Excerpts from the Journal of Flynn Carter
by Mesmer's Bauble
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February 26th
So mom's going on another date tonight, joy of joys. It seems since dad left she's been drawn to the worst people. Of course she didn't start dating right away; dad left back when I was ten. For three years it has been just me, mom, and Lina. Right around Lina's ninth birthday mom decided that she needed to start dating again. But, like I said, she only seems to be drawn to jerks and assholes. I dunno, maybe its low self-esteem or something from dad, he was more or less an asshole himself so I guess it’s not that surprising.
Anyway she just headed out on another date, from what I saw the guy seemed even more sleazy than usual. I can usually at least tell what she sees in them, but this guy was tall and lanky with stringy dark hair and a smile that didn't reach his eyes. Still, mom swears it was love at first sight when they met at the bookstore. I dunno, maybe I'm being to judgmental. Lina seems to agree with me and we both had a good laugh trying to come up with a nickname for him. I'm still partial to Lanky Louie but Lina insisted that he was Louis the Loser and, as usual, I let her win.
Hopefully Mom won't come home crying like the last guy. I've got to put Lina to bed so I'll write a little more tomorrow.
- Flynn
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February 27th
Ugh, I almost wish mom had come home crying- this is much worse. She's in Luuuv. She was out way later than usual. I normally stay up, just in case I have to comfort her (yes I know it’s unfair for a 14-year-old to have to comfort his 31-year-old mother but if you want more of that self-pity look back about six months, I'm trying not to be redundant). So, like I was saying, I usually stay up late but I had passed out on the couch by the time she came home.
She shook me awake and started gushing about her date. How wonderful he was, so gentlemanly and kind. I am happy for her, I really am, but she was... is, acting like a giddy schoolgirl not like our mother. I've seen her smitten before but it was nothing like this. This was much more out of character... and irritating. I suppose we'll be seeing more of Lanky Louie, god I hope he doesn’t play the 'I want to be your friend' game.
At least Lina was in a good mood all day, she's always happy when mom’s happy. And I guess... so am I. School in the morning so I'm going to wrap this up.
- Flynn
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March 12th
Haven’t written in two weeks, been kinda busy between heavy school work and taking care of Lina. Mom's in full-on date mode, she's been out almost every night (with Lanky Louie of course). Normally I wouldn't mind but she's been really irresponsible, staying out till 3am, coming home all out of it, and dragging herself into work the next day only to do the same that evening. No time for me and Lina. We've decided that Louis the Loser is probably the worst of her boyfriends to date. Worse than Tim the Thief and Handsy Hal, who both strung her along, took what they wanted, and left her heartbroken.
Maybe Louie is the same, only the effect he has on her... it’s much worse. She's never neglected us like this before. She seems totally obsessed with him. Acting like a love struck teenager. I shudder to think what tomorrow will bring. I totally called it by the way, mom sat us down today at dinner at told us that Louis wants to know us better so they're planning an evening in with a family movie night, “isn't that exciting!” We both grumbled accent.
I'm actually surprised, usually it takes the guys a while to realize that the key to getting serious with mom is us two... then again with the way mom's been acting I wouldn't be surprised if she'd already... ugh I don't want to think about my mother that way. It’s bad enough when the kids at school call her a MILF but that’s just kids talking bullshit. To think about her and Lanky Louie.... just the thought makes my skin crawl.
Wish me luck tomorrow.
- Flynn
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March 13th
Well that was hellish, I'll write more tomorrow my head is killing me. Short version. Lanky Louie came by, smiles all around though I still don't think they touch his eyes, polite conversation, mom throwing herself all over him giggling like a brain-dead bimbo. Dinner accompanied with much uncomfortableness as mom failed to play footsy in secret. I'm seriously beginning to worry about her... is she drinking, doing drugs, I don't know but this woman is not acting like my mother. Then movie time, the Lanky one brought a DVD of the newest Pixar flick. I actually really like the Pixar movies, though I'd never admit it to the guys at school, but not five minutes into the film I started to get a splitting headache. I tried to stick it out but the longer I looked at the screen the worse it got. Finally I had to excuse myself and head to bed, Louie seemed surprised at that but neither my mom or Lina seemed to even notice me leaving.
OK, that’s all I've got in me, I've got to close my eyes. I'll give you an update tomorrow once I get the blow by blow from Lina.
- Flynn
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March 14th
I can't even imagine what I missed last night but whatever it was it seems to have Lina singing a totally different tune about Louis (she even yelled at me when I used the nicknames). I tried to find out what happened after the movie but all mom or Lina will say was they had a lovely evening and turned in early. Mom also mentioned how disappointed Louis was that I didn’t stay for the movie and that I 'should try harder' on Friday. Goodie, another night with my mom's new boyfriend… I can’t wait.
On the plus side mom seems more like herself, she apologized for being gone all last week and told me she has no plans with Louis until Friday, so that’s something. I suppose I should try to be a little less judgmental, I'm not actually against mom dating- I want her to be happy but her track record... Still I'm going to give Louis another chance, Lina is a much harsher judge of character then I am so if she saw something in him I guess he is worth a second look.
- Flynn
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March 17th
OK so quick update for the week so far, school – good, home life - less good. Mom's been true to her word about not going out with Louis this week and for most of the day it’s like we have our mother back. Then the evening comes and things change. After our bedtimes I can hear her... well I don't know a lot about sex but I'm pretty sure I know what I'm hearing.
Before you even think it, I'm not some kinda pervert. But I share a wall with mom's room and the walls aren’t exactly sound proof. It started Monday night, I was laying in bed listening to music but when I took the headphones off I could hear a soft buzzing. Then moans, panting breaths and whispered words, “Mmm.. Louis... fuck me... use me... Alexis is your little slut... my ass? Of course... groan... it feels so good baby...” You get the idea, I don't know if they are talking on the phone or mom's just fantasizing but there’s some seriously kinky shit going through my mother’s head. And I've gotten three more performances, in fact the Thursday night 'show' just ended with a loud satisfied moaning of his name before I started writing this.
The worst part is... and I'm only writing this down because I'm trying to keep this thing honest... it’s so god damn hot. I know it makes me an awful person but my innocent mother describing lurid sex acts, the sound of her vibrator and moans of pleasure. I can almost see it. And I've jacked off to it. Ok TMI aside this is really messed up. What if Lina can hear her too, I know I should say something to either of them but it’s just too embarrassing to even bring it up. To make matters worse I have to face him tomorrow and 'play nice' as my mother said.
- Flynn
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March 18th
I think I might be coming down with migraines. That’s the only thing I can think of to explain these splitting headaches. I'm feeling a little better now that I've closed my eyes for a bit so let me give you a play by play of the evening. Louis arrived early and both mom and Lina were all over him. Mom was dressed in a tight red dress cut so low I didn't have to guess if she was wearing underpants, she wasn't. Lina laughed at all of his jokes and kept touching him in a familiar way that made me uncomfortable. I promised I'd give him a chance but he basically ignored me at the dinner table chatting with my mom and sister. Needless to say he didn't win any points with me.
The movie was far worse, another animated flick he brought with him. It was just like last week, minutes after the film started my head exploded in pain. I persevered though, mostly by closing my eyes. Things got weird again after the credits rolled. I was finally able to open my eyes for more the a few minutes without my head cracking open. Lina and my mom were still staring at the screen, with an odd glazed expression. Louis spoke up then and in a commanding voice said, “Lina, Flynn to bed.” I head was still pounding so I didn't argue but it was especially weird when my sister did the same, she never goes to bed without of fuss. So that brings me to the present, it all seems very weird now but I can still barely think maybe it'll make more sense in the morning.
- Flynn
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March 19th
Things have gone from a little weird to something very real and I'm kinda freaking out here. OK, Deep Breath... I just woke up an hour or so ago to sounds in the TV room. I crept out to have a look, I suppose if I am being honest a part of me assumed Louis and mom were having sex and I wanted to see it, don't judge me. Anyway I WISH that had been what I saw.
So like I said I crept into the hall and peered into the TV room and was instantly stunned by what I saw. First mom had stripped out of her red dress and was now in some porno version of a catholic schoolgirl outfit. Her blond hair was up in pigtails and the sheer white shirt was open, exposing her impressive D breasts, shining with sweat in the blue light coming from the TV. Her checkered skirt was miniscule and hiked up so her shaven pussy was on display. Mom's fingers were pumping in and out of her cunt. She was moaning and panting in pleasure, her eyes locked on Louis and my nine-year-old sister, Lina.
Lina was sitting naked on the couch moaning in her tiny girlish voice while Louis ran his hands all over her smooth naked body. One hand caressed her undeveloped chest, drawing mewls of pleasure from her every time he flicked her nipple. His other hand was down at her crotch sliding a finger in and out of her hairless pussy while her own hands rubbed and flicked her clit. The image of it was burnt into my brain in a moment of total shock.
It was a few moments before I noticed that Louis was talking to them, his voice filled with the same tone of command I had heard when he ordered me and Lina to bed. “It feels so good doesn’t it Lina....you love the feeling of my touch... you want more, so much more... it ignites lusts you never even imagined... burning desires... only your master can quench. Tell me you want me Lina... tell me!” My sister's voice was very flat as she responded, “Yes Master... I want you...”
A wicked smile broke over Louis' face, “Isn't that hot Alexis... doesn’t it turn you on... hearing your daughter cry out for my touch is enough to make you cum... cum for me like a good slave mother should... cum at the thought of your daughter sucking my cock, fucking me, taking me up her ass... Just like her mother!” My mom screamed and fell to the floor panting and moaning, drool dripping from her mouth as a pool of her juices covered the floor I could hear her moaning softly, “use her... use Lina.. make her your toy... please...” Loius laughed then. “Such a good mother, wanting only the best for her daughter, but don't worry I'm not done with you just yet. She's not quite ready so why don't you be a good mother and take her place, I want to fuck her ass but I'll make do with yours. Pay close attention Lina and don't stop rubbing your little clitty.” Mom sounded so eagerly grateful as she present her ass for him, “Yes Master... Thank you Master... Please fuck my ass!”
I couldn't stand to hear any more so I shuffled back to my room to write this. I know what you’re thinking- I should have done something... But you have to understand I'm still in shock my hands are shaking... I have no idea what I should be doing I can still hear them now there not being quiet and to my shame I have an erection even now. I... I've got to get out of here.
- Flynn
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March 20th
I don't know what to do; I tried talking to mom this morning. I had spent the last hours before dawn trying to think what I should do and I still didn't know what to say but I tried simple, said I had 'seen' her and Louis last night. The look she gave me scared the crap out of me, total confusion. She said that she didn't know what I was talking about, Louis went home early, she would never do that in the house with me and Lina, I must have been dreaming. I wish I had been but the diary entry is still there. I'm not sure why I included so much detail but I wasn't thinking to clearly last night.
I approached Lina after school, I did the whole, I'm your brother you can trust me, has anyone ever... She was even more confused than mom, telling me in an innocent tone that no one had ever tried to touch her in her private areas and she knew that was wrong. I considered telling the police or something but I have a few friends whose parents have had issues with Child Protective Services. I don't want to do that to my family... but I don't want Louis to have his way with them either... I don't know what to do, I'm afraid to tell anyone... they'll either not believe me or, possibly worse, actually believe me.
Oh and as an added bonus to my confusion I can't stop thinking about mom. I've never thought of her as a sexual creature before but all those nights hearing her moan and then last night... I can't get her out of my head. I can't stop the constant masturbation. God... I want her...
Speaking of mom, she's announced a family movie night after dinner. Apparently Louis left a whole batch of DVDs for us. Now I'm not stupid and when the first film fills my head with pain I make the connection. I can see my mother and sister's eyes go blank. I think it’s supposed to do the same to me but nope, I just get splitting headaches. I tried to shut it off but mom and Lina snapped out of it and yell at me. I try to destroy the disk but mom actually pushes me away and orders me to my room. I didn't want to go but as soon as the movie started, the headache started again I just slinked off to my bedroom. I decided to try to take the disks after they go to bed. I'm just going to lay down for a bit.
- Flynn
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March 21st
My God... what did I do... Last night as you might imagine did not go as planned. For one mom apparently had foresight enough to hide the DVDs. I woke a little after midnight and spent 20 minutes searching for them until I was... distracted. Moans of pleasure filled the house, the deep throaty groans I had learned to associate with my mother and a high pitched whine of need that could only be my sister joining in on the nightly ritual. The images from Sunday popped into the forefront of my mind and soon I found myself with a raging hard-on and abandoning the search.
As I moved towards the bedrooms I first passed Lina's room.“Oh Master... please let me pleasure you... my body is yours... I'm your good little slut... watch me train my holes for you... oh I wish you were here...” Her voice was empty of emotion, droning the words like she was asleep. I planned to walk by when a tinny voice that I clearly recognized as Louis drew my attention, “That’s my good little slut, you want to please me, do as I wish, the only thing that matters is bringing me pleasure, it makes you so happy to train your fuckholes for my use, an overwhelming pleasure that washes over you in wave after wave of bliss.”
The door wasn't fully close so I peeked into her room. She was on her bed, her legs spread wide and lifting her pelvis off the mattress so she could reach...she was working a pair of sharpies in and out of her ass and pussy. The whole image was lit by my mother’s laptop. I could just make out Louis' face open in a Skype window. I didn't want either of them to realize I was there so I stepped away from the door, a mix of anger and deep arousal filling me and making my erection almost painful.
I continued down the hall towards mom's room and I almost forgot all about Lina and Louis. My mother's door was wide open and she was in the middle of the floor on her knees with her hands buried between her legs. I panicked for a second as her eye glanced at me but it only took me a moment to recognize the glazed expression on them, whatever she was seeing it wasn't me. She was totally naked, her hair up in pigtails again and I could hear the buzzing from her toys between her legs. I know I should have walked away then and there but the temptation was too great. I moved silently into the room, not knowing if anything could break her fantasy. I freed my raging erection and moved slowly around her taking in all the details I could only fantasize about before.
The round curve of her smooth breasts and pert ass. The way her asshole stretched around the vibrating butt-plug she was thrusting in and out of herself, moaning in pleasure. The dark pink of her cunt was dripping with juices that ran down her thigh and pooled on the floor. All the while she muttered to herself, words likely taught to her by Louis but unlike my sister, mom spoke with a deep passion and desire. “Fuck her, fuck my baby girl… turn her into a slut just like her mother... use her like you used me.... It turns me on ... to see her servicing your cock... turn her into your perfect little cock slave...”
I reached under her carefully and wet my hand in her juices then began pumping my own cock. Listening to her moan and repeat those words as she fucked her own ass I began to masturbate. I was cumming in moments, longer and harder than any orgasm I've ever had. A thick rope of cum hit my mother on the back and slid down her ass until she was pushing her own son's cum into her asshole along with the butt plug. After the flush of pleasure lessened the shame came crashing down on me- I ran out of the room not even waiting to see if she would notice the touch of my cum. Back in my room I curled up in bed, turned on my headphones and tried to sleep. I dreamed of her.
- Flynn
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March 28th
It’s been about a week since the last time I wrote. I think I'm losing my mind. Every day trying to pretend everything is normal, every night avoiding those damned DVDs and then dealing with their aftermath. I wish I could say I've been strong, but every night has found me back in my mother's bedroom. I discovered early on that I can't touch her. She doesn’t see or hear me but my touch seems to start to wake her from her... her what, trance, worship... I don't know. Still that hasn't stopped me from watching, and masturbating, every night.
Mom seems to have several different routines. In one she's begging Louis not to abandon her for Lina describing and acting out the most perverse things she can imagine promising to do them all if only he'll use her one more time. In another she's acting like a child herself talking in a high pitched falsetto about his big peepee and how she likes to touch her nasty cunny. There are also a few devoted just to praising his name and sexual prowess , and several like the one from the first night, begging him to use Lina for his pleasure. I don't know why she’s putting on a show every night but then I really don't know what I'm doing masturbating to it either.
Oh let’s not forget the slow corruption of my little sister. Every night she opens up a video chat with him and follows his commands, playing with herself and repeating his words over and over again as he teaches her how to cum. I can already hear the change in her voice. It’s not flat and empty anymore, it’s now filled with real emotion and she's even started to ad-lib. I know I should be doing something but between my own obsession with my mother and a total lack of any real plan I'm stuck as a mute witness.
So, like I said, I think I'm going insane. My mind is filled with self-loathing and incestuous fantasies. Louis is to blame... I'm going to have to do something... he started it, only he can stop all this... I know it. I asked mom when the next time he would be coming over. Apparently I have another week; he's been on a business trip so she says. So I need a plan... I have a week to figure something out.... I have a few ideas... they all sound so crazy but, after all, I am going insane.
- Flynn
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April 1st
April Fools! I'm not sure that makes me a fool or not. Though after what I did today I probably am a fool. I'm definitely a criminal, but I don't have any other ideas and it’s too late to go back anyway. It took all of my savings and then some that I had to steal from mom's rainy day jar. I also had to risk a lot to get it; I could have ended up shot or in prison... I still might. But I have it now, a hunting rifle and ammo. My hands are shaking just thinking about what I might end up doing but... well let’s just say Louis is in for a surprise.
- Flynn
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April 2nd
What would you do...?
So a few minutes before Louis arrived I tricked mom and Lina into going down into the basement and locked them in. I can't have them interfering. The doorbell rang and a tried not to laugh in manic anxiety when I said, “It’s open.” The door swung open and there was Louis carrying a large bag. And there was I not 5 feet away with a rifle pointed at his chest. “Change them back or I swear to god I'll kill you!” That definitely took him by surprise but after the shock was over an overconfident smirk crossed his face. “Someone's been skipping family movie night,” He said, all smooth and casual he closed the door behind him and moved to pass me by as he spoke. “Never mind that....Sleep Flynn.” I hit him in the chest with the barrel of the rifle pushing him back against the closed door.
The look on his face when his trigger or whatever failed to have an effect was priceless. It slipped quickly from shock to understanding to fear as he took in the situation and realized he was NOT the one in control. The color drained from his face as he stammered, “You... Your mother.... doesn’t' know you’re colorblind.... She couldn't have lied....” He was muttering to himself but the sound of the click of the hammer shut him up real fast. “No, she doesn't, Lucky me apparently... Now I as was saying... Change them back or I'm going to kill you.” Louis brought his hands up to shield his face...”I can't... I mean it doesn’t work like that... I can't just say a word and shut it off.”
I sagged at those words; I hadn't considered that before that the things he had done to them were somehow permanent. “I guess its option two then.” I raised the gun but he continued to babble quickly. “I can't turn it off but it will fade with time if I leave, if they never see me again then the programming will slowly erode, they'll never be quite the same I mean their libido and submissiveness....” He must have noticed the glare in my eye at that. “But they will mostly be back to normal, no more movie night and nightly reinforcement, they'll miss me but that'll fade too.”
I'm not sure what gave it away but I must have done something, made a face, changed my posture, or something when he said no more nightly reinforcement. Because a wicked smile crossed his face and he started talking to me like a friend that he shared a secret with. “Then again there are other options... Since you haven’t been performing your own reinforcements you must have had a chance to watch. Enjoy what you saw?” It was my turn to splutter and cough but the way my face turned bright red made it worthless. “So which do you want your sister.... no your mother.... that’s right isn't it. What if I told you I could give you more than just a nightly show... what If I told you all those nasty things she's been saying about me she could be saying about... doing with you...”
A rush of images filled my mind, what I had seen, heard, and all the nasty fantasies they created. I didn't say anything but he took my silence as permission to continue. “You see, I'm only really interested in your sister. Alexis was just a means to an end. A way to get into the family. I keep the girls for myself- no I don't take them away- she'll live with you except for a few nights a month when she'll be at my beck and call. I have quite a large stable of beautiful young things. I usual pimp out the parents and any other siblings to make some extra cash but you and I… we can come to an arrangement.”
“You put down the gun, allow me to have you sister and in exchange I'll transfer your mother's programming to you. You'll be her master, her cock to worship and pleasure, fulfill your every whim and sick desire. What's more when I'm done with your sister in 5 or 6 years I'll give her to you as well. So that’s my offer.” He touched the barrel of the gun as if no longer fearing.
“As I see it you have three options, You can shoot me, have your revenge and gain not only years in prison but also the eternal hatred of you mother and sister. You can tell me to fuck off, leave them both alone. I'll do it too- I have enough projects in the works that one loss isn't a big deal. You'll have your family back and eventually to normal... Or... OR you can take my deal. So what is it going to be, Flynn?” I must have stood there for several minutes thoughts whirring through my brain I knew I stood at a crossroad. But I knew I had to decide now or miss the chance forever....
So... like I asked... What would you do...?
- Flynn