Well first, I don't write down all the stories I think up. As stated previously,
my stories usually start from an idea I have when I wake up with a hard-on
in the morning. Usually; not always. Sometimes I can be driving down the
road in the afternoon, and an idea for a story will hit me out of the blue.
MOST of these ideas remain just that . . . ideas. Usually I'm too busy to
write them down, so they get lost, unless I remember them later for some
other reason. A few ideas are so sexy or persistent, or just plain GOOD,
that I dream them up for several days, and add-to or modify them.
Still, most of them get lost.
I've lost more ideas for more and sometimes far better stories than I ever
wrote. I usually come up with about one new story-idea a day, and write down
only one or two of those. (Some days have two or three ideas, while others
have none, or are repeats.) Occasionally an ides is SO compelling, that
am almost FORCED to write it down, to get it out of my head. Usually though,
it's "the luck of the draw" on whether I remember a story the next time I
sit down to write or not. About one story-idea a week ever makes it to my
fingers to be written down even AS a story-idea; and only about half of
THOSE ideas ever make it to completion. The ones that do, are usually the
short ones . . . the only ones I have TIME to complete. Thus I average about
one story every two weeks, or thereabouts.
So why is it so long (months) between posts?
Well first, (as mentioned before) I don't publish unfinished stories. It bugs
ME to read: "(To be continued:)" on a story I like, and then never see any
more of it; especially if it's just getting to the "interesting" part.
I HATE cliffhangers! So I try not to do that myself.
That means the story is not only complete, but "finished" as well. No trailing
strings left undone. Good grammar (where appropriate) spell-checked, and
the story checked out for logical errors (Little "Suzy" can't be 7 years old
in this part of the story, then two years older than her 4-year-old brother
two pages later.)
It also has to READ well, and have any and all additions made BEFORE I post
it, not afterwards. (If a scene is sexy, and I can make it even sexier,
then do it BEFORE posting it. No changes allowed later.)
Then, the story is checked for readability. Awkward sentences are changed.
Repetitive uses of pronouns or nouns are substituted (using a thesaurus, if
possible.)
Example:
"He stuck his thick prick so far up in her tight cunt that it almost
came out of her mouth. Her tight little cunt squeezed his thick prick
so hard he almost felt like she was going to cut it off"
becomes:
"Jack stuck his engorged prick so far up in his sister's tight little cunny
that it almost came out of the little girl's mouth. Diane's incredibly
tiny slit squeezed on her brother's swollen member so hard the boy almost
felt as if the kid was going to cut the damned thing off."
With a little polishing, even that can be improved.
Checks are made for consistency. (Does the girl call her father "Dad" in
this part of the story, "Father" in that, and "Daddy" in a third part?)
Descriptions are added to stories intended to be longer than one or two
pages:
"Suzy was 12 years old"
Becomes:
"At twelve, Suzy was the kind of little brunette that made grownups' hearts
ache; just to look at her. Long brown hair cascaded almost to her waist, in
thick streamers that you just ached to run your fingers through. While the
little girl hadn't yet developed the full-sized breasts and sensuous hips of
her two big sister, the bumps on her developing bosom, and the slight swell
to her body just above her thighs showed signs that the child would not be
really a child much longer. A flashing smile, and big brown eyes you could
almost drown in, ensured that the little girl could almost certainly get
whatever she wanted from any male member of the human race, just by looking
as if her smile might vanish if she didn't get it. Her beauty and personality
had almost as much effect on the other half of the human race, as well."
That way, you can almost visualize the child standing in front of you; and
you get some idea of the personality she brings to the story.
Once the story is COMPLETE, the editing has only half begun. Even after
every part of the story is in place, it must be read, and re-read until all
the little glitches are removed. and those annoying little things like
"your skate" misspelled as "You're skate" (or more commonly "its true" and
"it's possessions" being wrongly used, as shown).
This usually takes a MINIMUM of three to four readings and re-writes.
Of course, these readings usually can take place in parallel with writing
new stuff, as taking along a story-chunk to read does NOT require a whole
computer (Not if you've got a good printer, that is.)
So, a good story takes about four weeks to write, with about two weeks
(on the average) between producing each story.
This SHOULD lead to me posting a new story about every two weeks, right?
Wrong.
I mentioned all the trouble going through the stories.
Sometimes I am able to have people read them for me, and point out some of
the mistakes I make (Kibitzing the story) thus saving me from having to do
so many re-reads myself. For each kibitzer who comments on a story (and does
a decent job of pointing out errors, not just saying "GREAT story!") I usually
can re-read the story one less time myself, before it's in decent shape.
Only right now, all of my good kibitzers have dropped out.
(Not that I BLAME them; it takes TIME to do a good job of kibitzing.)
So I have to do all the reading, verifying, and editing myself; and allow
time between each re-read to forget the story for a week or so, so I can
catch more errors next time. All this takes time.
The problem is: It takes time away from WRITING new stories, and the ideas
are vanishing each time I don't write them down. So, I write several stories
in a row, while they're fresh in my mind, and comb back and edit each one
later, when they are NOT so fresh.
There's one other reason for the drought/flood syndrome:
It's EASIER to post a whole batch of stories, and update my web-page
all in one big whack, than to do it on a regular basis. In other words,
I'm lazy, and this is only done in my spare time for pleasure. I don't get
one thin dime from anybody for this; in fact it COSTS me over $120 a year
to maintain my web-site with enough space to contain the stories for those
people who want to access them.
So, I do it at MY rate, at what's convenient for me. That means, in batches.
Sorry folks, but that's the way it is.
This note is NOT intended to be a complaint, or bragging.
It's just intended to explain to people WHY there is such a big gap between
stories. Many people have told me that they like my stories because they're
"quality" (whatever that is) unlike so much junk that gets put out in the
newsgroups. Well, sad to say, THAT is the reason for the big gap.
It takes TIME to produce quality; and I don't want to produce anything else.
(To those people who thing that ALL of my stories are garbage, not fit to be
buried in a cess-pit, I say, "Be thankful I take this time, and don't write
more!")
As to why I bother posting at all, if it's that much trouble, it's:
A. Because I LIKE to.
B. Because I like to get mail commenting on my stories.
(Yes, even flames and cops are welcome.)
C. Because I enjoyed the stories, so I want others to.
D. To make a point.
Every story I write, is written to make SOME point.
(Yeah, just like those stories with "morals" hidden in them, like
your parents tried to get you to read as a kid, every one of my
stories is trying to jog people's thinking.) The most important
thing most of my stories have to say is: "Love is what makes people happy."
Not sex, not money, not who you are or where you live, or how.
That I use incest/pedophile/pregnant stories to push this message
is only because that is the type of fantasy that *I* have: Being a
young girl who can get all the loving she wants; whether sex or not.
Having babies, is also one of the things I dream about.
Too rarely in this world are people allowed to have all the loving they need.
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Why pregnancy, pedo, and incest?
An Erotic Story?
Many people have asked me, "Why incest?" or "Why are the
girls all so young in your stories?" or most often, "What's the
deal with getting them pregnant?" This essay, is to explain why.
I've told this all before; but never wrote down the answers in
one place. I decided it would be easier to answer if I did it in
one place, in a document I have control over.
To start off, I'm probably the second or third horniest
person who ever lived. I like a LOT of sex. When I was a child,
I didn't get any ... and I missed NOT having sex tremendously.
This lack-of-sex, when I was under the (probably mistaken)
apprehension that everybody else (particularly girls) was getting
all they wanted (or at least SOME, compared to my none) had a
large effect on my sexuality and my daydreams (on which my
stories are based).
Probably the BIGGEST misaprehension I had as a boy, was that
GIRLS could get all the sex they wanted ... just by saying,
"Yes," to any boy that asked ... and boy (in my mind) would
always be asking. Thoughts of pregnancy or disease never entered
my head as risks back then.
Wint this in mind, since then my sexual dreams all seem to
be based on the idea of beeing young again, and being able to get
ALL the sex I so missed NOT having, when I was a boy. All the
rest is based on this ... AND the fact that force or coercion of
any kind does NOT turn me on (usually). The mere thought that
somebody I love is hurting (for ANY reason, be it a cramp or
hangnail) is enough to make me lose any erection or thought of
enjoying sex I might have. (I would make a particularly LOUSY
rapist!) This preoccupation with sex needing to be basically
(not necessarily completely) consensual, has a LARGE effect on my
stories.
So ... with the above, you have the need for a YOUNG person
getting LOTS of sex, and enjoying it completely, with no worries
to fill my fantasy of being able to live over my life, and get
all the sex I wanted back then.
Thus:
In the first place, the main character is usually a girl (or
girls). Even in those where the main character SEEMS to be a man
(grandfather/father/big-brother), if you examine the story, the
main action is with the girl or girls. Often (as some people
have pointed out) the male character is almost a cardboard-cutout
with a prick; while the real character developement is all with
the girls. The reason for this, is again my (probably mistaken,
but having some accuracy) idea that GIRLS can get all the sex
they want ... unlike boys. For sure, if a girl is willing, it's
a LOT easier for her to seduce somebody, than it is for a boy of
the same age.
In the second place, I wanted LOTS of sex ... starting from
the time it first "felt good" to touch myself between the
legs ... not much after babyhood, if that. The fantasy stretches
do dream of being allowed to have as much sex as possible, from
the earliest possible age.
Third, (as mentioned before) I want it to be consensual ...
NOT rape, and preferably with any coercion being only
psychological ... and THAT at a minimum, if possible. I can't
keep a hard-on, if it's rape or anything like rape. So ... I put
that aspect of me into the people in my stories.
The foruth item (incest) is mainly because of the above.
While I HAVE written a few stories where the main characters
weren't related, they are few. Why? Because if a girl is going
to find a sexual partner at a young age, WHO is she going to find
handy? And WHO would she trust not to hurt her, or "use" her, or
betray her trust? Also, WHO is available for sex ALL the time?
Who else, but a member of the immediate family. While SOME
stories manage to get around this, the difficulties of an
underaged girl getting to someone OTHER than a family-member on a
regular basis for sex, without getting caught or worse, is VERY
hard to get around. Thus incest with Daddy (who usually gets
trapped into it) with Big Brother (who's usually as horny as the
girl; and doesn't NEED to be trapped into it) or Grandpa (who is
about the only male person OUTSIDE the normal houshold who would
be seeing a young girl on a VERY regular basis (needed for that
LOTS of sex thingy). Sometimes (but rarely) an uncle might
substitute for Grandpa.
Besides, incestuous sex is kinky; and thus a turn-on in it's
own right! (So many "naughty" things are sexually arousing.)
Next (to keep with the idea of it being FUN, and not scary)
we have to get Mom into the act. Mothers WILL find out ...
especially if their precocious nubile young daughters are having
almost continuous sex with male members of the household.
SOOO ... Instead of Mom getting MAD at her daughters for having
unprotected sex, I often (usually) have her as the instigator!
All sorts of reasons are dreamed up (but not always covered in
the story) for the woman to want her kids to have complete sexual
freedom and/or all the sex most people only dream about.
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The way *I* feel has nothing to do with abuse ... I just
missed being loved, cuddled, and yes having sex when I was young
(which I guess might be abuse of a kind; but it was never
deliberate).
That being deprived of having friends, and especially
girlfriends at the time when I saw almost every other boy and
girl pairing off, was REALLY hard ... and ever since I've had
dreams of being that age, and being able to get not only what I
missed that (it seemed to me) everybody else got, but far
more ... in fact the wet-dream quality of being able to get all
the sex I wanted.
Which partly explains why most of my stories involve young
girls ... I labor under the probably mistaken apprehension that
little girls can get all the sex they want, just by indicating to
any or all available men that she WANTS to have sex. And so, I
dream about being such a lucky little girl.
Force, or rape, or hurting in any manner turn me completely
OFF. What I want is the sex and love I missed, NOT me or the
other person hurting or being humiliated or even pressured into
something I (or she) wasn't ready for. The dream is to have (or
BE) a little girl who WANTS sex; and doesn't have any
compunctions about letting those she loves know it.
The below is just the tail-end of a conversation that took
place over the net with a another author (female) when discussing
one of my stories, and one of hers. I thought it might be
appropriate to the newsgroups. It also somewhat explains my
story-writing style, and somewhat answers those who accuse me of
being a danger to young girls. As I have explained before, my
fantasy is not to fuck some young girl. It's to BE said young
girl, getting fucked. Yes: and even knocked up.
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>Sure... send it my way. Like I said... I remember pregnancy...
>I wished HE would have found me attractive then... of course,
>I looked and felt like a beached whale...
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