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Galaxy Star
Did
you ever have a bad day at school? When you came home, you just wanted to
hide in your bed and forget all about life. That’s the way I felt one
day. I mean it was not the teacher’s fault, which is a change, but it
was the boys in my class. Why can’t they just be normal?
My
name is Jade. Don’t ask me why my parents called me that. I think it’s
a girl’s name. But that was the only weird thing about me. I was normal
in every way.
I
loved sports.
I
loved watching them on TV and playing them. I loved getting dirty and
fighting. When things came down to it, I liked everything that a boy did.
OK, if I am to be honest, I didn’t want a girlfriend yet, but I was only
10 years old. Maybe that would come when I was older. The other boys in my class were weird.
Declan was one of them. He dyed his hair black. I am not sure why he did that. He only ever wore black clothes all the time. He was so sad. Mum said that is was so sad that a 10 year old wants to be sad so early in their life. It made me sad just looking at him.
Then there was George. He was the bully of the class. He wore clothes that were dirty and denim coats. He was always mad at someone, and that meant fists could fly. He hated everyone else. I think that’s worse than being sad all the time, because it takes a lot of energy to hate someone.
Then there was Andrew. He was like a flower. Everyone called him sissy because he wore these strange clothes. I mean they would look good on a girl, but not a boy. That meant that he was a boy that wanted to look like a sissy. He cried when other people called him names, which was a shame. I mean maybe his family didn’t have enough money and he had to use his sister’s clothes. I doubt that deep down, as it looked like he really liked them.
I could go on and on about the different people in my class. Like Gerald, who was a mummy’s boy! His Mum walked him to school and gave him a hug and all. This was a bit extreme. It made him look like a baby and a mother’s baby at that.
How
did anyone expect us all to get along? It was hard learning how to respect
something that you don’t understand? If adults can’t understand
nations and people that are different, how could we when we were 10 years
old?
It
was just one of those days when we could not get on. Where everyone teased
each other. The atmosphere was strange. I was just happy to get home and
hide in my room.
That night, I couldn’t sleep. I put my Pj’s on and laid in my bed. I couldn’t sleep at all. I opened the curtains to look at the stars hoping that they would make me sleepy. I don’t know if you ever looked at the stars. Shame if you have not. I mean they are like Gods angels shining in the sky, taking care of us when we sleep. Thousands of angels protecting us. I could look at stars forever and think of how better life could be if we all shone for each other. Imagine a world where people where people smiled at each other, helped each other and didn’t judge. Stars could teach us a lot.
As I looked there was a shooting star. It was not that often that I seen a shooting star. It looked like the star was heading towards the earth. I looked at it as it became bigger and bigger. I should have been in panic and hiding in the basement or something, but the light was so strange. I could not move my bones. The only thing I could so was stare at the star becoming brighter and brighter. It should have hurt my eyes, but it didn’t. I should have been screaming with fear, but I wasn’t. I just looked at the star as it came closer and closer.
After
a few minutes, it was outside my window. I was just staring at it as it
was hovering outside my room. Then something that looked like fog came
through the window and slowly the window was opening. The fog was on the
floor. It actually looked like cotton. I was still in a daze when a few
minutes later, I found myself walking on the cotton like cloud. It was so
soft that it sent shrills though my body. After a bit, I felt tired, and
what better place to sleep than on the cotton cloud.
Within no time I was asleep.
I
woke up, thinking that the falling star and cloud was a strange dream. I
felt a bit cold and looked around. Where was I? I was on a huge bed. I
looked around and seen a dollhouse and a thing where dresses were hanging
down. There was also a dresser and a riding horse. The floor was pink. In
fact everything looked so girlish. Even the bed sheets felt so soft but it
was obvious that they were girls. What was I doing in a girl’s bedroom,
and why was I naked on her bed.
I
stood up and walked around the room. The floor was so nice and soft, just
like the cloud. But I still was confused, why was I here. How did I get
here? I opened the dresser. It was only girl’s clothes. You know,
panties, and tights and tops. On top of the dresser there were some things
that you put in girls hair.
The
question was going through me again and again. How did I get here and
where was I?
I
started looking for the door. I couldn’t find any door. In fact the
walls were clear. I looked around one more time and noticed that I was in
a glass box.
These
creatures were staring through the glass.
Some
looked like they were monkeys or apes. I seen the planet of the Apes, and
suddenly became afraid, because I was on planet of the Apes. They wore
some strange clothes and tried to get me to put my hand on the glass where
they could touch it. Of course I was not going to do this, I was afraid.
I
saw some small green people. They had small bodies and big heads. The fact
that they were green was confusing. They also had these eyes that were
frog like eyes and tongues like snakes. It looked like they wore clothes,
but it was hard to see as these clothes were also green.
I
started moving back from the glass as I looked at the others that were
staring. It was like looking at Star Trek. These aliens looked so scary.
Some were big, and some were the size of little mice. Some stood on two
legs, while others stood on 4 or 6. Some had normal ears. Some had rabbit
like ears or ears like frying pans.
It
was their hands that made me afraid. Some had two fingers, others 3,
others 5 and some 7 on each hand. Some had huge fingernails that looked
like claws.
It
was these claws that made me afraid, as I sat behind the bed, and
hid under a cover.
Lets
face it, if you were suddenly in a glass dome with all these weird and
scary aliens looking through it, you would be just as confused and afraid
as I was.
It
must have been hours as I seen aliens come by, and point and talk. Some
would take pictures. I felt so alone, yet everyone was looking at me like
I was strange. They should look in the mirror. They are the ones that are
aliens. They are the ones that should be in cages.
A
strange thing came into the cage; it was just a small bit bigger than me
and looked like it was a skeleton. He came towards me and went by. I kept
on muttering not to hurt me. He just put some breakfast on a small table.
“
Its time to eat” he said
“
You can speak English.”
“
Of course I can that is why I am taking care of you. Now I made you some
breakfast. Come and eat it”
“
I can’t. I am hiding under this sheet. There is nothing to wear.”
“
Well then put something on. The wardrobes are full of clothes”
“
But they are girl clothes. I am a boy. I am not going to wear girl
clothes.”
“
It looks like our studies about your species were not that good. These are
the only clothes you have, so you might as well get used to them.”
I
rose up and tried not to look at the creatures that were looking through
my window. I found some panties and some tights. I will be honest; I never
put girl panties or tights on. The tights looked so thin that I thought
they would tear when I put them on. When I had the tights and panties on,
I looked at them. It looked like my legs were painted with the softest
material. Not only that but the panties seemed to fit much better than any
briefs I ever wore. They were far prettier than I ever seen. As I was
feeling the soft material on my legs, I noticed some aliens were taking
some pictures. I quickly found a denim dress and struggled to step into
it. This must have been a comedy act for the spectators. At last I found
that it was easier to put the dress on over my shoulder.
I
looked in a mirror, and besides that my hair could have been a bit longer;
I did look like a girl. If my friends could see me now, they would laugh.
They would most likely call me sissy and everything.
While
I was eating breakfast, the caretaker explained to me that I was now in a
zoo. It was a zoo of primitive creatures from primitive planets. He said
the aliens traveled far to look at us. There were also other creatures
from Earth, such as tigers and elephants. He admitted with pride that I
was the main attraction. Then
he apologized about the clothes, and said that it would take a few weeks
to get some boy clothes. He told me that there were a lot of toys here and
so forth, so I would never get bored. He also said that I would just have
to get used to aliens walking past my glass cage, and staring at me and
taking pictures.
I
could feel tears in my eyes. I was kidnapped and was now in some zoo. I
would be here for the rest of my life. I would never see my mum or dad or
friends or family again.
It
was like he could read my thoughts. He said after a while, I would be
permitted to go home and if I wanted to stay, I could.
So
my life as a zoo exhibit started. I remembered the times when I visited
the zoo and could see the monkeys or elephants and the other animals. I
never thought about them being locked up. I just stared at them thinking
that they were cute or scary. I never thought if they were happy or angry
that they were in a cage. I doubt whether them that walked past my cage
thought of what was going through my mind. If I was happy or not.
In
fact at the start, I used to pretend that they were the ones locked up in
a cage. They looked just as funny to me as I did to them. I used to draw
pictures of them and then walk towards the glass. At the beginning it was
funny, they all stepped back thinking that I would break through the glass
and eat them. They did not know that I was more afraid than they were. I
would show them the picture of them that I drew. This caused a lot of
excitement. I was allowed to hang the pictures up. So after a while, I had
a lot of drawings with the aliens that visited me. The caretaker also told
me that copies of my drawings could be bought in the zoo shop. I was so
proud.
Each
day I would get up, when the lights were turned on. I had a little time to
brush my teeth and take a shower. Taking a shower was nice. They had this
shampoo and soap that smelled like flowers. Maybe the light smell of
flowers reminded me of Earth, or maybe it just made me feel good. At any
rate, I am sure that I smelled good. Then I would put on some girl
clothes. By now, I loved them. It was hard wearing a dress at the start,
as it felt that I was still half naked. You could feel the air going up
the dress.
After
a while, I loved wearing dresses. When the caretaker came in with
something to eat or something, I would ask him did he like my clothes and
if he thought I looked pretty enough? The first time I said this, I think
I went red. I just asked this skeleton if I was pretty. Only girls would
say this!
Weeks
after I have been in the Milky Way Zoo, I thought that I was now a girl. I
loved drawing and playing with the dolls and using the rocking horse. If
there were boy toys there, I would probably have ignored them. Not only
was I a girl on the outside, I was also a girl on the inside. I knew this,
because when the caretaker said “good girl”, I became excited and
loved hearing it.
I
felt safe in the zoo. Of course these aliens went by, and it was hard to
see what they were thinking. I knew that some came every day. I learned
that they were students and their job was to observe my species. This was
a bit of a waste of time, as the human species were so diverse. Remember
when I started this story, I told you about the boys in my class. They
were so different. Some were bullies, other mummy’s boys. There is
nothing normal.
After
a few weeks, I thought I was a girl. Is this because I started to wear
girl clothes and started doing girl things? Is it because this is the way
I always was? Being in the zoo was secure. I didn’t think if the
visitors that seen me thought I was a sissy or not. But I knew that if I
were with my family or friends, I would never have tried to put any girl
clothes on, and that I would never have experienced a side of me that I
did here.
Now
I knew that I was either a sissy or a girl trapped in a boy’s body.
Being locked in a cage was secure. I was secure from people teasing me and
people saying what I was doing is wrong.
So
here I was after a few months. I got used to my glass cage. I also got
used to the aliens always staring at me. Now I knew how the Mona Lisa
felt. I was happy living the life as a girl. The problem was that I was
lonely. I missed my Mum and Dad. I missed school. I missed other humans. I
knew if I met them that would cause problems. They would tease and all
that. So you could imagine the way I was. I was lonely but afraid that the
people would not accept me the way I was now.
The
skeleton knew there was something wrong with me. He bought me magazines of
horses and Barbie magazines. He even bought in make-up, which I was not
that good at. Still it didn’t help. I was so lonely.
Then
something important happened. At night, I put my nightdress and went to
bed. The zoo was closed. I cried myself to sleep.
The
next morning I woke up and looked around. There was another bed in the
cage. I looked in the bed. It was Shannon, this girl that lived down the
street. She was one younger than me. I quickly put on a party dress that
was very fluffy and full of ribbons. I put some clothes at the end of her
bed, as I remember how it was embarrassing finding where clothes were and
things like that while I was naked.
As
soon as she woke up, she looked around and then started crying and
screaming. She obviously knew that she was kidnapped and wanted to go home
to her Mum. I brushed her hair saying not to be sad, that I would explain
everything when she felt better.
It
seemed like it was ages before she stopped crying. Then she looked under
her bed sheets and saw that she was naked. I said I would turn around and
let her dress. Then she looked out the window and seen some aliens.
Suddenly she started screaming again. I told her not to be afraid, they
couldn’t come in. They would never hurt us. They just wanted to look at
us. This confused her and she quickly put this yellow dress on. She stayed
on her bed and looked at the aliens. I remembered that it was the same
reaction I had when I seen them.
The
Skeleton came in and put our breakfast on the Table. He told me that they
bought a new friend for me, so that I was not that Lonely. He left.
I
could see that Shannon was afraid. I explained to her that she was in a
zoo and that the aliens just looked at us. Most were quite nice. They just
stared and took pictures. I told the Skeleton was their too bringing us
food and all that. He was a caretaker.
“
So we are in a zoo?”
“
Yes. It’s not that bad. The worse is that you miss your parents.”
“
I think I seen you before” she said
“
I know you. You are Shannon. I am sorry to hear that your dad died of
cancer last year. You are Shannon and you live down the street from me. My
name is Jade. I went in the class above yours”
“
You are Jade. I remember when he went missing. Everyone said that you were
kidnapped and now work in some pervy place now. I suppose they will say
that pervs kidnapped me and I am some sex slave”
“
I am no sex slave and neither are you. We do what we do at home, except
that aliens look at us.”
Then
she realized the I was in girl clothes and asked why I was dressed as a
girl. I explained when I came their were only girl toys and girl clothes.
I had to wear them until the boy clothes came. But since then, I was happy
pretending I was a girl. I told her I knew she would think I was a sissy
and weird. But that is the truth.
She
didn’t tease me. She said that my hair is much longer than the ones that
were on the posters at home. After staring at me for some minutes, she
agreed that I looked like a girl and if I felt like I was really a girl,
then she would also consider me a girl.
She
asked if we could be sisters here. That bought tears to my eyes and we
hugged each other. From that day, there was a special relationship between
us. We were sisters or as many would say- soul mates.
Life
at the zoo went pretty much as it went before. Except now I had a friend.
Shannon always knew how to keep us busy. She would play house or we would
spend hours experimenting with make up. She taught me how to put my hair
in a ponytail and how to put make up on. She also taught me how my clothes
went together. In other words the next few weeks were Shannon teaching me
how to act like a girl.
In
no time, I was not acting that I was a girl. It seemed what I was doing
and how I dressed was normal. You can certainly say that by now I was a
real girl. You could not see between the two of us who was a “real”
girl and who was not.
The
Skeleton came in one day. He didn’t say much. He just poured something
from a bottle. The fog that I seen a long time ago was around the floor
and after a while it looked like a cotton bed. He told Shannon to step on
it. She did with a smile on her face. I was afraid. This was not part of
the daily routine we had at the zoo. I could see Shannon thinking how soft
it was, and then she laid down and fell asleep. The fog moved up and
formed the star that I seen a long time ago. The star flew out of the cage
and became smaller and smaller. Where was Shannon going? Why were they
sending my sister away?
I
looked at the skeleton. He poured more fog. It was my turn.
I
woke up. It was Mum screaming. I looked around and I was back in my old
bedroom. Mum was screaming and crying and my sister (who was 8) kept
giving me
“
Thank God”, She screamed. “ My son is home again. I thought he would
never come home again. He is back. This is a great day”.
This
must have gone on for an hour. Mum was shouting out the window and on the
telephone and everywhere.
The
Police came and they asked me was I kidnapped. I told them aliens
kidnapped me and they put me in a zoo. Then I was a girl there and a lot
of aliens looked at me. Later Shannon came and we were like sisters.
Then
I heard the police talk with Mum, “ This is strange, and we can’t do
anything about this so far. The fact that he says that he was kidnapped by
aliens and was feminized is too strange. Maybe the kidnappers feminized
him. You can see that with his long hair, he does look like a girl.”
“
He must be crazy. Thinking he was kidnapped by aliens. What about Shannon?
I hear she was found as well”
“
Yes, but she has the same story. An alien zoo kidnapped her. I think they
could have been brainwashed. I don’t know. But I think when things are
less exciting, Jade should see a psycholog. “
No
one believed me that I was kidnapped by aliens. Parents expect us to
believe in Santa and the tooth fairy, but they don’t believe us when we
say aliens.
It
was nice being home again. The first thing I noticed was nobody was
watching me all the time. The next thing I noticed was that there was so
much place. After a few days, it was like nothing changed. Except me. The
Zoo experience changed me. I was no longer the same as I was.
I
remember the day after I got home. I was getting dressed. None of my boy
clothes felt any good. In fact when I had them On, I felt suddenly another
person. I was not myself. I kept telling myself that they were just
clothes and I was still myself. But I still felt bad, in fact sad. Mum
kept asking me if I was OK, was I treated well and who was it that
kidnapped me. Dad just wanted to know if I was abused.
The
next day, I decided to tie my hair in a ponytail. I had to steal some of
my sister’s bobbles, to help me make a ponytail. I might not have girl
clothes on, but I had the hair as a girl. As soon as I came down to
breakfast, Dad ordered me to take them out. He did not want a sissy as a
son. Mum took them out and said that my hair would be cut in the future. I
said no way and rushed to my room.
I
stayed there most of the day. I wanted my zoo experience back. There I
discovered that I was a girl inside, and I liked being a girl. How would I
talk with my parents about this? How would I tell them I thought I was a
girl? My dad would disown me. My Mum would think it was some kidnappers
that blackmailed me.
I
cried and cried. Everything looked so dark. My life was back to normal and
I didn’t want to be normal. I wanted to be my new self. Why can’t I
decide?
Mum
came up and knocked at the door. I shouted to go away, and then she sighed
and said she just wanted to know if I was here and that Shannon was here
to visit me
“
Hi Sister” she said happily
“
Hi. How are you doing?”
“
I'm OK” She said, “ I am happy I am home with my Mum, but I miss the
good times we had at the zoo. Its just that no one believes me now when I
tell them that we were there.”
“
Same, Everyone thinks it was some perv that kidnapped us”
“
What do your parents say about.. you know… that you want to be a
girl.”
“
They don’t even like that I have long hair. They will never accept that
I want to be a girl”
“
That’s a shame, you should be allowed. But in a way I do understand
them, you are a boy as far as they know”
“
But I think I discovered something in me that thinks I am a girl. Why
can’t people just accept this and let me decide”
“
I know you’re my sister, and people will never understand this”
With
that she took her bad and emptied the contents on my bed. It was some
panties and tights. I smiled and asked were they for me? She said yes. I
could wear them and no one would know because I had my boy clothes on top
of them. I was so happy that I put them on straight away. The old feeling
was back. I felt more like myself.
The
next day, I had my new panties and tights. I still would have loved to
wear a dress, but I would just have to do with what I had on now. Mum seen
that I was much happier. I said I felt more like myself
Things
went bad at school. When I was sitting down I didn’t see that my baggie
jeans mad a gap in my back. The people behind me could look down my jeans.
After some confusion they discovered that it was tights and girl panties
they could see.
During
break time, all the boys teased me. They called me sissy and panty boy. I
started crying my head off. They starting shoving and one boy even gave me
a wedgy where everyone could see the panties. If you never had a wedgy
before, then I will tell you it hurts. It’s where they lift your briefs
as far up as possible.
After
that I was sent to the head masters office. Mum was called in.
He
told Mum that I was a sissy wearing panties and tights. This upset mum so
much that she promised that she would take care of it.
On
the way home she said that I was going to cut my hair the next day.
That
night I looked out the window to the stars, “ Please come and get me. I
can’t be a girl here. They only want me to be a boy. They don’t care
how I feel and they wont respect that I found myself up there at your Zoo.
I know I will miss them, but I cannot live a life where I am untrue to
myself. The Zoo has taught me a lot of who I am, and how different species
respect each other. I want to be happy, and I am not happy here being
forced to be someone I am not. Please take me back.”
I
could see the star come towards my room and the cotton fog on the floor. I
laid down on it and smiled I was going home.
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