Sometimes stories take on a life of their own. Such was the case with
this tale. It came to me while I was working on "A Life With Ariel"
and, in fact, stifled the writing of said tale. I managed to begin and
complete this tale after only two nights of writing.
Still, the formation of it
took a bit longer and it lingered in my head for quite awhile. I hope
that I have corrected it thoroughly enough to be enjoyable though I
fear that only one read since writing it will prove to be a mistake.
Just the same, I am ready to move on. So, it is presented as it is,
mistakes and all. As always, comments are quite welcome.
Disclaimer: Those wishing
for a heavily sexed story should look elsewhere. I intended this story
to be erotic without mention of sex except as a cursory affair.
The Wish
All his life he had been marked as an oddity. He was only seven years
of age when he first found interest in taxidermy, sparking commentary
from adults (friends of his parents) that he was a bit off. It was not
until he reached the age of ten that his father began to agree with
his friends.
At twelve years of age Roger
found interest in his mother's doll collection. And, while his father
was determined to interest him in other things, his mother fully indulged
him. By the time he was eighteen he had a rather extensive collection
of rare and beautiful dolls.
Despite his "odd" interest
in dolls, Roger had also exhibited a rather fond interest in medicine.
For this his father was quite relieved. Much money and several years
later, Roger Young became a doctor. Only five years after his graduation
he found himself working for a firm that specialized in reconstructive
and cosmetic surgery. After five more years he moved on to open his
own practice.
It was shortly after graduation
from medical school that his father passed. Despite the hostility that
he felt towards his father Roger wept openly at his father's funeral.
All of his life Roger had been desperate for his approval. Unfortunately,
Roger's odd interests, especially in dolls, had placed a huge wedge
in his relationship with his father. It was only when Roger entered
medical school that he received a modicum of approval from his father.
Truth be told, his father would have been less than pleased to know
that it was his interest in taxidermy, combined with his obsession with
dolls, that had driven him into the medical profession. And so, his
father passed, never fully approving of his son.
It was August when he met
Kaitlin. She was a twenty-six year old bank teller at a local bank.
When she walked into his office he was smitten - truly. Never before
had he met a woman who so stoked his fire as Kaitlin managed. She was
five feet tall, petite, muscular and well proportioned. Her golden hair
hung, wavy and full, nearly to her waist while framing her face in delicate
fashion. Most striking, however, were her full red lips and small upturned
nose.
During the interview Roger
vowed that, despite her wants, he would do anything he could to preserve
this natural beauty. She had wanted larger breasts and smaller lips.
Cringing at the thought of such an alteration Roger fought with his
mind to find the words that would convince her of the error of her requests.
He was unable. She left his office determined to find another who would
do as she wished.
Three weeks later she was
in his office again. "I'm sorry Miss Baum, I will not make any alterations
to you" he told her upon her entering his office. A few moments later
he found that he was being asked out by the most beautiful woman he
had ever seen - a woman fifteen years his junior.
That night, over dinner,
he discovered that she, too, had an obsession to dolls. It was this
obsession, she confessed, that had driven her to his office, wishing
to be more like her favorite doll, Tina. For the first time, Roger felt
that he had found someone, other than his mother, who might not find
his obsession strange. Later that night, when he dropped her at her
door, she asked if she might kiss him. Six weeks later they married.
They had been married for
nearly a year when Roger lost his mother. His mother had been his only
true friend and there was little that Kaitlin could do to console him.
Still, she tried, having undergone a similar loss in her parents some
years earlier. They cried together that night - he for his loss and
she for his pain.
Nearly a year had gone by
since his mother's passing. Roger found himself passing in and out of
"blue moods" and unable to concentrate on his patients. And so, rather
than continue on in something that for which he had lost passion, he
sold his practice for a substantial sum. Later that year he purchased
a house in the flatlands of Montana.
During this time Kaitlin
did what she could to comfort Roger. It was difficult for her to watch
him grieve but she understood. Shortly after their move he began to
show his old face.
Upon arrival at their new
home, Kaitlin was overjoyed. Roger had purchased a house larger than
anything she had ever hoped for. And, though their previous home had
been spacious, it was nothing like the one in which they now lived.
Most exciting to her was the large room that he had set aside to house
their doll collection complete with an adjoining workshop where he could
make and repair their precious dolls.
They had been in their new
home for nearly six months when Roger began to "get the itch" to begin
helping people again. And so they began construction on a small office
beside, and attaching to, their home. It was finished and fully stocked
within only four months. Kaitlin, seeing her husband get "back in gear",
was happier than she could remember ever being.
They were sitting together,
eating dinner. They were speaking of things of today and yesterday,
exchanging jokes and anecdotes when she suggested that she might find
something to do with her time, " a job perhaps." Roger was irate, standing
over his bride screaming at the top of his lungs, anger seething at
the suggestion she made. In another moment he had fled, crying, into
the doll room. She found him curled up in a ball, weeping. Such was
their life for the next few weeks. Any suggestion could send him into
a rage that would be followed by an uncontrollable fit of tears. She
cried as often as he, fearing that he might be losing his mind.
It was October. Trees were
shedding the remnants of the warmer months in spectacular colors. Kaitlin
was staring out the window when she felt a warm hand on her back. A
kiss, delicate and soft on her ear turned her attentions to him. He
was smiling - apologizing. "I've been somewhere that I need never be...not
with you" he told her. "I know that now. I'm sorry."
November was received with
a blanket of snow. Sounds of delight filled his ears as he watched her
burst, naked, out the door and into the cold snow. Shaking his head,
he snatched a blanket from off of the couch and ran after her, hoping
to keep his bride from catching her death in the cold.
She spun into his arms at
her capture, wrapping herself around him. Making love in the snow, he
found, was both satisfying and exciting. It also was a perfect way to
share a cold.
It was Christmas day. Sitting
in front of their tree and bundled in the clothes of winter was Kaitlin.
Along with her present to him, a handmade antique porcelain doll, she
had given him a "Get Anything You Want, Free" card. It was presented
with a grin and purse of the lips. "I'll use this. Just be prepared
for the worst," he told her.
For his part, he presented
her with a similar porcelain doll. Upon looking at it she was stunned.
The doll was the spit and image of Kaitlin. For long and long she stared
at it, eyes welling with tears. Then, just as he thought to ask her
if something was wrong, she flung herself into his arms and smothered
him with kisses and whispering words of love in his ears.
Later, after the thrall of
Christmas was in the past and the mess had been cleaned, they put their
dolls in the doll room, hers in a glass cabinet that he had made purchased
for her doll. "How did you know?" she asked him. Saying nothing, he
pulled him to her and made love to her on the floor where they fell.
For much of the winter they
kept very close company. The roads leading to civilized society were
muddy and rough and so they were loath to leave their home. In fact,
since Roger had stocked the house with every necessity, there was little
need to leave their house except for some odd want - like the "Bon-bons"
she found herself wanting.
As spring found it's way
into the cool Montana air she found that Roger was becoming pensive.
She had begun to worry that he was slipping into a state of depression,
as he had before. It was not to be and, in fact, his pensiveness was
well justified considering what he was about to share with her.
They had just finished dinner
and were sitting on the couch basking in the warmth of the fireplace.
He seemed to be a million miles away. "Penny for your thoughts?" she
asked.
Tilting his head he looked
at her. After pursing his lips and thinking for a moment he began to
tell her of a secret want that he had always had. It was not a long
tale except in the telling. For, he was afraid that she might react
to this as his father had reacted to his interests in dolls and taxidermy.
Then, he confided in her that the only reason for his interest in medicine
was in being able to create his own "dolls" through the surgery that
he performed on his patients. And then he asked the question that had
been on his mind for the last few days, fearing that she might recoil
from him.
Kaitlin thought for a moment.
True, she found his request odd. Still, there were many other people
who engaged in far stranger activities, many of which were actually
harmful. His request could hardly be considered harmful. And so, Kaitlin
agreed to his request, demanding the "Get Anything You Want, Free" card
in return for her cooperation in his odd request. Smiling, he complied.
They were in the spare bedroom.
Around her the room was covered in sheets. She was standing on a black
pedestal wearing nothing but black buckled shoes. At his request she
had shaved her entire body of hair. All that remained was the hair on
her head. Her stomach was grumbling, unhappy that she had eaten nothing
for the last twenty-four hours. "This is going to take quite a while
and I don't want any interruptions. Besides, it might make things messy"
he told her.
At her feet was Roger, kneeling
and preparing his "special mix" and making certain that his brushes
and spray gun was in order. And then it began.
His first task was to cover
her shoes with tape and newspaper. Once her shoes were covered he began
spraying her with the cool substance. The first blast of the cool substance
was a shock that gave her goose bumps. However, as he moved from her
feet to her legs she found it to be strangely erotic. In short order,
using short and swift blasts, he had both of her legs covered with the
substance.
Roger looked up at her, smiling
as he slipped a thin piece of highly polished metal between the slit
of her sex. As she began to ask what he was doing he began his work
again, coating her sex. I want you too look like a doll - but not completely"
he smiled at her.
Then he turned his attention
to her posterior. Again, he placed a similar piece of metal between
the cheeks of her bottom. Unlike the other piece, this had a small protrusion
or knob that slipped inside of her, making her wince. Then, he pulled
the piece to the left, prying her cheeks apart, and began spraying her
anew. Once he was satisfied that her right buttock had dried he repeated
the process with the other cheek.
She was quite uncomfortable
with this, never having had anything enter her this way, but she endured,
reminding herself that she loved him and that she would only have to
endure this intrusion for a short while. More, she admitted to herself
that she enjoyed being painted with whatever it was that he was painting
her with. Besides, it was a "Get ANYTHING You Want, Free" card.
Once he began work on her
upper body he had her pushed her hair into a rubber cap. Glad for the
cap, she pushed her golden hair under the cap as best she could.
Two hours later he was complete.
He had been meticulous, making certain to lift her breasts slightly
so as not to make them stick to her body when they dried. And when he
painted her face he gave her special lenses to place over her eyes so
they would not be painted shut. Then, he painted each eyelid with a
small brush. Her ears, nose and lips, too, were given special attention.
Once complete he rolled a
large mirror in front of her so that she could see herself. She was
shiny and appeared to be entirely made of a light blue plastic. Even
the white rubber cap over her hair did not detract from the appearance
of her being a plastic doll. She shivered at the vision, excited.
After she had gotten a good
look he wheeled the mirror away. As he began cleaning his tools she
ran her plastic covered hands over her body, shivering at the feeling.
Then she wondered if his request were as strange as her reaction to
what he had done.
"We aren't finished yet,
pet" he told her.
She was curious at what more
he could do and what he was now spraying on her. And then she realized
that she had to use the bathroom quite badly.
"I have a catheter for that"
he told her. "It will ruin everything if we don't use it"
Reluctantly, she agreed.
This she did not find sensual or exciting in any way. It was uncomfortable
and embarrassing being fit with the catheter. Furthermore, she was worried
about the sanitary aspects of being fit with a catheter on such an occasion.
Still, he was a doctor and he knew what he was doing. And so, minutes
later, her bladder was emptied into a small bag and he was resuming
his work.
It was long and tedious.
Her feet hurt from the constant standing. Still, she did not move. Fortunately,
the second process was much faster. He was more skilled and, apparently,
this process required much less time. It was only a half an hour until
he was painting her face again, first with the spray gun and then with
a brush. And then, after only another half hour he announced that he
was finished and she was dry.
This time, before wheeling
the large mirror into her sight, he let her hair down, spraying it with
a light mist. Then, he stepped aside and brought the mirror to her.
Immediately she shivered, the sight of herself beautiful and surreal.
She felt a surge that both frightened and excited her.
For long and long she stared
at the strange image reflected in the mirror. To all outward appearances
she was a porcelain figure. Her body, covered as it was, appeared to
have no life. Her cheeks, carefully painted, were brightly colored in
a lovely shade of pink. The most striking feature, however, were her
lips. These he had painted in a crisp crimson that shone in the light.
And when her hair was finally let down she appeared as perfect as any
doll she had ever seen.
From the corner of her eye
she saw Roger. He had departed the room, while she stared at her image,
to return with a silk dress. She said nothing as he pulled the dress
over her arms and fastened it to her frame. A moment later she was staring
again, wondering at what she had become - a porcelain doll, ready to
be encased in glass, never touched - admired always - a piece of art.
He snapped numerous pictures
of her before allowing her free movement again. Truth be told she was
somewhat reticent to move, wishing to hold this moment of perfection.
Still, her feet were sore and she was quite tired from her long hours
of standing stock-still. Reluctantly, she finally stepped from the platform.
After resting for a bit she
found that Roger had prepared her a small meal of fruits with the accompaniment
of fine champagne. This was to "celebrate the moment," he told her,
"when you became a living piece of art."
Later, as the sun began its
descent from the sky, they removed themselves to the doll room. Again,
he snapped numerous pictures of her, telling her how beautiful she looked.
Eventually, they removed her fine silk dress and, finding her "new skin"
still intact, made love on the floor in front of their collection.
It was morning when they
awoke. Light shone into the doll room from a window in a nearby window.
Her "new skin" had degraded and she no longer had the appearance of
a doll. Instead, they were sad to see, she looked as if she were suffering
the results of sunburn all over her body. Despite that disappointment,
they had quite the time removing her "new skin", finding it sensual
and arousing.
Over the next few months
they would re-enact this scene several times. From time to time Roger
would incorporate a slightly different technique to bring about a more
thorough doll-like appearance. One time he even managed to coat her
body with a substance that hardened somewhat, bringing about a stunning
illusion that captivated them both. It was abandoned rather quickly,
however, as her skin reacted to it in a negative fashion.
She was never happy with
the catheter, though she accepted it as a necessary evil. She even grew
to find the small intrusion of her rectum, when he separated her buttocks,
rather pleasant. She surprised him one night by incorporating it into
their lovemaking. Never had they felt so close as they did at this moment.
One day, as she was thumbing
through the pages of a lingerie catalog she spied a silk body stocking.
Upon showing it to Roger he was quite enthusiastic and suggested she
order several. He had an idea, he told her, for when he next made her
into a doll. Six weeks later, the stockings arrived.
After dinner that night,
she modeled one of the stockings for him. She had thought that she might
pique his ardor with the stockings. Instead she piqued his curiosity
as to how to best use the stockings for his plan - a plan that he kept
secret, telling her that he did not want to ruin the surprise. She was
a bit disappointed in his reaction, though this sort of thing was to
be expected considering his previous comments about the stocking.
The next few days found him
in his study. He had purchase several books on various topics, all of
which she ignored. She preferred to reap the benefits of his research
to understanding it.
Finally, after much reading
he was ready. He had purchased several items and a few odd smelling
concoctions. What he planned for she was unsure of. He would only tell
her that, this time, when he turned her into a doll, they would be able
to enjoy it much longer than they had before. She grinned, wondering
at his plan.
It was morning. The sky was
overcast and rain fell in the distance. Cool air flowed through the
house, a welcome relief from the heat of summer. Looking out the window
she watched the rain as it swirled.
A voice, distant and muffled
was calling to her. It was Roger. It was time for her transformation
his voice was telling her. And so she slipped out of her clothes and
headed into the "new skin" room.
He smiled and kissed her
as he handed her the body stocking, instructing her to "Get dressed".
She eyed him, mocking his words. The stocking was hardly clothing to
"get dressed" in. After slipping on the body stocking she could see
that there had been a few adjustments. There were silk seams where there
had been none before and it fit quite a bit more snuggly. "I want to
get every detail right," he told her.
Once the body stocking was
properly situated on her form she stepped up onto the "doll making platform".
As she took her place on the platform she noticed that a few changes
had been made to it. A tall post, ending in a neck rest and a neoprene
strap, was attached to the back of the platform. Also, there were two
shorter posts, ending in flat bars shaped like a "U", extending from
near the front of the platform and spaced slightly wide of where her
body stood.
Her questioning look garnered
the explanation that this process would be quite different from before.
She would probably find it difficult to hold her hands up when he applied
his plan and it would be likely that her balance would suffer as well.
He knew better than she so she did not argue.
After strapping her neck
into the neck rest he commanded she rest her hands on the other two
posts. Then he lifted up her right foot and sprayed it, before slipping
a silvery white high-heeled slipper onto her foot. Another brief blast
of spray and a few gentle touches later and both of her feet were shod
with the oddly pretty slippers.
In mere moments he began
spraying her right ankle and calf with the same substance that he had
sprayed on her feet. Then she watched as he began applying strips of
silvery fabric over the areas that he had sprayed. Before long her entire
leg had been covered in the silver fabric. Kaitlin, though curious,
never asked about the fabric preferring to enjoy the sensations of Roger's
work in silent rapture. And so she watched and wondered enjoying the
sensual tension that was building inside of her. Even his insertion
of a strange object into her rectum brought a minor thrill to her and
she hardly noticed that, this time, the object was not removed.
Lightning crackled as, two
hours after he had begun, he finished covering her body, foot to neck,
with the strange and shiny fabric. The only parts of her that were not
completely encased were her hands and head.
"In a moment" he told her,
" I am going to spray you down again. It's important that you don't
move at all while it dries."
He wiped his brow, sweaty
from his tireless work. Then he bent and brought up one of his many
spray guns and began spraying her with a liquid unknown to her. She
assumed it would be some sort of latex paint but when she saw that it
did not have any color she questioned him.
"Another fixative" he told
her as he went on about his work saturating the shiny fabric. Once satisfied
that the fabric was saturated he put down the spray gun and retrieved
another to begin spraying again. A few minutes later he was done, explaining
that he had just applied the catalyst that would begin the curing process.
"Don't move" he told her
again. "This has to set. If you move it will spoil the effect." She
affirmed her compliance with a loving, if sarcastic "Yes, Sir!"
Kaitlin found that her excitement
was growing. She suspected that he was making a cast of her body. Later,
after it was hard, he would pull apart and then use it for a mold. When
he was done she would have a full sized doll that was her exact match.
That he would go to such troubles to provide her with a life-sized doll
of herself astounded her. Never before had she understood the great
lengths that he would go to for her happiness.
Finally, he announced, everything
should have set and cured. To check it he rapped a knuckle on her encasement.
As he expected, after a thorough inspection, her encasement was completely
hard.
"Try to lift your arms" he
told her. Satisfied that her arms were immobile he commanded she try
to move her legs. When she was unable to move her legs he instructed
her to bend at the waist. Satisfied, again, at her immobility he began
the quick work of encasing her hands. Once encased in the silvery fabric
and after positioning her hands "just so" he began saturating them.
Thirty minutes later her hands were as rigid and immobile as the rest
of her body.
After a moment of checking
his work over, he wheeled their full-length mirror in front of her.
Her entire body, she saw, was now encased in a shiny silver-white and
gave the appearance of an odd looking mannequin. Even her pose was similar
to a mannequin, legs spread slightly and arms held out, hands slightly
upturned. Above the body poked a human head - her head - giving an even
odder appearance. She loved it.
Glancing downward, she noticed
that he had left the cleft between her legs bare. In fact, there was
a rectangular opening where there would have normally been a slight
slit. Then she realized that he had failed to remove whatever he had
slid into her posterior. She would have shrugged if she could have.
As it was, it only added to her excitement, finding it oddly sensual.
Roger, for his part, was
studying his work with a smile and deciding just how to manage his next
task - placing her on to a padded dolly and wheeling her into the doll
shop. He didn't want to take a chance on injuring her by letting her
fall. Aside from hurting her it was also likely to damage all the hard
work he had put in on this project. Finally, he had worked out the physics
behind what he had to do and set about accomplishing it. Minutes later,
after a bit of struggle, he was wheeling her through the house and into
the doll shop.
To say that she was worried
when he placed her on the work stand would be an understatement. When
he wheeled her into the room she saw that he had constructed a large
rolling stand. The stand had two posts, one in the back that had a neck
rest similar to the other stand and another that was slightly offset
from center.
She suspected, with disbelief,
what the center post was for and voiced her concern to him, strenuously
voicing her disapproval. Ignoring her words and in a matter of a few
seconds, he had slid the post inside of the complaining woman, explaining
that it would fit securely within the rubber coated tube that he had
secured inside of her. When she realized that she could not feel the
intruding post she became quiet, embarrassed at doubting him.
After making certain that
she was held securely, and with no worry of injury, he left the room.
When he returned he was carrying a bucket of water and several white
pieces of white cloth. After setting the bucket and sheets on the floor
her reached into his pocket and withdrew several packages of wet-dry
sandpaper.
It was nearly six o'clock
in the evening when he announced that she was "as smooth as glass".
Having dosed off, she hardly stirred. Seeing that she was sound asleep
he decided to take a nap of his own. Curling up at her feet, beside
the stand on which she stood, he slipped into the world of dreams.
It was almost midnight when
she roused him from his slumber. She was sore and cramping slightly
from the ordeal that she was enduring and wanted him to cut her out
of the shell that imprisoned her. Much to her chagrin, his soothing
words calmed her and she agreed to let him finish his work. Then, after
emptying her bladder, he returned to his project.
It was late when he finished.
When he brought the rolling mirror into the room and let her gaze at
herself she was amazed. His previous experiments had produced wondrous
results but this was beyond comparison. His work had left her looking
as if her entire body was composed of fine porcelain.
After nearly three more hours
of standing stock still she began to complain again. She had not eaten
in over forty hours and was quite famished. To add insult to injury
she told him that she was feeling rather stiff. Laughing at the ironic
truth, he finally fed her a dinner of fruits and cheese washed down
with wine. Then, after carefully removing her from the stand, he wheeled
her into the bedroom and rested her on her back in their bed. Then he
set about making love to her in the only manner possible.
Her head was reeling from
the assault his tongue was making between her legs. Her inability to
move, even a little, thrilled her. Never before had she been subdued
during their lovemaking. Her imprisonment pushed her over the edge of
anything that she had known previously and she found herself in a euphoria
that left her nearly delirious. Utterly exhausted, she fell into a deep
sleep as soon as he withdrew himself from between the cleft between
her legs.
She awoke to find herself
staring straight ahead, unable to move in the slightest. After a moment
of confusion she realized that she was in the workshop on the specially
made stand. Behind her she could hear Roger working. Her first attempt
at asking Roger what he was doing left her curious - her mouth was as
immobile as her head and body were. All that she was able to do was
mutter vaguely coherent words. Roger slid around and into her vision.
She tried to speak again, becoming frightened at her complete immobility
and strange inability to speak.
"Ah, you're awake," he said
to her as he began painting something onto her chin. It was then that
he explained her current predicament and in a matter of a few minutes
she was frightened and horrified beyond comprehension.
Before their lovemaking session,
Roger told her, had slipped her a slow acting drug to induce a deep
sleep. She had been kept in heavy sedation for the last ten weeks. During
that time he had removed her teeth, replacing them with plastic. "Most
importantly," he told her, "I severed several muscle groups in your
face and head and fixed your jaw, slightly open, so that it cannot move.
This way you will have perfectly relaxed features for when I complete
your transformation"
Had she been able to speak
clearly she would have been unable. And as his words sank into her she
realized that his plan had not been to make a doll for her but to turn
her into one. Then she realized that this man, seemingly normal and
gentle, was completely insane.
She stared distantly at the
ceiling as he continued talking to her. "I also removed all of your
hair via electrolysis." He continued. "Don't worry, I saved your hair
and had it made into a wig. When I am finished you will be beautiful
always."
He was almost finished with
his work. Her entire head was now covered in the glistening fabric.
"Fiberglass," he explained to her. "Harder than steel."
Suddenly, she regained her
senses and began screaming in nearly unintelligible sentences. "Ah du
nanna de a doll!" she screamed out.
He laughed, not believing
her. "I know you better than that." He told her. "You're just a bit
frightened because you can't move. That will pass. Besides, I have everything
taken care of. Your intestines have been purged, you won't have to worry
about your cycle anymore and your food needs will be taken care of with
an IV…it's all taken care of, even your finger and toe nails."
Again she screamed out, protesting
her incarceration. She pled and begged him to set her free. But it was
all to no avail. In the end, he refused to believe her, remembering
to her the comment she made to him so long ago; that she had wished
to be like her favorite doll.
After the mask of fiberglass
had cured he began the smoothing process. During this time she argued
continuously that this was not what she wanted. Often she screamed,
fear overcoming her. Other times she sobered, determined to convince
him with logic. Nothing she tried worked. He was beyond reason or anger.
He could not be reached.
All too soon he placed glass
lenses over her eyes and began fixing them into place. They were dolls
eyes, she knew. It was at this point when she ceased her arguments,
giving into her fate for the moment. Helpless, defeated and exhausted
beyond remembrance, she fell into sleep.
She woke, some hours later,
to the sound of Roger's voice rousing her. Disoriented and groggy she
decided that she was waking from a horrible nightmare. As her head cleared
she realized that it was no nightmare. Instead, it was a horrible truth
- a punishment brought upon her by God for all of the sins she had committed
in this life and all those before.
Gazing from behind blue tinted
eyes she could see her image in the mirror in front of her. It was her
- only it was not her. She had seen this image before. The long golden
hair gently caressing rosy cheeks, the ruby red lips, the pale skin;
all were familiar. This time, however, it would not peel from her body.
This time it was forever.
"Beautiful, always" she heard
him mutter to no one.
She spoke to him again, requesting
he forsake his plan for something more reasonable. But her words, in
askance of release, fell on the ears of a madman bent on her demise
as a human being. Regardless of any reasoning or pleading, he refused
to return her to freedom; always returning her arguments with her own
fateful wish. She gave up again, resigning herself that he was out of
her reach - at least for the moment.
After removing the mirror
from her sight, Roger began to dress her in a dress that, he explained,
had been especially made for her. He had commissioned its creation two
years ago. Now, with her permanent transformation, it was the perfect
time to break it out. "It was made to exacting specifications to match
the dress of your favorite doll." He told her as he fastened it to his
horrified bride.
Her heart jumped, realizing
that their experimentations and playful doll acting had not been mere
fun for Roger. Instead it had been a precursor - a plan - for her eventual
and permanent entombment. This understanding sent her mind racing and
she began begging for release once again. Just as before, he was not
to be swayed.
Regardless of her arguments,
logical and hysterical, he refused to accept that she did not to be
a doll. Over the following year her pleas for freedom would lessen until
they ceased entirely.
Her anger, once vivid, began
to diminish to a bare spark. Slowly that spark gave way to hatred and
then depression. Then, as another year and then another passed she forgot
her depression, resigning herself to being forever frozen in time; a
display piece for the husband she had once loved.
When this transformation
took place she could not say. All she knew was that she no longer feared
nor hated her life, such as it was. Eventually she came to love Roger
again for the attention and care with which he took care of her. Occasionally
she wished that she could do something to help him or show her appreciation
for him. Then she would remember her station, sighing inwardly. "I am
only a doll' she would think to herself.
Roger, for his part, took
the care of his "Kaitlin Doll" (as he now referred to her) quite seriously.
When he was not working on the yard or otherwise entrenched in the general
maintenance of their home he took great pains to ensure her well-being.
Often times, after her "feeding", he could be found reading a book to
her. Other times he attended to her sexual needs, removing the small
"door" that he had put into the crotch of his doll. He was happy and
so was she; he knew that with the certainty of a madman.
It was summer. She had been
entombed for over ten years now and hardly remembered her life before
her transformation. Any memories of that life had been quickly suppressed,
her mind refusing to accept any but her current state of being. She
was a doll, in body and mind, wanting for naught but the attentions
of her creator.
Roger was outside mowing
the grass of their large yard on his riding mower. Kaitlin watched,
unmoving. Once the lawn was finished he came into their home and wheeled
her from the window and into their living room.
Kneeling down behind her,
he pulled the "door" that he had installed behind her knee, revealing
the feeding tube that kept her fed. As her "feeding" commenced he took
his place on the couch directly in front of her. Then he picked a book
from off of the coffee table and began reading to her. She listened,
rapt at the sound of his voice and the tale it was telling. This was
her favorite part of their lives together.
His coughing disturbed her
reverie and, as he recovered, she noticed that there was something different
about him. She was unsure what it was but he was different, somehow.
Then, as he began to read anew, she forgot her thought, returning to
the delight of the tale.
Later that day, he wheeled
her into the doll room. Shortly after her entombment he had covered
the walls in mirrors so she could see herself whenever he placed her
there. This was another treat for her. It made her feel special. It
was as if she were in a room filled with diamonds - she being the most
exquisite of them all. He told so.
It was here, staring at mirrored
image, that she realized what was different about Roger. He was growing
old. In those moments when she could see him clearly, even behind her
blue dolls eyes, she could see his age. Around his eyes were wrinkles
where there had been none. His forehead was creased deeply and his hair
was thinning and gray. Suddenly she hated Roger.
As time was to pass she feared
that her hatred for him would grow. And so it did. She never voiced
her hatred to him. In fact, had ceased speaking long ago. Instead, she
endured her newfound hatred, silently seething at his every word and
motion.
Had she been asked, she could
not have answered why she hated him. She did not know. So far as she
remembered he had been loving, caring and gentle. He saw to her every
need, keeping her entertained, fed and sexually satisfied. Still, she
wished him dead.
Shortly after her thirteenth
anniversary as a doll Roger took ill. It was sudden and unexpected,
in the middle of her feeding. She watched, excited, as he clutched his
chest in the throws of a heart attack. Her eyes burned in hatred, hopeful
for his death. He was barely able to make it to the phone and dial for
emergency aid before he died. Thirty minutes later help arrived.
As paramedics gave up on
their hope to revive him, one of them spotted the IV that led into the
back of Kaitlin's leg. Curious, he studied the situation wondering why
a doll would need intravenous fluids. His curiosity was turned to startled
horror when he realized that the doll was a living being.
He called to the other paramedic,
not believing what his eyes told him to be true. Moments later they
were removing her from the stand and wheeling her into their ambulance.
Stock still, she rode to the hospital. She had no idea if they had saved
Roger, they never said. She was, however, hopeful that they had not.
As soon as she arrived at
the hospital, doctors began inspecting the entombed woman. Soon after,
they began removing her from her casing. After nearly two hours they
had her removed and lying, sedated, in a hospital bed.
She woke in a dim room. For
the first time in many years she was peering, not from behind blue tinted
eyes, but with her own clear eyes. She did not move.
A nurse was the first to
see that she was awake. Caring words from her lips comforted the former
doll. As the day commenced various physicians, police and other strangers
visited her. Slowly she came to realize that she was free again. With
that realization came long suppressed memories. Suddenly gone was "Kaitlin
Doll". In her place was Kaitlin Young.
Several weeks later, after
her skin had begun to take on natural color and after much physical
therapy, she had begun to walk again. Her muscles, long unused had atrophied
to a stunning degree during her years as a doll. When she had first
come into the hospital she was unable to even sit up, now, after much
determination, she was ambling along with the aid of a nurse.
That she had not spoken was
no surprise to her psychiatrists. Considering what she had been through
they doubted she would ever speak again and believed her mind to be
irreparably damaged. They were wrong.
Eventually, Kaitlin began
to speak. She told the doctors, as best she could, that Roger had immobilized
her jaw. Upon examination they discovered that she had indeed been immobilized
and that, after a minor procedure, would regain full use of her jaw.
They could do nothing, however, about many of the muscle groups that
had severed and removed from much of her face.
A week later she was speaking
semi-clearly. Her voice no longer held the pleasing lilt that it once
had. But it was "coming along" her doctor told her.
Several months later she
was due for release. She had regained full use of her extremities and,
though not strong, she was able to get around well enough. The state
had provided her with money from a victim's fund. They had also put
her up in a state sponsored home and had been offered several job opportunities.
Beyond the state's social programs there were many media outlets and
publishers who were clamoring for her story. Finally, Roger had left
a will that left her with his entire estate. She would be well off by
the time her story was told.
On the day that she left
the hospital she decided it was time to look at herself. Her entire
stay at the hospital she had avoided looking at herself, fearing that
age and time spent behind fiberglass had ruined her face. Already she
had suffered through seeing her limbs atrophied and breasts sagging.
True, her appearance had improved through her hard work. Her face, on
the other hand, was not the same thing.
She stood in the bathroom
of her hospital room for several minutes. The light was out. She was
building the courage to look at herself. That she would no longer be
so beautiful as she once was she knew. But she was frightened of the
unknown. Finally, she flipped the switch bring light to the room. Adjusting
her eyes to the light she stared into the mirror in front of her.
In front of her, gazing into
her face was the same beautiful girl that she had once been. That she
was astonished at what she saw could not be told. There was nary a trace
of that she had aged, even a day, since she had been entombed. She left
the hospital cheerful and energetic.
Three days after she had
returned to her home she had the place completely refurnished. It was
now devoid of anything to remind her of her time with Roger. In fact,
the entire place had been gutted of anything that could ever remind
her of her imprisonment. Soon she would have nothing but memories of
her ordeal. And those, she knew, would fade as time passed.
Still, despite her removal
of anything associated with Roger, memories of her ordeal lingered.
Many nights she found herself awakened by nightmares that would leave
her screaming and crying out to be free. And so, her health suffering,
she determined to sell her house and move to Los Angeles. Within the
matter of a few months she had sold the hated house and moved into a
spatial home in the Hollywood hills.
Epilogue:
Finishing up her workout
routine she headed into her bathroom to wash up. The hot water felt
good on her tired and sore muscles. It had taken several months of hard
work before her muscles had returned to their former strength. She was
happy and healthy. Most importantly she was free with little to remind
her of ever being imprisoned as a doll save her bare scalp and her missing
finger and toenails.
Stepping out of the shower
she grabbed a towel and began drying off. It had been a long day for
her. The interviews with the media combined with those with scriptwriters
had taken their toll on her mentally and physically. She was drained
and looked forward to her life slowing down.
She reached over to the mirror
and wiped a small circle on the fogged glass and stared at the face
in front of her. For the last few months she had avoided looking at
herself, though she was not certain why. It came to her then, as she
tried to smile.
Staring into the mirror,
she saw her face. Her eyebrows were perfectly formed and her lips curled
up slightly in a slight smile. Attempting to purse her lips she found
that she could only manage a slight "O". For several minutes she fought,
trying to form expressions other than her slight smile. She tried to
raise her eyebrows and then to wrinkle her forehead and nose.
For a long moment she stood,
staring at herself, wishing she could wipe the smile from her face.
She spoke to herself, watching how her mouth barely moved with her words.
It was a wonder, she thought, that she could even speak coherently.
For several more minutes
she stared into the mirror, looking at herself. Suddenly it dawned on
her that, for all intents and purposes, she was still the doll that
she had been made into; Her face was exactly the same, her hair was
a wig; her nails were surgical implants. Even without her doll's casing,
she was a doll - a living, breathing doll.
As the memory of how she
had once wished to be more like her favorite doll, Tina, tears began
rolling down her cheek, cascading over the slight smile that would forever
grace her beautiful face.