The Relationship: The Affair
by John O'Connor
Disclaimer:  Stargate SG-1 and its characters are the
property of Stargate (II) Productions, Showtime/Viacom,
 MGM/UA, Double Secret Productions, and Gekko 
Productions. This story is for entertainment purposes
only and no money exchanged hands. No copyright
 infringement is intended. The original characters,
situations, and story are the property of the author.
Rating: PG-13.
After only two more dates, Sam was ready and willing
to give herself to Janet. And Janet was more than
ready to give herself to Sam.
That first night, Janet asked Cassie to spend it at a
friend's. "How about going over to Cindy's?" Cassie,
being wise beyond her years, knew what a big night it
was for these two women and readily agreed.
Janet answered the door in a long, red silk slip. It
hugged her body in all the right places and took Sam's
breath away. "My God, you are beautiful!" Sam told
her.
Janet just smiled, took her hand and led her into the
house. After a light supper with some wine, Janet then
led Sam, who kept staring in awe and wonder at this
vision with her, up to the bedroom.
Janet had her small stereo turned to a smooth jazz
station and several lit candles around the room. Sam
stood in the center of the room as Janet moved around
to make sure everything was just right. Then she
glided over to Sam and gently pressed her lips to the
tall blonde.
Sam accepted the moist kiss and returned it. As they
clung tightly to each other, their hands roamed up and
down their backs, carressing the skin beneath the
clothing they wore.
Janet took a step back then reached out to begin to
undress her love. Sam also reached out and slid the
straps of the red shift off Janet's shoulders so that
it pooled on the floor at the brunette's feet.
Sam started to assist Janet with her clothes, but
Janet stopped her with a soft kiss and a whispered,
"Please, let me do it."
Willing to do just about anything the young doctor
suggested, Sam stood and let Janet peel off her
clothes. All the while, Sam memorized the beauty of
Janet's nude form. She didn't think she'd ever seen
anything so lovely.
Once Sam was naked, Janet led her to the bed and they
embraced again, their bodies molding together as they
had in the locker room shower the week before. They
soon became as lost to the rest of the world as they
had been in the shower.
Janet, who was as inexperienced in making love to a
woman as her partner was, took the lead and the two
women made love long into the night.
As they lay in each other's arms, before sleep claimed
them, Sam whispered "Janet, that was wonderful beyond
words. You are wonderful."
"So are you. You are the best thing that has happened
to me in a long, long time." She snuggled deeper into
Sam's embrace and whispered, "I never want to let you
go."
"Please don't."
* * * * * *
The next several months were typically tumultuous for
the SGC and it's personnel. Goa'uld encounters seemed
to become more numerous. Newer and stranger alien
technology was brought through the Stargate. And
alliances with other races were formed.
SG-1, the primary exploration team, was often
offworld. These excursions were of varying duration.
But always on their return, Sam and Janet would spend
the following days and nights strengthening their
love.
While offworld, Sam and Jack would spend much of their
quiet time talking. Sam wanted to know all she could
about the woman she had fallen for. Jack wanted to do
all he could to help his ex-wife and her lover in
their relationship.
As a result of these talks, Daniel Jackson and Teal'c
became aware of the situation and, during one of these
expeditions, finally confronted Jack and Sam.
"Uh, Jack?"
"Yes, Daniel? What's on your mind?"
"Well, it's just that Teal'c and I were..." The young
archeologist's voice trailed off.
"Daniel, you're fading out again. I really hate that!"
"Yes, well, we were wondering, and you don't have to
tell us if you don't want to, but have you and Sam
become, well, um, lovers?"
"Lovers? Carter and me?" Jack laughed.
Sam took that moment to return to their campsite,
"What's so funny?"
"Well, about you and Jack, uh, well..."
"What DanielJackson is attempting to say is that we
were curious if you and O'Neill were lovers."
Smiling, Sam shook her head, "No, the colonel and I
aren't lovers. Just friends."
Her teammates looked unconvinced and Sam decided to
let them in on the situation. "You boys have to keep
this secret. Top security classification and all that
nonsense. Okay?"
When they agreed, Sam told them about Janet. She
didn't mention her failed marriage to Jack however.
And Jack confirmed what Sam said as well as pressing
them for their reassurance that they wouldn't tell a
soul. "Under pain of death!" he warned.
"You have my promise, O'Neill. DanielJackson?"
"Uh, yeah, well, sure. It's our little secret," he
replied, still looking a little stunned.
* * * * * *
Unfortunately, this affair couldn't sustain itself
through secrecy and deception. Even with the support
of their friends, the toll on the two women was too
much. As more months passed, their work performances
were slipping and they slowly began to argue with
increasing frequency and growing ferocity.
Finally, one night, after a particularly grueling
fight and the ecstasy of making love by way of
apology, Sam and Janet lay in bed talking about their
problems.
"Sam, these arguments are getting nastier and nastier.
I can't go on like this. We can't keep fighting. It
seems like any little thing will set us off!" Janet
blinked back frustrated tears.
"What...what are you trying to say, Janet?" Sam
whispered, her voice shaky.
"I don't think I can do this anymore. I'm sorry, Sam.
I really am." Janet was openly crying now.
Sam pulled her tight, feeling the small body in her
arms being wracked by sobs. She tried to force her own
tears back but it was impossible. This special woman
in her arms was in such pain and Sam couldn't do
anything about it.
"Janet, I love you! Doesn't that mean anything?"
Red-rimmed eyes looked at Sam, "Yes, but it's not
enough. What good is love if we have to hide how we
feel and be in such pain? Maybe I...I don't know."
Janet buried her face in Sam's bosom, "I just know
that the longer we keep this secret, the more it will
get to us. We will finally get into a fight that we
can never recover from and we'll end up hating each
other. And I don't ever want to hate you."
Janet took a deep, gulping breath, "And then there's
Cassie. How would it be for her to have the two of us
hating each other?"
"It doesn't have to be like that," Sam protested even
as she knew that what Janet said was true. The strain
of the secret had been getting to her and she was
feeling more irritable than she could remember.
The two women held each other and talked and cried far
into the night. The end of any relationship is hard
but this was particularly painful.
Finally, as the sun began to rise in the east, they
arose and got cleaned up to go into work. As Sam was
getting ready to leave, she said to Janet, "Who knows?
Maybe someday we could be honest about ourselves
and..."
Janet gave her a brave smile, kissed her on the cheek,
and said, "Maybe..."
And just like that, just over ten months after that
first passionate kiss in the shower, the love affair
was over.
 (c) John O'Conner
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