Sly & Nam ~~~  Random Strings Of Sometimes Interesting Chat From A Failed Friendship

By

NamasteMaster, a nom de plume and alter ego for PlanetDweller

(MF, romantic, courting, courtly love, light BDSM, menstrual fetish discussions, fantasy, fantasies, very long and somewhat boring in places, very poignant and very interesting in others)

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***Slysays:
Hello there,   are you in?
''''namastemaster says:
HI Sly,  , yeah, I'm here, but only for a few,...just woke up (yes, dreaming about you a bit, Grin!) and have to start getting ready to go to the Kane family reunion at lunch today...
''''namastemaster says:
only HAVE a few...
''''namastemaster says:
So, what's up  ?
***Slysays:
Yes,  I know.....lol........I was dreaming myself last night.......
***Slysays:
Just read your Sharon's Story.......
''''namastemaster says:
Cool...of me, I hope  
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, and what did you think of it?
***Slysays:
interesting thought I had and wanted to ask you.........in your stories,  it almost seems like you want to make every possible scenario "all right".......is that so?     I thought it was "hot"......lol.......  and am pretty much aroused by every story I've read so far......
''''namastemaster says:
Don't forget you also said you'd read "Blood In The Snow Of Raven Rock" to see if it'd send you running for hill, Silly Grin
***Slysays:
I dreamt about eating some woman out,  actually......lol.......don't know who,  if that isn't too graphic for early morning........yes,  read that on last night,  sent you an email.........
***Slysays:
also responded on your site to that one.......lol
***Slysays:
You are a "true" Master,   that is all I can say.........
***Slysays:
that one.....above
''''namastemaster says:
No, it's not an overtly conscious choice on my part that I want to make every scene "all right"...it just happens that way...I geuss because I've had only a small handful of negative sexual experiences....and when a character "talks" to me, it's usually almost all positive, too
***Slysays:
I see,  well,  I won't hold you up here.......hope you have a great day!
''''namastemaster says:
You can NEVER get too graphic for me, that's impossible, so don't sweat it, Grin
***Slysays:
lol  okay
''''namastemaster says:
And thanks for the supreme compliment of calling me a "true Master"...
***Slysays:
I have been inquiring and talking to people.........
''''namastemaster says:
As long as I end up being YOUR true Master, that's what my heart and mind is leaning more towards, SMILE
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, go on, I have another 5 minutes or so...
***Slysays:
and although we have not played.....you have the right understanding about what it is about........the intimacy and surrender......                 *smile*........  that is an interesting thought........
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I do
***Slysays:
 I said in my response at your site that I would like to know YOUR thoughts during such an experience...........
''''namastemaster says:
Have the correct understanding of what The Lifestyle is about
***Slysays:
 yes........  exactly...........
***Slysays:
there are different angles,  of course.........
''''namastemaster says:
I'll certainly be happy to tell you MY thoughts during such an experience
***Slysays:
 lol    I would like to hear them sometime,   thanks........
''''namastemaster says:
My raw, natural power comes from my deep sense of self-knowledge, self-confidence, self-assurance, and a basic happiness with my self
***Slysays:
that's wonderful,   really......... what men should show more........  what women need to see........lol
''''namastemaster says:
I'm a man's man, yes, but also a woman's, MY WOMAN'S, man...
***Slysays:
lol   I have been told that I am woman for just such a man.............   that's really hilarious............
''''namastemaster says:
I simply am not afraid of anything, that does make unusual for a person on this planet
''''namastemaster says:
Cool, I've been having the feeling that you were such a woman, too...an Alpha Female for an Alpha Male
***Slysays:
 no,  I am not either really,  the final thing that could happen is death and I am not afraid of it either.....               lol  that term is amusing to me,  really........makes me want to laugh..........
''''namastemaster says:
Me too  

''''namastemaster says:
Yes
***Slysays:
how very interesting.........
***Slysays:
would love to hear more on that as well........if you feel inclined to tell me sometime
''''namastemaster says:
It is a supreme compliment to me that after reading some of my stories you dreamt of eating a woman/women out...Cool    !....
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I'll be happy to talk more about my past life memories and/or anything else, when I have more time
***Slysays:
lol    I have been "encouraged" by a few others to do a ffm ....... am not ready for that,  I tell them.........
''''namastemaster says:
Of course  
***Slysays:
yes,  I really should let you go.....   thanks for answering my "ping"........lol
***Slysays:
yes,  that would be very interesting.........remember that from your letter.......lol      
''''namastemaster says:
Sure My Friend...I'll ping you when I get back, probably late this afternoon or tonight, if you'll be around
***Slysays:
I will be on this evening for sure........  not sure what time yet
''''namastemaster says:
Hugs, and yes, I can see you, Sly, becoming my, Nammy's/K's, slave, pretty easily...I think it's what my friend Sly wants, she just wants to be a female a bit and make sure of things...that's cool,  , we have all the time in the world
''''namastemaster says:
No prob, I'll be on for certain around 8-ish
***Slysays:
lol   is that your response to my not falling all over myself for you???    (teasing.....)    Hugs as well,  lol,  and yes,  I am definitely wanting to express the woman I am more,  important for me at this time...........  thanks for noticing,  Nammy.......  
''''namastemaster says:
Of course, slave Sly, of course...and yes, you are ALL woman, thankfully for me...well, do need to run, need to "three S" (shower, shave/trim beard, and the other "s" too, Grin) and get ready...Hugs & Kisses & A Friendly & Loving Hard Pinch To Your Right Nipple, talk to you when I get back, SMILE!, Love, Your Nammy,    
***Slysays:
 es  back........ have a great day Nam...
''''namastemaster says:
U 2 Sly, Bi-Bi
***Slysays:
bye,   thanks...


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''''namastemaster says:
So, wanna talk about sex some tonight, Hhhhmmm (Sweetly Evil Grin) ?
***Slysays:
yes,  everyone does it seems,  that's like my father, messed up but kind and generous to a fault........    hmmmm  well,  to talk about it is to be very much in your shadow,  I'm afraid......lol
***Slysays:
I haven't been nearly the adventurer that you have........
***Slysays:
but......
***Slysays:
lol  I am open to a discussion I suppose........
''''namastemaster says:
I actually consider myself to be relatively IN-experienced and mostly quite tame and ordinary...well, except with certain special partner, Grin
''''namastemaster says:
I have done a lot variety and quantity-wise, yes, but always in LT relationships
''''namastemaster says:
I didn'
''''namastemaster says:
I didn't swing from the rafters and screw hundreds of partners like many of my peers did, both female and male
***Slysays:
yes,  but you have experienced much within yourself,  I take it......
''''namastemaster says:
But yeah, I guess I've pretty much had all my fantasies fulfilled at least one time over the years
***Slysays:
sounds like you have your fill of pleasure,  lol.......   well, I guess so....this is in real time,  even if distant.......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Yes...I would like for you to tell me your "hard limit" likes and dislikes, if you'll be so kind  
***Slysays:
hmmm  interesting question........I don't really know the answer to that,  but what I want is to fulfill the limits of my desire,  so to speak.......
''''namastemaster says:
Mine are: 1) no kids, 2) no animals, 3) no dead people, 4) no permanent, disfiguring injuries, and 5) all acts done being done out of and from love
''''namastemaster says:
And no "scat, either, Smile
''''namastemaster says:
Or escargot for that matter, dislikes snails almost as much as I dislike "scat"
''''namastemaster says:

***Slysays:
lol   that's cute.......
***Slysays:
same for me,  really.........
***Slysays:
but the details escape me as of yet......lol     and the degrees of many things.........I am more interested in the control aspect of a Dom/sub relationship than the actual lifestyle.........
***Slysays:
and I don't think I would be interested in a 24/7/365 TPE relationship either.........
''''namastemaster says:
Listens...
***Slysays:
I consider myself to be too individual and too strong for that
***Slysays:
lol
***Slysays:
Alpha Female,  don't ya know.......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, who needs her Alpha Male
''''namastemaster says:
An observation about living a 24/7 TPE relatioship, since I've had two marriages that were that...
***Slysays:
lol   yes, that's true........the one thing I can't provide for myself.......
***Slysays:
yes........?
''''namastemaster says:
...all relationship have ebbs and flows, ups and downs...the 24/7 TPE is a mindset more than a series of practices...it has to do more with acceptance of Alpha "roles" than what is actually done or not done on any given day...what's important is that both partners are happy with "the rules", whatever "the rules" are that they might agree on, and those rules are subject to growth and evolution just
***Slysays:
yes,  that sounds about right.....lol            I think too that it's an acknowledgement of capacities,  like finding your mate that matches you...........
''''namastemaster says:
like the male and female participants are...Yes, the sex tends to be better, I really believe, in an UN-convential marriage that involves at least some power exhange, but what is important is how happy you make each other, not what you necessarily do to achieve that happiness
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, agree totally
***Slysays:
and truthfully........ yes,  that is what I was going to say as well.......that none of it is needed except to make each other happy.........
''''namastemaster says:
Couldn't agree more, SMILE
***Slysays:
lol  we do tend to agree a lot,  you realize........
''''namastemaster says:
Of course, mind-blowing-ly great sex does help
***Slysays:
lol I will look forward to experiencing that one day......
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, we do, but it seems very natural and right that we do
''''namastemaster says:
With me, I hope  
''''namastemaster says:
" lol I will look forward to experiencing that one day......" ...with me, I hope  
***Slysays:
yes,  I know what you meant....... lol....... I am reacting in a bit of a stunned way to your directness,   not usually my way.........lol
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, you're not usually very direct yourself, Agree (DUCKS!)
''''namastemaster says:
Heheheheheee
''''namastemaster says:
I always try to be sensitive to others, to the one I'm with, but yes, I'm very direct while trying to do so dipomatically
***Slysays:
hmm  I am direct when I want to be,  believe me.........lol
''''namastemaster says:
I was attempting sarcasm, something I'm not too good at, at times, Smile
***Slysays:
 ah,  okay........well,  at the moment it is fitting,    lol
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles
''''namastemaster says:
So, what ARE you dreams and fantasies, some of them?
***Slysays:
  you'll laugh.......being with two men,  for one........and being completely and overwhelmingly dominated,  lol.......but just for pleasure,  really.........
***Slysays:
and most of all........
''''namastemaster says:
Yes...?
***Slysays:
 being with "the One"..........
''''namastemaster says:
Perfect
***Slysays:
not very fancy,  but there it is......
''''namastemaster says:
That's why I asked, Happy Smile
***Slysays:
 is it?  lol    
***Slysays:
 hmmmm
''''namastemaster says:
Yes
***Slysays:
 I am feeling a bit like you are seeing too much  right now........ an unusual feeling of shyness,........lol
***Slysays:
unusual for me that is
''''namastemaster says:
Nah, I just like what I see, like my new friend - Sly -, she's a very special friend to me already and we've known each other for just 2 days now
***Slysays:
yes,  I know...... it is very easy to talk, for us....
''''namastemaster says:
My empathetic abilities don't work too well over telephone lines
***Slysays:
whew!   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Yes it is, and it's very nice
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehhee
***Slysays:
lol  knew you would like that ........  but seriously.........I am not looking for anything more than friendship with a man at this point,  don't think I could really handle more just yet
''''namastemaster says:
When you find "the One", when you're with "the One", while every moment might not be good, every single moment is "perfect", if that makes sense
***Slysays:
there is a lot that I have worked through recently,  and I am in a period of change right now,  that will settle by the summer of 2005 about........lol
***Slysays:
hmmm  yes,  that is what I have thought as well...........
''''namastemaster says:
So, I'll have to wait until 2005 to go to bed with you, Uhrrrhmmmm, see you in RT, that's cool, GRIN     !
***Slysays:
 lol   talk about frustration,  right?
''''namastemaster says:
For whom   ?  CHa=Ching!
***Slysays:
lol
***Slysays:
yes.......of course......I am there already,   not afraid to admit that.......
***Slysays:
I will be relocating to another city by next summer or the summer after,  my daughter will be going to a private school as well.......  have it pretty much planned
***Slysays:
 and maybe then there will be room for me to play with my "mate".......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Cool  
***Slysays:
 yes........sigh........hope so........lol
''''namastemaster says:
Seriously, I am VERY attracted to you, and yes I am a flirt and flirt with you unmercifully, but I really do believe that whatever you and I are meant "to be", close friends, lovers, partners, more, whatever, between God and us and our mutual and individual free will agency(ies), we and God will choose the right path(s) for us
''''namastemaster says:
And I am the most patient man on this planet
''''namastemaster says:
I can outstubborn a cat, ask the cats I've outstubborned, Smile
***Slysays:
yes,  I know that you think and feel that way........*smile*....... otherwise I would be alarmed at the degree of flirtation .......lol    I love a patient man........*swoon*..........  
''''namastemaster says:
You're a worse flirt than even I am, know that    ?
***Slysays:
 lol  yes,  I can be at times........great fun,      
''''namastemaster says:
yes it is...  
***Slysays:
lol  o, you don't fool me for a second hon............    but thank you again for the flower....
''''namastemaster says:
I do feel, am feeling, that we're connecting on so many levels as equals, it's a very nice feeling
***Slysays:
and actually I do believe you can be very innocent........as well.........lol  
***Slysays:
yes,  it is really important........
***Slysays:
and I don't claim to have your brainpower exactly,  but I think that is part of it as well..........
''''namastemaster says:
I've never denied for a single second that if we could meet in RL Torrow that I wouldn't want to jump  your bones right then and there in the restaurant, and would give the waiter a very big tip for letting us "use" their table, GRIN !
***Slysays:
intellectually and spiritually we are perhaps close........    lol  now there is a fantasy as well.........
''''namastemaster says:
I see you as my equal in many if not most ways, Seriously
***Slysays:
I would absolutely LOVE to just completely give in to the moment,  the day,   the week..........you get the picture..........
''''namastemaster says:
Of course, that comes from my respect of and for you, as much as anything
***Slysays:
 yes,  I do as well.......
***Slysays:
it's really empowering as well to talk to someone on similar or same levels
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I do...you feel the same level of chemistry coming through these copper wires, but like me, you have a very practical side as well
***Slysays:
well,  I don't know about practical so much as realistic........and I have to be,  I have a daughter who depends on that........
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it is, and lots of fun...even where we disagree, we have a deep respect for each other's experience, knowledge, and viewpoints...that is VERY nice  
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I understand, and of course respect that as well
''''namastemaster says:
That's what I mean about being practical...you're a single mom and a very good one at that and of course your daughter MUST come first right now, I understand and respect that, Sincerely
***Slysays:
Even if I didn't have her,  I would be on a quest for "reality".........have always been that way.......      yes,  she does come first,  that is also why I don't date.....not the time for it yet
***Slysays:
and I don't bemoan that fact,  it just is this way........my libido can wait....lol   (well, just barely anyway)
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, but your libido can also take a weekend vacation hopefully with your special friend, Smile
***Slysays:
yes,  it puts a different perspective on things,  doesn't it.......     (lol.....don't believe in weekend flings,  SO unfortunately!)
''''namastemaster says:
Really   ?
''''namastemaster says:
Hhhmmmm
''''namastemaster says:
So, it looks like you might end up being my wife/slave/sub eventually, maybe, Hhhmmmm?
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehehheee
''''namastemaster says:
In 2005, I mean to say  
***Slysays:
lol  now how did you conclude that out of that last statement??!!      yes,  not before that.......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Nammy got your tongue    ?
***Slysays:
lol   oooohhhh   that's bad........
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehehee
***Slysays:
lol   you are having fun here,  arent' you........  nice to see.........
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I am, and you are too as well, I also see, and that's also very nice to see...you need to laugh more, my good friend Sly
***Slysays:
I am going to have to cut this short this evening,  my Nammy........we are going to bed in a bit........and yes,  you are very right about laughter.........
''''namastemaster says:
(hears Sly's mind just a' tickin' away)
''''namastemaster says:
That's fine, I need to head on to bed shortly, too
***Slysays:
although.......my daughter and I were just laughing about something for a sec here......lol
***Slysays:
she makes me happy........the love of my life,  really
***Slysays:
thank you for those kind words though,  Nam..........*kissing you*.........
''''namastemaster says:
Well, gimme a nice hug and kiss goodnight, my sweet and good friend,and we'll talk again soon, and I will be sending you other stuff...G'night, Hugs & Kisses...Sweetest Of Dreams (read more of my porno, GRIN!)
***Slysays:
 lol  I have been already.....grin back......eyes twinkling........and thank you,  hugs and kisses to you,  hope you have a great night.........
***Slysays:
     ''''namastemaster says:
Bi-Bi, Night-Night        
***Slysays:
LOL   Goodnight.......sweet dreams!

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***Slysays:
Hello Nam,   are you in?
''''namastemaster says:
Hey  
***Slysays:
hi there,    
***Slysays:
I was sent home to go over a million forms,    lol    
''''namastemaster says:
Did you day go okay otherwise?
''''namastemaster says:
Did your...
***Slysays:
yes,  great,  the supervisor wasn't there yet,  she had been on vacation
***Slysays:
met most of the people I will be working with though,    so far so good
''''namastemaster says:
Cool ... so maybe it won't be as a bad as anticipated?
***Slysays:
no,  I am sure it will not,  and the hours will be 9-4,  also better than I thought
''''namastemaster says:
Also very good
***Slysays:
yes,   sigh,   lol   I should be grateful but I am too used to  my freedom,     and how are you??
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, about like usual, Smile
''''namastemaster says:
I've already been to the bread store stocking up on junk food and to Kmart for extra flashlight batteries (they were sold out) and a couple of other places for emergency supplies...the entire state is bracing for Hurricane Isabel to hit us around late Wed. or Thursday
***Slysays:
yes,  I was just reading that........   I am sorry to hear that,  really
''''namastemaster says:
It's part of the culture of living in North Carolina, bragging about how many hurricanes you've survived, Grin
***Slysays:
well,  that does warrant bragging,  I'd say......    but the casualties,  the damage,  doesn't bear thinking about
***Slysays:
 at least there is a chance to evacuate now
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, and they're already doing so, way ahead of what they normally would
***Slysays:
sure,  of course,  why not......  

''''namastemaster says:
No, actually, it's been a dead-quiet day, almost eery...
***Slysays:
(I was home at lunch time but didn't see you then....)  
''''namastemaster says:
I'll make a couple of phone calls later but with the hurricane coming, it's like everything's on hold right now
***Slysays:
hmmmm    yes,  of course,  that takes precedence in everyone's mind
''''namastemaster says:
Uh-hu, I was out running errands a good part of the day
''''namastemaster says:


my word
''''namastemaster says:
And I did promise I'd be there for her through her surgery...and she doesn't have anyone else to help her
''''namastemaster says:
Sometimes I'm just too nice a' guy
***Slysays:
yes,  I know what you mean really,   it is hard emotionally as it is I'm sure......   nice of you Nam......*smile*
''''namastemaster says:
Thanks, Smile Back
***Slysays:
it's funny how we need the finality of divorce for closure,   know what that's like
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, Sigh...Lee and I were perfect for each other, were what each other had been looking for all their lives, 100% we thought at first, but it turned out to be only 99%, and that 1% more than balanced out the other 99%, turned a positive relationship if not into a negative then at least into one that was hurtful to both of us
***Slysays:
yikes,  I'm sorry..........  those are strange odds then really........  
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, "weighted" ones
***Slysays:
and it helps to take time as well,   to really figure things out            yes,  understood,  sorry...........
''''namastemaster says:
An old fiance' of hers, whom she hadn't heard from in years, her first "real Master", came back into her life last summer (of 2002); she betrayed me, cut off all sex from me last fall, took a real crapshoot and started seeing him behind my back last winter in hopes of she and he getting back together, I know he loves her and she him but he's a dog at heart and didn't want her as his "only" and
''''namastemaster says:
basically left her, and now I don't want anything to do with her, not in a marriage or relationship kind of way...don't mean to vent, just letting you know the facts behind everything, Smile
***Slysays:
whew,   that's awful,  betrayal is very hard to get over.........  I'm glad that it's over with her then,  and not a problem,  even if you are venting hon......
''''namastemaster says:
Thanks Dear  
***Slysays:
I do know what that is like as well.........   not worth hanging on to
''''namastemaster says:
Why did you and yours get divorced?
''''namastemaster says:
Are getting a divorce?
***Slysays:
let me make a list for you.........   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles
***Slysays:
well,  he betrayed me with prostitutes while on business in Thailand,  for one,  he hit me on about 5 different occasions,  the first of which I can't remember,  have blocked it out,  and he used me financially.........    very selfish and insecure at the same time
***Slysays:
lol   how's that?
***Slysays:
 enough of a reason to leave him,  for sure
''''namastemaster says:
Wow!
''''namastemaster says:
More than enough reasons
***Slysays:
yup,   lol,   but it's a long time ago now,  and frankly my dear,  I don't give a damn........
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehehehee
***Slysays:
lol   yes, have to laugh about it now....   it was ridiculous,  how much I wanted to give and how much he took.........but in the end I was simply too strong for him
***Slysays:
so I don't feel brought down by it.....  that helps
''''namastemaster says:
I understand...if I might ask, Sly, you've mentioned "legal" stuff happening later this year or early next, I assumed that was having to do with "him", maybe it's not, if it's not too personal, can I ask what'll be going on?
''''namastemaster says:
If it's too personal right now to talk about, just say so, no offense will be taken, Seriously, Smile
***Slysays:
o no, I've been divorced since '92,  this is about the threats that were made against me two years ago,  and a follow up of security checks really............
***Slysays:
meetings with certain people that were involved,  but even so it is not secure,  but it should help anyway........
***Slysays:
I have some confidence in the people that will be contacting me,  in their ability to assess intentions and the state of mind of the person/people involved........sorry,   a bit vague,  can explain further if you like
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, please do if you don't mind, Thanks
***Slysays:
 sure,   we can't do everything,  even those of us who want to.......lol
''''namastemaster says:
"A man's got to know his limitations" ~ Clint Eastwood, "Heartbreak Ridge"
***Slysays:
lol   yes,  true
***Slysays:
I am surprised at this conversation,  you know..........
''''namastemaster says:
Why is that?
***Slysays:
I have been thinking these things for a long time,   not expecting to share them with anyone
***Slysays:
it has been a sole journey,  if you know what I mean,  and perhaps in my mind I have had to be alone
''''namastemaster says:
I'm deeply honored that you choose to share them with me  
***Slysays:
thank you,  my Dear Friend,   really........  you have made it possible however
***Slysays:
being the way you are
''''namastemaster says:
You're not alone, not any longer, My Dear Friend Sly  
''''namastemaster says:
No matter what life does or doesn't bring us, you, and I, you will never be alone again, not unless you tell me "scram" at some point in the future, and I won't ever give you a reason to do that, Smile!
***Slysays:
lol   I can't imagine doing that,  Nam,  and I do feel that we have made a true connection,  I appreciate how you give of yourself in this way,  really
***Slysays:
it isn't everyone who can speak knowledgeably about forgiveness,  you realize......*smile*
''''namastemaster says:
TY,  
***Slysays:
and you have stood as alone as I have,  felt that right away as well
***Slysays:
but it is not a bad thing necessarily
''''namastemaster says:
Hugs Sly  
***Slysays:
you too Nam.......( lol,  and now on to something less serious.......)   so,  what are you wearing?????
***Slysays:
isn't that awful to hear ?    lol
''''namastemaster says:
Just shakes head and grins and laughs...Nah, you're sweet   ...didn't mean to get too heavy on you, but I do have a habit of saying exactly what is on my mind and in my heart, Grin...am wearing Desert Storm-style camoflauged pants and a black Eddie Bauer knit golf shirt
''''namastemaster says:
And you?
***Slysays:
lol   thank you for answering.......*grin*...... I am wearing a purple shirt,  black leggings,    lol
***Slysays:
and it wasn't too heavy,   but very serious to me......and very supportive,  I thank you Nam......  
''''namastemaster says:
Sure thing, My Bestest Friend    
''''namastemaster says:
Hhmmm, a purple shirt and and black leggings and that's all? Hhhmm, no pants or skirt or underwear? Cool      !
''''namastemaster says:
Where's a webcam when you need one?
***Slysays:
lol   no,  the leggings are cotton,  was wearing a beige skirt before,  and of course panties and a bra,  sorry hon.............lol
***Slysays:
leggings are like sports pants,  just tighter,  lol
''''namastemaster says:
O, I C, Grin
***Slysays:
lol    


***Slysays:
 well,  I should let you go for now,  my Nam,  I hope this wasn't too serious,  and again thank you,  really.........*hugging you*
''''namastemaster says:
No, it wasn't too serious...well, it was serious, but it needed to be for what we were discussing, we're still learning a lot about each other, learning more and more each day and each day I feel that much closer to you, Happy Smile...talking with you always makes me happy, Very Happy, Sly...but yeah, I do need to run for now, thanks...Hugs&Kisses for now, yack at you later, My Buddy Ol' Pal    
***Slysays:
lol  thanks my Friend and Confidant,  take care        
***Slysays:
Hello there,  are you busy?
''''namastemaster says:
Hi, Sorry I missed your ping earlier, was taking a short nap, am here now  
***Slysays:
Hi there,  no problem,  how are you?
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, a little tired, mainly I are too many mashed potatoes and gravy with supper and all those carbs' made me sleepy, Smile
''''namastemaster says:
I ate...
***Slysays:
ah I see,   lol   we had fried chicken,  vegies and baked potato,  
''''namastemaster says:
Had leftover turkey (which I loved), mashed potatoes and brown gravy, corn, and biscuits
''''namastemaster says:
I do love Southern cooking
***Slysays:
wow,  a real southern meal!
***Slysays:
lol  yes

***Slysays:
 lol   you're cute
''''namastemaster says:
I try to be      
***Slysays:
You do more than try Nam,  you are..........    
''''namastemaster says:
(almost blushes)
''''namastemaster says:
So, been thinking about me, a little, Hhhmmm? (fish, fish, fish)
***Slysays:
have you read that article at PD&S?   about what it is to be seriously in the  "lifestyle"?    hmmm  yes,  I was really thinking about you after our last conversation this afternoon,   it drained me but made me feel that you are really genuine as well.......
''''namastemaster says:
Thanks, Hugs My Sly...I didn't mean to drain you, was just trying to be supportive and comforting, Happy Hugs & Kisses...I can't recall reading the specific article at PD&S you mentioned but probably did...I agree with a lot of what Serenity says but also disagree with a lot, too; she has her own philosophy of and about the lifestyle which matches in some places but not others my own...she and I
***Slysays:
I see.......
''''namastemaster says:
have discussed many things at length about the lifestyle and respect each other's viewpoints but that's about as far as it goes...I've lived not one but two No-Limits 24/7 TPE lifestyle marriages, something few Masters/men/people have ever done, so while it doesn't make me an expert, it does give me a lot of first-hand anecdotal experiences to draw wisdom and insight (hopefully, Smile) from
''''namastemaster says:
Sly, why I do NOT expect my next, which will also be my very Last, partner to be "perfect", I do expect and will not have anything less in my next/last relationship that isn't 100% what I want in my heart of hearts
***Slysays:
yes,  of course,  this article is more about what is really required,  and the difference between public and private TPE.......   yes,  I know how you feel,  that is exactly what I want as well,   if it is possible.....
''''namastemaster says:
Of course it's possible, even probable (sly Hint)
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  I got the hint,  really,  I just want to be absolutely ready and sure when I really think about and decide something like that
''''namastemaster says:
To me, it is, it will be important not just that I am totally happy with my partner, but that she is with me equally also, and we both understand WHY we we're both so deliriously happy with each other...knowledge of self and our partner not to moderate passion, but to intensify it
***Slysays:
okay,   definitely,  of course,  but you know,  I do think it is rare.........
***Slysays:
and I also think that it is a matter of "spiritual" compatibility,  at least in how developed two people are......if not matched well,  life will pull them apart eventually
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I couldn't agree more..
***Slysays:
and it is hard to judge that really,   many people aren't even aware of that
''''namastemaster says:
...which is why I think you and I are so drawn to each other...even though we have different spiritual paths, they're similar in many ways, our commitment to our respective ones is very striking, and the fact that we're both good and gentle yet very strong people
***Slysays:
yes,  I do think we have some important things in common,  but I am not ready to invest in anything,   not to get ahead of ourselves here......*smile*
''''namastemaster says:
In RT, no, I understand...but we are investing one heckuva lot of time in each other, and at least for me, I know why I'm doing so, Grin
''''namastemaster says:
Because I think I've found someone for whom my being compatible with doesn't begin to describe what you and I are mutually creating
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  I know we are,  that is why I mentioned it........  wow,  you pack a punch at times Nam,  really.........   but these things take time and tests of "reality",  you know?
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, absolutely...we both need to see each other when we're weak, hurt, angry, pissed-off, childish, selfish, and a whole bunch of other not-so-pretty times and emotions...and that takes time...which we have plenty of, Smile
***Slysays:
yes,  we do.....  for me it is really wanting to be real........that is the first prerequisite I have for myself,  let alone anyone else........ and something that I have found surprisingly present with friends online,   great really
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles...not that I ever have any fear in any situation, but yes, my bluntness comes through even stronger online than it does in person most of the time, I know what you mean
***Slysays:
I have fear,  but don't let it stop me if I can,  or learn from it,   and yes, our qualities seem to be clearer,  less held back,  online
''''namastemaster says:
So, changing the channel, Smile, you have to be at work by 9 in the morning?
***Slysays:
yes,  I do......why?
''''namastemaster says:
Just making conversation  
***Slysays:
oh,  okay,   lol,   thought you were going to tell me it was bedtime,  but I did sleep this afternoon,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
I don't want you to stay up TOO late tonight, Grin
***Slysays:
lol  hmmm  I wouldn't mind that......
''''namastemaster says:
Nah, it would be "bedtime" only if you were here in RL  
''''namastemaster says:
(Subtle Hint, hint...)
***Slysays:
mmmmmm  now that is a lovely thought,  Nam.......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Thank You, My Sly    


***Slysays:
lol   mhmmm
***Slysays:
lol  if we could do that,  it would mean a number of things.........
***Slysays:
that we really are compatible,  and that we are free........
***Slysays:
two very wonderful things to be with a partner
''''namastemaster says:
We are both already, Sly...
''''namastemaster says:
It's just a matter of letting the real world outside catch up with us
***Slysays:
well,   okay,  if that's the way it is,  all right,  fine......lol    but we will have to live in the real world
''''namastemaster says:
You will be my muse, and I shall be your Master, Smile
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, we do, and I simply say what is in my heart
***Slysays:
mmmm  sounds so wonderful really.........
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it is, and will be, Promise
***Slysays:
please hold on a sec,  homework again.....lol                wow,  my heart is fluttering here.....*smile*
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles...sure, no prob....
***Slysays:
hi,  sorry,  back............
''''namastemaster says:
No prob, Hug
***Slysays:
*hugging you tightly*.....  
***Slysays:
it would be dreamily close to perfect,  wouldn't it?
''''namastemaster says:
"Loves to be hugged by My Sly..."
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it would...PERFECT...that's the only word that fits...it would be PERFECT
***Slysays:
hmmm  okay,  well,  I haven't ever believed in perfect,  so be forewarned that this is going to take me a while to "see"...    *smiling at you again*
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, I'm not a perfect person, far from it, but I know what I want, and yes, our relationship, our homelife, our lovelife, our hearth of creation, would be perfect
***Slysays:
well,  it will be up to us to find that out then...........
''''namastemaster says:
Two people don't have to be perfect to have a perfect marriage
***Slysays:
no,  that's right
***Slysays:
a close to perfect bond,  or in fact a perfect bond for their growth
''''namastemaster says:
They only have to unconditionally love and respect each other
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, a perfect bond, forged from the hearth of God
''''namastemaster says:
God, Sly, I can just visualize us making the most incredibly perfect music together on ALL levels, Smile, for the rest of our lives
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  I do know what you mean,  but really,  I think you can visualize more than I can at this point.......
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles...just saying what I see in my mind and feel in my heart...No pressure, of course  
''''namastemaster says:
It's just so neat, no, so perfect that you and I keep discovering how close to perfect for each other we apparently are  
***Slysays:
yes,  I know,  and  I love that really,    you are very open and very good at that......
***Slysays:
well,    we do have the same interests,  and some of the same personality characteristics......and who knows what else........lol
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehehe...this going to be so much fun, discovering each other even more as time passes
***Slysays:
yes,  there do seem to be sparks flying all around,  don't there,    lol   interesting......
''''namastemaster says:
You're so cute when you try to be coy and shy, Grin
***Slysays:
lol  o dear....   can't hide much from you,  can I ?   but seriously,  I don't play at these things,  I think that's why I am careful too
''''namastemaster says:
I don't play at these things, either, My Dear, but you know that already...I'm not a "player", I'm a "do-er"
***Slysays:
that's good,  really,  am glad to know that,  so am I when I put my mind to it,   lol     and in this area of life I have been purposely not doing,  am determined to only do things well,     *S*
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, when we're together in RL that first time, all doubts will be erased immediately...I think it would take something extraordinary for us not to at least meet in RL eventually, something like finding out one of us was actually a Nazi or Ku Klux Klansman or international terrorist or something similar, and since I'm not, I don't you are either, GRIN, so such "skeletons" are a non-issue to me
''''namastemaster says:
I don't THINK you are...
***Slysays:
no,  most definitely not.....lol
''''namastemaster says:
I do know that you have a good soul, a pure heart, are beautiful on all levels, love God, love people, love music, love life, love living, and are hopeful that I just 'might' be "the one" that you just might want to spend the rest of your life with, just May-Bee,
''''namastemaster says:
Time will tell, but yeah, May-Bee  
***Slysays:
lol  you are enjoying this,  aren't you........... *shaking my head, smiling.....*......but I wasn't looking for "the one"  yet,  as long as you know that as well
***Slysays:
I am not in a hurry
''''namastemaster says:
I know (pokes Sly, slyly)
***Slysays:
but I do think we will meet as well,  especially if we keep talking like this........   (you're terrible!)
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehehe, Yes I am, aren't I  ?  
''''namastemaster says:
I  AM a stinker...
***Slysays:
lol   yes,  you are.......(hey wait a minute,  how do you mean that exactly?)    ^o)
***Slysays:

***Slysays:
you have to be laughing now...........
''''namastemaster says:
Just laughing up a storm actually      
''''namastemaster says:
I am a stinker, but NOT a player, Smile
''''namastemaster says:
I just love to make you laugh, to see you laugh
***Slysays:
lol  that's important,  really.........I think I have had enough of players,  not my thing.....
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  me too,  it's really fun to make you laugh,  I'll have to work on shocking you though
''''namastemaster says:
Considering I am pretty close to be shock-proof, not impossible to shock but close, you do have a challenge on your hands
''''namastemaster says:
to being...
***Slysays:
hmmm  yes,  it will require digging deep inside the darkness within me (for we all have a dark side)  to produce something even remotely surprising to you...........
***Slysays:
I will enjoy every second of that,  lol
''''namastemaster says:
As long as it comes from an honest place within you is all I ask, i.e., don't "tease" me, Smile
''''namastemaster says:
When you try to shock me, keep in mind that in doing so you might be mentioning something that actually might EXCITE me instead, Seriously
***Slysays:
lol   well,   that is the idea as well of course,   and no,  I wouldn't make something up that wasn't in me,  not my way at all
***Slysays:
I like genuine things,  people,  feelings,  unique thoughts,  etc
''''namastemaster says:
I'm about as genuine and unique as they come, Dear  
***Slysays:
yes,  I did notice that,   Nam......sigh........
''''namastemaster says:
Hope that is a happy "sigh"
***Slysays:
lol    just know that I am not ready to really develop something quickly,  and yes,  it was a longingly happy sigh
''''namastemaster says:
My honest expressions of what I feel and think are never, ever meant as pressure, Sly...it's just me being me...I really am the most patient man you'll ever meet
***Slysays:
I really like that you are honest,  and I don't feel it as pressure,  just don't want to disappoint you in any way Nam....
***Slysays:
and I want to be honest as well
''''namastemaster says:
Don't ever, ever worry about you disappointing me, I don't...even us empaths who can see "over the horizon" can't see what our futures will bring
''''namastemaster says:
That's what free will agency is for, so we can create the futures we want and need
***Slysays:
no, of course not,  but aren't you ever insecure at all about making someone happy?  yes,  we do create it,  knowingly or not
***Slysays:
it just seems like a huge decision to make,   and one needs to be quite sure about it
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, if it is someone I care about, yes, I do feel doubt and insecurity at times about if I make them happy or at least happy enough, but I do my best, am always myself, am always honest with them as well as myself, and after that, well, not meaning to seem insensitive, but I just don't worry about it after that...as long as I have openly and honestly communicated as much as I can, as long as I
''''namastemaster says:
have tried my best to make my partner happy in all ways I know how to do, then that's really all I can do
''''namastemaster says:
I know that's very blunt, but it's me being very honest
***Slysays:
yes, that is very true also,  I understand,  it isn't insensitive,  but it is realistic
''''namastemaster says:
I DO spoil my partner, always, rotten, Seriously
***Slysays:
and that is why people really have to know each other and themselves......hmmmm   doesn't that sound great....lol
''''namastemaster says:
In fact I love surprising my partner always, shocking her to no end in nice ways, showing how much I love her in ways she didn't think I knew how to do, just love watching her melt when I do someting totally unexpected that she just wants to both simultaneously strangle me over and drop and give me a blowjob over right then and there  
***Slysays:
LOL   o god, do you ever have that right.......  that is engaging many emotions at once,   wonderful really.........   I love that!!   honestly......
''''namastemaster says:
Just smiles....you're in for the time of your life with me, Dear
***Slysays:
hmmm  it does sound like it Nam,   lol.......   we seem to be quite well matched in very interesting ways.......
***Slysays:
which brings me to a question.....
''''namastemaster says:
Certainly, shoot...
***Slysays:
  hold on,  formulating here.....lol
''''namastemaster says:
no rush...nods...
***Slysays:
lol    well,  it's really this:  do you really want a real life relationship at this point?  and do you need that position of power in interpersonal exchanges,  in order to feel fulfilled when you do have a relationship?
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I do really want a real-life relationship at this point, if you're asking do I need to be a "Master" or similar in said relationship at this point for me to be happy, the answer to the second part is a definite "no"...if my partner was a natural sub/slave then sure, I would happily fulfill that role, but I don't need it for my personal fulfillment...I don't need a formal role as "Master" for
***Slysays:
listening...
''''namastemaster says:
me to be happy in a relationship with "the right" person...now, that said, I always am and will be Alpha Male, that's who and what I am, and my partner needs to be equally strong and independent to me to be able to feel comfortable with me as her mate, because, yes, my true power can't be shut off like an electrical switch...but do I need for her to be submissive in a role-playing context behind
''''namastemaster says:
closed bedroom doors for me to be happy with her? No! However, that said, and I can't be any more honest than I am in saying precisely what needs to be said, my next partner will have to, HAVE TO comfortable and accepting and yes enjoying my hypersexuality, i.e., within the limitations placed upon us by needing to make a living, having family and other outside obligations, etc., my partner will
''''namastemaster says:
need to be not just accepting of my needing and wanting to make love for hours and hours but enthusiastic about that prospect...
***Slysays:
okay, understanding that,   ...... smiling.......
***Slysays:
she would have to want you with close to equal passion,  ......  and have a close to matching appetite,  so to speak.......
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, my hypersexuality is a natural extension of my basic dominance as a man, as HER man within the context of the relationship, and of course my natural dominance will always be there, I can't a bit more NOT be an Alpha Male than I can stop breathing, but yes, she would have to be my equal in my eyes
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, her natural libido and predilections would have to be close to mine for me to be happy
***Slysays:
yes,  okay,  agreed on all the above really,  and if her desire to be dominated is only an expression of great passion really,  and does not extend to the same things that you have described,  would that be enough for you?  (I guess that would be more on an emotional level than actual physical tasks to express it then)
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, that's correct...Sly, and we can speak in the hypothetical if it will make you more comfortable, Smile, if you and I were to be together in RL, would I want to be your Master? Yes, but the secret is, I would be anyway, even if it we didn't call it that or have formal roleplaying...Sly, I'm basically Dominant over everyone in my life anyway, it's something I don't think about, but since I do
''''namastemaster says:
so with love, with compassion, with respect, it doesn't feel like Dominance to my partner or to those in my life, it simply "is"...would I have to tie you up (I really don't enjoy rope bondage, BTW), use canes and crops and cat o'nine tails on you, brand you and do ritual scarifications on you for ME to be happy? Uh-uh, no, those things wouldn't be necessary...what would be necessary would be: ...
***Slysays:
yes,  I understand (and am relieved, honestly),  it is an expression of how you are even more than how others respond to you,  innate really.....smile......
''''namastemaster says:
...that we be together as much as possible because we love each other, that we always are true to each other and honest with each other, that you be as passionate about me as I am about you, that we share all the things we have in common and enjoy doing together, that we want to grow old together, that we make passionate love for hours upon hours when we can, and yes, we want to experiment and
***Slysays:
and push limits and discover things about each other.........
''''namastemaster says:
push the boundaries, over time, that the trust and love is there should we decide to do so, but the main thing for me would be to be with you
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, to have the trust and love and keep discovering each other
***Slysays:
and to continue to grow,  yes......   that is the only way two people can continue to be happy together,  I think so too          yes,  exactly....  
''''namastemaster says:
The only limits I would ever put on "us" would be that whatever we decide to do, WE, as in both of us, agree on it, and whatever we decide to do is done from a place of love and respect
***Slysays:
yes,  that is just about perfect,  Nam,  *smiling again*.....   it isn't easy all the time to do that but with honesty it is more than possible,  I do believe that
''''namastemaster says:
That said, we don't have to do every single thing we would want to experiment with the first year together, or even the first ten years...we would do what we would decide to do, when we would decide to do it, Smile
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, as long as we both are honest with each other, love each other, and always respect each other, something close to perfection with you as my partner would not just be possible but highly probable
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  and when we would be honestly ready and willing to do things,   but it isn't all good discoveries either,  sometimes certain limits are discovered that we may not like........
''''namastemaster says:
That is true, and when we discover dislikes, even if it's just one of us that dislikes something, our relationship will be strong enough not just to survive that but actually be stronger for it
***Slysays:
stronger in that it requires respect for the other as an individual?
''''namastemaster says:
Stronger because differences, individual likes and dislikes, aren't used against the other partner, but instead allow us both to concentrate on what we both enjoy instead...does that make sense?
''''namastemaster says:
That's why the handful of things that are and would be paramount for me to have a happy relationship with you in RL would have to be met, those things being:
***Slysays:
hmmmm  yes,  but only if there are more things that we like than that we dislike,  I think........
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, agree...we must like MOST things mutually or it wouldn't work
''''namastemaster says:
1) unconditional love and complete respect for each other, always, 2) allowing for each of us' weaknesses and human failings, 3) love of God and allowing each our own spiritual paths, 4) agreement about what we would want for our futures, for the rest of our lives, and yes, 5) a healthy and enthusiastic sex life, the vast majority of the real-life practices we would both be engaging in of course
''''namastemaster says:
(Smile)...we both wouldn't have to be equally enthusiastic about every single thing we would do in bed together (and on rooftops and in deep pine forests either, Smile), but we would have to enjoy MOST things close to equally
***Slysays:
lol   o Nam,  that sounds like the perfect relationship,  really,   and includes all of the things that I know are important......    
***Slysays:
yes,  in deep pine forests would be fantastic,    lol
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it does sound like the perfect relationship, doesn't it?  
''''namastemaster says:
Rooftops ain't bad, either, Yoink, Yoink
***Slysays:
yes,  it does,  really......    (haven't tried those,  really)
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, with me, you probably will (Hint, Hint)
''''namastemaster says:
As long as I'm reasonably sure we wouldn't be arrested, of course
''''namastemaster says:
But deep pine forests are more fun that hot asphalt roofs, usually
***Slysays:
lol   I do like being spontaneous,  trying different things,   and of course getting arrested wouldn't be on of those things........lol
***Slysays:
 I would think so
***Slysays:
lol
''''namastemaster says:
Nah, being arrested is NOT an erotic experience, trust me on this one, Grin
''''namastemaster says:
So, My Sly, what I wrote is compatible with what you want, too? Yes, I know, I do ask questions I already know the answers to, Smile
***Slysays:
lol  okay,  I will......
***Slysays:
yes,  it is actually,   and that sure feeling of knowing the other person,  as well.......   it is a sense of the other person on a deep level that does that,  along with the qualities that you mentioned
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I agree of course...there isn't much we don't agree on, is there, Smile? It is also important for me that my next partner be "the one" for the rest of my life, she must be THAT compatible with me and be in love with me THAT much that she would be in it "for the long haul", for the rest of her and/or my time in this plain
***Slysays:
yes,  that is my thought as well,   lol
***Slysays:
I am not counting on it though
***Slysays:
on having that, but I am still hopeful........lol
''''namastemaster says:
You'll, we'll never know until we met in RL and see if your aura matches my aura and my pheremones match your nasal receptors, Silly But Serious Grin
''''namastemaster says:
In time, in time, Smile
''''namastemaster says:
Speaking on a serious note now, I don't have timetable as such for us getting together, even for a brief time together one weekend perhaps...Seriously, we will need to continue our courtship and speak over the phone quite a bit before that day comes that I fly up or send you a ticket to come down...I am very hopeful that day will come, you know I am, we are seemingly so perfect for each other, but
''''namastemaster says:
I do know from having lived these 46 years that reality can sometimes bite you hard on the ass
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  I know that,  there are certain things that need to be seen,  really.........
***Slysays:
(sorry,  had to tend to my daughter for a minute)
''''namastemaster says:
No prob  
***Slysays:
seen and felt in person,  but unless either one of us is lying terribly about something,  I don't think there would be any horrible surprises
***Slysays:
it would just be awful if there wasn't any physical chemistry
''''namastemaster says:
Well, I haven't been fibbing any, and I'm sure you haven't been, Smile But Serious
***Slysays:
 no,  I have kept things pretty real
***Slysays:
and intend to continue that,   smile as well
''''namastemaster says:
But yes, just being heart-wrench-ingly honest, there is always the chance that when we'd meet there wouldn't be any physical chemistry, we both are honest enough with ourselves to know that is a possibility, however dreadful it might be
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, if anything, I've tried to "scare you off" a bit with extreme examples of my honest, such as letting you read my PlanetDweller stories, which would have sent many running to the hills and cussing me as they went
''''namastemaster says:
of my honestY..
***Slysays:
lol  well,  yes,  but also,  there is much to be said for seeing the person we are in each other,   and that is mostly in the mind as well...........
***Slysays:
 just like great sex is mostly in the mind,    lol
''''namastemaster says:
I will send you more photos of me, will make the time to dig them out of my digital archives...I don't have that many of myself, since I'm usually the one taking the photos and not being in them, but I'll search some and see what I can find
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, great sex starts in the mind, but my 8" cock inside you for hours and hours doing its magic can make that sweet mind of yours AWFULLY comfortable, Grin !
***Slysays:
sure, it is the same with me really,  especially the last few years,  but not to worry.......  it's more important to communicate as we are doing right now I think........    (lol  wouldn't I love to experience that for a change! )
***Slysays:
if you have any questions about me,  do ask,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Certainly, Smile
''''namastemaster says:
One thing I'm curious about, and this won't be any big surprise to you, is if you had period sex much and if so, did you enjoy it?
***Slysays:
I didn't much,  because my partner didn't really like it too much,  but I always wanted to more........lol
''''namastemaster says:
Another important thing is if you have a venerial disease now or have ever had one? I'm totally disease free, and except for having chlamydia in 1976, have never had one
***Slysays:
and yes,  I would  enjoy it,  as long as I was sure that it was being enjoyed and not thought of as being gross!!    (no worries with you there I know)
''''namastemaster says:
Cool    !
''''namastemaster says:
Do you have any absolute "no"'s within vanilla sex, such as no anal, etc.?
***Slysays:
o god no,   never,  not even a hint of one,  and I did have myself tested several times after that one night stand about 5 years ago now......
***Slysays:
lol   not no anal,  for sure.........  hmmmm  let's see.... I think tasting blood and "scat" would not be on my list of things I want to do really.......lol
***Slysays:
waterworks also don't do much for me......
***Slysays:
are you laughing again???  
***Slysays:
lol
''''namastemaster says:
Just listening, Smile
''''namastemaster says:
Have you ever had anal sex before?
***Slysays:
I have to go here actually.......  what timing......  I tried it with my ex,  it was okay,  but know that I like it now,  since a few years ago really.............
''''namastemaster says:
Cool !
***Slysays:
lol   I am not into pain during sex,  also........
''''namastemaster says:
We can continue another night soon...just remember that I probably won't be here Torrow night, will be at Lee's probably
***Slysays:
but as part of play can take pain very well.........lol
***Slysays:
 okay,  sure.......
***Slysays:
 I will stay off the computer for once myself,  lol,   can use a break as well
''''namastemaster says:
You're making me extremely "hard" right now, my girlfriend & slave, GRIN
***Slysays:
hmmm  am I really?
***Slysays:
that's interesting........  
***Slysays:
ok,
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, if I had a webcam handy, I'd show you
***Slysays:
I have to go.......  lol  yes, you would too I think

''''namastemaster says:
Okee, Sigh...enjoyed it, Hugs&Kisses, dream of me, I'll be dreaming of you,    
***Slysays:
 Have a wonderful night my Nam,  sweet dreams,  lol yes,  let's at least dream about each other,  take care      
''''namastemaster says:
G'night My Sly, Happy Sigh, Bi-Bi
''''namastemaster says:
 
***Slysays:
Goodnight Nam,  hugs and kisses... ..


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***Slysays:
Hello there,  are you home?  
''''namastemaster says:
Hi Sly, and yes, I'm here, sent you an email earlier, Smile !~
***Slysays:
yes,  I just read it,   thanks,   *kisses*........
well,  the way I see it,  there are not so many "things" that can happen online,   lol,   except for friendship,  really..........  and that I prefer above anything else anyway,  as we have talked about.........    other than that the cybersex world is losing its sparkle to me,  but I am interested in people's experiences and thoughts about bdsm to some extent
***Slysays:
and you were not pestering me that I recall,  btw........
''''namastemaster says:
Grins
''''namastemaster says:
Of course, we could "go voice" whenever you feel comfortable doing so...that's the next step...especially since you have an unlimited calling plan to the US and/or I could get one that covers Canada too...but no rush on that...I want you to feel 100% comfortable with me here before "going voice"...and then, after that, when we're ready, I'll probably fly up for a weekend to see you some, to see
''''namastemaster says:
to see if there's any RL chemistry or not...but no timetables, and no rush, Smile
''''namastemaster says:
I do plan on getting a webcam this weekend, BTW, so you can see my eyes in RT, Smile
***Slysays:
interesting.......smile..........I have friends in England who love their webcams.......      It isn't that I don't feel comfortable talking to you on the phone,  it's that I prefer to know someone for a while,  really,  and for there to be an ease in communicating that naturally leads to wanting to hear each others' voices,   (I have heard yours of course!)
***Slysays:
and I can call you,  that isn't a problem either.......as long as there aren't any expectations,  I think that is what I would be nervous about
''''namastemaster says:
No, Sly, there wouldn't be any expectations, My Word as a gentleman, Smile But Serious
***Slysays:
 not to mention that talking on the phone is much more intimate than talking here,   well,  it's different,  and I for one connect with someone very much by hearing their voice, speaking with them........  I don't think I am ready to do that at this time
***Slysays:
and I do believe your word as a gentleman,  Nam,  you are very kind and sweet to reassure me of that
''''namastemaster says:
Just being honest, I would like for us to talk sometime in the next month or two or so...no set timetable, and I wouldn't expect you to call on a regular schedule, but yeah, sometime in the next 30 to 60 days or so, I'd like for us to talk, if you're feeling comfortable enough by then...or maybe sooner too, Geee-Rrriinn     !!
***Slysays:
lol   that is sweet Nam,   I like your grin,  I'll bet it's much more mischievious in person,  too.........      that sounds like it may be doable,  of course.........
''''namastemaster says:
Cool !  And yes, my grin is little-boy mischevious in person, Uh-hu  
''''namastemaster says:
You do know more about me in some ways that all but 2-3 people on this planet, Sly...only 2-3 people know that I write as PlanetDweller and "am me", too...
***Slysays:
really?  why is that?  I thought you had a lot of online contacts........
''''namastemaster says:
No, not a lot...I've been around the "cyberworld" since its very infancy, and have SOME select cyber friends, yes, but my friends who are cyber I tend to have as RL friends, too
***Slysays:
and they don't know about your extensive writing?
''''namastemaster says:
No, because they would totally freak if I told them, meaning my PlanetDweller stuff
''''namastemaster says:
My PlanetDweller stuff is a completely separate part of me
***Slysays:
lol   hmmmm   but you told me,  why?
''''namastemaster says:
Because, this is where my philosophy comes into play...simply put, I "went with my gut"....after deep prayer and deep meditation, simply felt like it was the correct action to take...I could have been dead-wrong of course, but I simply followed what I thought my "Fate" was nudging me along to do
***Slysays:
lol   well,  we all have that feeling at times,  can relate to that.......  but I confess I haven't prayed in a long time,  really..........   I tend to follow my gut as well........  if you had gotten a really negative reaction from me,  would you have been "turned off",  so to speak?
''''namastemaster says:
Well, if you had been deeply offended by what I had written as PD, then I would have assumed that you would have pretty much ended our acquaintanceship at that point, just being honest, Smile
***Slysays:
lol   yes,  if I had been offended and biased against you for it as well,   I am sure......     I am quite open minded,  and respectful of someone else's "space" and thoughts......    and I expect the same in close friendships,  we can't all be the same
''''namastemaster says:
You are wise beyond your years, My Dear  
***Slysays:
no,  I am just experienced with people,  that's all.......  although not on all levels,  that's for sure
***Slysays:
and Iove people,  in all our incredible diversity.....    
''''namastemaster says:
It was and is important for you to know that what I write about as PD is 95% for others, not for myself, and is truly meant as to be means of healing for others
***Slysays:
yes,  I know that,  you have said that many times,  and I have to admit that I don't really relate to it in that way.......
***Slysays:
 but I respect your expression of that for others,  really.......and for yourself
''''namastemaster says:
If we had met online and our situations were reversed and I thought for one second you might be an actual child molester, "I" would have been deeply disturbed by "you" at that point and ended the acquaintanceship...I've always felt you can live The Golden Rule, respect others totally and not have to spend time with them if you don't want to
***Slysays:
yes,   that's very true.........  and just for the record, at no instant of our contact have I felt that you were an abuser of any kind whatsoever........  
''''namastemaster says:
Concerning those we don't like in RL, we can still respect them as children of God, but not feel obligated to bring them home to dinner, Smile But Serious
***Slysays:
yes,  exactly.........  whew!    lol
''''namastemaster says:
Thanks, that's important to me, means a lot to me  
***Slysays:
that is one of the "gut feelings"  that i would have pretty accurately,  I think
***Slysays:
but your expression of things is beyond me,  lol,   at times anyway      lol
''''namastemaster says:
I am a horny old goat, but only for one special adult female partner, Grin
***Slysays:
lol    yes,  I have noticed that..........
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehhheee
***Slysays:
lol   cute,  really.........       have you done any writing lately?  And what on earth did you do while your ISC was down?
***Slysays:
lol  withdrawals again
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, my computer wasn't down, just my ISC...worked on a couple of columns that my sub-Editor didn't care for so I asked him point-blank to tell me more or less what he wanted (he's always resistant about "assignments" usually for some reason, wants me as free-lance as possible)
***Slysays:
of course......lol
''''namastemaster says:
...so I've been piddling with them, but with hurricane coming and having two elderly parents who were freaking a lot, was busy dealing with them, a lot
''''namastemaster says:
But yeah, last night I was suffering "withdrawal" sympTs, Baddddddddd
***Slysays:
 lol  aw,  poor guy...........    *hugging you*........   makes you really appreciate things,  doesn't it?   lol   we had the same thing with the power outage last month
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles...so, any plans for this weekend? Nothing here, just the usual, errands Torrow, pro football games on Sunday...
''''namastemaster says:
I do need/want to write another PD story or two, just need to find the time and energy
***Slysays:
usual things for us too,  has been a busy week so I think I'll spend some time with my mother,  help her tidy up her garden,  etc.......    and am doing some writing to spice up my life,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
I'd like to see what you write of course, Smile...does your mother live with you or nearby?
***Slysays:
no,  she lives nearby,  with her husband of 17 years......  they are fine,   she is not a frail aging person exactly,   lol
***Slysays:
early 60s,  both of them
***Slysays:
 and I will send you what I write,  would like your opinion actually........
''''namastemaster says:
Cool, will love to read it!
***Slysays:
Okay,   of course.........   and I have started your novel,  btw......lol
''''namastemaster says:
I did start writing a new story for my PD site a couple of weekends ago but wasn't happy with it so I trashed it...I dunno, I 'might' fish it out of the TrashCan and finish it, though it won't be one of my better ones


***Slysays:
like you were saying about someone in your life,  that "the one"  may or may not have certain needs and wishes,  it is something to be worked out at the time
***Slysays:
   I do think that it is useful to be able to explore these things in fantasy,  though........and enjoyable
''''namastemaster says:
I think that we all have 2-3 very deep and inviolate personal needs from a potential partner in RL, and as long as that tiny less-than-a-handful are met, the rest is "negotiable" and "gravy"
***Slysays:
probably,   yes.......
''''namastemaster says:
And I think that exploring fantasies is how we truly learn about our own sexuality
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  I think you're right
''''namastemaster says:
Now, that said, I've had every single fantasy fulfilled in RL in my own life, so for me it's a matter of letting my fate cross my path with whom I'm supposed to be with
***Slysays:
well,  that must be a reassuring thought in a way,  lol,  for me it is a matter of finding out what I want before I get involved again..........   I'm a novice compared to you,  Nam,  in some ways
''''namastemaster says:
And I am a novice compared to you in some ways, too, Seriosly, Sly  
***Slysays:
hmmm  *smiling*...... that's nice of you to say,  my dear
***Slysays:
and all perfectly fine,   that way we have something to learn from each other.........
***Slysays:
ain't life grand??
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it is, and if it ain't at that exact moment, yes, it can be
''''namastemaster says:
Most important word: "Love"
''''namastemaster says:
Two most important words: "Don't Panic"
''''namastemaster says:
Three most important words: "I Love You"
''''namastemaster says:
Three second most important words: "Please Forgive Me"
***Slysays:
 yes to all of the above,   I agree wholeheartedly
***Slysays:
It's  ou,  isn't it.......  
***Slysays:
lol  o my
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles, interesting emoticon that just popped up
***Slysays:
it's (  Y  ) ou that is....... lol
***Slysays:
yes,  it is.........
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehhehee
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it's me
''''namastemaster says:
I always try to be nice, but I never say a single syllable I don't always mean 100%
***Slysays:
that's good to know
''''namastemaster says:
As Mark Twain would say, I don't have a good enough' memory to be a successful liar
***Slysays:
 well, you do a damnably good job at impressions,  for all that
***Slysays:
lol   said with a smile, btw..........
''''namastemaster says:
Grins back at you...so, did you finish reading most/all of the PD stories?
***Slysays:
not yet,  no,  but I did look at most of them.......
''''namastemaster says:
Was there any one story in particular that really turned you on?
***Slysays:
Blood on the Snow......  except that there was little of "His" reactions,   yours that is.......  it would have excited me more to know that,   and that would be known in r/l of course........lol         also the brother/sister story with the computer,    unbelievably,   lol
***Slysays:
 in all of your stories,  there is definitely an arousing factor there,  whether it is because of the forbidden,  or just the way you are describing it........   except for the child/daughter  scenes,  just couldn't get into those
***Slysays:
lol  no criticism intended
''''namastemaster says:
I totally understand why you can't get into the child/daughter scenes, same reason I don't get into forced man/boy scenes
***Slysays:
okay,  I see.........  
''''namastemaster says:
Everything I described in "Blood" I've done in RL, BTW, just not all at one time and with one partner
***Slysays:
 yes,  I remember that you said that
***Slysays:
 I don't think I could,  honestly........lol
***Slysays:
 go to those extremes I mean
***Slysays:
 but the intensity,  that is SO interesting.........
''''namastemaster says:
I might have to do a re-write/re-telling of "Blood" from his perspective as a "balance", that would be interesting, yeah, great idea, Sly!
***Slysays:
 and can be done within any limits I think
''''namastemaster says:
Thanks
***Slysays:
 lol  yw my Nam,  and yes it would be
''''namastemaster says:
I remember what you said about your favorite fantasy being one where your man/partner just totally "takes you", that's why you like vampire stories and similar if I remember correctly, I've been thinking about writing a story along those lines specifically for you, Hon
***Slysays:
wow,  really?  I would love that,  honestly........ *smile*
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, really  
''''namastemaster says:
Tell me a little more about what you would and wouldn't like in it, please
***Slysays:
that would be great,   seriously..........  I don't quite have the "guts" to do it in cyber,  I think...........lol  
***Slysays:
I will,  but have to let you go for a bit here,  my daughter is coming home.............I think mostly it is being completely sexually and emotionally "possessed" by someone who can see into my mind,  lol.........  not so original perhaps
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles
***Slysays:
am not afraid of a little blood and gore in a vampire scene either......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Okee, well, I'll yack at you later, have really enjoyed this afternoon with you, Hugs&Kisses until later, Bi-Bi    
***Slysays:
bye for now .........many kisses.........    


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***Slysays:
lol   that's cute,  no need though,  it will be interesting to hear your southern drawl,  mister............
''''namastemaster says:
You didn't think I had a Southern drawl in my .mp3 voice recordings?
***Slysays:
yes,  you did,  I thought,  but that is a bit different than everyday speaking,  I mean what you normally sound like
***Slysays:
 lol   not trying to sound formal........
''''namastemaster says:
I can speak in approximately 200 different American/American-ized dialects, Seriously...when I travel and am in one part of the country for over a week, I unconsciously start speaking mostly in that local dialect with just a trace of my NC one in the background, Smile But Serious...the only time my voice really sounds different normally is when I'm in a lot of physical pain, its pitch becomes
''''namastemaster says:
about half an octave higher
''''namastemaster says:
But yes, I'm looking forward to you hearing me in my "normal" mode, too    
***Slysays:
wow,  that's really interesting,  I tend to speak as those do around me as well,  to become more clearly understood I guess..........
***Slysays:
and yes,  I am too,  and you haven't heard me yet,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
If I had to geuss, I would think you probably sound something Edith Piaf when she was speaking conversationally and Liv Ullman from "Scenes From A Marriage"
***Slysays:
lol   hmmmm  that's pretty sexy,  you realize,    I'll have to let you judge that when you hear me,  I don't hear myself as others do.............
''''namastemaster says:

***Slysays:
ok  
''''namastemaster says:
Sorry, back
***Slysays:
hi,  me too.....
''''namastemaster says:
I was going to say that when I listen to my own voice, I really can't stand it either, I think that's part of the human condition
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  it seems that way,   yet it is so much "us" that others hear
''''namastemaster says:
I've been told by who knows how many people that with my pleasant but understated mild Southern accent and reasonably precise usually enunciation and timing that I should get into radio (actually did have my own local radio show for a few months back in 1979 on a local campus radio station) or similar
***Slysays:
I posted a little message on PD&s btw,   lol,  in support of the discussion class on Sunday......                                        yes,  I can imagine that too,  having just heard you a bit..........  really
***Slysays:
I have a sexy voice,  many people tell me,  lots of energy.........
***Slysays:
lol
***Slysays:
and shows how I am feeling,  I knew that
***Slysays:
I used to sing quite a bit actually
***Slysays:
not for a long time though
''''namastemaster says:
Cool    !
''''namastemaster says:
I mean about you singing
''''namastemaster says:
not singing now, Sheepish Grin
''''namastemaster says:
I do know that when I do vocal exercises regularly, I have a decent but not great singing voice, if it is a bit monochromatic
***Slysays:
lol   yes,  I think singing is pretty cool too,  I used to do it fearlessly,  now I don't think I could even get a peep out in public.........lol
***Slysays:
 o really?  as in monotone?  I doubt that........lol
''''namastemaster says:
When I was into martial arts when I was a teen and into my 20's, I used to regularly do these very dramatic and painful exercises to flex my diaphragm, and when I was doing those daily my voice was a full register deeper
***Slysays:
yes,  I'm sure........   it is the lungs that power our voice,  another reason to exercise more!   (sigh)
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I was trained to use the power of my diaphragm to "power" my whole upper body during kata and kumite exercises...all opera singers are trained to power their voices from their diaphragms, not their lungs
***Slysays:
yes,  have heard that,   that's really interesting.........   you must have been extremely fit!
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I was, actually still am all things considered, but even back then still had my little "paunch" or "gut", just being truthful, Smile


***Slysays:
 but being 37 is bad enough........lol    
''''namastemaster says:
I like older women, BTW
***Slysays:
 lol   is that right?
***Slysays:
hmmmm  I don't have to worry about you being turned off by wrinkles then?
''''namastemaster says:
No, nor peripause nor menopause, either  
***Slysays:
(in 5 or 10 yrs or so)......  lol no,  I guess not!     you would enjoy each phase,  I think...........lol
''''namastemaster says:
Well, as we talked about, I've yet to met a woman yet who actually ENJOYS having her periods, and from my first hand experience with two peripausal and then early stage menopausal wives, they enjoy THAT stage even less...I won't get graphic on you unless you ask me to, let's just say that until their periods actually stop for good, it's a rollercoaster ride for them
***Slysays:
yes I know,  watched my mother go through some of those things,  and friends too.........  and actually,  you are speaking to a rare person who does enjoy her periods,  because I don't have any negative side effects,  have increased energy (and sensitivity,  which can be seen as + or -)  and I actually like the energy high I experience each month!   lol
***Slysays:
hold on,  brb
''''namastemaster says:
k
***Slysays:
I meant emotional high.......lol  
***Slysays:
back,  obviously
''''namastemaster says:
Grins
''''namastemaster says:
Sly, you and I couldn't seemingly be more compatible than if we each ordered from "room service", Grin...Damn...you actually enjoy your periods, and yeah, you know I kinda do too, GHehehehehehe
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  I know  you do........... I would love it if a guy could really understand how a woman feels when she is on her period,  in a way it is being more of a woman,  I'm  always glad when it's here and glad when it's over,    lol   (and of course the increased sexual drive is a bonus too)
''''namastemaster says:
Well, since I'm an empath, I like to think I do, since in RL I would "link up" with you, Smile But Serious...to me, as you can gather from my writings, it's about accepting our sexuality for what it is, no more and no less...and for some reason, periods have been pushed out of the equation in Western society's views on and about sex...it's about being who we are, men and women
***Slysays:
yes, very much so,  and it's during her period that a woman needs a man to be "there" in a different way,  because she is somewhat more inwardly focused (just my take on it),  it's too bad it's such a breeding ground for misunderstandings and emotional strife
***Slysays:
also an indirect way of not accepting the naturalness of menstruation
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I couldn't agree more...it's about a base-level, genetic-level response to fertility signals and processes, too
***Slysays:
seeing it as a positive,  as wel....... yes,  exactly,  that we share as a species,  it isn't supposed to be a battle of the sexes,    lol
''''namastemaster says:
When you're on your period, that's when you want a man just to totally and completely and full of his masculine self but with awareness and tenderness just completely possess you, am I correct     ?
***Slysays:
wow,  yes you are.......
***Slysays:
just take over,  really
''''namastemaster says:
You've just given me a fully erect, raging hard-on, Sly   , Seriously
***Slysays:
really seriously?    wow,  I am also just sighing here.........  (and you won't believe this,  but it's getting close to that time for me,   lol)
''''namastemaster says:
Grins...yeah, you mentioned it earlier this week, Hehehehee...have been waiting for you to talk about it more, was going to ask you soon if it wasn't about time for you to start soon  
***Slysays:
lol   now isn't that a nice change,  you actually like it.....   I love that,  really
***Slysays:
 and it's so great,  any discomfort is outweighed by the energy and the sexual need........... I could attack you right now,    lol
***Slysays:
but I am lucky,  there is very little discomfort,  if any at all for me
''''namastemaster says:
And I could definitely take charge and overwhelm you right now, Too
***Slysays:
MMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmm..........   BIG sigh........    we can only wish............lol
***Slysays:
it's just when I have had a lot of stress,  emotional especially,  that I will get a headache sometimes,  that's about it
***Slysays:
the rest,  tenderness etc,  is just part of it
''''namastemaster says:
Just wish you had a webcam "this month", Hint Hint, Hehehehehehe...oh well, maybe next month or soon
''''namastemaster says:
Do orgasms during help?
***Slysays:
I think women who complain a lot about sympTs have negative feelings about themselves too,  don't accept certain things maybe.................oh yes,  orgasms relieve any bloating or pressure feelings,  and even the headaches when I get them,    
''''namastemaster says:
Cooolllllll, that means after you and I are together, you'll never have a headache for the rest of your life then, Hehehehe, Chaaa-Ching!
***Slysays:
lol  sounds great,  really...........
***Slysays:
and so does the rest,  "taking over" for that time would be such a wonderful thing
''''namastemaster says:
And orgasms during not just with my cock, but with/from my tongue and fingers as well
***Slysays:
now that is really amazing,  I think most guys would just avoid it altogether
''''namastemaster says:
Yes it would, and it will be so natural when I'm myself and just do what I want, which is be "in charge", Smile
''''namastemaster says:
They usually do, even if they like period fucking
***Slysays:
yes,  I know.........  you love that,  and that would be the perfect time for it.......lol
***Slysays:
yes,  tasting blood isn't the same as enjoying the extra lube........lol
''''namastemaster says:
My only limitation is that I can't give you head for much over 15-20 minutes...my jaws, unfortunately, aren't hypersexual
***Slysays:
lol   a tiny flaw in an otherwise extraordinary guy,   not a problem..........
''''namastemaster says:
But I do love to manually stimulate you, not just your outer labia and clit but your G-spot as well
***Slysays:
and 15-20 minutes is long enough........lol
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehehee
***Slysays:
 lol  yes,  that is a bit of a new discovery to me actually
***Slysays:
the g-spot that is
''''namastemaster says:
Have you ever had a cyprinne-fluid-emitting G-spot orgasm?
***Slysays:
not so much fluid emitting no,  but an intensified orgasm,  oh yes.........
***Slysays:
many intensified orgasms I should say
***Slysays:
lol
''''namastemaster says:
Cool     !
''''namastemaster says:
When we're together, I'll have to give you a nice fluid-emmitting, i.e. "flooding" G-spot orgasm...you'll be literally begging me to stop one second and threatening to kill me if I do stop the very next second, Hehehehhee But Serious, it's a lot of fun for both of us
***Slysays:
wow,  haven't quite done that,   lol......... there is quite a bit that I will enjoy I know,  once "active" again.......
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles...and wait until you see my hands in RL, too...I have these huge hands that can palm a basketball with long, thin fingers strong enough to literally crush bricks by grip alone but precise enough to play piano well and large enough to be able to stretch an entire octave on said keyboard
''''namastemaster says:
They're just PERFECT for massaging your G-spot
***Slysays:
lol  o my.........
***Slysays:
and have had a lot of practice as well,  it seems.........lol
***Slysays:
fine-tuned hands,    lol
***Slysays:
I have been avoiding sex instead of learning about it,  I think I have a lot of catching up to do
''''namastemaster says:
Grins...let's just say the ex-wives and I got respective divorces for reasons other than sex, Smile But Serious
***Slysays:
yes,  I know......    figured that much at least......
''''namastemaster says:
And I want to be the one to teach you and help you catch up, too,    !
***Slysays:
hmmmmm  now that could prove to be interesting,  Nam......... really
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it could, it could indeed-y
***Slysays:
lol  at least you would know that you would be getting some genuine responses in some things,   lol,   I can just imagine.........
''''namastemaster says:
Oh My Dearest Sly, I've never had a woman fake an orgasm with me, Just Smiles...all my partners know I'm enough of an empath to where I can't be fibbed to, to beging with, and, and as long as they're relaxed, they know each time with me I'll take them on a sexual journey that no other man on this planet ever could besides myself...just being honest, GRIN   !
''''namastemaster says:
to BEGIN with...
***Slysays:
^o)okay,  absolutely no lack of confidence there,  hmmmm...... he isn't self-delusional, is he?    nah,  that sounds too good NOT to be true!    lol        sorry........had to throw that in there........I just love that,  and it had better be true if we do end up meeting,  buster!
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, My Sweetie Sly, I can tell you all about what it would be like for you until the proverbial cows come home and when we're together you'll be thinking such things as "damn, he was exaggerating!", and "damn, how'd he just do that to me?" and "damn, if I had though he was actually this good we'd have met in RL months ago!" and "damn, damn, DAMN!, make me fucking come, do your magic, Big Boy, NOW!
''''namastemaster says:
Little things like that will be roaming around in yer' head,  Hehehehehehehe  
''''namastemaster says:
he WASN'T exaggerating...
''''namastemaster says:
I had THOUGHT....
''''namastemaster says:
...do need typing lessons apparently
***Slysays:
LOL    you are a treasure,   Nam........  truly.....   and yes,  I did get the correct meaning there.........
***Slysays:
lol  nah......
***Slysays:
it's nice to be that confident and that happy about it,  really,    it's supposed to be enjoyed that much!    
***Slysays:
and it's so fun to banter with you,  really
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles, Hugs Sly
***Slysays:
you're a worthy opponent,  Sir,  and I can't give you a better compliment than that  
***Slysays:

''''namastemaster says:
Compliment accepted  
***Slysays:
(of course)
''''namastemaster says:
Although "opponent" I take to mean "perfect match", Smile
***Slysays:
yes,  that is what I meant,  in that sense exactly
***Slysays:
it's just that we both enjoy the "challenge" aspect of that match,  I think
''''namastemaster says:
The opposite half of the mold that made me
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, we do...
***Slysays:
not in a competitive way,  but to enhance each other,  to become everything we can become
''''namastemaster says:
I just can't wait until we're in RL and making love for hours and at some point some 8-10-12 hours later you're begging me to stop...my "job" will have been done, GRIN !
***Slysays:
I think that is a natural (and misunderstood as well) aspect of male/female attraction.......
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it is
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  you will know that you have "conquered" me in truth........mmmmmmmmmmmmmm
***Slysays:
love that,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
And just wait until my cock starts doing its "special tricks" inside you
***Slysays:
haven't forgotten about those,   *wink*
''''namastemaster says:
Grins...don't worry, that's just the "1 iron" in my "bag of tricks"....I'll be surprising you nicely for years to come if not forever  
***Slysays:
 lucky me,  Nam
''''namastemaster says:
Lucky US, Sly  
***Slysays:
yes,  of course......  *gentle smile*   I do confess that it doesn't seem very real to me yet,  but I have to say as well that it is the most intriguing concept of a relationship that I have encountered thus far,  Nam
***Slysays:
it is important to meet one's match,  to be fulfilled if at all possible.......
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles....I do have to ask, "the most intriguing concept of a relationship that I have encountered thus far"....explain a little further, please?...sounds intriguing to me, too  
***Slysays:
*grinning*..... trying to outfox the fox,  eh?    lol            well,  I mean that the picture we have painted so far is the most interesting and to me personally intriguing one that I have considered,   insofar as I have considered a relationship.....   and it includes so many of the things that I want,  at least I think so in theory,  that it comes close to the "ideal" of fulfillment.........
***Slysays:
it is very close to the level of passionate interaction that I know I want from a relationship as well
''''namastemaster says:
Listens....
***Slysays:
lol   I think that's it.........
''''namastemaster says:
So, as long as I put the toilet seat down and make sure I always put the cap back on the toothpaste tube and open jars for you, you think we'll pretty compatible in RL, Eeehhhh? Hehehehehe....yeah, I do too
***Slysays:
lol   in theory yes
''''namastemaster says:
I really think that you're apparently the most perfect woman for me I've ever met in my life, No Kidding, Smiles
''''namastemaster says:
Even our differences I see as being strengths within our RL relationship, because of our basic respect for each other
''''namastemaster says:
Great, 100% compatible sex is usually if not always "the mortar" for a solid relationship, but you must have "the bricks" of love, trust, respect, etc., for that mortar to be able to create a solid foundation and building for
***Slysays:
interesting way to put that,  (and good to hear since that kind of sexual compatibility isn't what I have experienced yet, so I can't really judge that too well) and very true of course,   love and trust and respect for each other is paramount,  without it everything falls apart.......    definitely
***Slysays:
but evenso Nam
''''namastemaster says:
Listens....
***Slysays:
this is all mental compatibility that we are talking about
''''namastemaster says:
For right now, yes
***Slysays:
it doens't include things that may annoy the heck out of each other,   lol
***Slysays:
(and I'm not so worried about chemistry,  btw,  lol)
''''namastemaster says:
We both are adults enough to know that when we met in RL, that there may not be a single spark of chemistry between us, or one of us not having that spark and the other does,...but I'm not worried about that prospect at all...
***Slysays:
lol   thinking alike here
''''namastemaster says:
That's why I'm not worred...because we're slowly developing this friendship first and since we're both as honest as we can possibly be with each other, I think the chemistry will follow in RL, too
***Slysays:
are we being as honest as we possibly can be with each other?
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I think so
***Slysays:
(I am because it would really turn me off not to be,  I would not be able to function,  seriously)
''''namastemaster says:
I am because I don't know of any other way to be
***Slysays:
 okay,  fair enough,  really
***Slysays:
it's the best way to be,  for sure
***Slysays:
but not supported or even allowed for many
''''namastemaster says:
That's why I wanted to get "the PlanetDweller issue" out of the way early, because of the sense of attraction I had to you
''''namastemaster says:
I agree, because of fear, most people aren't usually honest with others, because they're not usually honest with themselves
***Slysays:
I see,  yes that makes sense of course........if I had run for the hills,  as you said,  then you would have known that much anyway.....          yes,  exactly,  and I have been in that place with myself but not to hurt others,  just pertaining to myself really......
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, and I would have understood too of course
***Slysays:
 I have not faced issues in my life at times,  but it had little bearing on others,  thankfully
''''namastemaster says:
I know it seems like I'm perpetually trying to impress you or brag to you, Sly, but, most times, I'm really not...I just want you to get a sense of the "complete me" as much as I can communicate to you using digital media
''''namastemaster says:
But I'm VERY glad you didn't run for the hills after reading my PD stuff, BTW
***Slysays:
I know that,  honestly......  I think I am a little afraid that this is some kind of hoax,  lol,   and I am a naive fool for taking part in it.......  don't be offended,  but some of the things you have said have been hard to believe,    lol        I'm glad too,  and glad that you're "real"
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, I know I'm a little "over the top" at times, especially regarding my personal faith-based beliefs, but in all seriousness now, virtually everything I've told you about me can be confirmed from and by independent, 3rd-party sources...yes, I'm about as "real" as they come, My Sweets
***Slysays:
*smiling at you*   that's why I want to hear your voice,  Nam,  and talk to you,  I can hear more than I can "see" here.......
***Slysays:
I am not judging or thinking anything negative here,  and as I said,  there are worse things
''''namastemaster says:
I don't want to project anything but complete honesty, Sly...I have to be careful with my money now, but I'm a manager by nature as well as profession so I'm always careful with my money, Smile...I 'could' afford to fly up to see you, right now, and it wouldn't hurt my pocketbook a bit, Hint Hint, Hehehehehehee
''''namastemaster says:
I'd just do a 7-day "super saver" instead of a full-price coach ticket
***Slysays:
 lol   opTistic as usual.........    well,  sure,  and why not.......  (this really doesn't matter in the slightest to me,  honestly........you have encountered an unnatural chick here,  money means next to nothing to me,  as long as I am in control of my own,  lol)
''''namastemaster says:
Money to me is first and foremost "a tool"
***Slysays:
yes,  and that is all that it is
***Slysays:
it is not power,  or prestige,   or standing in society,  it is only a material tool
''''namastemaster says:
As long as I have enough to pay my bills and a little extra for my luxuries like dining out and going to concerts occasionally, I'm happy
''''namastemaster says:
I really don't have any "vices" except fine dining, Seriously
***Slysays:
I am basically the same,  and like in all things am just concerned with being independent and true to myself really..........  well,  good,   lol,   no drinking/drugs/gambling then.........
''''namastemaster says:
Nope, none...
''''namastemaster says:
Let me clarify just a tiny bit...
''''namastemaster says:
If/when we're married, let's say 20 years, you might see me take approximately 5 drinks in those 20 years, mostly after a totally perfect steak at Blackie's in Washington DC or so...you'll never see me take an illegal drug, ever, period, and will fight an MD tooth and nail so I don't have to take any prescription ones he might want me to take; alcohol and drugs have ZERO phsyiological effect on me
***Slysays:
wow,  they have great effect on me,  which is why I avoid them completely as well
''''namastemaster says:
and I have the most NON-addictive personality you've ever seen...when we're on a beach somewhere and bugs are bothering us, you MIGHT see me smoke ONE good cigar, let's say I might smoke 5 decent cigars in those 20 years, but again, not for the reason most smoke...concerning gambling, I don't gamble; that said, "nickle/dime/quarter" poker games with friends where I might lose a maxmimum of $20 is
''''namastemaster says:
entertainment to me, not gambling, as is "dollar a game or beer a game" friendly bets on pool; but I've played maybe 5 games of nickle-dime-quarter poker in the past 30 years (all who know me know I'm an empath and have an unfair advantage, Seriously)
***Slysays:
lol   okay,  I believe you already!    
''''namastemaster says:
and I've played maybe half a dozen dollar-a-game games of pool since I was 13, again, most who know me know I'm good and won't even bet $1 a game with me
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles
''''namastemaster says:
Be careful what you ask for, you might get a "novel" in response, Sweetly Pokes Sly
***Slysays:
 lol yes,  I see that,   but I know how important it is to be clear sometimes,   too........   and I don't have any vices to speak of either,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Cool    !
''''namastemaster says:
Except me, of course
***Slysays:
don't drink at all, have never used drugs,  no casual sex,  no gambling at all........lol  yes,  I have you now........o boy...........whew!
***Slysays:
addicted
***Slysays:
lol
''''namastemaster says:
Big Silly Happy Grin right now, knowing My Sly is addicted to me...my my MY, that's a nice addiction, isn't it?
***Slysays:
it is,  really,  *smiling here*,  I am keeping a close eye on it however,   lol,   making sure it doesn't get out of hand    
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehehehehee
''''namastemaster says:
All I have to do is send you one of my handkerchiefs to sniff, and you'll be hooked for sure
''''namastemaster says:
One I keep in my pocket and don't ever actually use, of course
***Slysays:
(thought you would like that one).......   even relationships can be addictive I suppose,  but I have little patience or tolerance for "games",  thankfully.........     hmmmm  interesting
***Slysays:
of course
***Slysays:
being the perfect gentleman that you are.........
***Slysays:
always ready to offer a lady in need,  I imagine?
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, EXACTLY!, Damn, Sly, you're good!, we're good!
***Slysays:
lol  I do remember that much about southern hospitality and manners,  thanks to Gone With The Wind,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
I also hold doors open in public for strangers, both men and women, and give up my seat on mass transit to women, and am always patient with children and older people, etc.
''''namastemaster says:
Well, Sheepish Confession, that's when I'm on the Metro in DC or subway in NY, have never taken a bus, Sheepish Admission, but ya' know what I mean
***Slysays:
yes,  I do.........and even with children,  your own are an exception at times,   lol
***Slysays:
 good thing too
***Slysays:
I have a very positive impression of you,  I am not hesitant to tell you
''''namastemaster says:
You're very sweet
***Slysays:
and not because of these things that you've said,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Hhhhmmmmm
***Slysays:
it's because of what you put into your "efforts",  so to speak........    even if misguided at times,  as we are all,  I think you put your "everything" into things,  and in my book that means that you're more than all right
***Slysays:
make sense?
''''namastemaster says:

''''namastemaster says:
yes, it does
***Slysays:
lol  o good.....  
''''namastemaster says:
I get an "A" for effort if nothing else
***Slysays:
yes,  but for many things as well I'm sure,  it just doesn't have to be for everything
''''namastemaster says:
I'm always a professional in all endeavors I attempt, always pay attention to detail, always give things my 100% best effort, etc.
***Slysays:
 yes,  I know that,  it is very endearing really,   it means that you care very much about the outcome of things
***Slysays:
and to put your full effort into things means that you have a great deal of faith,  even with faults etc  
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, that's true...the Lord doesn't require us to be perfect, only that we try to be...and He doesn't hold our failures against us, only if we DON'T try
***Slysays:
well,  I guess so,  and of that I feel I am guilty at times,  that I didn't have the strength to try more,  to do more, to be more than what I have been
''''namastemaster says:
We all have at least some regrets, I think, even if they're small ones...I don't worry about what might have been, though, unless I know, KNOW I didn't give it my 100% best shot
''''namastemaster says:
I know from experience that success often comes "from left field" when we least expect it to happen
***Slysays:
well,  if you can say that you have done that most of the time,  given it 100%,  then I think you have lived a privileged life in some ways.......    yes, perhaps,   I don't know
''''namastemaster says:
And consistent, evenly-sustained effort combined with longevity usually, USUALLY is rewarded
***Slysays:
lol  yes,   I think so as well,  persistence does pay off
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I know I've lived a privileged life...I try not to be proud about it, but yes, honest about it
***Slysays:
it's good to know it,  that's all,  to understand that that is how it is......... no more than that,  we don't always choose these things
''''namastemaster says:
The one factor that's consistently shown to separate those who fail from those who succeed, since those who succeed often fail many times before actually succeeding, is that those who are successful have a single-mided purpose and focus on their goal, whatever that might be to/for them
***Slysays:
yes,  I've heard that before,  I know that as well..........do you know,  the only thing I have been very determined about is being a good parent to my daughter and eventually increasing my own mental and physical strength.......
***Slysays:
I am doing well on both counts,  but there has been little room for anything else
''''namastemaster says:
I'm not as successful as I want to be, not hardly, but I'm not obessed with "success", either...the main thing is to me, is that I want to be know for my honesty and integrity above all else
***Slysays:
yes,  same here really,   for myself first,  not towards others though
''''namastemaster says:
I can understand that!, i.e. focusing on your daughter and yourself
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I agree, first for self, then for others
***Slysays:
Dear Nam,  I have to get to bed..........   lol   yes,  it's the only way really,   to know and be responsible to yourself first ........
***Slysays:
(am getting really tired really fast)
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah me too, Sigh...
''''namastemaster says:
That's cool
***Slysays:
lol   I'll bet you aren't that tired.........
''''namastemaster says:
I've really, REALLY enjoyed tonight
''''namastemaster says:
Well, not really
***Slysays:
yes,  me too...........  no?  lol
''''namastemaster says:
But I'll go to sleep okay when I hit the bed, no problem
***Slysays:
why not really?
''''namastemaster says:
Because I'm physically fatigued but mentally alert, my usual conondrum/paradox
''''namastemaster says:
My tired body will tell my mind to shut the fuck up and go to sleep as soon as I hit the bed, Smile
***Slysays:
o,  not really tired,  I thought you meant not really enjoyed,   lol
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  I imagine it will...........
''''namastemaster says:
Always enjoy my time with you, Dearest Friend
''''namastemaster says:
It means a lot to me  
***Slysays:
thank you,  and same here,  really.........*hugging you tightly*.........   I'm glad,  Nam
''''namastemaster says:
Loves to be hugged by Sly  
''''namastemaster says:
And I'm glad my one big secret is out in the open now and isn't a problem for you
***Slysays:
Have a wonderful night,     *kissing you passionately as well*......*teasing grin*.......  
***Slysays:
yes,  I'm glad for you as well........
***Slysays:
not a nice feeling to worry about that
''''namastemaster says:
You two, dream of me, I'll be dreaming of you, Night-Night, Bi-Bi, "kissing you totally passionately while getting in a nice sweet grope of your behind and tit, GRIN!"        
***Slysays:
lol  mmmmmmmmm you sweet man........  I could get very used to that,  careful now.........  
***Slysays:
goodnight,  take care.......


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***Slysays:
Hello Nam,  are you there?
''''namastemaster says:
Hi Dear
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles    
***Slysays:
Good morning......

***Slysays:
a question for you,  if you don't mind--  how to find the chatsite for this evening?
''''namastemaster says:
It kind of a pain to find, because the chatsite doesn't have a permanent URL, they set a new one up for each new week,...first, you have to go to the PD&S main website...then, you have to find the link to MSN's main chat-groups page from there...from the main chatgroup page, you have to choose "Lifestyles" if I'm not mistaken...then you have to scroll through 3-4 pages of listings usually to find
''''namastemaster says:
PD&S's
''''namastemaster says:
It IS kind of a pain...
''''namastemaster says:
I'll help you tonight if you have any problems
***Slysays:
 thanks,  I will try that again,   did already,  didn't see it..........    
''''namastemaster says:
Master Lon usually doesn't create this week's site until sometime later today
***Slysays:
okay,  I'll wait until later then,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
He then sends the URL to Serenity
''''namastemaster says:
So, how did you sleep, well I hope?
***Slysays:
yes,  very well thanks,  a bit short but sweet nonetheless,  
***Slysays:
and you?
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehehheee...I'll accept the responsibility for keeping you way past your normal bedtime, Silly Smile...well, thank you, very deep and restful...and yes, no kidding, I did dream of you, Happy  ...I would like another photo or two of you sometime if you have any to send, I'll try to find some other ones of myself today or soon...
***Slysays:
I have a mismatch of pictures at different ages on my pc right now,  sent them to a family member not long ago,  not recent ones though
''''namastemaster says:
That'll be okay, you said your appearance hasn't changed that much over the years, mine hasn't either except for the goatee/beard...I would appreciate it you'd send me what you feel comfortable with, you ARE very physically beautiful to me, Sly, all kidding aside
***Slysays:
thanks, Nam,  really,  that's very nice to hear,  and I can send you one from when I was about 17,  lol,  although it has little to do with today really
''''namastemaster says:
I'd appreciate it  
***Slysays:
I have more pictures of my daughter really than of myself,  that's pretty typical I guess....... (why,  though,  do you doubt that the one I sent you is genuine?  just asking....)
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, I know the one you sent me was very genuine, I just am a little greedy maybe and would look more to be able to "flesh out" my image of you better...the more photos I have of you, the more a' complete "gallery" of images I can composite with/from in my own mind
***Slysays:
hmmm  well,  then the one of me when I was younger wouldn't help much really,   lol    and although I have no fears where you are concerned,  it may not be the wisest thing to do at this point really..........    I will look for a few of myself that are more recent and scan them for you,   it isn't that I'm unwilling to do so
***Slysays:
To me also,  appearances aren't really that important, I would rather see less than more myself,  but then I don't have a male brain,  do I............lol
''''namastemaster says:
Grins...male and female brains ARE very different, indeed, Smile But Serious...and even if I was female, my brain I think would still be "graphically and dimensionally oriented"...but yes, please look for and scan some more recent ones of you, that would be great!
***Slysays:
okay,  I will do that
''''namastemaster says:
You know when I look at someone I see their wholeness, their completeness, their "soul" if you will
***Slysays:
 yes,  I know,  but there is only so much one can see from a distance,  I realize also,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
I never judge anyone by their appearance, only by what's in their heart, and that's not really a judgement to me, only an "assessment", if you don't mind me splitting a semantic hair
***Slysays:
and the one I sent you is a bit distant,   purposely done I will admit,   but it also does show the type of person I am,  even if my hairstyle has changed,   .........  
''''namastemaster says:
That said, you're still very beautiful to me
***Slysays:
no,  I agree......   and thank you
***Slysays:
 very sweet of you
''''namastemaster says:
Of course, M'Lady, My Sly, My girlfriend & slave
''''namastemaster says:

***Slysays:
lol   hmmm  you are feeling happy this morning,   I can tell.........  ( slave??  *gasp* lol)
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehehee...yes, I am   ....
***Slysays:
I am as well,  and not in the least because I think I have "cracked the code" with myself a bit.........   good,  glad that you are.......*smile*
''''namastemaster says:
And yes, you are
''''namastemaster says:
"cracked the code"? Sounds intriguing?
***Slysays:
well,  maybe not to you really,   I think it has been really affecting me (more than I would have possibly thought) that I haven't been active sexually,  not physically but psychologically really............and yesterday I basically did some further "research" into sexual response,   reading only,  lol,  and so much of it is what I should have been experiencing really,   I don't mean to sound
***Slysays:
shallow because it isn't,  and with my particular background it has more meaning than the average inexperienced person
***Slysays:
psychologically as well........   so needless to say,  it is important for me to understand this,  whether I choose to utilize it or not
''''namastemaster says:
I think I understand...you've been reading a lot to be able to fantasize while reading and/or afterwards to begin to explore parts of your sexuality that either have been dormant or you haven't explored yet at all...it doesn't sound shallow at all, Sly, it sounds very necessary...
''''namastemaster says:
It also sounds like you've been researching such RL things as female orgasmic response, G-spot orgasms, etc.?
***Slysays:
I picked up a few books by Graham Masterton,  actually,  not reading to fantasize but to inform myself further,   lol.........
''''namastemaster says:
I'm not familiar with Graham Masterton?
***Slysays:
lol   yes,  found one on the G-spot as well,   in the bargain bin at Chapter's no less...lol
***Slysays:
He is a well-known writer,   hold on one sec
''''namastemaster says:
k
***Slysays:
he is a former editor for Penthouse, Mayfair,  etc, has written about 12 books on improving sex for couples.....  
***Slysays:
British I think,   not sure
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, I C, Smile...Cooollll !~
''''namastemaster says:
So, what did you find out?
***Slysays:
well,  it is to me,  lol,  anyway.........  I wasn't a novice when it came to reading,  I have read some really good erotica as well,  also Anne Rice,  for ex.,  but it's more that the "brakes" are off with myself,  for various reasons,  and so what I am reading now makes a hell of a lot more sense than it did before............
''''namastemaster says:
Listens, Smiles Knowingly
***Slysays:
and exploring the G-spot,  for ex.,  is something that I didn't do before because I was in fact still trying to suppress feelings rather than explore them,  at the cost of even part of my identity as a woman I think.......   not good at all
''''namastemaster says:
May I also suggest "Parachutes & Kisses" by Erica Jong, most libraries would have that
***Slysays:
but things are a' changin',    lol      
''''namastemaster says:
No, it wasn't good
***Slysays:
sure,  thanks,   I will look for that as well
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, they are, and I couldn't be happier for you and prouder of you, too
***Slysays:
well,  truthfully,  I am blushing right now,  it seems so damnably trivial in the sight of a "normal" person,  I'm sure........
''''namastemaster says:
Hopefully some of what I've written has opened your eyes and mind to other possibilities as well
''''namastemaster says:
No, I don't see it as being trivial, I see it as being necessary and liberating for you
***Slysays:
 as I said before,  the fact of making certain things consensual opens up positive feelings,  even if it is totally fantasy only.........
''''namastemaster says:
And I'm not exactly "normal, JIC you haven't noticed, BTW, Grin
***Slysays:
lol  well,  hmmmm.......  
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I agree
''''namastemaster says:
On both counts
***Slysays:
*-)  I wonder.........
***Slysays:
lol
''''namastemaster says:
What are you finding out about yourself now that maybe surprises you?
***Slysays:
just the fact of sex being a need,  of it making the rest of my senses more acute,  of it being a part of being happy even,  first of all..........
***Slysays:
and then also the range and depth of my "appetite",   lol.........   never mind societal standards,  god there must be a lot of deprived frustrated people in this world!!   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, there are, but WE are NOT two of them
***Slysays:
even physically,  I didn't really know what I could or couldn't do or want,  actively suppressing it before
''''namastemaster says:
And I'm glad you have such a healthy "appetite", you've been on a "diet" for way too long
***Slysays:
but the mental/emotional cost of doing so  was becoming too great,  thankfully,   that's why I am glad my body made this a priority,   lol  (hormones)
***Slysays:
yes,  I have in a sense,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles Knowingly & Hopefully
***Slysays:
no longer however    
''''namastemaster says:
Way Cool !      
***Slysays:
lol   that is sweet of you,  you do understand I see
***Slysays:
lol   yes,  it is.......   what a strange life this is  
***Slysays:
I intend to take time to explore still though,  in a very relaxed but intent way,    lol
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it's strange, but also very nice at times, when "Fate" kicks in and puts us exactly where we need to be and with whom and where
***Slysays:
it just really helps to know what the hell was happening in my head all this time,  and it's funny,  but even not really awarely knowing,  it still affected my self-image as well,  ......  
''''namastemaster says:
Even when we don't exactly understand why
***Slysays:
I am not so sure of that actually
***Slysays:
yes,  exactly
***Slysays:
but understanding to me is paramount really,  I think it's the way I have survived in my life when emotionally everything was too much.......my brain kicked in and helped me stay afloat
***Slysays:
some things need to be experienced to understand,  however........and you're right,  we do need to trust that certain things will appear when needed
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I know the feeling...but when I lack the capacity for true understanding for things OUTSIDE of myself, I just chalk those up to God's will and go on as best I can
***Slysays:
not me, I need to understand,  and I will continue to pursue something until I do,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
And yes, certain things MUST be experienced on a physical level to be truly understood...like the old Jimmy Buffet line from one of his songs: "don't ever to describe a Kiss concert/if you've never seen one", Silly Grin
***Slysays:
it's called determination,  I hope,  not sheer blind stubbornness.........            lol  that's cute
''''namastemaster says:
One could say the same thing about experiencing cyprinne-producing G-spot orgasms, GHint, Hint
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, I'm the most stubborn man on this planet, can outstubborn a cat, you and I are quite similar in that regard
***Slysays:
lol   well,  I haven't applied what I have read yet,  or maybe I would be enthusing about that.......
***Slysays:
well,  I like to investigate things really,  to really uncover and understand all that I can,  and I hate limits.......with a passion,    *wink*
''''namastemaster says:
I like "focus" and "single minded-ness" and "determination" better than stubbornness, Yes
***Slysays:
yes,  me too........lol   ah well,  it's all in how you see it perhaps,  or in who is saying it
''''namastemaster says:
Pheewwwww, Sly, you just gave me 'another' hard-on when you just said "I hate limits...with a passion"....Wow!
***Slysays:
lol   are you serious??
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, Very  
***Slysays:
wow,  the power of words,  amazing..........lol  (I love that,  really)
''''namastemaster says:
It's all in the mind
***Slysays:
I do have one quality very strongly as well,  and that is hope..........
''''namastemaster says:
If the mind can't lead, the body won't follow
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, same here...hope for what I've always wanted and more importantly, needed
***Slysays:
not faith,  I have to admit,  because I haven't had a form or substance to use to "attach" myself to ...........but I always seem to have a lot of hope for things.........
***Slysays:
not for what I've wanted,  but for there to be true purpose and meaning to this world.......
***Slysays:
for things to be as positive as what I do perceive them to be,  and for me to have a place in that
***Slysays:
(comes from being deprived,  they say,  remember Frankl,  in Man's Search For Meaning?)
''''namastemaster says:
I understand...but to find peace in the world, to help create peace in the world, one first must find peace in one's own heart and with one's self
***Slysays:
yes,  exactly,  which is great,  because we all deserve to have that
''''namastemaster says:
Sorry, I'm not familiar with Frankl, or if I am, don't remember him, can't place the name to anything I remember having read
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, we do
***Slysays:
Victor Frankl,  survived a concentration camp in WW II,   small but powerful book,  very well known
***Slysays:
you should read it,  I think you would like it
''''namastemaster says:
I'll write it down
''''namastemaster says:
TY
***Slysays:
he describes his own voyage,  spiritually more,  the indomitable human spirit really.........while going through that experience,  and many reflections on human nature as well,  very insightful
***Slysays:
yw  

***Slysays:
I will be on from about 7:30 on,  will try to get in and if not will "hail" you........*kisses for now*............    see you then
''''namastemaster says:
Hugs*Kisses for now, Deep Happy Sigh, Bi-Bi    
***Slysays:
have a great afternoon........   (smiling at your sigh....)

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***Slysays:
Hello my dear,   are you there?
***Slysays:
If you're in,  give me a shout,  I will be on only for a bit right now,  and will be a bit late for this evening,  but I will leave the computer on.   *kisses*..........
''''namastemaster says:
Hi Dear, there?
''''namastemaster says:
Hi, sorry I missed you earlier, hope you're having a nice time tonight, Smile, I'll be around until at least around 10-ish or so, maybe a little later...ping me if you'd like to chat, I'll make sure I have the computer's speakers volumn up so I can hear your ping, talk to you soon, Hugs&Kisses    
***Slysays:
Hi there,  I'm finally here,   what's happening with PD&s?
***Slysays:

''''namastemaster says:
Hey, haven't dropped in there yet
***Slysays:
o dear,  okay,  I will try to get in now then,  lol
''''namastemaster says:
I'm headed that way now too, Smile
***Slysays:
okay,  great.........*hugging you*
''''namastemaster says:
}Hugging you back{
***Slysays:
and of course I don't see it.....disgusted sigh...lol
''''namastemaster says:
I'm looking now too
***Slysays:
okay
''''namastemaster says:
Well, I've looked at every single listing in the US Chats section and don't see it, Sigh
***Slysays:
no,  neither do I ..... hmmm  well,  we will just have to chat here  
***Slysays:
lol   just kidding,  if you have time that is
''''namastemaster says:
Not like chatting with you is a disappointment at all to me, Smile, and of course I have time for you My Sly
***Slysays:
thanks my Nam,  I'm glad you feel that way......   but didn't they let you know where it would be?
''''namastemaster says:
Uh-uh, they never do, and I'm supposedly Co-Mod
***Slysays:
yes,  lol,  that's what I was thinking,  it's just strange because serenity placed such emphasis on attendance.........
***Slysays:
a bit overdone I think,  to say that people will be banned,   but it's up to them
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, what stern, almost hostile message she posted publicly to members about either get involved or she'd delete their membership
***Slysays:
yes,  I thought it was a bit much myself,   not exactly encouraging,   but she was trying to drive a point home I guess.........
***Slysays:
more activities would accomplish better things I would think
''''namastemaster says:
I don't sweat personal quirks like hers if it doesn't affect my pocketbook  
***Slysays:
lol   good thinking........    
***Slysays:
I am "attracted" to groups in a way,   but usually do not end up staying in them,   am not much of a group animal,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Me neither
***Slysays:
more like that eagle you see flying up there......^    lol
***Slysays:
(if you see it!)
''''namastemaster says:
Groups always develop little, catty cliques that I don't care for, but that's human nature
***Slysays:
yes,   it is
''''namastemaster says:
I always look up at the sky, it's amazing what you see when you actually look up
***Slysays:
yes, it is,  and most of the time beautiful,  too......
''''namastemaster says:
I always see that eagle flying or that incredible light-painting with clouds and light that God does
***Slysays:
yes,  it does always make you think that way.......
''''namastemaster says:
Some of the totally incredible light and cloud shows I've seen I wish a camera of some kind could capture, and I have some very expensive cameras, but none can begin to accurately capture what my eyes and heart sees
***Slysays:
yes,  I know exactly what you mean,   I've spent some time doing that as well.......did succeed to some extent in Holland one summer,  some great shots
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles, what kind of camera and lens did you use?
***Slysays:
Minolta T200.   I think it was,  this is a lot of years ago
***Slysays:
35 mm of course,  with extended lenses,  I don't recall exactly
***Slysays:
or was it XT.....lol


***Slysays:
will you be available to voice chat Torrow,  btw?  just wondering already........   and thank you,    
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I should be...I know Tuesday I've got to be out most of the day making sales calls (I owe a couple of "fence-mending" calls to some folks), but sure, Torrow I should be available most anytime except for between 12 noon and 1PM, that's blocked out, but otherwise I'm free
''''namastemaster says:
You know I'm really looking forward to hearing your voice      
***Slysays:
o dear,  that is pretty much when I will be home,  unless it is earlier or later that I am free for lunch,  depends on what is planned......    I am as well,  really.........lol
***Slysays:
we'll have to play it by ear then,  literally and figuratively......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Screw it, Smile, I can always reschedule my lunch appointment, Smile But Serious, not a problem, I'll just schedule it either for Tuesday too or another day, it's not THAT important, Seriously
***Slysays:
well,  be sure of that,  it can be another day,  really...........*smile*......  
''''namastemaster says:
I'm sure
''''namastemaster says:
Seriously, Smile  
***Slysays:
I will just check to see if y ou are here.........   ok,  that's great then,   something different from this forum.........
''''namastemaster says:
Yes....were you going to want to use Messenger here as a voice-over-IP carrier, or something else?
***Slysays:
I have yahoo as well,  messenger that is,  but prefer this,  if something else works better for you let me know please.......
''''namastemaster says:
No, this should be fine, I HOPE...keep in mind that up until I disabled the hardware ID on my computer from my Messenger preferences, I had been able to receive but not send files like webpages or txt files or such...but I think it's working okay now...we'll make something work Torrow, shouldn't be a problem
''''namastemaster says:
I had NOT been able...
''''namastemaster says:
Shoot, I'm tired, I had been able to receive but not send files, Sorry
***Slysays:
sure,  we'll just give it a try......   lol  that's ok,  I was just going to ask you how you were tonight........
''''namastemaster says:
My feet are killing me but otherwise I'm doing okay, just my usual pings and pangs....and how are you doing tonight?
***Slysays:
good,  I've had an energetic day,  but a bit emotional really,   fine though
''''namastemaster says:
Why emotional?
***Slysays:
(almost "that"  time of the month,  lol)...... just reflecting on something important this afternoon,  and my brother's daughter is down again from Holland,  she's 17,  just came out of an abusive situation,  reminds me of too much
''''namastemaster says:
Sighs for you, Feels for you...and yeah, I was kinda wondering if you got more emotional "just before"
***Slysays:
yes,  but not a problem usually,   it would be more if I was in a relationship maybe,  *grin*....taking it out on a guy,   lol
***Slysays:
more sensitive for sure,  but usually in a good way, honestly..........
''''namastemaster says:
Grins...you could/can take out your frustrations all you want on me when we're together in RL, I won't mind a bit  
''''namastemaster says:
I'll fix you homemade chicken soup and give you chocolates
***Slysays:
mmmmm  that sounds great,  lol,  and yes,  it would be good to have something to focus on........    
***Slysays:
wow,  you are GOOD...........lol
''''namastemaster says:
I just LOVE to spoil the one I love, Happy Thought
''''namastemaster says:
And I'll massage the small of your back, too, of course
***Slysays:
yes,  isn't that a great thought?  used to do it all the time,  the giver "gets" more than the receiver,    and yes, of course.........   lol   (man,  I can only dream of such things......)
''''namastemaster says:
And do lots of other sweet and nice things, but hey, that is, that will be true all month/all year/all life long
***Slysays:
are you really so consistent?   honestly............
''''namastemaster says:
YES
***Slysays:
 wow......
''''namastemaster says:
Honestly, I am
***Slysays:
most men become complacent and take their partner pretty much for granted,  I think....but then so do many women
''''namastemaster says:
For me, with me, Sly, it's all about respect and love...if I truly love you, if I'm in love with you, then of course I'll respect you, and that old Golden Rule thing always takes precedence anyway
***Slysays:
 ok,  here's a question for you.......
''''namastemaster says:
I never take a single moment of my life for granted, period, let alone a single moment with my partner
''''namastemaster says:
Okee....
''''namastemaster says:
...shoot with your question
***Slysays:
what is the difference between really loving someone and being "in love"?        
***Slysays:
that may sound stupid,  
***Slysays:
but
***Slysays:
lol      I would like your thoughts on that,  if you don't mind
''''namastemaster says:
Sure, no problem
''''namastemaster says:
Well, the English language is so crude in this regard that has only one word for "love", that being "love", to express a huge variety of emotions and conditions of concern, respect, love, affection, attraction, passion, etc., my first proviso
***Slysays:
yes.......
''''namastemaster says:
Generally, I'd say that I can truly love someone, and let's just say this given someone is a female, without being attracted to them sexually or physically
***Slysays:
yes,  that kind of love I am very familiar with as well
''''namastemaster says:
I could love a guy like that too, don't get me wrong, without any sexual overtones at all, that would be like the Greek word for that called "phila" or brotherly/sisterly love
***Slysays:
yes,  okay....
''''namastemaster says:
But, for me to be "in love", it would be the rough equivalent to the Greek word "eros" but also deeper than the classical Greek meaning...for me to be "in love" with some, I have love them first, yes, and also feel a chemical or animal attraction to them, feel a desire to be with them sexually as well as emotionally, but also spiritually and psychically as well, keeping in mind that when I'm with
''''namastemaster says:
a partner on a physical, sexual level I'm also like it or not also linked to them on a very real "empathetic" or "psychic" or whatever you wish to call it level, which only reinforces my physical desire for them
***Slysays:
yes,  I think we are "built" to be that way,  the physical being a spiritual link as well......     hmmm    (just carefully reading that over,   lol)




''''namastemaster says:
With Angel, both times with her was several days in a row, they weren't "one night stands"
***Slysays:
I see,  and how did you resolve those feelings,  did they not leave you with permanent "scars",  so to speak?   (are you sure you were in love?)

''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I'm sure I was in love all three times...how did I resolve those feelings?
''''namastemaster says:
Well, let's make that 4 times, forgot to include B, whom C and I planned to marry, though I NEVER made love or had intimate contact with her, so the "in love" designation is borderline there...anyway...back to your question, Smile...
''''namastemaster says:
No, and I mean this sincerely, those three times left me with a lot of permanent joy in my life, memories and feelings I shall treasure always
''''namastemaster says:
How did I resolve not being able to be with them any longer? Seriously, because of my faith, knowing that my Fate lesson(s) with them had been learned
''''namastemaster says:
The way I see it, Sly, is that I needed every single moment with each to be able to be prepared for when "The One" is meant to come into my life, and I couldn't be more serious now, Smile
***Slysays:
 well,   don't you think that "The One" is the one you fall in love with in the first place?  is there a different thinking about that "One" then?
''''namastemaster says:
Yes..."the one" is whom I'll spend the rest of my life with, no ifs ands or buts...of course I thought so with each, so how do I resolve the fact that I'm not now? Hhhhhmmm, because I know that like it or not I'm very human and I do make mistakes and just try to make sure my mistakes don't hurt others or myself too much. That's one of those imponderables that I just have to chalk up to Fate.
''''namastemaster says:
What about yourself, how many times have you been in love?
***Slysays:
yes,  I understand your reasoning there,   it is something a bit different in my "Faith",  the thinking about a spouse,  especially the spiritual bond that is forged,  that does last forever it seems,  even when divorced,  lol............  I haven't,  believe it or not,   I have loved (esp. my husband)  but since I didn't connect certain required emotions,  I really haven't been yet
''''namastemaster says:
Hhhhmmmm, interesting...
''''namastemaster says:
In a way, I think, you might be lucky...
***Slysays:
I don't know,  I don't think there is a difference really,  I have slept with a few men,  and should have felt more perhaps.........
''''namastemaster says:
Listens...
***Slysays:
 I don't know what would have been any different,   but I do know that if I had been in love,  it would have completely devastating to me,  I think....  but maybe not as well,  who knows....
***Slysays:
would have been
''''namastemaster says:
In my three cases, my having been in love with those three all were tempered by betrayals in their own ways by all three, respectively
''''namastemaster says:
When I'm betrayed, all love let alone being in love ends right there
***Slysays:
yes,  I do understand that.......  believe me,   it is difficult to sustain that bond without trust
***Slysays:
yes,  same here,  I stopped "trying" ..........   and knew it was over instantly
***Slysays:
 some people don't think humans are meant to be monogamous.......
***Slysays:
it's ridiculous,  when trust is based on honesty and equality........  it just wouldn't work any other way,  I think
***Slysays:
 so do you think then,  that those feelings of being in love increase each time,  as your capacity increases?
***Slysays:
 your spiritual capacity,  to love,  I mean........(do you mind this conversation,  btw?)
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I do
''''namastemaster says:
No, I don't mind at all  
''''namastemaster says:
I meant yes, I feel that each time of being truly in love increases my capacity for being in love even more, should it ever happen again
''''namastemaster says:
But no, I don't mind this conversation, you and I can talk about anything, ANYTHING, Smile
***Slysays:
yes,  I think so as well.......and I really wonder if there is such a thing as "the one".........that's good,  I think we can talk about anything as well......  thanks,  really.......
''''namastemaster says:
I've thought long and hard about monogamy...my first wife was bi and had GF's all through our marriage and I didn't mind because they weren't a threat to our marriage, and yes, that summer with her and Linda was A LOT of fun...that said, that permanent threesome also taught me a very valuable 1st hand lesson, that in a threesome or moresome, someone always, ALWAYS has their feelings hurt...
***Slysays:
yes,  I thought as much,  really......
''''namastemaster says:
Is it possible for three people to be in love with each other equally and no one have their feelings hurt (usually) and basically no jealousy? Yes, I think it is, but that's truly a 1 in a Billion or greater circumstance
''''namastemaster says:
And I know ME, and I'm very monogamous by nature
***Slysays:
I don't think it is possible or desirable.......   really   (I would never be able to "share" my man with someone,  I would kill first,   lol)
''''namastemaster says:
When I finally met "My One", it will be forever, and no, I'll never "share" her with anyone, man or woman
***Slysays:
and again,  I wonder if there is such a thing really,  the thought of it is kind of comforting,  that if you do,  you can be totally sure of that person,  but I don't think it is that way really
''''namastemaster says:
please explain further...
***Slysays:
I think we are capable of deep "in love" relationships with more than one kind of person,  for example,    but the one we choose is the one we grow with,  it is the actual relationship that determines that,   I think..........
***Slysays:
every day life is not particularly romantic at times,  but that bond........
***Slysays:
 that togetherness,  so to speak,  is what allows people to be as close as they are,   the question is in the choice of person,  I think
***Slysays:
 if we knew ourselves half as well at 20 as we do at 40,  for example,  we would make a different choice
***Slysays:
but I may be entirely wrong here
''''namastemaster says:
Well, we'll have to respectfully and modestly disagree on our definitions of being "in love", since, speaking for myself, I can't be "in love" with someone without a happy sexual relationship with them; I can love them deeply, so deeply I could and would give my life to save theirs, but not be "in love" with them...
***Slysays:
I do agree with that........
''''namastemaster says:
I do agree that there are many "possibilities" out there who could end up being The One, but within my faith, if there is meant to be "a One", then there is only one true One, if that makes sense
***Slysays:
no,  it doesn't yet,  please explain further?
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I do think what we want from a partner and more importantly need from a partner changes with age
''''namastemaster says:
Within my living my Fate, I have met three, maybe four women whom I could spend the rest of my life with happily...and yet, fate and circumstances didn't permit that to happen, which means they weren't The One, even though I thought they were at the time
''''namastemaster says:
So, do I believe The One is still out there, and do I think she and I are fated to meet and be together the rest of our lives? I honestly don't know. I hope so. I pray so. But I really don't worry about, because I know if she is The One and we're supposed to be together forever, our mutual and individual Fate choices will combine eventually and yes, we'll be together
''''namastemaster says:
I'm enlightened, Sly, Yes, but it's not part of "The Rules" that I'm permitted to know my fate any more than anyone else is, only that I have knowledge and understanding that my choices I make are MY choices and those choices will allow or not all good and bad things in my life, including finding The One or not as my life might turn out...make more sense now, Smile?
***Slysays:
well,  that part yes,  which is true for all of us,  but I do have to disagree with "the One" idea,  although I have used those same words to mean the one that you do want to spend the rest  of your life with.......
***Slysays:
this is interesting.........
***Slysays:
you,  who have been in love,  believe this.......
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles
***Slysays:
and I who haven't,  do not..........lol
***Slysays:
what's wrong with this picture??    lol
''''namastemaster says:
Nothing's wrong with this picture at all, Sly, it simply "is", Grin
***Slysays:
lol   yes,  like most things Nam......
''''namastemaster says:
Being my usual blunt self, Sly, do I hope YOU are The One? Yes! Do I "think" or believe you are The One for me? Honestly, I have no clue yet, and won't until we meet in RL whenever that might be. I do know I think a lot of you, and that you and I are so very compatible in so many ways including all that are important to both of us.
***Slysays:
We do seem to think,  no FEEL the same way about a lot of things,  and mostly the intensity of things I think,   lol.......  
***Slysays:
we are the same way in some ways........
''''namastemaster says:
It's just me, but I don't understand how you can't believe in the concept of The One and still believe in monogamy like you do, accepting that monogamy is a deep tenent of your faith
***Slysays:
monogamy means choosing to be with one person,  faithful to them.........  but it is still a choice.........  
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, agreed  ! Surprise, surprise, Hu?
''''namastemaster says:
That's why a compatible sexual aspect to a relationship is so very important to me
***Slysays:
and WHO is part of that choice as well........    yes,  I'm glad that I'm at this age now,  to be able to factor that into a choice awarely,    
''''namastemaster says:
I accept how much of a human "animal" I am, albeit a very monogamous one
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, agree totally
''''namastemaster says:
Physical communication on/from a sexual level is every bit as important as communication on verbal, non-verbal, and spiritual levels
***Slysays:
the fact that we want and need that "one" also indicates that we are meant to be monogamous,   really.........    yes,  I do agree completely there,  of course........
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles...so, wanna suck my cock now?  
''''namastemaster says:
I'd order you to suck it since you're my slave, but Master/slave communication doesn't translate well in chat, Grin
***Slysays:
 lol  o my,  ran to the bathroom quickly,  expecting you to write a long answer................and looky here.........lol
''''namastemaster says:
So, are you sucking it yet? Sure feels like it!  
''''namastemaster says:
Gotta make you laugh and smile, Sly
***Slysays:
lol  no,  I don't guess that it does,  although it is supposed to.........                 o my,  you are in a state all of a sudden..........
''''namastemaster says:
Nah, just gotta keep you interested, that's all  
***Slysays:
 lol  I am laughing,  really........   I like honesty,  it's more of a turn on than anything else.....
''''namastemaster says:
Since that's the case, I must keep your panties absolutely soaked all the time...
***Slysays:
lol  well,  you have intrigued me,  I will admit,  no doubt about it,  and I have sensed something about you from the beginning,  something familiar yet unknown........
***Slysays:
 I'm not quite sure how I should put it......
***Slysays:
I have wanted to get to know you,  that is certain
''''namastemaster says:
Listens...
''''namastemaster says:
To me, it feels like we might have been married in a past life and reunited again in this one
***Slysays:
 I have to confess that I have been still "processing" a number of things that have stood in the way of my having a serious interest in someone,  and also that I have had feelings quite unexpectedly for someone online,  no less.........        hmmmm  that's an interesting way of putting it,   but I also think of "familiar patterns" when you say that,   lol.........psychology be damned.....
''''namastemaster says:
My feelings EXACTLY
***Slysays:
(since I don't believe necessarily in past lives......lol)
''''namastemaster says:
I know, but it certainly does feel like it at times
***Slysays:
hmmm  but those familiar patterns may not be altogether positive,  or may be extremely so,  depending on what we do with them........    
''''namastemaster says:
Quite true, Listens...
***Slysays:
it may be just really compatible needs and desires,  as well.........hard to find out unless in person,  and at the same time harder to find out in person because physical attraction can get in the way as well............lol
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it can get in the way both in positive and negative aspects
***Slysays:
not to mention that emotional attraction is often unaware.....yes,  right
''''namastemaster says:
Too much of it or not enough of it
***Slysays:
 yes,  I think so too...  it's so important to get it within the "just right" range for both......
''''namastemaster says:
I am like you, Sly, in that while I'm very hopeful for "us", I also have enough life experience to be very realistic if not brutally honest with both myself and you and keep expectations, well, not low, but realistic until we actually meet and see if what we're developing here translates into "there"
***Slysays:
I am also realistic about my lack of knowledge here,  really........and as I have said,  I am not clear with my feelings for someone.......  still trying to understand what happened there,  if anything really......
***Slysays:
I am quite brutally honest with myself as well,  even though I can get completely swept up in things..........
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, you mean your other online relationshup where he played you and it didn't work out?
***Slysays:
and lose focus for a while......
***Slysays:
 lol   yes,  I do mean that.........
***Slysays:
it wasn't a relationship though
***Slysays:
just an encounter,  or series of them.........
''''namastemaster says:
I'm not sure what you mean when you said above: "my lack of knowledge here"?
***Slysays:
 my lack of actual physical experience with desire for a man..........  I have not allowed myself to feel it,  really.......it wasn't conscious,  it was an unconscious need for safety first..........
***Slysays:
I have not had that connection with someone in reality.......
***Slysays:
even my marriage was really sparse that way,  because of his past as well
''''namastemaster says:
O, I C, and I understand, I think...but it's a question of conscious choice on your part, because you're obviously a sweetly libidnous and highly sexual woman in RL when you wish to be?
''''namastemaster says:
As long it's with WHOM you wish to be?
***Slysays:
no............
***Slysays:
it's this:  I could not allow myself to be that vulnerable to someone,  in fact..........   it is not until just a few months ago (and because of online "exploring") that I have consciously decided to feel more.......    I did not withhold out of choice,  but out of inability to connect positive emotions with sex
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I understand, because of your past negative experiences  (to say the least) with sex in RL
''''namastemaster says:
Your abusive situations in the past
***Slysays:
yes,  exactly........ and again,  it wasn't a conscious choice,  but part of survival,  really.......
***Slysays:
so now that my hormones have given me no choice,  lol
***Slysays:
and of course because of maturity and having worked through a number of emotional issues etc
***Slysays:
I do want and need more now......but wasn't so conscious of that before
***Slysays:
in fact,  I think I felt that I was protecting myself by not having a relationship
***Slysays:
that's the way I saw it then
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, that was and is understandable
***Slysays:
regrettable but understandable yes
''''namastemaster says:
The main thing is, to me, is that you have had this massive learning curve about yourself and are now making conscious choices from that self-knowledge that are right for YOU
***Slysays:
yes,  well,  it hasn't been a certain path at all....... and I do still have my weak spots,  hate them,  but I am learning yes....... there isn't a better way that I know of at the moment,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
You are much more special than you know right now, Sly
***Slysays:
and let me clarify this......it isn't that I didn't feel for a man,  it is that I didn't let myself show it,  out of fear........              am I?  I just feel kind of pissed off and determined to set things right,  that's all.......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles....
***Slysays:
it's very frustrating as an adult woman to be dealing with this stuff,  really.......  I feel like I am out of my league,  and yet can see that I am just fine,  lol
''''namastemaster says:
I don't think you're "out of your league" at all, Sly, not at all...
''''namastemaster says:
There are certain things that need to be experienced in RL to be understood, but definitely not EVERYTHING, Nope
''''namastemaster says:
I don't need to be assfucked by a guy to know I wouldn't like it, for example, Grin
***Slysays:
lol  yes, I think that is what I was hoping when I went into Literotica,    really,   at the very least to catch on to a few interesting things.......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Michael was so wicked putting that scene in Chapter 2
***Slysays:
lol   yes,  and I can tell you didn't exactly like it too much.....    hmmmmm
***Slysays:
 so no men for you,  huh?
''''namastemaster says:
Nope, only as canoeing buddy, not assfucking or suck-buddies, Nope
''''namastemaster says:
I have done one MFM threesome when I was a teen-ager but the other gentleman and I didn't fool around, concentrated on "her"
***Slysays:
lol   I talked to a very interesting guy at Lit who really likes group activities,  and he loves sucking a guy off........  very natural to him,  lol
''''namastemaster says:
Each soul has their own path in this plain, Fer Shure
***Slysays:
yes,  true........
''''namastemaster says:
I also have done a "soft swing" with another couple, actually with C's sister and her boyfriend who happened to be my best friend (best friend T persuaded his GF W to nag C to go out with me on a blind date, that's how C and I actually met)
***Slysays:
 wow,  and.....?   lol
''''namastemaster says:
This was 2-3 months after C and I met
''''namastemaster says:
As mentioned, it was a "soft swing" meaning that we didn't swap partners, just fucked our respective partners on different beds in the same bedroom
***Slysays:
I see.....  interesting.......
***Slysays:
o okay,  lol  didn't know that actually
''''namastemaster says:
But yeah, it was a lot of fun watching T & W and being watched by them

***Slysays:
I would like to watch someone else actually......   it would be interesting to watch real sex,  lol         wow,  you were young........
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it's a totally different perspective to watch another couple have sex, especially when you and your partner are also having sex in the same room simultaneously
***Slysays:
hnmmm  can imagine,  lol
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles...so, how you feeling right now?
***Slysays:
well,  quite good actually,  I love open discussions about things,   lol........... and you?
''''namastemaster says:
Very well, thanks   ...yeah, I have tons of fun just yacking with you, too
''''namastemaster says:
Especially since I know you have a certain level of attraction to me and fascination with me
***Slysays:
yes,  I do.......
***Slysays:
 it is based on two things,  I think.......
''''namastemaster says:
Listens...
***Slysays:
one,  that you have shown a depth and understanding,  if not complete honesty at times,   lol
***Slysays:
and two........  
***Slysays:
well,  I can't tell you that yet.....lol
***Slysays:
a woman must have her secrets after all........
***Slysays:
(laughing yet?)
''''namastemaster says:
Just like a woman, Ohhhhoppssss, Didn't mean to say that, Gee-Riinnn!
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, laughing aloud
***Slysays:
well, it is in the best interests of my own heart,  to which I am true, my friend
***Slysays:
to thine own heart be true......
''''namastemaster says:
I don't know why you can't tell me Reason #2, but I'll respect your decision...when you want to tell me, or I need to know, you'll tell me
***Slysays:
yes,  when I have seen my way through this one,  I will tell you
''''namastemaster says:
Cool ! Will sending you some nude photos of myself or photos of my erect cock possibly help in your decision?  {Hehehehehehee}
***Slysays:
no,  truthfully,   lol,  but thanks for the offer!    *weg*
''''namastemaster says:
Come to think of it, doing so might send you running to the bathroom, to laugh out of earshot of me
***Slysays:
lol   very cute...........
***Slysays:
I doubt that though........
''''namastemaster says:
Well, every guy in the world THINKS he has 8" but this one KNOWS he does but also knows that 99.9999% of the women "out there" don't and wouldn't care to see a photo of it
***Slysays:
lol   it would look a lot better in person,  let's just put it that way............
''''namastemaster says:
You are SOoooo diplomatic at times, Sly  
***Slysays:
lol   yes,  I know.........I have been accused of being a politician.........lol
''''namastemaster says:
And you do know how to keep a fellow intrigued, too, I will say that...I'll be waiting patiently for you to tell me Reason #2, and won't nag you about it, My Promise
***Slysays:
but seriously,  women arent' quite as visually oriented  I think........      lol  okay,  I will tell you when ready,  I promise........
''''namastemaster says:
So, what else would you like to know about me? Just ask me anything, 's cool...
***Slysays:
hmmm  well,  you have provided me with a great deal of information............I don't think I have any questions exactly at this point..........
***Slysays:
not yet anyway
''''namastemaster says:
That's cool...

''''namastemaster says:
Smiles...just plucking questions out me' brain now...have you ever felt sexual attraction towards another woman, and if so, have you had a lesbian experience?
***Slysays:
haven't had a lesbian experience......but have felt attraction,  sexual,  towards women yes
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles while mind ruminates that, Grin...what about group sex?...any fantasies about that, or experience with it?
***Slysays:
fantasies galore,  lol,  no experience......
''''namastemaster says:
If you could live anywhere you wished to, if money/job was not a problem, would it be Holland, Canada, or somewhere else?
***Slysays:
 o dear,  tough one.......    Alberta probably..........lived there in '80 for almost a year
***Slysays:
(Holland is a dream,  not reality anymore,  although that was my first instinctive reaction)
***Slysays:
love mountains and oceans equally......
''''namastemaster says:
Why not Holland, do the taxes and/or politics there suck?
***Slysays:
taxes yes,  and very crowded really,  it's just my memories that beckon,  and that long ago feeling of childhood safety probably.......ask me again after next summer,  after I visit........
''''namastemaster says:
If you love mountains and oceans equally, then you'll simply HAVE to come live in North Carolina...some of the most beautiful mountains in the world just 3 hours drive west of Raleigh including the highest mountain east of the Mississsippi, and some of the most gorgeous and famous beaches in the world just another 3 hour drive this time to the east from Raleigh, and I grew up in all 3 areas and
''''namastemaster says:
yes, was very blessed in being allowed to do so...a couple of webpages I sent you last night were taken from articles about my childhood memories at Long Beach NC growing up that were published some years back...
***Slysays:
yes,  sounds really beautiful........do you know,  I am not eager to attach myself to any place again?  that's terrible,  really........   it sounds great though.......you're very lucky that way I think
''''namastemaster says:
I suppose it would all depend on who you're attached to or not as the case might be, Grin
***Slysays:
yes,  that is very true,  lol....... I did think of that as well.........
***Slysays:
it isn't so simple though,   I have my daughter to finish raising.....
''''namastemaster says:
That is very true, and I do stay very cognizant of that fact, Smile But Happily Supportive
***Slysays:
yes,  I know.....  you would,  of course,   appreciate that
''''namastemaster says:
Well, My Dearest Friend Sly, I'll need to run sometime soon, in the next bit...no rush, but I must be practical
''''namastemaster says:

***Slysays:
 yes,  I know,   was thinking the same thing really,  need to get to bed on time tonight
''''namastemaster says:
Sometimes being of practical mind does suck
''''namastemaster says:
We always do think an awfully lot alike, along the same lines, never fails, Smile
***Slysays:
yes,  it does,   I'm not tired because of my impending "courses",  lol.......one side effect I didn't mention........
''''namastemaster says:
When are you expecting it to hit you?
***Slysays:
 about two nights in a row I am almost sleepless really.....
***Slysays:
Torrow I think
***Slysays:
lol
''''namastemaster says:
If it wasn't for my feet I'd sit here all night long and just be with you, Happy Smile  
''''namastemaster says:
Cool!
''''namastemaster says:
You'll tell me exactly when you start?
***Slysays:
I know,   definitely go lie down,   *smiling sympathetically*......  
***Slysays:
lol   sure......
***Slysays:
(why?)
''''namastemaster says:
Because I do have a slight menstrual fetish and you're my online girlfriend, Perhaps? {hehehehehee}
''''namastemaster says:
Okee, more than slight, Grin
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  I know,    and sure,  I will tell you when............
***Slysays:
yes,  a tad more than slight,   lol
***Slysays:
I will be happy to spill all my menstrual secrets,  lol
***Slysays:
will be a unique experience,  to a guy no less........
''''namastemaster says:
Very sweet of you    !
***Slysays:
lol      that just about describes me right now.......
''''namastemaster says:
Just imagine me "dining at the 'Y' ", as my lesbian friends used to say
***Slysays:
lol   yikes......you are a bit vampirical..........
''''namastemaster says:
Sweetly so, Yes
***Slysays:
whatever turns you on, hon.........lol
***Slysays:
 ok,  go rest now.......
''''namastemaster says:
And thankfully, what turns me on also turns you on as well, especially regarding period sex and blood sex and similar
***Slysays:
  lol   well,  my body made that decision for me........
''''namastemaster says:
Okee...I'm looking forward to talking with you voice Tomorrow, will be online at least from 11:30AM until I hear from you at lunchtime
''''namastemaster says:
And will dream of you all night tonight, My Dearest Sly  
***Slysays:
 ok, sounds good........will be interesting to say the least.........*smile*.......
***Slysays:
thanks Nam,  dream deeply and sweet then.......
***Slysays:
 
***Slysays:
Goodnight........
''''namastemaster says:
Well, Good-Night, sleep tight, Hugs&Kisses, Bi-Bi        
***Slysays:
  night Nam.....

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''''namastemaster says:
Hi Sly, I'm here, 11:51PM  
***Slysays:
hello,  are you there?  
''''namastemaster says:
Hi Dear, I was having problems with Messenger and Hotmail, evidently Microsoft cancelled my hotmail.com account but I think it's okay now, ping me when you're here
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, I see you now, Smile
''''namastemaster says:

***Slysays:
I am here.......lol   ok yes....
***Slysays:
just checked in a bit ago
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, silly Microsoft, they would cancel my account today of all days, things apparently are okay now
***Slysays:
wow,  it's a strange day,  have a virus in one of my email accounts,  cancelled it.........
''''namastemaster says:
Damn, yeah, it's a Monday all the way around
 
 The following message could not be delivered to all recipients:
Hi Sly, I'm here, 11:51PM  
 
''''namastemaster says:
Just got a strange error message here, ping me back, please
***Slysays:
lol    isn't it though.....
***Slysays:
ok.......
***Slysays:
there still?
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles
''''namastemaster says:
Yes
''''namastemaster says:
So, you ready to hear my voice? I've got my NCAT mic and all hooked up
''''namastemaster says:
hooked up
***Slysays:
ok,  yes......just give me a minute......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Okee, just let me know when
***Slysays:
ok,  here goes.........lol
 
 Slywould like to have a voice conversation with you. Do you want to Accept (Alt+T) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation?
 
''''namastemaster says:
Crosses fingers...
 
 You have accepted the request from Slyto have a voice conversation.
 
***Slysays:
can you hear me?
''''namastemaster says:
Nope, not yet, can you hear me?
***Slysays:
no,  not yet......lol
''''namastemaster says:
I can see the bar graph volume indicators moving up and down but can't hear anything
***Slysays:
I can see that it is working on my end,  but nothing from you........   o dear,  that's why.......but it may not be set right
''''namastemaster says:
Same here
***Slysays:
go to adjust audio properties.....
''''namastemaster says:
How do I do that? Don't see it/them....
***Slysays:
let's see now.......  where did I find that?  lol   right click on volume,  then check out that nothing is muted at least......
 The voice conversation with Slyhas ended.
***Slysays:
I can't remember where i saw it now,  but there was an option to check mic 1 or mic 2,  and that made the difference for me last night talking to a friend........
***Slysays:
have to end it to go to audio wizard under tools...........
''''namastemaster says:
Very confused right now, Sorry
***Slysays:
did you use the audio tuning wizard?
***Slysays:
on messenger
''''namastemaster says:
I just did and nothing, Sigh
***Slysays:
hmmm  okay,  I don't seem to remember myself where that option was,  I changed it at first to reduce static but then realized that it cut out the voice entirely.........
''''namastemaster says:
I think I'vw got it now, forgot to switch over to my external sound card
''''namastemaster says:
Sheeppish Grin
''''namastemaster says:
Wanna try again   ?
***Slysays:
ok,  try again....lol
***Slysays:
sure,  of course......
 
 Sly would like to have a voice conversation with you. Do you want to Accept (Alt+T) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation?
 
 You have accepted the request from Sly to have a voice conversation.
 
 The voice conversation with Sly has ended.
''''namastemaster says:
There?
''''namastemaster says:
The carrier signal dropped for some reason
 
 You have asked to have a voice conversation with Sylvia. Please wait for a response or Cancel (Alt+Q) the pending invitation.
 
 You have canceled your invitation to Sly to start a voice conversation.
 
 You have asked to have a voice conversation with Sylvia. Please wait for a response or Cancel (Alt+Q) the pending invitation.
 
 The following message could not be delivered to all recipients:
There?
 
 The following message could not be delivered to all recipients:
The carrier signal dropped for some reason
 
''''namastemaster says:
Jey
''''namastemaster says:

***Slysays:
hi there.......
***Slysays:
I have had trouble signing back on,  think it was msn.......
''''namastemaster says:
No prob, figured it was a technical issue
***Slysays:
and computer is very slow all of a sudden,   but ...........  how are you?
''''namastemaster says:
I'm fine, and very, Very Happy
''''namastemaster says:

''''namastemaster says:
Now that we've talked
***Slysays:
lol  I see that!       something to do with me?
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, 'a little' (Shy Grin)
***Slysays:
yes,  I am very pleasantly surprised as well.........
''''namastemaster says:
Just giggles a little...so, would you like to go back to voice, or wait until another time? When is your daughter due home from school?
''''namastemaster says:
I'm more than pleased, Sly...you're everything I had been hoping and dreaming of, and more, Seriously  
***Slysays:
I am picking her up today,  it's raining,  and in about 50 minutes I have to go,  not sure if I trust my computer right now,  but we can try again......*wink* ....    
***Slysays:
wow Nam,  that's quite a statement,    
***Slysays:
Do you know what I like the best about you?  
''''namastemaster says:
No, please do tell me, though
***Slysays:
Your down to earth sincerity,  seriously.
''''namastemaster says:
Cool !
''''namastemaster says:
I Yam Who I Yam
***Slysays:
I can hear in your voice,  although at first a bit hyper like myself,   lol,   that you are a person who is just themselves,   lol  yes,  exactly
***Slysays:
I really did think or suspect that you were someone else........   especially after the other day,  with those words you mentioned............
***Slysays:
saying that    love,     don't panic,    I love you,  and please forgive me    were the most important
''''namastemaster says:
Me, hyper? Nnnooooo !!! (Sweeet Sarcastic Grin)
''''namastemaster says:
Really?
***Slysays:
lol   call it high energy then........
''''namastemaster says:
Just pokes you sweetly
***Slysays:
yes,  really......    
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehehee
''''namastemaster says:
Those words are most important to me, Seriously
***Slysays:
lol  hmmmm  
''''namastemaster says:
At least I wasn't who you feared I was, but am who you thought I might be
''''namastemaster says:
You're still finding out about the latter, Smile
***Slysays:
yes,  I know.......same here,  but it's hard to find someone who believes it as well......   so what did you think I meant when I said...    It's ( Y )ou,  isn't it.......?           yes,   that's a good way of putting it......
''''namastemaster says:
I'm not really sure if I payed much of any attention when you said "it's You isn't it?", to be completely honest
''''namastemaster says:
I may have thought you were joking somehow
''''namastemaster says:
Anyway, at least you know now that I am who I say I am
***Slysays:
yes,  that's what I thought.......lol
***Slysays:
well,    I still don't really,   lol,   I have been thinking how easy it would be to fool someone online,  really,  and it would........but I am glad that I heard what I heard this afternoon,   honestly.........
''''namastemaster says:
So, would you like to go back to voice? I'm set up now...I'll let you do the invite
***Slysays:
sure......
***Slysays:
one sec.....
 
 Sly would like to have a voice conversation with you. Do you want to Accept (Alt+T) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation?
 
 You have accepted the request from Slyto have a voice conversation.
 
 The voice conversation with Slyhas ended.

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***Slysays:
Hello Nam,  how are you?
''''namastemaster says:

***Slysays:
ok

''''namastemaster says:
My editor gve me a rush assignment on this article about hurricane recovery and I've been on the phone all day
***Slysays:
wow,  interesting........    very busy then,  sorry to hear that,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Nah, it's fine... it'll be fun
***Slysays:
that's good.....   interesting anyway,  and of course this is a rush.....unusual circumstances
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, very
***Slysays:
 how are you other than busy?  *smile*
''''namastemaster says:
They need all by this Friday but of course that's going to be impossible
''''namastemaster says:
I'm okay, thanks, and you? Have you started yet     ?
***Slysays:
o really.....  well,  maybe you can wing it......
***Slysays:
no
***Slysays:
lol  not yet,  am later than I thought,  but today probably,    lol
***Slysays:
 the emotional turmoil has been unusual though
***Slysays:
a lot happening lately,  stress will do that
''''namastemaster says:
Yes it will
***Slysays:
 it's cute that you asked,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Harmless perversion, eeerrrr, distraction, Grin
***Slysays:
yes,  it is,  not a bad one at all,  there are much worse things
''''namastemaster says:
At least you know it's basically stress and that you're not pregnant
***Slysays:
lol  cute.....it couldn't be pregnancy for sure........    damn it all..........
***Slysays:
  the process,   not the pregnancy,  is what I'm complaining about,  lol
***Slysays:
or the lack of getting there,  I mean
***Slysays:
lol   o well,  not making sense,  that's how bad it is!  
''''namastemaster says:
I understand...why so much stress lately? The new job and all, mostly?
***Slysays:
yes,  and the incompetent way that my brother is dealing with my niece,  who needs a lot of help right now,  and in this process of realizing many things still about how I am affected (the down side of sexual discovery here,  but at least that's temporary)........   but it will be fine
***Slysays:
and now that I think of it,  I also haven't been running in the mornings.......  see,  I knew there was something else
''''namastemaster says:
I know you'll be fine, Dear...it's a matter like you say of learning more about yourself...you'll be much stronger after the process of you becoming my slave, eeerrrr, and/or girlfriend is finished, Grin, and you've explored your fantasies too
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, if your body is used to running, you do need to try to get back into that habit
''''namastemaster says:
What's wrong with your niece, if I might ask?
***Slysays:
 I am used to the stress relief,  but with school in the mornings for my daughter,  I haven't been able to...............  
''''namastemaster says:
Damn, that is heavy, very sad
***Slysays:
yes,  it is.....
''''namastemaster says:
It sounds almost like outside intervention might be needed
***Slysays:
and seeing how poorly my family deals with it all is sad too......after all these years,  knowing that I went through the same just about.......  
''''namastemaster says:
To protect her
***Slysays:
yes,  definitely
***Slysays:
but my sister-in-law is a control freak,  has been using my brother for years,  their marriage was already on the rocks because of her three kids,  now out of the house...........and yes,  she may become suicidal,   I think so as well
''''namastemaster says:
Damn damn damn
***Slysays:
time to antagonize everyone again,  it's okay though,  I'm getting used to this
''''namastemaster says:
At least you know "the system" and how to use it
***Slysays:
and once she does get some help and support,  I think she will be okay
***Slysays:
yes,  true too
***Slysays:
 thanks,  didn't mean to bring that up really
***Slysays:
 has been on my mind heavily for the last week now
''''namastemaster says:
No prob, we're friends, Sly, that's what friends are for  
***Slysays:
lol   I'm grateful Nam, really........
***Slysays:
 and you know I feel the same way.......
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I do, and that makes me very happy
***Slysays:
so,  changing the topic,  you were glad that I really am female,  were ya?   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Oh yeah   ...and if I were there in RL right now, I'd be "priming your pump" to go ahead and get you started, Double Big Grinnnnn    !
***Slysays:
wow.......  mmmm  what a way to put that,  be careful,  or I may escape to NC for a while!    lol
''''namastemaster says:
I'll make reseverations and/or send you a ticket anytime you'd like
***Slysays:
you are quite serious,  aren't you.......   I do appreciate that,  as well........it is very tempting at certain moments,  now being one of them
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, I'm serious, but it's not meant as any pressure, just a friendly but very sincere offer...
***Slysays:
yes, I know that,  that's why it's so tempting too........*smiling at you*
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles back at you too, Heheheheheee...of course, the first time we're together I'd like for us to do something other than have you stare at a hotel ceiling for two straight days (didja' get that one, Grin?), but that would be perfectly fine too
''''namastemaster says:
I'd like for us to spend at least some time together doing a couple of things out of bed that we both would enjoy, Seriously
***Slysays:
well, if it was at Niagara Falls for ex.,  then we could go out for half hour breaks to gaze at them...........lol
''''namastemaster says:
Wow, you read my mind, that would be PERFECT
***Slysays:
yes it would be,  I know.........sigh..........
''''namastemaster says:
Of course the "fall colors", the turning of the leaves in the hardwood forests in the Appalachian Mountains here just 4 hours west of Raleigh are pretty spectacular too
''''namastemaster says:
A little B&B off of the Blue Ridge Parkway
***Slysays:
wow,  sounds wonderful,  really.........*packing my bags here*..........
***Slysays:
now THAT sounds perfect.......lol
***Slysays:
there is so much I would like to see
***Slysays:
still lots of time I know......
***Slysays:
 so much I would like to do as well.........
***Slysays:
and I don't mean sex,  although that is on the list,   lol
''''namastemaster says:

***Slysays:
thought so.......ok
''''namastemaster says:
just a sec...
***Slysays:
yup no probs....
''''namastemaster says:
Am back, sorry
***Slysays:
that's ok, really
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, lots of things, and LOTS of great sex too
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  lots and lots.........
''''namastemaster says:
Just try to imagine...4 hours for me is like 20 minutes for most men
***Slysays:
lol  I have no idea how long I could last,  you realize............
''''namastemaster says:
Nice, slow, easy, then fast, then slow, a nice easy rhthym all day long
***Slysays:
you may be WAY too much for me,  lol  
***Slysays:
but I doubt it........lol
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, but it'll be fun for you to see how long you WANT to last
***Slysays:
yes,  it would be.......and that sounds great,  all day,  just basking in it all......mmmmmmmm
''''namastemaster says:
Just imagine, Sly...I am the most gentle, most tender, but most overwhlemingly masculine man you'll ever meet...holding you close to me, looking deep in your eyes as we make love, kissing and kissing and kissing as we make love, for hours and hours...I don't think you'll have a problem wanting every moment I give you  
***Slysays:
I don't think so either Nam.......really,  *sighing happily*.........

''''namastemaster says:
You know I'll be checkin airfares later on tonight
''''namastemaster says:
The symbol for Raleigh-Durham's airport is "RDU", BTW, Hint hint
***Slysays:
lol  well,  don't make me panic now,  I was just warming up so nicely........*weg*......  
***Slysays:
lol okay, will remember that
''''namastemaster says:
Nah, don't panic, you know I'm planning for the future, not for this weekend, Silly Grin
***Slysays:
yes, I know,  I was kidding,  just bein' my  sly self,  you realize........
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, you were, you are perfect for me, Happy Smile
***Slysays:
 lol   you are sweet, really.......  
''''namastemaster says:
Only because we're sweet, together
***Slysays:
ahaa,  is that what it is........
''''namastemaster says:
I can be a real pain sometimes, don't forget
***Slysays:
 well,  so can we all,  I think........
''''namastemaster says:
Sssooooo....ggimmmeeee a kissssss  
***Slysays:
 LOL  o dear.......  that was a bit terrible of you,  you know.........    
***Slysays:
I was laughing,  couldn't believe you were saying that.........
***Slysays:
 but it was really nice
''''namastemaster says:
Now, why was that terrible? I thught it was a pretty good attempt at a near-seduction, Slightly Sweetly Evil Smile
''''namastemaster says:
Gotta keep you on YOUR toes, too,
***Slysays:
yes, it was,  you are very slightly sweetly evil,  I know that.......lol     and you do,  just by being you,  don't worry,   lol
''''namastemaster says:

***Slysays:
ok,  I have to go actually,  but will wait for you to say bye.....
''''namastemaster says:
This is important, Sigh...enjoyed it A LOT, Thanks, Husg&Kisses, talk to you later tonight hopefully, Bi-Bi for now    
***Slysays:
bye for now Nammy....      

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***Slysays:
Hello Nam,  are you in?
***Slysays:
                        lol
***Slysays:
talk to you later    
***Slysays:
Knock,  Knock.............     ding ding ding !!!    
''''namastemaster says:
Hey
***Slysays:
hey there.....how are you?  
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, hanging in there
***Slysays:
good.......you'll be glad to know that while we were talking earlier,  I got "it".......lol
***Slysays:
hence the vampire bats
''''namastemaster says:
GRINS....
''''namastemaster says:
You mean this large 6'4" one hanging around you now, too?
***Slysays:
lol  yes,  especially that one......  but no,  I sent you these.........    
***Slysays:
and note the picture here,  if you can see it.....lol
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, that's what they were, Sorry, didn't recognize them...don't get to see my distant cousins that often...
''''namastemaster says:
Looks like Elmer above has gained a little weight...
***Slysays:
lol  cute
***Slysays:
this display picture is called crimson sun,  lol  
''''namastemaster says:
Pardon my being a little dense here, but what "display picture", you mean the emoticon for the bats, Sheepish Ignorant Grin?
***Slysays:
no,  o sorry.....with msn 6.0 there is another display picture that you can choose......
***Slysays:
on here.....scenic or whatever
''''namastemaster says:
O, I C...ssssoooo...whatchas yusing right now, tampon or pad?
***Slysays:
pad......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Is that what you normally use, or do you switch back and forth? Always, Kotex, etc.?
***Slysays:
Always of Exact brand,  lol.....and I use mostly pads,  sometimes both if it is heavy,  at night as well
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles...if you were here right now in RL, I'd ease up behind you next time you got up off the couch to go the kitchen, pull your pants down, bend you over at the waist, and slip my nice hard cock in without taking your panties off, letting it slip past your pad into your font of womanliness, GRIN  
***Slysays:
wow............whew!!   lol    
***Slysays:
go easy on me here,  you know what kind of a state I am in!!   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Yes I DO, Sweetly Coy Grin..think about it, My Sly...me kissing your neck as I hold you close from behind as I bend you over the back of the couch, kissing you as I grope your breasts, my cock slowly but steadily slurp-slurping inside you as I lightly pinch your nipples through your braless top...
***Slysays:
mmmmmmmmm   that is GOOD......Nam,  I just realized,  when on my period, I am always "enterable".........lol   nice and slick
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, you are, Super Big Grin !
''''namastemaster says:
And the more I fuck you, the heavier your flow becomes
***Slysays:
lol  yes, for a while anyway,  just like after I run
''''namastemaster says:
Uh-hu...and the pheromones of your femininity go straight to our olfactory receptors, making us both even hotter
''''namastemaster says:
My hand now slipping down the front of your panties to play with your blood-sticky clit as I continue to fuck you from behind, we both on our knees on the couch
***Slysays:
really?  I didn't know that it was that way.....while on our periods that is
***Slysays:
o my, Nam.......are we cybering??    
''''namastemaster says:
Actually, most women have a slightly dimished sense of smell during, but pheremones just byass that all together
''''namastemaster says:
Maybe, a little  
''''namastemaster says:
Just love to fill your mind with images of possibilities
***Slysays:
mmmm pushing myself back against you,  opening my legs further and reaching back to play with your balls...........   lol   it is pretty full I think......
''''namastemaster says:
GRINS
***Slysays:
 lol
***Slysays:
but wait a sec.......how did this happen so fast??  lol
***Slysays:
{laughing here}
''''namastemaster says:
Because I'm your Master, that's how, and you came home on your period and I smelled your essence before you even walked in the door and it made me beyond horny, that's how
***Slysays:
ooohhh.......  that's how........good then,  please carry on my Master..... fuck me until I scream with the pleasure,  pleeeaaasseee!!!
''''namastemaster says:
And you as my mate never deny me ANYTHING, that's how
***Slysays:
    I think I may be able to handle that.....lol
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, you'll scream soon enough, learning the "hypersexual rythm" takes a little time
***Slysays:
lol  I know,  I am partly exaggerating as far as I am concerned.........but would love to get there.......
***Slysays:
to be honest......*smile*
''''namastemaster says:
Those screams of passion that come after hours and hours come from places inside you that you didn't know you had  
***Slysays:
lol  Nam,  you are making me laugh in a very delighted way here...........
''''namastemaster says:
I think you're engaging in entertaining speculations more than exaggerations
***Slysays:
yes,  that's true....  
''''namastemaster says:
Good, I'm 'supposed' to
***Slysays:
lol  as long as you enjoy that as well........supposed to or not......
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I do...that's the nice thing about being us...it's like making love to our mirrored selves, and me being an empath makes it even more so...I touch you where I want, and where I want also, usually, magically also happens to be where you want to be touched right that second...it's way cool
***Slysays:
well,  that would be a first for me,  no doubt.........has never been that way,   really.........lol     are you sure you aren't talking about being familiar with each other?
''''namastemaster says:
Uh-uh...Seriously, even though I know you'd probably never do this in a million years, I wouldn't care if you called L up one day and talked with her about me...you could ask away and she'd be as honest as I am...she'd be answering: "yeah, he can really do that", "no, he's actually being modest, he can actually do this" and "good fucking luck, Sylvia, I couldn't keep up with him"
and similar
''''namastemaster says:

***Slysays:
wow,  I am impressed.......lol  
''''namastemaster says:
Seriously, she wouldn't mind and neither would I
***Slysays:
really.........    hmmm I wouldn't though,  I don't think........lol
''''namastemaster says:
Nah, I know you wouldn't, but the offer is sincere, should you ever change your mind...she's not jealous at all, she actually gave me "dating tips" when I started to become involved with "A" this past year
''''namastemaster says:
And she's very monogamous by nature too, she just doesn't want me in her life any longer...but enough about the 2nd-soon-to-be-ex, Smile
***Slysays:
o yes.......  that's good actually.......  and if I knew her I am sure we would talk about you,   lol    
***Slysays:
lol  okay......
''''namastemaster says:
So, feeling a tad bit randy right now, Hhhhmmmm?
***Slysays:
o yes......I always do as you know........lol             and I did take care of that earlier.....but ran into a little g-spot trouble,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Sounds intriguing...
***Slysays:
can talk about that another time,  lol
''''namastemaster says:
Why not now, Hint Hint? Like I wouldn't have my long, thing, but very strong fingers inside you right now too, working your G-spot as I fucked you with my cock
''''namastemaster says:
What happened, Hhhmm?, a little G-spot squirty-squirt     ?
***Slysays:
I wish you were here doing that right now.....lol   ok.........
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, I do too  
***Slysays:
lol   well,  it was a mix of good and bad........
***Slysays:
good because I felt everything that the book was talking about,   lol
***Slysays:
and bad because it raised some bad memories,  but good again because now I know why I have resisted this
***Slysays:
and good too because I intend to ENJOY to the fullest...........lol
''''namastemaster says:
Well, and I know you'll take this the correct way, maybe that latter was good also, at least a little, maybe, hopefully...if I was there, I could "umbrella" you/us in healing energy and while not removing the pain of your past entirely I could help make the future of us as lovers smoother
''''namastemaster says:
That's good, that's a very positive attitude!
***Slysays:
yes, that is how that works,   realizing what triggers things, that way one can get over them
***Slysays:
lol  of course.......there's no stopping me now you know.........
''''namastemaster says:
I certainly hope not...Grin
***Slysays:
it's about bloody time,  too........no pun intended,   lol    
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehehehee, Good One!
***Slysays:
I can't believe how much more positive I feel about a lot of things, having felt unawarely down on myself for not being more sexual before,   or maybe for not fulfilling what I sensed I needed,  even that was unconscious
***Slysays:
it is too easy to talk to you,  do you know that???   lol
''''namastemaster says:
That makes me very happy that you feel that way, it's such a nice and sincere compliment from you, and all I can say is "thank you" and I'm glad you do feel that way  
***Slysays:
oops hold on,  lol,  I have to go pee........  yes,  I really do feel that way, honestly........I do figure these things out on my own usually but it's great to have you to talk to........
***Slysays:
(laughing yet?)
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles...go pee...I'll be right here
***Slysays:
ok   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I am, Smiling
***Slysays:
 hi there........
''''namastemaster says:
HEY there too    
***Slysays:
lol  so,  since we are getting more personal here,  tell me.........
''''namastemaster says:
Sure...
***Slysays:
I know you love everything,  but what reaches you the most,  what heats you up deeply......  what do you most want when you are with someone?
''''namastemaster says:
That's easy enough...
''''namastemaster says:
...hold them close to me first, look deep in their eyes, kiss and kiss and kiss and then maximize skin-to-skin contact, using our entire bodies as one huge collective sex organ...
''''namastemaster says:
I simply love to "make out" like bandits and be as physically close to my partner as I can become
''''namastemaster says:
Look deep into her eyes as we kiss and tell her how much I truly love her
''''namastemaster says:
Inhale her essence like a fine perfume
***Slysays:
mhmm  yes,  I know what you mean........ I think I want that incredible intensity.......intense love and passion at the same time.......             that sounds wonderful,  Nam dear........mmmmmmm
''''namastemaster says:
Whatever we do with our genitals is "gravy"....since I know I can literally make love for days on end, there is ZERO performance pressure on me...touching, kissing, licking, nibbling, fucking, touching and kissing more, fucking and fucking more as we kiss more and our eyes just meld into each other's...that's what I 'want' and 'need', Sly
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, 100% simultaneous beyond intense love and passion
***Slysays:
wow,   that's very well and directly put Nam.....  lol    
***Slysays:
great answer to my question,  lol .........*grinning*
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles, glad you liked it, 'cause you know it's the truth  
''''namastemaster says:
It is what I want and need and deserve...and you do too, Sly
***Slysays:
yes,  I know that now.....    it's great to know what I need,  even if I have to still wait for it,  a relief even..........lol
***Slysays:
and it's something great to look forward to as well..............
***Slysays:
and play at online,   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Uh-hu...I swear, it's like I can smell your scent in RL right now...
***Slysays:
lol  o dear......
***Slysays:
  I am speechless again,  damn.........lol
''''namastemaster says:
Grins....Hehehehehee
***Slysays:
and laughing,  you would enjoy this a lot more in person I know..............
***Slysays:
and I would be lost!   lol
''''namastemaster says:
Nah, you wouldn't be lost, you would be very, VERY happy    !
***Slysays:
yes,  I know........  it would be SO great to just put myself in your hands entirely,  no kidding,  and let the tide take us as far as we can go...........
''''namastemaster says:
Mind was just wandering out to sea a bit as we swam with the tide there...
***Slysays:
 hmmmmm   o yes?  where was it wandering to?  
''''namastemaster says:
That smallish beach with the kinda shortish lighthouse that had the large dark seashells wash in with the tide that you used to visit sometimes as a kid
***Slysays:
hmmm   I do remember darkish seashells from the ocean,  in Holland........and a shortish lighthouse,  now that you mention it,    behind the dikes,   hmmmmmmmmm
***Slysays:
 (are you making fun of me with the tide analogy???  lol)
''''namastemaster says:
Nope...well, maybe a little, Silly Smile
''''namastemaster says:
A friend of mine gave me that image he noticed in your mind and said I should tell you about it
***Slysays:
 lol   the tide of sexual desire,  the burgeoning sense of release and freedom...........doesn't that sound like a tide to you???   lol
***Slysays:
 o really?
***Slysays:
Michael,  by any chance?
''''namastemaster says:
I also see what looks like a large freigher just out at the horizon's edge
***Slysays:
and I didn't see it in my own mind,  actually....
''''namastemaster says:
You know me too well already, Sly, Grin
***Slysays:
hmmmm   (yes,  I think I do.....smile)
''''namastemaster says:
Well, he was poking around in your memory cells...if you want him to stop, if him doing so pisses you off, just tell him so and he'll stop
***Slysays:
I am sure that we saw many of those then.......wish I had more conscious memories of that time........    
***Slysays:
hmmm  since I don't believe that he is really here,  that's hard to do.........   *gentle smile*
''''namastemaster says:
That's cool  
''''namastemaster says:
He doesn't mind that you don't believe he's not there
***Slysays:
I hope so.......  and I don't mean to be abrupt about it,    just being real......    he doesn't?   lol
***Slysays:
guess that's a good thing,  considering who he is.....
''''namastemaster says:
That's totally cool, Seriously
''''namastemaster says:
Nah, Michael's 100% harmless, is actually a 100% protector and nurturer
***Slysays:
 hmmm  sounds nice......  sounds like an ideal guy really.......
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, he's my mentor
***Slysays:
 that's cool,  really....
''''namastemaster says:
Him and JC of course, but I'll never be able to get to JC's level
***Slysays:
 lol  on initials basis,  are you?
''''namastemaster says:
Maybe in a few billion I can reach Michael's, though, Maybe
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah...
***Slysays:
 yes,  maybe.........  we are all working on that voyage.......
''''namastemaster says:
Yes we are
***Slysays:
 I hate to do this..... but I have to go heat up some soup,  add some things........
***Slysays:
 second supper here,  child is hungry again........lol
''''namastemaster says:
That's cool...I'll be up a while...I'm expecting a voice phone call so if I'm on the phone if you ping back I won't be long, I'll acknowledge your ping and then be right with you
''''namastemaster says:
She's like a Hobbit, 1st breakfast, 2nd breakfast, etc.
***Slysays:
 okay,  sure,  thanks,   I know K has to use the computer for a bit but she shouldn't be long......after she eats again that is...........
***Slysays:
yes,  lol
***Slysays:
she would like that idea....
***Slysays:
hungry growing teen.......sigh........okay,  will talk to you later then........
''''namastemaster says:
Okee, well, go be a good Mom, we'll talk again later tonight, Hugs&Kisses    
***Slysays:
 okay,  talk then........  

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***Slysays:
Hi there, still up?
''''namastemaster says:
Hi, yep
***Slysays:
I'm going to bed in a bit, am eating soup....lol
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles...comfort food, hhmmm, Smile?
***Slysays:
yes,  homemade chicken soup........lol
''''namastemaster says:
I love chicken & rice soup
***Slysays:
yes,  good stuff.......  
***Slysays:
yes,  know what you mean,  especially after it has been cooked in water........all the good stuff is in the soup
***Slysays:
just like K,  she doesn't want the meat
''''namastemaster says:
Other than staying off of them, not much I can do, and unfortunately, I can't live like that, so I just have to muddle on
***Slysays:
hmmm  I'll bet losing a bit of weight and walking would help......if I may say so
''''namastemaster says:
I make my chicken & rice soup with white meat chicken, canned chicken broth, and Uncle Ben's rice
''''namastemaster says:
Nope, it doesn't interfere with my "horizontal" activities at all, not that I've had any since this past March
***Slysays:
lol  you're in a drought,  dear........
''''namastemaster says:
In fact, any aerobic exercise in the horizontal plane helps Hint Hint  
***Slysays:
lol  ahaa......  more encouragement
''''namastemaster says:
Not a drought, a chosen celibacy, Smile
''''namastemaster says:
Well, I did forget about "Angel" in March and this past June, but that's also over
***Slysays:
I see.....  so did you think there was anything really there with Angel?
''''namastemaster says:
So, it's just been since June...though it seems like FOREVER, Grin
''''namastemaster says:
I had hoped there was, but there wasn't
''''namastemaster says:
Her choice
***Slysays:
lol   yeah yeah.........I feel SO sorry for you.......says the celibate for 5 years woman
''''namastemaster says:
Not mine
***Slysays:
lol okay,  yes I remember
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, I can see you are crying a river for me (Now if I could show sweet and loving sarcasm though emoticons, Smile)
***Slysays:
o believe me, it is coming across loud and clear hon...........lol
''''namastemaster says:
I'm got at doing sarcasm either here or in RL, I come across as being serious, usually
''''namastemaster says:
I'm NOT good at doing sarcasm
***Slysays:
o dear,  so then people get offended,  I take it?
''''namastemaster says:
Damn, what was that I wrote two paragraphs above? Shessshhhh
***Slysays:
 lol  you're tired ......
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, which I why I seldom attempt it
''''namastemaster says:
I have "wit" more than "humor" I think
***Slysays:
hmmm  well,  you are probably being enthusiastically sarcastic in a friendly way,  just like everything,   lol
***Slysays:
comes across too strongly then.........  yes,  you do have wit
''''namastemaster says:
Wit usually does have an edge to it, sometimes even a visciousness depending, and I know that my wit comes across like that sometimes
''''namastemaster says:
I never mean to hurt anyone's feelings, just get their attention and make them laugh
''''namastemaster says:
So, anyway...
''''namastemaster says:
.....gimmme a kkkisssssss  
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehehehee
***Slysays:
lol        ..........passionate ones no less.............
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, of course, with lots of tongue action too
***Slysays:
mmmmmmm   light sucking,  getting hot and heavy gradually..........
***Slysays:
sounds good to me
''''namastemaster says:
Arms holding you close, hands roaming at will...and what is this?...oh, a pad!...cool...fingers slipping beside it to massage your G-spot as we kiss and kiss and kiss
''''namastemaster says:
You're getting hotter and hotter and hotter....
''''namastemaster says:
...and darn it all, you have to go to bed soon, Drat drat drat!!!!  (Hehehehehehehehee)
***Slysays:
wow..........   hmmmmmm   (you must be reaching in to me deeply to accomplish that,   lol)..........  
***Slysays:
 lol
''''namastemaster says:
My fingers are lllongggggg...I can reach all the way to your cervix without even trying
***Slysays:
 you know, I bet it is better to experiment with a partner when it comes to the g-spot.........lol
***Slysays:
 wow
***Slysays:
yum...........
***Slysays:
o god...........lol
***Slysays:
 you're killing me here,  you realize........lol
''''namastemaster says:
I can palm a basketball, Seriously, Dear
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, and you know it's the truth, which is killing you even more  
''''namastemaster says:
But I don't have to reach far in for your G-spot, it's within a couple of inches of your entroutus
***Slysays:
mmmmmmmmm  palm me instead......lol            right now yes,  because I am really really really wanting everything that I've been missing..........lol
***Slysays:
yes,  I know........
***Slysays:
just hard to reach yourself
***Slysays:
myself that is
''''namastemaster says:
Yep...but with me doing it, I can massage your G-spot with two fingers while massaging your clit with the rest of my hand, yes, just like palming a soft basketball, Hehehheee
***Slysays:
.....sighing longingly...........lol   sounds great.........
''''namastemaster says:
And I can do that just as long as I & you like
''''namastemaster says:
My hand NEVER gets tired
''''namastemaster says:
And my cock NEVER goes down while I'm doing it, it just stands at attention and comes and comes and comes as I'm doing so
***Slysays:
 it would be great just to do as much and go as far as you really feel you want/need to.........  
***Slysays:
wow,  really??
''''namastemaster says:
Uh-hu    
***Slysays:
 you must have high levels of testosterone...........lol
***Slysays:
lots of drive,  energy etc
***Slysays:
 
***Slysays:
oops....lol
''''namastemaster says:
I'm saturated with it like my body's a spong for it...which is also why I have virtually zero body odor
***Slysays:
 interesting.......didn't know that would affect it
***Slysays:
hold on just a sec, ok?  
***Slysays:
more like 2 minutes
''''namastemaster says:
k
''''namastemaster says:
no prob
***Slysays:
ok  thanks.....
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles
***Slysays:
ok hi
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, it's a common myth that guys like me who are born with naturally high levels of testosterone are more prone to violence and have more body odor i.e. "stink" because of it, just the opposite is true in fact
''''namastemaster says:
On both counts
***Slysays:
really?  I thought testosterone did have to do with aggression levels.......
''''namastemaster says:
Only if those levels are artificially inflated by the ingestion of anabolic steroids, of which testosterone is one among many but all have the same effect...naturally occuring high levels, nope, no problems, just the opposite in fact
''''namastemaster says:
It's part of "The Alpha Male Syndrome"
''''namastemaster says:
So, how's your flow doing, heavy tonight, Hhhmmm?
***Slysays:
wow, nice.........really
***Slysays:
lol no not yet........
***Slysays:
it's usually heavy on the second and third days only
***Slysays:
and gone by the fifth.........lol
''''namastemaster says:
Cool...you mentioned you'd share your "menstrual secrets" with me
***Slysays:
sure,  there aren't that many though.......
''''namastemaster says:
I have no short term memory but I DO remember important things like that, Grin
***Slysays:
of course.......lol   that's the important stuff after all..............  
''''namastemaster says:
Of course    !
''''namastemaster says:
I do enjoy tampon play too, as you have probably gathered from my writings
***Slysays:
yes,   I do remember something about that.........
***Slysays:
which is strange to me,   I never did like tampons too much really
''''namastemaster says:
Hhhmmm, why not?
***Slysays:
I'm not sure really.......didn't want to use them when I was younger,  and I am so used to pads........  I guess it's the "mess" of them that I don't like......
''''namastemaster says:
Nods...
***Slysays:
lol   nodding and waiting ........
''''namastemaster says:
When we're together in RL, anything you do or don't want to do is cool, as long as we're together
''''namastemaster says:
I also bet you're a "typical woman" in this regard too...
***Slysays:
 lol  how so?
''''namastemaster says:
...I bet you insist on bathroom privacy 99% of the time
***Slysays:
 no,  I wouldn't care about that really........
''''namastemaster says:
Guys don't care, they WANT you to hold their dicks while they pee, they think it's funny when you do
***Slysays:
especially if you wanted to watch per se......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Really? Way cool, Dear, you ARE the perfect woman for me!
***Slysays:
yes I know........
***Slysays:
 I have never done that,  held a guy while he is peeing,  must do that one day.......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Absolutely...when we're together we'll do so
''''namastemaster says:
I'm not into "watersports" BTW and you said you weren't either
''''namastemaster says:
But holding my dick while I pee so you can see what having a dick to pee out of is cool
***Slysays:
no, I'm not really........  yes, exactly,  lol
***Slysays:
very cool.......
***Slysays:
 of course.....lol
''''namastemaster says:
And don't forget I like eat "cherry sundaes" until my jaws wear out, too
***Slysays:
wow,  that is so amazing to hear.......seriously
***Slysays:
When we were talking,  you said in a different tone of voice that you should go back to Lit......see what is happening there.........any further thoughts on that?
''''namastemaster says:
You on your back with your legs spread wide open for me to feast at, a little whipped cream and some wet walnuts, Seriously, yep, Seriously, eat until my jaws lock up or wear out
***Slysays:
lol  wow........and you do love to do it that much?   talk about heaven...............
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, I went there and look around and didn't see much that interested me, Sorry
''''namastemaster says:
looked around...
***Slysays:
hmmm  what nick did you use?
''''namastemaster says:
I looked around at Boards and such without posting so I didn't register a nick
***Slysays:
o I see.....you didn't go into the chat then.......
''''namastemaster says:
Nope, didn't check out chat
***Slysays:
and the stories must seem tame to you
***Slysays:
have you ever chatted there?
''''namastemaster says:
I will love eating your pussy every single night, period or not, My Dear
''''namastemaster says:
Uh-uh, never chatted there
***Slysays:
my god......  I could get seriously used to that
''''namastemaster says:
Yeah, and I could, too  
''''namastemaster says:
Perpetual smorgasbord, whatever we feel like doing, whenever we feel like doing it, bowing only to the reality of life
***Slysays:
lol   that's so great to hear.......     so tell me,   what is the most intimate thing you can do sexually,  just from your own preferences?        (sounds perfect to me)
***Slysays:
really sounds perfect,  I kid you not
''''namastemaster says:
Well, it would involve you actively, too, not just me
***Slysays:
well of course........
''''namastemaster says:
I know and I'm 100% serious, Smile But Serious 100%
***Slysays:
I just meant what is the most intimate to you............
''''namastemaster says:
We are perfect for each other
***Slysays:
mmmmmm   you are very sweet.......
''''namastemaster says:
The most intimate act, in sequential order, is:
''''namastemaster says:
Total body seduction first, lots of kissing and kissing and kissing, and hugging and holding and groping, and kissing and kissing and kissing...then...
''''namastemaster says:
...making love to you, while you're on your period of course...then...
''''namastemaster says:
...having you suck me until I come immediately after fucking you, yes without wiping your blood off first...I know this thought makes you a bit or more than bit squeamish but you did ask, Smile...then..
''''namastemaster says:
...after you suck my bloody cock until I come and you lick it clean...then...
''''namastemaster says:
...I hold you close in my arms once again, look into those deep pools of eyes of yours, kiss and kiss and kiss you, while my cock slips back inside you once again half-hard and quickly becomes hard again as we lazily make love until we fall asleep, my cock inside you all the while
''''namastemaster says:
And when we wake up in the morning, my cock is still inside you, and we get one more quickie before going to work
***Slysays:
mmmmmmm  wow.........  a whole experience kinda guy,  aren't you........  sounds heavenly really............    
***Slysays:
lol   that would be a great trick........
''''namastemaster says:
When we're together, it will be an often reality
***Slysays:
 and I am not so squeamish about blood,  btw........   especially when very aroused,  our olfactory senses are less acute I know
***Slysays:
 whew.........   what a thought that is
''''namastemaster says:
Coollll    !
''''namastemaster says:
Yes...and the reality will be a thousand times better than this thought here in cyber
***Slysays:
hmmmm  lol   that is another interesting thought,  to be sure......
***Slysays:
 I know you have experienced all of this already.........and you are sure of yourself........
***Slysays:
 I am getting there,  have to say
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I am  
***Slysays:
 but very realistic about it all too
''''namastemaster says:
Yes
***Slysays:
 don't want to jump into anything
***Slysays:
  or think that things are there when we don't know it.........we can talk about fantasy too,  doesn't have to be about impending reality........
***Slysays:
 I am not one to fool myself,  in spite of getting caught up in things easily and sometimes naively,   recently with little control in fact.....lol
''''namastemaster says:
Listens
***Slysays:
 but it's great to find out what you want
***Slysays:
and maybe,  hopefully ,  actually even get it...........lol
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, hopefully  
***Slysays:
 lol    grrrrrrrrrrrrrr    really hopefully..........
''''namastemaster says:
Laughs aloud,...yeah, REALLY hopefully
''''namastemaster says:
Wanna hear my second favorite? It's a little shorter
***Slysays:
 sure, of course
''''namastemaster says:
Well, take the first two paragraphs or so of the first fantasy, all the kissing and smooching and all leading up to actual penetration....
***Slysays:
ok...........smiling.........
''''namastemaster says:
...then I would have you on all fours, shoulders flat on the bed, your head also flat on the bed turned to one side...
***Slysays:
mmmmmmmmm   I know where this is going
''''namastemaster says:
...your butt high in the air and your sex perfectly exposed to me and whatever I wish to to do...
''''namastemaster says:
...I fuck your bleeding pussy until my knees start to become weak and hurting (I 'do' have arthritis, yas' know, Smile) but I still push through the pain because the longer I fuck your reddening pussy the hotter and hotter I become...my thumb slips into your asshole for a little extra sensation for you and for a sign of the dominance I have over you, too...
***Slysays:
mmmmmmmm  go on........  
''''namastemaster says:
...and then, when I know my knees can't take but another 2-3 minutes, I pull my thumb out of your asshole, shove my cock covered in your perfect womanly blood into your asshole, using your blood, our blood, as lubricant, grab your asscheeks, grab your ass with both hands as hard as I can, and just just just JUST start flaying away at you, fucking your asshole with every bit of passion I have,
***Slysays:
mmmmmm    oh god,  Nam.............
''''namastemaster says:
grunting and straining like the animal I really am, turned on by your menstrual blood and your submission and my just totally overwhelming you with my masculinity, I just grab your ass and fuck your asshole as hard and deep and fast as I can until I just explore inside you and crumple into a heap beside you, pulling you to me to kiss you, shoving my tongue down your throat while my hand just
''''namastemaster says:
gropes your throbbing and begging bleeding pussy for all it's worth, my cock shrinking to nothing from its massive come, as we kiss and kiss and kiss and our souls literally meld into one another, as we kiss and kiss and then rest, your head on my shoulder, your eyes closing with a wonder and joy you've never had before, happiness purring from deep inside you, my sly tigress, finally truly fucked
''''namastemaster says:
by her perfect alpha male
***Slysays:
o god.......  how perfect that is.........really......
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it is...and will be...in RL, Big Shit-Eating Satisfied Grin Right Now  
***Slysays:
lol  you really envisioned that.......  as I did of course.........
***Slysays:
that is really interesting........you do have the same intensity that I do.....
***Slysays:
 and that doing that fulfills us both is perfect,  really
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I do...we both do...that's one thing among so many others that makes us perfect fits for each other
''''namastemaster says:
I could almost feel you feeling what the two above would feel like in RL...and in RL, they'd be even BETTER
***Slysays:
 lol   of course I don't have reality to base it on,   so maybe I am less sure and less knowledgeable about it really.........  yes, I know,  I am a visual person as well.....  it comes alive in words,  doesn't it........
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it does...trust me, Sly, when we do come together in RL, the words we create our world together with here can't and won't begin to touch the true perfection of being we'll feel together
***Slysays:
I do trust you,  lol,  you just sound so sure of it........   hard to be that sure of something like this,  isn't it?
''''namastemaster says:
Hhhhmmmm....yes, and no...no, and yes...the spiritual side of me knows that I'm 100% sure we'll be even more compatible than we are here, and the practical side of me knows that as well...but the practical side of me also whispers in my ear that our journey together has just begun, that we both have obligations in the immediate future that take RL precedence over what you and I want and yes we
''''namastemaster says:
will fulfill those individual obligations...but the spiritual side of me also tells me to have faith in my own truth, in your own truth, in our own truth, and things will work out between us as they should
''''namastemaster says:
But yes, when we're together in RL, what we describe here will seem innocent and tame compared to the pure love and passion we will have for each other, always
''''namastemaster says:
Of that, YES, I am 100% certain
***Slysays:
well,  that was a very diplomatic discourse,  lol,   and of course........I am more cautious than you may think,  really......     it is a spiritual fit that has to be there,  for sure,  love is the only really important factor there........
''''namastemaster says:
I do trust in God completely, and I do trust in my own right and obligation to exercise my own free will agency, because I know I always make the correct choices for myself and for those I love
''''namastemaster says:
Have to balance the incredible passion displayed previously with a moderating discourse now, don't I, Grin?
''''namastemaster says:
There always is, always has to be, balance in life, balance in all things
***Slysays:
I completely respect your thoughts here,  but I think it is hard to proceed to those levels without basing it in reality.........  and yes,  of course you do.....we really are a lot alike,  it's hilarious......I can see the energy that your previous display of passion has given you......   and your mind is sharper for it......lol
''''namastemaster says:
Try to screw with the balance of your life and God will go ahead and balance the scales of your life for you
***Slysays:
 yes,  agree on all counts.....but have you had that balance in your life then?  I know I haven't.......
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, without passion in my life daily, I become a useless blob, only half-kidding
***Slysays:
I know.......really
''''namastemaster says:
It's not the balance I want or the balance I like, but yeah, it's balance, Sigh
***Slysays:
music and love are the two great energizers......lol   passion in both of course
***Slysays:
 o really?  lol well,  you are lucky then I guess.......but why not the balance you like?
''''namastemaster says:
And I've not forgotten my promise that in RL we would make perfect music as in with musical instruments and not just our genetalia together
***Slysays:
lol
***Slysays:
don't worry,  I intend to find ways to accomplish that,  regardless of circumstances now........
''''namastemaster says:
Because the "left hand" balance of my life now is helping take care of my elderly parents, whom I hate with a passion but whom I'm obligated by the laws of God and my own sense of honor to help in their time of need
***Slysays:
yes,  I understand that
''''namastemaster says:
Good, you should...I just know that if/when we're together in RL, the actual music as in tonal scale productions Smile we would make together would be like, well, Paul & Linda McCartney
''''namastemaster says:
Or John & Yoko....no, wait, you HAVE to be a better musician and artist than she is, GHRINNN
***Slysays:
lol   trust me,  I am.........
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I know...well, I don't know yet, but yeah, I do know
''''namastemaster says:

***Slysays:
I used to sing quite well,  have a bit of a deep singing voice for a woman,  rich,  I guess.......   I think I should try to do something with it soon
***Slysays:
I think it's important to me at this point.....
''''namastemaster says:
We would use our love for each other in the living room and our happiness with each other in the kitchen and our passion for each other in the bedroom to fuel our synergy for each other in the music room
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I think it is for you, and know it's important for me right now as well
***Slysays:
  as well as learning more instruments!    Wow.........that does sound perfect,  you realize.........
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, it does, and will be  
***Slysays:
 lol   o my,   you are a sure one......
***Slysays:
 but I love what you are sure about,  all great things,  really........
''''namastemaster says:
The one small advantage I have of "being me", the one small grace God grants me for me having to put up with the balance of being who I am, is that sometimes, Sometimes I get to "peek over the horizon" a bit...not guarantees of what I see I'll eventually reach, mind you, but a realistic hope that I can and will and 100% certain knowledge that what I see is actually real and is really there
***Slysays:
 yes,  that is a grace,  as you say........
***Slysays:
I have had that at certain moments as well......and I think it is also when we are selfless,  when where we are standing is so in tune with God,  so not fixated on ourselves and focussed on reality,  that we can see much more than if we tried to reason it out,  to estimate and calculate it.......
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, agree totally, that's how it works for me, too
''''namastemaster says:
So, did you have a nice little come playing with yourself as you read what we were doing in the alternate wolrd, hhhhmmmm, Smile?
***Slysays:
lol  no,  actually......but I did touch myself,  it was too hard not to........lol  (as you know)
***Slysays:
 I wanted to though,  truthfully........
***Slysays:
lol  you are laughing again
''''namastemaster says:
Smiles
''''namastemaster says:
Nope, but do have a nice, comfortable grin on my face, Yes
***Slysays:
well, that's what happens when someone expresses pretty much what you yourself want..........   lol    
***Slysays:
it's interesting at the very least,  what a shared sense of passion can do......  similar desires and "hungers"........
''''namastemaster says:
Yes it is...and I know that most of the time, 100% of what I want is also what you want, and the other times, 99.999% of what I want you also want but you'd never deny me anything I wanted, your pleasure and passion is being "my woman", my partner, my lover, my love, and giving yourself totally to me as I wish
***Slysays:
*smiling*.....   yes, that is how it would be........I would not deny my partner something that is important to them......it would be my pleasure also,  just for that fulfillment........
***Slysays:
you have read me well,  I think.......
''''namastemaster says:
As you have me, I know
***Slysays:
I don't know sometimes......  lol
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, I'll always be full of nice surprises, just love to surprise you when you least expect it
''''namastemaster says:
But you know almost exactly who and what K is, and I think you like K pretty darned well at this point (Fish, fish)
***Slysays:
I know who K is,  yes,  but I do think that until or if we do meet,  that we will not know each other really........  that is what I think,  really, I would rather not pretend otherwise
***Slysays:
it is one thing to play with someone in fantasy, and another to play with them in reality
''''namastemaster says:
I know, and agree totally of course...plane tickets are cheap and I'll buy, Hint hint
''''namastemaster says:
As soon as you're ready to make that step, No Rush
***Slysays:
 reality is not playing really..... it is discovering.........  and I am not now,  as you know,  and I don't want you to think that you have to do anything for that.........
***Slysays:
 I am here,  and talking to you honestly about things........  as you know
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, and ditto
''''namastemaster says:
Though I am confused a little about the above long paragraph
***Slysays:
 what part?
''''namastemaster says:
and I am not now,  as you know,  and I don't want you to think that you have to do anything for that
***Slysays:
I am not now ready........I meant
''''namastemaster says:
I know, and that's cool, Seriously, Sly  
***Slysays:
you said as soon as you are ready to make that step
***Slysays:
ok....
''''namastemaster says:
When we decide to meet in RL it obviously has to be completely mutual on both our parts...and we both know that when that day comes, it will be because we both hope, I hope, that we will be as compatible in RL as we are here, for the hope of maybe becoming a couple and maybe spending the rest of our lives together...
***Slysays:
 it is easy to be compatible here,  don't you think?
''''namastemaster says:
And as I've said a hundred times already and really mean it, even if we don't work out in RL, we both have found someone whom we can ourselves with and be friends with forever if we so choose
***Slysays:
yes,  of course
''''namastemaster says:
Hhhmmm, not really, not any easier here to be compatible than in RL, not for me at least and I don't think for you, either...we're not typical people, Sly...our levels of personal honor, honesty, and integrity are the same here as in our real lives, and that's not true for most others
***Slysays:
yes I have found that out too......but it is easy for me to get along with others,  really....... and even to be compatible with others......it has been more difficult to know what I want,  and to be able to SHOW what I want to someone is going to be harder still......but believe me,  I wasn't exactly looking on the internet for that,  I was just looking to become more comfortable and to know
***Slysays:
myself more.......
''''namastemaster says:
I do have a slight, sheepish grin confession to make, ready for it?
***Slysays:
and to find what I want is a gut level thing,  in person, reality kind of thing.....sure,  ok......?
''''namastemaster says:
Because we are so seemingly perfect for each other, in not just most but virtually all ways, being the realist I am, not meaning to be a pessimist because I know pessimism often breeds unhappy reality and breeds the same dread reality that said pessimism focuses on, but because we're such a fit for each other I've just been waiting and dreading for that "blind side tackle" to happen, for something
''''namastemaster says:
to come completely out of left field into our friendship that would totally preclude us ever meeting in RL...I know I shouldn't worry about such things, if they happen they happen, but seldom have I hoped something might be actually for real as I've been hoping you and I might be "for real"
''''namastemaster says:
Just my human insecurity, Smile
***Slysays:
what would be something that would preclude our meeting,  in your eyes?
''''namastemaster says:
Oh, like you actually being a man
''''namastemaster says:
With a very sexy voice, of course
***Slysays:
well, you have heard my voice now........
''''namastemaster says:
Hehehehheee
***Slysays:
lol  think I could fake that?
''''namastemaster says:
Nah, just a joke...bad attempt at humor
***Slysays:
 I am singe,  too........  not married or attached,   lol
***Slysays:
 I do know what you mean
***Slysays:
 but there is nothing that way
***Slysays:
there is only that my standard is being in love
''''namastemaster says:
That's what I feel in my heart, too, nothing is in the way of us
***Slysays:
no
***Slysays:
I mean that there is nothing that would preclude it.......  
''''namastemaster says:
I agree
***Slysays:
but there is also nothing in reality that is creating it
''''namastemaster says:
It's just a matter of letting time and time help create it
''''namastemaster says:
What can we do, what do you want to do now, IF anything, in reality to begin to maybe process of starting to create it?
***Slysays:
 I will tell you truthfully,  that I did have gut level feelings for someone online....... and that since then I have no intention of allowing that to happen again,  really..........
***Slysays:
I think it is a matter for me of being ready for a relationship,   looking for one.........
***Slysays:
 and then deciding if we should meet
***Slysays:
 based on an online friendship that has developed
***Slysays:
but I am not even ready yet
***Slysays:
so I have to honestly say that there is little that I can do at this time really
***Slysays:
the process of starting to create it....  you seem to have a better vision of it than I do, also because you have this experience already......
***Slysays:
  I think I would need to know you in person to even begin to have the confidence to begin to create it
***Slysays:
I am just being honest here,  this is reality for me
***Slysays:
It is also reality alone,  I am not used to having someone around to say.....let's do this,  let's try to do such and such and see what we can do with it or what we want together........  
***Slysays:
So I am just looking and learning as I go here......  still discovering.......does that make any sense?
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, unfortunately for me, it does
''''namastemaster says:
I have been reading and hoping way too much, and the fault there is all mine, not yours
***Slysays:
there is no fault because you were not wrong,  I think.........
***Slysays:
 I think we are a lot alike,  and that the possibilities seem endless......SEEM endless.........
***Slysays:
that is the point for me that has to be real
***Slysays:
I need that reality to even begin to take it seriously.........
''''namastemaster says:
As compatible as we are here, you're simply not ready for the next step however innocent it might be, and you won't be for some months or years to come, if then
''''namastemaster says:
I appreciate that, I do  
***Slysays:
I am seriously raising a daughter here,  as well,  and she does have priority for a while yet I imagine...........
***Slysays:
o I will be,  I know that
''''namastemaster says:
Yes, I know
***Slysays:
when I don't know,  and I won't know until I do begin to take those steps
''''namastemaster says:
Well, Sly, My Dear Friend, Big Sigh Coming, I do understand...oh well...we can stay friends if you wish, but since there's almost no chance you'll want to meet me in RL anytime soon or in the next months or whenever, I think we need to back off here in chat...
***Slysays:
yes,  I think so as well.....the romantic and passionate aspects only make it feel more urgent to meet etc........  and I am not at this time considering meeting you,  that is true,  not yet,  it would be too fast for me
''''namastemaster says:
OH well, it's been fun...I do need to go onto bed and rest them...Hugs&Kisses, Gnight, talk to you again soon, Bi-Bi

***Slysays:
goodnight Nam......take care......don't worry,  we are friends who are honest with each other........hugs and kisses,    

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