Sandy nodded,
her dull grey eyes staring bleakly into the blackness. "The master told me
that I must. He gave me no choice. He made me do it."
A policeman
glanced at her askance. "What are we talking about Sandy? Who told you to
do it?"
For the first
time since getting into the ambulance, Sandy smiled, her lips puckering into a
manic grin. She was naked apart from a blanket wrapped around her shoulders.
She wished she could be free of it. "You'll never find him, you
know," she declared, wondering whether it would be the man or the woman
who would touch her first. "He's within my head. That's where he lives. He
won't come out. Not now. This time it's him that's done the runner."
She wriggled
awkwardly because the master's hands were under the blanket squeezing her
breasts and his finger was toying with her clit. He was here, present with her,
just as he'd always been, listening to her conversation, confusing her
thoughts.
Sandy turned
towards the barred window and sucked in her breath, looking blackly towards the
painted brick wall.
"It's just
a game," she explained. "With the master it's always a game. But now
he's made me kill her. He's won and it's finally over."
Again she
smiled, a coy beam lighting her face, for the finger inside her pussy had begun
working and she knew where it was going. He wanted to embarrass her in front of
the nice police officers. He wanted to make her cum.
"Well
that's a game I'm up for," Sandy decided with a sly contented smirk.
"Try me, master. Give me your best. This time I can beat you. This time
I've all the time in the world."
"Sandy?
Are you listening to us, Sandy?"
He'd taken hold
of her hand and was leading her into the darkness. He was going to rape her
now. She knew that.
"Keep
going," he ordered, forcing her on. They were in a dark tunnel that was
becoming narrower with every step they took. He was going to rape her. That's
what awaited her at the end of this tunnel. There was no light, no hope. Every
step brought her closer to abuse. Down and down they went, deeper and deeper
into the bottomless abyss.
Sandy's whole
world was closing in. The rocks were getting blacker, harder, darker. They were like solidified cordite laced with
anthracite. They jumped out from the wall and struck her. They bent down and
slapped her upon the hips and her arms. They knocked against her knees. She was
stumbling without vision in the chaotic world of the criminally insane.
"Ouch!
That hurt! Where are we going, master? I can't see!"
He was just
inches behind, pressing forward, forcing her on. "Can you hear me, Sandy?
And you can feel my cock prodding your back?"
His voice was
deep and gruff, heavy with sex.
"Yes,
sir.
I feel it. Are
you going to rape me now?"
There were
tears staining her cheeks and dust in her tears. He was taking her somewhere
out of the way, somewhere where he could more easily rape her, and she had no
way of stopping him. Whatever she did, however much she fought,
the result would be the same. She would be raped. It was inevitable, like the
turning of the tide or the setting of the sun.
Her hands
cloyed nervously to her breasts, protecting them, hiding them.
"You're
very attractive," he declared. "Have I ever told you that?"
"Yes,
sir," she sobbed. "You tell me every night, before… before… you use
my body."
She stumbled forward,
scraping her thigh upon a loose crag. She cried out but he didn't hear. He
wasn't even aware. "There are women who incite men to sin," he
snarled, shoving her on. "I've looked at you, Sandy. I've looked at you
often. I've admired you in the shower and I've ached for you as you've cuddled
your girl friends."
"Sir?
I don't understand!"
The tunnel
opened and they found themselves in a cave. It was called 'Solitary
Confinement'. That's what it said on the sign above the door.
There were
lamps perched high up upon its wall that cast shadows across the rocks. These
flittered to and fro like carnivorous moths, hovering, waiting to pounce.
Sandy held her
hands fussily across her private parts, hoping to conceal them, frightened of
the light.
The master
stepped forward, pushing her into the cave.
There was a
pit, a hole. It was ten to twelve feet deep. Sandy couldn't see properly but
there was something at the bottom, moving, scurrying across the dusty floor.
"Oh
my God!"
She stumbled
again, this time scraping her arm.
She'd seen
rats. And there was a snake down there too.
She could also
make out whitened bones, clothes too: torn skirts and bloodied tops, a frayed
bra - cut between the cups - panties, and a woman's stiletto shoe.
"Welcome
to your new home," the stranger said, pushing her towards the edge.
"No,
master!
Please!"
Sandy couldn't
believe that anybody could survive down here.
She reached for
a jagged rock, fighting to hold her balance. But her fingers slipped through, bouncing
from rock to rock until they found something solid to cling to.
She was
teetering over the edge, naked, at the top of the pit, wobbling, fighting to
pull herself back.
Below she made
out the shape of a woman's skull cocked upon a small spike.
"Oh my
God," she muttered, feeling an icy sense of doom and the wind sucked from
her lungs. She was staring at her own future. She knew it. Here was her karma:
life after rape, when eventually he grew tired of her.
She swayed on
the edge of the precipice, the empty eyes following her, grinning, the white teeth naked and withdrawn. "I danced the
seven veils," they said. "Seven times they jeered as my silks slid
from my skin. Seven times I sucked cock and let the master bugger my ass. But
what he preferred, what he liked best was to chomp upon my womanly flesh, week
after week, chewing me up, muscle by muscle, limb by limb, pound by pound,
until finally I was gone."
Sandy could see
it in her mind, the beginning. All the inmates were lined up, twenty young women
wearing nothing but loose, baggy panties. In front of them was a woman, a cell
mate. She was cuffed hand and foot to an old iron bed. The master was between
her legs, his long tongue buried in the woman's wet pussy, so deep, almost
touching her womb. His teeth were coaxing her pearl, cradling it, preparing to
bite.
Sandy was
willing him on, demanding that he do it. "Bite her!" she screamed,
feeling him in her head, knowing he was playing with her desires and her
memory. All the other women were crying out too, combining to form one single
voice. "Punish her! Tear her pearl and rip it from her pussy!"
Sandy was
wetting herself now, sensing that soon it would be her. Piss dribbled along her
crack and dripped unseen into the pit below. All she could think of was that
long deadly tongue sinking into a young woman's guts and the master with her
bloody pearl between his teeth.
Oh God. He was
going to do it. No doubts now. None.
Sandy screamed,
her back arching, her body lifting from her bed. Her demeanour was broken, her
tranquillity truly shattered. The master roared at the top of its voice and
lifted his head, blood running down its chin and matting his fur.
He had a small
piece of meat between its teeth, a womanly secret. Sandy could hear the echoes
from outside, the mighty roar and the screams of her friend and lover.
He was doing
it. He was eating her. This was the beginning; the skull would be the end.
He chewed and
swallowed, and then the screams faded to black. Sandy could make out nothing
now but the shriek of wild rats and the tinkle of her running water still
dribbling to the moist black earth below.
Her teeth were
chattering from the cold. She was dirty. She'd wet herself.
"You're
mine," he said, opening his mouth and licking her teats. She could still
see the marks where the electrodes had pressed against his temples.
Her nurse's
uniform lay in a hundred disintegrated fragments around her feet.
His teeth were
upon her breast, gently fondling it. The knife was digging into her side,
pressing against her.
"Yes,
sir."
"You'll
always be mine. No one else wants you now. Even the police, when you run, bring
you back. You're insane. No one is interested in the insane. Don't you see,
whatever you do to escape, even if you run, you'll be brought back. This is
your home now, here with me in the asylum."
He forced
himself down, caressing Sandy's breasts with the teeth, placing the steel blade
between her legs, then levering it against her slit and forcing it open.
"I want you to relax," he said, flicking her nipples with his tongue
until they'd hardened into rocks. "If you do that, it won't be too bad. I
can make your life a happy one. You just need to keep to my rules. Do you understand?"
"Yes sir."
"I don't
want you fucking any of the other nurses. You're to keep away from them, and
they're not to fuck you. I don't care what crap goes on in your head but you'll
keep your hands to yourself. Is that clear?"
"Yes,
sir.
It's
clear."
"You can
dress as you like during the day, but at night you'll only wear panties,
standard issue, nothing else, just like the other girls. Is that clear?"
"Yes
sir."
"Okay, now
lie on your bed. We're going to play the game where you're the virgin and I'm
the wild beast. Assume the position."
She did so,
kneeling on all fours and spreading her ass, presenting herself like a bitch to
her mate.
The beast
looked down at her, its nostrils open and its huge sex erect. It was
thoughtful, like it couldn't decide whether Sandy were meat for its dinner or
crumpet for its bed.
"Oh
my God!"
Sandy
spluttered, her voice trembling, her knees rattling.
And then,
suddenly, as quickly as it had begun, the dream was over and she was being fucked
by the master. He was inside, lying upon her, not moving. What happened to her
hymen, she never found out. Suddenly it was gone and he was inside her,
stretching her, playing with her mind and her soul, and she knew that for this
she'd been born, to serve him, to please and service his cock.
She was his
property; to do with as he willed, to be raped, night after night for as long
as he wanted her.
He placed her
breast into his mouth. It was a sign, like the ring on a woman's finger, an
everlasting symbol of their binding contract. She took a deep breath and arched
her back, gripping him tightly.
She could hear
the screams of the other women, the frenzied rattling of their cages. Some were
being beaten; others were being raped.
The master's
tongue flicked across her teat one or two times, and then she screamed because
he'd bitten and in his mouth, perched between his teeth, she could see the
swollen lump of her quivering teat.
In that moment
she had a flickering vision of herself as she'd once been, a qualified
psychiatric nurse, alone with the master. He was lying upon his bed with
electrodes fastened to his temples, twisting and turning and the juice surging
through his body.
Then, suddenly,
he'd broken free and the tables were turned. He was the master and she the
patient. He was fastening the electrodes to her and cauterizing the wound. Once
again, Sandy had screamed.
Was she mad or
was she sane?
She no longer
had the capacity to judge.
But at least
she wasn't alone.
THE END