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A Rebirth at Midwinter 
by
  Vulgar Argot 
 
By the time she got back to
  the apartment, Nuria was trembling with frustration and so overwhelmed with
  conflicting emotions she couldn't hold onto a thought long enough for it to
  fully form before another one took its place. 
 
She slammed the apartment
  door and stormed across to her own room. She glanced at her roommates'
  bedrooms long enough to see that Carla had her "DO NOT DISTURB"
  sign on the door and  
 
She was less than half done
  with re-piling the books when a quiet, tentative knock came from her door.
  Nuria sighed, not really wanting to deal with anyone tonight, but not wanting
  to hurt her friends' feelings, "Come on in," she said. 
 
 
 
"No," said Nuria,
  "It's okay. Come on in." 
 
 
 
Nuria chuckled, not so much
  a sound of amusement as one of relief, "I barely have the room to keep
  them at all, much less organize them." 
 
"Well," said  
 
Nuria's laugh was more
  genuinely amused this time, "It's all right," she said, "You
  don't need to walk on eggshells around me." 
 
"Sorry, Miss D,"
  said  
 
Finally, the wall of
  tension broke. Nuria laughed heartily, "No," she answered,
  breathing a sigh that seemed to draw tension out of her back and shoulders,
  "although that would probably make my mother happy. My older sister is a
  nun, working in  
 
"Really?" asked  
 
"I'm not Catholic,"
  said Nuria, reaching into the space under the shelves where a few paperbacks
  had slid, "My family is--ultra-Catholic. Two of my uncles are priests
  and so is my younger brother. Even when I was a teacher, I was the black
  sheep of the family. My folks almost threw me out at sixteen when they found
  my," she sighed, "when they found out I was using birth
  control." 
 
 
 
"No," said Nuria,
  releasing a second wave of tension she didn't know she was holding from her
  shoulders, "Not a jerk at all." Placing the last book on the stack,
  she sat down heavily on the bed, "It was worse." 
 
 
 
This time, Nuria's laugh
  was loud and heartfelt with a faint edge of hysteria to it. Afraid she would
  disturb Carla and her guest, she got it under control. Wiping a tear from her
  eye, she said, "No. To the contrary, he was a complete gentleman." 
 
Nuria thought she would
  have to explain further, but  
 
Nuria stood up to slap dust
  off of the front of her borrowed dress, then began to pace, absent-mindedly
  trying to find the hook between her shoulder blades at the top of the dress's
  zipper, "It's just so frustrating," she said, growling the last
  word, "I've been fine for years--didn't even think about sex much,
  thought I was past that." 
 
 
 
"No," said Nuria,
  "not past sex. But able to enjoy it, when I found the right person,
  without it driving me crazy. I used to be...oh," she flopped back down
  on the bed, "you don't want to hear this." 
 
 
 
"Prude?" Nuria
  supplied. 
 
 
 
Nuria wanted to point out
  that many castrati had led full and active sex lives, in many cases even more
  so than their more intact peers, but decided now wasn't the time for a
  lesson. Instead, she smiled, "I'm not a prude and I'm not a
  eunuch," she said softly, "Before I got married, I was....pretty
  wild--wild enough that I was probably headed for a big fall. In college, I
  burned a lot of bridges and got a reputation as an easy touch. After I
  graduated, I behaved myself for a while, but I got involved in something ugly
  with another teacher...a married teacher. If it had gone on much longer, it
  would have gotten out. It was already a rumor. Then, I met Pedro." She
  smiled. 
 
"From what you've
  said," opined  
 
"I haven't told you
  the half of it," Nuria said, "Strong and smart, a teacher like me
  and a volunteer fireman. He fell madly in love with me and stayed that way.
  When I laid out my whole, ugly history to him, he said, 'Oh, no. My fiancée
  loves sex. Thank God I found out before I married her.' I could never shock
  or embarrass him. The closer we got to the wedding, the more scared I got. I
  acted out. I tried to make him leave me. But, he was on to my game. The
  hardest he ever..." Nuria realized what she was saying and flushed
  crimson. When she looked up,  
 
Nuria smiled, "I bet
  you never thought that the House Matron could make you blush." 
 
"I didn't think
  anybody could make me blush anymore," admitted  
 
"The honeymoon lasted
  two years," said Nuria, "if he hadn't died, it might have lasted
  forever. It was...it is very hard to be without him. She saw  
 
"They would have fired
  you for sleeping with someone from work?"  
 
"They would have fired
  me for having sex with someone at work," Nuria corrected her, "And
  that they can do. They probably would have made it look innocuous,
  too--misuse of official facilities, like I was stealing office supplies or
  something." 
 
"So, let me
  guess," said  
 
"More or less,"
  said Nuria, "except that it was  
 
 
 
"It was in my office
  with the door closed," said Nuria, standing up and looking for the hook
  again, "but somebody must have figured out what was going on. After
  that, I decided to buckle down and behave. As long as sex is not a part of my
  life, I'm fine. I barely miss it. But, when it is a part of my life, it makes
  me crazy. Everything becomes sexualized. When Quentin asked me to join him
  for dinner, I didn't even think of it as a date until you two started teasing
  me. Then, after everything he did for me, I figured taking him to bed was the
  least I could do. That probably would have been fine. I've had a couple of
  one-night stands since the last affair and was able to compartmentalize them.
  But then, I started to look forward to it. And I totally misread the
  situation. Quentin had a crush on me when he was my student, but he still
  thinks of me as his teacher, untouchable. I wanted to throw myself at him,
  but I never would have seen him again. Would you unhook this for me,
  please?" She asked, the last sentence coming out in a frustrated rush. 
 
 
 
Nuria started to answer,
  but felt  
 
"Why not, Miss
  D?" Pearl asked, "Don't you like girls?" 
 
Nuria leaned back against
  the taller girl, "I'm not up to being teased tonight. I don't..." 
 
"Who's teasing?"  
 
Nuria leaned farther into  
 
Pearl laughed and slid her
  hands free long enough to pull the straps of the funeral dress off of Nuria's
  shoulders, letting it drop to the floor. 
 
"I shouldn't,"
  Nuria whispered, "It wouldn't be fair to you. I'll still probably sleep
  with Quentin. It's just..." 
 
"I don't want to be
  your girlfriend," said  
 
Finally giving up the
  fight, Nuria raised her arms, her hands finding the back of  
 
"Me,
  too," said  
 
"After you gave her a
  ride home, too," mocked Nuria as she lowered  
 
 
 
"Careful," said  
 
Nuria nodded. With one
  hand, she pushed  
 
As Nuria lay there, her
  hips rising and falling gently,  
 
 
 
"Sorry," said
  Nuria, forcing her hand to relax, "It's just..." 
 
"It's
  flattering," said  
 
"Two years is a long
  time," said Nuria by way of explanation. Then, she found herself unable
  to speak as  
 
It was over too soon, Nuria
  thought, but a glance at the clock told her differently.  
 
Pearl chuckled, "I do
  my best work with an enthusiastic audience. Did you take notes?" 
 
Nuria smiled, "I
  didn't have time to study, but I'll do much best." She guided  
 
"If you do that,"
  Nuria said, "I'm never going to be able to concentrate on what I'm
  doing." 
 
 
 
Her mouth at  
 
"Easy," said
  Nuria gently, smiling, "or one of us is coming out of this
  injured."  
 
"Earlier," said  
 
Nuria who hadn't meant she
  would scare Quentin away like that at all, smiled at the compliment
  nonetheless. Before she could formulate her response, she was asleep. 
 
                               -=- 
 
"I'm making
  breakfast," said Carla, "do you two want any?" 
 
Nuria looked up. She hadn't
  moved much during the night. In the indirect sunlight from her one high
  window, she knew that it must be obvious what had happened there. Of course,
  if Carla hadn't heard anything, she must be completely deaf. Still, Nuria
  wished she had something to cover herself with. 
 
"Scrambled eggs?"
   
 
"My specialty,"
  said Carla. 
 
"Is Emil still
  here?"  
 
"Yeah," said
  Carla, "but not for much longer. He's got to work today." 
 
"Grab me a robe then,
  please," said  
 
Carla withdrew. Nuria
  chuckled, "Are you getting shy all of a sudden? I seem to remember you
  flashing the pizza guy because it would 'make his day.'" 
 
"That and we get pizza
  really fast now," said  
 
Nuria's eyes widened,
  "You've expected her to share others?" 
 
"No," said Pearl,
  "but once in a while, we go out looking for a party and only find one
  good guy between us. If we're not going to get serious....the guys have never
  objected to an extra participant." 
 
"I bet," said
  Nuria, standing up and putting on her own bathrobe, a warm almost-housecoat
  that seemed absurd in the current circumstances. Opening her closet, she
  said, "I have a robe you can wear to get as far as your room
  decently." 
 
"No," said  
 
Carla knocked at the door.
  When  
 
"Come on," Carla
  said, "Breakfast is getting cold." 
 
                       -=- 
 
Emil didn't have much time
  for breakfast or conversation. He spent most of the time talking to Nuria and
  petting Carla. He was, it turned out, an art teacher in Spanish Harlem. 
 
"You're very
  brave," said Nuria, "I was too afraid to teach in those
  schools." 
 
Emil nodded, "The
  rules are very different from an ordinary school. Now, I spend most of my
  time fighting to get enough supplies. I spent six weeks with little more than
  a ream of printer paper and a box of number two pencils--and I bought the
  paper myself." 
 
Nuria tsked with him at the
  sorry state of public education in the city. Even in the suburbs, ten years
  ago, she'd had to deal with inadequate and out-of-date material, but it had
  never been so bad. 
 
When Emil left, Carla stood
  with him at the door and kissed him passionately and intensely. Neither one
  of them seemed to want it to end. Finally, he tore himself away, promising to
  call after work. Carla closed the door, then leaned
  against it, smiling contentedly. 
 
She came back to the table,
  sat down, and took a deep draught of coffee. She looked at  
 
 
 
"It turns out that
  he's an incredibly sound sleeper," said Carla, "at least, once I
  get through with him." She smiled in self-satisfaction. Then, she sat
  up, looking angry, "I can't believe you didn't keep him here long enough
  for me to meet him--or at least come and get me long enough to say hi. Emil
  would have understood." 
 
"Who?" asked  
 
"J. X. Wolffe,"
  said Carla, "You didn't have somebody else in there, did you?" 
 
"No," said  
 
Carla looked from one of
  them to the other. Slowly, realization dawned on her face, "No.." she said, mimicking  
 
 
 
Nuria managed to make eye
  contact. Carla also seemed amused. 
 
"I quite like your
  young man," she said, "How did you two meet?" 
 
Carla answered, but not until
  she'd finished laughing, "He teaches at my little brother's school. My
  brother takes private lessons with him. When I was visiting with my folks, I
  picked my brother up sometimes. We got to talking and he's a really nice
  guy--all respectful and stuff and smart. He asked me to model for him and I
  was all whatever. You're cute. If you want to get with me, just ask. I might
  say yes. But, he was like no. An' he meant it. He painted me for like two
  weeks an' he never tried nothin', even when I got all friendly. Finally, I
  hear he's at this party in  
 
"Well," said
  Nuria primly, "He certainly seems to have a deleterious effect on your
  pronunciation and grammar." 
 
All three of them laughed,
  but then Carla said, "Sorry, Miss D. It all happened up in my old
  neighborhood and in  
 
That was the end of that
  discussion. They made small talk over dishes. 
  If Carla were perturbed at either of them, she certainly didn't let it
  show. Nuria was just finishing her coffee when the doorbell rang. She
  answered the door to find a delivery man standing there with a dozen red
  roses in a vase. Carla and  
 
"They're not from
  Quentin," she said, "They're from Sean--my other student I met with
  last night." 
 
"Damn," asked
  Carla, "What happened last night?" 
 
"Nothing,"
  protested Nuria, "at least not with Sean. I'm going to help edit his
  book. That must be what these are for." 
 
"I don't know,"
  teased Carla, "That's not what red roses mean to me." 
 
"They're lovely,"
  said Nuria, "but Sean's not interested that way. He purposely left early
  last night so that Quentin and I could be alone." 
 
She had barely put the
  flowers down in the center of the kitchen table when the doorbell rang again.
  This time, a different deliver person handed her a spray of hot house
  orchids, also in a vase. 
 
"These," she
  said, checking the card, "are from Quentin." 
 
"How romantic,"
  said Carla, "I wonder if they'll duel." 
 
"It's not like
  that," said Nuria weakly, "Okay, it might be like that." She
  sighed, "I guess I'd better figure out what the hell is going on. But, I
  have too much to do this morning. I have to get dressed and get to the office
  and, oh shit, I have to call the bookstore manager and let him know I won't
  be in on Monday." 
 
The manager took her news
  with relative equanimity and took the opportunity to ask her out, since they
  weren't going to be working together. Nuria considered it momentarily. She
  remembered him, a tall, earnest black man with a shaved head. She suspected
  he'd be rather capable in bed. 
 
"I'm flattered,"
  she said finally, "and if I were single, I would say yes, but I'm seeing
  someone." 
 
"I suspected as
  much," he said, "Well, good luck to you. When you've got a whole
  stable of big name clients, I hope you'll throw a book signing or two our
  way." 
 
"Will do," said
  Nuria, "and thank you." She hoped she hadn't ruined one more outlet
  for overqualified job-hunters everywhere. She made a mental note to do
  something for him as soon as she could. Then, she was off. She shooed  
 
 
 
Nuria nodded, unsure of her
  ability to speak. Finally, she said, "That's very sweet of you." 
 
"Yeah," said  
 
Nuria kissed her, "Say
  that again when I've sucked up all of your life energy to keep me
  young." 
 
 
 
Then, Nuria was out the
  door. She looked at herself in the mirror on the elevator's back
  wall--charcoal grey suit, white blouse, severe bun, heavy black trench coat, lightly-smoked
  glasses with gold frames, stylish but professional, skirting androgyny
  without falling into it. She felt a rush of confidence. 
 
In the car on the way over,
  she leaned into the plush backseat. They'd only sent a town car, but it was
  the first time in a year she'd been in a car where the seat covers weren't
  naugahyde. Even small luxuries were to be savored. 
 
The offices of Aqueduct
  Books took the top three floors of an ancient-looking building off of  
 
They introduced themselves
  by name and function. Kate Bakersfield turned out to be a wiry,
  intense-looking redhead in her mid-forties and dressed in a red suit with
  black accessories, the only break in the room's otherwise monochrome dress
  code. She introduced herself as the publisher. 
 
"Marcie," she
  asked Nuria's guide, "Would you ring up the caterers and see where the
  food is? It should have been here already." 
 
Marcie managed to give the
  illusion of clicking her heels and kowtowing with only a single inclination
  of the head, "Yes, ma'am. I'll take care of that now." 
 
"Marcie," she
  said to Nuria, "is one of our most amazing interns. When she goes back
  to school, this whole operation will probably come crumbling down around our ears.
  Any time you can't figure out how to do something, ask her." 
 
Kate, two graying men in
  gray suits, and a severe-looking man, probably approaching forty, sat on one
  side of the table, Nuria and a younger man, blond man in a black suit on the
  other. Kate Bakersfield asked, "Have you brought representation?" 
 
Nuria fought down the urge
  to panic. For a few seconds, she forgot what the word 'representation' was a
  euphemism for. But, the man sitting on her right said, "Miss Delgado,
  I'm Andre Furst. Mr. Edwards asked me to make myself available to you today
  if you required representation. Naturally, you are under no obligation to
  accept my assistance." 
 
Nuria thought that he
  looked a bit young, "Are you experienced with this kind of thing?" 
 
Andre smiled at her, a bit
  condescendingly, "I'm second counsel for Mr. Edwards's literary agents,
  Corman, Brubaker, and Howe. I've been handling literary contracts for a
  little over twelve years." When she didn't speak, he added, "If you
  like, I could FedEx a copy of my bona fides to you." 
 
"Mr. Furst's
  representation will be fine," Nuria said, "I presume the contract
  is fairly close to boilerplate." 
 
"There are a few
  non-standard clauses," Kate Bakersfield admitted as if she had been
  caught at something, "to delineate the point structure on your first
  deal, the special performance bonuses I mentioned over the phone, and a
  right-to-terminate clause should Mr. Edwards choose another publisher other
  than us or his current publisher for any of his next three novels or if he should
  fail to produce for us a novel in the next twelve months." 
 
Nuria looked to Andre Furst
  for guidance. Andre Furst read the contract intently.  She stared at her copy of it, but beyond
  knowing the word "boilerplate," she really didn't know how to identify
  which text was important and which was standard form. She was barely through
  the first of six pages when her lawyer looked up, "Is it all right if we
  use this room to talk privately for a few minutes?" 
 
"Of course," said
  Kate Bakersfield, "Once we've got this settled, I can show you the
  office you'll be sharing with Mr. Geschbach." She indicated the youngest
  man on her side of the table. "He'll be your editorial partner while you
  get acclimated. I apologize for the crowded conditions, but we've been
  growing like crazy for the last few years and we want to make sure it's not
  cyclical before we start looking at more space. 
 
Once they'd left, Andre
  Furst explained the non-standard portions of the contract to her point by
  point, efficiently and intelligibly. Nuria asked a few questions about
  specific clauses and, once they had been answered, said, "One more
  question, please." 
 
"Yes," asked Mr.
  Furst. 
 
"Should I sign
  it?" Nuria asked. 
 
Mr. Furst shrugged, "I
  don't think I can answer that question for you." 
 
"Okay," said
  Nuria, "Let me try a different tack. My one foray into publishing was
  for a company that could have almost fit into this conference room. I never
  signed a written contract. If you were evaluating this contract in order to
  decide whether or not to sign it, which elements could be sticking
  points?" 
 
"Well," he said,
  "the clause allowing them to release you without cause
  if Mr. Edwards doesn't produce a book for them in a year is fairly draconian,
  but probably not negotiable. They're making extraordinary financial
  concessions based on your experience and probably feel like they deserve
  something in return. The main sticking point wouldn't be on the contract,
  though. 
 
"Oh?" asked
  Nuria. 
 
"It's this 'editorial
  partner' business. It's usually only done if a celebrity editor is brought in
  and not really qualified for the job. They're kind of a ghost editor, rather
  like a ghost writer. If I were going to argue with any of it, I'd argue with
  that." 
 
Nuria thought about it,
  "If I'm competent, how much of an impediment could a ghost editor
  be?" 
 
Mr. Furst shrugged,
  "That doesn't really call for a legal opinion. If you want my personal
  opinion, though, I'd say that it's unlikely that he could be more of an
  impediment as your editorial partner than as a fellow editor who happens to
  share an office with you. But, it could be a blow to your reputation if it
  got out that you had an editorial partner." 
 
Nuria nodded, "Thank
  you, Mr. Furst. You've put my mind at rest. I'm going to sign the contract as
  it stands, then." 
 
Furst stood up and extended
  his hand to shake, "Congratulations on your new job, Miss Delgado." 
 
                                  -=- 
 
Staring at her signature on
  one side of that contract and Kate Bakersfield's on the other, Nuria wondered
  briefly if she was dreaming. When she'd been working for the specialty press,
  barely scratching out a living, particularly when covering paychecks had
  become a hit-or-miss prospect, she'd often fantasized about working for a
  big, prestigious firm, which Aqueduct books looked like it might be some day.
  Navigating her way through the maze of cubicles, boxes, filing cabinets, and
  other assorted fire code violations did nothing to dampen her enthusiasm. 
 
Her office brought her back
  down to Earth a little. There was an equipment-moving cart being piled with
  file boxes. She recognized one of the people doing the piling as Mr.
  Geschbach, who was going to be her "editorial partner." He seemed
  to be commiserating with the other man. 
 
Nuria decided that she
  should probably just come back on Monday. It seemed obvious that whoever had
  been using the desk she was being assigned was in the process of moving out.
  She started to withdraw when Mr. Geschbach looked up. 
 
"Oh," he said,
  "I wasn't expecting you to start until Monday. Your desk is not quite
  ready yet." 
 
"I didn't mean to
  intrude," she said quickly, "I'll come back." 
 
"No," said the
  other man, throwing his desk blotter on top of the boxes on the cart,
  "That's the last of it. It's all yours." 
 
Nuria didn't know what to
  say. The man looked to be about her age, maybe a few years younger. He was
  dressed in blue jeans and a black button-down shirt, his brown hair neatly
  coiffed. He gripped the handle of the equipment cart and pushed to get it to
  start moving. As he walked past her, his eyes raked over her body. Then, he
  gave a snort of laughter and was gone. 
 
Nuria looked to Mr.
  Geschbach for some sort of explanation as to what was going on. His eyes were
  blank. When she didn't speak, he turned away from her and went back to his
  desk. Nuria stood there, feeling lost, bewildered, and hurt. She didn't want
  to sit at the now-bare desk or speak, but was afraid she would exacerbate
  whatever bad feelings were going on here. 
 
Just as Nuria decided she
  would have to do something, Marcie poked her head in, "Miss Delgado,
  there's a phone call for you on the main line. Can I have them transfer it in
  here?" 
 
Nuria looked down at the
  phone. She was relieved to see that it was a familiar model that she would not
  need help answering, "Yes please, Marcie," she said, so relieved
  she wanted to kiss the intern for her fortuitous timing. 
 
She sat on the edge of the
  desk that was meant to be hers and picked up the phone when it rang. 
 
"Nuria," said the
  voice on the other end, "So glad I could catch you." 
 
"Quentin?" she
  asked. 
 
"No," said the
  voice, "It's me, Sean. I don't have your number at home and was hoping
  to get a hold of you today." 
 
"Sean," she said,
  "It's good to hear from you again." 
 
"I was hoping I could meet
  with you today," said Sean, "and give you the current draft of my
  manuscript. Are you free for lunch?" 
 
Nuria had nothing planned
  for the rest of the day. She looked over at Mr. Geschbach who was
  fastidiously ignoring her. She said carefully, "That would be nice.
  Where would you like to meet?" 
 
He named a place and time.
  Nuria said, "That would be fine. I'll see you there." 
 
Mr. Geschbach didn't look
  up, "Was that J. X. Wolffe?" 
 
"No," said Nuria,
  "It was...another writer I'm working with, a friend of Mr.
  Wolffe's." 
 
"Come Monday, I would
  like to know where Mr. Wolffe is on his manuscript for us or if it even
  exists," He looked up at her finally, "I found out about two hours
  ago that a big portion of my success or failure as an editor is tied up in a
  book that I've never heard of by an author that, while successful in a
  specific genre, has no track record anywhere else. So, I apologize if it
  seems I am being particularly unfriendly." 
 
"I'm sure..."
  Nuria began. 
 
"Oh," said Mr.
  Geschbach, "and that was my protégé you just saw packing up his stuff to
  move back into the bullpen I worked so hard to get him out of. I recognize
  that none of this is your fault, but I can't say that I'm crazy about the
  position I've been put in. But, I am a professional and I will be
  professional about it." 
 
"Thank you for
  that," said Nuria. 
 
"I do hope that you're
  a competent editor, Miss Delgado," he said, "I will see you on
  Monday." 
 
Dismissed, Nuria would have
  fled if there weren't an obstacle every few feet. As it was, she got so
  turned around that she found herself passing the same landmarks two and three
  times.  It was Marcie who came to her
  rescue yet again. She was coming up one of the straight-aways at a trot,
  mouthing words into her headset, and working a PDA with both hands. Nuria was
  still marveling at her coordination when the young intern almost barreled
  over her. 
 
"Marcie," Nuria
  said sharply, her voice a mixture of alarm and relief. 
 
Marcie, who had barely
  broken stride, took a wide turn while nesting the stylus back into the PDA's
  body and snapping it shut. When she looked up, her face was apologetic,
  "Miss Delgado, I'm so sorry. I didn't see you there." 
 
Nuria wanted to retort that
  she had been standing in what passed for an open space here, but bit it back,
  "It's all right, Marcie. But, I seem to have become a little lost. How
  do I get back to reception?" 
 
Marcie smiled, "That's
  easy to do. I need to talk to some people in graphics. If you want to wait
  here just a minute, I can be your Sherpa." 
 
Nuria laughed, "Are
  you sure you'll be able to find me again. This is sort of the middle of
  nowhere." 
 
Marcie looked around,
  taking her bearings, "Actually," she said, "this is the outer
  edge of editorial." She pointed to a large cube with a long desk running
  around the edge and more than a dozen people crammed in, "That's the
  bullpen, where the juniors work. Along this wall are the main editorial
  offices. That's your office peeking out from behind the file units. If you'd
  like, you can follow me to graphics. They have their own door into the
  hallway and it's a straight run to the elevators." 
 
Nuria nodded, causing
  Marcie to take off again at more of a canter than a trot this time, "How
  do you find anything here?" 
 
From Nuria's perspective,
  Marcie's speech emanated from the back of her blonde-streaked head at a point
  just below where she'd bound her hair up in a pair of decorative chopsticks.
  She said, "The mess is kind of iterative. I've been here about two
  years, one as a twelve-hour intern, one as a three-day-a-week practicum and
  I've noticed that the place starts out more or less looking like an office,
  then gets more and more lax about where things go as we get nearer a big
  release date. Then, there's a celebratory week. Then, missives start going
  out that we have to comply with fire codes. That starts the whole cycle
  again. We just had a big release on Wednesday, so you're seeing the worst of
  it." As she spoke, she led Nuria down an internal staircase. 
 
"Fortunately,"
  she continued, seemingly taking her first breath since she started answering
  the question, "the mess always seems to accumulate in the same places.
  If office management would observe where these places were and move permanent
  storage to those spots, it would probably short circuit the whole process." 
 
Marcie seemed to have
  remembered something critical halfway through the answer and pulled out her
  PDA again. She was now navigating the staircase without looking while keying
  something into the device and talking rapidly. At the bottom of the
  staircase, she continued her forward motion. Nuria now realized that people
  seemed to know who Marcie was and get out of her way before she ran into
  them. Nuria wondered briefly why such respect was paid to a mere intern. But
  then, they were inside of the graphics department. 
 
As chaotic as the rest of
  the offices were, they had at least been organized chaos. Even Marcie put
  away her PDA and slowed down to a walk. It seemed like four out of every five
  people working in the department were in constant motion. Most of them, in terms
  of age and dress, would not have looked out of place at a rave. 
 
The person Marcie was
  seeking sat at a desk more or less in the middle of the department. He turned
  away from his computer, not bothering to hide his game of solitaire, when he
  saw her coming, "Marcie," he said, "It's always a surprise to
  see you down here. Didn't we put enough goat's blood
  over the threshold?" 
 
"It was lamb's blood,
  Brad," said Marcie, "and we've got a problem with one of the back
  cover reviews on the pre-release copies of Raisin Girl. Apparently, Ron Vetterling is quoted as calling the
  author 'sweet and generous.'" 
 
"Yeah," said
  Brad, "I remember the quote, thought it seemed kind of out of place as a
  literary review." 
 
"According to Kate, it
  was meant to soften Anne's image to people who find her unsympathetic." 
 
"She is
  unsympathetic," said Brad, "People don't know the half of it." 
 
"Apparently, Mr.
  Vetterling agrees with you," said Marcie, "He did not call her
  'sweet and generous.' He called her 'sui generis.'" 
 
"Well, that's not
  entirely uncomplimentary," said Brad. 
 
"No," said
  Marcie, "but it apparently wasn't meant as a compliment in context. He's
  insisting we pull the quote. I just wanted to give you the heads-up that a fresh
  review layout that will probably screw up all of your pretty white balancing.
  They'll want to slipstream it in. Supposedly, fact checking will have it to
  you by 3 pm, but Kate wanted me to put a bug in your ear in case they drag
  their feet." 
 
"That's perilously
  close to a mixed metaphor," said Brad. He gave Marcie a winning smile,
  white teeth centering rugged blond good looks. Nuria wondered how Marcie
  could look so unaffected by it. If it had been directed at her, she'd have a
  hard time not swooning. 
 
"Just wanted to give
  you the heads-up," said Marcie, "Brad, this is Nuria Delgado. She's
  starting as a junior editor on Monday." 
 
"A pleasure,"
  said Brad, turning his smile on her. Nuria nodded, unable for a moment to
  find her voice. 
 
"The door to the hall
  is straight down this aisle," Marcie said, gently pulling Nuria away
  from Brad. 
 
"Nice to meet
  you," Nuria finally said. Brad waved. A minute later, Nuria was out in
  the hallway. She thanked Marcie and made a note to talk to the young woman
  more when they had a chance. But now she would have to hurry if she was going
  to make it to lunch on time. 
 
                            -=- 
 
Traffic and the inability
  to immediately find a cab made Nuria a little over ten minutes late. Sean
  still wasn't there yet, so she took a seat at the bar, glad to have the time
  to compose herself and get her head into a good space. 
 
Unfortunately, her thoughts
  did not seem to want to go where she directed them. As soon as she sat down,
  she started thinking about  
 
Unless, she added to herself,
  Quentin really was interested. She really was living on his good graces at
  the moment. She'd already started flirting with bookstore managers for jobs
  that paid seven dollars an hour. She shuddered to think what she would have
  done if a plush job like this had been provided by someone she found
  repulsive--laid back and thought of England, probably. It had gotten that
  close to the wire. 
 
She was entertaining that
  depressing thought when Sean arrived, snow falling from the shoulders of his
  smartly-tailored coat, his mane of black hair glistening in the overhead
  light. He smiled warmly, "Nuria," he said, "glad that you
  could make it." 
 
She stood up to receive a
  hug and a kiss on the cheek. Sean put a manuscript box on the counter,
  "Sorry I'm late," he said, "I had an awful time with the
  printer and the copy shop today. I wanted to make sure that you had the
  latest version of my book to look at." 
 
Nuria looked down at the
  box, "I'm looking forward to reading it." 
 
"Good, good,"
  said Sean, "I think you'll like it. Keep an eye on it, please, while I
  get my coat checked and get us a table." Then, he was off. 
 
Nuria opened the box long
  enough to see the title page, "Camelot, by Sean Riley." She had
  opened the front page only long enough to see that it wasn't really formatted
  as a manuscript yet before Sean was back. 
 
"Please," he
  said, "No reading for now. I get embarrassed knowing that someone is
  reading my work, particularly if I can see them. Besides, I was hoping we
  could catch up on old times today." His smile was infectious and Nuria
  found herself smiling back. She complied with his request, taking the
  manuscript with her to the table. Sean was already talking to her as they
  moved. Nuria didn't respond until they had sat down. 
 
"Ah," she said,
  "this is better. I feel like I've spent all morning talking to the backs
  of people's heads." 
 
"How's that?"
  Sean asked. 
 
"I got completely lost
  in our offices trying to find my way out," Nuria said, "I ended up
  having to latch onto an intern and ride her to the front door." 
 
"Ride her?" Sean
  asked, raising an eyebrow in amusement. 
 
"Follow her," Nuria corrected herself, flushing a little,
  "I'm sure I said follow. What do you recommend here?" 
 
Sean seemed to know the
  restaurant and its menu well. The staff knew him by name and seemed to be
  able to call up specific details of his life. Restaurant and cuisine were
  nouveau boho, Asian-fusion-cum-American-diner with a bit of coffeehouse
  thrown in, the clientele mostly pomo--post-modern, post-ironic, and beyond
  hip. The snippets of conversation overheard on the way to the table and the
  number of cell phones, laptop computers and PDAs indicated to Nuria that this
  was a place where a lot of new media business got done. In and of itself,
  that was a bit of a revelation. She decided that rumors of the new media's
  death must be greatly exaggerated. It seemed alive and well here. They
  ordered lunch and wine and made small talk about the last few days until the
  wine arrived. 
 
"So," Sean asked,
  "Want to give me the short version of what's been going on in your life
  for the last ten years or should I go first? I've been rehearsing." 
 
Nuria laughed, "Why
  don't you go ahead then, while I gather my thoughts." 
 
"Okay," said
  Sean, "Two more years of high school after you left. Then, two years at  
 
" 
 
"I fell in love with  
 
"POTS line?"
  Nuria asked. 
 
"Land lines,"
  said Sean, "regular old telephones. Most of the people we sold cell
  phones to never had a phone of their own before. And they were just getting
  into broadband when I left." 
 
"I'm sorry," said
  Nuria, "I'm so technologically illiterate. I don't know what that means
  either." 
 
"Actually, I should
  apologize," said Sean, "I'm generally surrounded by people who make
  me look like a dilettante. I'm really more interested in technology as a
  means to an end, but most of my friends have fetishized it." 
 
Nuria chuckled,
  "Carla, one of my roommates, is like that. She does a lot with the
  Internet and seems to love the technology for its own sake. Half the time,
  even when she thinks she's dumbed down what she's saying for a non-technical
  audience, I'm completely lost." 
 
"How many roommates do
  you have?" Sean asked. 
 
"Two," said
  Nuria, "Carla and  
 
"So," said Sean,
  amusement sparkling in his eyes, "they're my age." Nuria thought
  about it and nodded. Sean went on, "Do I make you feel old, Nuria?" 
 
Nuria felt herself give a
  sharp intake of breath. Sean had always been a relentless flirt, even in the
  eighth grade, but there was an earnestness to this
  question that she hadn't expected. She examined Sean's face. He didn't flinch
  away. If she had run into him alone, without Quentin, or she hadn't known him
  at all, she could be quite attracted to him. As it was, she treaded
  cautiously. 
 
"No," she said,
  "you and Quentin make me feel much younger." 
 
Sean chuckled, "I must
  say that Quentin seemed quite smitten with you last night." 
 
"Oh, really?"
  asked Nuria, not wanting to pry, but desperate to know, "Did he get home
  all right?" 
 
"Yes," said Sean
  laughing, "He apparently walked the twenty-five blocks from your
  apartment to his after dropping you off. You had him in quite a state." 
 
Serves him right, thought
  Nuria. What she said was, "Oh?" 
 
"He was afraid he went
  too far with you," said Sean, "To hear him talk, you'd think he was
  still fourteen years old, trying to get you to lean over his desk so he could
  look down your shirt." 
 
"He never..."
  started Nuria. 
 
"Of course he
  did," said Sean, "a lot of boys did. A lot
  of us were in love with you at the time, as we understood it. The only time
  Quentin really got in trouble was when he punched Kyle Loughlin in the face
  for repeating one of those rumors about you." 
 
"I remember
  that," said Nuria, "He never would tell me why he did that. I wound
  up having him suspended for it." 
 
Sean looked amused, "Yes,
  always the little stoic. He would rather take the fall than even acknowledge
  to you that the rumors existed." 
 
Nuria lowered her eyes,
  "I wish I'd known. He really shouldn't have done that." 
 
"Water under the
  bridge now," said Sean, "although some things haven't changed. He
  was horribly upset to find out that you were...." he seemed to be
  searching for the right word, then settled on, "human--with regular
  human urges." 
 
Nuria laughed a little
  uncomfortably, "I tried not to let my humanity show." 
 
"Well," said
  Sean, patting her hand comfortingly, "there's no need for pretense here.
  I never thought any worse of you for the rumors." 
 
Nuria looked up at him,
  startled. She understood what he wasn't saying. Because of the way she had
  been approached, she'd altered her thinking of Quentin from former student
  with a schoolboy crush to possibly paramour. But, she'd still been thinking
  of Sean the way she'd known him at fourteen. She may have had a lustful
  thought or two about him, but she'd always pushed them down as inappropriate.
  Forced to look at him in a new light, she realized that he was a charming
  young man who had nursed a crush just as long as Quentin had. Based on what
  Sean had told her, it seemed increasingly unlikely that anything was going to
  happen with Quentin. Sean, on the other hand, seemed to know or at least
  intuit who she was, and accept that. If he was as good of a writer as Quentin
  claimed, he'd most likely be entering a more stable phase of his life
  following publication. He had the brooding good looks of the "Black
  Irish" side of his family and was in good shape physically.  Nuria decided that she would have to read
  his book and see if he was good enough to be published. It was an odd
  criterion by which to choose a lover, but she'd had enough directionless
  young men in her time. It wasn't really what she was looking for any more. 
 
"So," said Sean,
  "Your turn." 
 
"Okay," said
  Nuria, ticking it off on her fingers, "Got married. Moved to be with my
  husband. He died in a fire two years later. Wasn't offered tenure in the new
  school district. Spent four years editing Spanish-language trade books. When
  they closed, things got rough. I've been looking for work ever since, almost
  two years. I was getting pretty desperate." 
 
"And then Quentin
  showed up on his white charger, his armor gleaming in the sun," said
  Sean, "You would be surprised how many times he's done that. He always
  seemed to be rushing around saving someone. He did it for me. He did it for
  Mayumi. You'll want to watch that one, incidentally. She's totally in love
  with Quentin and he hasn't got a clue." 
 
"She is?" Nuria
  asked, "I saw them together. I didn't see it." 
 
"And that," said
  Sean, taking another drink of wine, "is why that relationship will never
  happen. She's too subtle and he's clueless. When I asked him about it, he
  said, 'I wouldn't want to impose on her gratitude.' But, that won't keep her
  from baring her fangs at anyone who gets too close to him." 
 
"That's too bad,"
  said Nuria, not really talking about Mayumi. 
 
"Yeah," said Sean,
  "except that it's just as well for me. She doesn't like me at all,
  thinks I'm a bad influence and that I'm pushing him not to write any more
  Barrens Princess books." 
 
"Are you?" asked
  Nuria. 
 
Sean shrugged, "He's not
  very happy writing them. He was already writing Perfect Solution before I came back to  
 
The rest of the
  conversation was much lighter. Nuria couldn't remember the last time she'd
  laughed so hard. Sean was funny and engaging, in turns self-deprecating and
  ironically self-aggrandizing. He regaled her with stories of  
 
All the time, Sean kept his
  hands to himself, but Nuria could see his eyes tracking over her body
  whenever he didn't think she was watching. When they finally got up to leave
  and Sean got her coat for her, Nuria deliberately rubbed up against him
  through the coat and felt him react physically before flinching away. 
 
Outside, it was starting to
  snow heavily and cabs seemed a commodity. Sean told her to take the first one
  he managed to hail. 
 
"Don't be silly,"
  Nuria said, "We can share. Where are you headed?" 
 
"My studio," said
  Sean, "It's up on  
 
"I'm probably going
  back up to the apartment," said Nuria, "we'll stop at the studio
  first." 
 
In the car, Sean said,
  "So, you'll have to let me know what you think of the manuscript." 
 
Nuria smiled, "I'll
  get on it tonight. Is there any chance I could see some of your painting some
  time, too?" Sean looked at her, surprise registering in his face. She
  pressed on, "I remember how much you loved art class. I'd like to see what
  you've done with it." 
 
"Sure," said
  Sean, his voice registering the cold, "You can come up now if you
  like." 
 
The studio turned out to be
  basically what she expected--a small fourth-floor walk-up about the size of
  an apartment with very little furniture, a single sink, a second-hand sofa, a
  space with camera and easel set up, a disorganized computer desk piled high
  with papers and crammed with three monitors, side-by-side. It was colder
  inside the studio than outside. 
 
Sean quickly started moving
  around the studio turning on space heaters, "There's no central heat and
  bathroom and darkroom facilities are shared. I was actually living here for a
  couple of weeks before Quentin asked me to move in with him. I like to keep
  it nice and warm for the models' sake. 
 
Nuria looked at a painting
  over the computer desk. It showed a dark-haired, pale-skinned woman in
  repose, seemingly sleeping, wearing nothing more than a drape seemingly
  thrown carelessly across her lap, "I can see how you'd want it to be
  nice and warm if you were going to dress like that." 
 
Sean came up behind her,
  "Actually, that's Sasha. I did that in  
 
Nuria looked more closely.
  She began to notice details like the deep relaxation of the muscles and the
  tousled hair. Once you looked for it, the pose was obviously post-coital, but
  it was otherwise easy to miss. 
 
It was getting warmer in
  the studio and Nuria was glad to shrug out of her coat. Sean took it and hung
  it in the closet. Nuria said, "She was very beautiful." 
 
"I always thought
  so," said Sean, "but not particularly in the conventional sense.
  You can really see it there. That's why I love that painting." 
 
Nuria sat down on the
  couch, "When you were losing your place, why didn't you sell some of
  your paintings?" 
 
"I did," said Sean, "but most of what I paint is crap. I don't
  have the patience to be very good at it. That's probably the only decent
  piece I didn't sell. I kept lots of crap, though, if you'd like to see
  it." 
 
Nuria laughed, "I
  would love to." 
 
"I have some wine in
  the mini-fridge," Sean added, "Would you like some? I find that my
  work looks much better after a glass or two." 
 
Nuria laughed again,
  "I've already had more than a glass or two.  I don't need any more wine, thank
  you." 
 
"Me too,"
  admitted Sean, "I don't usually drink that much, particularly in the
  middle of the day. I'm feeling a bit light-headed." 
 
"Maybe you should come sit down," Nuria suggested, moving to one side
  of the couch. 
 
"No," said Sean,
  coming out with a stack of canvasses, "I'll be okay." 
 
Nuria realized that Sean
  actually wanted to show her his paintings. While she would have been happy to
  look at them any other time, she had to stifle a groan of frustration. 
 
"These are what I've
  worked on this year," said Sean, "but don't have the display space
  for. You should really walk the walls to see the best I have." 
 
Nuria hauled herself to her
  feet to do as he'd suggested. Sean followed her, describing each piece. A few
  pieces showed flashes of brilliance. Most showed capability. A few had
  obvious flaws. Several times, while Sean was explaining a painting to her,
  Nuria would back into him. After the second time, he realized that it wasn't
  an accident and stopped flinching. By the time they had made the full
  circuit, Sean was resting his hand comfortably on her waist, leaning into
  her, surreptitiously smelling her hair. Nuria felt her own breathing come
  faster. Even his light touch was electrifying to her. 
 
"So," she said,
  turning in profile to him without moving away, her breasts brushing against
  his arm, "did you want to show me that pile you brought out." 
 
"Sure," he said,
  walking away from her. Nuria was stunned. She did not remember her students
  being this dense. She was ready to scream in frustration. 
 
She sat back down on the
  couch, sliding her feet out of her shoes and pulling them up under her. It
  was meant to be a sign, but she had begun to suspect at this point that, if
  she stripped naked and danced around seductively, Sean would run around
  turning on more space heaters. 
 
As Sean started to show her
  the paintings he'd brought out of storage, Nuria realized that they were not
  chosen for their quality, but for their subject matter. As he got two-thirds
  of the way down the stack, Nuria said, "Goodness, Sean. You've certainly
  had a lot of naked women up here. These are pretty good. Why do you keep them
  in the closet?" 
 
Sean chuckled, "I find
  that they're somewhat off-putting. The more I display, the harder it is to
  get subsequent models to work with me, particularly if they're not sure
  they're ready to pose nude. As I said, I have something of a short attention
  span sometimes. I find that this particular subject matter holds my attention
  better than most." 
 
He showed her the last
  picture in the stack. It was easily the best of the batch, "This shows
  real talent," said Nuria, "It's really good. You've really....hey,
  this is Carla." 
 
Sean looked like a trapped
  rabbit, "You know Carla?" 
 
"Sean," said
  Nuria, "this is my roommate, Carla." 
 
"This is your roommate
  Carla?" Sean asked, "Somehow, I didn't picture you as living with
  her. She's a trip, a real free spirit, one of the most sincere people I ever
  met." 
 
"So," said Nuria,
  standing to get a closer look at the painting, "if I were to mention
  your name to Carla, would she remember you fondly?" 
 
"I...I think so,"
  said Sean, "Our association was fairly brief." 
 
Nuria meandered into the
  portion of the studio set up for painting and sat down on the model's bench.
  After finding a place to lean the paintings, Sean followed her in, standing a
  respectful distance away. Nuria tried to draw him in with her eyes, but he
  stayed on the perimeter. 
 
"So," she asked,
  "is this where she sat while you painted her?" 
 
"Actually," said
  Sean, "She was sort of lying down, draped across it." 
 
Nuria smiled, finally
  getting somewhere. She lay down, approximating the pose, untying the bun in
  her hair so that it cascaded down her shoulders, but still dressed in her
  cream-colored blouse and tan skirt, "Like this?" 
 
Sean nodded, seemingly struck
  dumb. He took a step, but it was towards the easel. Finally, giving up any
  hope of being subtle, Nuria said, "Sean, come here and sit by me for a
  minute." 
 
Sean did as he was asked.
  Nuria, now on her hands and knees, rolled just enough to look up into his
  eyes, "Sean," she said reasonably, "if I take my clothes off
  and you go over to the easel and start painting, first I will scream, then I
  will run out that door. You're driving me..." 
 
Finally, he cut off her
  words with a kiss. Nuria let out a triumphant moan, leaning into the kiss.
  Now that the floodgates were open, he was all over her. Nuria found herself
  flat on her back, her legs around his waist, still being kissed. His hands
  frantically worked the buttons on the front of her blouse, stripping her
  efficiently to the waist. His mouth finally broke with hers, working down her
  neck into her cleavage, sucking and teasing her nipple with his tongue. Nuria
  pulled off his tie and shirt, her hands finding bare flesh underneath. She
  undulated beneath him, writhing as if he were already inside of her, her
  skirt riding up over her hips. 
 
Any hesitancy was gone now.
  Sean's big, strong hands divested her of skirt and hose, leaving her naked.
  He kissed her belly, his finger sliding into her, over her clitoris. Nuria
  gasped in pleasure. 
 
"You don't know,"
  he gasped out between kisses, "how many times...I imagined doing this to
  you." 
 
Nuria reached down,
  unzipping his fly, shucking his pants. She was already soaking wet and had
  been before even the first kiss. He was rock hard. She bucked against him,
  willing him to take her. But, he pulled away, moving his lips down her body
  until his tongue found its way between her legs. She moaned in frustration,
  but a second later, her moans were only pleasure. He worked her mercilessly,
  his tongue working in and out of her, his lips sucking and kissing her clit.
  Nuria shuddered with the intensity of it. Then, his tongue moved out of her
  and into her anus, working its way around, probing as deeply as it would go.
  Nuria wrapped her arms and legs around his head, moaning with abandon now.
  She couldn't believe how hard she was coming so soon. 
 
When he came back up to
  kiss her mouth, his body laid over hers, Nuria again tried to impale herself
  on his cock. Again, he pulled away. Nuria growled, "O God, Sean. Please
  fuck me." 
 
Sean laughed, "Miss
  Delgado, I'm shocked," his finger slid back inside of her, "What
  would you have done if you'd heard me use such language?" 
 
Nuria's eyes flashed,
  "I would have made sure you....unnh...you got a suitable...oh,
  God...punishment." 
 
Sean's laugh was richer
  now. Without another word, he buried himself inside of her, impaling her on
  his cock, pounding away immediately and intensely. Nuria, lost to the world
  already, lost track of everything but the sensation of his firm, young cock
  pistoning into her. He was driving against her with such abandon now that
  Nuria was afraid she would be bruised tomorrow. But, she didn't care about
  tomorrow. She rose up to meet him, her hips challenging him to obliterate her.
  She called out his name again and again, no longer fully aware of what she
  was saying. 
 
"So," said Sean,
  slowing down, but still pounding away at her, "should I punish
  you?" 
 
Nuria was too far gone to
  worry about the ominous tone of that question. She nodded her head
  vigorously. While she'd never particularly sought out that kind of sex play,
  she could enjoy it when it happened. 
 
Sean, as it turned out, had
  something different in mind. He pulled out of her and got off the bench,
  walking over towards the camera. Nuria, afraid he was going to start taking
  pictures, watched curiously. Instead, he reached into a small case next to
  the camera and brought out a small philter of oil. 
 
"Tool of the
  trade," he said, holing it up, "creates shininess where you want
  it." 
 
With one hand, he pulled
  her to the edge of the bench. He poured a bit of oil on his fingers. Then he
  slid one, then another, into her from behind. With his free hand, he held her
  pinned on the bench, her bottom jutting out over the edge where he violated
  it. Nuria looked up at him, a little fearfully. As wanton as she had been so
  far, this sent her even farther over the edge. She had turned this polite,
  nervous young man into a beast. Nuria felt powerful and vulnerable all at
  once. 
 
"Oh, yes," Nuria
  cried out, raising her hips higher, willing Sean to violate her more deeply
  and intensely, "yes," she said, over and over again, willing him
  not to hesitate, not to ask permission, just to violate her. 
 
Then, his fingers were gone
  from inside of her, replaced by his cock. The pain and pressure of being
  opened so deeply and violently lasted only a few seconds. She savored it,
  trembling, impaled. She was too overwhelmed to do anything but lie there on
  her back, Sean supporting the small of her back with one hand while pinning
  her by the breastbone with his other. His breathing was ragged, the only
  sound in the studio she was not making. Nuria knew he couldn't last much
  longer. She had already come some many times that her orgasms were no longer
  distinct events. Sean slowed down, savoring and prolonging the act. Then, he
  leaned down, so that his body was parallel with hers, his organ still deep
  inside of her. 
 
"Open your eyes,"
  he ordered. 
 
Nuria's eyes flew open at
  the tone of command in his voice. He started pounding away at her again,
  driving to a climax now. The sight of him pounding savagely into her drove
  Nuria even crazier than the feeling alone had. She cried out in pleasure, an
  incoherent sound, not words, just an expression of pleasure and triumph. The
  sound seemed to drive Sean over the edge. Nuria felt him explode inside of
  her. He lifted her in his arms while still pumping into her. Nuria wrapped
  her arms around his neck, bit his shoulder, held
  onto him like he was the mast in a shipwreck. She stayed there, wrapped
  around him, trembling with pleasure even after he slid out of her. Sean sat
  her on the edge of the bench, his big, powerful arms still wrapped around
  her, hers around him. He was raining kisses on her face and shoulders now.
  Nuria returned them weakly. 
 
Rather than let go of her,
  Sean carried scooped her up, one arm under the knees, one around the
  shoulders, and carried her to the couch. They sat there, intertwined, for a long
  time until their breathing calmed. 
 
"I can't tell you how
  happy you've made me, Nuria," Sean said, "I've wanted you for
  longer than I knew what it meant to want a woman." 
 
Nuria nodded against his
  chest. She hadn't known she wanted Sean until earlier today, so she said,
  "I thought you weren't going to go through with it." 
 
"I was," said
  Sean, "It's just that I'd been looking forward to it for so long, I
  didn't want it to be over too soon. Having you here, wanting me. I wanted to
  enjoy the moment." 
 
"You," Nuria
  said, kissing the bottom of his chin, "are a dreadful
  tease." 
 
Sean laughed, "Not
  usually. You seem to bring it out in me. Usually, I see what I want and I go
  for it." He kissed the top of her head, "I get slapped a lot,
  actually." 
 
Nuria nuzzled up against
  him, content to lie in his arms. His hands still caressed her body, gentle
  and teasing. Finally, he seemed to doze off. Nuria lay there for a while,
  listening to his breathing, before sliding away, gathering her clothes, and
  gliding out the door. 
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