When clearing out a house owned by my late uncle Cedric who'd been a teacher all his life, I had discovered a diary which revealed shocking details of his secret perverted and illegal acts. What a disgusting, reprehensible, and utterly terrible old man.

I couldn't wait to read more.

May 6th 1972

Today I spent my free hour between lessons walking the corridors and spying into classrooms. Some very nice 2nd year little girls, will have to find out that young blond girl's name in Joan Walker's class; would like to molest her.

May 9th '72

I'm going to do it, I've fantasised about it for so long. All these schoolgirls. Yes as a professional 'educator' a teacher I'm in a position of trust, but...... oh they're so sexy.

May 14th '72

Did a mad thing today, knew June Nicholls took the 2nd years (12 or 13 year olds) out on a cross country run. Had the keys to the girl's changing rooms, I went in and couldn't help myself, I spent a hurried furtive few minutes fingering and grabbing underwear and then stole a pair of tights and white cotton knickers.

May 16th

Have been thinking of ways to get little Susan Minsome alone. What a lovely little girl she is, very slender, small, lovely long legs for a girl of 12. Those barely black tights on her slim legs need my pervy old hands all over them.

May 19th

Followed Susan Minsome and a couple of her friends today, I love the way these girls 'customise' their school uniform, very nice they think that shortening their grey skirts attracts the boys, I'm sure it does, it also does more than attract dirty old men like me. God she looked so... oh the things I'd love to do.

May 22nd

When I first started teaching the older schoolgirls wore stockings, nowadays most schoolgirls wear tights. I am a lover of tights, I love hoisery and find tights on young girls legs highly stimulating and sexy. I want little Susan Minsome in barely black tights when I attack her.

May 23rd

Reading my entry from yesterday I realise I've committed to a course of action. But yes, terrible though it is, the thought of getting a girl all to myself to abuse and enjoy is highly exciting.

May 25th

It is now or never. From school records I know that Susan Minsome's parents are going away on holiday for two weeks. They no doubt think their only daughter at aged 12, 13 in a couple of months is capeable of looking after herself in their absence. I'm sure she is. No doubt.

May 26th

Felt very awkward today when sneaked into a sex shop, bought a soft leather mask with eye holes. As I handed over my cash I knew the woman serving me couldn't guess at the reason for my purchase; couldn't guess that I was intending to use the mask to hide my face whilst carrying out a sexual assault and rape of a schoolgirl.

May 27th

Have my lubricant, my ties, the clothes I want her to wear, let's go... what a dirty old man I am.

June 2nd '1972

I chaired our staff meeting at noon today, managed again to reconcile the issues Justin and Samantha have been in dispute over, hope we're now over that hitch. I should go into politics.

But what my teaching staff couldn't know, couldn't even guess at, was that whilst I was before them as the professional, erudite, wise Head of the school, beneath my veneer of respectability lurked a desperate and dangerous old man. My gentle and kind colleagues didn't know of my secret lusting, my private love of little schoolgirls. My fellow 'educators' had no clue of the perverse nature of my lust for girls, nor what I had planned to satiate it. My colleagues around the table would never imagine that in less than five hours from our meeting, I would have overpowered, tied up and gagged and visciously raped one of our 12 year old girl pupils.

But I did.

June 13th '72

The events of nearly two weeks ago are scorched onto my cortex, my god was it me who really did that? I think I've got away with it. When her parents found her the Police were called. It was national news, we were all interviewed and I spoke about how 'all the school wants to do now is support the victim and her family.

Little Susan Minsome.

Such a lovely young girl.

I just love to see schoolgirls in hoisery, bit of a fetish of mine, especially love schoolgirls in barely black tights; love to see their slim young legs encased in dark nylon, really gets me hard. Little Susan Minsome at age only 12, a 'first year' girl wore barely black tights. I'd seen her around the school, such a delecious young girl, long coltish legs, amazingly pretty face. Oh yes I'd wanked over young Susan Minsome. Was in my study watching out over the lunchtime playground and saw her, the wind was blowing and just for a second her short pleated school skirt flipped up and I glimpsed white knickers beneath her tights. I knew I wanted the little girl from that moment.

And from school records I knew that Susan's parents were going away and leaving her home alone.

I had a choice. Would I live as a fantasist, imagining what it would be like, or did I have the courage to actually do it?

I realised my choice was not just binary, what I was proposing to do would do great harm, I was intending to rape a girl. Rape a small, 12 year old schoolgirl.

I knew all of this, my sane, compassionate side knew what I allowed myself to believe might actually happen was wrong, terrible. But a small voice, some deep, wrong part of me said do it! Rape a girl.

And so little Susan was my first victim.

I say first here because now having experiencing the pleasure I will certainly 'do' more.