Nicole is a bisexual girl of European descent who lived in a small town in Australia in 1996, when this story takes place. She was 12 years old when she came out to everyone.
"At the start of year 7, I knew there was something different about me and it didn't take long to find out what. I was bi-sexual.
I told my, at the time, best friend. She had mixed feelings about it. Being the fool that I am, I also told the girl that I liked, Megan, that I was sexually attracted to her. This is a very hard thing for a 12 year old to deal with. After a little while, I told most of my close friends. Most of them were ok with it. which is fantastic because most 12 year olds are really judgemental.
My story isn't all peaches and cream. One girl decided that everyone at school should know... not just my friends. So she went and told some big mouth, who in turn told everyone. The very next day I had all these boys coming up to me and calling me names like 'dyke' 'lesbo' and so on.
I lost a lot of friends that year.
Fate works in a very strange way... The next year Megan and I were put in the same class and neither of us knew anyone else, so we sat together in class even though she didn't like me. I don't know how or when it happened, but we became friends and now, five years later, we are best friends.
She and my other best friend, Flavia, are the best friends I could ever hope for. I have just finished doing year 12 at school and for a long time I have put up with a lot of crap off people who don't even know me but feel obliged to judge me and say hurtful things.
Last year I went through depression and with all the crap in my life I decided that it would be easier on everyone if I was dead. I tried to overdose... Needless to say it didn't work. My best friends were there for me afterwards and still are. I thank God everyday for them cause if they weren't my friends unconditionally, I wouldn't be here. I love them to death.
I have recently found love online. She lives in Chicago and she is the best thing to happen to me, ever. I love her more than life itself. I am sooooo happy with her and I am going to the U.S. to meet her soon. Wish me luck."