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Princes of Mannsborough, Part 6a
by
Vulgar Argot
When Marigold woke, the
world seemed to have gone fuzzy around the edges. She was alone in the bed.
Her head ached. She'd slept so soundly that she had cricks in her neck and
back. She was still sticky from the night before.
Groaning, she hoisted
herself up onto her elbows, opening her eyes only reluctantly. Early morning
light slanted in from the window. On the bedside table, an airline-sized
bottle of vodka stood open, a third of the way full. Marigold chuckled
darkly. She'd never had much of a taste for alcohol, but this was ridiculous.
Sitting up on the edge of
the bed, Marigold rubbed her neck and tried to arch her back, balanced on one
hand. Standing, she placed a fist in the small of her back and leaned
backwards over it.
The door opened, admitting
"I didn't wake you,
did I?" he asked. Marigold shook her head in the negative.
"So,"
Marigold stroked her jaw,
considering the question, "Pretty professional."
Marigold nodded, but said
nothing. Instead, she turned her back and walked to the closet, extracting
her robe and wrapping it around herself.
"That reminds
me," said
As he held the box out,
Marigold stared at it warily.
Marigold reached out and
took the box. Considering all the things she'd been ordered to do, this was
easy. In fact, being ordered to do it actually seemed to take away some of
the guilt she normally associated with accepting gifts. Sitting on the bed
Indian-style, she slit the tape holding the paper together nearly with one
fingernail. For some reason, she felt that it was very important to behave like
a grown up right now.
She opened the box and drew
out a red, silken kimono. A lotus blossum was
painted across the back of it in loving detail.
"I suspect you won't
be able to wear that at home," said
Marigold stood up, her
hands going to the belt at her waist.
Marigold looked down
longingly at the robe, wanting to put it on, to have
Wrapping her arms around
"How do you feel this
morning?" he asked.
"Violated,"
Marigold said as if it didn't matter, "and sore."
"Do you mind as much
as you thought you would?"
Marigold lowered her head,
pressing it against
"No," she
whispered. "Not that much."
Marigold leaned into his
hand like a cat would, closing her eyes. She allowed herself to sink back
into the fantasy that
"You probably need to
get going," Marigold said, detaching herself
from his arms.
Marigold reached up and
smoothed his collar, "Much better. Only..."
"Thank you,
Marigold found herself
standing alone in the bedroom in front of the open closet. Somehow, when
she'd thought ahead to this weekend, no matter how she felt about it, she'd
assumed that
As long as he'd been there,
Marigold had felt...not right about what she was doing, but not exactly
wrong, either. She'd felt...absolved. She was only following orders. Whether
she enjoyed it or not didn't matter because it was coerced.
Looking in the mirror on
the back of the closet door, Marigold wondered what was wrong with the light
in this room that it made her eyes look so glassy, like she was about to cry.
The thought had barely crossed her mind when she found herself sagging to her
knees, laying her head against the mirror's cool surface, and weeping.
What was wrong with her?
Not ten minutes before, she'd been on an even keel, accepting of what had
happened. Now, she found herself fighting an urge to curl up in a ball on the
floor. She wanted nothing so desperately as to pull her old, comfortable
terrycloth robe out of her luggage, climb back into bed, and sleep.
She couldn't, though.
Taking a moment to brace
herself, she looked in the mirror again and heard her own involuntary snort
of laughter at just how ridiculous she looked. Spurred to action, she rose,
walked into the large main bathroom, and turned on the faucet for the big whirlpool
tub.
For a long time, she stared
at the running water, thinking nothing, letting the steam open her pores. She
needed cleansing. If she could just get clean, she would feel worlds better.
Of course she was miserable. With tears drying on her cheeks and something
that didn't bear investigating drying on the insides of her thighs, how could
she be anything but miserable?
Turning on the jets, she
stepped over the edge, relieved to see that the steam had already fogged up
the mirrors around the tub. Did this hotel have some kind of a weird mirror
fetish? Didn't they know that girl might want to have a place where she
didn't have to look at herself once in a while.
Not a girl, she corrected
herself, a woman. Wasn't that what they said after a girl had sex for the
first time--that she'd become a woman? Fine. She had
no idea what else she was now. At least she had one element of identity to
hold onto.
With the jets swirling
around her, pounding aches out of her muscles, Marigold tried to decide what
else she was. The first words that came to mind, unbidden, were "a
whore," but they didn't last. As much as she'd done last night, even
things she'd sworn to herself not so long ago that she would never do, she
had to acknowledge that, from a practical standpoint, it probably took more
than could be done in a single night with a single man to make a girl into a
proper whore.
She certainly wasn't
"the Virgin Marigold," anymore as Brianne had been so fond of
taunting her with. Idly, she fantasized about laughing in Brianne's
face the next time she brought out that old saw. Of course, that would leave
her in the position of explaining that it hadn't been with her boyfriend,
Elliot, but with
What was she going to do
about Elliot? She'd accepted that she was going to lose him and, with him,
her plans for what to do once school was over. With acceptance came the
realization that the thought of losing him didn't effect
her much either way. With one brief exception, he'd been her boyfriend for as
long as she'd had a boyfriend, but their relationship had never progressed
much beyond what it was when they were eleven years old. Earlier this year,
she'd been surprised to find that he had applied to schools outside of
What was left of her, then?
How would she describe herself?
She was a Christian still,
certainly. No matter how many of God's laws you broke, you didn't get
expelled from that. But, the more she saw of people who felt the need to
describe themselves as Christian, the less she felt comfortable attaching the
adjective to herself.
She was still going to be
Valedictorian.
She was still studious,
then. She was still going to Harvard, then John's Hopkins.
She tried that description
on for size, "Dr. Marigold Tarr, studious woman." The words echoed
back at her. The ridiculousness of it made her giggle.
What about the rest of her
plans? The wedding between college and medical school? The three children,
two girls and a boy, little Jonas II, Jessica, and Maya? She shrugged. She
would just have to find someone else to marry. Maybe that's what she would do
to
Most of the soreness had
melted away by now. Only her thighs still ached from the abuse they had
taken. Hanging over the edge of the tub, she straddled one of the jets.
Letting the water pound against one, then the other thigh, she was careful
not to hold herself so low that she would be masturbating, as much as she
might like to. The path of the righteous was often narrow and hard. Whatever
Still, it was with no small
measure of regret that she finally drained the tub. While she'd bathed, the
maid had come in, made the beds, and left more towels. She'd even taken away
the little vodka bottle. The room looked almost sterile in its cleanliness.
With all signs of the evening's debauch gone,
Marigold felt her spirits rise. She dried herself off and wrapped the kimono
around her body. It turned out to be surprisingly modest in cut even if the
feeling of silk against her skin seemed vaguely illicit.
Later, sitting on the
veranda, wrapped in the kimono, she drank too-bitter coffee made palatable
with cream and sugar, and nibbled on a croissant. The late spring sunlight
played on her skin, cooled by a gentle breeze. From far below, she heard
traffic noise. But, up here, she felt isolated, protected from the world.
"Dr. Marigold Tarr,
studious woman," she said again. This time, she didn't giggle, only
smiled. It didn't sound so bad.
-=-
After breakfast, Marigold
lounged on the couch in the suite's living room trying on her identity as a
sophisticated, sexual young woman. She could still feel
In the bedroom, she frowned
at her bathing suit. She'd bought it last year more with the idea of
flattening her figure than flattering it. The truth was that it didn't do
much of either. She would have to do something about that.
Downstairs, there were two
pools, one marked "family," the other "no children." She
took two steps towards the former before steeling herself and heading to the
"no children" side. She'd paid the dues of adulthood. She might as
well enjoy it.
Still half expecting to
hear someone yell at her to get back to the kiddie pool, Marigold dove into
the deep end, slicing neatly into the water. There was only one other swimmer
in the pool, cutting across the lanes, back and forth. Rather than risk
collision, Marigold swam in parallel with him, pushing herself hard. The
exertion felt good. She lost track of how many times she crossed before
noticing that the other swimmer had stopped and was trying to speak to her.
Latching onto the wall, she
turned to face him, "Excuse me?"
"I said, 'You're a
very strong swimmer.'" the man said, his voice thick with an Australian
accent, "You were leaving me in the dust out there."
"Oh," said
Marigold. "Thank you. I was just working out some tension."
The man nodded, "Me
too. I just spent most of the day on an airplane."
"From
"
Marigold took the hand and
introduced herself, "Nice to meet you."
Shaking her hand, Adam
said, "Well, Marigold. I know it's a bit early by the clock on the wall,
but I feel like it's about midnight. Can I offer you a drink?"
Marigold almost demurred
without thinking. She'd never really drunk alcohol. But, she paused and
appraised Adam. He was older, maybe by as much as ten years. She wondered if
"All right," she
said. "Something with vodka in it, I think."
Adam leveraged himself out
of the pool, "A screwdriver?"
Marigold nodded,
"Sure."
By the time Adam came back,
Marigold had wrapped herself in one of the hotel's robes and sat down at one
of the unoccupied tables at poolside. The drink was sweet and barely tasted
like alcohol.
"So," asked Adam,
sipping his beer. "Are you here with your husband?"
Marigold smiled. She must
be pulling off the adult act better than she thought. Not wanting to be
caught out for the game she was playing, she said, "Yes. He's meeting
some investors today."
"Oh," Adam's face
fell. "Only..."
"Only?"
"Well," said
Adam. "You're not wearing a ring."
"Oh," said
Marigold, her hands fluttering to her face at being caught in a lie.
"He's not really my husband yet. He's my fiancee."
Marigold was still
congratulating herself for the quick save when Adam said, "Still, no
ring?"
"Err..." said
Marigold. "We...that is...we'll have one
soon....once we graduate. Bartholomew’s going to be an electrical engineer.
Then, we'll have a ring and a big wedding."
"Oh," said Adam.
"Where do you go to school?"
"Harvard," said
Marigold. "My husband goes to MIT."
"Your fiancee,"
prompted Adam. "Bartholomew."
"
"So," asked Adam.
"Are you and
Marigold shook her head,
"Just for the weekend. Then we have to get back to
"That's a pity,"
said Adam. "I'm here for two weeks. It would be nice to have the company
of a couple of bright people my own age. It's been a long time since I've had
any real non-business-related contact. And, I'm not going to see my family
for another three months." He took a long slug from his beer.
"Family?"
Adam smiled, "My wife
and my two year old son,
"Your wife?"
Marigold glanced meaningfully at his hand.
Adam held up the appendage
in question displaying his bare ring finger, "I'm on the road six months
at a time. My wife is a very...understanding woman."
He made eye contact on the
last two words. Marigold looked away, "So, what do you do that keeps you
away from home so much?"
"I travel in
espionage."
"Excuse me?"
"I sell surveillance
equipment--tiny cameras, microphones, little recorders."
Marigold leaned her head on
her hand, "Really? How interesting."
Adam looked surprised,
"Really? Most people just think it's creepy. Personally, I'm a bit bored
with it. I sell mostly to big corporations and police departments."
The rest of the
conversation went much more smoothly. Marigold barely had to embellish on the
original lie. At some point, Adam went to get himself another beer and
brought her another screwdriver.
Marigold became so
engrossed in the conversation that she lost all track of time. Glancing at
the clock, she saw that it was nearly ten after two. Leaping to her feet, she
said, "Oh, God."
Adam's face showed concern,
"Is something wrong."
"No," said
Marigold hurriedly. "I just realized that I'm late. I have to go. It was
nice meeting you, Adam."
"You, too," said
Adam. "If you want to talk again or anything, I'm in room 822."
-=-
Marigold bolted back to the
suite, fearing what punishment might be waiting for her. Letting herself in,
she called out, "
Hearing no answer, Marigold
collapsed on the couch, feeling like she'd dodged a bullet. When
"You're in a much
better mood," he commented.
Marigold, who had
completely forgotten about her foul mood earlier in the day, realized that
she was just glad to see
"You've been drinking,"
he said, sounding surprised.
"You got me drunk last
night," Marigold pointed out, smiling. "I thought I should at least
see what alcohol tasted like. How was your meeting?"
"No," said
Marigold. "I didn't know if you would want to eat lunch together."
Marigold's heart sank at
the idea of running into Adam downstairs at the restaurant and having to
explain her story to
"All right," said
They took lunch on the
patio. For once, the conversation lacked its usual brooding intensity. When
Marigold asked
"Now I feel
stupid," said Marigold. "Not only could I not build something like
that, I still don't know what it is."
"I don't remember
learning any of that in school," said Marigold. "I must have been
out that day."
"We didn't," said
Before she could stop
herself, Marigold blurted out, "
"But..." said
Marigold, stunned.
"Yes?" asked
"Nothing," said
Marigold quietly.
"It's just
that...you're in such good shape," said Marigold. Still,
"And..."
Marigold's voice was a
whisper, "and you clearly know what you're doing in bed."
"And that makes me not
a geek?"
Marigold nodded, not
knowing where he was going with this conversation.
"So," he asked, his voice casual. "Who did you fuck to get to
get such good grades?"
Marigold sat bolt upright,
"No one.
"Couldn't be,"
said
It took Marigold a second
to realize what
"
"Marigold," he
said patiently. "I would think that, after the time we've spent
together, particularly at lunch, that you would have learned something."
"I have," said
Marigold, getting upset. "
"Yes," said
"All right," said
Marigold, looking up at him. "I'm begging. Please forgive me."
"I don't think that
seated is really the appropriate position from which to beg."
Marigold looked around in
stunned surprise. Looking straight at
After a moment,
"I'm sorry," said
Marigold, close enough to feel warmth radiating off his body. "I forgot
what I was supposed to be begging for."
"You were begging me
not to be mad at you for being a shallow, superficial bitch."
Marigold smiled to herself,
"Please,
"Marigold,"
Marigold was stunned. If
she wasn't down here to suck his cock, what was she there for? He couldn't
actually just want her down there, begging forgiveness for telling the truth
about geeks, could he? But, the longer she thought about it, the more she
realized that there were no obvious conclusions other than that one.
"Please,
He looked down at her, but
didn't say anything.
"Please,
"For what?"
"For what I
said," Marigold answered.
"Is that what I told
you to beg for?"
Marigold was stunned again,
but her response time for getting over being stunned was improving by leaps
and bounds, "Please,
"Are you contrite,
Little Flower?"
"Yes,
"Well," asked
"I don't know,"
admitted Marigold, "I'm not sure what's wrong with what I said. I am
sorry for making you angry, though."
"I'm not angry, Little
Flower," said
"June Kane," said
Marigold. "And the other cheerleaders." She thought about it,
"And the guys on the teams would probably repeat it." She lowered
her head, "Pretty much everyone, I guess--except the geeks
themselves."
"And, how would you be
different?"
"What?"
Marigold's head shot up.
"How would you be
different?"
"I wouldn't."
"But, you would be a
geek," said
"I wouldn't actually
be a geek," said Marigold. "just because
they called me a geek."
"Would you be
popular?"
Marigold lowered her head
again, "I suppose not. Are you saying that some of the geeks aren't
really geeks even though everyone calls them geeks?"
"I'm saying,"
"I watch TV,"
said Marigold defensively.
"Regardless,"
said
"Oh," said
Marigold. She thought for a moment, "Isn't that what the software you
wrote does?"
"I appreciate the
irony," said
"All right," said
Marigold, not willing to press the point.
"Stand up," said
Marigold hurried to obey.
When she came back,
Marigold nodded, gripping
the railing and closing her eyes. She trembled as
"
Marigold nodded.
His hand snaked down
between her legs, pushing them apart, a finger sliding just inside of her.
Marigold moaned again.
"God," said
Marigold nodded, surprising
herself. When she spoke, it was a rasp, "Yes."
"Now that I have your
attention, I will explain," said
Marigold let out a groan of
protest.
"The application I've
written applies generalizations for the purpose of creating a best guess of
group activities before specialization. For instance, if it were set up to
evaluate the actions of ten thousand cheerleaders, it could probably be right
seventy to seventy-five percent of the time on many questions. But, that
demographic would include you, Brianne, Dawn, Ioke,
Maya, and June Kane. In terms of individual analysis, it could be wildly off.
Does that make sense?"
As he spoke,
"Answering," Marigold
said, then moaned. "I...please don't stop what you're doing."
"It's not that,"
protested Marigold pressing herself against
"All right," said
Marigold wanted to deny it,
but wondered what answer
Freshman year, when she'd
been a cheerleader, had been another story. Depending on how much
"I...I don't
know," she finally blurted out.
"Too hard to
think?"
"No," said
Marigold quietly, laying her head on the railing. "I just don't know
anymore. I was pretty awful. I did a lot of things I'm not proud of. I don't
know if I was as bad as Brianne, but...I'm so sorry,
Marigold wanted to. But,
she couldn't open her mouth to say the words. She wanted abosultion,
but desperately didn't want
Marigold stood up, turning
to be taken into
"
He turned around, smirking,
"Going to what?"
"Make love to
me?" Marigold asked, voice barely above a
whisper.
-=-
When
Emboldened, Marigold raised
her hips, trying to impale herself on
"
"Do you want me to
fuck you?" he growled in her ear.
Marigold nodded
emphatically, "God, yes. You've got me so worked up. I can't stand it. I
just want you inside me again."
"Spread your
legs," he ordered. When Marigold did, he locked his ankles in front of
hers, keeping them open. Then, he twisted, turning in the tub until he was in
the middle of it and Marigold was pressed against the edge.
Rising a little,
Not only had he noticed,
"Please..." she
whimpered. "
Finally, he released her,
pushing backwards to the far wall. Marigold turned to look at him, her eyes
shining with lust.
"Fuck me,
"No," said
Marigold caught his hand as
he went by, thinking to pull him back into the tub. When she looked up, she
let go. There was no mercy in his eyes.
"You're a
bastard," she said quietly.
Left alone in the tub,
Marigold had little choice but to follow. Her legs were wobbly and shaky. She
gasped a little even as she drew the towel gently across her breasts.
She was tempted to close
the door and finish herself off. Truth be told, closing the door was not an
absolute requirement. But, she'd seen something in
The idea made her knees so
weak that she stumbled on her way out of the bathroom.
"
"Beautiful?" he
offered.
"Obscene,"
Marigold said, not exactly contradicting him. "
She was wrong. The dress
dipped down in the back so far it almost showed cleavage. Held up with
spaghetti straps, there was absolutely no place to wear a bra underneath it.
However, support had been artfully sewn into the body of the dress itself.
Once she had shimmied into the dress,
Marigold looked in the
mirror and frowned a little. The first thing she noticed was that the material
had stiffened her nipples. The support material made this less obvious than
she thought it would be, though. Turning this way and that, she wriggled a
little.
"Hmmmm..."
she said thoughtfully. "I guess it only looks like I could fall out of
it at any moment. Actually, it's lovely."
"Are you sure?"
The look was the only thing
tempting Marigold to surprise him and refuse. She looked at herself in the
mirror.
Instead of refusing, she
said the first thing that popped into her head, "You really like
dressing me up. Don't you?"
"Why?"
The question hung in the
air for a long moment. If
Marigold gave him a
meaningful look, "Who am I in this dress? Who is it that you want me to
be?"
Marigold clutched at
She gave him a reassuring
smile, "I think I like that."
By way of answer,
-=-
For dinner,
Still squirming a little in
her seat with the aftereffects of what
The only other
disappointment with the meal was the coffee.
"Why," she asked
"It's not burnt,"
said
"Well," Marigold
answered, putting her cup down, "I'm drinking tea for the rest of the
weekend. To me, it just tastes burnt."
After dinner, Marigold had
thought they were walking back to the hotel. It took several blocks for her
to realize that they were walking the wrong way.
"We're not going back
to the hotel?" she pouted. Even dulled with alcohol, her desire was like
a dull ache inside her.
"Not yet," said
Marigold giggled,
"Take me anywhere you want."
When
The hawker grinned wider, white teeth now dominating his black face,
"They sure are. Is this the young lady you mentioned?"
"Here?" Marigold
looked at the nondescript club. The music that emerged had seemed vaguely
familiar, but she hadn't immediately recognized why.
Lucius nodded, "Yeah.
I played with him at his last show. We all were really sorry to hear when he
died. He talked about you all the time. It's nice to see what a beautiful
young woman you've grown up to be."
"Thank you," said
Marigold graciously. She glanced at
As they entered the club,
she asked, "How in the hell did you find this place?"
"Your father was
something of a local celebrity in his time," said
"How long have you
been planning this?"
"Tonight
specifically?" asked
"And the rest?"
asked Marigold.
Marigold laughed with him
until she realized he was serious. Three years ago,
She froze so suddenly that
"I need the lady's
room," she said.
Staring in the mirror, she
knew what
Worse, Marigold couldn't
blame him.
In a panic, she looked
around the room, thinking for a moment that she could make an escape like in
the movies, letting herself out a window. She could take a bus back to
Mannsborough, get Jonas to protect her.
When she saw that there was
only one window in the room, high up and too small to get through, Marigold
was forced to think rationally.
He must not know the whole
story, Marigold decided. She just needed to keep her cool. She looked in the
mirror and put on a smile. Still, she couldn't get the thought out of her
head that she deserved every bad thing
-=-
When Marigold approached
the table,
Marigold didn't understand
what was going on. If
Still, he held her, stroked
the flesh of her arms, whispered to her, smiled at her. If he wasn't enjoying
her company, he was a far better actor than any she'd seen. Taking a deep
breath, she let herself relax and enjoy the evening.
She was still nervous
enough to accept a screwdriver when
But, the sound brought back
memories she'd long suppressed. Her earliest clear memory had been lying in
her bedroom at night when she'd still lived at her grandparents' house,
hearing the clear sound of her father's saxophone coming from the shack
outside. He practiced there so as to not wake the house.
The memory, still clear
after almost fifteen years, was of a specific song. Marigold could only
remember one song her father had ever played. It was an original composition
he'd written just for her called, "Little Flower." She could almost
hear it in what the musicians were playing now.
Her eyes flew open. There
was no "almost" about it. The band was playing her father's song,
the one her father had written for her. She turned to
Behind his smile, there was
a look of uncertainty on his face. Marigold realized this he was afraid that
his grand gesture would fall flat or make her mad. Marigold felt a surge of
power at knowing she had this power over him. But, for the first time, she
felt no temptation to exercise that power.
"
When she broke the kiss,
Marigold realized that a lot of people were staring at them. She didn't care.
If
Reaching up,
Even the implied threat,
spoken so casually, did nothing to dampen Marigold's mood. It didn't matter.
However he punished her, it would be less than she deserved. Incredibly,
impossibly,
She turned to
When the kiss broke this
time, the band was gathered around the table at a respectful distance. It
turned out that all of them had played with her father and had memories of
him to offer her like gifts laid at her feet. As they spoke, others lined up
behind them. More than two dozen greeted her. She'd never realized how many
people her father had touched with his music. She'd thought of playing the
saxophone as his job, not realizing how good he'd been at it.
Finally, they'd all told
their stories. Marigold was overwhelmed. Not only had
She left the club feeling
like she was walking on a cloud. Moonlight turned the street silver. Marigold
cuddled under
"Anxious to get back
to the room and punish me some more?" Marigold asked. Her grin was
wicked. With their trip to the jazz club, he'd done something she hadn't
thought possible. He'd made her forget the ache of desire. Now, though, it
was back with a vengeance.
"
"No," said
Marigold. "Don't apologize. It's wonderful. Tell me you're not falling
in love with me, too."
"I love you,
Marigold nodded, "I
know. I will,
The elevator door opened.
Marigold shook her head,
"I don't understand. If you've forgiven me, why are you still going to
punish me? I thought forgiveness meant absolution."
"I didn't say I was
going to keep punishing you. I said you still had a lot to answer for, but
not to me."
Marigold's skin went cold.
She pulled away from
As the door opened, Maya
strode forward from the living room. When she took Marigold by the wrist and
drew her inside, Marigold went without a struggle. Even when Maya wrapped her
arms around Marigold, resting her hands on bare flesh, Marigold just stood
there.
"Hello, Florita,"
Maya said, her voice a cold monotone. "Did you miss me?" |