Jimmy Sue held
the wedding shower for Linda Sue. Her house was the biggest, and almost
all the women in the community were there except Judy and Dorothy. They
received invitations. Buck asked Jimmy Sue to invite them due to his
and Morgan's close relationship. Jimmy Sue did as requested but
received no reply. Morgan's wife and step-daughter didn't send so much
as a card.
The night of
Buck's bachelor party was the Saturday night a week before the wedding.
It was thrown by Morgan Lovejoy, Dan Justin, Quinton Tate and Gary
Stiles. Morgan, Dan and Gip picked Buck up along with Waddie. The
two boys were to be included. Morgan and Dan agreed they were too
close to Buck not to be included. They needed to see what adults do at
these things anyway. They should be included. Then, too, the deciding
factor was hardheaded old Buck wasn't going to have a bachelor party
unless the boys were included.
"Them boys have
become Dan and me's world. No boys,— no Buck!" And, he meant it.
They got Buck
into the car, and the boys blindfolded him. Waddie and Gip
giggled like crazy because they knew what was coming. Buck had no idea.
They drove for a while, got out of the car and led him into a building.
He guessed correctly, it was the Grange Hall. They sat him on a tall
stool, like a bar stool, and Dan and Morgan disappeared. The boys kept
him company. Dan and Morgan soon returned to keep him company while the
boys disappeared. Finally they returned and Buck was told he could take
off his blindfold.
Buckely
Livingstone Claymore got the shock of his adult life. For once in his
life, Buck Claymore had no words to say. He opened his mouth to speak
and nothing came out. He settled for shaking his head and grinning from
ear to ear. In front of him stood close to two hundred of his dearest
men friends of his community naked as the day they were born, including
Waddie, Gip, Morgan, Dan, Gary and Quinton; all naked down to their
boots. They all refused to give up their boots. A cowboy don't care
about the rest of his clothes, but he's stark naked without his boots.
They all yelled,
"Surprise!" and you can bet your ass the big man was surprised. Buck
lost it! The big son of a bitch had tears coming down his face as he
hugged first one then another, but they wouldn't let him go on until he
had his clothes off. He had to undress in front of all those men.
Didn't bother Buck a bit. He threw his clothes off faster than any of
them had. He, too, put his boots back on. He stood up, and the men went
crazy applauding and whistling for the biggest man there. Then they let
him hug each and every one.
No one held back
from the big man. Nobody seemed to give a damn they had his big dick
sticking in their belly or theirs in his. They only laughed harder and
hugged all the tighter. They all loved him. Most had gone through
school with him. Many were the shy, smaller kids he and Morgan
protected, included and encouraged all those years, and they, most of
all, told him of their love and greatest wishes for happiness in his
marriage. They had no doubt he would be the best of fathers.
He carried Gip
in one arm and Waddie in the other half the night. He was so proud and
grateful to Morgan and Dan they included the boys. It was his way of
saying, 'I'm sorry for being such a stubborn, hard headed old bastard
but ain't this fun?'' Gip and Waddie commented to each other that, by
now, being nude in front of all these grown men meant nothing to them.
Dad Dan and Morgan had to laugh at the boy's lack of inhibitions or
shyness. Dan couldn't have been prouder of or happier for Gip. Being
around Waddie and Buck did exactly what he thought it might. Gip was no
longer shy about meeting anyone, would walk right up to a naked man and
introduce himself. So would Waddie, and they were included in
everything. They were not retiring or hiding behind their dads. Dan had
to admit if it hadn't been for the Friday evening naked poker games he
didn't know whether he could have done this or not. As it turned out,
the party was such a success he and Morgan felt very proud.
When Dan,
Morgan, Quinton and Gary came up with the idea they didn't know whether
they'd get a lot of flack or men not wanting to come and get naked.
Every man except six accepted as fast as they got their invitation
including the regular minister. One man was in the local hospital with
pneumonia, but there were five others who declined; the sheriff and
four of his deputies. They thought they should remain on duty in case
there were any disturbances from the party. There wasn't any
disturbances. No one missed the corrupt sheriff and his hand fed
deputies. No one else wanted to miss the party, and all were glad they
attended. It was talked about and laughed about for years afterward.
"There's never
been another bachelor party in this town like old Buck's." They'd all
say, "Yeah, I was there, naked as a jay bird. Had the time of my life.
Boy was old Buck surprised. T'weren't your usual bachelor party, that's
fer damn sure."
Waddie shared
with his brother Gip what he suggested to Buck about running for
sheriff. They came up with a unique plan to get the men at the party
talking about it. They placed themselves by men they knew were
influential in the community, and Gip would start their conversation.
"Ya’ know,
Waddie, — I been thinking ‘bout what we were discussing the other day,
and I think I really didn't understand what a great idea you had.
Our Uncle Buck would make one Hell of a sheriff for this county. I
think we should try'n convince him he could win?"
"Aww, I've
tried, brother, but he just laughs at me. Shoot,— I'm just a kid,
what the Hell do I know? But, I have to agree with you, Gip,—
Uncle Buck is the perfect man for the job of sheriff. It'll take more
than you and I to convince that hard headed uncle of mine he should run
for sheriff. He doesn't see himself the way other men see him as a
hero,— a good man,— a leader and someone loved by everyone in this
county. Why, the man's honest to a fault, and you can bet your
boots he wouldn't be running the department on graft." The
boys would agree, then start talking about rodeoing or something
else, but they would overhear the men talking.
"Hey, Joe! Ju'
hear what them kids were talking about? They got a damn good idea; Buck
Claymore running for sheriff. Hell, Buck would make a fine sheriff for
this county. One we could be proud of instead of that money grubbing
asshole we got now." Then several others would get going and
agree. Waddie and Gip would move to another group and start the
same conversation with the same result. The word spread through the men
like wildfire, and by the time Gip and Waddie got around to the
opposite side of the hall all the men were talking about it. They
thought it was not only a good idea but one whose time had come. They
all thought it was a fine idea, and several of the most important men
in the community approached Buck. Buck was no dummy. He knew where the
talk started, gave his evil eye to the two boys, but grinned real big.
He was proud they thought enough of him to get talk started. He
wouldn't talk much about it that night, but it sure started him
thinking.
There was a lot
of drinking, a lot of men got drunk, but there were no fights. There
were no words of temper exchanged they knew of. The men quickly found
out it's just real hard to be angry with a man when you're both
standing there buck ass naked. Whatever disagreement two of them might
have, the humor of their naked state overcame any hostility and
ended in them hugging and declaring their everlasting friendship for
each other.
The usual things
went on with a strip tease popping out of a cake. Every man there got a
hard-on and laughed at each other. Then they laughed at Waddie and Gip
because they did, too. The men were so loaded by that time nobody gave
a shit. The young lady was treated with respect, and almost died when
she saw the guest of honor's dick hard as a rock. It was the biggest
damn dick she'd ever seen on a man in her life, and she played it up
big time with Buck. She even told Buck, his bride to be had to be the
luckiest damn woman on the face of the earth. Buck blushed, and all the
men hooted and hollered.
"And I see your
boy is going to grow up just like his old man." she motioned to Waddie.
Waddie blushed but nobody told her any different. Waddie and Gip were
sitting next to Buck, and she played it up to them, too. Waddie blushed
along with his uncle and so did Gip. A good time was had by all, and
Waddie and Gip ended up the next morning with a very sick Buck Claymore
in his bed. They played nurse to him with aspirin and cold wash cloths
for his head 'til early afternoon. He was grateful to have the
boys there to help, and thanked Dan over and over for letting Gip stay
over with Waddie. Buck never was a drinker, and had a little too much.
He was paying for it half the day on Sunday. He missed church. So did
almost every man in town. They even had to bring in a substitute
minister because their regular minister attended and was too damn sick
for services. The women all looked at each other and snickered while
some clucked their tongues. They knew what went on. They didn't know
about the nudity, but they knew about the bachelor party; however,
because it was for one of the most beloved men in the community they
were willing to turn their heads the other way,— just this once.
* * * * * * *
The big day had
almost arrived. The wedding of the decade, some folks called it,
between Mr. Buckley Livingstone Claymore and Miss Linda Sue Davenport.
Every relative known to both families was invited. There was an open
invitation to the entire town in a full page announcement in the local
newspaper. Everyone was welcome and the town took the young couple to
their hearts. Judy and her two kids were noticeably absent, but, they
were invited. Buck insisted his brother's family be included, and they
were. They chose not to come. They didn't send regrets or a
congratulations card. Morgan didn't apologize for them. He knew he
didn't have to. Morgan was Buck's best man and Linda Sue asked her
younger sister, Mary Ann, to be her maid of honor. Of special note to
the entire town was the young, handsome ring bearer, Mr. Waddie
Claymore Lovejoy, Morgan Lovejoy's son and Buck Claymore's Godson.
The night before
the wedding Buck was a nervous wreck trying to tie up loose ends, but
Waddie was trying to calm him. Waddie insisted his uncle sit down and
breathe deeply several times while he held the huge man in his arms.
Waddie told Buck it would be all right. Waddie told him to calm down. A
small, almost, six year old boy was calming his mountain of an uncle.
It was a funny scene but not to them. Waddie didn't just call on his
uncle to calm down, he tapped directly into the little boy inside his
uncle and told him,
"Now calm down.
Everything's gonna' be just fine. Waddie guarantees it." The big man
calmed down and thanked his diminutive buddy. Buck hugged and kissed
Waddie and told him,
"Thank God,
you're here with me, sweet baby,— don't think your old uncle could've
made it through without you." Waddie knew damn well he could've but he
appreciated the sentiment.
"If you made it
through the war to come home to me and Aunt Linda you sure as Hell can
make it though your wedding!” Waddie roared with laughter at his
big buddy, “Come on, Uncle Buck, what you need is a good hot shower and
your nephew to scrub your back. It may be the last time he gets to
scrub your back but he's gonna' make damn sure he gets it really clean
for tomorrow."
"Let's do it,
Cowboy, but I guaran-damn-tee ya' it won't be the last time you scrub
your old uncle's back. Can you imagine me asking the lovely Miss Linda
Sue Davenport to scrub an old cowboy's back?" They both laughed.
"Damn, I'm
gonna' miss you, Uncle Buck, but I'm so happy for you I can't be sorry
or sad. When you love someone like I do you then you want happiness for
them, and I want that for you and Aunt Linda."
"Would you
believe me if it told you I was gonna' miss you a lot?"
"Sure I would,
but I don't want you to miss me. I'll be here when you get back. I want
you and Aunt Linda to have a wonderful honeymoon, and I ain't so young
I don't know what goes on, on a honeymoon."
"Oh, you do, do
you?"
"Yes, Sir, I
do,— and don't ask me to tell ya;' 'cause, if'n you don't know by now
you're up shit creek without a paddle, Son." Buck roared with laughter
at his nephew; especially, Waddie calling him, Son.
"Damn,— you're
growing up fast, Waddie. I talked with your dad about your wishes.
You're gonna' stay this last two weeks in June with mom and dad, your
grandma and granddad, and Friday afternoons, Dad Dan is gonna' pick you
up to spend the weekends with them and Gip. How's that sound?"
"Great, Uncle
Buck. I have a great time with Dad Dan, Momma Sue, and my brother.
They're like family to me. I know they think of you and Aunt Linda as
family, too."
"Well,— I hope
so. We think of them that way. I love Dan, Jimmy Sue and Gip and so
does Linda Sue. She thinks the world of them. They're damn good folks,
and they truly think of you as their second son." The two men were in
the shower, Waddie finished scrubbing his uncle's back, and they were
almost through. They rinsed, got out and toweled each other dry.
"I apologize,
cowboy,— I just gotta' pick my buddy up and carry him into bed one last
time before we part. It's important to this old buckaroo." Waddie
giggled at his uncle's silliness, but he knew a part of him was
serious. Buck never failed to steal a kiss on the way to the bedroom.
They got into bed, turned out the lights and Buck pulled Waddie up
tight to him. Waddie reached up and kissed his uncle gently on the
mouth. Buck returned it with equal gentleness.
"Gonna' miss
holding on to my little buddy, Waddie."
"I'll miss you
keeping me warm, Uncle Buck, but,— damn it,— don't talk like that.
Things may not be quite the same, but they'll be better in some ways,
too. Dad Dan told me that, and I agree with him."
"Dan's a wise
man. You can go to him with anything, Son."
"I know,— we're
both lucky to have him in our lives, Uncle Buck. I'm so proud of
you, and proud to be a part of your life." Waddie turned his head up to
Buck and kissed him with a lingering, gentle kiss.
"Waddie, if I
have a son, he could never take your place in my heart. Don't mean I
won't love him, but there'll always be a special place in my heart for
you. Goodnight, Son, I love you."
"Love you, too,
Dad."
* * * * * * *
The wedding came
off without a hitch. Dad Dan and Momma Sue were in the wedding. Gip was
an usher and performed his job with dignity and all seriousness. He and
Waddie kept winking back and forth to each other. Gip thought his big
brother was a knock out in his small white tuxedo and black cowboy
boots. (It was West Texas,— what the fuck did you expect?)
Waddie had the
wedding rings in his right jacket pocket. He kept checking every ten
minutes to make sure they hadn't jumped out. He performed his duty
without a flaw; except, when it came time for him to give his
uncle the rings, he found two massive hands lifting him up to hold him,
and his uncle stole a kiss. The audience all went, "aaawww."
"Uncle Buck,
this ain't the way it's suppose ta' go." Waddie whispered in a mock
upset tone.
"I know
that," Buck spoke in firm tones then lightened up, "I just wanted
to steal a kiss from my buddy who was so good to hold on to his Aunt
Linda's and my rings. You got 'em, Cowboy?"
"Yes, Sir,— here
they are." Waddie turned to his Aunt Linda as he handed her the ring
for his uncle.
"Aunt Linda, I'm
so proud to be a part of your wedding. I love you, and I'm so happy for
you." Linda Sue had tears in her eyes as she took his hand and spoke,
"I love you,
too, little one, and I'm proud to have you an important part of our
wedding. You'll always be an important part of our lives."
"You always did
love her more'n you did me." said Buck in a mock hurt tone. Buck stole
another kiss and giggled at Waddie's objections as he put him down,
turned him towards his dad and patted him on the butt to go to him. The
audience giggled and again went "aawwww." Morgan took Waddie's hand,
turned him around and held Waddie pressed back against him to watch. He
was so proud to watch his uncle and aunt finally tie the knot.
There was a huge
reception at the Grange Hall; the largest gathering place in town.
Everyone was there including Linda Sue's Aunt Agatha and her two
daughters, Clara and Zelma, who drove down from Dallas. Aunt Agatha was
charmed by Waddie, and asked him to sit with her for a while. She
seemed fascinated with him and thought his resemblance to his Godfather
was uncanny. Waddie got her and her daughters a piece of wedding cake
and some punch; then, he and Gip got some for themselves. Aunt Agatha
was impressed with the closeness of the two young boys who called each
other brother. They talked about all sorts of things and Aunt Agatha
asked Gip about a small red area behind his ear.
"Oh, that? It's
just a birthmark, Ma'am. It's a small one. Waddie has one on his right
leg that looks just like a cowboy boot. It's up further on his leg than
I suppose would be polite to discuss with a lady, Ma'am." Aunt Agatha
smiled and nodded.
"Well, Gip,—
that's very gentlemanly of you but I don't think the word 'groin' is
going to shock this old lady."
"Yes, Ma'am,—
that's pretty much where it is."
"I'd say that
was an unusual birthmark, indeed, Gip." Aunt Agatha smiled at Gip, and
raised an eyebrow at Waddie.
'She knows!'
thought Waddie, 'Lord help me, she knows. I saw the connection
cross her face. She knows I saw it, too. She knows I know she
knows! Oh, Lordy, what am I gonna' do? Think fast, Waddie!'
"Brother, that
cake was so good, would you mind getting your big brother another small
piece while I keep Aunt Agatha company."
"Sure, brother,—
be glad to. I'd like one, too. You,— Aunt Agatha?"
"I've had
enough, but thank you, young man, it was mannerly of you to
offer. I appreciate that." Gip left for more cake.
"Well done,
young man! Very diplomatic. So,— how long have you known, Waddie?"
"I almost died
about a year ago, Aunt Agatha. I can't talk about why I almost died,—
not because I don't know,— it's just too painful for me to talk about.
If you ask Aunt Linda or Uncle Buck they can tell you. A beautiful
angel came to me, and told me many things. He gave me a choice of
going with him to God or returning. He told me everything, Aunt Agatha.
He told me I had to return for my brother and his folks, but, most of
all, for Uncle Buck and Aunt Linda Sue. Until that time, I didn't
know about them, and thought I would have to live my life in the
horrible place I almost died in. I didn't want to live anymore, Aunt
Agatha. It was so bad, and no one loved me enough to care. The angel
told me who my real parents were, and I had to live for them, they need
me."
"Indeed, they
do, Waddie. Has it been hard for you, dear?" Waddie looked away in the
distance. A tear rolled down his cheek. "That answered my question,
child. And, from the look of panic on your face a minute ago I
take it you don't want me to say anything?"
"It's not time
yet, Aunt Agatha. The angel told me I had to wait."
"How long?"
"He didn't say
but I get the idea it's somewhere around my tenth or eleventh year."
"And you're how
old now?"
"You should know
that, Aunt Agatha." Waddie smiled sweetly at her.
"Of course, how
dense of me and how clever of you. You will be six years old the tenth
of next month. So we're looking at four to five more years. That's a
long time, Waddie."
"I know Aunt
Agatha, but I've lived with my uncle, slept in the same bed with him
for the last year. I've come to love him dearly. He loves me as much as
I love him, but he's unsure why. He feels guilty sometimes ‘cause he
loves me so much. Since he's my Godfather he thinks that makes me the
son the angel told him he had to come back for. You see,— the same
angel that came to me saved his life on Iwo Jima."
"Remarkable! I
believe you, Son. I believe every word; otherwise, you wouldn't have
known. I saw the minute your brother spoke of your birthmark you knew I
would know. I saw it flash across your face. Beyond that, it's just too
bizarre not to be true, and that,— sometimes,— is the way of miracles."
"I'll be around
my uncle constantly because we've developed interests together in
roping and rodeoing. He won't let that connection drop. He's all ready
invested a lot of interest in that for both of us. Aunt Linda Sue is
the hardest for me. She pines her heart away for her lost child while
he's sitting next to her holding her hand. She thinks my tears are
sympathy for her. Her pain hurts me deeply, and I only want to say to
her I have no bad feelings, Mom, I only want to love you. I did share
with her more than I should've. I told her one day she would again see
the boy she was missing so badly. I told her I couldn't tell her how I
knew, but if she trusted me and believed I wouldn't lie to her,— it
would happen. I swore her to secrecy."
"Waddie, you're
a most remarkable child. I don't want to keep your secret but I will if
you wish. However, you must allow me to tell my niece and her new
husband I am most impressed with you and for them to always be open to
you. But, most of all, since I am now privy to this information you
must allow me be your aunt. I have never wanted or needed to be a
child's aunt more in my life, and I think you could use an
understanding adult."
"That sounds
good to me, and I couldn't agree more, Aunt Agatha; you are, after all,
my Aunt Agatha." The matronly, dignified, refined lady took Waddie in
her arms hugged, kissed him and shed a tear. Her niece was looking
straight at her, saw the exchange and called her husband's attention to
it.
"Yes, child, I
am your great Aunt Agatha. Will you come visit me? We have much to
discuss. I want to know everything."
"I would love to
visit you Aunt Agatha, and tell you all. My angel never said I couldn't
tell my great Aunt Agatha. In fact I prayed for someone to discuss this
with, and he may well have sent you to me. The man who was my uncle's
best man is my dad who bought me from the hospital in Dallas. Would you
want me to bring him to you and introduce him."
"That would be
very nice but here's your brother with your cake. Enjoy that first. I
must get in line to congratulate my niece and her new husband."
Aunt Agatha
excused herself, and went though the reception line to congratulate the
happy couple. Linda Sue introduced her new husband to Aunt Agatha as
her beloved aunt whom she lived with while working in Dallas.
"I see you've
been charmed by Buck's Godson, Auntie Boo."
"I must tell the
two of you something." She made sure she had Linda Sue and Buck's full
attention. "He is an exceptional child. He has been touched by the hand
of God. I have long prayed to meet such a person, and now I have met
two. Your husband is the other, my dear niece. You are blessed my child
to have this man call you wife." She hugged Linda Sue and then hugged
Buck and kissed him on the cheek. "But, my most important message to
you is always keep your hearts and home open to that boy. He will, one
day, provide you with a miracle." Aunt Agatha turned and walked away in
tears.
Linda Sue looked
at Buck and neither knew what to make of Aunt Agatha's prediction.
"How does he do
it, Linda Sue? He charms everyone." asked Buck shaking his head.
"I know how he
does it. It's those big blue eyes people look into and see no end of
love inside him. I also think a lot of you has rubbed off on him in the
last year. I sometimes have a hard time figuring out where his
personality ends and yours begins and vice versa. While he's
definitely his own person it's like he wants to become you. He idolizes
you. He imitates you. He wants to be like you. I've never seen a kid so
in love with a surrogate parent."
"Ahh, but I'm
more than just a substitute, dear, I'm his Godfather. Morgan told me
half of him belongs to me." stated Buck.
"Which half?"
Linda Sue teased.
"Easy. The half
that loves me."
* * * * * * *
Aunt Agatha
returned to Waddie and Gip. She had more questions for Gip.
"And you, young
man, are one of the most handsome young men I've seen, and your parents
are friends of both the bride and groom, is that right?"
"Yes, Ma'ma,
Aunt Agatha, my mom right there, and my dad beside her were both in the
wedding and I was an usher."
"They're fine
looking people. I see where you get your good looks, and they've
accepted Waddie as your brother?"
"Oh, yes, Ma'am.
Waddie calls my dad, Dad Dan and my mother's name is Jimmy Sue. He
calls her Momma Sue."
"I think that's
wonderful. I can tell both of you are very much in love with each
other, and that's a wonderful thing. Guard that love carefully through
the years, and you'll be glad you did. It's also right that you should
call each other brother. You are brothers." Waddie put his arm around
Gip and pulled him close.
"Aunt Agatha is
a wise and kind lady, Gip."
"I agree,
Brother."
Waddie brought
Morgan over and introduced him to Aunt Agatha. She charmed and
flattered Morgan until she had him eating out of her hand. Then she hit
him with her question.
"I would like to
have your son visit me in Dallas for several days towards the end of
summer if you would see clear to allow him to do that. He is a
wonderful young man, and I would enjoy his company."
"Well, Ma'am,
he's currently in the charge of my brother Buck and his new wife, your
niece, I believe, until the end of summer when Waddie has said he'd
like to come back to live with me. Perhaps you could arrange something
with them. If it's all right with them then I have no problem. I'm sure
Waddie would enjoy a visit to Dallas."
"You are very
kind, Mr. Lovejoy. It's been a pleasure to meet you, and you have a
fine son you should be very proud of."
"Thank you,
Ma'am,— pleasure to meet you, too."
Aunt Agatha
returned to Linda Sue and her new husband.
"Mr. and Mrs.
Claymore, I understand Mr. Claymore's Godson is in your charge
until the end of summer. I'd like to have him come to Dallas for a
visit either the last week in July or the first week in August which
ever is more convenient for you and him. If you could arrange it I'd be
most grateful. I'll send a bus ticket and meet him when he arrives. He
told me he'd like to visit, and I think I would enjoy the young man's
company."
"Well,
certainly, Auntie Boo. Let me discuss it with my husband and we'll
contact you as soon as we return from our honeymoon. Will that be soon
enough?"
"That will be
fine, my dear. And, Mr. Claymore, it has, indeed, been a pleasure to
meet you, and it is with great honor and pride I welcome you to our
family. Our family is blessed, and you, Sir, have a most charming and
lovely bride. Of course, I'm a bit prejudice, my love for her is great."
"Thank you, Aunt
Agatha, for such generous words, and I'm also proud and honored to
become a part of your family. I'll try to live up to your expectations.
We'll surely make arrangements for our Godson to visit. I think he
would gain much wisdom from a visit with you."
Aunt Agatha
beamed. Buck captured her heart. She knew from the time Linda Sue
described him to her almost seven years ago he was the man for her.
This only confirmed it in her mind. She prayed to God to let her
witness a miracle, and he heard her prayer. He not only granted her
prayer, he made her a part of the miracle. She had a front row seat;
more than she ever hoped for.
She wondered
what else this remarkable child, Linda Sue's son by Buck Claymore would
have to tell her. She would pray daily for the child. God would listen,
he would forgive. He sent his angel to guide him. She must add Waddie
to her prayers, not only of thanks, but for protection and guidance for
this beautiful child. She returned to her two daughters and made
preparations to leave to return to Dallas. Aunt Agatha left the small
town with a full heart; so full she thought at moments it would
burst. Her daughters were amazed at her radiance. She positively
glowed. She looked ten years younger. Her daughters would gently
question her but the most she would tell them with tears falling from
her eyes was she became a part of a miracle that day; a wonderful,
beautiful miracle she had prayed for all her life. Aunt Agatha prayed
on the way home for God to let her live to witness this miracle. Then
she would have no regrets but with the fullest of hearts return to his
beloved arms as soon as he should call her name.
"What do you
make of that, dear?" Buck asked his bride.
"Auntie Boo has
her ways, darling. She's a shrewd but kindly woman who would hurt no
one. She did the same with me when I was young. She saw a lonely little
girl and took me under her wing. Obviously she senses in Waddie what we
all do. A fount of love within a hurt little soul who’s only now
learning how life and love should flow. He could do worse than a visit
with my Auntie Boo."
"Well, she
certainly is impressed with Waddie. Did you see, he reduced her to
tears? I wonder what she meant, he's going to provide us with a
miracle. As far as I'm concerned, he all ready has. I couldn't love a
kid more. I'm sorry I couldn't help myself from scooping him up in my
arms to give me the rings. I saw the unconditional love in his little
face when he looked at me to hand me the rings. I've stolen so many
kisses from him I just had to have one more. "
"I'm glad you
did, darling." Linda Sue kissed Buck, "When he turned to me and said
what he did my heart leaped to my throat. It was with such love and
honesty he said it. I'm glad you did, Buck. It made him feel all the
more included. Like we hadn't forgotten him in our joy."
* * * * * * *
Dan and Jimmy
Sue came over after all the commotion died down and asked the happy
couple when they planned to return. They didn't have a strict schedule
but around the first of July.
"We have to be
back for Waddie's birthday." replied Buck. "He's never had a birthday
party or cake for that matter. I, for one, plan to see he
doesn't miss another." He added quietly to Dan and Jimmy
Sue. They looked at each other, shook their heads in disbelief,
but agreed with Buck's resolve.
"Is his birthday
in July?" asked Jimmy Sue.
"Yes, the
tenth." replied Buck. Jimmy Sue looked at Dan and just shook her head.
"Gip's is the
eleventh." said Jimmy Sue like the amen to a prayer. All four stood
there quiet for a moment. The boys came running up and stood by Dan
Justin. He put his arms around a boy on each side and pulled them close.
"Did you know
your birthdays are within a day of each other?" Dan asked the boys.
"Oh, yes Sir,
Dad," spoke up Gip, "We've known since the first day we met. Why, is it
important?" The adults laughed at his honesty and innocence.
"Do you find
that a coincidence, cowboy?" Dan asked Gip.
"No Sir,— Waddie
and me figured it was God's way of saying, 'You're brothers, I want you
next to each other.'"
It wasn't the
answer any of the adults expected. They were stunned at the simplicity
but valid understanding of the boy's reasoning.
"I have no
doubt, that's exactly what he was trying to tell the two of you and us
slower adults as well. How could we have missed that? Thanks, men." Dad
Dan told the two of them while Buck, Linda Sue and Jimmy Sue shook
their heads and laughed. There was no doubt in their minds that's
exactly what God was trying to tell them. Linda Sue looked puzzled for
a moment and asked her husband,
"Buck, are you
sure Waddie's birthday is July tenth?"
"Yes,
dear, Morgan showed me his birth certificate. Why?"
"Oh, nothing.
It's just such an unusual coincidence his birthday and Gip's is one day
apart."
"Yes, but I'm
satisfied with the boy's answer. I believe it. You didn't see them the
first day they met. Them boys was like two old friends what ain't
seen one another for a while; yet, they picked up their
conversation and their love like they hadn't been apart more'n a few
minutes. Even Dan was impressed. Said he'd never see anything
like it before."
* * * * *
* *
The reception
was over, and it was time for the bride and groom to be off on their
honeymoon. Their bags were packed and loaded in the back of Buck's
brand new Ford car he bought two weeks before. There was the usual
throwing of rice, the boys tied tin cans to the rear bumper and Quinton
help them. He wrote in washable poster paint, Just Married, across the
back windshield. The young couple were off to explore the West. They
wanted to see Carlsbad Caverns, Las Vegas, Yellowstone, the Grand
Canyon and several other sights they listed. Buck was invited by his
old war buddy Audey Murphy to visit him in his home in Hollywood.
Everyone in the
two families, including the boys, helped clean the Grange Hall. No one
left until nightfall. Ma and Pa Claymore left with the Davenports to
the Claymore's to fix dinner for all the workers. It included Morgan,
the Justins, Dr. and Mrs. Dyer, the Ingersols, Quinton and his parents.
It was a sit down, family affair, and everyone was in great spirits.
"Waddie,— Gip?"
said Dad Dan, "Mrs. Claymore's not had time to pack a bag for Waddie so
would the two of you like to stay here tonight, and they'll bring you
out in the morning to the ranch." Waddie looked at Gip and knew it was
fine with him.
"Yes, Sir, Dad
Dan that would be fine with us." The Claymores were pleased. The boys
gave Ma Claymore a hand clearing the table while the adults talked and
had coffee. They even washed and dried the dishes for her. She was
thrilled to have the time to sit with her guests and join in the
conversation. The boys finished and came back in to stand next to Dad
Dan. He put an arm around them.
"Say what they
will. Got my arms around the best two boys in the county." Then he
stole a kiss from both. "Here, here!" agreed the rest of the adults.
Dr. Dyer had a couple of comments.
"I can't believe
the way Waddie has developed in the last ten months since I first met
him in the hospital. My Lord, the way you've grown, Waddie. You're
going to be bigger than your uncle. I'll give your dad credit Waddie,
he did the right thing by allowing you to stay with the Claymores. No
one can doubt the love in their home or their love for you."
"Well, I'll tell
y'all one damn thing,"said Quinton, "in three years ain't nobody in the
state of Texas, man or boy, what's gonna' beat the two of 'em at
roping. You're looking at two fine cowboys who are gonna' make history
for this little town." The boys blushed and Quinton winked at them.
Everyone said
their goodbyes, and the Claymores promised to have the boys out early
the next morning.
" No rush." Dad
Dan told them.
"You boys want
more dessert?" Ma Claymore asked.
"Not me. You
want anymore, Gip?" Waddie ask him.
"No, Ma'am. I'm
about ready to drop. If'n you don't mind I think we'd like to go up,
shower and go to bed."
"Fine. I'll pack
Waddie's bag in the morning. Now,— I know the rules. You boys won't be
disturbed unless we holler up first. I'll wait 'til you come down
tomorrow morning to go up and pack Waddie's clothes."
"Thanks, Ma
Claymore." the boys replied, hugged her and Pa Claymore goodnight. They
ran off up the stairs to Buck's room.
"Damned if they
ain't just like Morgan and Buck, Hon."
"Yes, but Pa,
there's something special about them two boys."
"I know what
chu' mean, Mother. They grab your heart and don't let go."
* * * * * * *
"Should we sleep
in our room across the hall or Buck's bed?" asked Gip.
"Where would you
like to sleep, little brother?" Waddie took Gip in his arms and kissed
him on his forehead.
"Buck's bed, of
course. I miss him all ready, and I know you must. At least we can
sleep with his smell all around us." Gip confessed to his brother.
"I don't miss
him 'bad.' I do miss him but I want to miss him 'good.' I want to be
glad for him and Aunt Linda that they're going to have a great time
together. Then, too, I have my little brother to help me over any
sadness, and you're big brother will do his best to see you though."
Waddie kissed him again gently. Gip turned his head up to Waddie and
they kissed a deep and lingering kiss in each other's arms.
"See, that
helped a lot all ready. Let's get our clothes off and try that again."
Waddie suggested to Gip. They threw their clothes off and stood naked
in front of each other looking. They stood there for several minutes
admiring the beauty of each other's perfect young bodies. Finally,
Waddie held out his arms to Gip, and he came to Waddie. Waddie held him
in an embrace.
"I love you,
Waddie." said Gip softly.
"That makes me
feel so good to hear you say that, little brother, and I love you
more'n words can tell."
"Ain't never had
nobody love me like you do. My parents love me like their son, and I
love them, too. But there's something special about you loving me and
me loving you. I'm always so proud when I'm with you, and everyone in
town knows you're my best buddy, my brother, my friend."
"Don't you think
I feel the same way about chu,' Gip? If there's any doubt in your mind
let me know so's I can tell you hundreds of times, if necessary, of my
love for you. If I didn't have you, Gip, I wouldn't want to go on
living. I think about you morning, noon and night. Uncle Buck gets mad
sometimes when he's trying to talk seriously about something, and all I
can talk about is you. I love you, too, cowboy, with all my heart.
Don't never doubt my love, Gip. One of the reasons I came back and
didn't go with the angel to live with God was because of you. He showed
you to me, told me your name, and I would call you, 'Gip.' I didn't
make that up,— I didn't give you that name,— the angel told me."
"I guess that's
the real reason I love you so much, Waddie, is you prove to me every
day how much you love me. You put me first before yourself all the
time, and try your damnedest to make sure I'm happy. You do a wonderful
job, too, I might add. When we're roping you encourage me, but when I
miss you don't criticize me. You tell me, 'It's all right, Buddy, let
that one go, you'll get the next one.' It makes me try all the harder
to win your praise, and when I do make the catch you lavish me with
praise. You don't take none for yourself, when you made your catch.
We're a team."
"I know, Gip,
but I don't need a lot of that. Seeing you make a good catch, seeing
how you beam with pride when I tell you, you done good, makes my heart
beat faster in my chest, and I can't wait to get my cowboy's clothes
off of him and hold him in my arms like this." Waddie gently nuzzled
Gip to get him to kiss him again, and he did. They kissed another kiss
that was more passionate and caused each of their dicks to grow hard.
Gip reached down and took hold of his brothers dick and moved the
foreskin back and forth which sent Waddie to his tippy-toes.
"Easy, cowboy.
You know how sensitive you are. Let's get in the shower and clean up.
It's been a hot day and it's going to be a warm night. I need to scrub
my little brothers back."
"I know I need
to scrub my cowboy's back." said Gip, and the two boys went off, arms
around each other to the shower. Waddie learned if he adjusted both
shower heads a certain way the stream of water would crisscross each
other, two could stand in the middle, and neither would have more of
the water than the other. He carefully adjusted the temperature to
Gip's preference, a bit warmer than he preferred but he'd soon get use
to it. They stood for a while in an embrace, then soaped their cloths
and washed each other.
Gip loved to
wash Waddie's penis. He knew how sensitive it was to Waddie. He
would carefully pull back the foreskin and clean him with little or no
discomfort. There was always some, but he had become so good at it,
Waddie told him he'd rather Gip do it than do it himself. Of course he
always got roaring hard. Gip could see Waddie was going to be as
large as his uncle or larger. Gip would allow Waddie to wash his
penis. He was not as sensitive as Waddie, but the mental idea of having
his cowboy, big brother, holding his penis and wash it for him with all
the gentleness in the world caused him to get an erection every time.
It didn't help any when his big brother would stand behind him, put his
big arms around in front of him, kiss him behind his ear and run his
tongue down his neck while doing it either.
Waddie would
kiss Gip's back in a certain spot that would make Gip want to collapse
in Waddie's arms in ecstacy. As they rinsed they would make the
sweetest love, and sometimes, Gip had the feeling he was going to
overflow with his love for Waddie. That's the only word he knew to
describe the feeling he had. As they were drying each other, Gip asked
Waddie about it.
"Waddie,
sometimes when we're making love and kissing I feel like my love for
you is going to overflow out of my body. Have you ever had that
feeling?"
"Almost every
time we make love, Gip."
"I've never felt
anything like it before but I stop just before overflowing."
"Do you think it
would feel good to overflow?"
"I don't know. I
guess I'm afraid because I don't know what would happen if I did
overflow. Have you ever overflowed?"
"Yeah, Gip, lots
of times."
"What does it
feel like, brother?"
"You described
it best. You overflow. It’s an overflowing sensation, but it's
wonderful. After you 'overflow' you feel so relaxed, at peace with
yourself and the world, nothing can touch you. It's almost like God
reaches down, puts his hand on you and makes this wonderful feeling go
through your body. It kinda stretches out the person you call 'you'
inside, and makes you realize what a hug from God must feel like. It
almost becomes a sacred thing, or at least it does to me 'cause I
always remember to thank him right after. It's best to do it in
someone's arms because you have them to share the experience, and it
makes your souls stretch out together."
"Did someone
teach you about this, Waddie?"
"Now what do you
think?" Waddie smiled real big at Gip.
"You're lucky to
have an uncle like Buck."
"Well, he didn't
exactly teach me. It happened by accident the first time we showered
together. Then he showed me how by doing it to himself, but grown men
have an extra benefit we don't have."
"What's that,
Waddie?"
"Well,— remember
when you felt Buck's big balls, you also felt your dads, and they told
you one day you'd have them, too?"
"Yeah."
"Well, they
produce tiny little critters that makes a women pregnant to have a
baby, and they're called sperm. Well,— when they 'overflow,' they call
it 'coming,' they shoot a lot of it out of their dicks, and it flies
all over the place. It feels twice as good to them because when they
'overflow' they really overflow. When we do it we can have the same
feeling, but won't have the sperm come out because our balls haven't
descended into our ball sack yet."
"When will that
happen?"
"When we're
about eleven or twelve. Some guys as early as ten, and some as late as
thirteen. Depends on the guy, his body and how fast he's maturing."
"What do they do
after it flies all over the place?"
"Well, they
usually take a towel and clean it off themselves, but I think that's
such a waste."
"Why, cowboy?"
"'Cause I love
the way it tastes. I love Uncle Buck's come."
"You've tasted
his 'overflow'?"
"It's called
'come,' Gip. Yep, his come flies all over the place and sometimes gets
on me. I take my finger, wipe it up and put it in my mouth. Uncle Buck
got kinda upset the first time he caught me doing it. I told him if it
landed on me it was only fair that it was mine to do with as I wanted,
and since I loved the taste,— it was mine to eat."
"Gosh, that's
kind of exciting. What's it taste like, Waddie?"
"It tastes like
Uncle Buck. It's like,... like,.... tasting his smell or his presence.
Like now, laying here, we smell him all around us and his come has his
distinct flavor. He grumbled and tried to be angry with me when he
caught me tasting his come, but I could tell he was trying hard not to
smile. I could tell he was actually proud I liked the taste of his
come. Told me he used to love to eat my dad's come. Said he couldn't
get enough of it. Use to sit in class in high school dreaming of how my
dad's come tasted and get a big hard-on,— then get home and almost rape
my dad to suck his come out of him for another taste.
After about the
fifteenth time he saw how much I was enjoying it he asked me if I
wanted a big ole glob of it. He fed it to me off his finger, and man
was it good. Now if we jack off together he always takes pity on me,
and feeds me a little. I'd eat it all if he'd let me, and he knows it.
He thinks I'm too young for that, and I appreciate his guidance. He's
never been wrong yet. At least he tells me about anything I want to
know and tells me the truth. I can take whatever he tells me to the
bank. H’it don't mean I don't beg him for more, though, 'cause
once in a great while he gives in."
"Dad don't tell
me much about that sort of thing."
"Bet he would if
you asked him, hon. I have a feeling you and me could talk to Dad Dan
about anything, and it wouldn't bother him. I'll bet you he'd be just
like my uncle. He'd tell us the straight skinny with no bullshit."
"Can you teach
me to, come?"
"Sure, if you
like. Be happy to. I can tell you what to look for and how it should
feel. I'd like to show you with my mouth if you'd trust me."
"You mean, put
my dick in your mouth."
"Of course,
we're buddies ain't we. I just cleaned yours and know it ain't dirty.
You know how you wanted to feel me all those months and were afraid.
Well, I've wanted to taste you all these months; take you in my mouth."
"I don't know if
I could do that,...I mean take someone in my mouth. Maybe you but
nobody else."
"I wouldn't ask
you to until you were sure you wanted to. Just 'cause I taste you don't
mean I expect you to taste me. What kinda buddy would I be to talk you
into something you weren't ready for. I'd never do that, Gip. Just like
the touching, if'n you never want to taste me I ain't never gonna' love
you any less, but it ain't gonna' do you no harm to see if you like me
tasting you. If you do it's just another way I can show you how much I
love you."
"Well, let me
think about it for a while. Roll over on your stomach and let me rub
your back."
"Oh,— you know
you don't never have to ask Waddie twice to do that."
Gip began to rub
Waddie's back, Waddie relaxed and closed his eyes. The hot shower and
the warm air from the hot summer night relaxed him.
"Waddie, can I
ask you 'bout something that's been bothering me?"
"Sure, Gip, you
know I'd tell you about anything you asked me."
"What does Aunt
Agatha know about you and your birthmark I don't?"
Waddie froze. He
knew his brother was a sharp kid, and there wasn't much that got by
him. Every muscle in Waddie's body tensed. Gip could feel it through
his hands and realized he’d probably bought up something that maybe he
shouldn’t have. Waddie was chagrined, what was he going to tell
Gip? He couldn't lie to his brother.
"Gip, would you
trust me to tell you I want to tell you in the worst way, but I can't.
The angel told me some things, but he made me promise not to tell
anyone. I haven't,— but when you told Aunt Agatha about my birthmark it
triggered a memory in her, she put two things together, and by
accident, discovered one of the major things the angel told me not to
tell anyone. I think he sent her to me so I could talk to an adult
about it and not keep it bottled up inside me."
"The angel told
you not to tell anyone, not even me,— your best buddy? I would never
tell a soul. I've told you things I know you'd never tell and you have
to me, too. Oh,— but, wait a minute,— okay,— I see. That's
not right! I wasn’t think’n this out all the way. I really
can't expect you to go against your word to one of God's messengers
'cause if’n you did then I really couldn't trust you either. I'm
sorry, Waddie, I shouldn't have asked. I shouldn't have put you
on the spot like that. I'll leave it alone."
"No, no,— it's
all right, darlin.' Don't chu' think I've wanted to tell you in
the worst way? It hasn't been easy keeping this secret from you.
Damn,— now I feel so bad because it's something I would love to tell
you as my buddy, my brother, and my love. It's something I need
to tell you,— of all people. I need to share it with someone who loves
me. God help me, Gip, please believe me, I want to tell you, but I
can't."
"Uhhh,— WADDIE?"
"Yes, Gip?"
"Uhhh,— we ain't
alone in the room anymore, brother!"
"What chu’ you
talking about, Gip?"
"You better take
a look. I think it's your angel, Waddie."
"Waddie turned
to look and saw the light from Mr. Urial standing there."
"Don't be
frightened, Gip." Waddie took Gip in his arms, "It's Mr. Urial, my
angel. You can see him, too?"
"Ye...ye..
yes...., Waddie,... I,... I can see him."
"He's a good
angel, Gip. He's our friend."
"Hi, Mr. Urial,
nice to see you again, Sir." Waddie hailed him.
"Nice to see you
young man, and this fine looking young man is the young man you
returned for whom you call 'Gip,' I believe?"
"Yes, Sir, Mr.
Urial. Say 'hello,' Gip, he won't hurt you. He's an angel."
"Hello, Mr.
Urial." said Gip quietly, “Good ta’ meet’cha, Sir.”
"Hello,
Gip! You have a wonderful, young man for a buddy, a brother and
beloved friend. Always trust him, he'll never betray your trust. He'll
never lie to you, Son. At the darkest moments in your life he'll be
there for you. He wasn't trying to hold out on you as a friend. I did,
indeed, tell him not to tell anyone, but I sent his Aunt Agatha for him
to talk to. Since you decided to trust his word that his angel told him
he couldn't tell, my Boss told me I could allow him to tell you what he
knows. The Almighty One told me you can be trusted not to tell anyone.
Certain things have to come to pass, but if you did tell anyone, it
could upset the balance of the future. It could be disastrous.
Can you keep his secret if he tells you, Gip?"
"Yes, Sir,— I
know I can, Sir. I love Waddie too much to ever betray him."
"I believe you,
Son, and so does my Boss. Waddie if you want to share it with your
brother, you may, but we still expect you to share with your Aunt
Agatha. You will visit her the last week in July and have a good time.
She will help you, Son. She's a wise and strong women whom God has
chosen to bless. You may go with him Gip if your parents will allow;
since you will all ready know what she knows.
By the way, men,
that bit you two pulled at Buck's bachelor party with the conversation
about Buck running for sheriff went way beyond the Old Man's
expectations. The heavens shook for two days from His laughter. He
thought that was a little bit of heaven himself. He's told your story
to all the saints and laughed every damn time.
So that's also
why He wants Gip to share this with you, Waddie. It'll make it easier
for you. You're going to discover Gip has inner strengths neither of
you would ever guess. He will lead you by the hand through this,
Waddie, trust him. He will, one day, save your life.
Now I must leave
you. God has blessed both of you. Love and cherish one another.
When you teach Gip to 'overflow' tonight, Waddie, hold him tightly
afterward and pour your love into him. He'll be confused, but your love
will show him the way. He'll call out to you his name of love for you
alone, and it will bond you as brothers. Even though you were
born of different parents, God has made you brothers."
"Thanks, Mr.
Urial. Thanks a lot! Good to see you again, Sir."
"Goodnight, men,
sleep peacefully knowing His love surrounds you, and hold each other
close against the darkness of the night." Mr. Urial raised one
hand in goodbye and winked out like a nightlight.
Waddie held Gip
who was almost too afraid to breathe. He kissed Gip behind his ear to
bring him around to reality.
"I promise,
Waddie,— I won't never doubt you again about anything. I believed you
about seeing an angel, but I thought it was something you may have
thought you saw or heard. Oh,— my brother,— I'm so sorry. Can you ever
forgive me?"
"Hey, hey,
cowboy. There's nothing to forgive. I would love you if you told me I
was full of shit. At least you tried to believe me, and some folks
don't. Uncle Buck does 'cause he's seen him, too. Mr. Urial saved his
life on Iwo Jima. Told Uncle Buck he couldn't die because he had a son
to live for, and he thinks it's me, his Godson. That's the secret, Gip;
the angel really meant he had a real son to live for he doesn't know
about. If the angel told him he had a 'Godson' then that would have
meant me, right?"
"Yes, I
understand, but where's Uncle Buck's real son?"
"I'm getting to
that. Remember the 'come' I told you about a man shoots inside a woman
to get her pregnant so she'll have a baby."
"Un-huh."
"Before Uncle
Buck left for the war, he and my Aunt Linda didn't know if he would
come home or not. He could've possibly been killed and not come home.
Aunt Linda wanted to sleep with him because he'd never been with a
woman before. She didn't want him to die without ever having shot his
come inside a woman. Well they did."
"And did she get
pregnant?"
"You're
following just fine, Gip. No, because Uncle Buck didn't want her to get
pregnant. If he got killed in the war then she would have to raise his
kid alone, and he loved her too much to burden her with that
responsibility. She was so young she could've found another man to be
her husband if Uncle Buck didn't come home. He agreed to sleep with her
if he could wear a rubber or condom. Do you know what that is?"
"Yeah, dad
showed me one and told me what they were for. Told me not to pick up
one that was used and try to use it for a balloon."
"Yeah, well, Dad
Dan was right 'cause they usually have a man's come in them. You don't
want to mess with old come. Fresh come out of your buddy, fine; old
come in a rubber, no."
"So your uncle
wore one and it caught his come so your Aunt Linda couldn't get
pregnant."
"Damn, you're
sharp, Gip. That's exactly right. Uncle Buck goes to the restroom in
the motel, takes off the rubber full of his come, and drops it into the
trash can next to the toilet."
"Oh, no! She
didn't...!" Gip put his hand over his mouth in awe.
"Yes, she did,
Gip! She got it out of the trash, and put some of his sperm inside her
'cause she loved him so much she didn't care. Even if something
happened to him she would still have his baby."
"So now she's
pregnant, and your uncle goes off to war not knowing, right?"
"Shit, Gip, you
could almost tell this story. What happens next?"
"Aunt Agatha
lives in Dallas. I know your aunt went to live with her in Dallas to
work. Linda Sue has second thoughts about the baby, and.... "
"Damn, you're
really sharp, brother, lemme’ help you out here. She's afraid if Buck
comes home, finds out she had his baby and went against his wishes he
might not trust her anymore. He might be angry with her, and not want
to marry her. She decided she and Buck can have other children if he
comes back so she'll give this baby up for adoption; however, instead
of legal adoption she lets the nurses in the hospital find a home for
the child, and signs all the papers showing the adopting parents as
having given birth to the baby. Actually, they sold the baby to
the new parents. The head nurses' cousin had a nephew, a man, who
couldn't have children who was looking for a boy to adopt or buy, and
he bought the boy to be his own son."
"Oh, no, Waddie?
No fucking way! Oh, my God! Morgan was the man who bought the baby, and
that baby was..." Gip started crying in Waddie's arms. Sobbing in
sorrow and sympathy for his beloved brother whom he realized he was,
only now, just beginning to know. What pain Waddie must have suffered,
and now that he knew, not being able to tell must be horrible for him.
How could this boy be that strong? He was no older than Gip. Gip knew
he couldn't. He couldn't be as strong as Waddie. Then he began to see
the strength inside Waddie was what he fell in love with the first day
Waddie took him in his arms. Waddie’s strength of purpose never
let a doubt enter Gip's mind Waddie was going to love Gip, and Gip was
going to love him. This revelation doubled Gip's love for his brother.
Something clicked inside Gip, and he felt a wellspring from deep within
his gut that told him he could be strong, and he would share this
burden with his brother. He wanted to know, and damn it, now that
he did know he was going to be strong for his brother.
"There, there,
sweet baby,... go ahead and say it. Trust me, it will help you
understand."
"The baby Morgan
bought from the nurses was you, Waddie,— my brother and best buddy,— my
friend. That means Morgan ain't your dad, Judy ain't your mom and those
two awful kids of hers are no relation to you whatsoever. The angel was
right when he told your uncle he had a son to live for. It was you, but
you're also his Godson. No wonder Aunt Agatha was impressed and
stunned. She was a changed woman after she talked with us, but what did
the birthmark have to do with anything?"
"Before my mom,
Linda Sue, gave me to the nurses she saw two birthmarks on her baby. A
large mole on my big toe and the cowboy boot birthmark on my right leg
next to my groin. She told Aunt Agatha when she returned to her home,
and she remembered all these years. She was suspicious because of Buck
and me looking so much alike."
"That’s
fantastic! So your uncle has no idea you even exist as his son."
"No, he knows we
have something very powerful and strong between us, but he doesn't know
why. He loves me like I was his own son. What he doesn't know is,— I am
his son."
"And, you've
known for...?"
"Almost a year,
Gip. It'll be a year on our birthdays."
"When can you
tell them? When can they know?"
"That's the hard
part. I can't tell them and neither can you. We can't tell anyone.
Things have to happen the way they're suppose to or it will alter the
way things turn out in the universe. I don't understand it, and I don't
expect you to either. We just have to accept what Mr. Urial tells us. I
don't know when this is all to happen, but I get the idea it's to occur
in my tenth or eleventh year."
"My God, Waddie,
lemme' see,— six, seven, eight, nine, ten,— " Gip counted on his
fingers, "You mean you have to go four or five more years with Morgan
as your dad living with those awful people?"
"Yes, but you
have to understand, up 'til a year ago Morgan was the only dad I knew,
and I loved him. This may sound strange, under the circumstances, but I
still love Morgan as my dad. You can't turn love on and off, Gip. Do
you think you could walk out of this room and forget about me
overnight?"
"Oh, God, no,
Waddie, don't even talk like that. I wouldn't want to live without you."
"Well, maybe you
can understand why I love Morgan. Morgan ain't all bad. He's got a lot
of problems he hasn't dealt with, but I think he's trying. The angel
told me I'd have to get several more beatings from Morgan before the
time comes for them to find out about me, but my angel will be there,
he'll put his hand on me, and I won't feel anything. I won't even cry.
I haven't told you some of the other good things that's gonna'
happen. You and I are going to have two more
wonderful, loving brothers who will become a part of our family. You
and I are going to have open season on Willie. There's something
we get on Willie that's gonna' blow him out of the water."
"Like what?"
"Don't know
exactly but I trust Mr. Urial and you should, too."
"I do, Waddie. I
trust you first and him second."
"Well, it should
probably be the other way around, but I don't think Mr. Urial would
mind. He's an understanding kind of guy. I know he must've scared the
piss out of you. He did me several months ago. After the first day I
met you, Uncle Buck and I were riding back in his truck. We were
talking about thanking Mr. Urial for saving Uncle Buck's life, bringing
him and me together, and all of a sudden Mr. Urial was sitting next to
me. I told Uncle Buck I damn near pissed my pants. I want you to be
sure and remember to tell Buck you met Mr. Urial. He'll believe you."
"Did your uncle
see him?"
"No, but he knew
he was there. Once he’s appeared to you, you kinda get this sixth
sense when he’s around. Uncle Buck thanked him for saving his
life and bringing us together. He did see the seat was indented where
Mr. Urial's butt was sitting, and saw it spring back when he
disappeared. Uncle Buck don't never doubt me anyway. I wouldn't never
tell that man a lie or your dad either for that matter."
"Dad's convinced
you never would. So am I, Waddie. I love you more'n ever now, Waddie."
"How 'bout
letting Waddie show you his love. Lay back there on the bed on that big
pillow."
Before Gip knew
what was happening Waddie took him in his mouth and was sucking on him
like he was an all day sucker. Gip squirmed under him but couldn't deny
he found the sensation unbelievably sensual. Waddie stopped for a
moment.
"Want me to
stop, cowboy?"
"God, no,
Waddie, I love it."
"Now,... when it
starts to feel really good, you don't think you can stand anymore,
relax, let your body go limp and let Waddie do the rest. Trust me now."
"I will, Waddie."
"Waddie started
in again, and he could tell the way Gip was responding to him it wasn't
going to be too long before Gip would be 'overflowing' as he put it. It
was a good description. He sucked and sucked on Gip's beautiful penis.
He knew all he had to do was pull Gip’s foreskin back, and it was
orgasm time for his buckaroo buddy. He slowly reached his hand down to
Gip’s dick. Before Gip could figure out what he'd done Waddie
pealed him back all the way and was sucking on his exposed head. Gip
breathed deeply three times, remembered what his brother told him, he
relaxed, and Waddie took him home as he felt his friend’s body start to
shake then shudder three times in quick succession. Gip's body went
limp. It had been accomplished. Gip had his first orgasm.
Waddie moved up
immediately, took his limp brother who lay in a daze into his arms, and
began to kiss him gently on his mouth. Waddie felt Gip slowly
begin to respond to him, and he start to make love back to Waddie. The
angel was right. Gip was spent, and totally confused. He didn't know
whether he liked the feeling or not until he felt his cowboy pouring
his love into him and filling him with the sweetness that only Waddie's
strength could give him.
What he did for
Gip suddenly became a prized and beautiful experience for him. It was
better than coloring within the lines. It was the gentle kiss of your
dad as he told you goodnight. It was like standing on a hill on a windy
day with a kite string pulling at your heart. It was going down hill
with your feet on the handlebars of your bike. It was riding in the big
saddle of your dad's roping pony. It was your mom slipping you a fresh
baked brownie behind your dad's back. It became a physical confirmation
of Waddie's love for him, and he felt the goodness and fullness of
life. He felt rich beyond measure to have this handsome young buckaroo
for his brother. There were no words in Gip's limited child vocabulary
to describe the sensation and the hunger with which he consumed
Waddie's seemingly endless outpouring of love for him. He could never
imagine any human ever showing him this much love and attention. His
soul popped to the surface like a fishing cork after being thrown into
the water. He was back now, floating in the stream of life with Waddie
and loving him in return.
"Oh, Waddie! Oh,
Waddie! Thank you, Waddie! Oh, thank you, my cowboy! Thank you, Clay, I
love you so much." Waddie paused for a moment and knew without asking
that would be Gip's secret name of love for him, Clay. Clay for
Claymore. Waddie liked that. It made him feel recognized as Buck's son.
He needed that, and his brother was providing it. Gip felt it! He knew
it! A voice had come to Gip's ear and whispered,
“This is your
brother, Clay. Call him by this name, and you will forever be
bonded together as brothers.”
Gip had no
questions for the voice. Gip knew it was meet and right so to do to
call his beloved cowboy, Clay. Gip called him that several more times.
It lit Waddie's fire each time. It poured into Waddie not only Gip's
love but his compassion and understanding as his undeniable soul mate.
Gip was confirming Waddie's existence; his place in the universe. Gip
didn't need Waddie's verbal conformation, he had all the positive feed
back he could handle.
Years later, in
intimate moments, or if Gip wanted Waddie to know how serious he was,
he would quietly call him Clay and Waddie would melt. It was a name
known only to them and ultimately Buck when he overheard Gip call
Waddie, Clay one time. He knew why Gip was calling Waddie, 'Clay' and
never betrayed their trust. Waddie had his name for Gip. It, too, was
sacred unto them. That name no one but them has ever known, and Waddie
will take it to his grave to be spoken once again to call his beloved
brother to his arms on the other side. There will be no more need for
rain, the brothers two, will be as one again.
* * * * * * *
Mr. and Mrs.
Buck Claymore's honeymoon was picture book perfect. Buck and Linda Sue
took their time. They didn't rush to do anything. They spent two days
with Audie Murphy in the Hollywood hills, and he showed them the sights
of Hollywood. He took them to the Brown Derby for dinner and they saw
several stars Audie introduced them to. They were as interested in Buck
being Audie's buddy as he and Linda Sue were in them. Audie was still a
bachelor, and wouldn't marry for sometime. They left Los Angeles,
headed to Las Vegas, and spent several of their last days there. They
had several more days to go on their honeymoon before they were to
return. They found a wonderful restaurant in one of the casinos and
were having a quiet dinner.
"Having a good
time, dear?" Buck asked Linda Sue quietly.
"Just being with
you is a good time for me, Buck. Do you remember telling me it was best
we began together and learned as we went along?"
"Yes, I remember
the night well. It was a beautiful night. One I thought of many times
while wet, cold, hungry and dirty in the trenches of France and on Iwo
Jima."
"You were right,
darling. You have learned and taught me so much I no longer feel
inadequate. I had fears, Buck."
"Nonsense! If
anyone taught anyone, it was you taking an old shit-kick’n cowboy and
making him feel like a prince. Darlin' you're living proof the
old saying was wrong. You have turned a pig's ear into silk
purse. Every time, I only want to get better for you."
"Believe me, my
love, you do get better every time. I keep thinking this time
can't be better than the last, but,— somehow,— it always is. You
do that to me, Buck, and that only compounds my love for you;
however, for all the love and play,...of going and seeing,...." Linda
Sue didn't finish her sentence but looked away to her side then played
with the napkin in her lap.
"There's
something missing." Buck quietly stated. Linda Sue didn't know whether
to confirm his statement or not. She didn't want to seem ungrateful or
totally committed in her love for her husband.
"Glad you
brought it up, darlin.' For all my medals for heroism, I didn't have
the guts to bring the subject up. Some hero, huh?" Buck laughed and put
his hand on Linda Sue's.
"We've seen and
done enough, sweetheart. What we're missing is a little blue-eyed body
of love back in our hometown who we both are drawn to like a damn
magnet. I won't deny it, and I know he's what you're trying to talk to
me about."
"You're right,
Buck. The only word that comes to mind is we 'need' him in our lives. I
didn't really realize how much I needed him until we were away about a
week, and then something inside me started nagging, and gnawing at me
like I'd left my own child behind. I tried to be up for you and have a
good time but,..."
"There are no
'buts' about it, my love. I knew from the second day we were at Audie's
where your heart was. It was with me, too. You never stopped your flow
of love to me, and I tried not to let you see the hole in my heart. I
went overboard trying to see to it we had a good time. We have! Bottom
line darlin,'— we're hopelessly in love, not only with each other, but
with a bright, little, six year old boy. I couldn't be happier to admit
to either. Let's go home to our baby, he needs us. I made a commitment
to a frightened little boy, I'd love and protect him as if he were my
own. I didn't count on falling this deeply in love, but how could any
feeling person help falling in love with him. I couldn't love a kid
more even if he were my own.'"
Linda Sue
Claymore started crying into her napkin. Her big husband put his hand
on hers to calm her.
"I love you so
much, Buck. I'm proud to be your wife and call you husband. I feel
exactly the same way. I have to nurture that child some way; try to be
the mother he never had. Let's go home, Buck."
The newlyweds
had their honeymoon and were ready for life together. They drove
directly from Las Vegas and were home three days ahead of schedule. It
was no surprise to Ma and Pa Claymore or the Davenports who just
happened to be having lunch at the Claymore's with Ma and Pa Lovejoy
and their soon-to-be six year old grandson. The adults made bets as to
when Mr. and Mrs. Buck Claymore would be rolling in. Ma Davenport won.
She announced they would arrive shortly before lunch today. In fact,
she insisted they set out two more places at the table for them. Good
thing they did. No one but the six year old boy was surprised. He
couldn't believe it. His birthday and Christmas had come early. The two
most wonderful people in his world were back early from their
honeymoon. Unbeknownst to them, his mom and dad, his parents had come
home to him.