Saturday, September 08 2001

Today we spoke on the telephone and I asked her if she could have a sleepover at my place this weekend. She said she will ask her mom but I'm still waiting to hear back from her. It would be great if she could come. I think we will rent some videos and go to bed really late and sleep until late in the morning and then have breakfast and then maybe go out to the park or shopping. There's also a little doll exhibition at the local community center where people brought their antique dolls for display and Nikki wants to see it. I think we should go there before it closes.

When I took our holiday photograph to my ex-girlfriend to scan it, she asked me how was my holiday with Nikki. She knows I love young girls but it still felt weird to tell her all the details. She didn't say anything negative but I could feel she had reservations about some things we did. I can understand her and I don't expect people to be always supportive. We're still very good friends even though we broke up some time ago. She is now seeing a different woman but their relationship is not very stable and they live apart. All my other friends have good relationships and I sometimes feel like an outcast. At least that's how I think they see me and I don't want to tell everyone about Nikki. Only my closest friends know about her and there are only a couple of them anyway.