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Marigold, Part 6
by
Vulgar Argot
(NC, blackmail, MF, FF, MFF, DS, light bondage)
Marigold awake with a fuzzy
head and aches in muscles that, while she'd been aware than she had them,
she'd never expected that they would be used in quite the way they had. She had slept so soundly that she hadn't moved
at all. Now, she had a sharp crick in her neck. She also felt an unpleasant
stickiness than didn't bear investigation.
Struggling into a sitting
position, she looked around the room fuzzily. Early morning light slanted in
from the window. She could hear
She stood up, stretching
and arching her back to get some of the cricks out of it.
"I didn't wake you,
did I?"
"Good," he said,
"Before I forget, I have a present for you. I meant to give it to you
last night, after dinner. But, I seem to have gotten distracted." He
left the room and came back with a long white box tied with string. Marigold
looked at him inquisitively as he held it out.
"Take it," he
said, "Open it."
Marigold liked being
ordered to take a gift. It saved her the guilt and unease normally associated
with the process. Once the strings were off and the box open, she slid out a
red silken kimono, the back painted with a lotus flower, the sleeves with
similar style designs.
"I know you won't be
able to wear it at home," he said, sounding almost bashful, "but it
would please me if you would wear it at Harvard. No," he added as she
started to drape it over her shoulders, "it's not very practical to clean.
You'll probably want to wash up before you put it on."
"Thank you,
He came to her, wrapping
his arm around her waist. She tried not to stiffen under his touch. His
embrace was brief, followed by a kiss on the head.
"How are you feeling
this morning?" he asked.
"Sore," Marigold
admitted. When
Marigold lowered her head
to try to hide her tears, but her shoulders shook with them.
"No," she choked
out, "Not that much."
He moved in, not so close
that their bodies came into contact, but enough to stroke her hair. When he
finally spoke, he said, "You are a very peculiar girl, Marigold."
She leaned her head into
his hand, like a cat would, closing her eyes. Just for a moment, she let
herself sink into the old fantasy.
"Go," she said
softly, "get to your meeting. I'm going to wash."
"Thank you,
What Marigold really wanted
to do was get her old, comfortable terrycloth robe out of her luggage, wrap
herself in it, and go back to sleep, preferably in the unused bedroom. But,
that would never do. Last night had put into stark relief how much the
quality of her life depended on
She also didn't want to
stand in the middle of the carpet with tears drying on her cheeks and who
knew what else dried on her thighs. Spurred to action, she walked into the
large, main bathroom, and turned on the big, whirlpool tub. For a while, she
just stared at the running water, thinking nothing at all, feeling empty. She
realized that she had no idea who was standing over the tub. Two weeks ago,
she'd known exactly who she was--The Virgin Marigold, as Brianne, had called
her more than once. She'd had a wealth of adjectives to describe herself: Christian,
moderately popular, studious, serious, chaste. She'd
known a long time what she was going to do with her life--be Valedictorian,
go to Harvard, marry Elliot, go to medical school, finish her residency, have three children, two boys and a girl. She knew their
names and everything. She'd known
something wasn't quite right between her and Elliot, but didn't probe too
deeply for the sake of the children.
Now, that part of the plan was gone.
She'd sacrificed her high school popularity. Her chastity had flown
right out the window, not only because
The water level acceptable,
she set the jets to pumping and stepped into the big tub, sitting so that the
water came up to her chin. The powerful jets soothed her muscles and carried
away the effluvia of the night before.
She closed her eyes and
tried to decide what she was now--not much of a Christian, surely. She knew
Jesus would forgive her for everything she'd done, but she also know how
forgiveness worked. Things would never be the same between them again. She
didn't really feel like a whore, either. Maybe, with time, she would become a
whore, but from a practical standpoint, there had to be more to whoredom than
having sex with one man, once. Even if being taken in the ass was the most
unnatural, disgusting thing she could ever imagine enjoying, she was sure
that real whores had a much more extensive resume than she did.
As the knots in her muscles
gave up the ghost, Marigold became keenly aware of the jets throbbing against
her skins, water swirling around her, tickling her thighs and bottom. It
would be so easy to just lean into them, open herself
up. Whatever she'd become, it felt a lot better to be doing it than sitting
around regretting it.
She resisted. It was too
easy. She was still enough of a Christian to recognize that as the hallmark
of the Devil's Highway. The path of the righteous was narrow and hard. The
ways of sin were as easy as falling off of a log. Besides, she couldn't remember the last time
she had been so hungry. Resolute, she
got out of the tub, letting it drain with some regret.
The sun was up in the sky
now. While she was in the tub, the maid had come in, changed the sheets, made
the bed, and left towels. She'd even
taken the little vodka bottle. Only a hint of soreness remained. With all
signs of the evening's debauch gone or safely hidden inside of her, Marigold
began to feel her spirits rise. She dried herself off and slipped into the
kimono
By the time that she was
sitting on the veranda, enjoying the feeling of the kimono on her flesh,
sipping a cup of too-bitter coffee make palatable by an excess of sugar and
cream, looking out over the park several stories below, street noise only a
faint background, the early summer breeze and sunlight playing over her skin,
the melancholy she'd felt earlier had completely faded away.
Maybe, she decided, the
difference is that I'm not a child anymore. Maybe, it's like Paul said to the
Corinthians. I've just become a woman and it's time to put aside childish
things. She chuckled a little at the
blasphemy of the thought, then harder at the idea of springing that
interpretation on Jonas some time during their Bible study.
She sat in the sun,
drinking her coffee, eating her croissant, and trying a new idea on for size.
She tried on the idea that she was older and more mature than she'd been, not
a high school girl, but a woman on the verge of striking out into the world
on her own, tackling college and her future.
That was it, she decided.
She wasn't The Virgin Marigold anymore, but she wasn't a whore either. She
was just a woman.
-=-
After breakfast, she spent
a little time lounging around the suite, enjoying her new identity. She was a
sophisticated, sexual young woman, still faintly sore from at her lover's
hand, naked except for the thin layer of silk he chose to wrap her in,
lounging around the
The bathing suit she wore
had been bought the previous summer, more for its ability to flatten her
figure than to flatter it. Of course, there wasn't much the designers could
do in that department with the material at hand. Still, Marigold almost gave
up her plan of swimming all together when she saw how unflattering it was. Up
until now, she'd almost never gone swimming because the suits couldn't do
much to hide her body. Now, she didn't want to swim because it didn't show
her off.
Realizing she was being
foolish, she wrapped herself in a hotel robe and went downstairs. It turned out that the hotel had two pools
downstairs, one labeled "family," the other "no
children." Looking into the door of the family pool, she saw about a
dozen children, seemingly unsupervised, running amok. At the deep end, she
saw a small group of high school aged kids engaged in some sort of horseplay
that would probably be described as "spirited" by someone too old
to remember being that age.
Boldly, she pushed open the
door to the "no children" pool. There were less than a dozen people
in the room, most of them clustered around a bar set up at the far end. Only
one seemed to actually be swimming. She waited for the whole room to turn
around, throw out their arms, pointing to the next room, and shout, "No
children! You belong over there."
They didn't, of course. Marigold steadied her breathing. I'm a adult, she reminded herself. I paid my dues, now I
belong to the club.
Laying her robe and towel
out poolside, Marigold dove into the water and began to swim back and forth
across the width of it. She would have used the lanes, but the other swimmer
was swimming crossways as well and she would have had to risk collision each
time their paths crossed. Soon, she was pushing herself hard, swimming as
quickly as she could, enjoying the exertion. She'd
lost track of how many times she had crossed the lanes when she looked up and
realized that the other swimmer, now holding on to the edge of the pool, was
trying to talk to her. She latched onto the wall and turned to face him.
"Excuse me?" she
asked.
"I just said that you
were a very strong swimmer," the man answered her, his accent marking
him as Australian, "You were leaving me in the
dust out there."
"Oh," said
Marigold, "Thank you. I would just working out some tension."
The man nodded,
"Swimming can be good for that. I'm Paul, by the way."
"Marigold,"
Marigold said, taking his proffered hand, "Nice to meet you."
"Well, Marigold,"
said Paul, "I know it's a bit early, but can I interest you in a drink?
It's another great way to relieve tension."
Marigold almost rejected
the offer out of hand, but instead said, "All right, but just one, I
think." Paul seemed like a nice enough guy.
They were both adults. If he wanted to buy her a drink, she would humor him.
It wasn't like she was going to go back to his room with him.
"All right," he
asked, "What can I get you?"
"Something with vodka,
I think," Marigold said.
"A screwdriver?"
"Sure," she
answered.
Paul came back with a beer
and a glass of orange juice and vodka, which Marigold imagined was a
screwdriver. She sipped it, finding it wasn't so hard to drink as she'd
expected. The orange juice cut most of the alcohol flavor.
"So," asked Paul,
"Are you here with your husband?"
Wow, thought Marigold, I'm
pulling off this adult thing really well. Of course, the truth was much too
difficult to explain. So, she said,
"Yes."
"Oh," said Paul,
his face a little bit crestfallen, "I didn't realize. Only..."
Marigold raised an eyebrow,
enjoying the man's discomfort, "Only?"
"Well," said
Paul, "You're not wearing a ring."
"Oh," said
Marigold, her hand involuntarily flying to her mouth at being caught in a
lie, "Well, he's not really my husband yet. He's my fiancé."
"Still," insisted
Paul, "No ring?"
"We'll have one
soon," Marigold improvised, "We're still in college. Once we
graduate and Bartholemew gets a job in electrical engineering, we'll get a
ring and have a big wedding."
"So," said Paul,
"Where do you go to school?"
"Harvard," said
Marigold, "I go to Harvard. My husband goes to MIT."
"Your
not-husband," prompted Paul, "Bartholemew."
Marigold nodded,
"Right. His friends call him
"So," asked Paul,
"Are you and
"Only until
tomorrow," said Marigold, "We've got to get back to school."
"More's the
pity," said Paul, "I'm here another two weeks. I could always use
the company of two bright young people. I travel so much."
"Sorry," said
Marigold, "Are you from
Paul nodded, "Yeah.
Although, I spend more than half the year traveling.
"Family?"
Marigold asked.
"Yeah," said
Paul, "I've got a wife and a two year-old boy at home. I hate leaving them alone like this. But, a
couple more years in the business and I can start working out of the home
office."
"But, no ring?"
Marigold asked, glad the pressure was off of her
now.
"As I said," Paul
answered, "I'm on the road more than half the year. My wife is a very
understanding woman."
Seeking to change the
subject, Marigold asked, "What business are you in, Paul?"
"I travel in
eavesdropping," said Paul.
"Excuse me?"
"I sell eavesdropping
equipment. Tiny cameras, microphones,
little recorders."
"How
interesting," said Marigold enthusiastically.
"Really?" asked
Paul, "Most people just think it's creepy. Actually, I don't think it's
much of either. I sell them to big corporations and police departments
mostly. Then, I train them in the proper use. Quite honestly, it's a bit
tedious."
The rest of the
conversation went much more easily. Marigold barely had to embellish on her
initial lie after that. Paul seemed like such a personable guy that she
wished she and
She got so engrossed in the
conversation that she lost track of time. Realizing that it was now
Paul, who'd been in the
middle of an amusing anecdote about customs officials in
"No, nothing,"
she said, alarmed, "I just promised
"You too,
Marigold," said Paul, "If you need anything, I'm in room 822."
-=-
Marigold bolted up to their
suite. She'd disobeyed
There was no answer. It was
a quarter past two and he wasn't back yet. Marigold sighed to herself and collapsed
on the couch.
"You're in a much
better mood," he commented.
Marigold had completely
forgotten about the mood she'd woken up in, "Yes," she said,
tilting her head up to be kissed, "I'm sorry I was so childish. It's
time for me to put away childish things."
He kissed her, his hand
holding the back of her head, his tongue exploring her mouth. Pulling back,
he said, "You've been drinking."
"Just one," said
Marigold, "Now that I've had the experience of being drunk, I thought it
might be nice to find out how alcohol actually tasted. How was your
meeting?"
"Non-productive,"
said
"No," Marigold
answered, "I thought you might want to have lunch together."
"Sounds good,"
said
Marigold considered the
possibility of running into Paul in the hotel restaurant and said quickly,
"Let's eat here."
"Sounds good,"
said
They took lunch on the
patio. For once, the conversation lacked its usual brooding intensity.
Prompted,
"In other words,"
Marigold asked, "You've written a program that represents data in more
than three dimensions in order to make it easier to guess what happens
next?"
"Essentially,"
said
"When did we learn
that?" Marigold asked, "I must have been out."
"Don't worry,"
said
Marigold was shocked to
hear him speak so self deprecatingly, "
"Sure I am," said
Marigold tried to imagine a
world where she aspired to earn the title, "geek." She couldn't
imagine it. She knew she'd have to be more tolerant of geek culture at
Harvard than in high school, but it wasn't like she was going to MIT. She
pressed on, "But, geeks are all out of shape, never exercise, don't know
how to talk to girls...."
Marigold lowered her eyes,
"I'm sorry,
"That's so cute,"
said
Marigold looked up,
surprised, "I...guess so."
"And,"
Marigold looked around in
stunned surprise. Realizing he was still waiting for an answer, she said,
"No,
"Well?"
"I'm sorry,"
Marigold said, "I forgot what I was supposed to be begging for."
She smiled to herself,
"Please,
"Marigold,"
Now, she was stunned. If
she wasn't down here to suck his cock, what was she down on her knees for? He
couldn't actually just want her down there, begging forgiveness for telling
the truth about geeks, could he? But, the longer she thought about it, the
more she realized that there were no obvious conclusions other than that one.
"Please,
He looked down at her, but
didn't say anything.
"Please,
"For what?"
"For what I
said," Marigold answered.
"Is that what I told
you to beg for?"
Marigold was stunned again,
but her response time for getting over being stunned was improving by leaps
and bounds, "Please,
"Are you contrite,
Little Flower?"
"Yes,
"Well," asked
"I don't know,"
admitted Marigold, "I'm not sure what's wrong with what I said. I am
sorry for making you angry, though."
"I'm not angry, Little
Flower," said
"But, most of the
geeks are out of shape. Even though I've been at the table for a week, some
of them still go all pale when I talk to them. It's the truth. What's wrong with saying
it?"
"You know," said
"I watch TV,"
said Marigold.
"Regardless,"
said
"Oh," said Marigold,
thinking, "isn't that what the software you wrote does?"
"You do realize that I
can do anything I want to you, don't you?" he asked, steel in his voice,
"I mean, you've agreed to do what I tell you and, even if you hadn't,
you can't very well get away with claiming non-consent without your parents
finding out you're not at your aunt's house, can you?"
Marigold stifled as much of
her grin as she could. She'd forced him off the argument. Keeping her voice
even and demure, she said, "Yes,
"Stand up," he
said, "Go inside. Take off what you're wearing. Put on the kimono I gave
you. Come back out here."
Marigold hurried to obey.
Her body was already responding to the anticipation of what he was going to
do to her. Naked, except for her kimono, she came back to where he was
standing. He took her wrists, leading her by them until her hands were on the
metal railing that kept them from falling over the edge.
"Don't let go of that
until you're told," he ordered. She began to tremble. Was he really
going to have her right here, out on the patio? No one from the ground could
see, but it would be possible for a few of the upper balconies to do so.
Still, he was right. There was nothing she could do to get out of it. If
people were going to see, they were going to see. Let them think of her what
they wanted. She only knew one other person in the hotel and he was two
floors below them.
"You're already
soaking wet," he said, "Did you really enjoy begging that
much?"
"Yes," she
whispered. The answer stunned her, but she also realized that it was
true.
"Well, good,"
said
"I....unh....I think
so," said Marigold, "I'm sorry,
"Are you just like
Brianne?"
"Oh, God,"
Marigold answered, "No."
"Are you answering my
question or protesting my actions,"
"Answering,"
Marigold managed to blurt out, "I like what you're doing."
"Well," said
"But," Marigold
moaned, coming hard as
"That actually depends
on the atomicity of data you need,"
"Yes, yes,"
Marigold moaned, "Oh, God. Yes. Yes! I understand. Oh, yes."
"Good," said
"God,
"Aren't you going to
make love to me?" she asked, her voice trembling.
"No," answered
-=-
They sat in the tub together, Marigold wrapped in
"
"Spread your
legs,"
Soon, she was begging,
"Please,
"Nope," said
"God,
"Please," she
whimpered, "Please,
"No," said
She looked up at him, dazed
and stunned, "You're a bastard," she whispered.
"Dry off," he
answered, "I have something for you."
Marigold followed, her feet
barely moving beneath her as she walked. Every nerve sang with frustration.
She decided that she must have something medically wrong with her that she
could want sex so badly. Even the
feeling of the towel as she rubbed herself dry was enough to make her
whimper.
She took the dress out. It
was grey with spaghetti straps. Sliding it over her head, she realized that
the back was non-existent, scooping so low that it
almost exposed her bottom to the air. The support built into it was artfully
hidden and reinforced with a pair of straps that crossed under the breasts
and tied in the back.
She looked at herself in
the mirror, "
"You don't have to
wear it if you don't like," said
She considered it
critically, "No," she said, "it's only designed to look like I
could just accidentally step out of it. It's actually quite secure. I'd be
glad to wear it."
"Are you sure?"
"If I drive some poor
man to assault me on the street, you'll have to defend me," Marigold
said, by way of answer.
She squirmed until she
realized that
The restaurant they went to
was French, somewhere in the Village, and dark as a pit. The hostess led them
through the gloom to dining area outside, bounded on three sides by taller
buildings and on the fourth by the restaurant itself. They took the only
empty table and, as they crossed to it, Marigold felt like every eye turned
to watch her. Men leered openly. Women shot daggers out of their eyes. It was
all quite invigorating.
Conversation was as light
as the soufflés they had for dessert. The only real disappointment was again
the coffee, "Why does everybody in
"It's not burnt,"
said
"I'm drinking tea from
now on, then," said Marigold, modulating her voice too low now and
putting her cup down.
After dinner, they walked
back to the hotel. Even the early summer air made her shiver and
"I love you,
"Marigold," said
Marigold giggled. They were
in the elevator now, "You're lying," she said.
"Excuse me?"
asked
"You've always liked
me," Marigold accused him, "You told me you've been wanting to make...to fuck me for years."
They were in the elevator
now. He turned to her, "I didn't specifically want to fuck you. I wanted
to break you, to make you obey and beg. When I imagined myself fucking you,
it was always rape--painful, humiliating rape. Quite often, I fantasized
about killing you. Does that sound like I've always liked you?"
They were at the door to
the suite now, so close. Marigold felt the anticipation rising, sharp and
keen through the receding fog of the wine. You looked at him as seriously as
she could manage, "You can do whatever you want to me tonight,
He pushed the door open.
She went to wrap her arms around his neck but he slipped away, turning her to
face into the room as they both entered.
There was another person in the apartment.
"Marigold,"
"Maya," Marigold
asked, the last of the alcohol draining from her system in a rush, "what
are you doing here?"
Maya looked at her, then at
Marigold nodded, "I
haven't seen you since you went away to school, Maya. You're looking
well."
"You look surprised to
see me," say Maya, "Didn't
"There wasn't
time," said
"
"I asked you a
question, Marigold," he said evenly, "Do you remember Maya?"
"Of course," said
Marigold, "We used to be best friends."
Maya stepped around so that
she was behind Marigold, "I thought so, too. Why aren't we best friends
any more, Marigold?"
"You...you went
away," Marigold said. She knew it wouldn't be enough, but she had to
try.
"Why did she go
away?" asked
"Her father found out
she was going to have an abortion," said Marigold miserably, "He
sent her to her grandmother's to have the baby, then to Catholic
school."
Maya was right behind her
now, fingertips on her arm, "Who told my father I was going to have an
abortion?"
"Jonas," said
Marigold. Tears were rolling down her cheeks now, "I told Jonas about it
and Jonas told your father."
"She is?" Maya
asked, "I don't remember that being part of it."
"Part of what?"
Marigold asked, "
"The night everything
went to Hell,"
"Are you going to kill
me?" Marigold asked. She wondered if she would scream or try to stop
him.
"No," said
"No," said
Marigold, "What's going to happen to me?"
"You're going to talk
to Maya. You're going to answer all of her questions fully, honestly, and candidly.
Then, I'm going to let her punish you. You'll do what she tells you as if I
were telling you to do it."
"I can't,"
Marigold said, crying, "Please. I can't answer those questions. I don't
want to. I...I'm so sorry for what happened, for what I did. Please, forgive
me."
"I've already forgiven
you," said Thule, "It's Maya's forgiveness you need. But, she won't
forgive you until you've answered her questions."
"And I make no
promises then," said Maya, "I'm not in a very forgiving mood."
"Regardless,"
said Thule, "You will have done what you can to achieve
forgiveness."
"Thule," Marigold
said, on her knees now, crying, "I can't. I give up. I don't care about
our deal. Get me kicked out of school. I don't care. This is too hard."
Thule shrugged, "Fair
enough." He turned to Maya, "Sorry, honey.
I tried. I can't force her to do this. It won't work." He turned back to
Marigold, "You can have the bedroom we used last night. Maya and I will
take the other. I'll drive you home tomorrow." Walking over to Maya, he took her head in
both hands, leaned down and kissed her deeply, passionately. Marigold screwed
her eyes shut.
"All right," she
whimpered, not opening her eyes, "All right. You win. I'll answer the
questions. I'll take the punishment. But, only on one condition."
"No conditions,"
said Thule.
"Hear her out,"
said Maya. Thule had let her go, but she still held him around the hips,
"It may be one of the conditions we've already made."
"Thule," Marigold
asked, crying, "Will you stay and protect me?"
"Little Flower,"
he said slowly, "You have a very strange definition for the word,
'protect.'"
-=-
The three of them sat in
tableau on the bed, Maya cross-legged against the headboard, Marigold facing
her from the foot, leaning with her back against Thule. The questions started
easily enough. They covered details all three already knew. Maya had been
Marigold's only real friend back in the seventh and eighth grade. Maya's
family had moved from Argentina suddenly, before they could begin teaching
their daughter English. Marigold had gotten left back after she missed too much
school following her father's death. They'd been inseparable. In the summer
between the eighth and ninth grade, Marigold's mother had remarried and
Marigold herself had gained the attention of the more popular girls.
"And then you told
them lies about me," said Maya. When angry, the patrician Argentinian
accent was still heavy.
"No," said
Marigold, "I told only Brianne--and only the truth. That you'd let a boy
feel you up and a girl kiss you while we were at camp. I betrayed your
confidence, but I didn't make anything up."
Maya nodded, "Your
candor is appreciated. From that point on, you were popular and I wasn't. You
made conditions on our continued friendship. Like an attention-starved dog, I
accepted. I continued to confide in you and you told Brianne everything I
told you. She twisted it, made it sound worse than it was, and told everyone.
Is that right?"
Marigold nodded miserably,
"As far as I know. I betrayed every confidence. I didn't really listen
to the gossip when it got back to me."
"But, you knew I was
developing a reputation as a slut?"
Marigold nodded, "Yes.
I knew."
"And I, oblivious to
your treachery, continued to tell you everything, including how miserable all
of the gossip was making me. How I tried to kill myself because I was so
miserable. How boys grabbed me in the halls because they believed they could.
You knew all of this, didn't you?"
"Yes," said
Marigold, "I told Brianne. And she used it to make your reputation worse
and you got more miserable."
"And then," said
Maya, "At the end of ninth grade, I started seeing Thule. And, he
protected me. And I was happy. And I told you I was happy."
"And when Brianne
found out," Marigold continued the story, "she tried twice as hard
to make you miserable. But, it didn't work. Thule protected you and beat up
anyone who tried anything with you. He beat James McTimson so badly he was
out of school for a month."
"But, you finally
found a way to betray me to Brianne, didn't know. After summer, I came to
you, crying."
"Please," said Marigold, "I'm so sorry. I know the story.
Please. Punish me for it. I deserve it. I know I do."
"But, you don't know
the whole story," said Maya, "I told you I was pregnant and getting
an abortion. You not only told Brianne. You told your stepfather. Why did you
do that?"
"I was hoping he would
tell your father," admitted Marigold, "I didn't want you to kill
your baby. Thule, I didn't want her to kill your baby."
"No other
reason?" Maya asked.
Marigold wept for a long
time, too miserable to answer. Thule held her tighter, stroking her hair.
Finally, he whispered in her ear, "You'll feel better if you tell it
all. Don't hold anything back."
"I did it,"
Marigold said through her tears, "because I wanted you to go away. I
hated you for letting me betray you. I didn't want to keep seeing you and
being reminded of it. As long as you were there, I had to spy on you for
Brianne. If you went away, I thought I could stay in her favor and not have
to pay much for it."
"But, you did..."
Maya began.
"I also did it,"
Marigold whispered, "because you were the only other person with a
perfect GPA. All I could think was, one screw up, and I'd be behind you and
Thule. I wouldn't be valedictorian or salutatorian. I'd just be
nothing."
Maya stared at her, stunned,
head tilted to one side, "Really?"
"I couldn't take the
pressure," Marigold said.
"I didn't realize just
how petty you really were," said Maya, "You wanted me gone because
of grades?"
"Yes," said
Marigold, her head bowed, "That was the real reason I told Jonas. I
wanted your father to take you out of school so you'd be disqualified as
valedictorian."
"Was it worth
it?" Maya asked.
"I thought so at the
time," said Marigold, "I just wanted it so bad, I
lost sight of everything else."
"And now?" Maya
asked.
"I don't care
now," said Marigold, "I don't deserve Harvard. I don't deserve
college. I just want to be with Thule and I don't deserve that either."
Maya looked up at Thule,
"Damn," she said, "Thule, what did you do to this girl?"
Thule shrugged, "I've
been horrible to her since day one. I blackmailed her. I got her
ostracized. I made her into a
whore. I ordered her around. I
violated her. I made her beg. This is just as much a mystery to me as to
anyone."
"Marigold," asked
Maya, "How do you feel about Thule?"
She wanted to say that she
loved him. But, she remembered the prohibition, "I want to be with him.
I want him to keep me."
"Even after what he's
done to you?"
Marigold nodded, "I
want him to keep treating me the way he has. I like being his whore. I like
being violated by him. No matter how badly he treats me beyond that, I've
earned it."
"That's a nice
dress," Maya said, "Did Thule make you wear it?"
"Yes," said
Marigold, "although he said I had a choice."
"Take it off,"
said Maya. Marigold looked up at
Thule.
"Obey her," said
Thule.
Marigold stood, untied the
dress, and let it fall to the floor.
"Sit back down,"
said Maya, "Thule, go sit in the chair for a bit."
"You don't get to
order me around, Maya," said Thule evenly.
"Please," said Maya, "I want her to feel as naked and alone as
I did."
Thule leaned down to
collect the dress. He leaned down to Marigold, "I'll be right here if
you need me."
Maya leaned forward. To
Marigold, she looked to be fully possessed by her old, Mayan blood--a proud,
bloodthirsty warrior. He straight, black hair was even done up with a single,
thin braid in red, white, and green beads.
"Do you know who's baby I was forced to have because of you?" Maya
asked.
"Thule's," said
Marigold, then less certainly, "I always
assumed it was Thule's....If it wasn't Thule's, who was it?"
"Randy
Vandevoort," said Maya, "When she couldn't get at me any more,
Brianne went to the one boy that Thule couldn't thrash into submission,
convinced him I was a hot, little whore. Told him how bad I wanted it. During
the summer, he raped me. He raped a lot of girls at our school. Most shut up
because they were intimidated. A few had to be bought off. But, I was the
first."
"No," cried
Marigold, "God, Maya, I didn't know."
"Randy Vandevoort
raped me because you told Brianne I was a whore and Brianne told him."
Marigold sat there,
completely miserable, naked, and alone. She was sure that she was the worst
person who had ever lived. She'd spent three years trying to convince herself
that this had never happened or that, if it did, Jesus had forgiven her and
that was all that mattered. Now, it
was all laid out in front of her.
"So," said Maya,
"Do you still expect absolution?"
"I don't expect
anything," said Marigold, "I'm lost. If it will ameliorate your
pain to punish me, do it. Please."
Maya nodded, "Lie down,
on your stomach." She went into
the living room and came back with a heavy, black
duffel back. Reaching in, she pulled
out a long, black strip of cloth, which she tied around Marigold's eyes as a
blindfold. Next, Marigold felt cold steel as Maya cuffed first one hand, then
the other to the bed. Maya was blind and bound now, completely at Maya's
mercy.
"Christ, Maya,"
said Thule, "put that away. I told you that you wouldn't be allowed to
use those."
"Relax, mi
corazon," said Maya, "I didn't repack my bag. Everything is in
here. I'm just looking for these." She laid something on the bed,
"And this. And, of course, these."
"You still use
those?"
"You can't beat the
classics."
"Would you like to
help?" Maya asked, sounding hopeful.
"No," said
"Suit yourself," said Maya, "You always said you
wanted to watch me work some time. Here's your chance."
Marigold heard
When the strap stung across
her bottom, it was a relief. As long as Maya was beating her, she wasn't
seducing
Then, to Marigold's horror,
the lust and sensitivity that had built up all day began to reawaken. She
didn't want to enjoy this. It was supposed to be painful and humiliating.
And, without a doubt, it was. But, it was arousing, too. Soon, her cries of
pain were coming out as mewls of pleasure instead. The harder Maya hit her,
the more aroused she became.
"Please,"
Marigold begged, "stop."
Maya did. Marigold lay
there, trembling. The effect was not lost on Maya.
"Looks like I've got
the touch," said Maya, "
"Yes," Marigold
whispered, "I'm so sorry. I just wanted to let you punish me. I wanted
to hate it."
"Oh, Marigold,"
said Maya, "It's all right. If you're enjoying it, it's because you
believe you deserve it. Do you believe you deserve what I'm doing to
you?"
"Oh, yes," said
Marigold, enthusiastically.
"Would you like me to
keep punishing you?" Maya asked.
"Yes, please,"
said Marigold.
"Call me
mistress," said Maya.
"What?" asked
Marigold?
Maya slapped the strap
across Marigold's bottom, hard, "I said, call me Mistress."
"Yes, Mistress,"
said Marigold, "Please keep punishing me."
Maya seemed to be moving
around the bed now. She asked
"No," said
"Can I ask her?"
Maya said poutily.
"No,"
"Spoilsport,"
answered Maya.
"Maya," said
"
"No speaking,"
"If you want dark and
broody, I can do dark and broody," said Maya, "I did about two
years of dark and broody. But, I'm happy with who I am now."
"All right," said
Then, Maya was straddling
Marigold's legs. Marigold felt hands on her shoulders. Then, Maya drew her
hands quickly down Marigold's back and Marigold realized that she was wearing
gloves with tiny spikes on them. They scratched her, but did not break the
skin. Marigold cried out. They hurt, but she was already getting aroused by
them to. As Maya began to work them all over her back, bottom, and legs,
sometimes in circles, sometimes in swipes, Marigold fought with all of her
will not to come from the intensity of it. She didn't last long. Soon, she
was writhing, moaning, and gasping.
Maya seemed to enjoy the process immensely and it went on for a very
long time. When she finally let up,
Marigold's body was vibrating from the top of her head to the bottoms of her
feet.
"Did you like that,
Princess?" Maya asked.
Marigold nodded into the
pillows, "Oh, yes. Very much."
"Good," said
Maya, "ready for whatever comes next?"
"Yes," said
Marigold.
What came next was a
beating about the shoulders and the backs of the legs with a rattan cane.
Again and again, it thudded against her flesh, a barely controlled thrashing.
Once, it caught her in the backs of the knees. She cried out in real,
unmitigated pain.
"Oh, Princess,"
said Maya, "I'm so sorry. I'm getting sloppy. I should stop."
"You're not
done," whispered Marigold, "You still have the thing that could set
off the sprinklers."
"It's okay," said
Maya, "You've had enough. I forgive you, Marigold."
"Thank you," said
Marigold, tears running down her cheeks, "I don't deserve your
forgiveness, but I thank you. Still, you're not done."
"She's done, Little
Flower," said
"No," said
Marigold, "Let her finish....Please."
"Out,"
For a moment, Marigold
strained to comply, so strong had the command been in his voice. Instead, she heard Maya say, "Dammit,
"Go in the living room
for a minute,"
Marigold heard the door
slam and felt
"Are you enjoying your
beating, Little Flower?" he asked at last.
"I don't mean
to," she answered.
"I would think it
rather defeats the purpose of the process if you enjoy it too much,"
said
"Fortunately for
you," said
"
"I don't know,"
said
"What does she have
that you're so afraid of letting her use on me?"
"Oh," said
Marigold sounded puzzled,
"What's she going to do with them?"
"I'm sorry,
"If I let her back in
here,"
"Let her finish,"
said Marigold.
"You can come and
finish if you like," said
Marigold heard running feet
for a couple of seconds, then Maya's voice from where
"Oh,
Then, Marigold heard
nothing for a while except the distant sounds of the city. Straining her
ears, she heard Maya sobbing hard, deep, and low, like a dam had burst.
He's probably petting her
hair too, Marigold thought bitterly. The bitterness surprised her. She
realized she was saying to herself, in effect, "Beat me, scratch me, burn me. Anything to make you feel better. But, don't be
hugging my boyfriend." She had to stifle a laugh.
Then, one of them was on
the bed, kneeling. She heard and felt as one cuff, then
the other was undone from the headboard.
"Is it over?"
Marigold asked.
"No speaking,"
said Maya, "Roll over on your back. Relax your arms for a minute, then put them back over your head so I can recuff you."
Once Marigold rolled over,
Maya threw one leg over her, straddling her stomach. At some point during the
evening, Maya had shed her skirt. Now, her soft knees and thighs pressed
against Marigold's belly, bare flesh to bare flesh. Just below her navel,
Marigold could feel the wet silk of Maya's panties. Maya leaned forward and
began to run Marigold's shoulders, deep healing circles, bringing sensation
back into them. Marigold sighed contentedly.
As Maya's fingertips moved
more firmly down onto the pectorals, the heels of her hands brushing over
Marigold's achingly erect nipples, it became suddenly clear to Marigold that,
once again, she'd only noticed half of what was going on.
"I said," growled
Maya, sounding remarkably like
"I'm pretty sure that
was a whimper," remarked
Hearing his voice, knowing
he was watching this, broke Marigold's will, "No," she begged,
"Please don't."
"But that was
definitely speaking," said
Maya squeezed one of
Marigold's breasts just hard enough to hurt, "Princess, are you going to
start misbehaving now, when we're so close to done? After you volunteered
your tender flesh? Speak again and I will gag you. Put your hands back above
your head."
Marigold did,
coincidentally moving her breasts more fully into Maya's hands. She felt
herself blushing, but Maya seemed more interested in binding her wrists than
fondling her now. The cuffs snapped with a frightening finality.
Once Marigold was secured,
Maya asked, "Do you know what I wanted to do to you tonight? I wanted to
take one of my big, thick vibrators and rape you with it," Her voice was
savage now, "I wanted to strap it around my
waist and hear you beg and cry for mercy. I wanted to break your spirit, then
slap you in the face with it a couple of times, just to show you who's boss. Do you think you would like that?"
"I don't know,"
Marigold answered, assuming it was safe to speak now, "Everything that's
given me pleasure since
"Do you know why I'm
not raping you right now?" Maya asked, "Do you? Because
"Maya," said
"But," said Maya,
as if she hadn't heard him, "He let me beat you and he's going to let me
put my hands all over you, eat your pussy, and make you eat mine. He doesn't
seem to mind that at all. In fact, I suspect, it's really turning him on. Is
it turning you on,
"Of course," said
"In fact," said
Maya, cupping Marigold's breasts again, "I bet he'd like to come over
here and fuck both of us right now. Wouldn't you,
"No," said
Marigold felt Maya's thighs
stiffen dangerously around her. Even though the girl on top of her kept her
voice calm, she was clearly badly rattled by
"So," asked Maya,
"you really didn't invite me over to get the three of us into bed
together? You did it so I could punish Marigold, without ulterior
motive?" There was a pause as if Maya were waiting for
The pain and burning hit
Marigold so hard and suddenly that she cried out, loudly. If
"Not so much at
once," said
Amazingly, while Marigold
did not come to enjoy the process, she found that, after a while, it was like
someone else getting hot wax poured on them. She still felt it, but she felt
like it was burning a part of herself that couldn't
get at her true self.
Eventually, Maya stopped. A
moment later, she had undone Marigold's blindfold and asked, "
A hand slid between her
legs, finding her clit and rubbing it expertly. Marigold kept her eyes
closed, rocking against it, not wanting to open her eyes and see who was
touching her like that. Half twisting in
This time, when she came,
it built slowly, gradually. Even after it arrived, it kept building in
intensity. Maya lowered her head to Marigold's lap, kissing her way up one
thigh, then the other. The part of Marigold's mind that would have been
appalled by how much she liked that must have called it an early night
because she felt only pleasure. Her hands wrapped around the back of Maya's
head, guiding her in. Maya's tongue explored inside of her as she teased and
sucked Marigold's clit. Marigold was over the top now, moaning and growling
and making animal noises. Then, when she didn't think it could get any more
intense, Maya slid two fingers in on either side of her clit and transferred
her tongue into Marigold's ass.
Marigold was too stunned,
surprised, and aroused to try to stop her beyond some perfunctory protest
noises. She let herself ride the waves of pleasure, unperturbed by the
undercurrents of right and wrong. When
Maya finally stopped, Marigold was more drained than she could believe. At
some point, Maya had taken Marigold's hand and placed it between her own dark
thighs. After a slow start, Marigold began to find deep satisfaction in
making Maya come as she mercilessly teased and squeezed the smaller girl's
clit, or drove her fingers deep inside. When Maya pushed her head down,
Marigold went almost willingly, stopping only to suck at Maya's nipples, then bite one a little too hard, eliciting a slight yelp
of pain. When Maya looked down, she only grinned up wickedly.
She found that she did not
mind eating pussy as much as she thought she would. While she was in no
danger of giving up men for this particularly delicacy, she reveled in her
ability to make Maya squeal, moan, squirm, and come. In fact, she'd even
momentarily forgotten
When
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The edges of the sky were
red with first dawn when Marigold awoke. During the night,
Still, she had to chuckle
to herself when Maya's nefarious predawn mission seemed to be a trip to the
bathroom. Seeing this, Marigold realized her own urge and headed to the
bathroom off of the other bedroom.
When she came out, her eyes
adjusted to the half light, she saw one of Maya's bags open on the still-made
bed. It was open and a few of the "toys" they hadn't used that
evening were on top. Unable to resist, she reached into the bag and pulled
out the dildo on top for closer examination. She paled a little at the size
of it, relieved that real ones didn't seem to grow quite so big.
As she was about to put it
back, she noticed a few other devices that had been thrown in underneath it.
Most of them she couldn't even guess a use for. But, she did recognize the
alligator clips and the electrical leads coming off of a TENS unit. Realizing
just how much of Maya's repertoire had been thwarted,
Marigold gave a shudder of relief that
It also made sense to her
now why
There, in the first rays of
sunlight, Maya had positioned herself between
She wanted to shout at Maya
or do something to make her stop. A vision of retrieving the enormous dildo
and using it on Maya to get her attention flashed through her mind. Instead,
she just stood and stared. The image hit her like a sucker punch in the gut.
She was powerless, she realized. She may belong to
She almost fled the scene,
but couldn't. Instead, she pulled the
door mostly closed, so she could observe without being seen. She kept hoping that
After only a few minutes,
it was over.
Maya emerged a few minutes
later, then disappeared into the other room. She re-emerged a minute later
and lay the two suitcases on the floor near the
front door. Then, she came over and kneeled beside the couch. Marigold was
determined to keep pretending that she was asleep, but Maya leaned in and
kissed her full on the mouth. In surprise, her eyes flew open.
"Princess," said
Maya, "I've got to get going, but I didn't want to leave without saying
goodbye."
Marigold looked her old
friend up and down. For a moment, she wanted to forgive everything. Instead,
she just said, "Okay, Maya. Take care of yourself."
"I've left my phone
number and e-mail address on the pad on the desk," said Maya, "Call
me some time. We'll get together, like old times...no bag. I promise."
Marigold managed a smile,
knowing she would never call or write.
Then, Maya was gone. The
door clicked shut and it was only Marigold and
She had already started to
doze again when she felt a blanket being laid over her. She opened her eyes
as
"Hey," he said,
"What are you doing out here?"
"You're a bed
hog," she said, "There wasn't room for all three of us."
"Sorry," said
"I'm fine here,"
she murmured, snuggling deeper into the blanket.
True to his word,
Knowing better than to
argue, Marigold got up and headed for the shower. Soon, she was clean,
dressed, and freshly coiffed.
As
"Having breakfast
alone?" he asked.
"No," said
Marigold, "
Paul smiled ruefully,
"Who?"
"Bart," said
Marigold, remembering what she'd told Paul, "
"Well," he said,
"give him my regards." As he walked away, Marigold felt like she
had dodged a bullet.
"So,"
"Who was who?"
Marigold asked disingenuously.
"The tall sandy-haired
man you waved to and chatted with briefly," said
"Oh," said
Marigold, trying to be nonchalant, "That's Paul. He's from
"Hmmm," said
"I met him while I was
swimming yesterday," said Marigold. For some reason, she could not
resist the urge to taunt
"And, did he buy you a
drink?" asked
For some reason, Marigold
hadn't anticipated that question. By the time she said, "no," the
pause had been too long to mean anything but, "yes." So, she added,
"What do you care? After summer, you and I are never going to see each
other anyway. You're obviously making plans to get on with your life."
Thule didn't answer. He
watched her and cracked his knuckles.
"Besides," she
blurted out, "You never forbade me to speak to other men."
"No," he said,
"That's true. I guess I can only expect you to do what I tell you."
The silence between them
was heavy, broken only by the waitress bringing their food. Finally, Marigold
sought to break it, "So, what was the phone call about?"
"My potential partners
from yesterday's meeting," said
"So, that's it?"
asked Marigold.
"There's still today's
meeting," said
"I hope you got enough
sleep," said Marigold.
Marigold shrugged,
"Just that we had a late night--and you were up awfully early this
morning. I think you're starting to get dark circles under your eyes."
"I woke once or twice
during the night," Marigold said, oh so casually.
There was so much menace in
his voice that Marigold almost recanted. She was in no position to be
adversarial. But, instead, she heard herself saying, "Why not? I thought
that was what you wanted from me?"
The rest of the meal passed
in relative silence. When
"And, am I forbidden
to speak to other men while you're gone?" Marigold asked, fluttering her
eyelashes.
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