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Miss Sissy
Welcome
to Miss Sissy. These are boys all across the world that are competing to
be this years International Sissy. There are no losers in this
competition, it takes lots of courage for each boy to come here and tell
about their transgender issues. Dauphins readers has voted for the winner of Miss Sissy.
Lets start with the eleven contestants, that each has different stories and different backgrounds. They will shortly tell us these, and then you can decide who will be this years Miss Sissy .
United States of America
I am from the USA. I am so happy to represent my country here. I hope that I can inspire other children and their parents. I have been very lucky because of my Mum and my Dad. I am the luckiest child in the world.
Ever
since I was young, I knew that deep down I was a girl. It was like I had
a boy’s body and a girl’s soul and mind. I remember once when I was
about 4, my Dad asked me if I wanted to be a firefighter, and I said I
wanted to be a cheerleader. He thought about it, and said that boys can
also be cheerleaders. I laughed and said that only girls could be
cheerleaders. I already knew that I was girl and nothing would change my
mind about this.
I was used to not being normal. You see I have always wet my pants. Doctor says that it is a weak bladder. This means that I have to wear diapers. Of course everyone at school found out and it is something they always teased me about. They called me pee-pants and baby and all those things. I did cry and it made me sad, but wouldn’t it make you sad? They say that sticks and stones do not break bones, but they are wrong! I remember when I was 5; I asked my Mum if she would buy me the pretty girl diapers, as if I needed them, I would like to wear them.
Mum
answered by saying that I should see a special doctor. That doctor asked
me loads of questions and we played lots of games. This went on for some
time. I was happy to go as the games we played were quite fun. I
remember once that we just sat and played with Barbie’s.
After I visited her some time, Mum asked me if I would like to be a girl. This confused me so I said that I was a girl. Then she explained that I would wear girl clothes and have a girl bedroom. I was so happy. It was the happiest day of my life. I remember that Mum was confused because I started crying, but I cried because I was so happy.
Since
then I have been living as a girl. The first time I showed my friends
that I was a girl was at my birthday party. I was 6. Mum and Dad
explained to them that some girls are born with boy’s bodies, and I
was wearing girl’s clothes because I was a girl. The other children
didn’t seem to care and accepted it, Even though they still teased me
about my diapers. I remember that the other mothers looked a bit strange
and like they were mad and disgusted at Mom and Dad. I didn’t even
notice the parents nearly shouting at my parents when I was playing with
my friends.
I lost many of the friends I had. Their parents probably told them that I was strange and even gay. We didn’t even know what that meant. At the start, I cried about it. But Dad told me that everyone is strange. There is no normal person. Some like Star wars, some wears glasses, some likes Madonna, Everyone is strange is some ones eyes. He was right. I did get a lot of new friends, as girls accepted me as their friend. I was happy.
I know that many Sissies like clothes and all that. For me, girl clothes and toys and games show what I am on the inside. I could easily go with boy clothes and feel the same. But when I wear girl’s clothes, they can see who I am.
I
also like things like cheerleading and especially make up. I like when
my friends and I fix each other’s hair and go looking at clothes in
the shop.
In the future, I might get a sex change and be a woman. But that’s far off now. The doctor did suggest that I take some pills to look more like a girl. I cant wait to I start them. Spain
I
come from Spain. It’s not the best picture of me, is it? I just
couldn’t smile. But I do like the skirt. I am a sissy, but it was not
my choice, or was it?
When
I was 7, my Dad left us. He got tired of Moms mood swings and her
constant bickering. After he left us Mum became totally strange. She
hated men. The worse thing is that she thought I looked like my Dad. For
a few months it was impossible to live with her. She hated me because I
was a boy.
Then
one day when I came home from school, the house was empty. Mum said that
we were moving to a new house. I was so confused. I didn’t even have a
chance to say goodbye to my old school and friends. They were the only
comfort I had in my life. Now I was going away to a new strange house.
When
I got there, I was shocked. My room was a girl’s room. My clothes were
also girl’s clothes. Mum started calling me her daughter and told me
to put my new clothes on. I did so because I didn’t want her to be mad
at me. When I put on panties, and tights and a skirt and a blouse. Then
Mum laughed and said no boy would ever do that unless he was a sissy.
Then she told me that I could wear girl’s clothes at home. Then she
wouldn’t think of me as a boy or man that will break a woman’s
heart, but a sissy that will learn what a women wants.
Of
course, I had to wear panties in school and within no time this was
found out. It didn’t help that my Mum wouldn’t cut my hair and I had
hair down to my shoulders. I looked like a girl. I understand why
everyone called me sissy. I was one! Still it made me feel sad why they
teased me and didn’t understand what was happening to me. I was also
confused why Mum hated me because Dad left and wanted me to be a sissy.
One
day when I came home, Mum said that all girls should learn to play the
Piano. She said that this guy would teach me how to play the Piano. I
was to wear this pretty fluffy dress that went above my knees, and some
Mary Janes and of course tights. Playing the Piano was so sissy.
He
came a few times, but he was very strange. Always put his hand around me
and things like that. Kissing me on the chin. I told Mum about it, but
she just said that if I don’t like it, I should find my own boyfriend.
I was not gay! One day he
started touching my tights and then it went higher and higher. He found
out I was a sissy boy and freaked out running out of the house. I told
my Mum, and she said she did hear that he likes girls. She wondered why
he didn’t make a girl out of me.
Before
I knew it, the police and child services were at the door. They took me
to a foster home and Mom was arrested. There was a court case where I
was in a foster care and Mom was in a mental hospital.
The
problems were not over. I was unhappy. I was back to normal. I was a boy
again and my foster family loved me. I do not know why I was so unhappy.
Its not like I missed my Mum. I was happy that I lived with my foster
family. I spoke with my stepparents. They asked me straight out did I
like wearing girl’s clothes. I said yes, because they felt nice and
somehow I felt happy in them. I knew I was a boy; I just liked
pretending to be a girl. My stepparents looked down on the floor and
then smiled. They said I could wear girl’s clothes, but not at school
and only when I wanted. They would not call me sissy. They will call me
by my name. I was only to wear the clothes when I wanted to. Ireland
Hello.
I am from Ireland. I am happy to be in this contest, even though many
people will think is not good being called Miss Sissy. But I don’t
mind. I think that I look great today. I also seen the other boys, and
it was great speaking with them. Its nice that no one is mean and that
we are not afraid of showing what we really are.
For
me, it all started when a girl next door. I never spoke with her or
anything like that. I mean she was a girl. Then one day, when I was
bored, I visited her house. I just sat and watched her as she practiced
her ballet. She was wearing a tutu and tights and those strange
slippers. It was like as if I was in a trance. I just stared at her.
I
visited her every day and the more I seen her do ballet, the more I was
in a trance. One when she was finished her practice, she said she wished
that I were her baby sister. I didn’t laugh. I just couldn’t wait
until I came the next time. The next time was the same, she started
doing ballet and in between saying how much she wanted a baby sister. I
was in a trance as usual. Then she asked did I want to try? I said
nothing as she started putting ballet clothes on me. Even taking my
boxers off and putting panties on. It was humiliating, but it was like I
was in a trance. I wanted to learn how to do ballet. At the end I looked
in the mirror. I looked like a girl. I felt the tights and tutu; they
were so soft. She was delighted and said that now she has a little
sister. Every day since then she taught me how to do ballet. I became
quite good at it, and loved every minute of it. I even liked the
clothes. They felt so soft and nice on my body.
Once,
She invited me over for the weekend. Before I knew it she said I would
be her baby sister all weekend. I said nothing. It was like she had me
in a trance again. Before I knew it, she had me on the bed and started
changing my clothes. Her mum stood at the door a bit drunk and told me
she heard I was going to be a baby sister all weekend. I didn’t say
anything. It was in that trance. I didn’t even say a word when she put
a diaper on me and a pink dress with a lot of ribbons and bows. When I
was about to ask some obvious questions, she put a pacifier in my mouth.
That
weekend and many weekends after, I was her baby sister. She would dress
me as a baby girl and take care of me. I even slept in a crib. Sometimes
it was embarrassing because she would invite some of her friends from
school. It was embarrassing being a baby sissy. They would say that I
looked so cute and ask if I wet myself or did I want a bottle?
During
the week again I was a boy, Even though the girls would smile as if they
knew my secret. Especially when my neighbour bought me a pink coat for
my birthday, then the girls would whisper “sissy” in my ears,
sometimes they would ask was I dry? United Kingdom
I
am from the United Kingdom. I am a sissy. I love girl’s clothes and I
love boys. I can admit this now, but my journey to this has been a long
one.
I
come from a strict family. My parents believed that we should be all
proper and that. They never spanked us or anything like that, but they
did other things that many would consider weird. I had a friend for
years. We were all the time together. He was a bit taller than me, as I
was a bit small for my age. My sissy days started once when he was
spending a weekend at my house. We did this millions of times before,
but that night was different. We slept in my bed as usual, but I
couldn’t sleep. I just stared in his face and thought that he looked
very cute. I didn’t think twice that I thought a boy was cute. I
couldn’t help myself. I gave him a kiss and before I knew it we were
kissing and kissing and kissing.
I
didn’t realize that Mum was standing at the door. She was mad as
anything. My friend slept on the sofa and the next day he was sent home.
Then she came into me and didn’t care that I was crying. She started
saying that she didn’t want a gay son, and a faggot and all that. I
didn’t really understand what she was saying. I just kissed him, how
can that be wrong?
Then
she said I would be punished. She didn’t say anything as she started
undressing me. I was crying and she just was silent. I cried even more
when she put this old fashioned petticoat dress on me that they wore in
the fifties. I looked confused at my mom with tears going down my eyes.
Then she said that if I liked boys, I could be a girl all summer. Maybe
when school started again, I would learn that boys are not to like boys.
To this day, I do not understand that logic.
All
summer I was a sissy, or as mum called me a girl. I wore girl clothes
all the time and even played with dolls and other girl things. I only
cried the first day and then I started enjoying it. Of course I didn’t
say this to my parents. They would just make me be a boy again.
Even
when we went to the mall or the park or Church, I would wear girl
clothes. It was embarrassing when someone knew me and Mum or Dad
explained that I was being punished because I kissed a boy. I knew when
school started that everyone would think that I was gay. But I liked
when people didn’t know me. Boys would stare at me. I really did look
like a girl. I was freaked out when men would look at me. I smiled back
t the boys that were cute. I felt like a real princess then.
Well
after the summer was over, I knew I was a sissy. Friends, neighbours and
family called me a sissy, but it didn’t bother me. That summer was the
happiest summer in my life. I was once again a boy. Mum thought that I
had learnt my lesson. China
I
am from China, and now I will tell you a secret. You know the girls that
helped with the parades and presenting medals in the last Olympics.
Well, I was one of them. I bet you are wondering how this happened.
My
Dad was one of the organizers of the parades and presentations. He had
to find people that will walk, and parade and be in the ceremonies. I
begged that I wanted to be one of them. I wanted to be on TV in front of
billions of people. It could be something that I could tell my
grandchildren that I was in the 2008 Olympics. Dad kept saying
no, that he had enough children and that I could sit with him in the VIP
area in the stadium.
That
was not good enough. I kept on nagging him and asking him and I thought
at the end he would kick me out of the house. But I was lucky he
didn’t. I knew just about how far I could push him. Then he would
start sweating and then I would wait to ask at another time.
The
day of the Olympics he told me to stand before him. He started saying
that he never understood why Mum never cut my hair, but now he was happy
that she did not. He looked at my body and said that I had a very
feminine body. OK, I knew this. Everyone at school told me that I had a
girls face and body. It never made me mad but I couldn’t understand
why my dad was teasing me now. Then the bomb came. He said I could be a
child in the Olympics, but I would have to be a girl, as that was the
only place left. Without thinking that much about the girl part, I said
yes. I just heard him say that I could be in the Olympics.
So
I was rushed down to the dressing room, and had this traditional Chinese
dress on. They did my face with lots make up, especially around the
eyes. I looked in the mirror. I was no longer a boy. I looked like the
empress of China. Dad was waiting for a tantrum. I just hugged him and
said thanks.
The
Olympics was the best part of my life. I was a girl for two weeks, and
the other girls never even knew it. I tried so many outfits on and I
felt free as a bird. At one stage I wished that God created me as a
girl. But maybe this will happen in the next life. If there were an
Olympics competition for sissies, I would have won it.
Sadly
the Olympics were over, and I was once again a boy.
Everyone
at school recognized that it was me in the Olympics, and they called me
sissy and empress and things like that. Some even asked if I was gay. I
am not gay. No way.
Australia
I
am from Australia. This is a story that you will not believe, but I am
the living proof that it happens.
My
parents were well off, and I don’t think they really liked me. They
thought I cried too much and never liked the toys they gave me. They
always said I was strange. It didn’t help when I cried because they
thought I was such a disappointment.
Soon
they had me enough. They said I was going to go to a boarding school. It
was a special school that no one knew about. When I seen it, it looked
like some old castle. On the way in, I noticed that there was no
suitcase or luggage. This confused me. Maybe the head mistress would be
nice and tell me what was happening.
As
soon as I got in the door, Mum and Dad left. They hardly even said
goodbye. I looked around. I could only see girls. Where were the boys?
The girls took me into the headmistress office.
She
stood there while a nurse started stripping me. Tears were coming to my
eyes as I thought how humiliating it was getting naked in front of two
women. I closed my eyes and the tears flowed shorter and shorter as I
could feel nice fabrics touching my skin. I did not open my eyes as I was
afraid seeing them laughing at my nakedness. It felt like silky clouds were
clothing me. I smiled a bit and the head mistress said she was proud of
me. I opened my eyes. I was in a girl’s school uniform. My mouth must
have been wide open.
The
Mistress said that there were no girls here. It was only boys that
wanted to be girls. This school taught them how to be girls and later
women and would not be teased and mocked by society. I would start by
being a baby girl. Then I would learn how to be a young girl. Then I
with the help of operations and drugs, I would have a woman’s body.
She explained from what her parents already told her, I had the mind of
a girl. If this continued, I would be bullied and teased all my life.
So
there I was in this hidden school. About to be transferred from a boy to
a girl. I spent the first time there as a baby. Oversized cribs and
bottles and pacifiers. This was a happy time in my life, as I didn’t
have any worries. I enjoyed the diapers and baby clothes. I loved the
pacifier and after a bit I cried if I couldn’t find it though. I
didn’t like the baby food though. I suppose I couldn’t like
everything. I quickly forgot about my former life as a boy and started
thinking I was a baby girl.
The
Time came for me to be a big girl. This was hard, saying goodbye to the
pacifier and the bottles. The diaper was more of a challenge, as I had
to be potty trained. This didn’t go so well, as I couldn’t keep dry
at nighttime, so I was not one of the big girls. I was on my way to
becoming one.
After
so much time at this school, I must admit that I am thinking like a
girl. I no longer think I am a boy. The strange behaviour I had when I
was smaller was probably the girl inside of me. I mean I would probably
have rather played with a dollhouse than a gun. I am glad my parents
made this sacrifice. South Africa
I
am a sissy, or at least everyone says I am. I come from South Africa.
Things are better for blacks now, but we still have some problems. There
is poverty amongst the blacks. I lived with my Mum. I don’t know
where my Dad is. Mum said that she doesn’t want to talk about it. It
was very hard for my mum to get some work. Maybe she aimed too high. She
wanted to live in a white persons house. She thought that I could have a
good future. But who would give her a job, with a son?
It
happened. One day she came home to the slums where we lived and she was
so happy. She said she got a job. We dance around the small hut we lived
in. We were going to move into a big house. We would never be cold or
hungry again. Then Mum told me to sit down. She said. “ There is one
problem, they didn’t want a boy in the house, and so I told them that
I had a daughter. This means that we have a problem. You will have to
pretend that you’re my daughter. There is only an old woman there; she
does not know the difference. She probably thinks that all blacks look
the same. I know it’s a lot to ask you, but if you do not want to do
it, then I will understand.”
I
thought about it and told my Mum that I would. It will help her and I
would do anything for her, even be a girl. I know she felt guilty and
thought that it was a sin or something wrong. I hugged her and told her
that this was life. Life isn’t fair and we will still be together in a
nice house. Even if I wore a dress, I would be myself. Mum cried and
cried, saying that I was very mature for my age and she was happy.
So
we moved to the old woman’s big house. Mum was a servant and helped
her with everything, as the old woman was .. well old and could hardly
do anything except sit in her chair. Mum told me to stay in our room and
the kitchen, so I wouldn’t disturb her. I really didn’t want anyone
to see me, as I wore dresses and panties all the time. I felt like so
strange, like these clothes transformed me to a girl. I knew I was a boy
and a dress should not make a difference. But try to tell my brain that.
Maybe its because I could feel every breeze go up the dress, and this
felt sort of nice
Once
Mum asked me to go to the shop, because she needed some apples. I looked
at her pleading not to send me out there looking like this. She said no
one would notice anything. Just don’t look like I am hiding anything.
I did as she said and she was right! No one looked at me funny or said
anything. The shopkeeper even praised me, saying I was cute and a good
daughter for helping my Mum. I skipped all the way home. Of course when
I got home, I felt guilty about skipping.
One
day I heard this strange music. It was some old music. I thought that
the old lady was sleeping, so I snuck in the big sitting room to see
what was happening. Then I got a shock when I seen her sitting there. I
started to tremble and cry. She called me over and gave me a hug and
said she wondered when she would see me. Then she talked for ages about
her youth and everything she seen and experienced. I was lost in her
world and loved the sound of her voice and her stories. Since then I was
allowed to come in, as she enjoyed talking with someone. So that was my life. I was now a sissy. It was to give my mum a better life. At the beginning I was very aware of it and frightened. Then after some time, I didn’t notice that I was wearing girl’s things or acting or thinking as a girl. This meant that I was and am a real sissy. I don’t know if I will be a sissy in the future. But there is a lot of time to think about that. Israel
As
you can see I am from Israel. Someone told me not to enter this
competition because some hates Israel because of politics. I decided to
come anyhow, as my story is just as important as politics or anything
else.
I
was a normal family living in Israel. Ok, My Mum and dad were rich. But
I didn’t really know the difference between Rich and Poor. I was a
happy boy with a happy life. I didn’t know what a sissy was. I
didn’t consider myself a girl. I was a boy. I liked boy games and boy
clothes and in fact boy everything. If I knew a sissy, I would laugh at
a sissy. I mean they would be so weird. I didn’t really know what a
gay was, but if anyone was gay, I would say that they were gross. It was
a sin and all that.
This
was until one day when I was on the way home from School. This old car
moved beside me and three military type men pulled aside and pointed
guns at me and told me to get in the car. I think I wet my briefs just
then. I sat in the car and started to cry hysterical. Of course I knew
what this was. There has been a lot of kidnappings lately, and it was
hard to find the children. No one knew why. I heard these rumours and
was afraid that no one would find me again. Maybe this was why I cried
like a baby. This woman stuck a needle in me and before I knew it,
everything went black.
When
I woke up, I couldn’t remember anything. I didn’t know my parents or
what my name was. I looked down and seen that I was wearing this long
skirt and nice tank tube top. For a second, I thought I was a boy, but I
was wearing girl clothes, so I must be a girl. This was confirmed when
this farmwoman came in and called me her daughter, She explained that I
was very sick and that’s why I was in bed for so long. It has also
harmed my bladder so I had to wear diapers. I was so sad about this that
I thought it was like I was a baby. Mum said no one else would know and
she would always love me. She gave me a hug and I felt so confused. Why
didn’t I even remember her?
So
my life as a girl started. Of course I was a sissy, but I really
didn’t know this. I noticed that some neighbours were not the same as
me. A part of my brain told me that they were Israel’s enemies. But
they were so nice to me and I quickly became their friends. In this
farming community, half were like me and half were them that I thought
should be enemies, but they were so nice. We all helped each other on
the farms and this was not really hard. It was great fun when we helped
each other.
I
quickly got used to being a girl. I mean at this stage I always thought
I was. I thought it was just my memory loss that made me forget I was a
girl. At the start, I was a tomboy, and wanted to play football (soccer)
and the boy’s games. Then I noticed the other girls didn’t play them
at all, so I just joined them. They only talked about clothes and boys.
It took me sometime to think that this was interesting to talk about. We
talked about what clothes were nice and which boy was cute. At the
beginning, I didn’t think any boy was cute, but then I started to like
one boy. I wont tell you about the time we kissed, otherwise mum would
be mad. You can well imagine, that these were happy days in my life.
My
life was turned upside down when the security forced found us. It was
International News and everyone felt sorry for us. They just didn’t
understand that we have done something that politicians couldn’t do.
Maybe it was because we were children, but we lived in peace. The
investigations showed that we were kidnapped and brainwashed that we
were girls. It was hard to find a boy when the boy was a girl. We lived
in a mixed community, where we have learned to like and respect our
enemies. Our enemies became friends. The good thing was that only the
children were caught, the families that we lived with escaped.
I
was sent home to my real mum and dad. After a while, they could see that
I was unhappy. They called me sissy and said they wanted their old son
back. After a lot of visits to doctors and shrinks, they were told that
it was not possible. I now considered myself as a girl and my new family
was the kidnappers. After some time, Mum and Dad decided that I would
only be happy with them. It made my mum very sad, but she wanted me to
be happy. They drove me back to the kidnappers and said I could live
there if I spent holidays and summers with them. How many parents would
do this? So now I live as a girl on a farm. I have no enemies and we are the future hope of Israel. I will always love my real parents and speak with them every day on the telephone. They lost a son, but gained a daughter. Egypt
I
am from Egypt. I am so happy to represent my country. I think I have an
important story to tell her. It’s about being a sissy, but also about
hate. Hate is the greatest sickness on earth, and we hate because we
are afraid. I experienced a lot of hate in my life that made me to what
I am now.
I
was living with Mum. We were Christians living in Egypt, which is a
Muslim country. That’s OK, because I respected them and didn’t talk
much about religion anyhow. Things changed when Mum met and married my
step dad. He was a Muslim. Some would say he was one of these
fundamental Muslims. That didn’t bother Mum. She married him. Then the
problems started. He would make Mum wear those strange scarves and
clothes. He considered me as his real son. He wanted me to be a Muslim
and started teaching me the verses in the Koran. However, I didn’t
believe in that much of what it said. Maybe that is because my
foundation was what the Bible says. This often made him mad, as he
thought that the only real religion was his. A few times, he hit me and
told me that I had to open my heart to Allah. I said I did, because
Allah and God are the same. Then he started hitting me and hitting me.
He even threatened to kill me.
This
was enough for my Mum. She said that we had to go into hiding because he
probably would kill me. She thought and thought how we could go into
hiding, and not being caught. Then she came up with an idea, I would be
dressed as a girl and she would wear the full Islam clothes. She spent a
few weeks planning this and I could see that she was afraid.
The
day came when we were to escape. We went to the market where we
disappeared in a clothes shop. I was put in a long skirt and a top. Mum
was letting my hair grow, so they just put it in small braids. He said
that he didn’t have to do anything with my face as it looked like a
girls face anyhow. I felt like kicking him where the light never shown.
But then thought it was good, because then I would not get any plastic
surgery. Mum came out. I couldn’t see who she was. Good that I knew
her plan.
We
were on the streets again. Mum whispered to hold her hand as a daughter
would and do not look confused or afraid. I tried not to, although I
didn’t understand why people didn’t see I was a boy. Did the clothes
and hair confuse them so much? We met my grandfather who drove to a town
in the middle of nowhere.
So
our life started. I was now a girl. I learned how to do my hair and
could spend hours doing it. I became very aware what clothes I was
wearing and what goes with what. Some said that Cleopatra must have been
as beautiful as me. That was not right, but it made me blush at the same
time. I was now thinking like a girl, acting like a girl, and even
looking at boys like a girl. The only problem was that I had the body of
a boy
My
step Dad looked for us and looked. Soon we heard that he got married
again. This meant that I could be a boy again, my Mum said. I started
crying and crying and said I was now a girl. I was a sissy. Mum joined
in with my crying and said that it was her fault. She made me into a
sissy. I hugged her and said that is who I am.
So
since then, Mum has been given me hormones and things to help my body
look like a girls body. I noticed some changes. My boy’s thing has
gone very short. When I am older I can get an operation that will make
me to a woman. I can’t wait for that. India
I
am from India. When you hear about India, you think we are all poor and
living in slums. That was not I. My family was very rich. I never did
see my Dad. He was never at home and he didn’t really care about us. I
never saw him. For all he cares, we could have been killed in some
accident and he wouldn’t care. He just sent Mum some money and this
made us well of.
As
for Mum she was quite eccentric. Crazy some would say. I was born a
twin. I had a sister that I really loved and we did everything together.
My strange life started when I was a baby. I would dress just like my
sister and no one knew the difference. In fact they thought that I was a
girl. I didn’t know the difference between a boy and girl so I really
didn’t understand. I just lived my life as a girl, my sister’s
sister. Who was I to know how eccentric my mother was.
The
fact is that my mother went to a very exclusive private school for girls, in which
she nearly worshipped. This is eccentric enough, I mean who worships
their school? Her wish is that her children would also go to this
school. Now me being born a boy have caused problems here. But nothing
my mother couldn’t solve. She would just raise me as a girl. If she
did this from the start, then it would be easier to brainwash me or get
rid of any boy in me.
To
help the case, she started giving me these shots that were to increase
the girl hormones in me.
Then
some crack of a doctor persuaded her that I should have a sex operation
when I was very young. Yes you guessed it. They cut some parts off and
made other parts that a girl should have. I will tell you, that this was
painful and the doctor made a mistake so that I had no control in my
bladder. This meant that I was meant to wear diapers for the rest of my
life. Being a young child, I did not understand why my sister didn’t
have to get this operation that was so painful. But after, I could see
that we had the same bodies. The shots and the Tablets continued.
I was told they were vitamins.
My
Mum got what she wished. My sister and I started at that exclusive
school for girls. It was great fun. My sister wore the same clothes and
we spent much of the time together. We were nearly identical. So when my
sister got in trouble, she would just say it was my fault. It was a
girl’s world, and that suited me fine.
The
troubles started when all the other girls started talking about boys and
how cute they were. I really didn’t fancy boys. This made the girls
tease me saying I was lesbian. This really hurt my feelings, as I
didn’t want to be lesbian. I started becoming depressed,
My
sister didn’t like that I was depressed and one day she said we had to
talk seriously. She said she knows I like girls the way she likes boys.
She said I was not lesbian. Then she reminded me about the body that I
used to have, and remember when it changed after the operation. She also
asked me why I got shots and “vitamins” while she did not get any. I
was confused until she told me that I was a boy. Mum made me to a sissy
and now a sissy for life.
It
took me some time before I realized that this was the truth. Mum has
caused nothing except problems because I was teased because of my
diapers and being a lesbian. This meant that my years in that school
were horrid in one way. Russia
I
am the last contestant and I come from Russia. I have heard the other
sissies here and think they have had interesting lives. I hope that we
can meet again and talk about each other’s lives, and not just who
will win.
I
lived in Moscow. Many people are very poor here. I have an older sister
that was very nice to me. I think she always knew that there was
something special about me. That’s not a lot compared to my parents
that were always drunk.
When
I was little, my sister would play games with me when she would dress me
as a fairy. This meant tights and a fairy skirt and top. I suppose I
looked like a ballet dancer. I loved when we played these games, and she
always said that I should have been a little girl. I blushed and smiled
when she said this, because I wanted to be a girl more than anything
else in my life. This had nothing to do with my sister. She just knew
what was in my heart and helped me find myself.
Everything
went bad when Dad nearly fell in the small flat one day, and seen me
with one of my sisters old Church dresses on. He hot all mad and started
to chase me around the flat with a knife. He said he didn’t want any
puff of a sissy for a sun. My sister and I ran out of the flat as quick
as we could. We would never miss our parents, especially when they
wanted to kill us.
So
we were homeless. I went through the streets with the dress on. To
everyone else I was a girl. Besides I had my short hair. My sister said
that would grow and she would help me take care of it.
Being
homeless was so scary the first few days. A lot of pervs wanted us to
come home with them but my sister said no. They didn’t want to help
us; they just wanted to abuse us. So we started begging for food and
then we got by.
We
soon met some other homeless children, and w hung around with them. They
all knew I was a sissy, but they never teased me. They said we were one
family and we have to accept each other’s differences. They treated me
like a girl, well a sissy. In fact Sissy was my new name. My sister was
a good friend with another girl, but after 3 weeks she died because she
had taken an overdoses of glue. That made my sister very sad.
I
don’t know about the future, because being homeless gives me the
freedom to be whom I want. At the same time, it’s a survivor exercise
every day. The other children think I should sell my self because
Sissies can earn a lot of money from pervs. Until now, I have said no,
because I want to find love. I am also worried about my sister that has
started sniffing drugs. I am afraid I will loose her some day or even I
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