I came out at 13, in the 8th grade. I decided to come out because I couldn't hold it in any longer.
I knew I liked women way back in the 2nd grade (I had a crush on my teacher), but it wasn't until the second half of the 8th grade when I really understood what I was going through.
This is how the story goes: I moved to another city so that meant that I was going to go to a new school. All of my best friends were at my old school. Every three months we got a vacation. It was the day before the actual vacation and my friends threw me a party. And at this party were all of my really close friends, they were crying, telling me goodbye, hugging me all the sad goodbye stuff when SHE (the beautiful girl who kissed me) came and gave me a letter and told me to read it. I did. It said that SHE was going to miss me, that SHE always LOVED to be around me, talk to me, and that SHE could be whatever I wanted HER to be.
A few minutes rolled by when I'm sitting down thinking about the letter when SHE came up to me and kissed me. I didn't know what to do so I kissed HER back. Then SHE walked away leaving me in a daze. I sat there trying to process in my mind what happend. The weird part about it was that nobody in the classroom full of students saw us kiss, even though we were in the middle of the classroom.
As the day went on we kept exchanging hugs, kisses, and looks like we should be dating. I was standing around with some friends when SHE came up behind me hugged me and kissed me, but this time someone saw. Two girls that can get a rumor started faster than they can a start a match asked me if I saw what SHE did to me. I said yes, so what. They said are you???? I said no in disgust.
Vacation time rolled around and it just so happened that I didn't have to change schools. The whole vacation I wondered what those kisses meant to me, if I was a lesbian or not. Maybe I just needed to do something new and that was it. I came to the conclusion that I am a lesbian. The entire vacation I dreamed of what it would be like to have HER as my girlfriend, so when we went back to school, SHE was soooo happy to see me that SHE kissed me again. I let a few classes go by before I asked HER if she would do the honor of being my first girlfriend. SHE said yes.
I wrote my mom a letter telling her what I had done, that I kissed a girl and that I have a girlfriend. I wrote a letter because I think if I didn't, I wouldn't have told her and she would've probably found out in a bad way. But she was totally cool with me being lesbian, I guess, because I have aunts that are lesbian.
My family didn't have a problem, or the people in my class. It was the girl who was supposed to be my best friend from the 3rd grade. When I told her she didn't believe me until my girlfriend came over and hugged me. From that moment on it was if we never met.